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    Mrs Craddock
    Mrs Craddock
    Mrs Craddock
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    Mrs Craddock

    By William Somerset Maugham

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    In "Mrs. Craddock," William Somerset Maugham intricately explores themes of unfulfilled desires, existential loneliness, and societal conventions through the story of a woman trapped in a suffocating marriage. The narrative is marked by Maugham's signature incisive prose, blending realism and psychological insight to create an intimate portrait of its protagonist. Set in the late Victorian era, the novel critiques the restrictive norms of its time, portraying the deep-seated emotions of its characters against a backdrop of stifling social expectations, making it a significant work in Maugham's oeuvre. William Somerset Maugham, a prominent British playwright, novelist, and short story writer, drew upon his rich experiences traveling the globe and observing human nature when crafting his narratives. Raised in a society that often exerted strict moral standards, Maugham experienced a complex relationship with conformity, which deeply influenced "Mrs. Craddock." His keen observations of the human condition were often manifested through female protagonists, allowing him to create layers of psychological depth that reflect his own struggles with identity and acceptance. "Mrs. Craddock" is a powerful exploration of the human soul's inner workings and an essential read for those interested in early 20th-century literature. Maugham's poignant prose and the fresh perspective on marital dynamics make this book a vital addition to the canon of English literature, appealing to both scholars and casual readers alike.
    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherSharp Ink
    Release dateSep 12, 2023
    ISBN9788028310578
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      Mrs Craddock - William Somerset Maugham

      EPISTLE DEDICATORY

      Table of Contents

      Dear Miss Ley,—You will not consider it unflattering if I ask myself when exactly it was that I had the good fortune to make your acquaintance; for, though I am well aware the date is not far distant, I seem to have known you all my life. Was it really during the summer before last, at Naples? (I forget why you go habitually to winter resorts in the middle of August; the reasons you gave were ingenious but inconclusive—surely it is not to avoid your fellow-countrymen?) I was in the Gallery of Masterpieces, looking at the wonderful portrait-statue of Agrippina, when you, sitting beside me, asked some question. We began to talk—by the way, we never inquired if our respective families were desirable; you took my reputability for granted—and since then we have passed a good deal of time together; indeed, you have been seldom absent from my thoughts.

      Now that we stand at a parting of ways (the phrase is hackneyed and you would loathe it), you must permit me to tell you what pleasure your regard has given me and how thoroughly I have enjoyed our intercourse, regretting always that inevitable circumstances made it so rare. I confess I stand in awe of you—this you will not believe, for you have often accused me of flippancy (I am not half so flippant as you); but your thin and mocking smile, after some remark of mine, continually makes me feel that I have said a foolish thing, than which in your eyes I know there is no greater crime.... You have told me that when an acquaintance has left a pleasant recollection, one should resist the temptation to renew it; altered time and surroundings create new impressions which cannot rival with the old, doubly idealised by novelty and absence. The maxim is hard, but therefore, perhaps, more likely to be true. Still, I cannot wish that the future may bring us nothing better than forgetfulness. It is certain that our paths are different, I shall be occupied with other work and you will be lost to me in the labyrinth of Italian hotels, wherein it pleases you, perversely, to hide your lights. I see no prospect of reunion (this sounds quite sentimental and you hate effusiveness. My letter is certainly over-full of parentheses); but I wish, notwithstanding and with all my heart, that some day you may consent to risk the experiment. What say you? I am, dear Miss Ley, very truly (don’t laugh at me, I should like to say—affectionately),—Yours,

      W. M.

      Chapter I

      Table of Contents

      This book might be called also The Triumph of Love. Bertha was looking out of window, at the bleakness of the day. The sky was sombre and the clouds heavy and low; the neglected carriage-drive was swept by the bitter wind, and the elm-trees that bordered it were bare of leaf, their naked branches shivering with horror of the cold. It was the end of November, and the day was utterly cheerless. The dying year seemed to have cast over all Nature the terror of death; the imagination would not bring to the wearied mind thoughts of the merciful sunshine, thoughts of the Spring coming as a maiden to scatter from her baskets the flowers and the green leaves.

      Bertha turned round and looked at her aunt, cutting the leaves of a new Spectator. Wondering what books to get down from Mudie’s, Miss Ley read the autumn lists and the laudatory expressions which the adroitness of publishers extracts from unfavourable reviews.

      You’re very restless this afternoon, Bertha, she remarked, in answer to the girl’s steady gaze.

      I think I shall walk down to the gate.

      You’ve already visited the gate twice in the last hour. Do you find in it something alarmingly novel?

      Bertha did not reply, but turned again to the window: the scene in the last two hours had fixed itself upon her mind with monotonous accuracy.

      What are you thinking about, Aunt Polly? she asked suddenly, turning back to her aunt and catching the eyes fixed upon her.

      I was thinking that one must be very penetrative to discover a woman’s emotions from the view of her back hair.

      Bertha laughed: I don’t think I have any emotions to discover. I feel ... she sought for some way of expressing the sensation—I feel as if I should like to take my hair down.

      Miss Ley made no rejoinder, but looked again at her paper. She hardly wondered what her niece meant, having long ceased to be astonished at Bertha’s ways and doings; indeed, her only surprise was that they never sufficiently corroborated the common opinion that Bertha was an independent young woman from whom anything might be expected. In the three years they had spent together since the death of Bertha’s father the two women had learned to tolerate one another extremely well. Their mutual affection was mild and perfectly respectable, in every way becoming to fastidious persons bound together by ties of convenience and decorum.... Miss Ley, called to the deathbed of her brother in Italy, made Bertha’s acquaintance over the dead man’s grave, and the girl was then too old and of too independent character to accept a stranger’s authority; nor had Miss Ley the smallest desire to exert authority over any one. She was a very indolent woman, who wished nothing more than to leave people alone and be left alone by them. But if it was obviously her duty to take charge of an orphan niece, it was also an advantage that Bertha was eighteen, and, but for the conventions of decent society, could very well take charge of herself. Miss Ley was not unthankful to a merciful Providence on the discovery that her ward had every intention of going her own way, and none whatever of hanging about the skirts of a maiden aunt who was passionately devoted to her liberty.

      They travelled on the Continent, seeing many churches, pictures, and cities, in the examination of which their chief aim appeared to be to conceal from one another the emotions they felt. Like the Red Indian who will suffer the most horrid tortures without wincing, Miss Ley would have thought it highly disgraceful to display feeling at some touching scene. She used polite cynicism as a cloak for sentimentality, laughing that she might not cry—and her want of originality herein, the old repetition of Grimaldi’s doubleness, made her snigger at herself. She felt that tears were unbecoming and foolish.

      Weeping makes a fright even of a good-looking woman, she said, but if she is ugly they make her simply repulsive.

      Finally, letting her own flat in London, Miss Ley settled down with Bertha to cultivate rural delights at Court Leys, near Blackstable, in the county of Kent. The two ladies lived together with much harmony, although the demonstrations of their affection did not exceed a single kiss morning and night, given and received with almost equal indifference. Each had considerable respect for the other’s abilities, and particularly for the wit which occasionally exhibited itself in little friendly sarcasms. But they were too clever to get on badly, and since they neither hated nor loved one another excessively, there was really no reason why they should not continue on the best of terms. The general result of their relations was that Bertha’s restlessness on this particular day aroused in Miss Ley no more question than was easily answered by the warmth of her young blood; and her eccentric curiosity in respect of the gate on a very cold and unpleasant winter afternoon did not even cause a shrug of disapproval or an upraising of the eyelids in wonder.

      Bertha put on a hat and walked out. The avenue of elm-trees, reaching from the façade of Court Leys in a straight line to the gates, had been once rather an imposing sight, but now announced clearly the ruin of an ancient house. Here and there a tree had died and fallen, leaving an unsightly gap, and one huge trunk still lay upon the ground after a terrific storm of the preceding year, left there to rot in the indifference of bailiffs and of tenants. On either side of the elms was a broad strip of meadow which once had been a well-kept lawn, but now was foul with docks and rank weeds; a few sheep nibbled the grass where a century ago fine ladies in hoops and gentlemen with periwigs had sauntered, discussing the wars and the last volumes of Mr. Richardson. Beyond was an ill-trimmed hedge, and then the broad fields of the Ley estate.... Bertha walked down, looking at the highway beyond the gate. It was a relief to feel no longer Miss Ley’s cold eyes fixed upon her; she had emotions enough in her breast, they beat against one another like birds in a net struggling to get free; but not for worlds would Bertha have bidden any one look in her heart full of expectation, of longings, of a hundred strange desires. She went out on the highroad that led from Blackstable to Tercanbury, she looked up and down with a tremor, and a quick beating of the heart. But the road was empty, swept by the winter wind, and she almost sobbed with disappointment.

      She could not return to the house; a roof just then would stifle her, and the walls seemed like a prison: there was a certain pleasure in the biting wind that blew through her clothes and chilled her to the bone. The waiting was terrible. She entered the grounds and looked up the carriage-drive to the big white house which was hers. The very roadway was in need of repair, and the dead leaves that none troubled about rustled hither and thither in the gusts of wind. The house stood in its squareness without relation to any environment: built in the reign of George II., it seemed to have acquired no hold upon the land which bore it. With its plain front and many windows, the Doric portico exactly in the middle, it looked as if it were merely placed upon the ground as a house of cards is built upon the floor, with no foundations. The passing years had given it no beauty, and it stood now as for more than a century it had stood, a blot upon the landscape, vulgar and new. Surrounded by the fields, it had no garden but for a few beds planted about its feet, and in these the flowers, uncared for, had grown wild or withered away.

      The day was declining and the lowering clouds seemed to shut out the light. Bertha gave up hope. But she looked once more down the hill and her heart gave a great thud against her chest; she felt herself blushing furiously. Her blood seemed to rush through the vessels with sudden rapidity, and in dismay at her want of composure she had an impulse to turn quickly and fly. She forgot the sickening expectation, the hours she had spent in looking for the figure that tramped up the hill.

      Of course it was a man! He came nearer, a tall fellow of twenty-seven, massively set together, big boned, with long arms and legs, and a magnificent breadth of chest. Bertha recognised the costume that always pleased her, the knickerbockers and gaiters, the Norfolk-jacket of rough tweed, the white stock and the cap—all redolent of the country which for his sake she was beginning to love, and all vigorously masculine. Even the huge boots which covered his feet gave her by their very size a thrill of pleasure; their dimensions suggested a certain firmness of character, a masterfulness, which were intensely reassuring. The style of dress fitted perfectly the background of brown road and of ploughed field. Bertha wondered if he knew that he was exceedingly picturesque as he climbed the hill.

      Afternoon, Miss Bertha.

      He showed no sign of pausing, and the girl’s heart sank at the thought that he might go on with only a commonplace word of greeting.

      I thought it was you I saw coming up the hill, she said, stretching out her hand.

      He stopped and shook it; the touch of his big, firm fingers made her tremble. His hand was massive and hard as if it were hewn of stone. She looked up at him and smiled.

      Isn’t it cold? she said. It is terrible to be desirous of saying all sorts of passionate things, while convention debars you from any but the most commonplace.

      You haven’t been walking at the rate of five miles an hour, he said, cheerily. I’ve been into Blackstable to see about buying a nag.

      He was the very picture of health; the winds of November were like summer breezes to him, and his face glowed with the pleasant cold. His cheeks were flushed and his eyes glistened. His vitality was intense, shining out upon others with almost a material warmth.

      Were you going out? he asked.

      Oh no, Bertha replied, without strict regard to truth. I just walked down to the gate and I happened to catch sight of you.

      I am very glad—I see you so seldom now, Miss Bertha.

      "I wish you wouldn’t call me Miss Bertha she cried, it sounds horrid. It was worse than that, it sounded almost menial. When we were boy and girl we used to call each other by our Christian names."

      He blushed a little and his modesty filled Bertha with delight.

      Yes, but when you came back six months ago, you had changed so much—I didn’t dare; and besides, you called me Mr. Craddock.

      Well, I won’t any more, she said, laughing; I’d much sooner call you Edward.

      She did not add that the word seemed to her the most beautiful in the whole list of Christian names, nor that in the past few weeks she had already repeated it to herself a thousand times.

      It’ll be like old days, he said. D’you remember what fun we used to have when you were a little girl, before you went abroad with Mr. Ley?

      "I remember that you used to look upon me with great contempt because I was a little girl," she replied, laughing.

      Well, I was awfully frightened the first time I saw you again—with your hair up and long dresses.

      I’m not really very terrible.

      For five minutes they had been looking into one another’s eyes, and suddenly, without obvious reason, Craddock blushed. Bertha noticed it, and a strange little thrill went through her; she reddened too, and her dark eyes flashed even more brightly than before.

      I wish I didn’t see you so seldom, Miss Bertha, he said.

      You have only yourself to blame, fair sir. You perceive the road that leads to my palace, and at the end you will certainly find a door.

      I’m rather afraid of your aunt.

      It was on the tip of Bertha’s tongue to say that faint heart never won fair lady, but for modesty’s sake she refrained. Her spirits had suddenly gone up and she felt extraordinarily happy.

      Do you want to see me very badly? she asked, her heart beating at quite an absurd rate.

      Craddock blushed again and seemed to have some difficulty in finding a reply; his confusion and his ingenuous air were new enchantments to Bertha.

      If he only knew how I adored him! she thought; but naturally she could not tell him in so many words.

      You’ve changed so much in these years, he said, I don’t understand you.

      You haven’t answered my question.

      Of course I want to see you, Bertha, he said quickly, seeming to take his courage in both hands; I want to see you always.

      Well, she said, with a charming smile, I sometimes take a walk after dinner to the gate and observe the shadows of night.

      By Jove, I wish I’d known that before.

      Foolish creature! said Bertha to herself with amusement, he doesn’t gather that this is the first night upon which I shall have done anything of the kind.

      Chapter II

      Table of Contents

      With swinging step Bertha returned to the house, and like a swarm of birds a hundred amorets flew about her head; Cupid leapt from tree to tree and shot his arrows into her willing heart; her imagination clothed the naked branches with tender green, and in her happiness the gray sky turned to azure.... It was the first time that Edward Craddock had shown his love in a manner which was unmistakable; if before, much had suggested that he was not indifferent, nothing had been absolutely convincing, and the doubt had caused her every imaginable woe. As for her, she made no effort to conceal it from herself; she was not ashamed, she loved him passionately, she worshipped the ground he trod on; she confessed boldly that he of all men was the one to make her happy; her life she would give into his strong and manly hands. She had made up her mind firmly that Craddock should lead her to the altar.

      Times without number already had she fancied herself resting in his arms—in his strong arms—the very thought of which was a protection against all the ills of the world. Oh yes, she wanted him to take her in his arms and kiss her; in imagination she felt his lips upon hers, and the warmth of his breath made her faint with the anguish of love.

      She asked herself how she could wait till the evening; how on earth was she to endure the slow passing of the hours? And she must sit opposite her aunt and pretend to read, or talk on this subject and on that. It was insufferable. Then, inconsequently, she asked herself if Edward knew that she loved him; he could not dream how intense was her desire.

      I’m sorry I’m late for tea, she said, on entering the drawing-room.

      My dear, said Miss Ley, the buttered toast is probably horrid, but I don’t see why you should not eat cake.

      I don’t want anything to eat, cried Bertha, flinging herself on a chair.

      But you’re dying with thirst, added Miss Ley, looking at her niece with sharp eyes. Wouldn’t you like your tea out of a breakfast cup?

      Miss Ley had come to the conclusion that the restlessness and the long absence could only be due to some masculine cause. Mentally she shrugged her shoulders, hardly wondering who the creature was.

      Of course, she thought, it’s certain to be some one quite ineligible. I hope they won’t have a long engagement.

      Miss Ley could not have supported for several months the presence of a bashful and love-sick swain. She found lovers invariably ridiculous. She watched Bertha drink six cups of tea: of course those shining eyes, the flushed cheeks and the breathlessness, indicated some amorous excitement; it amused her, but she thought it charitable and wise to pretend that she noticed nothing.

      After all it’s no business of mine, she thought; and if Bertha is going to get married at all, it would be much more convenient for her to do it before next quarter-day, when the Browns give up my flat.

      Miss Ley sat on the sofa by the fireside, a woman of middle-size, very slight, with a thin and much wrinkled face. Of her features the mouth was the most noticeable, not large, with lips that were a little too thin; it was always so tightly compressed as to give her an air of great determination, but there was about the corners an expressive mobility, contradicting in rather an unusual manner the inferences which might be drawn from the rest of her person. She had a habit of fixing her cold eyes on people with a steadiness that was not a little embarrassing. They said Miss Ley looked as if she thought them great fools, and as a matter of fact that usually was her precise opinion. Her thin gray hair was very plainly done; and the extreme simplicity of her costume gave a certain primness, so that her favourite method of saying rather absurd things in the gravest and most decorous manner often disconcerted the casual stranger. She was a woman who, one felt, had never been handsome, but now, in middle-age, was distinctly prepossessing.

      Young men thought her somewhat terrifying till they discovered that they were to her a constant source of amusement; while elderly ladies asserted that she was a little queer.

      You know, Aunt Polly, said Bertha, finishing her tea and getting up, I think you should have been christened Martha or Matilda. I don’t think Polly suits you.

      My dear, you need not remind me so pointedly that I’m forty-five and you need not smile in that fashion because you know that I’m really forty-seven. I say forty-five merely as a round number; in another year I shall call myself fifty. A woman never acknowledges such a nondescript age as forty-eight unless she is going to marry a widower with seventeen children.

      I wonder why you never married, Aunt Polly? said Bertha, looking away.

      Miss Ley smiled almost imperceptibly, finding Bertha’s remark highly significant. My dear, she said, why should I? I had five hundred a year of my own.... Ah yes, I know it’s not what might have been expected; I’m sorry for your sake that I had no hopeless amour. The only excuse for an old maid is, that she has pined thirty years for a lover who is buried under the snow-drops, or has married another.

      Bertha made no answer; she was feeling that the world had turned good, and wanted to hear nothing that could suggest imperfections in human nature: suddenly there had come over the universe a Sunday-school air which appealed to her better self. Going upstairs she sat at the window, gazing towards the farm where lived her heart’s desire. She wondered what Edward was doing! was he awaiting the night as anxiously as she? It gave her quite a pang that a sizeable hill should intervene between herself and him. During dinner she hardly spoke, and Miss Ley was mercifully silent. Bertha could not eat; she crumbled her bread and toyed with the various meats put before her. She looked at the clock a dozen times, and started absurdly when it struck the hour.

      She did not trouble to make any excuse to Miss Ley, whom she left to think as she chose. The night was dark and cold; Bertha slipped out of the side-door with a delightful feeling of doing something venturesome. But her legs would scarcely carry her, she had a sensation that was entirely novel; never before had she experienced that utter weakness of the knees so that she feared to fall; her breathing was strangely oppressive, and her heart beat almost painfully. She walked down the carriage-drive scarcely knowing what she did. She had forced herself to wait indoors till the desire to go out became uncontrollable, and she dared not imagine her dismay if there was no one to meet her when she reached the gate. It would mean he did not love her; she stopped with a sob. Ought she not to wait longer? It was still early. But her impatience forced her on.

      She gave a little cry. Craddock had suddenly stepped out of the darkness.

      Oh, I’m sorry, he said, I frightened you. I thought you wouldn’t mind my coming this evening. You’re not angry?

      She could not answer; it was an immense load off her heart. She was extremely happy, for then he did love her; and he feared she was angry with him.

      I expected you, she whispered. What was the good of pretending to be modest and bashful? She loved him and he loved her. Why should she not tell him all she felt?

      It’s so dark, he said, I can’t see you.

      She was too deliriously happy to speak, and the only words she could have said were, I love you, I love you. She moved a step nearer so as to touch him. Why did he not open his arms and take her in them, and kiss her as she had dreamt that he would kiss her?

      But he took her hand and the contact thrilled her; her knees were giving way, and she almost tottered.

      What’s the matter? he said. Are you trembling?

      I’m only a little cold. She was trying with all her might to speak naturally. Nothing came into her head to say.

      You’ve got nothing on, he said. You must wear my coat. He began to take it off.

      No, she said, then you’ll be cold.

      Oh no, I shan’t.

      What he was doing seemed to her a marvel of unselfish kindness; she was beside herself with gratitude.

      It’s awfully good of you, Edward, she whispered, almost tearfully.

      When he put it round her shoulders, the touch of his hands made her lose the little self-control she had left. A curious spasm passed through her, and she pressed herself closer to him; at the same time his hands sank down, dropping the cloak, and encircled her waist. Then she surrendered herself entirely to his embrace and lifted her face to his. He bent down and kissed her. The kiss was such utter madness that she almost groaned. She could not tell if it was pain or pleasure. She flung her arms round his neck and drew him to her.

      What a fool I am, she said at last, with something between a sob and a laugh. She drew herself a little away, though not so violently as to make him withdraw the arm which so comfortably encircled her.

      But why did he say nothing? Why did he not swear he loved her? Why did he not ask what she was so willing to grant? She rested her head on his shoulder.

      Do you like me at all, Bertha? he asked. I’ve been wanting to ask you almost ever since you came home.

      Can’t you see? She was reassured; she understood that it was only timidity that clogged his tongue. You’re so absurdly bashful.

      You know who I am, Bertha; and—— he hesitated.

      And what, foolish boy? she nestled still more closely to him.

      And you’re Miss Ley of Court Leys, while I’m just one of your tenants, with nothing whatever to my back.

      I’ve got very little, she said. And if I had ten thousand a year, my only wish would be to lay it at your feet.

      Bertha, what d’you mean? Don’t be cruel to me. You know what I want, but——

      As far as I can make out, she said, laughing, you want me to propose to you.

      Oh, Bertha, don’t laugh at me. I love you; I want to ask you to marry me. But I haven’t got anything to offer you, and I know I oughtn’t—don’t be angry with me, Bertha.

      But I love you with all my heart, she cried. I want no better husband; you can give me happiness, and I want nothing else in the world.

      Then he caught her again in his arms, quite passionately, and kissed her.

      Didn’t you see that I loved you? she whispered.

      I thought perhaps you did; but I wasn’t sure, and I was afraid that you wouldn’t think me good enough.

      Oh yes, I love you with all my heart. I never imagined it possible to love a person as I love you. Oh, Eddie, you don’t know how happy you have made me.

      He kissed her again, and again she flung her arms around his neck.

      Oughtn’t you to be going in, he said at last; what will Miss Ley think?

      Oh no—not yet, she cried.

      How will you tell her? D’you think she’ll like me? She’ll try and make you give me up.

      Oh, I’m sure she’ll love you; besides, what does it matter if she doesn’t?—she isn’t going to marry you.

      She can take you abroad again and then you may see some one you like better.

      But I’m twenty-one to-morrow, Edward—didn’t you know? And I shall be my own mistress. I shan’t leave Blackstable till I’m your wife.

      They were walking slowly towards the house, whither he, in his anxiety lest she should stay out too long, had guided her steps. They went arm in arm, and Bertha enjoyed her happiness.

      Dr. Ramsay is coming to luncheon to-morrow, she said, and I shall tell them both that I’m going to be married to you.

      He won’t like it, said Craddock, rather nervously.

      I’m sure I don’t care. If you like it and I like it, the rest can think as they choose.

      I leave everything in your hands, he said.

      They had arrived at the portico, and Bertha looked at it

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