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Justene Alesandra L. Perilla SEC 20 - BSNR 128

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Justene Alesandra L.

Perilla SEC 20 – BSNR 128

HOW DID YOU BECOME YOU?

“It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.” – E.E Cummings.
Being where I am now, there are still those times where I question myself if I have
already gotten into the place where I am not regretful because of past decisions or if I
could have done this, will I be where and who I am now. These questions have been
lingering in my mind from time to time, and I believe that these are the reason why I am
still growing up until now – because I explore, do mistakes, and learn.

When I was a child, I didn’t experience much in finding what I really want. I would
go from one decision to another, and basically just go on with the flow of life maybe
because I know back then that I still have all the time to explore. I would go and join
different clubs in our previous school because I am a person who easily crave for new
skills, although during those point in time, I didn’t improve anything at all. I am a
mediocre type of person because whenever I practice something, I easily get tired and
lazy, the reason why although I can do lots of things, I can say that I am not good at any
of those. My way of learning about life (being street-smart) is imitating what others do,
and just finding a way to make it in my own style because my father would always tell
me to follow after him whenever I ask questions on what to do about this and that. I
would bite my lower lip and finger nails whenever I feel anxious and nervous because
when I was a child, I would always do this when I feel like I will be scolded for being
naughty. And maybe, this now, became a habit of mine. The reason why I always love
giving jokes and making the atmosphere light is because whenever one of my cousins
comes back from Rome, our way of saying that we are again comfortable to each other
is when we can talk and laugh like we always used to; it is a validation that people are
already comfortable being with me. I always try to balance my day and works because
the reason why me and first best friend stopped talking was when I put all my attention
to one, and forgot to consider the others. Which is why, whenever I do something, I
always create a planner to make sure that I don’t forget anything. I have a teacher in 8 th
grade that became a part of my growth because during our Field Demonstration
practices, other grade levels would belittle our capabilities, and she was the only one
who did not stop believing us. The reason why she also became my inspiration to give
my all even if others are doubting. One of my new friends in college told me that I look
trust-worthy, the reason why whenever someone ask me to keep something, I do try my
best to do so. I write down special events of other people in my life because I am a
person who easily forgets things, and this is also for me to not disappoint others
whenever we speak about our desires. I chose Nursing instead of Engineering as a
course because even though I enjoy doing equational problems, I still cannot view
myself as someone who works in an Industrial field. Same through with the reason that
my playmates when I was a kid see me as someone who takes care of them whenever
we do roleplays and my best friends who always ask me what to do whenever they feel
sick. I always keep in mind to never be afraid of committing mistakes. From the things
that I have experienced to becoming who I am now, I can say that the improvements I
have is far better than what I am then. And, I still continuously chase a life that could
mold me even better because as I have mentioned, I easily crave for something new.

If we look closer to those that we’ve experienced, and people that we met, we
could see that all of these influenced every other way of our life, for the good and the
bad, and serve as a lesson for us to grow with or grow apart.

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