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Chaos
CHAOS
A L L P O I N T S B U R N T H R O U G H T O T H E S U R FA C E
A LITTLE DEEPER, IF POSSIBLE
I N T O T H E U N D E R LY I N G S U B S TA N C E
The fog has rolled in this morning. The train beeps and
rattles its doors closed. To Watts! Several more trains wait in
the distance, the tracks between them rusted, but concrete and
steel is what they require. How much thought went into every
small detail? That I can pay my hard–won dollar and board
this, if slow and clunky, thrill ride to the heart of the city. Most,
if not all, faces are besmudged and gloomy. What would they
require? Magic? I suppose it’s not so much the vessel, but the
troubles they bring onboard: a caustic stew of disappoint-
ments, deaths, miscarriages, early and late arrivals, bad teeth,
and bad digestion. What a heavy load! I’m surprised the train
is not heavily fortified. The wheels squeal as all of our demons
weigh in, but before the thing careens into a pitch black tun-
nel of despair, a few teenagers bound to their seats and it’s all
sunshine and good vibes and the smell of candy.
Rosa Parks is the crossroads between the green and blue
lines, metaphor on top of metaphor. I love the strain of hu-
manity I encounter here. The place is alive with so many deep
and worn characters; if I were a painter I would surely be
dumbstruck. Maybe one day I’ll have the courage to photo-
graph them. The blue line races to the financial district and
ends there, under what I remember as a large, ugly building
— but I won’t see it today. The financial district, gateway to
Broadway — which in LA… they could call it Mexico and no
one would question it. Maybe they already have. The grand
old buildings there all seem left behind like there was a mass
exodus, one of the reasons I like the place. Surely there’s some
meaning. Why bother over old texts or count how many stones
in the grand gallery of the pyramids? There’s as much mean-
ing here, how we’ve joined these divergent elements: the lay
of the streets, the movement of the crowd, the winding flames
of my tattooed friend, who’s brought a pillow onboard and, to
my knowledge, remained slouched near the door. What’s the
rush?
We’re forced out at Washington. Some problem ahead.
All of us shuffle out and onto waiting buses. The packed con-
ditions have me repeating the great dharani, soaring. Gang-
sters, thugs, tiny children clinging to their mothers, we again
find our ease together. Hands are shaked, wapos congratulat-
ed — shrieks and moans, the indiscernible sounds of excited
humans. I’m fortunate enough to stand near a sleeping child
clinging now to her father. Watching her, it’s the same feel-
ing as the retreat cabin in the heart of the wilderness. It’s too
noisy for her to remain asleep, but she’s determined, and quite
relaxed.
The morning fog has become an urban haze — the best
weather for traveling across the grid. As I walk through the
nearly deserted streets I’m on the lookout for graffiti, aban-
doned corners of desolation — suitable places to add my stick-
ers. I’ve been doing it enough that it’s reflexive: finding the
right spot, scanning the street for trouble. Today I place sev-
eral right in front of the cops. The last one before I made my
stop an officer tracked me through the whole process. I didn’t
notice who she was until I was on the escalator down. She
watched me disappear into the waiting tunnel with a complete
lack of interest or concern, but I was so encouraged by the
placement of the sticker (I’d seen the red box a block away)
that I must’ve looked like I owned the thing.
The light in the subway flashes the same code of existence,
being, the substance revealed in the intricacies of the form. I
enjoy the hypnotic flickering. So much information is passed,
even here.