The Adventures of Abpoe: Vol. One
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The Adventures of ABPoe: Vol One is a collection of insight and memories found and formed between the years of 2000 and 2011. It contains statements on life, death, the self, truth, society, and personal opinion. Broken into four parts, each was written separately, but together provide a journey through introspection, individuality, and inherent information. Collected letters and journals have provided most of the details, and the outcome is a vast and fiery assortment of memories and perspective. Inspired by the cut up method as devised by Brion Gysin and William S Burroughs.
Patrick Ovington
Patrick Ovington was born in 1977 on the west coast of Canada in a medium-sized town full of regular people. As a child, he was fairly average, but as adolescence occurred, anomalies began to persist. Artistic endeavors, the performing arts, and film became hobbies that remain active today. School became secondary as he felt somewhat dispelled from its intent. Education lost its necessity as simple reading and writing proved a greater learning curve. This brought about travel, early employment, and self-awareness at an early age. Currently residing in Vancouver, BC Canada, Patrick is an independent artist and writer.
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The Adventures of Abpoe - Patrick Ovington
Copyright © 2017 by Patrick Ovington.
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Contents
Hello. Allow Myself To Welcome You.
What Is Grace?
The Restoration
PART ONE
BRIEFLY TO BE ALONE.
THE VACANCY OF BRUISING IS NOT TOO DEEP.
TOLD TO DO THIS, BUT PASSION REGAINED.
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four: These Are From The Archives
PART TWO
A COMPARITIVE ANALYSIS OF THE PROPOSED BUDGET
ESTIMATE FOR SUNDANCE UNIT NO 6
Prologue
Chapter One: A Less Experienced Speaker
Chapter Two: What Can It Be Now?
Chapter Three: Already?
Chapter Four: The End Of Reality
Chapter Five: This So-Called Sinister Grim
Chapter Six: Sitting In The Sun’s Purge With Salt
Chapter Seven: Sleeping In The Moon’s Luxury With Pepper
PART THREE
FOR A BUMPY RIDE IS SURE TO FOLLOW
Article One
Part One
PART FOUR
IMPOSITION CAN DISRUPT THE PAST
Autobiography
Synopsis
This is dedicated to all the souls I have known and lost,
AB Poe
HELLO. ALLOW MYSELF TO WELCOME YOU.
Y OU SEEM TO be startled and nervous, have a seat, put your feet up, and make yourself more vulnerable. May I take your coat? Your hat? Your shoes? Let us have a drink together shall we, and what is your preference? That is better is it not? Just relax. Let all your worries out, release all those crinkles, and rest within strident ease. Let those concerns in your head loosen, and please my leaned inspection by putting down your guard and setting free your shield. Watch this waking moment.
It swims and swims to run upstream, but lacks a note for currency. The moment swims and swims without affixing mourning. It swims and swims and swims forever with no destination for the distance. It just swims sustained by gills of certainty. Perhaps it is like what our mothers told us, Be careful what you wish for.
Let me get you another drink to allow for further conversation. Bring back these strips of irony to clasp these bonds within us. Let me tell you a tale before boredom induces another thought sincerely stressed to wish you everything is fine. How are you? Do you feel better? Here is hoping good things should happen, good cheer, and more importantly good health even better than before. To recover in advance, this comes, and you are well to feeling good so hasten recovery in a most effective way.
The blankets are wrappings that just grow richer with each year to those who hold them dear. Let the joy we are all sharing be loved by one and all. May hours be somewhat less to bear by knowing others sympathize and truly care, deep and true, all the happiness lies ahead for you! Many more years to share this special time. Pleasant wishes from me to you for the rest of the year. Best wishes it is understood so get well, and stay that way irrevocably. A simple, little phrase, but when it comes to you, it means the same, old wish that you have heard before, along with many more, but every time that it is said may it bring elation by simply coming true. Hold what is the happiest as options hurry passed. Grow in turn more than the last because the longer the turn the greater the treasure in a manner to fill this life with pleasure. The perfect life may be the future that life can hold for you.
ABPoe
WHAT IS GRACE?
C LIPPINGS OF REMEMBRANCE grow from an infantile placement, emerge into adult consequence, and implore an unfathomable procession of progression. Humans appropriate the mass, absolving past, present, and future with the concentric concept of the self. Although what is consumed, created, and consecrated spans beyond the singular meaning of life, the extension of the interior and exterior self define grace.
Wounds heal, slowly itching, and scathing memory the preoccupied, subsiding balance seeks refuge in burial. The remains equate the worn age of life and form, tabulating the contest of scarred feet, blistered hands, and weeping heads. The premature comfort of quickened compassion strikes the derelict memories with concentrated righteousness. The sequential bliss stretching eternity, but the brevity of joy does shroud the light with shadows. Flamboyant uncertainty and menial bounty construct conception out of working life. The proposition of choice, the declaration of independence, and the undisputed resolve of reason that within the amalgamated love, grief, and destiny manufacture experience.
The filtered optimism of opportunity and the possibility to believe something else is the complicated department of truth. The questions pondered in the tactile, aesthetic value of provision and posterity awaken alert and alive with the problematic argument that instills the truth with lies. Every person in the universal truth is ingrained in a personal trap that cannot entangle the universal whole because physical evidence counteracts the effect of truth. Superiority, reason, even the consideration of the truth reproduces objective feelings and thoughts that resemble antithetical activity. The exposition of life, love, and understanding are minimized by the balance of body, mind, spirit, and of course perspective. Every person contains perspective within the restoration of the truth. The world of non-physical enterprise does discover the essence behind it all.
Grace is enthralled in routine, submerged in personality, and coexists to provoke an ascent of growth. It incites individual truth, but also protests against it via the use of examples. It retorts when spoken to, and the explanation insists it is best to not mistake progress for the appraisal of worth. This postulation proves something amidst the transparent tides of mood and mission. The bewildering dilemma of life remains sin and salvation. Safety consults monoliths of security, and the landscapes of syndication dance steps across the sky. The confused dots wobble, pulse a circular dance to praise this friendly assembly. Silence upholds the grave in clamps of scrap. The social view is to garnish faces with belief in the awareness of this overcast resolution. The loss of ideal, the collected fear and atrophy abiding in broadcasts of subterranean, subconscious standards sensing the solution not by responsibility, but because the future contains what we receive, reprieve, and resent. Our fate in one word, Grace.
Dew on the table makes the paper stick like glue. A firm surface with a glistened, gliding stance, and the dysfunction comes with the application. Horny? Do you want my baby? Sexual intercourse is inherent in our creation, and its fundamental basis is unavoidable. The display of such an open ideal has allowed for endless depravity. Orgies, homosexuality, and the divergent subcultures created by men and women to increase pleasure do prey on increased numbers. Marriage has declined, child birth has increased, and sexually transmitted diseases as well as physical trauma develop with the inscription of sex. It is a powerful drug, an emotional attachment, and divergence from mundane existence, but precedence over order, decency, and enlightenment is not more rewarding. Man is on his way, cross stepping the stay, In order to succumb to death one has to live a life.
The story never changes, and the lyrics stay in tune. No more Mr. Nice Fellow, here comes Mrs. Bright Mellow! Step forward through the motion, and no longer by the notion of slight reprieve in calm belief for sweet relief; the remedy does come. The maker comes quicker with the vexing light that flickers endless, paraphrased nonsense. Gum boots for the wicked. Boredom on a sloppy habit. Nothing ever changes, but it does evolve, erects itself as an implemented method, and breaks away the directory. It means energy flushes a wind of coherent voice, and it dictates pervasive prose in the indoctrinated meaning of life. The dissuaded guide of love and happiness bends a fierce storm that lacerates the world. The ship is torn apart, and the deck mates shriek in anguished blindness. The waters cloud everything with whispers of deep decay, and the stinging salt destroys the air in the absolving, murky light. The boat does sink in swift distortion, and Poseidon’s gurgling grasp awaits the swollen remains of oblique blackness. Down and down into the truth. The swallowed whole of awakening. Breath. The stillness of shamed caresses, lips aback the ear, and hands upon the back. Wanton misdirection, endless synopsis for the ordinary blame, and conscripted nonsense in the daily routine. Guilt and awareness, truth and consequence, belief and faith; all are equal formations of discourse to deliver the ritual, and the dance therein is one’s own. Each contain a different step to the connation of the mass, and conformity is idealized discovery. Words and only words, but discussion brings us beyond their meaning. Their proportions manipulate the mass to implicate the order, but transcendence through a literati means distraction, abstraction, and malleable words. The mangled prose to disclaim the end, and postulate abiding time. Massive strokes of change, and the unending dichotomy of self and choice. The peripheral view of aim, and the discontent, discerned state of being. Compassion, coincidence, and circumstance afloat on a sea of limitless options. Images maim the sounds, smell taints the taste, and touch falsifies the sight of this colorized management of persuasion.
What does this mean? These opulent words on a crazed spree of contained nothingness, and the messages convey more than assurance, redemption, and waiting. The mass with hope is harmoniously at home. The beliefs of history are mourned in the wakened change of tomorrow, and the discernment congeals the mass with the state because all things are as they appear and not as they are seen. Perception riddles the course, personality alters the affect, and problematic continuation allows for progression with or without a realization for right or wrong, true or false, wonder or woe.
Memories of the path, messages in the clearing, and measurement of the mass. The words inform the motive, and personal logic illuminates the faded assimilation of usage. We are as we are, and we do design this sense of worldly creation, but how we articulate it is us naturally, and does not reside with knowledge of awareness. One is unlike the next in this worldly notion of unravelling time, but we attribute this contrived movement of progress to a presented result. Life remains the beginning, and the directed self believes in tomorrow, the world, and the wonder.
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THE RESTORATION
T HE WISE TRUTH from logs are moments adding such refinery that the pressure brings them out, and losing track the rails collide. The lost become the found in a remedy mixed by grinding souls. The resource reacts quickly and the figments evolve into life. Choice reasons action, meaning instills the truth, and we all play our part in this world of restoration.
Masquerading, dirty, and disheveled secrets run the width of a soul lying dormant hoping not to come out from the dark. Lies, silence, and common disinterest fondling the dark with imperfection. The reverence in resolution revolving the world’s decay as tomorrow praises the silence. Promises ask the web of sweet conviction to break the rows of resolve and question these points of kindness. We devolve further still to catch the fire burning our well.
Ignorance regrets the walking ire. Cold steps waking quips of messy mission. Action catapults a thousand dreams, wisdom sees it justly, and discarding the truth the secrets swirl in the cycle of life. Unknowns, indecision, and fraud are false morals of design and defeat, but the actions themselves live in repeat. Nonetheless these things are not mentioned in this light of day. They tremble in fear of ownership, and walk with every man, but there is no intended bias due to the truth forming the truth. Here, however, the average, simple man does not last long.
Women within this realm beseech the smoke. For whatever the reason they bridle time with theory in order to manipulate their secrets. They want the truth, recognize it, but deny themselves to evoke a trial of hardship. Women weave deeper gloom than the average man, but they all cringe in the shadows as they saunter to the light. We all weaken and lose, may well win to choose, or wilt within the defiled force of life’s majestic atonement.
Here forgiveness cannot be found. Persecution is restless in a tainted heart, and the consequence does not dwindle lightly. Men and women within this realm are forged to play the cycle of life with slow tears, crumpled time, and forgotten dreaming. The faint hearted apathy enrolls the mind with these secrets. The created smog of certainty and the debris of sanity are in the mangled past of discontent love. Laid open, scorned, and ravaged life becomes relentless, staggered personality, and time entails the sense therein. What is done becomes the objective as growth due to age retires. Death answers the actions with the balance of opportunity granting life the riddle of recognition. Framed and hung, the essence of breath fills the lungs. Eternity passes, takes it in, puts it out, and watches the conclusion code the person.
Where the ruins practise bleak observation there is the presence of mimicked individuals. The secrets contort in order to pass the future here. When the future is consequence the choice to hide within the lies rides the truth with daylight, and the singular meaning of time behind closed doors and drawn windows radiates solemnly. The provoked sensations of continued exploitation, and the abhorrent, little people prove their schemes amidst the twilight of doubt and certainty. We recede to the darkness, and the diverse landscape enters an everlasting alley. The moon hangs low in a dream of captivity with danger tuned to ignorance, and discomfort stitching imagination in an ordeal of spectacular horror. The puddles that cast the moon’s reflection are the scolded eyes of recollection.
Death weevils eating nature’s composition as days go by with the inconsistent duty of life strayed from reason. Sobriety seldom stays the night, but the welcomed wishing in the well supports the self. Debased and fawning, the head is held high in the domain of resistance. The shifted purpose of wanton experience is understood frankly.
The wise do believe the willing truth and light regardless of stature. Up, down, and all around the proof remains the same. We merely need to know what to do with the moment standing now. Freedom runs the race off course, and wins by the sheer logic in the direction of duty. It calls the self the world in order to display the sense of wonder we disbelieve. The steps of living trial, doubt, and fear burden the balance of blessing, but the questionable acceptance of this persuasion proves instability and deceit. The torturous rendition of being alive accepts what is given, chances what one can, and paces an ordinary cage for sleazy beasts like us.
Condemned by freedom, choice approaches decline, and the ebb of flowing circumstance gives answered law the preference of desire according to its just desserts. This relies on those of us here. Those of us lingering on the furtive edge of peace, time, and reason. The disdained ordeal, trivial meaning, and reproach of activity fold into the response of decay. Death holds our bearing like a granule of sand that sifts through thought to present the fabricated details that provide sulking hope, but death’s random features have brought us here as the straight and narrow hold tomorrow. Preparing the waking light, and watching the interest and bias result from the gnarled snare, we trap worldwide mercy, spreading whim, discovered sin, and these wasted days. More discouraged endearment exhaled in the decrepit mind. Here we are in the web of intention, and stuck in the plans of continuance we remain here.
Dark clouds entice the sky with depth no mortal eye can see, and the enthralled mist succeeds the clouds of Heaven with what there is in this moment. Rain contemplates the air as the space furls cold shade. Light illuminates the object, but study flails without sight. The slipping view of a moistened medium spurring the memory to take over. Wait it out. The smudged strain of experience qualms the malevolent sky with shudders of residual pleasure. The choice ascertains the stormy miles of raging sea. The inhale of a vacuous urge dispelling time in the repelled demonstration, reverence of doubt, and motion of passive feet. The discourse nods with full awareness, and expands with the sullen clouds because victory is the enrichment as loss falls clear of any meaning. Frozen nothing, persistent want, labored thought, and mourning meadows weep silky tears. The lush scraps of time, and there is no luck in hearts when endowed with problematic answers. Wisdom and freedom are man’s reprisal, however harsh things exist within our nature. Cultivation tells of the wicked and the sublime bliss of time and repetition. The cutting tie of passionate experience articulated like the rouse of a rooster. Tree parts curling on the ground, dissembled, dismembered wood looking like squatted frogs. Crows calling capture in their habitation of the world. Whispers twinkling in solitude on a single branch, and the introspection grins a passing wink at consciousness.
It has been said that society contains a lack of morals. Physical experience would agree with this, however, what we lose by looking away, not getting involved, or praising what is right far surpasses action itself. Not only do limitations occur, but they increase with the shrinking action. The proposition of right and wrong is based on experience, upbringing, and belief. Our vast population cannot equate a moral majority without the general application consistent with singular reality. At birth we are immersed in a lie. A fundamental flaw for physical temperaments to tap away the untruth. Constructed of ideal, popularized by culture, and substantiated with justice, we have the world through cause and effect. Innate nature via our personal characteristics. The person involves the whole benign hole, and the concrete of sense and discourse effect the construct. The sense dissembles the sequence of possibility with the foreclosure of chance and choice. Any limitation results from the personal equation of the total truth and is a slight potential of accurate nature. Removal warrants distance the success of participating response. The common reaches the ground, and appreciates the horizon. The driving resonance from every action activates the original question of prospect, and saturating corrosion, promising growth, and furthering the distance we close the difference. Boredom turns into the next fluctuating life, eats a doughnut, and forgets the truth of being. Choice is circumstance, and the eternal suffering of grandiose thinking verifies idiosyncratic acceptance. Boredom needs to stir the acceptance so nuance can reason response, and the claustrophobic detail can agree with purpose. Undo purpose and recognizable defeat swallows the underlay of tomorrow. The unremitting sonorous depravity in the soul is the silence of a golden apple that grows in raging improvement. We do indeed lose with every ounce of aspect distilled in false, contagious definition. Every pedigree can stipulate illegal retorts of sanctioned acceptance. The world continues in isolation with forgotten remarks. Ignorance creates the difference and corrosion strokes the world of growth with denial. Tomorrow does not tally the equality of today.
Pen snags paper, and conscious deliberation closes tight. We are damned with the deliberate direction and condemned with the aspiration of collapse. Today we stand, tomorrow we fall, and what preconceived notions we have of both accurately and swiftly tilt the plain. No matter what the plan, we lose, no matter what the concentration on swollen definition, we lose. The diction of rising tempers are the accustomed privilege of free will. Dark delusion occupies the realm of dislocation. Plans do not work, but nausea surely spills interest into the slick control of a salivating, crazed dog. We linger to our means with warbled views of dissonance. Discontent joy weighing commitment with a watch for repair. The intoxicated perspective reigns the limits of warranty, and success as an impromptu language covers the pleas of insanity with meaning. We wail our wear to compose the world.
Taking too much, and giving too little un-argued time. The tactile sense directed by curiosity, and the mental framework of all the passed being circumvented by an idea for tomorrow. Tomorrow is not today! Not knowing what to say does not rectify the mistake. The one who suffers the most is not worth the hassle. Bandaged wounds continue to heal, and the search for inherent wisdom seeps within them. Banter excuses the outpost. The digression of tomorrow to balance today. Do we see passed the weathered antiquity or do we subside forgotten and broken? The soul never tells, but meagrely welcomes the disposition of progress. Antagonistic prose strains the view, forgives the art of artifact, and encourages the current display of representation.
We consume our death with gratitude and wealth. Salt and peppered occurrence overriding the ideal for intent. Fear, unscathed security, and the paroxysms of faith devoid of following. We see the light, but turn away to wait for darkness. The bequeathed state of tomorrow flourished in the blossom of disquieting finesse. Enjoy yourself! We do lose no matter how refined the laughter, and we do lose no matter the wash of the wear. The loving impression of representation, and this life of denial recline in slumber, but the awareness stifles the fabled rest. Tomorrow is not today, and without knowing how many see this act of synonyms plunging into derivation. The exclamation is in the decline, the expression in the sublime, and the cure is in the sense. We seek our derivation, that point that brought us here, and the irreverent display that contorts the missed citation. The ascent of representation, and the doodled eyes bewildered by request foreseeing the conclusion loose from insight. It distorts the age of reason by uniting a degree of resentment and conformity. Mix well or stand out. Definition cries an answer of groans to sear the bellowing allocation. We define the means, accentuate the parallels, and reason with decline.
The parallels remain, tomorrow discusses progression, and the slaughter of decline is repressed by forgotten ritual. Incorporate what we dislocate, and the remembrance dissects the speaking soul. The sense of ordeal diminishes the goal, adds to the addiction, and prose becomes perversion. The indecent frottage of shifting position in the peril of the self’s preservation. Sitting in a mirrored ball the truth basks in reflection. The pre-used words have to state the originality layered in description, and crashing across the damaged tide, the trials of living create the world from the acceptance of encouraged fault. The decline, and a slumber of pleasantry will expose more thought than havoc. It will receive a pass for a second suggestion. Pure speculation defines the whole as it is made of many ones. Any belief of singular view is committed to the fall of morality. The choice of creation and condemnation we have made with a simple schematic. Every choice, breath, and thought creates or abolishes another choice. Being one option eliminates the other, and experience disdains the proud winds of change as life unravels definition. The intention is clear, morals are dilapidated because interests change, time evolves, and consequence is outdated. The mass requires survival, and this calls for action and not preservation through that action. The blame does not fall on us. One and all convict life, and the operation of duty remains a natural movement through the stages of ceremony. Suffering momentum with what preparation we have tried like a candle morals will fade with time. The persecution and preparation represent the praise for the self, and the convoluted theory of personality will mean a panorama of diluted and distorted meaning. The choice dictates the consequence, and thus every experience is singular. Morals coincide to extend from the individual being. If society lacks morals then the individual does also. If society’s morality declines further then the individual’s standpoint does also.
The opposition of truth is existence. The perception and rationale of these things appease, regroup, and apply for justice. The dichotomy of morality wavers, and as it has been said is based on the allocated individual. The passion of presence, the trend of discovery, and the persistence of the trapped self in secure features favour the feverish consistency of a training soul. Partial truths spoken in order to ambush an incredible promise. Love, happiness, and beauty possessing the tranquil things beyond us. Deeper into eternity, recruiting enjoyment, passed remembrance is best avoided. We know the difference, can discourage the effect, and fear the reaper in a dance of fragile steps. Weakness affects the whole with the spurned aspects of independence that trollop with the world. Repetition erases originality, but dusk closes in, and stands on the shoulders of mountains. It is nature’s reminder of fetal growth in the superior glance of organic strength, and the fragrant fruit of sunshine, rain, and wind. Fire scorns creation, but soothes the exposure. Death reasons a simple attachment to physical experience, and the conception of loss thrives on the wings of rapid change. Sing in the pity of growth, and the digestion of folly will enlighten the grasp of truth. The lies we tell ourselves without agreement can become the truth, but why? We are waiting for something, but is it the same thing?
Time draws no conclusion, but irate noise. The continual, boisterous indifference of a cathartic spectrum of decision. The uprooted privilege under the current of proposed being in the inconsistent descent of life. The perpetual, unchanging doubt in the conviction of our lives. Nothing is proven to define our waking hours, but this constant state of unknowing. All we have presents our morality, and this delivers our individual meaning. This is all the consistency we can congruently consume, but with so much being said, how can it be identified clearly?
Words endless words. Face upon face, hand upon hand, and world upon world forever dancing on a fiber of stupefaction. A non-greasy chain that unravels instead of getting caught, and a stacked continuance gains the loss already paid. The lines develop a stutter and build the universe in interrupted splendor as we develop the feed for tomorrow. God sits high, and watches over, but this time and generation pronounce the point of principle. God does laugh at our flailing attempts. Regardless a pin point does have focus, and it is at this point where we begin.
ABPoe
A brief inventory completely sold. Left at seven thirty something. Walked into seven eleven cold and miserable. Asked the Mary working for a cab, and she said, Which one?
United. Two jolts, and a payment. Waiting outside, smoking, someone asks for a cigarette, people get gas, and nothing brilliant is said in the expression of a beautiful day. The cab comes, and says goodbye. The driver, a mean looking woman talks of the weather.
It is supposed to get better. Rain on Sunday.
Later. At the bus depot a man waits for the technology to print a ticket. A receipt to consume three minutes. The turn progresses, and the short waif wearing glasses glares with perfume and magic saying, Now I can help you.
One to the city.
Now is that this side or that?
The void in the head has to think.
Departure point or arrival?
Departure is fine, but can I get a return ticket here or is it better to do it there?
There because my machine does not access that area.
Is it too old?
She does not hear because the machine erupts with clamour. Thank you.
Thanks.
Having the receipt, marking the numbers, and walking away outside. An old, wood staircase made to construct two steps holds a platform at the top. Smoking more, cold hands check the time, and constitute the wait. The driver exits the building, looks for luggage, and people begin to get on the bus. No one, but tickets, entering and waiting to leave with four passengers and the driver. Sleep with snow laden roads seen previously. Briefly people transfer at the first, major stopping point. Sleepy drool, waking, and sleeping again. The terminal enters the view, and we are here. Leaving the bus, smoking once more to return to a tollbooth and the lady there, It is a ten thirty sailing.
Checking the time it was quarter to ten, One please.
Smoking again with the snow shading the water, and the mountains soaking in vibrant stature. Winter wraps the terminal with silvery vengeance. Waiting the line begins to accumulate. The distance is still ahead, but showing my ticket the departure is almost behind.
The water stretched for three days, and upon land work had to be done. Columnists scattered to tread new footsteps. The green bounty spreading higher than the chapel, and emancipated within the snow brilliant, blinding light. Vast beyond the sea that had brought us here, and spy glasses look at the difference with awe and accentuation. Danger left the sentiment with the steps from the boat, and the people frolic in the snow and swaying trees. We extend over history with new, found absurdity.
The confusion raps on the marshy, thickened scope to reveal the innards of a vile thing. A mess of stringy mass suspended in the cloudy heights of the sea. A mass of sturdy levels amazing in the reef. The lines of flesh are abstract versions of life in a flowing fjord of gushing liquid. The ooze is not so dirty, and it is a design that is understood. The staggering views of our response are in the very core of this primitive mud slide. Physics have extended logic beyond the sense, and without the academics, warmly sheathed in its most wriggling exposition, our concentration was breaking. The fundamental quake of too much or too little too late. The contest of unending time raises the potential only to the depth of tomorrow. Lingo and slogans, jargon that has been deciphered to the world, and there is no adding to the cliché.
PART ONE
BRIEFLY TO BE ALONE.
THE VACANCY OF BRUISING IS NOT
TOO DEEP. TOLD TO DO THIS, BUT PASSION REGAINED.
Poised posterior postulating postwar. Photocopied personality pastured posthumously pacified, peculiar, personal pessimist. Paid postscript prescribed. Poise posture positively! Pandas perceiving paradox point programmed phantasmagoria, preach particular positions, pasteurizing progress. Passed past participles plead process. Paranoid perks plant pause. Pandora poked present paroxysm poignantly picking public performance. Piss perfectly, passionate Patrick.
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CHAPTER ONE
W E HAVE ONE person, and physical characteristics are not specific other than male and under forty. Clothes are non-descriptive, no slogans, no visible brands, but also not noticeably second hand. His name is minimal, and due to reclusive behavior it is only said twice, and not right away. We begin with candlelight, maybe seven or so scattered more for shadows than light, and we see our character lying on a bed with his head hanging toward the floor. He stares up at the ceiling. He is deep in thought, and although he does not speak we hear his voice.
Another queer theme in the piece of the pie. One more day in the life of a homo. To burn brightly with earnest flare, and be extinguished with the stigma of a preference. Judgment comes so quickly even though extremes are inherently habitual. Vague terms due to a broad band of specimens. People perverse themselves for pleasure, comfort, and self-ideology. They hold on and hope no one cares more or less than themselves. Hiding, hoping figures that bathe in shadows to hold the light. The universe really is vast and incredible. That we live, breathe, and create our destiny with every turn is remarkable. Trying to cheat by breaking the rules is one of God’s intentions.
He continues to think, Leviticus 20:13 states, the penalty for homosexual acts is death to both parties. They have brought it about themselves.
"Death to the buggers! Yet life resides before death, and although choices have been made can the consequence really be so vindictive? Do I die upon sex or does death find me when it is ready? Really can this even be substantiated? Shoplifters are prosecuted to the full extent of the law when caught, but I still have to find a corpse after sex. Sex and punishment amazingly remain separate. Homosexuality is a choice, and no longer a distortion of the mind. We are allowed the freedom to be gay, and so the only condemnation comes from those people that believe literally the transcendental history and not the living facts. Homosexuals do not die having sex, and the AIDS argument is levied by health and circumstance, not just sexuality alone, and so we are to die, and we shall, but as people and not homosexuals. We may be gay, but with concession comes the act, and if we are to both die, we shall, but not with ejaculation. Seamen creates, and if it is lost in the circle to contribute nothing then cannot the sanctity of acceptance be enough? Love, warmth, and compassion should measure more than whether or not my wife builds my breakfast or my lover. Tenderness