Lady Midnight

Cymbeline

Prologue

Italy, 1819

Is she dead?

How can I see if she is dead, Maria, when she's all twisted up like that? Santi Giovanni. Here, take her arm and help me move her.

The voices came to Katerina faintly, as if they echoed down a long, empty corridor. She wanted to open her eyes, but they were sealed shut, and her head throbbed so intensely she couldn't bear to move it. Every time she tried, stars burst in her brain, white-hot, out of focus. She managed to open her hand flat, and felt the wet stickiness of sand. The same coarse sand clung to her lips and cheek.

Slowly, she touched the tip of her tongue to her teeth, and tasted the unmistakable coppery tang of blood.

Blood!

Where was she? What had happened?

Her mind was a scattered, whirling blank. She struggled painfully to remember, but the harder she grasped, the farther it all slipped away. She was almost certain she had been at a party of some sort. There were vague echoes of champagne, music, laughter—a handsome pair of gray eyes gazing down at her admiringly. How had she gone from that to lying on a strange shore, with blood in her mouth and her head about to explode?

If only she could remember...

Then strong hands reached for her, turning her onto her back.

Another sharp pain cracked through her head. Even those fragile wisps of memories retreated with the force of that agony. Katerina gasped, struggling not to slip back down into that sticky darkness.

She's alive, Paolo! a woman's voice cried. See, she is breathing.

So she is, barely. There's a lump at the back of her head, and this cut on her cheek is deep.

A rough fingertip prodded lightly at her cheek, and she jerked away from the sting.

She must be a fine lady, the woman whispered. Look at her jewels, and this silk gown.

All of her jewels won't save her if we don't get her to the doctor now, the man muttered. You wait with her, Maria, while I fetch Gianni and the others. We can't carry her to the village ourselves.

A quiet moment passed, filled only with the shrill of gulls soaring overhead, before Katerina felt a cool touch smooth the wet clumps of her hair back from her face. She smelled the distinctive odors of fish and lemon, as well as the salty tang of the sea. Somehow, those familiar, earthy scents were comforting, and calmed her.

"Can you hear me, cara?" the woman said.

Katerina spat out a mouthful of sand and blood. Painfully, she forced a whisper through her raw throat. "Si. I hear you, signora."

"Va bene! You're awake. You mustn't worry about a thing. We will take you to the doctor. Just lie still here."

Using every ounce of her strength, Katerina pried open her gritty eyes and stared up at the woman. It was a gray, cold day, but even that faint light hurt. The woman, an elderly peasant with silver threaded through her black braids and a stained white apron over her faded dress, was surrounded by a halo of the dazzle.

Katerina closed her eyes against it. Grazie, she whispered hoarsely. Thank you for your help.

Poor little one! How you must have suffered. Do you remember what happened?

No. Nothing but that echo of music—and the tall, dark man that held her close as they danced. My Beatrice, he whispered. You are far more lovely than Dante's beloved could ever have hoped to be.

She shivered at that flash of memory.

Nothing? Not even your name?

She did remember that. It was emblazoned on her mind like a beacon. Katerina.

What a pretty name. Katerina. I am Maria. Katerina felt the woman shift around. Ah, here is Paolo and the boys! You will soon be at the doctor.

Katerina heard the shuffle of booted footsteps in the sand, the rustle of rough wool cloth. I see she is awake now, Maria!

For now. She can't remember much, though. We have to get her to the doctor quickly.

"Si, si. Here, boys, help me lift her onto the litter."

Hands reached for her again, lifting her high into the salty air as if she were a load of fish. Katerina screamed out against the fresh sword stabs of red agony. Just when she knew she could take no more, that she would die of the pain, the world went dark at the edges. The thick blackness spread until there was nothing at all.

* * *

When she woke from the suffocating darkness, it was not on cold, wet sand. She lay on soft, sunshine-scented linens. The pain had receded; it was no longer so sharp and urgent, but dull, hovering over her like a faint threat.

She sat up very slowly against a pile of fluffy pillows, her head spinning even with that small movement. Though her memory was very hazy, she was sure this was not her own room. It was too small, with a slanted, whitewashed ceiling, as if it was tucked beneath the very eaves of a house. The high, narrow windows were hung with sheer white curtains, which let the buttery yellow sunlight stream in over the furniture. There was only the narrow bed on which she lay, a small table that held a pitcher of water and a bowl, and one straight wooden chair.

Folded neatly on that chair was a water-stained gown of bright blue silk trimmed with lace, and a small cloth bundle.

Katerina glanced down at herself, and saw that she wore only a loose, faded nightdress of cheap muslin. This tiny movement set her cheek to throbbing as if tiny demons danced there. She reached up gingerly to find a thick bandage fixed to her skin.

San Marco, but where was she? What had happened to her? Why could she not remember! She searched her mind, but the answers eluded her, shimmering just beyond her pained grasp.

She sobbed with utter frustration, pounding her fists against the blankets. That did not help at all—it only made her realize how very stiff and sore she really was.

Surely you can remember something, she told herself. Think, think.

After she took a deep, cleansing breath, then another and another, she knew that she could remember some fragments. Her name was Katerina—she had known that all along. She did not live here, in this salt-and sunshine-scented house, but in Venice. And she had been on a boat, at a party of some sort.

But what had brought her here?

She pushed back the blankets and swung her weak, trembling legs over the side of the bed, reaching for the floorboards with her bare toes. Her whole body, from her eyebrows to her toenails, felt bruised and battered. It screamed in protest at the slightest movement, but she pressed on, gritting her teeth together. She had to find out what was happening.

She managed to stand, clinging to the thin bedpost.

But the instant she let go, she collapsed into a heap, crying out at the pain as she struck the hard floor. Helpless tears, dampening the bandage and dripping down her chin onto her fisted hands.

Maledizione! she sobbed.

The loud patter of footsteps echoed outside the room, and the door flew open to reveal a short, plump woman with black and silver braids wound about her head and a white apron over a plain black dress.

Katerina sniffled as she stared up at the woman. Surely she remembered her from the beach?

There, she thought. You remembered something else. Things are not entirely hopeless.

Signorina! Why are you out of bed? the woman—Maria?—cried. She bustled across the floor to slip her arms around Katerina's prone body and haul her upright. The woman might be short, but she proved to be strong, having Katerina tucked back into bed before she could even notice the new waves of pain. If you needed something, you should have called for me.

Katerina sank back into the soft pillows with a grateful sigh. I wasn't sure anyone else was here.

I was just right down the stairs, in the kitchen. Do you remember me?

You are Maria, she whispered.

Maria beamed, as if she were a governess and Katerina her star pupil. " Va bene! Your memory is coming back, yes? She smoothed out the rumpled blankets, tucking them warmly about Katerina's aching legs. Now, what was it you needed? A drink of water, maybe?"

Katerina suddenly realized that she was burning with thirst. Her throat felt like coarse stone. "Oh, yes, Maria! Molte grazie."

Maria poured out a glass of water from the pitcher on the table and watched with satisfied approval as Katerina drank deeply. You do look better today. Not so pale. You were like a ghost!

I felt like one, Katerina murmured. Her throat felt better after the water, but her cheek still throbbed. How long have I been here?

This is the third day.

Three days! Katerina cried. So long?

We were not sure you would live. You were so feverish, and delirious! Calling out for your mama. Maria laid her strong, callused fingers against Katerina's brow. You feel a bit cooler. But not out of danger yet, I think.

Katerina did feel warm, yet also strangely chilled. It was a cold that came not from the sun-warmed room around her, but from deep inside herself, spreading a clammy touch outward to her skin. She sank down under the shelter of the blankets until they covered her to the chin. It is kind of you to look after a stranger, Maria.

Pah! Maria protested with a laugh. Though I'm sorry you're injured, signorina, I have truly enjoyed nursing you. All my children are grown and gone. They no longer need old Maria. But tell me, little one, how did you come to wash up on our beach?

Katerina frowned, all of her confusion, her dizziness, rushing back to her. I—I do not know for certain. I was on a boat, but I'm not sure what happened.

Maria tsked as she went about the room fastening the curtains shut and rearranging the bowl and pitcher on the table. You must have been caught in the storm.

Storm?

Oh, it was a big one! I was fortunate that my husband, Paolo, and our sons didn't go out that day to fish. It blew up very suddenly, when only that morning it was sunny and clear. You poor girl, to be out in it! Do you remember who was with you? What happened to them?

Them? A vision flashed across Katerina's mind, like a jolt of silver lightning. There was a woman, with black hair like Katerina's own. A ruby necklace flashed as the woman laughed, her head thrown back in merry abandonment. A handsome, fair-haired gentleman, older but still trim and vigorous, held the woman in his arms, twirling as if in a wild dance. A swirl of color, noise, music.

Then they were gone.

Yes, she whispered. Did anyone else wash ashore near here? Another woman, or an older gentleman with pale hair?

Maria shook her head sadly. "No, cara, I'm sorry. You were all alone. But then, we're very isolated here, and there are beaches and villages all along the shore. Someone may be looking for you there!"

Perhaps—but deep in her heart, Katerina knew it was not so. Those people, whoever they were, were gone forever.

Downstairs, a door slammed loudly, and a man called out, Maria! Are you here?

That will be my Paolo, wanting his supper, Maria said, hurrying back to the door. "I will bring you some soup and bread later, cara. It will help you get your strength back. For now, just get some sleep."

Yes, Katerina muttered. That tiny flash of memory had left her even weaker in its wake, her very bones aching with exhaustion. I do want to sleep....

* * *

That night, in the deepest purple black of the witching hour, her fever returned with a vengeful force. With its renewed heat came frenzied dreams, as if her entire life replayed on the stage of her mind.

She saw the house where she lived, her mother's house, a wide, low palazzo on a canal in Venice. In her dream, she stood in a sunlit drawing room, surrounded by gilded furniture upholstered in lavender-and-cream brocade, precious paintings, and objets d'art. That black-haired woman—her mother—lounged on a violet satin chaise placed beneath a portrait of herself. The painted woman, like the living one, was draped in silks, sapphires, and amethysts. She was so very beautiful. Beautiful like a Greek statue or a faraway star, not like a real flesh and blood woman at all. Not like a mother.

Across from her in this glorious room sat two gentlemen. One of them was the blond older man, a person of distinguished features and elegant clothing. The other man was younger, and so handsome he was entirely unreal. His dark hair, rich as the night, waved back from his perfect oval face, and his gray eyes lit from within as he saw Katerina. He came toward her, reaching for her hand and lifting it to his lips for a worshipful kiss on her fingertips. My Beatrice, my Renaissance princess, he said.

And her mother laughed, her dangling amethyst earrings clicking and sparkling with amusement. "Katerina, darling! Edward has come to see us, you see, and he has brought his so charming friend Sir Julian Kirkwood. I see you remember how he admired you at the principessa's ball last week. He has been so impatient for your arrival today...."

Even as Katerina stepped closer to Sir Julian, the dream scene shifted. She was no longer in the palatial drawing room but on a gleaming white yacht. Her mother's friend Edward's white yacht. He held her mother by the hand as he led her aboard, at the head of a large procession of guests. Her mother's ruby necklace sparkled in the innocent sunlight.

She saw their merry party live again, as vivid as it had been on that glorious day. There were great quantities of such delicacies as pate, lobster patties, crab salad, white soup. Champagne flowed in great, golden quantities as laughter grew louder and chatter brighter. The elegantly dressed women perched in the men's laps, their white bosoms like ivory against silk bodices and jeweled necklaces. Someone played naughty songs on a pianoforte, and Edward danced with Katerina's mother around the salon, waltzing faster and faster until she laughed breathlessly and cried out, "Edward, caro mio, slow down or I shall faint!"

And Sir Julian Kirkwood asked Katerina herself to dance. Their waltz was not as exuberant as her mother's, but he held her close, so close she could smell the light scent of his citrus cologne, could feel the fleeting brush of his lips against her hair.

He was meant to be her first lover—she knew that. And he was a fine choice: handsome, rich, generous, cultured. But there was something—something odd about him, something too intense in the way he watched her, the way he called her his Beatrice, like she was a character in a Dante poem and not a real person at all. Her mother told her it was just girlish nerves, that she had to remember her training and look to her future.

This is what my life will always be like, she thought as they swayed through their dance. Handsome men who admired her, jewels, champagne, music, laughter, wild gaiety. Men who made her uneasy, but whom she had to charm. It all stretched before her in an endless vista of uncertainty and fear.

Then the skies, so bright and promising when they embarked on their journey, darkened ominously. The wind whipped up faster, colder, shrieking past the windows. The rain fell in slate gray sheets. Lightning sparked a poisonous yellow. Thunder cracked, louder and ever louder. The yacht tilted and pitched, tossing all the furniture that wasn't bolted down across the floor in a welter of splintered gilt and shredded satin.

The last thing Katerina remembered was a horrible explosion and the boat tilting precariously to one side. There were shouts, and a piercing, terrified scream—surely not her own?

She reached out desperately for her mother, but Lucrezia slid inexorably away from Katerina, falling down the steeply pitched deck into the roiling black water.

Mother! Mother! Katerina screamed, again and again, until the cold waves closed over her own head, and she reached out to grasp a large, rough piece of floating wood....

She awoke, gasping for breath, as if the water still filled her lungs. The sweat-soaked bedclothes were twisted around her shaking limbs, and she was chilled to her very core. She buried her face in the pillows, trying to blot out the horrible images of watery death.

Mother, she whispered, even though she knew all too well that there could be no answer. Her mother was gone, along with her kind English protector, Edward, the Duke of Salton. And the handsome, admiring Sir Julian Kirkwood—the man Katerina had thought would one day be her own protector.

She herself could easily have died with them, and that horrifying thought made her cry out again, a pitiful wail muffled in the linens.

Katerina turned her head to rest her tearstained cheek on the pillow—and noticed a small wispy movement in the shadows.

She raised herself up to peer closer.

It was a woman, or at least the outline of one. Katerina's first thought was that it must be Maria, but Maria was short and stout. This woman was tall and willow slender. Then the figure stepped into a pale beam of moonlight that fell from one of the high windows, and cold shock broke like one of those deadly waves over Katerina's heart.

No, she breathed aloud.

The woman was her mother. Yet that could not be! Katerina had seen her mother swallowed by the sea, right before her very eyes. No one had come ashore besides herself—Maria had said so. But here Lucrezia was, as beautiful as ever, standing beside her daughter's bed clad in a white silken gown, like opals or stars. Her long, straight curtain of black hair, gilded by the moon, fell over her shoulders. There was a strange translucence to her fair skin, a shining quality that came from within.

This must be another fever dream, Katerina realized with a start. She held out her shaking hand to the figure, and whispered, Mother? Is it you?

Her mother reached out her own hand, and a coolness like a sweet spring breeze wafted over Katerina's fingertips. "It is me, my Katerina, 'the prettiest Kate in Christendom.' I am a dream, but one I hope you will remember when you awake."

It had to be her mother, even though it was a dream—no one else quoted her name from The Taming of the Shrew, teasing her about being bonny Kate,

sometimes Kate the curst. Her head spun in confused circles. She longed to leap up, to reach for her mother, but she feared that to do so would make this precious vision vanish like so much smoke. Why are you here?

"Cara mia, you have been given a wonderful chance. A chance many people long for, beg for, but few are given. The chance to become—someone else."

Kate shook her head. She was Katerina Bruni, daughter of the glorious Lucrezia Bruni, envied by girls all over the city of Venice—no one would ever believe she could be someone else. Not even she ever believed it. "What do you mean? I only want to be me."

No. I know the truth of this, you see, because I always wanted this chance for myself.

This was the first time Katerina had ever heard such a wild thing. Lucrezia Bruni had always been so supremely self-confident, so beautiful and perfect, carrying her fame—fame inherited from her own mother, Giavanna Bruni—lightly on her velvet-clad shoulders. Katerina remembered her mother laughing on that final day, her entire being aglow with gaiety. "But why? You were famous—everyone adored you. You were so happy. We were both happy, in our lovely home."

Her mother gave her a small, sad smile, so unlike her old merry grins. "My dearest girl. I only pretended to be happy—I was a wonderful actress, learned at my mother's knee. I knew my place in life from the time I was a tiny child. I could never truly be anything different. And I thought you could never be, either. When I saw how beautiful you were growing, I knew only that you would be desired, sought after, that you would be rich. But you can be so much, have so much more! I know you can. Fame and jewels, my bonny Kate, can never feed a lonely heart. You were truly the only good, fine thing I ever had and I failed you."

Katerina sobbed in bewilderment. You never failed me, Mother! You loved me, and gave me everything. A fine education, gowns, jewelry. You were teaching me all you knew, all your secrets. You gave me freedom and riches....

Freedom? her mother whispered, sadder than Katerina could ever have imagined her. "Cara mia. A courtesan is the least free of all women. Even a nun in her cloister has more freedom."

But you always said that your career freed you from the mundane cares of married ladies! You had no household duties, no bowing and scraping to a husband, no dozens of brats clinging to your skirts.... Kate repeated the words she had heard hundreds of times from her mother.

I did not know the truth! I only knew the perimeters of my own life. It was truly full of jewels and fine things, but you do not know all that I did to earn them. A courtesan must be young and beautiful always. She must laugh and smile and be witty. She must never be tired or ill or make demands, or she would risk being accused by her men of being just like their wives. There is never true emotion, true conversation and meeting of the minds and hearts.

Katerina stared at her mother, confused and fascinated. I know that being amusing and charming is part of the role of courtesan. You taught me that well.

It is more than that! Lucrezia cried sharply, causing Katerina to tremble anew. "Bonny Kate, you must listen to me carefully, for my time here is growing short. If you continue on the path you are on now, you will never have a family or a true home. I tried so hard to groom you for my own life. I even tried to convince myself that it was what you really wanted. But you were always so dreamy and romantic, always reading your poetry and your horrid novels. You saw only the surface of my life, not the reality of it. But now you must take this gift you have been given."

Katerina wiped at her tears with the blankets. What gift, Mother? What could possibly come out of this horrible thing? She held out her arm, displaying the purple-and-blue bruises imprinted there.

Her mother gave her a fond, rueful little smile. "You are not thinking clearly, my Katerina. And after those books you buried your nose in! Now—think. Everyone will believe you have drowned along with the rest of us. Katerina Bruni is dead. You must make certain that she stays that way.

"You need only go somewhere new, far away, and begin a fresh life. Your father, God rest his soul, was English—perhaps London would hold some attraction for you. But anywhere would suffice for a different life."

Not go back to Venice? Katerina remembered again her mother's palazzo. She remembered the wild, wondrous parties there during carnival, masked revelers packed to the frescoed ceilings, couples kissing furtively in the shadows, amid glimpses of naked limbs and bosoms and heated cries. She remembered how the laughter and the music and the champagne would go on and on until dawn—and how she would watch from the upstairs gallery, wondering, fearing, what it would be like to be in the midst of that party.

It is the only life I know, she whispered.

"And that is my fault. I raised you in my own world. But there are other lives, better ones, more worthwhile ones, where you can find your own heart away from all the gilded rot. It is all there, just waiting for you to pick it up. Oh, cara, truly you are so much more lovely than I ever was, and more clever, too—clever in arts besides those of pleasing men. You can do anything you find that your heart desires."

Katerina took in those words, rubbing at her aching temples. Her mind raced with a torrent of thoughts, dreams—and fears. Could her dream mother be right? Could a chance grow from this tragedy? A gift.

She imagined the sort of new life her mother spoke of, a life with a home and family of her own, with love and security. Laughter and books, her body and mind belonging only to herself. A tiny hope bloomed slowly, reluctantly, in her most secret heart, like the rosebud of summer after a long winter. But... How could I afford to travel to a new place, to buy a new home? All our possessions are in Venice.

Her mother laughed again. My Kate, did I not just say you were clever? You must use that cleverness—always use it.

Katerina glanced over at the cloth bundle. Of course! Her jewels. How could she forget? A pearl and sapphire necklace, along with the matching earrings, bracelet, and brooch. The set had been a gift from her mother on her twentieth birthday, and she wore them for the first time on that yacht.

When I gave them to you, I meant for you to use them to entice a certain gentleman. To display your charms. Now they can bring you a new life, her mother said softly. It is my last, and best, gift to you. But you must use it quickly, bonny Kate. Before it is too late.

With one last cool, caressing touch, she was gone. As if she had never been there at all.

Like a dream.

Katerina squeezed her eyes tightly shut and let the images her mother's words had conjured for her sweep across her mind. A life of her own choosing. One without the glittering trappings of her mother's life, trappings Katerina had always thought she had to have. It was hard to let all of that, everything she had known in all her twenty years, go.

But—in the place of jewels and silks could be other things. Lasting things, true emotions as she read of in her beloved poetry.

Now, with her death, anything could be within her grasp. Anything at all.

She had only to reach out for it, and Katerina Bruni, daughter of the most famous courtesan in all of Venice, would cease to exist.

Chapter 1

England, One Year Later

Blood. So much blood.

It stained his hands, his clothes, soaked into his very soul, as he lifted his wife's delicate, broken body in his arms. Caroline's golden hair spilled down in a rippling, sunshine wave, just as it always did, but her violet blue eyes were glazed, sightless as they stared up endlessly at the sky.

Pain wracked his own body, stabbing at his face, his side, with white-hot blades. It was as nothing to the pain in his heart. He held his wife close, even as he knew she would be forever beyond his touch. The splintered wood of his own wrecked phaeton was all around them.

Caroline, he sobbed. Caroline. This is my fault. I am so sorry—don't leave me! Caro, come back to me. Come back to me....

Yet even as he buried his face in the bright cloud of her hair, as she fell limply against him, she faded from his grasp forever. He tried to hold on to her, but she was gone.

Gone...

* * *

Michael awoke with a sharp gasp. Caroline! he called. There was no answer from the shadows of his bedchamber. Nothing but his own voice, echoing back to him mockingly.

It was that dream again. The same dream that always came back to haunt him over the last long five years, just when he thought it was gone forever.

But it wouldn't leave. Not until he could forget that warm springtime day when Caroline died. And that would be never.

Michael rolled to his back, staring up at the underside of the bed-curtains. He took a deep, cleansing breath, and slowly came back into the reality of this room, this present moment.

I am no longer that reckless boy, he muttered. That careless life, that wild existence of gaming and drinking and dancing and coarse affairs, was buried with Caroline. He was no longer Hellfire Lindley; he was Mr. Michael Lindley, younger brother of the Earl of Darcy, respectable country landowner. He looked after his Yorkshire estate, took care of his family and his tenants and employees.

As far as he could get from the ballrooms and the stews of London.

Some days, when he was busy riding over his property, meeting with bailiffs, reviewing ledgers, he imagined—no, he knew—that life was left behind. But in the night, it was a very different story. The past and all his mistakes were waiting for him, waiting to grab and choke him.

Michael threw off the last hazy shackles of dream sleep and pushed himself out of bed. His nightshirt was damp with the sweat of his nightmare. He tore it off impatiently and tossed it to the floor. Naked, he strode across to the room's double windows. He opened the casements and let the chill night air flood over him, bringing calm with it.

The moon was nearly full, casting a pale, greenish glow over the gardens below. Far off in the distance, he saw the tall spire of the village's ancient Norman church. It glowed like an otherwordly scene from one of the horrid novels his wife had loved so much, as if restless, eternal spirits swirled among its tilting and moss-covered stones and angels. Yet on his own property, the gardens and fields of Thorn Hill, all was silent.

Michael leaned his palms against the wooden window ledge, not feeling the tiny sharp splinters that drove into his skin. He stared at the cross atop that distant spire, reaching up to the moonlit heavens.

Silent.

He closed his eyes, absorbing the night's peace into himself. Tomorrow was sure to be a busy day. It always was, during springtime in the country. He should be sleeping. But he knew that sleep was very far away, even as the night worked its slow, calming magic on his roiling thoughts.

Then he heard a noise, a soft thud, from the chamber next door to his. It was so soft, it would have been almost imperceptible. But Michael was always attuned to what happened in that room.

He spun away from the window and snatched up a dressing gown from the foot of the bed. He was striding from the chamber even as he shrugged the velvet over his nakedness.

The door to the other chamber was unlocked, and a solitary lamp burned steadily on a low, round table. It flickered in the darkness, casting back the menacing shadows, throwing a soft light over the child peacefully sleeping in the pink-and-white canopied bed.

Or rather the child who should be sleeping peacefully in the lacy little bed. She had rolled out of it, as she sometimes did despite the bolsters on either side of her, and she lay in a heap on the pink carpet. Still slumbering.

Michael smiled at the sight of her thumb popped into her rosebud mouth, and he knelt beside her to lift her gently into his arms. She murmured quietly, her head rolling against his chest, but she didn't wake. He laid her back against the ribbon-edged pillows and tucked the blankets around her.

Her tangled golden curls, full of a milky-sweet little-girl smell, tumbled over her brow. He smoothed that hair back, hair so much like her mother's, and lightly kissed her cheek. Just the sight of her brought back a portion of that ever so elusive peace.

When they first came to live at Thorn Hill, Amelia was frightened to be placed in an upper-floor nursery, so far from the grown-ups. Over her nursemaid's protests that he was spoiling the child, he moved her into the empty chamber next to his own. And he had never regretted it. Now he could soothe her bad dreams—and put her back into bed when she was restless in her sleep and fell.

Sleep well, Amelia, dearest, he whispered. Know that I will always be here to protect you.

As he could not protect her mother.

* * *

Michael, my dear! I have such wonderful news today.

His mother was far too cheerful and animated for so early in the morning, Michael thought as he made his way to his chair at the breakfast table. Especially since some people had been up since before dawn, unable to sleep. But it made a change from her usual worried frowns, her complaints about their neighbors, so he didn't mind so very much.

He smiled at her as he moved toward his seat, wincing a bit at the bright light from the large windows. Once, in another life, he was able to dance and gamble all night and still go to Gentleman Jackson's for a round of boxing in the morning. Those days were gone. The leg that had been broken in the phaeton crash and then healed wrongly gave him twinges after such sleepless nights. It felt a bit stiff as he lowered himself into the chair.

But he didn't want his mother to know that, and he would not take out his temper on her. He nodded pleasantly as she passed him a cup of steaming coffee. Have you indeed, Mother? Hm, good news. Now, what could it be? Ah, I know. The cook was able to procure lamb cutlets for dinner. Or the milliner in the village has some new ribbons from London in stock.

Jane Lindley, the Dowager Countess of Darcy (and she never let anyone forget the title!), laughed and shook an admonishing finger. Oh, Michael, how you do love to tease! I think you are laughing at your poor mother. But this is serious. Do you not wish to know what my news is?

Michael reached for the platter of eggs a footman had left conveniently near. You obviously want to tell me, Mother, and I do hate to curtail any of your pleasures. So why don't you go ahead and tell me?