Chicken Soup for the Soul: Divorce and Recovery: 101 Stories about Surviving and Thriving after Divorce
By Jack Canfield and Mark Victor Hansen
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Filled with heartfelt, personal stories, Chicken Soup for the Soul: Divorce and Recovery provides support, inspiration, and humor on all the phases of divorce, including the initial shock of the decision, the logistics of living through it, self-discovery, and the new world of dating and even remarriage. Readers going through a divorce will find this book a great source of emotional support and a guide as they go through the process.
Jack Canfield
Jack Canfield, America’s #1 Success Coach, is the cocreator of the Chicken Soup for the Soul® series, which includes forty New York Times bestsellers, and coauthor with Gay Hendricks of You’ve GOT to Read This Book! An internationally renowned corporate trainer, Jack has trained and certified over 4,100 people to teach the Success Principles in 115 countries. He is also a podcast host, keynote speaker, and popular radio and TV talk show guest. He lives in Santa Barbara, California.
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Chicken Soup for the Soul - Jack Canfield
Chicken Soup for the Soul®:
Divorce and Recovery; 101 Stories about Surviving and Thriving after Divorce
by Jack Canfield, Mark Victor Hansen & Patty Hansen
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Chicken soup for the soul : divorce and recovery : 101 stories about surviving and thriving after divorce / [compiled by] Jack Canfield, Mark Victor Hansen [and]Patty Hansen.
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ISBN-13: 978-1-935096-21-4
ISBN-10: 1-935096-21-4
eISBN-13: 978-1-611591-65-1
1. Divorced people--Literary collections. 2. Divorced people--Conduct of life--Anecdotes. 3. Divorce--Anecdotes. I. Canfield, Jack, 1944- II. Hansen, Mark Victor. III. Hansen, Patty. IV. Title: Divorce and recovery
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Dedication
To all of the hearts that have been broken:
may you find help and hope within this book —
maybe even some laughter —
to help you heal again.
Contents
Dedication
Foreword
~Is This the End... or the Beginning?~
1. A Little Clump of Dirt, Mary Mason
2. Revelation, Melinda Stiles
3. The Little Pink House, John E. Schlimm II
4. The Gut Speaks, Angela Chiaro
5. The Toolbox, Mia Gardner
6. A Win-Win Situation, Beanie Baldwin
7. Home Is Where Your Heart Lives, J. P. Shaw
8. Disconnecting, Vera Jacobs
9. The Heart Knows Best, Kiera Peltz
10. Repossession, Annemarie Wagner
11. An End Is Also a New Beginning, Carol Randolph
~Forgiving and Letting Go~
12. Forgiveness Is a Choice, Katherine Van Hook
13. Fixing Things According to Sadie, Laurence Mitchell
14. Baking Away Bitterness, Linda Fitzjarrell
15. Thank You for Leaving, Joyce Zymeck
16. Thoughts on Love and Forgiveness, Becky Povich
17. Much Too Loved, HJ Eggers
18. Close Encounter of the Healing Kind, Jenna Romano
19. Flower Power, Elaine Ernst Schneider
20. Taking the Plunge, Bobbie Cheshire
21. Wedded Bliss, Maggie Kelly
~It’s Over... and We’re Still Friends~
22. Doing Divorce, Nancy Madsen-Ostinato
23. The Second Half of Forever, Cynthia Briggs
24. I Have a Step-Wife, Christa B. Allan
25. Full Circle, Andrea Langworthy
26. Graduating with My Three Husbands, Zoe Alvarez
27. End of the Marriage, not The End
, Bettye Martin-McRae
28. Growing Up, Arlene Aoki
29. Unless Death Part Us, Anna Bern
30. When He Looked Like James Dean, Theresa Elders
31. Christmas Lights, Lynn Berroteran
32. Divorce is Not an End, Clarissa Moon
~A Broken Family but Not Broken Hearts~
33. Loving Your Way Through Divorce, Steve Hern
34. Trading Places, Marcy Darin
35. A Mother Bear in Court, Pam Bostwick
36. The D
Word, Amber Lutz
37. You Can Do This, Sachiko Iwanaga
38. A True Mother, Sonja Herbert
39. Breathe, Laurie Max
40. Patch Work, Victoria Fedden
41. No Regrets, Christine Smith
42. A Little Child Shall Lead Them, Betty King
43. The Gift, Joel Schwartzberg
44. Lies Your Mother Told You, Patty Hansen
~Special Moments and Everyday Miracles~
45. What Should I Do? Virginia McCormack
46. Just Like a Real Mother, Grant Madden
47. Not Alone, Sharon Norris Elliott
48. Without Ever Knowing, Betty King
49. Stickers for His Dad, Catherine Armstrong
50. For a Lifetime, T’Mara Goodsell
51. A Bear with a Badge, Welby O’Brien
52. Photo Album, Emily Kate Capeles
53. A Living Miracle, Renee P. as told to Evie Mack
54. The Last Time, Shirley Neal
55. A Christmas Eve Miracle, Michele Cushatt
~Life on the Front Burner — Now, It’s All About Me!~
56. Flashes of Brilliance, Lynn Kinnaman
57. Warrior, Heather McGee
58. Climbing Diamond Head, G. M. Lee
59. Divorced and the Envy of Them All, Mary Alice Pritchard
60. Million Dollar Mermaid, Rob Williams
61. Jack and Jannie, Dawn Smith Heaps
62. A Sign of Hope, Dayle Allen Shockley
63. Clarity, Heather McGee
64. Journey to Peace, Marie Williams
65. Sleeping Alone, Christine Bush
66. The Journey Home, Kathleen Gerard
67. That’s Life. Live It. Feel It. Joy Summers
~New Fish in the Dating Pond~
68. A Match Made in Mud, Karen R. Hessen
69. Gone to the Dogs, Rick Moore
70. The Perfect Match? Marie Williams
71. Love Was Just a Phone Call Away, Debbie Gill
72. Six Simple Words, Melinda L. Wentzel
73. Dating and the Single Mom, Joanne Palmer
74. Team Fix-It, Samantha Ducloux Waltz
75. The Dating Game, Brenda Crawford
76. A Kid’s Perspective, Dorothy M. Clifton
77. Post-Divorce Dating, Linda Lou
78. Single, With Children, Elizabeth Breau
79. My First Love, Deborah Batt
~You and Me... and Kids, Too?~
80. No Furniture, Jeannette Cezanne
81. My Ex-Husband’s Wedding, Maggie Kelly
82. Father’s Day, Tracy Gulliver
83. One Step
at a Time, Patricia Holdsworth
84. Third Time’s a Charm, Cinda T. Crawford
85. Bringing Up Amy, Jenny Austin
86. An Adjusted Fit, Linda Hanson
87. Never Letting Go, Amber Frazier
88. Isaac’s New Family, Megan Venner
~New Insights and Ageless Wisdom~
89. Lessons in Divorce, Catherine Graham
90. Listen to the Woman, Kenneth Williams
91. Divorce Is Like a Cake, Arlene Uslander
92. Me and the Money in the Middle, Madison James
93. Tick Tock, B.J. Taylor
94. Lessons from the Lake, Monica Giglio
95. The Little Family That Melted Away, Terry McManus
96. An Unmarked Path, Jolie Kanat
97. Still Loved, Karissa Porter
98. A Little Cheat Sheet for Grief, Laurie Perry
99. The First Thing I Did After My Divorce Was Final Was… Various Authors
100. Buying a Ticket to Life, Tena Beth Thompson
101. Write Your Relationship in Pencil, Linda O’Connell
Meet the Contributors
Who is Jack Canfield?
Who is Mark Victor Hansen?
Who is Patty Hansen?
Acknowledgments
More Chicken Soup
Foreword
The big D.
Divorce. The legal breakup of a marriage. Despite the fact that almost one out of every two marriages in the United States ends up in divorce court, no one enters a marriage thinking they may end up as part of that statistic. Yet, it happens. In most cases, lines are drawn, sides are chosen, and a new dance begins — one in which the partners spar, dodge, and throw punches as the final date of dissolution approaches. The effects of uncoupling reach far beyond the two people involved — it touches friends, siblings, parents, grandparents, and certainly the children. It is not only the couple who may be considering a divorce, or those who are in the process or the aftermath of it — each and every person who knows you and loves you will be affected by the outcome in one way or another.
It is a phenomenon that can be the worst or best experience of your life — the worst while it is happening, and the best (hopefully) after the dust has settled and you have moved on. While you are actively involved in the process, it can be difficult to view your situation from the big picture
perspective. The person who you thought you would spend the rest of your life with disappears — emotionally for sure, usually physically as well. Life, as you knew it, turns upside-down. The words forever,
eternally,
and everlasting love
are dropped from your vocabulary and are replaced with words like depressed,
coping,
stressed,
and major change.
Finances, jobs, daily schedules and living arrangements are affected. The divorce, in and of itself, can be a financial hurdle.
You may start to question your physical attributes, lovability, self-worth, and level of attractiveness — at some point, you will most certainly question your sanity. You will no longer be creating memories with your partner — instead you will be practicing how to forgive (with a little luck), forget, let go, and put the past behind you. Some people lose weight (known as the Divorce Diet
to the ex-generation) and go shopping for a whole new wardrobe. Others may gain weight from nights of sitting in front of the television eating every comfort food known to the human race — ice cream, macaroni and cheese, tapioca (warm, preferably), chips and salsa (maybe with a margarita thrown in) popcorn, and chocolate — not necessarily in that order.
This snapshot we just took you through? It’s true only if you are lucky enough to go through a good
divorce!
We know. Each of us has had our own divorces; Jack and Patty count two each, and Mark has been through one. We can relate to these stories from our own experiences, which is why we created this book — to provide the kind of Chicken Soup for the Soul support that can help you get through your own divorce. Shared insights, personal introspection, hints of wisdom, thoughts on forgiveness and healing, hope for the future, and even slices of humor are tucked into the pages of the book you are holding. You will see that some couples have chosen to approach their divorce with integrity and dignity, honor for each other’s feelings and welfare, a wish to continue as friends, and a common desire to complete their Big D without a lot of drama (with a capital D!).
If you are at the point where you are just considering ending your marriage or are already deep in the process — even if you are already an active, official member of the ex-generation — take this book and keep it by your bedside. When you have one of those down moments and you need to know that you are not alone in this mess — reach out and read someone else’s story. You will see that others have gone through the D experience and have come out on the other side, better because of it. Most have been able to find themselves, learn their strengths, discover the joy of a new freedom, and realize their own potential. There is light at the end of the tunnel.
~Jack Canfield, Mark Victor Hansen, and Patty Hansen
Is This the End… or the Beginning?
Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while,
so that we can see life with a clearer view again.
~Alex Tan
A Little Clump of Dirt
To carry his load without resting, not to be bothered by heat or cold and
always be content: these three things we can learn from a donkey.
~Indian Proverb
I was convinced no one in the world had ever hurt as badly as I was hurting. The pain was constant and deep. I was hysterical, inconsolable, and completely devastated. I wanted to find something — anything — that would make the pain stop. Sadly, I even understood the despair that could lead to suicide. Not that I gave it serious thought, but I understood it.
I was so clueless. How could I have been so blind? How did he turn away without my realizing what was happening? Was I that stupid or just naive? Maybe. Maybe not. I trusted him. Completely. And after fifteen years of marriage, one which everyone had thought was perfect, including me, it all fell apart in a blinding flash. They say the wife is the last to know. That was certainly true in my case.
Oh sure, it had been coming for a few months, in his mind — but for me, it was a shock. I lost thirty-five pounds in six weeks because I couldn’t keep food down. I couldn’t sit still long enough to even watch a television commercial, much less a thirty minute show. Many times I dressed for work, got halfway there, and realized I had on clothes or shoes that didn’t match. I cried so much I could have filled a lake with my tears.
How did I get through it? I tried every possible thing everyone or anyone suggested. I let myself cry as much and as often as I needed to. I got a journal and wrote my thoughts, page after page after page — late into the night, early in the morning, anytime I had something to say. I found new music that consoled me and comforted me. I tried a new hobby that had no connection to my marriage. I went through all the motions with friends and family even though I felt empty inside and alone. I talked and talked and talked about it, to anyone who would listen. My friends and family were probably sick of me and my tears, but they were steadfast and true and stuck by me.
I read everything I could get my hands on about marriage, divorce, mid-life crises, how to survive, how to heal my broken heart. I ended up with enough books to fill a library. Obviously I was in the company of thousands of other people who suffer this kind of hurt every day. But I was still convinced my pain was worse than anyone else had ever experienced.
Friends sent me every possible uplifting e-mail story. The computer became my lifeline. I read them all — many times over. A few of them really stuck with me. There was one story about a little donkey that fell into a deep well. The farmer couldn’t figure out how to get the poor donkey out of the well, so he decided just to bury him by throwing in shovel after shovel of dirt. The donkey, however, would shake off each shovel-full of dirt and stomp his feet to tamp down the dirt. Little by little, as each shovel-full of dirt landed on the little donkey, the level of the ground rose until he was able just to walk out of that deep hole. I thought about that donkey a lot, and I decided to try to be like him and get out of the deep hole I was in.
Story after story, tear after tear, step by step, day after day, I began to finally get better. I remember thinking I could go ten minutes without crying. Then thirty minutes. Then a whole hour! I was improving. Baby steps. But they were steps in the right direction. Oh sure, there were still times I fell apart. But those times became fewer and further apart. I felt it was a huge improvement when I finally went through one whole day without crying. That took a long time. The pain was still there, but I was improving. I knew deep down that I could survive this. I kept thinking about that little donkey.
And I did survive it — with determination, the unwavering support of my family and true friends, and a new understanding of my faith and the strength you gain from it. Maybe more of us should be like that poor little donkey. Shake off that dirt and stomp it down until you can simply walk out of that deep dark hole into the sunshine.
~Mary Mason
Revelation
It was looking grim. I had tried talking, talking, talking — writing letters to him which he refused to read — and counseling. My last resort was a trial separation. I’d made arrangements to move in with my sister over Thanksgiving weekend. Only one detail remained — to tell my husband.
I planned to talk to him on a Saturday morning in late October. I rehearsed and fretted. Would he be shocked, surprised, hurt? Profess his love for me and beg me to stay? Would this make him agree to go to counseling with me? My mind raced through several scenarios, all of which ended in my not really having to move out.
That Saturday morning was October perfection — sunny, Indian-summer-warm; the maple trees aglow in fiery reds, oranges, and yellows. After stalling over my coffee, I asked, Can we talk?
If you want.
Let’s go out on the porch.
Fine.
We settled in on our newly-purchased, comfy porch chairs. I fidgeted with the cushion as I realized my rehearsed words had escaped me.
So... what’s up?
he asked.
Well, I... I don’t think it’s any secret this marriage isn’t working.
I’d agree with that.
We exist as separate entities under one roof. We don’t talk, we don’t know anything about each other’s lives. I guess you don’t need me to tell you about all the things we don’t do together.
I can’t argue with anything you’ve said.
It’s for those reasons that I’m going to be moving out.
When?
Thanksgiving weekend.
Well, before you move out, do you want to… (Here my heart was aflutter; I was waiting for the words that would mean I wouldn’t have to move out!)… buy new tires for the Camry?
I looked at him for a few seconds, expressionless. Then, I nearly fell out of my chair guffawing, belly laughs, full body laughs. When I was able, I croaked out, I imagined a hundred scenarios. That wasn’t one of them. Thanks for the comic relief.
Finally, I knew. It was really over.
~Melinda Stiles
The Little Pink House
Every house where love abides
And friendship is a guest,
Is surely home,
and home sweet home
For there the heart can rest.
~Henry Van Dyke
After years of struggling in a marriage that was no longer working, a friend of mine, Denise, finally decided to walk away. It wasn’t an easy decision, especially since she had two young daughters and would be facing life as a single mom in her forties. I would later tell her, Sometimes it takes more love to leave than to stay — love for yourself, your children, and even your estranged spouse. Sometimes leaving is the only true way to move forward.
By leaving her marriage, Denise was also giving up her beautiful large home in town, with its long, wrap-around driveway, sprawling front porch and back deck, and endless yard. A simpler life started to call her. She decided to move out to the country into the little pink house where her late grandmother had lived her entire life. Her grandmother had only passed away the year before, and the house was still filled with her belongings — overflowing with them, actually.
On moving day, when Denise arrived at the pink house with her daughters and the family dog, the task before her seemed overwhelming. Inside the house there was hardly even a place to sit. Like many in her generation, Denise’s grandmother never threw anything away. The upstairs bedrooms were clogged with hundreds of vinyl records and books, furniture, and trinkets collected over nearly a century of living. The bedrooms had ceased serving their intended purpose and were now a glorified attic. Denise’s grandmother, a tough and feisty former preacher woman, had slept downstairs on the couch, foregoing a traditional bedroom. The downstairs too, was cluttered with knickknacks and hundreds more books, especially the classics and many titles long since forgotten. Grandmother’s years of smoking had yellowed the ceilings and walls throughout.
Starting over seemed like an impossibly cruel feat. There wasn’t even an adequate bedroom for her or her daughters to sleep in, for heaven’s sake. Perhaps she hadn’t made the right choice, Denise worried.
That’s when the brigade arrived. Denise’s parents, brothers, cousins, friends, and new neighbors, as well as her older son from a first marriage and that first ex, began pulling into the small dirt-laden driveway. Eventually, the driveway and old country road leading to the house were lined with the cars and trucks that carried special guardian angels to Denise’s aid.
Denise was no longer standing alone before the daunting task. It became a team effort forged from love and friendship, a unified goal to help a friend to move ahead — not backward.
A chain of workers wound through the back door and up the stairs, handing off books and records and other items to one another until they were removed from the house. Denise’s mother began scrubbing the kitchen to make the smoke stains disappear. Denise and some cousins cleared the musty living room, opening the windows to let in the fresh country air while they started applying a fresh coat of white paint to the walls. Denise’s son and his father began to restructure the bathroom and later transformed a storage area off the side of the house into a cozy family room. Denise’s daughters ran errands, getting water for the workers and carrying old boxes and scrap wood outside to a roaring fire. And the family dog, Duchess, raced around, becoming acquainted with the new sights and smells.
By the end of the exhausting weekend, the little pink house had a clean, charming front porch, downstairs rooms that smelled of pine and lemon, and an upstairs that was now inviting, as two freshly painted bedrooms, one in green and one in yellow, awaited Denise and her daughters’ first nights in residence. Later, Denise’s son would create a back patio with bricks recycled from beneath the front yard, and cheerful plants and flowers would surround the house.
The little pink house was once more a home — Denise’s new home. Thoughts of the large house and her former life in town were now miles away behind her. She soon realized that deep within her, she possessed the strength and courage and feisty nature of her grandmother, whom we all knew would be thrilled to see her house reinvigorated and enjoyed in this special way.
Best of all, in those forty-eight hours, Denise realized that the new journey she had embarked on was not one she would have to travel alone. Her new life would be filled with the warmth and security of unconditional love and friendship, gifts she believed would render no future endeavor impossible. Especially in her little pink house.
~John E. Schlimm II
The Gut Speaks
Let us learn to appreciate there will be times when the trees will be bare,
and look forward to the time when we may pick the fruit.
~Anton Chekhov
The thought of divorce meant entering a dark place, one I was determined never to know. Raised as a Roman Catholic, with parents married for thirty-seven years, and two brothers married with children, the thought of disappointing my family frightened me. I didn’t want to be the one who failed; the first in our immediate family to be divorced. When the time came to actually confront the possibility, I steered away from the thought and instead drowned myself in shame.
I knew that the relationship was toxic before we even married, but I ignored the silent alarms, believing that my imagination concocted them. I entered marriage foolishly, thinking that the bond would bring me eternal happiness. I was naïve, yes. I believed, like many others, that I could change someone. I questioned the flaws I saw, mistaking my gut feelings for commitment issues. I was determined to overcome any concerns on my own. I liked the challenge, which gave me a sense of importance. I was twenty-three and this was my chance to settle down and start a family, so I plunged forward ignoring all of the red flags that were waving wildly.
A few months into the marriage, I became conscious of the warnings I had chosen to ignore. Rather than pursuing the divorce route, I felt I deserved to suffer the consequences of my mistake. Two years into the marriage, I had become a shadow of my former self. I was trapped in a town, a house, and a marriage that were no longer familiar. I couldn’t look in the mirror without crying. I lost my positive drive, no longer had dreams of my own. I cared less about my job and more about his, working for him during my spare time. I focused tremendously on my appearance, exercised more, bought new clothes, always nervous about how I looked and behaved in his presence. The screaming matches over his deceit became a daily occurrence. The sleepless nights began to affect my career, my appearance, my mind. Couples counseling and church offered no relief; nothing would improve while I was the sole person in the relationship working to fix the problems.
By our third year together, I was miserable, yet fearful of leaving. I waited it out, feeling sad and alone. I started to believe the countless times my husband reiterated that my insecurities were the cause of our problems.
Finally, my fears of divorce couldn’t hold me back. The thought of disappointing people could not supersede my own chance for happiness and good health. I packed my belongings and left, knowing that I couldn’t live that life anymore. For the first time, I was doing what was best for me. I finally acknowledged that I deserved more.
I feared the stigma attached to a divorced woman. I felt branded, no longer pure. I behaved as if I had done something wrong. I was afraid to reveal to others that I was divorced. I considered myself damaged goods. I was afraid to date, believing a man wouldn’t want a divorced woman. With the support of my family and friends the stereotype that consumed me began to slowly dissipate.
Through counseling and journaling, I overcame the negative feelings and realized that I get one chance at life. I could spend it bottled up and cut off from the rest of the world or I could live each day as a gift. I was given a chance to start over. I took the plunge, opening myself up to new experiences. I ended up meeting a man who reestablished my faith in men and in relationships. One who shares my likes, my sense of adventure, and accepts my flaws without making me feel less of a woman. He pushes me to achieve my goals, even ones that seem far out of reach. Naturally I was a bit shy to reveal that I was going through a divorce, but to my surprise he didn’t flinch. He stood by my side giving me nothing but support. He too had suffered a difficult relationship and because of this we both had learned the importance of appreciation.
We moved to Italy for a year to discover Europe together. There we lived in a little hamlet, enjoying every aspect of the Italian culture, from working in a vineyard to picking olives; the happy memories we created washed away our negative experiences.
As humans, we are always worried about disappointing others and keep from doing what we really believe is right. We question ourselves, when really, we should question the very people causing us to doubt who we know best. Had I listened to my gut in the first place and acknowledged the red flags waving boldly, I would have saved myself from emotional devastation. The experience was painful, but had I not lived it, I wouldn’t appreciate life or the people in it as I