The Vanishing Point: A Novel

Contents

Title Page

Contents

Copyright

Dedication

Epigraph

Prologue

I

The Dream of Comets

Pot of Honey

Fog

The Earth Demands Blood

The Cards

The Seeds

II

The Bower of Eden

Anne Arundel Town

The Dark Green Place

III

A Fish on Land

The Whole Cloth Unraveled

The Bed of Skins

The Crack in the Cradle

Rabbit Skin

IV

Near Drowning

The pact

Shadow Catcher

A Woman’s Fate

Above Rubies

His Wild Things

Cold Clay

Quiet as Bones

Made to Shine

Snake-Tongued

Join the Dance

Foxglove for the Heart

Poison

Heart Pierced by Three Arrows

If I Could be Faithful

Down in the Hollow

Even in Death

An Empty Chamber

Ash

The Lost Sister

V

At the Sign of the Mortar and Unicorn

The Vanishing Point

Afterword

Sample Chapter from ILLUMINATIONS

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Copyright © 2006 by Mary Sharratt

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ISBN-13: 978-0-618-46233-9

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1. Maryland—History—Colonial period, ca. 1600-1775— Fiction. 2. Women immigrants—Fiction. 3. Sisters—Death—Fiction. 4. Plantation owners—Fiction. 5. Plantation life—Fiction. I. Title.

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For Joske

Once upon a time the Americans were the British, lost. On the narrow lip of a distant continent, clutching their faith, songs, customs and memories, they were seventeenth-century space travelers, cut off from Planet Europe with its corruptions and tyrannies.

—Andrew Marr

Recorded history is wrong. It’s wrong because the voiceless have no voice in it.

—Mary Lee Settle

Prologue

Gloucestershire, England

HANNAH POWERS’S FATHER taught her about the masters of painting and engraving, how Albrecht Dürer and Leonardo da Vinci had transformed vision into a new geometry. He lectured Hannah on scale and proportion. The place where a ship was lost over the horizon was known as the vanishing point.

Their servant, Joan, was a woman of fifty-three years with ropy blue veins bulging out of her red hands. She taught Hannah and her sister, May, about another kind of vanishing, about the lost people who had once populated the West Country, indeed the entire island of Britain. Their stone arrows, green mounds, and dolmens still marked the land that had swallowed them. The first people.

Once, according to Joan, the faery folk had possessed physical bodies as plain and ordinary as anyone else’s. But over the centuries, they had become fey. Their bodies grew vaporous and insubstantial, visible only at twilight and in dreams. Fleeing church bells and the glint of iron, they shrank into their hollow hills.

A mere optical illusion, Hannah, her father told her, referring to the vanishing point on the horizon. In truth, the ship does not disappear. The vessel is still there, even if we on the shore cannot see it.

So it transpired that both people and ships could become ghosts without ever dying or sinking beneath the waves.

I

1

The Dream of Comets

May

1689

THE MORNING THE LETTER ARRIVED, May Powers awoke with a premonition. Before she even opened her eyes, her heart was pounding and her throat was so tight she thought she might choke. The taste of iron filled her mouth. Throwing the bedclothes aside, she told herself not to be silly. She laced her bodice over her shift and stepped into her skirt. After pinning her hair into a coil, she descended the narrow staircase to the kitchen to help Joan prepare breakfast. Father and Hannah were in the front room murmuring over his pile of books. May listened to them recite the Latin names of apothecary herbs.

The morning passed as uneventfully as any other, with wool to spin and seams to stitch. Just past midmorning, Hannah left for the market with Joan. In the garden, Father picked betony and woodruff. It was the end of May, the lovely month after which her departed mother had named her. The weather being fine, she took her spinning wheel to the front of the house so that she might look out on the village green, the sheep that grazed there, and the hills beyond. That morning her eyes were too restless to settle on the village; they kept wandering off toward the horizon.

When the rider trotted up to the garden gate on his mudspattered cob, she struggled to her feet as though waking from a dream. Is this the house of Daniel Powers? he asked.

May nodded, and the milky-faced youth leaned from his saddle and thrust a letter at her—a piece of folded paper, sealed with wax and marked by the many hands it had passed through until it had reached hers.

The letter did come all the way from America, said the rider, too imperious to even flirt.

A peculiar tingling gripped her. She remembered the dream she’d had just before waking—a dream of her father showing her comets through his telescope. As she peered through that lens, the sky filled with shooting flames.

The letter was addressed to her father, Daniel Powers, Physician. She read the name of the one who had sent it—Nathan Washbrook, her father’s distant cousin who had crossed the waters to Maryland.

Father! she cried, racing to the back of the house where he was gathering strawberry leaves. Father, look! A fever gripped her, the blood running in her veins like hot wine as she broke the seal herself, not waiting for her father’s permission.

Under the hawthorn tree, beneath that canopy of foamy white flowers, she read the letter aloud. When she handed the letter to him, he nodded, as if he already knew its message. Father and daughter were silent, but the words May had read remained in the air, buzzing around them like flies.

What think you of the letter, May?

She plucked a handful of hawthorn flowers, crushing them in her left hand while holding the letter in her right.

Father wrapped his arm around her shoulders. My dear, can you forgive me? A year ago, I took the liberty of writing to our cousin Nathan and telling him you were still unwed. In faith, it was I who planted the idea in his head.

Had Joan and Hannah been present, there would have been hysterics. The garden would have rung with shouting, curses, and tears. But between May and her father there was neither discussion nor debate. Her fingers went limp, hawthorn flowers and letter falling to the grass. Father took her hand.

Could you consent?

You might have told me this was coming, she said. Then, looking into his eyes, she read his will. He had been praying for this offer, this miracle, to take the burden of her future off his hands.

Females are scarce in the Colonies, Cousin Nathan had written. My Son needs a Wife. He is a healthy young Man of eighteen Years. I would rejoice to have your eldest Daughter May for his Bride. In Truth, I care not that your Daughter is without Dowry. I have Wealth enough and have already paid eight Hogs Head Barrels of Tobacco to the Ship Captain to assure her speedy Passage. Please be good as your Word and see that she sails out on the Cornucopia in August.

He expected her to leave already in August, only two months away? And offering her a boy of eighteen as a bridegroom! She was twenty-two. May nearly laughed aloud. Aware of her father’s somber gaze, she sobered and considered. On the one hand, what choice did she have if she wanted to save herself and her sister from penury? Though her father was a doctor of physick, making money had never been one of his talents. In recent years, his health had gone into decline. There was no son to carry on his business. When he died, she and her sister would have to sell his globe and telescope, his skeleton and surgical instruments, his books and diagrams of human organs. Even this house would be taken from them, for they merely rented it. She and Hannah would be dowerless spinsters, wards of the parish. After what she had done to disgrace herself, ruining her chances of honorable marriage, how dare she refuse? She was twenty-two, her sister only fifteen. The burden of securing their future fell upon her.

On the other hand, what an adventure! She half believed the letter had come to answer her own prayers of deliverance. When she was a young girl, long before she had discovered the lusts that plagued her body and spoiled her reputation, she had dreamt of setting sail for unknown worlds. Once she had declared to her sister, If I were a boy, I would run away to sea. Only a roving young man could be as free as she longed to be. When she closed her eyes, she saw not a young bridegroom but herself at the bow of a ship.

Leaving Father alone in the garden, his query unanswered, she ran to his study, took the globe from its place on the shelf, and spun it until her eyes blurred. He found her there, twirling his prized globe. She laughed uncontrollably, her whole body shaking. Laughter was her weakness. May laughed the way other girls cried. Once she got started, there was no stopping her. Turning to her father, she laughed in his face. Without a shred of submission or obedience, she told him, Yes, Father. Yes, I consent.

…

Fancy his name being Washbrook, May said, trying to make light of it in the face of Joan’s glowering. Is he descended from a line of launderers?

I have half a mind to throttle that father of yours, said Joan. You know nothing of that boy.

May, Joan, and Hannah circled around a walnut chest carved with roses and thorns, which had belonged to the girls’ mother, her maiden name having been Hannah Thorn. Once May had believed that the flowering white thorn bushes were named after her. May had lost her mother at the age of seven, so her memories of her were fleeting. Mostly she recalled her mother’s cheer and wit, how she could draw Father out of his dreariness and make him smile. Father lived in a world of sickness, death, and bleeding that terrified May. She despised the skeleton in his study, the preserved calf heart in the glass jar. What good was her father’s medicine if he had not been able to keep her mother alive?

As the eldest, May would inherit her mother’s trunk and its contents. Joan dug out the clothes and linens, the tiny infant clothes and christening gown, and laid them out on the freshly swept floor. Every article would be washed and ironed before it crossed the ocean with May. At the bottom of the chest was a woman’s shift and nightcap, but the shift was an odd one, being slit in front up to the waist. When Joan held it up to the light and shook out the dust, the sight was so lewd that May had to laugh, her fist covering her mouth.

Our mother wore such a shift?

Joan’s reply was brusque. It was her lying-in gown. The gown she bore you in.

The linen was so yellowed with age, it looked as if it had been handed down from their great-grandmother. Hannah went white in the face; her birth had caused their mother’s death. As long as May lived, she would never forget the sight of Mother’s drained face, mouth frozen open but silenced forever while the infant shrieked and shrieked. Hannah had been so frail, everyone feared she would follow her mother to the grave. When May looked back, she suspected the only thing that prevented Father from going insane from grief was his struggle to keep the baby alive. Ever after, he had harbored a special tenderness for Hannah that he had never shown for May.

It hadn’t helped that May so resembled her mother. The likeness had only grown stronger when she became a woman. Joan said that even her laughter sounded like Mother’s, her lightness and humor, her refusal to dwell on gloomy things. While Mother was yet alive, Father used to sit May on his lap. He taught her to read, do figures, and showed her shooting stars through his telescope. But after Mother’s death, he had withdrawn from her, leaving her upbringing to Joan. Her resemblance to Mother had only caused him pain. If May allowed self-pity to creep into her head, she could easily convince herself that she was twice as orphaned as Hannah, but she brushed such thoughts aside. In August she would be leaving home forever; she refused to allow jealousy or resentment to cloud her final days with her family. Before anyone could notice her silence and ask what was on her mind, she folded the birthing gown and laid it on the floor with the other things.

Joan gripped her shoulder. And on your wedding night, what will happen when he discovers you are no maid?

At this, Hannah crept out of the room. May looked into Joan’s eyes without flinching. You know as well as I, she said, that even the most hardened rake cannot tell a maiden from a whore if she holds herself tight enough. She swallowed and tried to smile. If he goes looking for blood, I shall prick my finger with a needle. Then she shook her head. Oh, Joan, I don’t think Father kept my history secret from them. I think they know already what kind of girl I am. Before Joan could berate her any more, May embraced the older woman, who wept noisily in her arms.

Your own father is shunting you off for a pile of tobacco!

Hush, May whispered. I go freely. I have chosen this.

2

Pot of Honey

May

AT THE AGE OF FIFTEEN, May had started with the boys. In the beginning, she had tried to be a decent girl, contenting herself with kisses, sweet words, and secret glances. But her hunger mounted, not leaving her in peace until she took her first love, the baker’s youngest son, by the hand and led him to the copse of willows behind the churchyard wall. Opening her legs, she had drawn him deep inside her, let him pierce her through.

May and her first love took to meeting in the meadow near the gristmill. Those were the hours she felt most alive, sprawled in the grass, limbs flung open so that her body took the shape of a star. She felt as though she could rise and float up over the clouds, even as he covered her with his body, anchoring her to the earth. He brought her cider, which she drank until the stars began to spin and her throat burst with laughter. He called her his angel. She could sport all night, rolling in the grass with her sweet boy, threading her fingers through his hair, kissing the cider from his lips. She caressed him and rubbed her body against his until the stars fell from the sky and silvered their naked skin.

She took care not to get herself with child. Joan had grudgingly shown her the method she herself had used to prevent conception in her younger days. May took a tuft of clean sheep’s wool, dipped it in honey, and thrust it into the mouth of her womb. There was no shortage of wool in her village. Every week May received a great heap of it to card, comb, and spin. Her fingers were so nimble that in a good week she earned nearly as much from her spinning as her father earned from his languishing practice of physick. As for the honey, Joan kept two hives at the bottom of their garden.

Her first love had called her his honey pot. That thrilled her. If only he knew how true it was. She was a walking pot of honey, the golden sweetness seeping between her legs. When he lapped it from her sticky thighs, he fancied it was her own unique sweetness he tasted. Honey was delicious and pleasing. It also killed a man’s seed before it could reach her womb.

A few hours before daybreak, when May crawled back to bed with the honey still glazed on her thighs, she was too breathless to sleep. It was Hannah who eased her into slumber, Hannah with her sweet breath, her arm flung around May’s waist, her red hair spread over the pillow like a silk shawl. Those in their village who dismissed Hannah as plain had no clue how winsome she looked in sleep, how innocent. May’s trysts left her moist-eyed with love, not just for her lover, but for everything she saw. Those nights she thought she could embrace the whole world. She imagined that in her intimate encounters, she experienced the same ecstasies of universal love that holy men experienced in prayer. Her trysts gave her such an infusion of the life elixir that their household no longer seemed such a lonely and somber place.

In the morning, between spoonfuls of porridge swimming in thick cream, she smiled across the table at her father, who commented on the healthy glow in her face and inquired if she had slept well. Father, God bless him, slept so soundly she could creep from her chamber night after night without troubling him. Indeed, his thoughts were so immersed in his books and jars of physick herbs, it was as though he lived in a lofty tower far above ordinary affairs. The clucking of the village gossips never penetrated his ears. Hannah was too loyal to betray her. Joan only rolled her eyes.

Neither she nor her lover ever spoke of marriage. For a youngest son with few prospects, marrying her was a dream beyond his means. She knew that Father would never let her wed a baker’s son. As for her own desires, trysting in the meadow was more beguiling than the prospect of setting up a household. She lived for that sweet excitement of brand-new love when she couldn’t sleep for the pounding in her heart. When she saw the village wives with their pregnant bellies and gaggles of snivel-nosed brats, she pitied them. Yet before she could further contemplate her future with the boy, he left to visit his kin in Cornwall. Both he and May thought he would be gone only a few weeks. However, he never returned. Later May discovered that his parents, not approving of his infatuation for her, had arranged for him to be apprenticed to a cooper in Truro. Never having learned to read or write, the boy could send her no message of how he fared. In ballads, girls who lost their lovers drowned in a river of their tears. May did her share of weeping, but she reasoned that if her mother were alive, she would not want her to pine for him forever.

The young blacksmith, working half naked in the summer heat, had the most beautiful torso, golden and glistening. When he looked up from the anvil and met her stare, she winked and turned, inviting him to follow her into the alleyway, where he playfully pressed her up against the wall, his sweaty chest marking the front of her dress. She licked the sweat from his face like a mother cat.

Sometimes she felt as though she were questing after a dream lover, an irresistible phantom who enticed her from her bed night after night. His face kept changing. He could appear to her in any guise he chose—as the baker’s son, the blacksmith, or even some young rag seller. Each time she took a new lover, swearing that he was the one she would love forever, another apparition appeared, stretching out his hand and smiling as if he had been her destined match all along. When she thought she had finally grasped him, the divine lover of her dreams, the enchantment vanished. She found herself embracing an ordinary village boy who taunted her for her loose ways and called her a trollop.

Before the illusion shattered, it was so sweet. The stars rained on her body as her lover plunged inside her. The next morning, she dredged out the honey-and-sperm-soaked wool and dropped it down the privy hole. Without uttering a word to Father, Joan brewed her decoctions of pennyroyal, tansy, and rue to ensure that her menses arrived promptly. May’s belly remained flat as any virgin’s. The village whispered it was witchcraft that she never got herself with child.

This was when May felt the first hint of dread. A few years before her birth, a woman had been accused of bewitching a married man and cursing him so that his wife remained barren. The woman had been tried, found guilty, then strung from the gallows. The story went that her body had been so slender and lightboned, the hangman had to grab her around the waist and yank hard until her neck snapped. Father said that no educated man believed in witches anymore, but Joan had warned May that in some villages, wanton girls like herself were publicly whipped, then locked in the stocks, and left there for everyone to jeer at and mock. Though the stocks in her village were rarely used, May felt a tremor whenever she walked past them.

Still, nobody troubled her. Father, after all, was a respected man. Half the village was in debt to him, for he treated the poor without asking payment. It helped that she looked so innocent with her large blue eyes. She never failed to appear in church, hands clasped and head bowed while the preacher railed on and on. When he addressed her sins—without naming her, thankfully—she put every ounce of will into appearing contrite. Only when the sermon was over did she raise her eyes to the Green Man carved in the church wall. His face emerged from a dense tangle of oak leaves. More leaves sprouted from his lips. The stone face smiled, as if to tell her that he understood her, even if no one else did. In the midst of all the talk of hell and damnation, the Green Man watched over her and gave her his blessing.

The year she turned nineteen, the innkeeper’s son, smitten with her, declared that he would put an end to her wildness. When he asked for her hand in matrimony, Father agreed at once. An eldest son, he had good prospects. Properly affianced, he and May could court in public with no subterfuge or shame. On Sunday afternoons, they went for endless walks, Hannah tagging after them as their self-appointed chaperone. Still, May could not quite fathom marriage. In her dreams, they simply went on courting forever. Eventually the banns were posted. Joan and Hannah summoned her to the market to pick out the satin and lawn for her bridal gown. The wedding date was set.

Three weeks before she was to be married, she and her fiancé went to the harvest fair in the next village. May wore green ribbons in her hair. She and her lover drank mead from the same cup. A piper and fiddler played, and all around them young people danced: shepherds and servant girls, milkmaids and farmhands. But May’s fiancé did not want to join the dance. Instead he spoke with his brother about the cost of fixing the thatch on the inn roof, about how they couldn’t afford to replace the thatch with slate. They spoke of their senile mother, how she needed a good nursemaid to look after her, and how none of May’s father’s remedies had done her any good. Then May’s future brother-in-law, drunk on the mead, let his tongue slip, making a gibe about her lack of dowry. What use is there bringing home a prized mare if she come not with a wagon of hay to feed her? And a used mare she is, besides.

May waited for her fiancé to speak up in her defense, but he just laughed and pinched her cheek. Not wanting to pout, she pretended to laugh along. She reached for the mead, only to discover that the cup was empty, and then it seemed that the empty cup was an omen, informing her that life as she knew it would soon be over. After the wedding feast, there would be no more dancing, no more slipping behind the hedges in the village green. She would be nursemaid to her mother-in-law, laundering the old woman’s piss-stained sheets, enduring the old woman’s insults and her brother-in-law’s slights. She would hide her hair beneath a housewife’s cap, keep her husband’s house, bear his children. Her loins clenched at the memory of her mother’s racked body on the blood-drenched bed. She almost fancied that her mother’s ghost was warning her to save herself before it was too late. Darling, you can see that this is no life for you.

When she stepped away, she expected her fiancé to follow, take her hand, ask what vexed her. He still had the power to draw her back, charm away her doubts. But neither he nor his brother paid her any mind. With heavy feet, she marched into the thick of the dancers. They whirled around her, beat their feet into the earth, kicked up clouds of dust that shone like gold in the evening sun. A barefoot tinker stood on his own. His waving hair fell to his shoulders. His shirt, made of parti-colored rags stitched together, was open in the heat, baring his collarbone and smooth chest. His eyes were clouded hazel, full of mirth. Those eyes undid her. He winked, his face open and shining. When he held out his hand, she felt the overpowering tug, the intoxication sweeter than mead. Stepping forward, she squeezed his hand and let him pull her body against his as if they were already lovers. Then all was a blur of the dust they raised with their wild dance. When the music stopped she kissed him. His mouth tasted of wild blackberries.

Her fiancé and his brother left her there, in the tinker’s arms. Rushing back to the village, her fiancé tore down the banns announcing their marriage. Meanwhile the tinker led May to his makeshift tent at the edge of the woods. When he pushed up her skirts and stroked the insides of her thighs, she felt so light, as though she had left her body and earthly existence behind. She kissed him fiercely and drew him inside her. Afterward they sat by the campfire and shared a supper of streaky bacon and bread. Then, despite his entreaties, May pulled herself away. She walked alone and unclaimed to her father’s house.

Father could hardly look at her. Even Hannah appeared bruised and betrayed. Joan cornered May in the kitchen. You have brought dishonor on us all. Your poor sister is ashamed to show her face in public. Did you ever stop to think about your father? Wherever he goes, people laugh behind his back.

May wept, but the shaming was nothing in the face of her desire, that pull on her that set her pulse racing. Within a fortnight she took up with a young weaver.

By the time she turned twenty-one, her pond had run dry. From the rich crop of boys she had once loved had grown a field of jaded men, most of them now married. They warned their wives what would happen to them if they ever started taking after May Powers. One morning she awoke with the taste of too much cider in her mouth, bruises on her arms and thighs. Boys followed her down alleys, singing not sweet songs but obscene ditties. Cherry-red, cherry-red, like a slut’s own bed. At village dances, disgusting old men took liberties, pawing her bosom and rump, then laughing at her outraged protests. Joan told her she should have thought of the consequences earlier.

In the eyes of her village, she had become something much worse than an old maid. Joan said she was a fool for not marrying the innkeeper’s son when she had the chance. He was a fine man these days, with money in his purse and a baby boy. His wife was a mild-faced, yellow-haired woman who never raised her voice. She had come with a dowry of two milk cows and eight pounds in sterling.

…

When Nathan Washbrook’s summons arrived, May reminded herself that she had loved many men. Odds were that she could find something to love in young Gabriel. But in those final days, her bridegroom was far from her mind. At every opportunity she stole into Father’s study to examine his celestial globe and maps of the heavens. In her dreams, she was not earthbound but flew unfettered through the endless vault of stars. Nothing could stop her, nothing could contain her. She imagined the unexplored new world that would soon be hers.

The night before she was to sail, at the hour when she should have gone to her bed, she smuggled Father’s telescope to her room. She opened the window wide and gazed through the lens. For all their distance, the stars shone warmly, beckoning to her like long-lost friends. If she could find her way back to them, she would be complete. What path might her life have taken if Father had given her the same education as Hannah, if he had encouraged her to be studious, if she had spent those countless afternoons poring over books instead of sneaking out to meet boys? A whole other future could have been hers. Yet when she asked herself if she regretted anything, she had to concede that she did not. If she had been a good girl, Father would never have thought to send her on this voyage.

Peering through the lens, she entreated the night sky to reveal her destiny. A moment later she was rewarded with the sight of a meteor stitching its way across the sky in a brilliant streak. Soon there was not one but many. The heavens filled with shooting stars.

Hannah, come look! She handed her the telescope. Surely this is a good omen.

Her sister glanced only briefly through the telescope before passing it back. Her face was pinched and her eyes were red.

May touched Hannah’s cheek. Will you not be happy for me?

They are sending you into a wilderness!

May folded her sister in her arms while the girl wept like a lost child. Her tears soon soaked through May’s nightgown. Stroking her hair, May remembered the first time she had held Hannah, a newborn with an angry red face, screaming for her mother, who was no longer there. And now I am leaving her, too. May struggled not to cry. There was no telling what might happen if she let this overwhelm her.

Aye, a wilderness they say it is. May hugged her sister tighter. But have you never wondered, Hannah, what a wilderness is like? She thought of the tinker she had never seen again. If she could be born again, she would be that young man wandering from village to village with his satchel and tent, masterless and free. That night as she slept with Hannah in her arms, she dreamt she was a comet blazing her trail across the night sky.

3

Fog

Hannah

IT’S NOT TOO LATE. Hannah tightened her grip on her sister’s hand. You can still say no. Lips to May’s ear, she pleaded. Say you’ll stay here with us.

On the Bristol pier, Hannah struggled to hold on to her sister, whose body kept shifting under her green cloak. May was as slippery as a mermaid and as difficult to hold on to. Sometimes it was hard to believe this beautiful, capricious person was truly her sister. Since she and May were as different as day and night, Father’s friends liked to joke that one of them must be a changeling. May was everything Hannah thought she could never be—tall and dazzling with her chestnut hair, her full bosom, her sky-blue eyes. Her wide hips promised ease in childbirth. Hannah was six inches shorter, skinny and hard. If she were to cut off her frizzy red hair and put on a pair of breeches, she could pass for a boy. The only womanly thing about her was how easily she wept.

How can you leave us for a stranger? she whispered. Even while she and May had embroidered the wedding dress, Hannah had prayed that her sister would have an outburst of her usual temper and declare that she was not really making the journey halfway around the world to marry some distant cousin. May had never obeyed Father or anyone else but done what she pleased. How had she consented to this? Hannah could not forgive May her eagerness, the way she gazed at the tall-masted ships and the sailors climbing the riggings. Some of the men were brown as bread, others black as molasses, gold glinting from their ears. When they came to port, Bristol smelled of spices and citrus fruit from faraway countries. Also moored in the harbor were the slave ships, human cargo chained in the hold. Hannah could not bring herself to look at those vessels. Father had told her that slavery was an abomination, and yet he was sending May to the Chesapeake, where rich planters built their fortunes on the backs of such slaves.

You act as if it were some game, she told May. Then she closed her eyes as a queasiness passed through her, the skin around her mouth growing tight and cold.

"Oh, Hannah, you will not have one of your fits. You will not. Besides, May whispered, fingering a stray lock of her sister’s red hair, it is an adventure." The wind sweeping off the harbor brought out the bloom in May’s face as she smiled. She kissed Hannah’s forehead.

The next one you kiss shall be him!

May laughed.

Hannah wrapped her fingers around her sister’s wrists. What if he is a monster, a beast?

You think too much of tragedy and pain. May wiped Hannah’s tears. We shall only be parted a very short while. Soon enough you shall join me on the other side.

Hannah glanced at Father, who stood guard over May’s trunk. He was growing frailer with each passing winter. Just as May considered it her duty to cross the ocean and marry, it was Hannah’s lot to look after their father until his death.

Two or three years, not more, May whispered. Sadness crept into her voice. Then you shall sail over to me. By that time, you shall be all grown up. I shall have planted my garden with the seeds you gave me. I will plant more rosemary than anyone has seen. They say it grows well in that climate. She smiled, inviting Hannah to smile with her. When rosemary grows in the garden, the saying went, the mistress rules the house.

Hannah watched May embrace Father.

Give my love to Joan, May called, about to board the ship with the two sailors who carried her trunk.

Hannah threw herself in her path. I gave you quill, ink, and paper! I hope you shall put them to use.

I shall write as soon as I am safe on the other shore.

In your trunk there are stoppered bottles of water. Ration them well. And there are three loaves of bread besides, and a cake. Hannah had heard terrible stories of the food aboard those ships: nothing but brackish water in leaking casks, oversalted meat, and hard biscuit crawling with weevils.

Dear Hannah. May held her as the crowd pressed around them. She gave her sister one last kiss before climbing aboard the ship. For a while she stood at the rail and shouted her farewells. Then, as more people pushed around her, she lost her place and was swallowed by the throng. The sailors untied the ropes, and the ship slowly