Accidental 81 90 pdf.159964
Accidental 81 90 pdf.159964
Accidental 81 90 pdf.159964
Ella
I haven’t been sick for a few days now, but when I see Roger
standing on the other side of the door I immediately turn to one of
the ornamental vases in the hallway and empty my stomach. Cora
rushes forward to help me, glancing uncertainly at Roger as she
pulls my hair back from my face.
I know that Sinclair and Roger are on better terms since the wild
hunt, but I also know that their peace is very tenuous. Sinclair
hasn’t decided whether or not he truly trusts his brother yet, and
though Roger has been helpful bringing intelligence from the
Prince’s camp, he could easily be playing the double agent for
both sides – and now he knows my deepest, darkest
secret.
“That’s fair.” Roger admits, looking drawn and pale. “After what I
did… I know I don’t deserve your trust, or your forgiveness.”
“Well I’m sure I don’t need to tell you what would happen if this
information got out. The only people who know are servants of
this house, and my doctor. Not even Henry knows the truth,
because if this becomes public information Sinclair’s campaign
will be over. The Prince will become King, thousands would die
under his tyranny – including me and your nephew.” I
“It’s okay.” Roger assures her. “You’re very spirited for a human. I
can see why Sinclair picked
you.” He stares me in the eye, holding the contact as he makes
his next promise. “And you have my
“It was my fault really.” Cora admits, relating the mix up at the
sperm bank. Of course, her confession only leads to more
questions, about why I went to the sperm bank in the first place,
and how we figured out Sinclair’s sample had been used instead
of the donor I chose. When he hears about Mike, I’m amazed to
see how outraged he looks in my honor – I suppose messing with
one’s fertility is a grave offense among wolves, even more so than
with humans. “So you still don’t know how the samples got
switched?” Roger presses, after we move past the Mike of it all.
“I don’t know how it was possible – and honestly I don’t care. This
baby is a miracle for me whether it’s a human, or a wolf.” I shrug,
though in truth I feel quite uneasy. “But it does make me nervous
to think someone might have done this to us. Even if they knew I
could. conceive, what was their goal? I highly doubt anyone would
do this just to make my dreams of becoming a mother or
Dominic’s of becoming a father – come true.”
“Cora, who has access to both your labs and the security rooms,
and who else knew you had Dominic’s sperm?” Roger asks,
obviously as curious as we are.
“My bosses” Cora shrugs, “but they’re also the ones running the
investigation. Sinclair has some some of his men on it as well, but
as far as I know, no one has ever been arrested or charged ”
“You can count on that.” Roger confirms, cocking his head to the
side. “So what happens after the baby comes? You mentioned
losing its scent. Has Sinclair talked to you about his plans for
keeping your identity secret?”
“For being so cruel to you. For helping the Prince. If I’d known… I
never would have… I’m just so sorry.” Roger professes, looking
completely genuine. 3
“Well, that’s all ancient history now.” I exhale heavily, wondering
how much harder it must have been for Sinclair to forgive his
brother after all their history, when I find it difficult after only just
meeting him. “As long as you’re on our side from here on out I
don’t care about the past.”
“You are too kind for your own good, you know that?” Roger asks,
huffing out a laugh. There’s a spark of true admiration in his eyes,
a spark that looks dangerously close to attraction as his gaze
sweeps from my face and scans my figure.
“I keep trying to tell her that.” Cora declares. “Much good that it
does me. She’s a stubborn thing.”
“Well I might be, but I’m not sure Dominic is going to be so calm
when he finds out you know my secret.” I advise honestly. “You
might want to leave before he gets home – let me break it to
him.”
Sinclair
want to.
She deserves it. My wolf mutters mutinously, think about how
easy it would be. Then she’d never be able to hurt Ella again.
Maybe so, but Ella wouldn’t like it. I remind him, recalling how the
precious creature had worried for the children, even when her
own safety and happiness was on the line.
Hmph, she’s got you wrapped around her little finger. My wolf
accuses.
Oh, like she doesn’t have you in the exact same position? I scoff.
I’d like to see you resist her when she’s blinking those beautiful
big eyes up at you, begging you not to orphan innocent children.
Please, you spoke over the phone! He reminds me, his voice
trailing off into growls of longing as he pictures her. You couldn’t
see her eyes or those plump, pouty lips or the sweet swell of her
belly. You couldn’t smell her delectable scent or…
And I’m the one who’s whipped? I roll my eyes as I knock on the
heavy rosewood door.
been up to?”
my tie.
“I don’t thinks so.” Millie frowns seriously. “She’s not very smart.”
“Well I know Ella misses you too.” I confide. “You know she’s
living with me now?”
“She is?” Jake gapes. “You mean you get to play with her all day
long?”
“Maybe you can convince Mommy to let her visit?” Jake suggests,
staring up at me so hopefully I feel guilty for thinking that nothing I
could possibly say to their horrible mother will make her come
around.
“I can try.” I promise, patting the boy on the shoulder, “and you
two should know you’re welcome at my home anytime.”
Their mother calls for the nanny, her voice very shrill. The children
are swept away by a middle aged woman with a grim face, and
I’m struck by how uninterested she seems in her charges. She
doesn’t even speak to them as she leads them out of the room.
“Well, Mr. Sinclair, what can I help you with?” Ella’s blackmailer
questions, as if she doesn’t already know why I’m here. She
guides me into a parlor, gesturing towards a plush couch.”
Please, have a seat.”
Her eyes go wide, and her heart rate increases, racing violently in
her chest. “I-I’m sure I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“Do not lie to me.” I growl, letting some of my wolf’s ferocity bleed
into my voice. The woman reels back, shivering for reasons she
doesn’t understand. She may have the dull intuition of a human,
but even humans know when they’re in the presence of a lethal
predator intent on destroying them.
“Please, it wasn’t what you think!” She lies, her voice unsteady
and choking with defiance.
“Oh I’d like to hear this.” I state ominously, prowling towards her.
“I’d like to know what kind of twisted logic made you think it would
be wise to try and blackmail the most powerful man on the
continent.”
“If you have any brains in that foolish head of yours, you’ll stop
while you’re ahead.” 1 interrupt, clenching my hands into fists.
“You may have no sense of loyalty yourself, but where I come
from, if you threaten one member of the family you threaten all of
them. If you insult one, you insult them all.”
“Let me tell you the situation you’re in “I cut her off again, my
voice as deep as it can become
I don’t show her any mercy, I continue stalking until I’m towering
over her. “Now if it had been up to me, I would have destroyed
you for that alone, but not Ella. She’s much too good, not that you
ever saw that. So I agreed to let you go on living your obscenely
prosperous life without interference.”
I can smell her fear sour and acrid. “But then you learned that
despite your efforts to ruin Ella’s life, she found happiness with
me. Now I don’t know if you’re just so bitter and heartless that you
couldn’t stand to see a hard-working young woman succeed, or if
you saw my fortune and decided to try and steal part of it for
yourself. But either way, you came into my home and called the
mother of my child a cheap whore. You threatened to spread your
in the tabloids. You tried to extort a man who could take away
your wealth and your freedom lies with a single snap of my
fingers, and you hurt the woman I love.” 2
“I’m sorry!” She sobs, shaking like a leaf. “I was a fool, I don’t
know what I was thinking. I’ll do anything, just please don’t hurt
me.”
“Shut up, you stupid cow.” I bite. “I’m not going to hurt you. I’m not
even going to ruin your life, because Ella still loves your children
even though they’ve got a worthless hag for a mother. But mark
my words, if I ever see you near my family again, I will destroy
you.” z
I proclaim, speaking with absolute conviction. “If the lies you tried
to blackmail us with ever get out, if a single word of your vitriol
makes it to a tabloid editor- whether you are the source or not – I
will take away everything you care about in the world.”
She nods, sobbing and snivelling like a child. “I-I promise. You
have my word.”
“Good.” I growl, starting to turn away. “And for the record, you
absolute idiot – I own stock in every press outlet and newspaper
from here to the coast. No one will ever publish a story about me
without asking for my permission first. You think about that before
you ever consider trying to get your story out as leverage against
me.”
She sinks to the ground, and I leave her to wallow in her own
shame and piss. I keep my promise of course, I go to wish the
children farewell, and go home to tell Ella the news.
Sinclair
It’s dark out by the time I get home, and I follow my nose upstairs
to Ella’s room. She’s just stepping out of the shower when I walk
in, her dripping body wrapped in a fluffy towel. Her rose gold hair
is still dry, piled on top of her head and held secure with a pair of
chop sticks.
She startles slightly when she sees me sitting on her bed, then
rolls her eyes and huffs. “If you’re going to move around as
silently as a ghost, would you at least announce yourself when
you enter rooms, Dominic?”
I chuckle softly, raking my eyes over her wet skin. “Is that any way
to greet your knight in shining armor?”
Ella steps forward before she can think to hide her nervouse
curiosity. “What happened?”
“Come give me a kiss hello, and I’ll tell you.” I invite, holding my
arms open to her. Her muscles relax when she sees my easy
mood, and she rolls her eyes again, smiling now. I growl playfully
at her sass, and Ella quivers visibly, her thighs clenching
reflexively beneath the hem of her towel.
Ella giggles softly, even as I tease the seam of her lips with my
tongue, and flip her onto the bed. My clothes grow damp as her
towel slips away and the liquid dotting her skin absorbs into the
cloth of my shirt and trousers. I slant my lips over hers, delving
into her sweet mouth and coaxing her tongue into a dance. Her
arms and legs wrap around me in welcome, and I’m sorely
tempted to strip so that I can feel her every inch of her naked
body against my own.
I pull the pins from Ella’s hair, letting it it fall down around her face
and sending her lovely scent fluttering into the air around us. I
continue stealing kiss after kiss, caressing Ella’s sides and silky
thighs, dragging the sweetest sounds from her lips. My wolf purrs
in reply, and I graze my scruffy jaw over the soft skin of her
cheek, changing her contented murmurs into a fresh burst of
giggles.
Chuckling with dark, sexual intent, I bury my face into her neck
and give the velvety swath of skin the same treatment. Pausing to
explore the abraded territory with my tongue, I drag one large
palm over her round bottom. Squeezing her lush rear end, I
continue kissing my way down to her chest. Ella’s breath catches
as I brush my fangs over the swell of her breast, then yelps in
surprise when I nip her sensitive flesh.
“That’s for not letting me kill that horrible woman in your honor “I
inform her, moving my mouth to the other breast to give it the
same treatment. “That’s for rolling your eyes at me.” This time the
playful bite is met with a moan, and her nipples harden into tight
buds dangerously close to my questing lips. Not trusting myself
not to suck one of the sweet buds into my mouth, I finish my
rebuke with a single swat to her behind “And that’s for trying to
withold kisses I earned fair and square”
“I still haven’t heard how you earned them.” Ella argues cheekily,
squirming against me and making the quickly stiffening member
between my legs strain against my zipper. I pull away from her
slightly, pushing up onto my elbow to gaze down at her, and
wondering if this was actually a bigger mistake. At least when she
was flush against me I couldn’t see her many
charms.
Her face falls, and suddenly I regret sharing this particular detail.
“Did they seem very unhappy?” Ella asks anxiously.
“Well I’m glad you didn’t.” Ella replies firmly. “We don’t need to be
inviting more trouble to our doorstep.”
“Our baby is not trouble.” Ella objects, narrowing her eyes at me.
“Oh I don’t know about that.” I tease. “With you for a mother? I’d
say he’s bound to have a mischievous streak a mile wide –
though we won’t have to worry about that for some time.” “And I
suppose you were always perfectly well behaved?” Ella counters,
arching one smooth brow. “I ought to ask Henry how you were as
a boy. I bet he has all sorts of stories to share.” “I was an absolute
angel.” I lie, trying my best to sound self-righteous.
“Well Cora came over and I was talking to her about everything
that’s been going on.” Ella
begins slowly, not meeting my gaze. “And well… the short version
is that Roger came over while she was here. He heard part of our
conversation and… he knows I’m human.
Ella immediately scrambles out of bed after me. Her tiny hands
close around my arms, as if she’s afraid I’m going to run out on
her. “It’s okay, he stayed and we talked. I explained the situation
and he honestly seemed to listen. He promised not to tell ever. He
apologized for everything that’s happened, and the only reason
he left is because I made him. I thought you should hear it from
me.”
“Ella, why didn’t you tell me sooner!” I demand, trying not to lose
my temper. “I’m not convinced that Roger is actually on our side
and with this information, the Prince could end my campaign like
that,” I say, snapping my fingers.
“I know, but you only just got home, and I wanted to hear how
things went at Jake and Millie’s.” Her face twists into an
accusatory stare, “And I’m not the one who got us all sidetracked
with kisses.”
Sighing, I acknowledge that I didn’t give her much chance to tell
me this latest development.” What exactly did Roger say?”
“He should.” I mutter bleakly. Ella doesn’t know that Roger helped
orchestrate the attack in the alley, and unless Roger becomes a
problem, I don’t see a reason to tell her. It would only hurt her
feelings, and if Roger is truly on our side then I don’t want more
space between them. “And I think you’re probably right. I trust
your judgement. But I need to go see him, just to be sure.”
“Okay.” She agrees, stepping away from me. “I’ll see you soon,
then.”
Sinclair
When I reach Roger’s house, he’s not the least bit surprised to
find me darkening his doorway. “I was wondering when you were
gonna show up.” He quips, opening the door wide to welcome me
inside.
“No- I still wasn’t sure whether or not you’d rip my head off after
you arrived.” Roger shares wryly.
“Well you have Ella to thank for my even temper either way. She
seems to trust you’ll keep your word and protect her secret.” I
explain, eyeing him suspiciously.
“It’s not a trick.” Roger states simply, leading me into his study.
“But I’m not doing it for you – I’m doing it for her.”
“Because she’s exactly what you’ve been saying she is all along.
She’s brave and clever and good to her very core. Goddess only
knows how you managed to get her, but you certainly don’t
deserve her.” Roger replies, giving me a begrudging look that tells
me he’s only half joking. 2
Would
You’re acting like a child. I’m losing my temper now, sick and tired
of being at odds with my inner animal. She isn’t our mate and I’m
not going to hurt her with a claiming mark her body can’t handle.
Besides, even if Roger is interested in Ella, she isn’t interested in
him. Have some self-respect.
“I haven’t got her not the way you mean.” I correct, shaking myself
out of my inner conflict “She’s been adamant about that she’s only
interested in me as her baby’s father “1 share, deciding that my
brother doesn’t need to know how complicated my relationship
with
Ella truly is.
His eyes roll into the back of his head. “Honestly Dominic,
sometimes I think you don’t have a brain in your head.”
“We only just met.” I remind him. “And we’ve experienced nothing
but drama since then, it’s not just the pregnancy that can toy with
emotions.”
“It sounds to me like you’ll take any excuse to deny what’s staring
you in the face. And if you don’t wise up and do something about
it, other wolves who aren’t so hard-headed are going to start
horning in on your territory.” Roger warns, sounding as if he’d like
to lead the charge. “Ella might not be able to serve as a true
Luna, but that’s only a concern if you have a pack to lead. No one
will care if she’s human when she can clearly bear shifter
children.”
“Is that a threat?” I counter, my defenses riled by the obvious
longing in his voice.
“I’m not delusional enough to think that Ella could ever forgive me
for helping the Prince plan the first attack.” Roger sighs.
“But you can still hope.” I suggest, letting a note of menace bleed
into my voice.
“Dominic, I’m done battling with my own family. From the sounds
of it, we’re going to need each other in the months ahead… if
there’s to be a war – we can’t be divided.” He grimaces, though I
note he didn’t really answer my question. After all, it’s one thing to
say you won’t pursue someone, and another to say you don’t
want to in the first place.
“Lydia couldn’t help it.” Roger defends, some of his old animosity
rising to the surface. “It was the bond.”
“So why did you betray me?” He hisses, his wolf glowing in his
eyes. “If you really wanted me to be happy you could have
rejected her when she changed her mind?”
“I was a pup!” I exclaim. “I’d spent two years in misery, longing for
my mate. My wolf was half mad with unrequited feelings and I
was too young to know better. I was blinded by our bond, and it
wasn’t until years later that I realized what a fool I’d been. I never
wanted to hurt you… I just wasn’t strong enough to resist fate. Not
then, at least.”
Roger frowns, “At some point we need to talk about how this all
started, Dom. Ella said you still don’t know how your sample got
switched in the sperm lab.”
Sinclair
When I enter the Blood Moon Tavern for the ‘have a drink with the
Alpha’ town hall event, immediately begin cursing Hugo. My beta
may have talked me into this campaign event with good
intentions, but I would so much rather go home to Ella. After the
way we left things this evening, not to mention my conversation
with Roger, my wolf is positively rabid to go climb into bed with
her and finish what we started.
However, I made a pledge to my pack that I would come out to
this bar and talk with the people one on one, giving them an
opportunity to share their thoughts, grievances and questions with
me in an informal setting. It’s the sort of event the Prince would
never consider holding, and also the kind common shifters
appreciate most. So I plaster a smile on my face and enter the
rustic pub, greeting the assembled pack members as if there’s
nothing I would rather be doing.
They raise their brows with approval, not just any she wolf can
take on an Alpha’s riled wolf, even when it’s their mate I swell with
pride over their impressed looks, but settle in to listen rather than
continue spending my own voice I’m amazed that this burly group
of hardened shifters is so content to talk about she wolves and
babies rather than politics or security, but before long all the
rough and tumble bar patrons are exchanging stories of becoming
fathers
and the antics of their children. I’m suddenly wishing I’d brought
my own father along, and thinking that I wouldn’t mind campaign
events so much if they were all like this.
I order a second drink as the tales unfold, but set it down after a
few sips. Though I requested the same brand of liquor as my first
tumbler-full, there’s a strange metallic taste to the liquid that turns
my stomach. I wonder if soap was left in the glass after being
washed, or perhaps the bartender opened a new bottle, not
realizing the liquor inside had turned. Unfortunately I never figure
out what’s wrong with the draught, because the last thing I
remember is thinking that it tastes off, and then everything is
dark.
Ella
When Sinclair doesn’t come home in time for dinner, I assume the
campaign event ran long. I’m disappointed, but I know that these
things are often out of his hands. Winning the crown is more
important than spending time with me, and only a complete
narcissist could be upset by that fact.
Says the woman who wants to curl up in a ball and cry because
Sinclair cares more about the campaign than you. The little voice
in my head remarks dryly.
Nothing.
True, but I don’t think he’d do that without telling you. The voice
replies.
It probably slipped his mind. I insist, shaking off the sting carried
by the idea of being an afterthought to him.
I fill the huge whirl pool tub in Sinclairs bathroom, choosing to use
his rooms instead of my own, just in case he comes home while
I’m soaking. I have a sudden, silly fantasy of him walking in while
I’m submerged in the hot water and bubbles. I imagine him
claiming that he’s dirty after his night out and insisting that he
needs to join me. I picture him climbing into the tub with me, and
settling me between his legs.
Before long I’m breathing heavily and flushed for reasons that
have nothing to do with the heat of the bath, and I decide this has
to stop before Sinclair walks in and catches me in a much more
intimate act than bathing. I wash quickly, settling down enough to
soak, but soon the water grows cold, and I have no choice but to
get out.
Sinclair
little pet
“What are you doing?” Lydia sputters, flinching and backing away
from me. “I’m your mate. You can’t…. This isn’t…”
“You think I can’t threaten you? You think I can’t hurt you if you
endanger my family?” I
snap. “You aren’t my mate anymore, Lydia, and you weren’t ever
worthy of being Luna even when you had the title.” Despite my
words, even I’m shocked at how easy I find it to show aggression
to her. Everything I know about fated mates has taught me that I
shouldn’t be able to stomach raising a hand against her, but it’s
almost as if she and Ella have traded places in my heart. Now my
wolf only cares for protecting the mother of our pup, even if it
means protecting her from my once-fated mate.
“You didn’t really think that you could just walk out on me and I’d
stay the same, did you? Did you expect me to wallow like a
heartsick pup when I have a pack to lead and the fate of the entire
fucking realm is on my shoulders? Did you really believe I’d stay
here pining for you, and you would be able to walk back into my
life like nothing happened?” I rumble coldly, wondering how I ever
imagined myself in love with this woman. Ella would never ask me
to choose her over the campaign, she wouldn’t want me to. “And
for the record, Lydia. I said you were more important than politics,
not the pack – not my duty to protect my people.”
“Well you didn’t care very much about your family or your pack
last night.” Lydia announces spitefully, wearing a cruel smile that
looks more like a grimace. “The time apart certainly didn’t cost us
in the bedroom. You were every bit as ferocious and virile as
ever. I might be pregnant already.” z
I try not to let her see how deeply her words cut me. The idea that
I had sex with her under the influence of her drugs makes me sick
to my stomach. I have no way of knowing if she’s telling the truth.
There aren’t any marks on her body from hickeys or lovebites,
and I don’t feel any scratches on my back of physical signs of the
kind of rambunctious lovemaking we used to have, but then again
if I was most unconscious then there wouldn’t be any of those
signs. So while I’m sure her remarks about my ferocity are a lie, I
can’t rule out sex entirely. The bed is in complete disarray, and
she certainly smells like me. Is it just from sleeping together… or
did she manage to steal my seed the way she’s suggesting.
heir.”
“You know better than anyone that the first born child isn’t always
the strongest.” Lydia answers shrewdly, looking so cunning I
wonder how Roger and I were ever fooled by her And your
current heir hasn’t even been born yet. It wouldn’t be a bad thing
to have a spare Goddess knows anything can happen between
now and the birth.” She doesn’t say the words as a threat, but it’s
hard not to hear them that way with all the attempts on Ella’s life
However Lydia isn’t paying attention to the dangerous line she’s
walking, she presses on, rubbing her belly as if it’s confirmed that
she’s breeding “I guarantee any child of mine will be stronger than
that pipsqueak’s. Soon you won’t have any need of Ella at all.
The petty part of me wants to lash out and tell Lydia that if it were
possible for us to make a baby together it would have happened
in the years we were married I want to tell her she’s
delusional if she thinks she can get pregnant at all. But damn it if
Ella’s silky voice isn’t interrupting my thoughts, encouraging me to
show compassion even though this monster doesn’t deserve any.
I stalk forward, closing the final distance between us. “You better
hope you are pregnant, Lydia.” I declare icily, “because if you
aren’t, I swear to the Goddess I will hunt you down and make sure
you can’t ever come anywhere near me, or my family again.” 1
I storm out without another word. I dial Ella as I race across town,
unsurprised when she doesn’t answer the phone. My wolf is
already in a panic about her reaction to Lydia’s taunting message.
I don’t care how drunk or disoriented I was, I know I wouldn’t have
ignored Ella that way not when she’s all my wolf wants. Was she
very upset? Did it exacerbate her stress to a dangerous level? I
only stop for the barest second at a newsstand to make sure
there’s nothing in the papers about Lydia and I, before continuing
to my mansion.
Ella
“Goddess, Cora, what’s wrong with me?” I moan, burying my
head in my hands. “I’ve been thinking Sinclair is too good to be
true all along. There cannot be a bigger red flag and I just ignored
it. I let him love bomb me and I bought every manipulative word
out of his mouth.” I’m seated in my sister’s living room, rocking
back and forth in my seat while she looks on anxiously. After I
received Sinclair’s text last night, I didn’t waste any time getting
out of his house. I went out onto my balcony and waited until the
patrolling guards passed by, then climbed down the trellis and out
the back gate. There was a vicious thunderstorm roiling at the
time, but I barely noticed. I ran through the pouring rain, not
stopping until I reached Cora’s apartment.
“Ella just slow down, I didn’t think anything had even happened
between you two?” Cora asks, watching me with obvious
concern.
“Then how can he have love bombed you?” She inquires, looking
confused.
*[ guess that’s the wrong expression.” I concede. “It’s just, you
should hear the way he talks to me, and the way he behaves.
He’s so affectionate and warm that I got completely lulled into
complacency. He just lavishes attention and compliments, and he
actually listens and takes criticism. He takes my thoughts and
opinions into account, and he has this silly side where he can be
so fun and playful, but at the same time he doesn’t let me get
away with murder. He calls me on my shit and holds me
accountable. Like I said, he’s just too good to be true.”
Cora rolls her eyes. “Ella, stop beating around the bush, just tell
me what happened.”
he
“He was annoying me!” I defend hotly. “He kept saying I should
stay home and rest but I wasn’t about to let that foul prince win.”
“Ella, I’ve been around shifters a lot longer than you have.” Cora
explains, sighing as though she’s not sure how to make me
understand. “Power dynamics are a big part of their culture and
from a scientific perspective it makes perfect sense. Dominance
means strength and strength means survival. And if you liked it,
who cares whether or not other people think it’s strange. You’d
hardly be the only human who’s ever wanted that from a partner.
“I didn’t say I liked it.” I object. “Just that it helped me…and turned
me on… and I did like feeling how in control he was when I was
beside myself.”
I throw a pillow at her, laughing with faux outrage. I’m only just
coming to terms with the fact that I do want to be with Sinclair that
way again, when I remember why I’m here unloading all
Cora purses her lips, “Okay, so you haven’t been love bombed,
and he hasn’t been mistreating you, and you don’t want a
relationship, right?”
“Are you sure they were lies?” Cora counters. “Do you think it’s
possible he believed what he was telling you at the time, and then
changed his mind? We all have blind spots when it comes to our
exes. He wouldn’t be the first person to convince himself he hated
his former partner to try and protect himself from getting hurt
again.”
“Are you sure you don’t like him?” Cora asks bluntly. “Not just
you’re attracted to him or like the affection, but that you have
genuine feelings for him and you’re upset because you think he
might not return your feelings now that he’s back with Lydia?”
Her words slam into me one after the other, but before I can give
them the consideration they deserve, there’s a sudden pounding
at the door.
#Chapter 89 – Jealousy
Sinclair
He has a point. Ella is not a good liar, and though she may be
able to disguise her feelings under usual circumstances, her
emotions are much too turbulent to allow that now. She sounded
about as believable as a fox caught breaking into a henhouse,
insisting it only wanted to look at the tasty morsels inside.
Ella’s luminous gold eyes widen and her lips part on a startled
gasp. I can see her preparing to answer me, to tell me another
falsehood, but before she can say yes, she seems to realize how
hypocritical the question is. “Why should I have to be honest
when you aren’t!?” She demands fiercely.
“No! You’ve kept things from me over and over again in the name
of protecting me, and you went back to your ex after promising
that there was nothing between you.” She accuses. “Last night
probably wasn’t even the first time! How long have you been
sneaking around with her, Dominic? Has everything that’s
happened since I got pregnant been some scheme you two
orchestrated to get an heir and win the campaign? Did you
arrange the switch at the sperm bank to send all this into motion?
What are you planning once the baby comes? Are you just going
to steal my child and kick me to the curb?”
I reel back, shocked by the depth of her mistrust. My wolf’s
jubilance over her jealousy disappears immediately. He whimpers
pitifully, devastated to see her so miserable – so undone by fear
and betrayal. No, this isn’t right! Fix it!
She can’t honestly believe any of those things are true, can she?
Are these tears that have been
“I don’t want to.” She snaps, stubbornly turning her head away
from me.
“I didn’t lie to you.” I repeat, deciding that this will have to do for
now. “When you’re ready to listen to me, I’ll explain everything,
but right now I need you to know that everything that has
happened since we met has been completely real. I didn’t have
anything to do with the switch at the sperm bank, and I was just
as shocked by it as you were. Sweetheart, you remember how
angry and unreasonable I was at the time.” I remind her, biting
back a smile. “I couldn’t fake that if I tried, nor is it how any sane
human would act if they wanted to draw someone into a trap.” I
forge on. “I am not, under any circumstances, going to keep Rafe
from you. He came from each of us, and he belongs with each of
us. I know I hid some things from you, but I haven’t ever deceived
you about my feelings, and I haven’t been sneaking around with
Lydia or anyone else.”
Little by little, my words sink in. I can see the change in Ella’s
posture as she slowly deflates, unwinding the tension from her
muscles with every sentence I complete. Of course, the more she
unwinds, the closer she comes to falling apart. Soon her tears are
falling freely, and she looks utterly ashamed of herself. “I’m sorry,
I know I’m being crazy.” She hiccups. “I don’t even know why I
said those things. I think I’m losing it.”
Ella’s little body goes stiff with outrage, and she pushes my hands
away. “I’m not jealous!” She repeats, though her exclamation
sounds more like a whimper now.
leans into my touch as I pet her disgruntled form and nuzzle her
hair. Her delicious aroma fills my senses, and I feel like I can
breathe for first time all morning. Goddess I needed this. When I
realized she was missing this morning, I’d panicked completely.
Not only because I feared for her safety, hating the idea of her
being unprotected in a city full of wolves, but also because I was
afraid that Lydia had broken something in our relationship for
good.
“That you have feelings for me.” I correct, letting some of my own
feelings seep into my tone. My hope and desire, the passion that
takes all my effort to contain whenever we’re together.
“Oh I’m sure you’d love that.” She mutters mutinously. “The big
bad Alpha needs all the women to fall at his feet whether he
wants them or not. How amusing for the hopeless little human to
”
Before she can continue, I shut her up – claiming her mouth with
my own and stealing her ability to speak another word.
#Chapter 90 – Feelings
Sinclair
I can taste Ella’s blood from the cut on her lip, and my inner wolf
groans with pleasure. Unlike our horror film counterparts the
vampire, shifters don’t have any interest in consuming blood. But
it’s inevitable to taste the blood of one’s mate when delivering a
claiming mark, and the flavor has an undeniably Pavlovian effect.
I may not want the crimson liquid for nourishment, but I certainly
crave the taste of Ella’s. It’s rich and sweet, and instantly has me
thinking about how other parts of her must taste.
Ella’s salty tears drip onto my questing lips, but though she cries,
she also clings to me with all her might. Her arms have locked
around my neck, and she’s pressing her soft curves against me
with an urgency I understand all too well. My tongue slips past her
lips as I rearrange her in my arms, guiding her to straddle my lap
so that I can feel her plump breasts and beaded nipples against
my chest. So that I can slide my hands down to the curve of her
bottom and press my hardness into her soft center, to help her
move against me and find pleasure – even through the fabric of
our clothes.
I could kiss her for a thousand years and never get bored, I
realize. Never get tired of her taste, or grow immune to the feel of
her beautiful body in my arms. Never want for another.
I won’t hurt her. I insist. I’m painfully aware of how delicate she is,
how fragile her human form is next to my own. It’s enough to
make me stop handling her so roughly, suddenly afraid I might
break her. Ella growls in protest, that same indignant sound that
never ceases to fill my heart with warmth.
You see. My wolf argues. She can take it she needs this too.
Down boy, I think in exasperation. Our first time with Ella is not
going to be frantic and rushed in the back of a limo.
Ella pulls away from me then, and I realize she must have been
startled by the movement – enough to break out of the haze of
lust. Her eyes are red-rimmed and her pupils so dilated that her
gold irises are a slender ring around the great black pools. Her
skin is flushed bright pink, and her hair disheveled. It’s a nearly
irresistible sight, one that makes me want to go back on my
earlier decision not to claim her. No other man should ever be
allowed to see my Ella in this state.
“Dominic, this isn’t right.” She announces, still trying to catch her
breath.
“It feels right to me.” I reply, resisting the urge to look down at her
heaving bosom to see if her breasts are as flushed as the rest of
her. Instead I pin her with my dark gaze, massaging her nape and
willing her to come back into my embrace.
“That’s not the point.” Ella insists, sounding as though she might
be on the verge of tears again. “Stop looking at me that way!”
“Like I’m a rabbit your wolf wants to eat for dinner.” She exclaims.
“And the point is that I’m done letting you jerk me around and toy
with my feelings!”
run the world but you can’t make me open my heart to you. You
can’t demand I make myself vulnerable with you that’s my
decision.”
My wolf wants to growl at her defiance, but I can hear the hurt and
fear in her voice. Damn it. I realize. She’s right, I’m being an ass. I
want the truth, but I don’t want to hurt her to get it. As I ponder my
mistake, the car comes to a stop in front of my mansion, sliding
into a parking space on the opposite side of the street from the
house.
I follow suit, exiting the vehicle and going after her. “Ella, I’m
sorry.” I pronounce earnestly.
She pauses, turning back in the middle of the empty street. “Don’t
be haven’t done anything wrong.”
The screech of tires fills the air as a car suddenly emerges from a
parking spot a few spaces down from our own. To my horror and
disbelief, it accelerates as fast as it can, heading straight towards
Ella.
#Chapter 88 – Sinclair takes Ella home
Ella
When my
manipulating me, but I think I’ve been falling in love with Sinclair
all along – no matter how hard I tried to fight it.
His brows knit, “That’s a no.” He assesses gruffly, pursing his lips
as if he’s internal cursing himself. “I’m so sorry about last night. I
can explain-‘
“I’m fine.” I counter sharply, not wanting him to see how badly I’m
hurt. “I don’t give a damn what you do or who you see when we’re
not together.”
your guards, without letting anyone know where you were going.”
His powerful hand slides around to my nape, and something deep
and primal in my bones curls in on itself. “Not to mention crawling
down trellises in the rain, especially when you’re carrying precious
cargo.”
my
“Then
you have a choice.” Sinclair informs me, his voice like gravel.
“Because I’m not leaving you when you’re like this. So we can
have this out here, in front of Cora, or we can go home and do it
in private.”
I glance over his shoulder at Cora, who’s currently staring at me
as if she’s never seen me before. I know I’m behaving like a
complete brat, but I can’t help myself. Sinclair turns me into
someone I don’t recognize in times like these, and though part of
me thinks it must be
“Put me down right now!” I order, kicking my feet into his toned
abs and remembering that his body is constructed of pure steel.
The pain in my toes only enrages me more, and so I start beating
my clenched fists against his firm backside. “This isn’t fair, you
tyrant!” I snarl, fighting for all I’m worth.
“That’s right, you just get it all out of your system, baby.” Sinclair
chuckles, patting my thighs. “But you better believe I’m taking
note.”
He carries me out the door and into the elevator, letting me vent
my rage with so little reaction I wonder if he even notices my
attack. “Can you even feel this, you ogre!” I exclaim. “Like
ferocious little mosquito bites, sweetheart.” Sinclair taunts,
earning himself another outraged snarl. Of course, the big wolf
only laughs. He carts me out of the building and onto the street,
where anyone can see us.
“Then you might want to stop making all those adorable little
growling sounds. People are going to start searching if they think
there’s an angry kitten on the loose.” Sinclair informs me sagely.
“This isn’t funny!” I cry, hating him for making light of my misery.
Sinclair deposits me into the back of his limo, and I immediately
slide over the seats and try to climb out the other side.
Unfortunately Sinclair’s shifter speed gets the better of me again,
and I’m dragged back into the car. Furious, I move into the seat
across from him, biting down on my lower lip to stop it. from
quivering and betraying how close to tears I am.
More like you’re afraid to hear what he needs to tell you. The little
voice in my head observes.
So what if I am? I counter. It’s not like it will change anything. The
writing is already on the wall. I don’t need him to tell me how he
thought he was over Lydia and didn’t realize he wasn’t until it was
too late. I don’t want to listen to his apologies or promises he can’t
keep, about how this doesn’t have to change our plan.
Maybe not, but you could at least try to be less petty about it.
She has a point. I don’t know why I get this way with him, I never
suffered from immaturity before meeting Sinclair.
grown
Then I should be able to act like one now. I think miserably, even
though I know it’s a losing battle. I’m about to be a mother. I can’t
regress just because I got my feelings hurt.
Sinclair is still watching me, and I fight the instinct to squirm under
his scrutiny. I take a few deep breaths, trying to work myself up to
an apology for my behavior, but unsure how I can word it without
also opening us up to a discussion. Before I can come up with the
right answer, Sinclair’s familiar bass breaks through my thoughts.
“What upsets you more Ella, the way I handled last night, or the
fact that it happened in the first place?”
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