And Then There Was Jesus: Healing Religious Wounds
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This book is the story of a devout Hindu girl, a deeply committed Christian young adult, a woman who was on her way to atheism and a woman who fell in love with Jesus. All those people are me. This book is my story.” ~ POOJA CHILUKURI
And Then There Was Jesus is a story which demonstrates that religion simply does no
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And Then There Was Jesus - Pooja Chilukuri
INTRODUCTION
This book is the story of a devout Hindu girl, a deeply committed Christian young adult, a woman who developed distrust and disillusionment of God (especially the Christian God) and a woman who fell in love with Jesus. All those people are me. This book is my story.
I was a devout Hindu, a sincere God seeker, a dutiful follower of rituals and traditions and committed to raking up good karma for my next life. A series of miraculous events led me to Christianity. I learned to have a relationship with God independent of rituals and traditions. Constant prayers, following Bible principles and seeking after God’s will for my life characterized my Christian life. So far, so good. However, soon the spirit of religion caught up with me. It was disguised as good Christian conduct, self-sacrifice, works of charity, service in the church and the careful observance of every letter in the Bible - as interpreted by church leaders - as a means of gaining God’s approval. Needless to say, not only did it not work, it left me damaged within, wounded in my soul and wanting nothing to do with God - especially the Christian God. Thus ended my Christian life. What (or who) followed next, was outside the scope of my wildest imagination. His name is Jesus.
By making my very personal and private spiritual journey public through this book, I want to reach out to all those who have been spiritually damaged, wounded in their soul and disillusioned by God. I believe that there are many today who are disappointed and deeply hurt by the God whom they have served in spiritually toxic religious systems. There are many who experience Christianity as a burden, whose Christian life revolves around excessive sacrifice and service as the primary means of gaining God’s approval. If you believe that God is displeased with you at the slightest deviation from what your church or pastor preaches, and you have never been consumed by the overwhelming love of God, this book is for you.
I have recorded my journey as it happened. I have not intended to cause any hurt or damage to anyone’s religious sentiments. I write mostly from my experiences with both Hinduism and Christianity - the two religions that have defined my life. This book is my testimony that religion simply does not work. It fails at the very thing it supposedly aims to do: to bring people closer to God. On the contrary, religion successfully drives a wedge between God and man by producing fear and guilt. Religion also aims to bring loving and peaceful conduct between humans through sacrificial acts of service and good moral conduct. Why then has it been so successful in creating factions, inhuman treatment and judgment of fellow humans? Religion does not give us a transformed heart (the place where desire for evil vanishes), a peaceful conscience and a joyful soul, but Jesus does. Religion always compels us to measure up to God’s standards. Jesus compels us to rest in God’s love and His finished work on the cross. Jesus brings the hope that religion cannot give, the hope that you do not have to struggle to be approved by God. He is already deeply in love with you.
My prayer is that this book brings both hope and healing.
THERE WAS HINDUISM
There is a God shaped vacuum in the heart of every man which cannot be filled by any created thing…
–Blaise Pascal
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OF TEMPLE BELLS
Ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding…. I woke up to that familiar sound of the temple bell every morning. The sound of the bell was followed by the fragrance of burnt incense sticks. The memory remains etched in my soul - my dad offering his morning prayers to the many gods in our temple at home. The temple bell was like a snooze button on an alarm clock. As soon as I heard it, I knew that there was at least an hour more that I could sleep in. It was in that hour, as I struggled between sleeping and waking, that my dad dutifully offered his morning prayers to Krishna, Hanuman, Shiva and Durga. These were some of the deities whose idols and images were housed in our temple at home. From my bed, I could hear the sound of many chantings: the mantras of Jainism (the way of life established by Mahavira, who was Buddha’s contemporary) and the Hanuman Chalisa mantras (prayers offered to the god Hanuman) followed by the Hare Krishna chantings (prayers offered to the god Krishna). Thus every morning I was introduced to God, a supreme being who could take on many forms and who had many names.
God was someone impossible to avoid. I learned that very early on in my human journey. My very name, Pooja, was a reminder. Pooja means worship. Pooja also refers to rituals that are part of the Hindu worship ceremonies. I was born on the day of Saraswati Pooja, a day set aside to seek the blessings of the goddess Saraswati, in order to receive the gifts of intelligence and good grades in school examinations. I was born in the city of Calcutta, India, where this festival is considered auspicious. This made selecting a name for me very easy. With no second thoughts, my grandfather named me Pooja, a constant reminder that there is a supreme being to whom poojas must be offered. If that was not enough of a reminder, I could not walk a few steps around the block without running into altars that had sprung up overnight. People would claim that they received a miracle or an answered prayer at a certain spot in the middle of the sidewalk. Then they would place a stone and offer ceremonial flowers to it. Before you knew it, there it was - a temple that emerged overnight. Indeed, there was no arguing faith with reason. Besides these little altars everywhere, there were huge temples all over the city. These housed big and powerful deities. Each deity provided a different blessing although they were considered part of the same supreme source. My family needed blessings from the god Ganesha before we ventured into anything new and dared not displease the