Farewell Happy Fields
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Farewell Happy Fields - Norah Hoult
Introduction
Louise Kennedy
A few years ago I was thinking about doing a PhD and struggling to find a subject that would both sustain and engage me through several years of study. I bought a copy of The Long Gaze Back, Sinead Gleeson’s 2015 anthology of stories by Irish women, to distract myself from the quest for a research topic. A couple of paragraphs into Norah Hoult’s ‘When Miss Coles Made the Tea’ I knew I had found one. The story was deeply ironic, often funny, and quietly heartbreaking. Here was a natural storyteller with a sharp eye for detail, an ear for dialogue, and a way of looking at the world that seemed years ahead of her time. Despite having produced a considerable body of work over five decades, she had been virtually ignored by academia.
From the outset, I encountered problems in obtaining copies of Norah Hoult’s books. Even with the help of a delightful coterie of specialist booksellers and publishers, notably The Second Shelf, Arlen House and Persephone Books, several of her titles still elude me. Not only has Norah Hoult’s name been omitted from the canon; it seems her books have literally vanished. Farewell Happy Fields is among the elusive ones. A recent search for it yielded a single vendor in Denmark who had just sold his copy. One cannot overestimate, therefore, the role of recovery projects such as the Modern Irish Classics series in preventing fine writers such as Norah Hoult from sliding into obscurity. It is humbling to have been asked to write this introduction.
Farewell Happy Fields was published in 1948 when Hoult was fifty. It was her sixteenth book. The title comes from Book 1 of John Milton’s Paradise Lost, the epic seventeenth-century poem that tells the story of the fall of man and the temptation of Adam and Eve by the fallen angel Satan. The quote from Milton does much more than provide a title; it informs both theme and structure. The passage from which the quote is taken contains the lines:
The mind is its own place, and in it self
Can make a Heav’n of Hell, a Hell of Heav’n.
The novel begins on the day Adam Palmer is discharged from an ‘asylum’ and sees him resolve to dedicate his life to ‘the purpose of rebelling against the will of God, and destroying entirely that immortal soul which in his youth he had been at some pains to nurture.’ Adam blames God for his misfortunes, for falling for a married woman and losing his mind, and vows to send himself to hell. He is a devout Catholic – in order to believe in the devil, one must first believe in God – and his faith torments him. His private thoughts are addled with catechism and religious rhetoric.
This fervour features often in Hoult’s fiction, from the novels Holy Ireland and Coming from the Fair to her short stories, in particular those with Irish characters. This preoccupation may be explained by her background. Her mother, Margaret O’Shaughnessy, came from a strict Catholic family and on the day of her twenty-first birthday eloped with an English Protestant who was twelve years her senior. Her father cast her out of her family and disinherited her for marrying outside her faith. Privately, however, Margaret’s mother maintained contact with her daughter. After the death of Margaret’s patriarchal father, the O’Shaughnessy family voluntarily made a financial settlement to Margaret; she and her husband were in poor health and struggling financially. It is also worth noting that Powis Hoult, Norah’s father, was an ardent theosophist, so it is possible that the young Norah was exposed to religious fervour at home too.
There is a pattern in Hoult’s books of presenting male characters who are weak-willed, sometimes emasculated, and Farewell Happy Fields is no exception. Adam is unable to shake off his religious conditioning or control his obsessive thoughts. His friend from the asylum is an exhibitionist (a flasher, frankly) who is kept by his wife. The acquaintances Adam makes when he returns to Ireland range from vain to ineffectual to sleazy. Hoult herself had poor experiences of men. There was the grandfather who barred his house against her mother. The father who died when she was a child, leaving her in the hands of relatives she barely knew. The brother, her only sibling, who survived the trenches only to commit suicide a few weeks after the Armistice. The husband to whom she was married briefly and unhappily.
The Edwardian England Hoult moved to as a child was thrown into social chaos by the First World War, with traditional gender roles upended and class boundaries blurred. Much has been made of the lack of men in Britain in the interwar years, often linking it to the scale of the slaughter at the Front. In reality, the country had been bleeding men to the colonies for decades and there had been a surplus of women since the 1850s. The men who did come back from the trenches, however, were altered by what they had seen, and unprepared for the post-war life to which they returned. Elaine Showalter, the literary critic, described the war as a ‘crisis of masculinity’. Farewell Happy Fields reflects this; it is not that there is a lack of men; it is rather that the men themselves are lacking.
On the back cover of a later edition of Farewell Happy Fields, Adam is referred to as the hero of the novel. He is a compelling character. Hoult makes us privy to his warped reasoning and we can follow the logic of the choices he makes on the path to spiritual annihilation. But much as we are drawn to Adam, we stop short of cheering him on. It is through Kathleen, the dowdy middle-class girl who marries him out of pity and love, that we get to the heart of the novel. Rather than commit a mortal sin such as murder, Adam chooses a slow route to hell that he calls the ‘Little Way’, by inflicting small cruelties on those around him. For Kathleen, it is akin to death by a thousand cuts. He demands that she cancel arrangements to meet her friends, leaving her isolated and cloistered. A couple of days before their wedding he persuades her to sleep with him, and is offhand with her afterwards, as if it meant nothing. Perhaps most cruelly of all, he deliberately sows seeds of anxiety about the health of the child she is carrying. Her forbearance is what gives the novel emotional heft.
Hoult’s first book, a collection of short stories entitled Poor Women!, was published in 1928, twenty years before Farewell Happy Fields. In some American editions of the book, she included a note. She had set out, she said, to portray women who were struggling to maintain their self-respect, who were dependent on or had to ‘conciliate the man’. Retrospectively the note reads almost like a credo. Themes of shame, financial insecurity and emotional poverty recur throughout Hoult’s work. Kathleen’s mother is dead and her father has remarried. He gives her a paltry dowry and is relieved to have her off his hands. She leaves England to live in Ireland with a man who feels nothing for her. She could be one of the ‘poor women’ of Hoult’s early stories.
Here, as in her other novels, Hoult’s storytelling is so confident, the narrative so readable, that one can overlook the fact that her work is deeply political. Yet on feminism she is difficult. She once wrote, ‘I am anti-feminist rather than feminist in my view, since I believe that feminism has done, on the whole, more harm than good to the true welfare of women.’ This contradicts her sympathetic treatment of the women who inhabit her pages. The statement had been made in 1955, before the second wave of feminism had begun; before that, women seldom claimed the label. Hoult may not have embraced the term, but the work speaks for itself.
Hoult led a peripatetic life, particularly during the thirties. In some accounts it is said that she spent the early part of the decade in Ireland, researching her mother’s story for the book that would become Holy Ireland. In fact, her husband had found work in Dublin. After the marriage foundered in 1933, she rented a flat in Rathmines for a short while and spent some time in Connemara but was mostly based in London. In 1937 she travelled to America, where she toured extensively and wrote two novels. When war was declared in September 1939 she returned to London and remained there for the duration of the conflict. She experienced bombing raids, evacuation, blackouts, rationing. Hoult’s descriptive powers are strongest in Farewell Happy Fields when she evokes England; the quiet of a country railway platform, the shabbiness of a Pimlico street. The Irish setting is less convincing, but she circumvents this by confining the action largely to the domestic sphere, behind the walls of a rented flat. She calls the Irish location Inishkill. It is difficult to ascertain where it is, although some clarity is added by her reference to a walk along the Dargle, which seems to locate the book in north Wicklow.
Hoult was unapologetically a realist writer. She once reviewed a book by Jean Rhys and pronounced it ‘a work of art, which is to say it creates life and experience’. That this is Hoult’s view of what constitutes art is worth noting; the book is about ‘bed sitting rooms’ and ‘getting off’, the same territory into which Hoult ventured in her own writing. A woman of modest means obliged to support herself, this was a world she knew. Perhaps the thing that makes Hoult unique is that she endeavoured to tell the stories of the lower middle class, the class with the least class solidarity and consciousness, the one to which no one admits membership.
In 1948, the year in which Farewell Happy Fields was published, Hoult wrote to a friend that she was having trouble finding a publisher for her next novel. She persisted, producing another twelve books. Towards the end of her career reviews of her work became less favourable. The young Roy Foster acknowledged the quality of her writing but bemoaned a ‘streak of extreme sentimentality’. What had passed for social realism between the wars seemed less gritty in the sixties and seventies. Norah Hoult was beginning to slip out of fashion.
Her fictional universe is not that of the Anglo-Irish Big House or the farmhouse kitchen; nor did her writing sit entirely comfortably within the British interwar canon of middle-class novels by middle-class women. Ironically, though, if her hyphenated identity made her hard to place in the canon, it is assisting in her recovery. Both New Island Books in Dublin and Persephone Books in London have reissued her work. Hoult herself was not concerned by issues of identity. To paraphrase Virginia Woolf, as a woman she had no country.
PART ONE
— ONE —
I
WHEN Adam Palmer went to say farewell to the Medical Officer-in-Chief of the asylum from which he had been discharged, he took with him a resolve which had grown through the year of his incarceration. This resolve was to dedicate his life to one purpose: the purpose of rebelling against the will of God, and destroying entirely that immortal soul which in his youth he had been at some pains to nurture.
Not as mighty Lucifer had fallen did he propose to fall. No, indeed! He had a better sense of perspective than that. No splendour of the angelic beings was his, but at least he had brought into the world some capacity for perceptive intelligence. Was not the Medical Superintendent saying as much at that very moment? Adam made the effort, for such was his excitement that it was an effort, to listen, and heard:
‘… so in your case there is every prospect of success. You were a literary journalist. Well, I see no reason why you shouldn’t resume your career. After all you needn’t mention …’
Dr. Maydew stopped with a wave of his hand. Adam said: ‘You mean I needn’t mention in what fashion my career was interrupted.’
He stopped, realising that there had been irony in his voice. And that was something he had rarely permitted himself during his terrific daily struggle to convince everyone, nurses and patients as well as doctors, that he was as other men, better educated, more intelligent perhaps than the majority, since it was a rate-aided institution, but like them docile, sheep-like, ready to share a little joke, to enjoy a pipe, an hour in the sun, even, more lately, to take part in the weekly dances and socials. His remark had been the first conscious pin-hole he had made in that cloak of gentleness and amiability which he had gradually contrived with such care that he thought it would accompany him henceforth almost as much a part of him as a skin. So he looked quickly into Dr. Maydew’s eyes to see if he were translating his speech as token of bitterness. The least shade of bitterness, he knew, was considered by him and his like as dangerous. A bitter man, a man with a sense of grievance, was very likely, they considered, to injure, not merely himself, which was comparatively unimportant, but others. When fine words were swept aside the asylum existed and had its being upon that social foundation: to keep in prison, but without, Adam had thought yearningly, the blessing of a cell of one’s own, all who might prove a source of danger, or even of mere social inconvenience, to other people. Most of his companions, he knew, had that sense of grievance, against their wives or relatives, against the State, against the bosses, against dark powers who were persecuting them; and would talk or rave against the source of their trouble as they conceived it. He alone, being more logical, and from his childhood better instructed, bore no grudge against any creature or institution, but against the First Cause, the source of all creation. It was God, and God alone, who was responsible for the degrading humiliation he, Adam Palmer, had endured, by being placed in that most appalling form of human segregation, the lunatic asylum as it existed in the nineteen-thirties.
But not one word had been allowed to escape of this knowledge, as elementary as A.B.C. to anyone who believed in God. If he had talked, he would have been filed off as a religious paranoiac, and that hurdle would have taken a long time to jump. He was thankful now for the instinct which had prompted him right from the very beginning to disclaim any particular religious beliefs. He had admitted, since his mother would probably have told them so, that he had been brought up a Catholic, but had told them firmly, and for that matter truthfully, he was not a practising Catholic, and desired no priestly administrations.
But now Dr. Maydew was speaking, and it was evident that his interpolation had been treated as the merest commonplace.
‘Yes, I am sure you have it in you to do some good work, and perhaps you will send me any articles you may write. I shall be most interested. By the way your mother, Mrs. Palmer, wrote that she was expecting you home, and had sent you the money to cover your travelling expenses. That is correct?’
‘Quite correct.’
‘But she is not coming to meet you in London?’
‘No. You see she is an elderly woman somewhat troubled with rheumatism, and she would find the two journeys over fatiguing.’
‘You propose then to cross to Inishkill in the next day or two?’
‘That is what I plan.’
‘I wouldn’t leave it too long, you know. The first few days in the outside world are naturally inclined to make you feel a little strange. You need quiet, but you also need society. You don’t want to be alone.’
Oh, but how I want to be alone, cried out Adam’s heart. But he answered with a nod: ‘No. Quite.’
Dr. Maydew didn’t seem quite satisfied. He was looking at Adam’s papers again in a frowning way. After a few moments, restive ones for Adam, he said:
‘I wish you had had visits from relatives or responsible friends. There was, of course, that man, Davies, who came once or twice. But they complained that he turned up, well, rather …’
‘An old journalistic colleague. Yes, he was very drunk when he came the second time,’ said Adam smoothly. ‘I told him not to bother to come again, as he kicked up rather a shindy.’
‘And no one else has come. But you have an unmarried sister?’
‘Yes, but she lives with my mother. And as for the other relatives, it’s unlikely that they have been told. You see in the old-fashioned circles in which my mother moves, and they are very old-fashioned still in Inishkill, it is considered rather a disgrace to admit that you have a relative in an asylum.’
‘But that is very wrong,’ said Dr. Maydew warmly. ‘How is it that they cannot see that a mental breakdown, especially when it is temporary as in your case, is a misfortune that might happen to anyone? And yet the very ones whom one might expect to co-operate, the educated middle class, are the ones—speaking generally, of course—who fail to visit their friends or relatives or consult us about them.’
Adam thoughtfully observed Dr. Maydew’s large sallow-skinned face. The Kindly Dyspeptic he had christened him to himself long since, a well-meaning man, but prone to get irritated at the vagaries of a world which in so many cases failed to toe the lines he had laid down for its salvation. In his heart he replied to him with: ‘It is very hard, my friend, for the respectable to enter the Kingdom of Heaven.’ But this must be translated into a form more suitable for the Puritan intelligence. So he said gently:
‘It is very hard, I suppose, for people of any status to get rid of the notion that insanity in their family reflects in some way on themselves, their earning capacities for instance. If it has happened to a brother, or even an aunt, might it not happen to them? It must be an unpleasant thought if one has gradually worked up to earning say a thousand a year, and is living in Mon Repos, Surbiton, or some such place, with son and daughter to educate, that, at any moment, one’s memory might fail to function, or that the temptation to throw oneself out of an open window might prove irresistible.’
‘Yes, yes,’ said Dr. Maydew. ‘But …’ he stopped, frowning down at his desk.
The ‘Yes, yes,’ because Dr. Maydew himself was of the Mon Repos class who played golf on Sundays, after a week of hard and exacting work. The ‘But’, because his study of psychiatry had convinced him that insanity was an illness due to certain specific psychoses or neuroses which with goodwill, patience and the co-operation of the patient could be cured, and were therefore in no different category from a duodenal ulcer. The pause, because Dr. Maydew was necessarily a creature of routine, and had no time to go into all that now! His gaze had gone to the clock, and Adam immediately stood up.
Dr. Maydew also stood up. ‘Well, it’s a very fascinating topic, and I hope we may be able to resume it on another occasion. I mean if you are in this neighbourhood at any time it would be a great pleasure if you’d drop in on me.’
‘Certainly. I shall bear that in mind.’
‘And in your case, I can take it, we have made it clear that it is a fool’s trick, and a coward’s trick, to jump out of any open window?’
Adam said slowly and with complete truthfulness: ‘Yes, you have made that completely clear. I am very grateful to you.’
‘That’s fine.’
‘I must thank you,’ said Adam, now embarking upon his prepared farewell speech, ‘for all your kindness to me. I was indeed fortunate to have fallen into such good hands, and I am sorry for all the trouble I must have given when I was not quite compos mentis, rather dreary in fact.’
‘Not at all, not at all,’ said Dr. Maydew warmly. Now he was experiencing one of those moments which he believed to be the happiest in life, when a patient of the asylum, cured and in his right mind, gratefully acknowledged his debt. Of course most of them, poor fellows, were not gentlemen, and therefore one could not expect from them the habits of a gentleman. But this fellow, Palmer, was different. ‘You haven’t given us any trouble to mention, and if it had been left entirely to me …’ he paused, seeing that his warmth of heart had led him into an indiscretion.
‘I quite understand. Dr. Canning has always given me the impression that he feared I might at any moment have a relapse. I confess I have rather wondered why.’
‘Ah, well,’ said Dr. Maydew vaguely, ‘you must recognise that as an enthusiast, and, of course, quite a young man, Dr. Canning feels that … well, that still waters may run deep.’
‘So he likes to go on fishing in them. Oh, I quite understand when you put it that way.’
‘And after all, best to be on the safe side. I’m sure you don’t regret this last six months, do you now?’
‘Not at all. It has been most kind of you, really.’
‘Good-bye then, and all the very best.’
‘Good-bye, and once again, thank you very much.’
‘And don’t forget about sending me any articles you write.’
‘I won’t. Good-bye.’
It was over. The dismissed schoolboy had been given his last kindly word, and he was walking out of the Superintendent’s house and along the path which led to the building where his own ward was. Now he had only to collect his bag and his mackintosh, and walk out of the place for good. But he still felt tense: when he put his hand to his forehead to push back a lock of hair which had fallen forward he found his skin was damp with perspiration. So I was more strung up even over the last words of the Maydew, he thought, than I had fancied. The poor decent man!
Now there was only Kenneth Cooke waiting to say good-bye: Cooke who had become sentimental about him these last few days, and had refused to go out with the others for exercise this mild spring morning on the plea that no one, even in an institution, could be hard-hearted enough to deprive him of the last sight of his friend, his best friend, his only friend. And there he was waiting, tall, dark, warm-skinned and handsome, and, of course, as usual, molto simpatico, for the more lush Italian phrase seemed to fit his personality.
‘How did you get on?’
‘All right.’
‘What did he say?’
‘Nothing really. At least that is what it amounted to. As do most conversations.’
‘But he must have said something.’
‘Oh, he wanted to read my future articles. It was just like leaving the dear old Alma Mater. Well, I must be off.’
‘You’ve heaps of time, though you did stay longer than I had expected. Listen, I’m not going to stay here any longer than it takes to tell my wife to expect me. That’s what I’ve decided.’
‘Well, you can please yourself. You’re one of the volunteers, not a conscript like myself.’
‘I know. I must have been mad to agree to come here. That madness is over anyhow. And so you must come and stay with us very very soon. Promise.’
‘I’m going home, you know, pretty soon.’
‘But not yet, oh, not yet. Please!’
Adam glanced at the attendant waiting to see him off the premises. ‘Well, we’ll see. I must go.’
‘Oh, just a moment. I feel in such a state that I shan’t be able to walk with you to the gate. My heart, you know!’
‘Bad luck! I’m sorry. You ought to lie down.’
‘So I shall. But I’m so unhappy about your going. That’s what has brought the terrible palpitations on.’ Kenneth put his hand on his heart, winced, and then smiled bravely, as though through tears. ‘We’ve been through so much together, and now I am the only sensitive and … I’m not a snob, but you know what I mean … well, I can’t help being unhappy. So do promise.’
‘Of course. Good-bye. I really must go.’
Taking up his bag Adam put out his other hand, half turned towards the door. But Kenneth wouldn’t let go his hand.
‘You haven’t got me quite right, Adam, you know. You don’t think I have brains as well as you. But I have. And I am going to prove it to you.’
‘I’m sure you have.’
‘Oh, now you’re angry with me. Please don’t be! I’m so unhappy about your going: it’s making me ill. Of course I’m glad for your sake. But …’
He must be interrupted: he’d talk for ever. ‘I know. Good-bye now. I’ll write, and send my address.’
‘Oh, will you? Promise!’
‘Of course. Cheerio.’
It was over. Kenneth was the sort of man who made you in reaction talk like a man who sold motor-cars. Had he really said cheerio? He had! But he had also slipped five shillings into the hand of the man who had locked the door behind him, and in that gesture he had regained his liberty as a free citizen. Now he was in sight of the main drive, and the only person he could see was the gardener, a mental defective, who was leaning on his twig broom, staring in front of him with that grin which never totally disappeared from his face. Avert his eyes; say good-bye to him in his heart. Now there was only the man at the lodge who would peer out at him suspiciously, and probably have to be informed once more that his name was on the discharged list, now and for evermore.
But a car had turned in, and was coming up towards him. Adam looked steadily down at the gravel as he walked on, but he felt a sick presentiment, which was verified when he sensed rather than heard that the driver was slowing up.
‘Hello! Thought it might be you, Palmer! You’re leaving to-day, of course?’
‘Yes, I’m just off.’ He nearly added: ‘I looked for you to say good-bye,’ but stopped himself. No need now for unnecessary lies.
‘You’re going to the station, I take it. I can give you a lift. Jump in.’
If he had only been through the lodge he might have said: ‘Thanks but I prefer taking the bus.’ As it was … well, anyhow he had said ‘thanks very much’, and had got into the seat beside the driver.
‘Sure, I’m not delaying you, because …’
‘No, it’s all right. I’ve plenty of time before I’m due. Throw your case behind.’
He was taking him back to the asylum! Of course there was a reason for that. He couldn’t turn till he got to the end of the drive. But a bad omen. It was another trifle to put down to the account of his Guardian Angel, who knew perfectly well that if ever he hated a man, it was this man, Dr. Edward Canning.
Canning backed and turned. As they went through the gate, Adam had a glimpse of Hunt, the lodge-keeper, looking out in surprise, and thinking presumably, oh, so that loonie, Palmer, is being taken for a ride. He had crossed the Rubicon, and not on his own two feet, but petrol-driven, speed destroying any real sensation, as it always destroyed any sensation. He turned for a last look at the high brick wall that bounded the asylum grounds. But Canning’s profile interfered: he was a plump-faced, fair-skinned, spectacled man with thick light-brown hair, and that expression Adam knew so well of mingled good temper and intelligence. The salt of the Anglo-Saxon middle-class earth! But it was salt lacking in savour for the derisive Celt: too much good sense! A man who drank in moderation, but rarely got drunk; a modest man, too, no doubt, but one who would never fall on his knees crying in agony: God be merciful to me a sinner. Certain to be fond of his wife, and invariably courteous to women, who would find him attractive. But in his turn, could one imagine him overtaken by the desperation and degradation of lust? No, for out would jump the censor with his observation, not that it was wrong, but that it was such bloody waste of time, and so the yearning would trickle away with golf shots, cold baths, hard work and helping others ‘less fortunate than himself’. As indeed he had most estimably made it his business in life to do.
As Adam’s mind leaped along the well-worn tracks of finding justification for his dislike, he heard Canning say in his pleasant voice like one of the more mellow of the B.B.C. announcers: ‘Well, I expect you’re glad to be out of it all, Palmer?’
A question that didn’t need an answer. By raising his eyebrows, and the shoulder adjacent to Canning, Adam hoped to make the effect of having been asked a banality. But unheeding, his eyes ahead on the road, the doctor continued: ‘Let’s see. You are going back to Inishkill right away, aren’t you?’
‘Probably.’
His tone would surely shut him up, and in another two minutes they would have turned off at the station approach. But the car was slackening: of course, a red light. Canning was looking at him directly now. ‘By the way, you are quite all right for money, are you? I mean it’s a nuisance to be short of small change if you’re making a journey.’
‘Oh, didn’t you know? My mother very kindly sent me twenty pounds as she thought that I’d probably need a new suit besides my expenses crossing. I think she surmised that I would probably have gnawed the one I am wearing to ribbons.’
Canning said nothing. But he’d certainly heard, for he smiled faintly. So he was determined not to take offence, but remain kind and patient to the end! What he ought to have done was to have said in a whining voice: ‘If you have a fiver to spare, Doctor, it would come in very handy.’ He wouldn’t have known how to take that.
The car shot forward. Canning said unexpectedly: ‘If I were you, I’d marry. Find a nice sensible girl, and settle down.’
‘A sensible girl. Of course. That is what I need, you think?’
Ah, at last he had drawn blood. The cheek beside him had flushed ever so slightly. But still it had flushed. The man had his share of sensitiveness. That was what, of course, made him dangerous.
‘I merely meant that I think it’s a good thing for most normal men to marry, and particularly the highly strung, and perhaps ultra-sensitive, as I think you’ll agree you are.’
Answering back, was he? Adam said smoothly: ‘Quite, quite. As a matter of fact, if it is of any interest to you, that is exactly what I intend to do: find a nice sensible girl, settle down and have children.’
‘Splendid!’ said Canning briefly. One finely-shaped long-fingered hand attracted Adam’s attention as he indicated to traffic behind that he was turning: his hands, Adam told himself, were inherited and somewhat above his degree, forming no true index. That ‘Splendid’, for example. Canning always finished their interviews with clichés; his blue eyes might peer interestedly out above the old school tie, but they were fairly myopic.
Relaxed he saw the station just ahead. Then he heard Canning say in a low voice: ‘And, by the way, I wouldn’t, think too much about religion and theology. In the long run we can only do our best. We don’t really know.’
Ah, so, thought Adam, sitting up, alert and angry as at an unexpected sting from a rapier. But no better retort came to him than his usual specific of mild agreement.
‘No, indeed! As you say, we don’t know.’
No, you don’t know, his wounded mortified heart cried out. But