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I Was Anastasia: A Novel
I Was Anastasia: A Novel
I Was Anastasia: A Novel
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I Was Anastasia: A Novel

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NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER • From the bestselling author of The Frozen River comes an enthralling feat of historical suspense that unravels the extraordinary twists and turns in Anna Anderson's fifty-year battle to be recognized as Anastasia Romanov. Is she the Russian Grand Duchess or the thief of another woman's legacy?

"Tantalizing, surprising, compelling, and utterly fascinating."—Lisa Wingate, New York Times bestselling author of Before We Were Yours


Countless others have rendered their verdict. Now it is your turn.

Russia, July 17, 1918: Under direct orders from Vladimir Lenin, Bolshevik secret police force Anastasia Romanov, along with the entire imperial family, into a damp basement in Siberia, where they face a merciless firing squad. None survive. At least that is what the executioners have always claimed.

Germany, February 17, 1920: A young woman bearing an uncanny resemblance to Anastasia Romanov is pulled shivering and senseless from a canal. Refusing to explain her presence in the freezing water or even acknowledge her rescuers, she is taken to the hospital where an examination reveals that her body is riddled with countless horrific scars. When she finally does speak, this frightened, mysterious young woman claims to be the Russian grand duchess.     

As rumors begin to circulate through European society that the youngest Romanov daughter has survived the massacre at Ekaterinburg, old enemies and new threats are awakened. The question of who Anna Anderson is and what actually happened to Anastasia Romanov spans fifty years and touches three continents. This thrilling saga is every bit as moving and momentous as it is harrowing and twisted.

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Release dateMar 27, 2018
ISBN9780385541701
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Ariel Lawhon

ARIEL LAWHON is a critically acclaimed, New York Times bestselling author of historical fiction. Her books have been translated into numerous languages and have been LibraryReads, Indie Next, Costco, and Book of the Month Club selections. She lives in the rolling hills outside Nashville, Tennessee, with her husband and four sons. Ariel splits her time between the grocery store and the baseball field.

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  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    I got tired of the author’s technique of going back and forth in time. I have enjoyed some of her other books, but couldn’t get through this one.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    This novel switches between time from days, weeks, months and leaves you hanging and wanting to know what’s going to happen.Because we know the historic facts of what happened to Tzar Nicholas and his family, it makes it harder for the writer to keep a reader’s interest but the author does. She capitalizes on our fascination with Anastasia Romanov. Lawton’s author’s note at the end helps explain why she ended the book as she did and gives us the basic facts of how the bodies were found in 1991 and 2007.
  • Rating: 2 out of 5 stars
    2/5
    The dueling timelines were confusing. I didn’t care about either of the main characters. Anastasia’s storyline was the more interesting, but I felt like I never had a chance to dig any deeper than her surface problems. Her situation was horrible, but switching back and forth in the story meant I was skimming the surface for both women.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    It was a well told story of the possibility that Anastasia survived the slaughter of her family. I enjoyed the back and forth of the story and wondering which ending the author would end with. The last chapter was a different tone than the rest of the book but I think it worked for what Lawhon was trying to portray. This is a book I would recommend if you like historical fiction.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    A compelling story, told in a very convoluted way.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    I enjoyed this novel and it has inspired me to look for a nonfiction account of those who claimed to be Anastasia. The story is told backwards, and I sometimes had trouble remembering just who certain people were, but that wasn't a major problem, The story is very well told.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Jane Collingwood and Sian Thomas narrated the audiobook, with Collingwood voicing Anna’s chapters and Thomas taking on Anastasia’s storyline. They do a marvelous job. I particularly liked the youth and innocence of Thomas’s voice as the teenaged Anastasia.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    The Romanov's... one of most mysterious tales in all of Russian History. Is she or Isn't she the Tzars daughter Anastasia Romanov? Like a photo album that has missing pages throughout its covers, I was Anastasia was told in gaps and back views, this non-linear story feels like said missing-paged photo album.

    Ariel Lawhon does a marvelous job convincing you that Anna Anderson is absolutely Anastasia Romanov from heart-breaking journeys into exile, traumatic train rides, death-defying slaughters, and yet, you still have to wonder if anyone can survive what Anna Anderson claims she has.

    The story is poetic, filled with all that you can imagine of tragedy but also, loving memories of family, friendship, and compassion from those who selfishly provide for Anna if only to gain notoriety and material wealth.

    It did take me a while and sometimes still after the first 100 pages I tended to have to go back to keep the pages in order of timelines. However, when you reach the end of the story, you understand what the author is achieving.

    This story is a must if you have ever wondered about Anna/Anastasia's identity.

    I gave this book 4 stars.

    I received this book courtesy of Double Day Books via NetGalley in lieu of my honest review.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    This the first book I read by author Ariel Lawton. She has a unique style of writing in this book that takes the reader from current time backward in current time to the past and then moves from a current past event to an even further past event. The ending of this book is fascinating and I was on the edge of my reading seat until I was done. If you are interest in the Romanov family - this is a book you should read.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    This novel retells the tragic last days of the Romanovs. I knew the story and its outcome of course; it’s general knowledge.

    The novel is told in two parallel voices of the young Anastasia and Anna Anderso, the imposter who claimed to be the Royal Princess.

    While the writing of workmanlike, i found it very unfortunate the author chose to write Anna’s story in a back to front method. Whatever her motivation for doing so, and she does mention in it the author’s notes, this artificial literary device completely ruined the book for me. I was so frustrated and angered that I almost didn’t finish it. It crossed my mind to cut out the pages and rearrange Anna’s story in the proper chronological order just so it made sense.

    I can’t recommend the book because of this writer’s blunder in choosing to tell Anna’s story backwards.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Book on CD narrated by Jane Collingwood and Sian Thomas.
    3.5***

    In February 1920 a young woman was pulled senseless from a canal in Berlin. Upon examination at a hospital, doctors found her body riddled with horrific scars. For some time she refused to speak or reveal her name, but ultimately she claimed to be the Grand Duchess Anastasia Romanov, the sole survivor of the massacre of her entire family. Her detractors claimed she was a liar and charlatan, intent only on claiming the Romanov fortune. She became known as Anna Anderson and spent the rest of her life trying to prove her identity.

    Lawhon uses a dual timeline / narration in this fascinating work of historical fiction. Anna’s story begins in 1970 and works backwards to 1918. Anastasia’s begins with the revolution in 1917 and moves forwards in time as the family is arrested, moved from location to location and ultimately faces the soldiers tasked with executing them all in July1918.

    I remember watching the movie Anastasia starring Ingrid Bergman and Yul Brynner with my mother. I’ve also read other books about the possibility that Anastasia survived; most recently The Kitchen Boy by Robert Alexander. I was fascinated then and remained fascinated by the possibility that one of the Romanov family members managed to survive / escape the slaughter. I was not alone.

    Lawhon relies on the reader’s desire to believe as she crafts this story. She gives us an Anna Anderson who shows a steely resolve, courage and tenacity, while simultaneously remaining fragile and wounded. And she gives us an Anastasia who is prone to teenaged dreams and desires, but also pragmatic about the very real and dangerous situation in which she finds herself and her family. Little by little we see the similarities and possibilities that these two stories will fuse as one. We WANT to believe.

    I can hardly wait for my F2F book club discussion.

    I find the author notes at the end fascinating and enlightening. But DO wait to read them until you have finished the book.

    Jane Collingwood and Sian Thomas narrated the audiobook, with Collingwood voicing Anna’s chapters and Thomas taking on Anastasia’s storyline. They do a marvelous job. I particularly liked the youth and innocence of Thomas’s voice as the teenaged Anastasia.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    As a kid, I loved the movie Anastasia. I have always been interested in the mystery of the Romanovs. So when I heard about this book, of course I had to read it! It was simply heartbreaking, but I really enjoyed it. I did not like that the timing of the story kind of went in backwards order because it was confusing at times, but the writing was beautiful.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    This book put me off at first, and I was having a little difficulty getting into it. The non-linear timeframe was confusing as well, but after reading the book and reading the author's "Afterword", I realize that this story could only be told in this way. Anastasia Romanov's story has always been immortalized, and it has always been a big question as to whether or not she made it through the massacre in the basement in Yekaterinburg on July 17, 1918. There were women who did try to impersonate her after the massacre, of whom Anna Anderson was one. The book is two separate storylines. The linear one of Anastasia for the 18 months leading up to the massacre. Her story begins immediately after the February 1917, revolution. through their imprisonment at the Alexander Palace before they were moved Tobolsk, and then Yekaterinberg. The story of Anna Anderson works backwards from 1945 to 1918. These two separate storylines are woven together throughout the book. As I read, I found it helped me keep things straight if I made special notes of the dates at the beginning of each chapter. Ariel Lawhon has done a remarkable job of retelling both of these stories by using historical data and historical figures from this time. After I finished, I had to sit back and think and I decided that the book is truly remarkable. It is historical fiction at its very best. If you are interested to read it, give the book a chance and let its magic wow you, and let it draw you into early twentieth century Russia.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    I've always been fascinated by the Romanovs and, like many others, have been intrigued by the possibility of Anastasia's survival. This is one of the first novels which deals with this portion of the Romanov story head on, and keeps the reader wondering and hoping until the last page. It may not have provided the ending I wished for, but it did have an ending that lays clear why the story of Anastasia and Anna Anderson has intrigued and fascinated so many.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    I am Anastasia by Ariel Lawhon is a 2018 Doubleday publication.

    No matter how many movies, documentaries, or books I’ve watched or read, the romantic in me simply can’t resist the fascination and the mystery of Anastasia Romanov. This book examines the life of Anna Anderson, who claimed she was Anastasia, while also chronicling the period of time the Romanov’s were in exile, leading up to their execution during the Bolshevik Revolution.

    Anna’s claims captured our imaginations for decades and sparked many debates over the legitimacy of her pronouncement. While she was often met with skepticism, she also had many staunch supporters.
    I, for one, always loved the notion surrounding this legend. I hoped, no matter how far-fetched or doubtful the probability, that Anna Anderson really was Anastasia Romanov.

    If a miracle did happen, and Anastasia somehow managed to survive, we could all rationalize our fascination with the Czar’s daughter, from Ingrid Bergman’s oscar winning portrayal, to the animated Disney film, and all points in between. But, of course, the reality is far more serious and grim.

    This novel is obviously a very ambitious undertaking. Giving voice to Anastasia, and Anna Anderson, describing minute historical details, adding authentic and vivid dialogue, along with solid pacing, and well-drawn characterizations.

    This story is very interesting, and the author certainly did her homework, doing a great job of laying out Anna’s complexities. Anna was difficult, but also lived with a host of mental issues, making her a sympathetic figure on occasion, which left me with conflicting emotions. I often wondered how other people who have read this book felt about her in the end.

    However, I must address the elephant in the room when it comes to the way the author structured the novel. She explains the method to her madness in a note at the end of the book, and it does make sense, from the viewpoint of the writer, and logically, I see where she’s coming from. However, the backwards/forwards, first and third person narratives made the book more difficult to read than need be, in my opinion. I did struggle with the format, I must say. However, others may not be bothered by it at all, and may even benefit from it. I’m not always the sharpest tool in the shed, so there is that. However, I did agree with the concept of separating ‘Anastasia’ from ‘Anna’, but I did wish for a more traditional type of dual timeline, without all that skipping around.

    The novel’s strongest area is the pacing and the agonizingly taut build -up of suspense. We must watch with mounting dread as the Romanov’s are taken to Siberia, the clock ticking away as they careen towards their ultimate, tragic fate. This part of the story is interwoven with Anna’s as she sits in a German court waiting on their decision, hoping she will at long last lay legitimate and official claim to the name ‘Anastasia Romanov’. The theories mapped out here are very imaginative, plausible, realistic and thought provoking. I can tell the author put a great deal of thought and time into this novel, which is much appreciated. Although it took me a long time to get through the book, really struggling with it at times, ultimately, I found it to be quite interesting and I’m glad I didn’t give up on it.

    One point I think we can all agree on, no matter what, is that Anna’s claims turned Anastasia Romanov into a legend, taking on a life of its own. If not for her, Anastasia and her sisters would most likely have long been forgotten over time, along with other royal families who were met with the same fate. Just a little something to ponder over-

    I do recommend this book to anyone who enjoys Romanov history, of course, but be prepared- this is not a fairy tale! I would also recommend this book to anyone who enjoys historical fiction in general. This book will most likely spark your curiosity about the Romanov family and you will want to learn more about this them, and the events leading up to their capture, exile, and murders.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    For fifty years, Anna Anderson fought to be recognized as Anastasia Romanov, who was believed to have been executed along with her father Tsar Nicholas, II, her mother Tsarina Alexandra, her three older sisters Olga, Tatiana and Maria, and her younger brother Alexei. When a young woman was pulled from a Berlin canal three years after the execution and taken to a hospital, her body was riddled with terrible scars. When she claims to be Anastasia Romanov, an identity battle erupts.

    This turned out to be quite a suspenseful and fascinating book. I’ve gotten away from reading historical fiction because today’s version often seems to be more fiction than fact. Having had some knowledge of the Romanovs prior to reading this book, I do believe that this book contains more fact than fiction. The author has done her research. I think the author overcomplicated things a bit by telling Anna’s story in reverse, which made it hard to follow. And it felt somewhat repetitive, although I can’t really blame the author for that as Anna’s life was somewhat repetitive, always staying with different people and always being questioned.

    The author certainly brings this story to life and takes her readers on a fascinating journey. Recommended.

    This book was given to me by the publisher in a Goodreads giveaway.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Anna is a miserable woman. She is scarred, lost, depressed and damaged in more ways than one. Is she who she says she is? She claims to be Anastasia Romanov. Is she? You need to read this to find out!

    I love the history of this book. It has been a while since I visited with the Romanovs. This was a highlight for me but, parts of this novel are so hard to read. The tragedy surrounding the Romanovs’ lives and their deaths are heart wrenching.

    The only reason this is not getting five stars from me is because of the time line. It is non linear. This made the story more confusing but, that was the brilliant plan of the author. To keep you off balance, which you will realize when you get to the end of the book. Their is a reason she wants you off balance.

    All in all, I enjoyed this book very much. Anna, the Romanovs, and the history really create a wonderful tale.

    I received this novel from Netgalley for a honest review.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    3.5 I am fairly familiar with the last days of the Romanovs, having read a few non fiction books about the subject. The woman who appears and tries to prove that she is a Romanovs daughter Anastasia, I was less familiar. In alternating chapters we follow both stories. The one of the Romanovs imprisonmrnt and eventually murder is written in a linear timeline, the story of Anna is told backwards in time, even within the same Chapter, we go backwards.

    I did like learning more about the girls personalities, though of course the focus is on Anastasia. They went through some terrible things, even more so because they had such a protected upbringing. Quite heartbreaking that the children were blamed for their parents mistakes. The part with Anna was also told well, but I found because of the way it was written, sometimes confusing.

    A great deal of research went into this novel, and the author explains in her authors note what that entailed and what she changed to make the story flow better. She also explains why she wrote it the way she did. I enjoyed this for the most part, but though I read why she wrote it this way, I still found myself liking those sections less.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    At the end of her life Anna Anderson tells the story of her battle to be recognized as Grand Duchess Anastasia. Told backwards in time, each chapter unravels and illuminates her story a little more. Told forward in time, is Anastasia's imprisonment and the events leading up to her alleged death.

    I've always found Anna Anderson's story to be fascinating, and this book was no exception. It was well written and engaging and kept me at the edge of my seat. I didn't particularly enjoy the backwards in time element, but I understand why the author did it. Overall, highly recommended.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    The constant shifting in the timeline of the story confused me at times. Anna’s timeline is all over the place and I would have preferred to have hers go chronologically like Anastasia’s.

    I really liked Anastasia’s POV but couldn’t get into Anna’s.

    This book re-sparked my interest in the Romanovs and now I need to go read some non-fiction books about them.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    This story was pretty much written backwards with Anastasia's early life thrown in as you read along.

    I was mesmerized by this story. A lost princess, one who was originally thought dead. One that caused quite a bit of controversy over her life. It was amazing to me, how complete strangers would take her in just because they thought she was Anastasia even when the royal palace confirmed that she wasn't.

    Her story sounded so real, I wanted to believe it. The author gives you a little background at the beginning and leaves it to the reader to decide whether to believe this woman claiming to be "Anastasia". I want to believe it, because I want something good to come out of the suffering her family felt. However, logic makes you wonder.

    This was an absolutely excellent read that I could not put down!

    Thanks to Doubleday Books and Net Galley for providing me with a free e-galley in exchange for an honest, unbiased review.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    In February 1920, Anna (Anderson) shows up and claims to be Tsarina Anastasia, one of the daughters of Tsar Nicolas. In July 1918 the Tsar, his wife, his four daughters, and his son had been executed in a revolution. Anna had scars on her body that could have been the result of gunshots and stabbings. She also bore a remarkable resemblance to Anastasia. Was she the only remaining Romanov, or was she a really good fraud?

    There are numerous theories regarding the true identity of Anna Anderson. Throughout the decades there have been people who wanted to believe Anna was indeed Anastasia. That is what has kept this story alive.

    It is obvious that Lawhon accomplished a lot of research in preparation for writing her book. She brought the Romanov family to life. Young Alexy, as the Romanov heir, is arrogant. Tsarina Alexandra is very petulant. And her execution chapter is nightmarish – I could feel their fear, their terror, hear their screams and shrieks, smell the blood flowing throughout the room.

    However, I found Lawhon’s version of the story difficult to follow. She uses two timelines. She moves forward for Anastasia’s story, and then backwards for Anna’s story. The story has been told by many writers so I understand Lawhon’s need to make hers a bit different. If this is your first exposure to the mystery of Anna Anderson it will probably intrigue you and leaving you wanting more. Fortunately, there are many books on this topic.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Several years ago DNA evidence proved that Anastasia Romanov could not have survived the horrible night the Tsar's family was murdered in Ekaterinburg. Nonetheless novelist Ariel Lawhon spins an elaborate fantasy in which the major Anastasia claimant, Anna Anderson, and the tsarevna are one and the same. It's a gripping, kaleidoscopic look at an amazing life of extremes: luxury and poverty, safety and horror, and love and hate. Definitely worth reading.

    Please note that I received an electronic copy of this book to review from NetGalley, but I was not financially compensated in any way. The opinions expressed are my own and are based on my observations while reading this book.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    I received this book as a Goodreads free giveaway from Doubleday. It was an amazing story and so well written. At first I had an issue with how it flipped around but it made sense. It was a devastatingly sad historical fiction about Anastasia Romanov and her family during the Russian Revolution. It kept you in suspense throughout the entire book. There was no dull moment, I just wanted to keep reading to see how it ends. The ending was unexpected but phenomenal. I am so very appreciative of receiving this book from Doubleday and highly recommend, you will not be disappointed.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    The story of whether Anna Anderson was actually Anastasia Romanov has fascinated me since I was young. When discoveries were made relevant to this story, I followed them closely. Naturally, I was very excited to read I Was Anastasia, and I knew how the book would turn out (I am choosing my wording carefully because I do not want to spoil the ending for those unfamiliar with the tale). While I enjoyed the book, I had significant trouble following the story as it unfolded in I Was Anastasia. Lawhon chose to tell Anastasia’s story chronologically and Anna’s backwards through time making it very hard at times to understand where I was in the story. I also felt it could have been edited down a bit more.

    I Was Anastasia is clearly a labor of love for Ariel Lawhon, and her research and effort show through in her retelling of Anna Anderson and Anastasia Romanov’s stories. Thanks to Doubleday for my ARC. All opinions are my own.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    I Was Anastasia: A Novel
    By: Ariel Lawhon

    I received an e-ARC from NetGalley in exchange for my honest review.

    I’ve been interested in the story of the Romanov’s for a long time. I’ve read just about everything out there on the subject. Sadly, no matter how many books I read, the ending to this storied family is always the same. Each author is determined to paint the scene in that cellar. They are universally determined to elicit as much emotion from the reader as possible. Each author thinks that their version is somehow more sensitive or appealing. I don’t know what their goal is but the outcome is always the same.

    Anna Anderson was also a part of all my reading. When I was younger (pre-2007/ 2009 DNA test) I was so desperate for her story to be true. The story was viscerally sad and I longed for a happier ending. Of course, finding the bones and confirming their identities with DNA tests put an end to any and all such romantic speculation. I therefore knew the truth about Anna Anderson as well as a very detailed record of the Romanovs when I started this book.

    Book Structure, Plot, and Characters:
    The story is told from two perspectives: Anna Anderson’s story works backward in time beginning from when she received legal denial of her royal claim; Anastasia Romanov’s story is told from the beginning of the revolution to the end of her life.

    Anna Anderson:
    Anna Anderson’s story is very well written. Each chapter plants a seed for the following chapter (which goes backwards in time). The author has an engaging style and shows a great deal of empathy for her main character. Anna comes across as sharp and witty but defensive. I loved the very complex character that she becomes in these pages. The end of the book paints a very tidy reason for Anna’s behavior throughout the remainder of her life. I did really sympathize with the character but did not need the author to create such snug reasoning for Anna. Honestly, no one knows for sure what led her to try and commit suicide, the origin of all the marks on her body (obviously something horrific had happened to her), and her subsequent determination to be legally declared Anastasia.

    Anastasia Romanov:
    The sections on the real Anastasia are where I became annoyed with this book and author. The book reads like an accurate history but it is not. I’m just a lay scholar but I found so many untruths and speculations. They were annoying and distracted me from the intensity of the real story. This book is just some odd mishmash of historical fact, guesswork, lots of rumors, and speculation. For instance, as the author admits in her afterward, her version of the book saves Jimmy (the dog) from death. Anastasia is the only character able to see her doomed future but is consoled by the thought that she was able to save her beloved pet. Now I find it heartbreaking that the dogs were killed along with their humans; I don’t even like to think about it. But this is just a sappy scene and annoyed me. There are also scenes of rape (Anastasia and Alexei are saved by a good hearted guard) but, again, this has never been proven. The author has pretty much included every salacious internet rumor that there is on this subject in her book.

    My final annoyance is the characters are not written as true. Anastasia herself is written as one of those annoying, far-seeing characters. She is seemingly the only one who understands their circumstances enough to foresee their fate. She is the only one who understands what is happening and knows what needs to be done and deals with it. The actual historical record of Anastasia paints a far more normal picture of a young person. There is a massive historical record of Anastasia (from family accounts as well as the guards) that show her as a mischief-loving, highly personable young person. It does not mark her as remarkably sensitive or prescient.

    In Conclusion:
    I’ve given three stars for the Anna Anderson part of this book. The author really seemed to connect with her and it shows throughout Anna’s thoughtful chapters. The Anastasia chapters just leave me frustrated as they could have been so much better.

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I Was Anastasia - Ariel Lawhon

·  PART ONE  ·

The End and the Beginning

Part One: The End and the Beginning

Once you eliminate the impossible, whatever remains, no matter how improbable, must be the truth.

—SIR ARTHUR CONAN DOYLE

·  1  ·

Anna

FOLIE À DEUX

1970, 1968

Charlottesville, Virginia

February 17, 1970

Fifty years ago tonight Anna threw herself off a bridge in Berlin. It wasn’t her first brush with death, or even the most violent, but it was the only one that came at her hands. Anna’s husband does not know this, however. She watches him, watching her, and she knows he sees only a fragile old woman who has waited too long for vindication. He sees the carefully cultivated image she presents to the world: a crown of thinning silver hair and tired blue eyes. Age and confusion and a gentle aura of helplessness. This impression could not be further from the truth. She has been many things through the years, but helpless is not one of them. At the moment, however, Anna is simply impatient. She sits in this living room, two thousand miles from her past, waiting for a verdict.

Jack is like a frightened rabbit, all nerves and tension. He springs from his chair and begins to pace through the cluttered den. Why haven’t they called? They should have called by now.

I’m sure they read the verdict hours ago, Anna says, leaning her head against the fold of her wingback chair and closing her eyes.

Whatever news awaits them is not good, but Anna does not have the heart to tell him this. Jack is so hopeful. He has already written a press release and taken a Polaroid so he can bring both to The Daily Progress first thing in the morning. Jack spoke with the editor this afternoon, suggesting they reserve a front-page spot for the story. He’s hoping for something above the fold. He’s hoping for exclamation points.

Even though Jack hasn’t admitted it, Anna knows that he is looking forward to reporters showing up again. They haven’t had any in months, and she suspects he’s gotten lonely with only her and the animals for company. She feels a bit sorry for him, being saddled with her like this. But there was no other way. Gleb insisted on it, and in all the years she knew him, Gleb Botkin remained her truest friend, her staunchest champion. He’s been dead two years now. Another loss in an unending string of losses. Jack is kind to her—just as Gleb promised—and beggars can’t be choosers anyway. Anna reminds herself of this daily.

The phone rings. Three startling metallic alarms and then Jack snatches it from the cradle.

Manahan residence. A pause, and then, Yes, she’s here. Hold on a moment. The cord won’t stretch across the room, so Jack lays the receiver on the sideboard. He grins. It’s from Germany.

Who?

The Prince. He beams, then clarifies—there have been a number of princes in her life. Frederick.

Anna feels a wild stab of anger at the name. She hasn’t forgotten what Frederick did, hasn’t forgotten the burn pile behind her cottage at the edge of the Black Forest. All those charred little bones. If the news had come from anyone else she would take the call. I don’t want to speak with him.

But—

He knows why.

I really think it’s time you—

Anna holds her hand up, palm out, a firm, final sort of motion. Take a message.

Jack pouts but doesn’t protest. He knows that arguing is futile. Anna does not change her mind. Nor does she forgive. He picks up the receiver again. I’m sorry. She doesn’t want to speak right now. Why don’t you give me the news?

And then she watches Jack’s countenance fall by tiny, heartbreaking increments. First his smile. Then his lifted, expectant brows. His right arm drops to his side. He is deflated. I don’t understand, he says, finally, then clears his throat as though he has swallowed a cobweb.

Write it down, Anna instructs. Word for word. She doesn’t want to interpret the verdict through his anger once he hangs up. Anna wants to know exactly what the appeals court has to say. Jack is too emotional and prone to exaggeration. He needs to transcribe the decision in its entirety or vital bits of information will be lost the moment he hangs up. Gleb wouldn’t need this instruction. He would know what to do. He would know what questions to ask. But Gleb is no longer here, and, once again, this reality leaves her feeling adrift.

Let me write this down, Jack says, like it’s his idea. She watches him shuffle through piles of paper on the cluttered sideboard, looking for a notebook with blank pages. Finding none, he grabs an envelope and turns it over. Go ahead. I’m ready.

A decade ago Anna’s lawyer told her this lawsuit was the longest-running case in German history. This appeal has stretched it into something worse, something interminable. And there stands Jack, writing the footnote to her quest on the back of their electric bill in his tidy, ever-legible script. How do you spell that? he asks at one point, holding the phone with one hand and recording the verdict with the other. He doesn’t rush or scribble but pens each word with painstaking precision, occasionally asking Frederick to repeat himself.

Jack and Anna don’t have many friends. They haven’t been married long, only two years, and theirs is a relationship based on convenience and necessity, not romance. They are old and eccentric and not fit for polite society in this quaint college town. But a handful of people—mostly former professors at the University of Virginia, like Jack—are due to arrive shortly. Anna doesn’t want to know how he convinced them to come. Entertaining would have been awkward if the decision had gone in her favor. It will be excruciating now. Anna decides there won’t be a party tonight. She doesn’t have the heart to entertain strangers this evening.

But Jack, in all his eagerness, has cooked for a celebration. Their small den is littered with trays of fruit and sandwiches. Deviled eggs and cheese platters. Tiny brined pickles and cocktail sausages skewered with toothpicks. He even bought three bottles of champagne that sit in a bowl of ice, unopened beneath the string of Christmas lights he stapled to the ceiling. Anna stares at the bottles with suspicion. She hasn’t touched the stuff in almost four decades. The last time Anna drank champagne she ended up naked on a rooftop in New York City.

The entire setting is tacky and festive—just like her husband. Jack bought a rhinestone tiara from the costume shop near the college campus just for the occasion. It sits on a gaudy red velvet pillow next to the champagne. He’s been dying to crown her since they met, and only today, only in the hopes of a positive verdict, has she humored him. But that hope is gone now. Snuffed out in a German courtroom on the other side of the world.

Thank you, he finally says, and then lower, almost a whisper, I will. I’m sorry. You know how she can be. I’m sure she’ll speak with you next time. Good-bye.

When he turns back to Anna, Jack has the envelope pressed to his chest. He doesn’t speak.

We need to call our guests and tell them the party’s canceled, she says.

He looks crushed. I’m so sorry.

This isn’t your fault. You did what you could. A shrug. A deep breath. What did Frederick say?

Your appeal was rejected. They won’t reverse the lower court’s ruling.

"I gathered that. Tell me his words exactly."

Jack looks to the paper. They regard your claim as ‘non liquet.’

Interesting.

What does that mean?

‘Not clear’ or ‘not proven.’

When Jack frowns, he puckers his mouth until his upper lip nearly touches his nose. It’s an odd, childish expression and one he’s used with greater frequency the longer he has known her. Is that German?

Latin.

"You know Latin?"

Very little at this point. Anna swats at him. Go on.

The judges said that even though your death has never been proven, neither has your escape.

Ah. Clever. She smiles at this dilemma. It is the ultimate Catch-22. Her escape can’t be proven without a formal declaration of identity from the court. Read the rest please.

Jack holds the envelope six inches from his nose and slowly recites the verdict. " ‘We have not decided that the plaintiff is not Grand Duchess Anastasia, but only that the Hamburg court made its decision without legal mistakes and without procedural errors.’ He looks up. So they have decided…nothing?"

She shakes her head slowly and then with more determination. Oh, they have decided everything.

"It was that photo, wasn’t it? The court must have seen it. There’s no other reason they would rule against you. Damn that Rasputin. Damn her! Jack begins to pace again. We could make a statement—"

No. It’s over. Anna lifts her chin with all the dignity she can muster and folds her hands in her lap. She is resigned and regal. They will never formally recognize me as Anastasia Romanov.

TWO YEARS EARLIER

Charlottesville, Virginia

December 23, 1968

Anna does not want to marry Jack Manahan. She would rather marry Gleb. Even after all the trouble he has caused through the years. But theirs is a story of false starts and near misses. Bad timing. Distance. And rash decisions. They were not meant to be. So Gleb has urged her to marry Jack instead. This whole fiasco is his idea—the courthouse, the silly pink dress, the bouquet of roses and pinecones, the white rabbit-fur hat that she’s supposed to wear out of the courthouse to greet the photographers (these arranged by Jack because the damnable man cannot help but make a scene everywhere he goes). Gleb insists the hat makes her look the part of a Russian grand duchess. She refuses to wear the thing. Poor rabbit.

When they discussed this ridiculous plan in August, Gleb said his health was to blame. He couldn’t marry her himself because she would end up having to take care of him. Anna believes that this is punishment for a long-held resentment. Tit for tat. Wound for wound. He has loved her for decades, and she has never been able to fully reciprocate. Now he stands as witness to her unwilling nuptials. As best man, in fact.

It is snowing outside the courthouse. Not the angry, hard, blistering shards of snow she is used to in Germany, but fat, lethargic flakes that drift and flutter and take their time getting to the ground. Lazy snow. American snow.

Anna’s had only a single tryst since that limpid summer in Bavaria all those years ago, but Gleb moved on. Got married. Had children. They’ve never talked about the intervening years, and it’s not worth bringing up now. Anna is in her seventies—too old to get married at all, much less for the first time. Jack Manahan is twenty years her junior. A former professor enamored with Russian history, and with her—or, at least, the idea of her. Regardless, he hasn’t put up much of a fight since being presented with the plan. Jack’s only show of hesitation was a long, curious look at Gleb. Assessing his attachment and willingness to let Anna go.

It occurred to her, far too late in the process, that she had not considered the issue of sex. Jack is young. Younger at least. And she is…well…she is not. The idea of consummation almost caused her to back out of this arrangement entirely. All of those hormones have shriveled up, turned to dust, and blown away. Desire is little more than a fond memory these days.

Gleb has taken care of that issue as well, however, assuring her that sex isn’t a necessary part of this bargain. She and Jack will have separate bedrooms. This will be a legal marriage, enough to keep her in the United States once her visa expires in three weeks, but it will be a marriage of convenience only. Gleb swore this, endless times, over their last shared bottle of wine. Jack will not lay a hand on her. Unless she wants him to. Why Gleb added that last part she isn’t sure. He wouldn’t meet her eyes as he said it, and she did not reply. It was a small cruelty. This is how it is with them, apparently. Little wounds. Paper cuts. Just enough to sting but not really harm. Perhaps it’s best that they aren’t marrying each other after all.

Gleb slips into the antechamber beside the courtroom and surveys her tiny, slender form. You look nice.

He seems weary and pale and infirm. He’s lost weight recently, and his once broad shoulders have narrowed with illness and age. Anna wants to ask Gleb if his heart has gotten worse. But she’s afraid of what his answer might be. So she says, I look ridiculous.

All brides look ridiculous. That’s why they’re so charming.

Anna turns back to the window. It’s late afternoon, getting darker by the moment, and the overhead light bounces off the glass, throwing her reflection back at her. She touches a hand to her cheek. Traces one deep wrinkle after another, each of them telling a story she’s long since decided to forget.

I am too old for this, she says.

I know.

You admit it then? She studies his reflection too, hovering over her shoulder. But no apology, I see.

It is this or you return to Germany, he says. We are out of time.

That always seems to be the case with us, doesn’t it?

Ships in the night, he whispers and sets a large, warm hand on her shoulder. Are you ready? Sergeant Pace is waiting. So is Jack.

Sergeant?

Judge Morris called in sick this morning.

Anna turns to him and looks, not at his face, but at the knot in his tie. She stares at the red and blue alternating stripes on the fabric, those thin lines circling back on themselves, all twisted and turned around. Anna is knotted up as well, but now, suddenly, it’s with mirth.

I am to be married, she asks, tilting her chin to meet those twinkling green eyes, "not by a priest, or a judge, but by a police officer?"

It gives an entirely new meaning to being read your rights, doesn’t it?

They laugh, then, long and loud. She turns back to the window and they stand in comfortable silence, watching Charlottesville disappear beneath the snow.

Finally Anna leans her head back against Gleb’s chest. How did I get here? Anna sighs, already knowing the answer. She has gotten here, she has survived, by always doing the thing that needs to be done.

FOUR MONTHS EARLIER

Charlottesville, Virginia

August 20, 1968

Virginia in August feels very much to Anna as though she has taken up residence directly in the white-hot center of Satan’s armpit. She has never known such heat. Nor has the word humidity meant anything at all prior to her arrival in the United States. And yet here she sits, on Jack Manahan’s front patio drinking tea—with ice, no less—and melting into her rocking chair as they talk about nothing in particular.

Anna fans her face with an old magazine—something about gardens and guns—wishing the sun would slide down the horizon a little more quickly. How can you live like this?

Jack peers at her over the top of a glass that is beaded with sweat. Like what?

Like a potato put in the oven to roast. It’s intolerable.

This is August, he says as though that explains everything. He’s wearing trousers, long sleeves, and a gaudy checkered tie cinched up tight to his Adam’s apple. He doesn’t seem the least bit uncomfortable. I hardly notice it anymore.

It is a distinctly American thing, Anna thinks, to have an entire conversation about the weather. They have been sitting on this patio for the better part of two hours waiting for Gleb. He’s off running some errand in town and has promised to return by dinner. So far they have discussed variations in climate along the Eastern Seaboard of the United States, rain patterns in the Midwest, and a damaging drought in California that is threatening almond growers. The man is absurdly pleased by the sound of his own voice, needing very little encouragement from her. A simple hum or murmur is enough to launch him into another monologue. Anna wonders how much more she can tolerate before crawling out of her skin when a long, sleek, black car enters University Circle and approaches the house. It’s the kind of vehicle that smacks of importance and a need to be seen.

Who is that? Jack asks as the car pulls into the driveway and parks behind his station wagon.

I’m not sure. Anna tries not to feel guilty about the lie. She has an unwelcome suspicion about who this visitor might be.

They look very determined. Jack leans forward, taking in the women who spring from the car and march up the sidewalk toward them.

Anastasia! shouts the older of the two as she reaches the bottom of the steps. The look on her face is one of alarming enthusiasm.

This woman is Russian. This woman is dangerous.

She mounts the stairs with an energy and aggression that Anna lost years ago. Following two steps behind her and watching cautiously is the woman’s companion. She has coiffed hair, lips painted red, and eyes framed by black designer glasses. In one hand she carries a notepad and in the other a tape recorder. A reporter. Anna stiffens in her seat.

And then the first woman is in front of Anna chatting and bending at the waist—not quite a bow but an allusion to one. Anna shrinks away as she confirms the familiar face and the deep, throaty voice. The dark hair—dyed now, she thinks; there’s not a strand of gray—and sharp eyes. The angular nose. The sly mouth. The large body shaped like a concrete block. The woman grabs her hand and shakes it with vigor. Anna fears being yanked out of her chair and forced into a hug.

The thing Anna has always hated most about being a small woman is the disadvantage she has in situations like this. People assume they can touch you, pat you, shake your hand without permission. They assume that if your size is little more than that of a child, you must be one. That you can be talked down to or coerced. It is hard for a small person to be intimidating or to be taken seriously. This lack of stature has forced Anna to develop other skills through the years: to sharpen her wit, to treat her tongue like a blade and her mind like a whetstone.

I am not a rag doll. You needn’t shake me like one. Or touch me at all for that matter, she says.

I’m sorry, the other woman says, stepping forward. We have failed to introduce ourselves. I am Patricia Barham but please, call me Patte—

I have no interest in speaking with reporters today.

Patte looks at the objects in her hands and then tucks both behind her back, as though she’d forgotten they were there and is suddenly ashamed of them. I’m not a reporter, at least not in the traditional sense. I’m a biographer. She tips her head toward her friend. And of course you remember Maria Rasputin. As she tells it, the two of you have known each other since childhood.

Rasputin? The name has Jack’s full attention and he sits ramrod straight in his chair. As in relation to Grigory? The heretic monk?

Not a monk, Maria says, as is evidenced by my existence. The heretic label is, of course, open to interpretation. She has the pinched look of a woman who is tired of defending the indefensible.

Anna has yet to rise from her seat or offer one to their uninvited guests. She is wary of Maria Rasputin and for good reason.

The melodramatic rise and fall of Maria’s voice makes it sound as though she’s in a stage production. Anna doesn’t like the grand, sweeping gestures she makes with her arms or the aggressive way she smiles. Those small white teeth that snap and flash. But it is her eyes that disturb Anna most. They are a bright—almost unnatural—blue. Piercing, but not in a way that compels someone to come closer. Anna finds herself wanting to turn away and hide from that penetrating gaze. She shouldn’t be surprised. Grigory Rasputin was known to have those same terrifying, hypnotic eyes. Like father, like daughter.

But Maria’s stare is hard to escape, and she moves closer, nearly leaning over Anna’s chair.

Yes, she says, as though finally coming to some long-awaited conclusion. There’s something about her. Again, waving that arm in a grandiose manner. A certain nobility. It’s there in her demeanor. In her voice. Maria nods sharply. I believe this to be Anastasia Romanov.

What do you want? Anna presses her palms against her knees so she won’t strike that self-satisfied grin from Maria’s face.

Only to visit with an old friend—

We thought, perhaps, that we could take you to dinner, Patte interrupts. She has tucked the notepad and recorder into her purse, and her hands now hang free and nonthreatening at her sides.

Jack perks up at the mention of food. Dinner with friends could be fun. There’s a wonderful Italian restaurant not too far from here.

You came all the way here—where did you say you came from…? Anna asks.

I didn’t. But New York, since you’re curious.

All the way from New York just to have dinner?

Dinner, yes. And it’s here that Maria shows her cards because she cannot keep the devilish smile at bay. But I’ve also got a proposition for you.


I am not going to Hollywood. Anna sets her fork down.

Jack taped a note to the front door when they left with Maria and Patte Barham, telling Gleb that they’d be at Salvio’s, but he’s yet to join them and Anna looks to the door every few moments. This was a mistake. She and Jack are a captive audience for these women and their ludicrous plan. She regrets consenting to have dinner with them.

Don’t be so hasty, Patte says. There’s a lot of money to be made.

My story is not for sale.

Patte doesn’t say it, but her Cheshire cat smile suggests that she believes everyone’s story is for sale. She shrugs. Spears a piece of mushroom. Swallows it without chewing. People are curious. They want to know what it was like. They want to know how you survived. There’s nothing wrong with supporting yourself in the process. She looks at Anna’s simple cotton dress, frayed at the collar, faded by too many turns through the wash, and lets her gaze linger just long enough to declare that she knows Anna needs the money. And then, to drive the point home, she adjusts the chain of an expensive gold necklace draped around her own neck.

Anna pushes her plate away. I would like to go home.

And where, exactly, is home? Maria Rasputin asks.

I am staying with Jack.

Maria smiles privately and takes a slow, careful bite of her manicotti. The change in tactics comes without warning. How long did you say you would be in the States?

Six months.

And you’ve been here for, what, two? Three?

Anna knows she’s being baited but she can’t see the hook. Two.

What type of visa did you get?

Tourist.

A pity. International travel is so expensive.

Anna does the thing she’s been doing for decades. She tilts her head up and to the side. She gives this woman the ghost of a smile, a condescending smirk that suggests she won’t acknowledge the insinuation or admit that yes, she’s running out of money and has few options left.

Maria is undaunted. She takes another bite. Dips her bread in the thick, nutty olive oil. Sips her wine. And what will you do when your visa runs out? Will you go back to Germany? To your friends in Unterlengenhardt? Your pets?

And there it is. The barb settles deep. It takes everything in her not to gasp in outrage. Maria clearly knows Anna doesn’t have a home to return to, that nothing remains but a mass grave behind the cottage she once called home. Maria’s involvement in those events hangs unspoken and heavy between them.

Rasputin’s daughter grins, victorious. I suppose Prince Frederick would welcome you back. He’s always been so fond of you. She chews a bite. Swallows. Such a loyal man.

Jack is oblivious, the fool. He ate a bowl of chicken Alfredo as big as his head, along with half a loaf of bread, and now he’s pushed back from the table to listen and pat his belly. To him this is simply a conversation between two women discussing old friends. To her it is blackmail.

Anna shrugs, noncommittal. When you’ve lived as long as I have you take each day at a time. I’ve not settled on any firm plan.

Which means you don’t have one, correct?

Jack and Patte look at each other, confused.

What are they saying? Jack asks.

I don’t know, Patte says.

It’s only then that Anna realizes that she and Maria have shifted into German. The transition was so smooth, so subtle that she didn’t even realize it. Had Maria turned the conversation to Russian, Anna would have noticed immediately. She would have refused to participate. Even though Anna speaks fluent English—she has lived in the United States before—German is her preferred language. Her security blanket.

I thought as much. Maria reaches across the table and pats Anna’s hand. It looks like a tender gesture, easily mistaken for something kinder than it actually is. Don’t be ashamed. It’s hard. I know. Why do you think I’ve let Patte trail after me like a puppy for so long? We all have to make a living. There’s no shame in that.

Anna withdraws her hand but doesn’t break eye contact.

"I want to make this perfectly clear. You will not use me as a meal ticket." She selects this descriptor purposefully, saying it slowly, enjoying the look of recognition on Maria’s face. It’s the same phrase Maria used when she showed up unannounced in Unterlengenhardt and conspired to burn Anna’s world to the ground.

Maria laughs as though Anna has said something funny. She settles back into her chair, but now there’s an angry, dangerous glint in her eyes.

I will not go to California with you. Or anywhere else for that matter. I will not sell my story. Anna looks first to Patte and then to Jack as she repeats her earlier request in English. I would like to go home.

Well, I would like dessert, Maria says.

The table is already littered with plates and breadbaskets and empty bottles of wine. Anna doesn’t think there’s room for another dish, but Maria waves the waiter over and orders panettone and coffee. Anna curses herself once again for not insisting that Jack drive. They are at the mercy of these interlopers. So she waits patiently as Maria finishes yet another course. This Rasputin is nothing more than an old woman acting like a petulant child, punishing Anna for refusing to play along.

How did you find me? Anna asks. This is the second time Maria Rasputin has hunted her down. It remains to be seen whether the results will be as catastrophic as the first time.

It wasn’t hard. She tips her head toward Jack. This man you’ve taken up with is fond of the newspapers. You’ve been written up quite a bit since arriving in the United States.

I haven’t taken up with him.

"Yet. I’d wager it’s only a matter of time. You do love your…benefactors."

Jack and Patte have given up trying to follow their conversation and are chatting quietly about writing and research on the other side of the table. It’s almost nine o’clock before the waiter brings the check. Hours have been spent listening to first Patte, then Maria try to convince her to sign over the rights to her life story so they can make a film. They throw words around and name-drop. They suggest a variety of famous actresses who might play the role of Anastasia. She doesn’t bother to remind them that Ingrid Bergman has already done so and that the part won her an Academy Award in 1956. But neither of them is all that interested in Anna’s opinion. They are only concerned with what they see as a hefty payday.

Maria takes the check and Anna stands, relieved to be done with this dinner and on her way home again. But then she slides the bill across the table and sets it right in front of Anna. There is no charm or humor in her smile, only vindictiveness.

"It was wonderful to see you again…Anastasia, she says. Thank you for dinner."


What else would you expect from a Rasputin? Gleb’s voice inches toward a scream as he paces through Jack’s living room. Lying, thieving con artists, the lot of them!

Jack flinches, defensive. I didn’t know she stuck us with the bill. I wasn’t paying attention.

"She didn’t stick you with the bill. You can afford it. She stuck Anna. And I’m sure that was her plan all along."

No, Anna says. If I’d agreed to her scheme, she would have paid. She was just trying to punish me.

You’ve been punished enough.

Jack is embarrassed now. Flustered. What was I supposed to do?

You could have started by not speaking with her at all.

It was just dinner.

It wasn’t just dinner; it was public association. A Rasputin gives our case a bad name. Every connection to that family is dangerous. Nothing good will come of it. Gleb stops shifting from foot to foot and looks at Anna. Do not mention to anyone, not a single person, that you spent the evening with that woman. Can you promise me that?

Her silence says everything.

Gleb groans. What?

She asked that biographer of hers to take a picture of us together before dinner.


The photo is published several days later. It doesn’t make as many front pages as Maria Rasputin likely hoped for, but it does appear in the society columns of several, and it’s also picked up by the Associated Press. Before the week is out, half of America and much of the world knows that Maria Rasputin has declared Anna to be Grand Duchess Anastasia Romanov. Maria is interviewed at length, gushing about her long-lost friend, brought to tears even as she recalls their childhood memories. Anna burns the papers in disgust.

We need those! Jack yells in horror as the last of them goes up in flames.

Anna ignores him. She looks at Gleb. I’m so sorry. I didn’t know she would do something like this.

You couldn’t have.

That’s not entirely true, Anna thinks, but she doesn’t admit this to Gleb yet. Instead she asks, How badly will this hurt the appeal?

No telling. The Rasputins are hated abroad. And for good reason. It depends who reads those articles. And how they’re perceived.

Surely the court won’t think that I’m behind this? That I’m fabricating evidence?

We’ll have to wait and see.

Anna takes a deep breath before saying, Maria mentioned one thing we should discuss.

What’s that?

What I’m going to do when my visa runs out.

First sadness and then resignation settle into the fine lines around his eyes. Don’t worry, Gleb says. I have a plan.

Anna knows instantly what he has in mind. No. She cringes. His plans rarely turn out well.

It’s the only way.

I won’t do it. She lowers her voice to a whisper and casts a dismayed look at Jack Manahan. He sits across the room sorting through a pile of old newspapers.

Gleb matches her whisper for whisper. You have to. I can’t do it. Look at me. The doctor says I have a year. Maybe. If I’m lucky. Jack can take good care of you.

Anna drops her face into her hands. Here she is, cast once again onto a stranger. Beggared because her only friend has congestive heart failure. But it is her heart that aches at the moment. If I marry him, I prove that Maria Rasputin was right all along.

What do you mean?

She said it was only a matter of time before I took up with him. She implied that I look to benefactors, that I use people.

Gleb growls out a curse. That woman is a scourge. We won’t let her near you again.

She can’t harm me any more than she already has.

Gleb pulls away, confused, and Anna answers the unspoken question in his gaze. Have I never told you about that? I suppose not. It happened right before I accepted your invitation to come here.

"What happened?"

The last time that woman showed up at my door unannounced, I ended up in the hospital for three days.

·  2  ·

Anastasia

REVOLUTION

1917

Alexander Palace, Tsarskoe Selo, Russia

February 28

The first shots ring out before dawn. I count fifteen—each of them splitting the air with a sound like cracking glaciers—before I go to the window and throw it open. Soldiers, drunk and mutinous, stumble through the park and onto the palace lawn. They shake their fists and fire wantonly at the sky as fear—hard, cold, and tangible—lodges in my throat. But still I watch, oblivious to the fact that any one of them could turn and aim a rifle at me. That any one of them could pull the trigger and pick me off as though I were a sparrow on a branch. I am frozen. Mesmerized by the chaos. Because even here, behind the palace walls and amid the muffling drifts of snow, I can hear rioting in the city and I know that fate has turned against us.

There is a whimper and rustling behind me, followed by a trembling voice. Do not to worry, Tsarevitch, the gunfire only sounds so loud and so close because of the frost.

I shut the window and yank the curtains tight. I find our lady’s maid bent over my brother, her mouth close to his ear, her fingers pushing hair away from his eyes. What are you doing? I ask.

He’s afraid, Dova says, as though this excuses the lie.

The gunfire is loud and close. But the frost has nothing to do with it. Dova, however, fears upsetting my sickly brother—and therefore my mother—above all else.

Are they going to kill us? Alexey asks. His eyes are large with concern and he lies curled around his little brown spaniel. Joy pokes her curly head from beneath the blanket and sniffs at his chin. A smile twitches at the corner of his mouth as she licks him.

No. I perch on the edge of his cot and run my hand along Joy’s soft, floppy ears. The Imperial Guard surrounds the palace. They will protect us.

Are you sure?

Of course. Would you like to see?

Dova takes a step forward. I don’t think—

He will be fine. But you should get some rest. You look exhausted.

Dova doesn’t argue, but her mouth snaps open and then closed. She straightens her shoulders and, after a brief hesitation, offers a stiff curtsy and goes to bed.

I wait until she slips from the room before helping Alexey to his feet and taking him to the window. The arm Alexey hangs around my shoulders is thin as a willow switch, and I can feel his ribs press against my side. Born a hemophiliac, he’s been small and infirm his entire life, but since falling ill with the measles a week earlier, he has diminished to little more than shadow and bone. I want to take from my own soft form—all those places that my sisters poke and tease mercilessly—and pad the sharp points of his body. Ribs.

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