The Piano Cemetery
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Jose Luis Peixoto
José Luís Peixoto (born 4 September 1974, in Galveias, Portalegre, Portugal), is a Portuguese novelist and poet. In 2007, "The Piano Cemetery" was distinguished with Spanish Calamo Literary Award for the best novel published in Spanish translation on the previous year.
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- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5This is one of the greatest books by Peixoto. A non-linear family saga with in-depth characterization.
- Rating: 1 out of 5 stars1/5Have so many grammatical errors, and sentences are not correct.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5This is the story of three generations of carpenters/piano-makers and their lives in the working-class district of Benfica in Lisbon. The story is loosely based on Francisco Lázaro, the Portuguese marathon runner who died at the 1912 Olympics in Stockholm, and is narrated from his point of view, that of his father, and that of his son. The style is experimental and the narrative very disconnected at times, but with some patience you will be rewarded with an inventively told story and characters that seem real. Especially Lázaro's portion, told while he's running the marathon, can get challenging and I lost the thread a few times, which lowered my enjoyment quite a bit. The story is good, but Peixoto lets his style lead and I have a little bit of a problem forgiving him for that - form should never dictate function. I have another of his books on the bookshelf, so he gets one more chance from me (that one has a different translator as well, so it'll be interesting to see what that does to the prose).
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The Piano Cemetery - Jose Luis Peixoto
When I first began to be ill, I knew right away that I was going to die.
In the final months of my life, when I was still able to make it from our house to the workshop on foot, I would sit on a pile of planks and, unable to help with the simplest things – planing the frame of a door, hammering in a nail – I’d watch Francisco working, absorbed, in a mist of sawdust specks. I’d been like that when I was young, too. On those evenings – an impossibly long time after I was young – I made sure that he wasn’t watching me and, when I could bear it no longer, I would rest my head in my hands. I held the immense weight of my head – the world – and covered my eyes with my hands so as to suffer in the darkness, in a silence I feigned. Later, in the final weeks of my life, I went into hospital.
Marta never went to see me in hospital. She was pregnant with Hermes. It was in the final months, and the way Marta is meant that she needed a lot of attention during the time of her pregnancy. I suddenly remember when she was small and so happy on that scooter I bought for her second-hand; I remember when she used to go to school, I remember so much. While I was in the hospital waiting to die, Marta was in another hospital, not too far away, waiting for Hermes to be born.
‘How’s my father?’ Marta would ask, stretched out, hair unkempt, the hospital bed-sheets covering her belly.
‘Just the same,’ someone would reply, lying. Someone who was not my wife, nor Maria, nor Francisco, because none of them had the strength to lie to her.
The last evening I spent alive, my wife, Maria and Francisco went to see me. During the whole illness, Simão had never wanted to visit me. It was Sunday. I was separated from the other sick people, because I was going to die. I was trying to breathe and my breathing was a thick, hoarse buzzing that filled the room. At the foot of the bed my wife was crying, choked by her tears, by her contorted face and by the pain – the suffering. Without choosing her words, she spoke them in long, drawn-out, stretched-out howls, interrupted only by impatient drawings-in of breath. They were words that burned in her wasted body, her body dressed in a knitted jacket, a favourite skirt, polished shoes:
‘Oh my precious man my friend who’s my best friend and I’m left without you my precious man my companion my great great friend.’
Maria was crying and tried to hug her mother, to console her, because the two of them had the same feeling of a definitive and terrible emptiness in their breasts that I would have felt too if I had lost one of them. Francisco was looking out of the window. He was trying not to see. He was trying not to know what he knew. He was trying to be a man. Then he came closer to me, serious. In eternal time, in concrete time, he stroked my face, and rested his hand on my hand. On the bedside table, under the grey iron lid, he found a cup of water and a stick with a cotton tip. He wet the cotton in the water and placed it in my dry, open mouth. I bit on to it with all the strength I had, and Francisco was surprised to feel my strength for the last time. He removed the cotton. He looked at me, and cried too, because he couldn’t bear it any longer. Maria hugged him and treated him like she had when he was small:
‘Don’t be scared, my little boy, we won’t leave you alone, we’ll look after you.’
All my strength. I used all my strength and all I managed was a horrible, deathly sound. I wanted to say to Francisco and Maria that I wouldn’t leave them alone either; I wanted to say to them that I was the best friend they would ever have in their lives, that I would never leave them alone, would never stop being their father, and looking after them, and protecting them. Instead of this I used all my strength and only managed a horrible, deathly sound. The sound of a voice that could no longer speak, the sound of a voice that, using all its strength, managed only to make a hoarse sound with its throat, a horrible sound, a deathly sound. They looked at me, and they cried more, and they felt a terrible, black emptiness all through their hearts – deep down, deep down – which I would have felt too if I had lost one of them.
They went to Maria’s house, and each was left abandoned in a corner to their suffering. Far away, protected, Ana was two years old and was at the home of her paternal grandparents. Unprotected, my wife, Maria and Francisco waited for the telephone to ring. They waited for the call from the hospital with the news that I had died. This was what the nurse had said:
‘In theory we should be calling you today. We’ll phone as soon as your husband passes away.’
This was what the nurse had said. Without noticing, perhaps, that my wife was no longer anyone. Without noticing that the words she said to her disappeared without an echo inside her darkness.
The night, drifting. With the immoderate drift of worldly things, the night covered over all the places in the world that all existed only there: Maria’s house – the imitation porcelain dolls on the cupboard shelves, the covers on the sofas, the folded-over corners of the rugs, the imitation crystal lamps, the prints on the walls – and the house of birthday parties in which we tunelessly sang happy birthday, clapped our hands out of time with each other and laughed – and the house of Christmas parties, where I would sit on the sofa, and the tablecloth with the pictures of pine trees and bells would be laid out, and we would use the long-stemmed glasses. In this house, each person was left abandoned in a corner to their suffering.
At nine o’clock at night, the telephone rang. The telephone rang for a long moment, because no one wanted to answer it, because they were all afraid to answer it, because they all knew with great certainty that when they answered it the hope that lasted to the final second would definitively end, the almost three years of my illness would end which we always knew would lead me to my death, would lead me to that telephone ringing that no one wanted to answer. The telephone rang. The sound passed through the house and through the breast of my wife, and Maria’s, and Francisco’s. It was Maria’s husband who answered it. His words in a black suspension of time, as if in a shadow of time:
‘Yes, yes. All right. I’ll tell them.’ He approached my two children and my wife and told them. An invisible wall between his face and the words he spoke. An invisible wall between the world and the words he spoke. A wall that didn’t allow the immediate understanding of such simple words. Hermes had just been born.
Hermes had just been born.
The words were:
‘He’s been born, Marta’s boy.’
Hermes had just been born.
In the hospital Marta was resting. And nobody knew how to be happy, but happiness was so strong, and it grew inside them. It was as though they had a spring of water in their breasts and happiness was that water. There was a miracle that turned tears into tears. They had their hands resting on their breasts. They had their eyelids closing very slowly over their eyes to feel the gentle rain of this happiness that covered them, flooded them.
An hour passed. The telephone rang again.
I had just died.
The morning light doesn’t feel the clean windowpanes as it passes through them, coming to rest on the notes of the piano that emerge from the wireless and float in the kitchen air. The morning light, resting on the notes of the piano, pauses, speckled, in the reflections of the white wall tiles, on the corners of the formica-topped tables, on the drops of water that hang from the rims of the pans, washed and upturned over the draining board.
My wife goes past. She doesn’t notice the invisible, luminous agitation of the piano notes that her passing leaves behind. Lightly, she goes by with her sleeves rolled up to her elbows. Without noticing, she bears the morning’s lightness in her face. She goes into the corridor. Her skin shines under the shadows. Her muffled steps along the hall runner cannot be made out in the silence. She approaches the open living-room door and smiles, sees Íris’s little body, sitting on the rug, surrounded by toys and broken pieces of plastic toys – dolls’ legs.
My wife stays a moment like this. Íris is nearly three, and she doesn’t feel the gaze covering and protecting her. During this moment my wife is ageless. She has no sense of the size of Maria’s house, measured out by the creaking sounds of pieces of furniture in the distance: the wardrobe full of outmoded clothes in Maria and her husband’s room, at the far end of the corridor; the iron couch that my wife sets up every night before going to sleep and then disassembles when she wakes up, in the dining room halfway down the corridor; the refrigerator straining under the notes emerging from the wireless at the other end of the corridor.
Íris was born when there was nothing left of me but memories and photographs. Íris still doesn’t understand all the conversations, and pays no attention to photographs of people she doesn’t know. Her eyes are blue like a holiday-postcard sea; her hair is long and ends in ringlets that curl over her shoulders and her back. She is a lovely wild child. Some days she picks up speed; running on her little legs, she throws herself with abandon on to the sofa and laughs. Now she is peaceful, playing with her dolls. And like every morning, she woke up when her mother went to get her sister up for school. At the kitchen table, Ana, half-asleep, didn’t reply to the questions Íris insisted on asking. Maria walked to and fro looking for little things – handkerchiefs, keys – and putting them in her bag. My wife was hurrying Ana, who wasn’t finishing her food. In July there’s no school any more, but Maria still takes her because there is a teacher who for a small amount of money continues to look after the children, to teach them sums and give them homework. Like every morning, my wife picked Íris up in her arms and went with her to the window to watch Ana, in her striped smock, heading away, down the road, running to keep up with her mother, then falling behind, and running again, and falling behind, running and disappearing with her mother at the bend in the pavement.
Now Íris is peaceful, playing with her dolls:
‘You don’t want your din-dins? Why don’t you want your din-dins?’ she asks the doll, bringing a little spoon to the rubber mouth. Then she combs her hair. Then she lays her down to sleep. She watches her sleep for a moment, then wakes her up. She changes her clothes and tries to feed her again.
My wife returns to the kitchen. In the cups hanging on hooks inside the cupboard, in the fruit bowl, in the washed cutlery, in the broom handle, in the cloths hanging by the side of the sink, in the box of matches spotted with fat, in the kettle resting on the unlit stove, her eyes recognise the peace of the morning. She opens the window and, after choosing a few pegs and an item of clothing from a full tub, she leans over the ledge to hang it out. And she repeats these movements. And each time she bends down to take hold of a pair of Maria’s husband’s trousers, or one of Maria’s blouses, or one of her granddaughters’ vests, she is submerged by a piece of piano music which fills the kitchen with the strength of a breeze. And each time she leans over the ledge and pulls on the line to fix a peg, she thinks about how Lisbon and the world are vast. Her torso, thrust through the third-floor window of a building in Benfica, has some sense of what it might feel like to fly. It is at that moment that she thinks of our son Francisco, who left early yesterday morning for the marathon, for the Olympic Games, as if he was heading off into a dream. This thought was always there under the others, like the glow of an ember that occasionally wakes into a flame. And, first, the pride – our son, our boy – the weight of all those tender memories – and that name printed in the newspapers, important. That name. We gave him my name, so that it should become his. That name which used to be mine now belongs to him entirely. That name and all those who utter it: Francisco Lázaro. And later, later, the pride.
As though she could speak silently to Francisco, she lowers her gaze to the streets, to the pavement with its missing stones – irregular earth figures in the shapes of the stones that are missing – then she raises her eyes. On the other side of the road, two buildings separated by plots where pieces of bricks, necks of broken bottles and rusty pram-wheels grow. A little further off, gardens of spring greens, surrounded by barriers made of rusty tins. Further still, the road where motorcars pass, in both directions, day and night. And after this road, the whole of Lisbon. And after Lisbon, the world and our son, our boy. And above all, in everything, the morning.
She lowers herself to the kitchen floor to pick up a blouse of Ana’s – round, embroidered collars – and two pegs. The piano music continues, continuous, to come out of the wireless. She begins to lean over the ledge and, suddenly, a din is heard from the living room, a collapse, the explosion of some weight smashing to the ground – glass, wood, iron. Within that same moment, Íris’s sudden cries. My wife drops Ana’s blouse, not staying to watch it drift down on to the pavement because she is running towards the living room. My wife knows well the differences between Íris’s different cries – when she’s making a fuss, when she’s just startled or when she really is upset – this is why she runs as fast as she can. Beneath Íris’s piercing cries, the quick heartbeats of my wife coming to her. Her body goes down the corridor with the same movements as when she goes walking, but much faster, because that is the way she runs.
It was our house. My wife would sit on the yard steps, she’d spend pleasant early August evenings, and she’d stay there concentrating on her knitting. She would make woollen booties or little jackets for our son. There was a month to go before he was born and already she was imagining the size of his arms and the size of his little feet. Sometimes she would stretch the half-knitted pieces out in the palms of her hands, and at those moments it was as though she could see the arms or feet of our as yet unborn child.
I would hold the end of the hose, the water thick and fresh, hitting the feet of the trees and the plants. There was that fresh smell of earth drinking in water. There was a breeze that serenaded the skin on our faces.
At times, I would remember to tell her something. She would stop, and she would listen to me. She would rest her needles and knitting on her belly, and listen to me, and, sometimes, the knitting would begin to move all on its own.
It was our Francisco kicking inside her belly.
I would say:
‘When he’s big he’ll have to be a footballer.’
Little did I know.
Years later, recollecting those kicks that at night would sketch angles in the skin of her round belly, my wife would often repeat:
‘My Francisco started training to be a runner even before he was born.’
It was morning when I’d get to the workshop. I’d open the big door, and the echo of the key turning sounded natural from the sawdust-covered, dust-covered walls. With the sound of the first steps of my boots on the ground of the entrance hall, two or three sparrows would fly between the roof beams and hide in the shadows of the roof tiles. When the weather was fine, I would open the windows on to the patio. On the carpentry bench my tools would be where I had arranged them. Work was waiting for me just where, the previous day, I had decided to stop. It was morning, and as I held each tool for the first time – the hammer, the chisel, the handsaw – I’d feel the pleasant beginning of another day in the palm of my hand.
My uncle would arrive mid-morning. He wore the same clothes from the night before – his shirt half-untucked from his trousers, the buckle of his belt misaligned with the button. His left eye glittered in his unwashed face. When he was a child, during some game, my uncle had been blinded in his right eye. As he arrived in the workshop his right eye was the smoothest of eyelids, whiter than the rest of his skin, sitting over the empty socket. He had dry, cracked lips. His teeth bore a sticky film of red wine. He always wore a childish, genuine smile. He would say good morning to me. I would say nothing to him. Forgetting himself, he would say good morning to me again. Then he might perhaps take a crumpled handkerchief from his pocket and blow his nose. Then he would go out on to the patio. If I was measuring or marking something up I would hear the arc of his urine hitting the pine-shaving floor. After a time and the sound of his footfall approaching, he would come back in and perhaps wash his face in the cold water of the running tap. The water mixed with the sawdust of the floor. His eyebrows bristling, he would smile and, finally, approach the bench where his tools, heaped in disarray, awaited him.
Mornings passed with my uncle telling stories, stories which sometimes repeated themselves and sometimes never ended; they passed beneath the stories that my uncle would tell and that I sometimes did not listen to. As I worked – hammer striking, saws crossing laths, files filing, sandpaper smoothing planks – I would stop listening to my uncle to concentrate on the sounds of the city that came in through the windows and the patio door as though from very far away – proclamations, lost voices, bicycle bells.
It was my father who left the workshop to me. Some days, when I was coming back from the market holding my mother’s hand, I would ask her:
‘Let’s go to my workshop.’
If someone heard me and understood, they’d laugh, with me so small talking like that. My mother didn’t laugh because she had been the one who had taught me to use those words.
My father died far away from my mother, exhausted, on the same day that I was born.
Throughout my childhood, on certain evenings, my mother would boil a pan of water and ask me to go out to the yard to fetch a leaf from the lemon tree. Our lemon tree had large, thick leaves, hard to detach and noisy as I tore them from the lower branches. My mother would wash the leaf and submerge it in the boiling water to make our tea. It was at that moment that she would bring to the middle of the table a parcel wrapped in brown paper which, very slowly, under my gaze, she would open. In it were two cakes she had bought from the bakery and which she would cut in half with the tip of her knife. I’d get up on to a stool and take two mugs out of the cupboard. We would sit at the table, mother and son, eating our halves of cake and drinking tea. Then my mother would tell stories that always ended with my father’s laughter. My mother almost always laughed when she described my father’s laughter. Then my mother would say that my father was priceless.
Then a pause. Silence. And my mother would tell me how, without any doubt, my father would have been proud to know that I was going to look after the workshop. That was the moment she would speak of my workshop:
‘Your workshop,’ she’d say, serious, looking me in the eye. My mother’s voice was fragile and secure, it was gentle, it was firm.
The workshop remained out of action until the day my uncle offered to take care of it, paying the small rent with which my mother managed things. There were months in which my uncle, through confusion or through drink, was late paying. My mother counted on this, and for just such occasions she would save a little money at the bottom of her sewing box. It rarely happened that, after his deadlines had passed, she had to go, determined, up the two blocks separating our house from the workshop to claim the rent. When my uncle saw her arrive, he would be ashamed; he’d lower his face, beg a thousand heartfelt apologies and, almost always, weep.
I started working with my uncle a few days after turning twelve. During my apprenticeship I tried to make out what he was telling me to do from amid the torrent of incomprehensible stories he would tell me. What my uncle had to teach me was the little he had learned from watching his father working and what he had learned from his own mistakes and attempts. At fourteen, I was already more perfect in my work than he was, and I taught him things he had never known, or that he had forgotten.
I was fourteen when my mother fell ill. In a week every bone and every vein in her body became visible. Her skin yellowed. Her gaze remained fixed on a certain point. I begged her not to die. I asked her, begged her by everything. But a few weeks passed, and she died.
It was as though she had only been waiting to see me raised.
The following weeks my uncle remained in silence. One morning he began to tell a story which never came to an end, and time continued to pass.
Absorbed in the stories he himself was telling, my uncle would rarely hear people arriving with heavy tread on the earth floor of the entrance, people who would appear at any hour to commission work or see if the work they had commissioned was ready. So he would be surprised to see them appear at the shop door. He would circle them, thrilled, speaking to them loudly and smiling. These people, even if they didn’t know him, ignored him and made straight for me. That was exactly what happened the morning the Italian arrived.
The fine moustache danced over his lips to the rhythm of the words he was saying. As he spoke, the fine moustache, waxed, assumed the most varied shapes: a tilde, a line, a right angle, a curve. At the same time he used his clean, smooth, white hands, his slender, well-tended fingers with their slightly long nails, to gesture and thus to sculpt the air before him into all manner of shapes: a noble horse with silver harnesses, halls with engravings on the ceiling, a piano. Then sometimes he would stop abruptly to check whether we had understood, and straighten his cuff buttons with the tips of his fingers or pluck at the bright collars of his morning-coat. Then he would decide that we had not understood him, and he would continue.
But we had understood everything. Everything, perhaps. From the moment the Italian started speaking, my uncle’s voice faded away, weaker, weaker, as though going down a flight of stairs, until he fell completely silent, and with his left eye wide remained just listening with lively and genuine interest. When the Italian became tired, or when he simply no longer knew how to explain himself, my uncle and I looked at one another to confirm that we had understood. The Italian played and sang at dances. He had a broken piano and someone had told him that we would be able to repair it here.
With the Italian between us, we crossed the carpentry shop and the