Om Sri Sai Ram

A CONVERSATION WITH SRI SATHYA SAI BABA

The following conversation between a devotee and Sai Baba took place in Prasanthi
Nilayam many years ago and was first published in an early issue of the Sanathana Sarathi.
Devotee: Swami! The world is very cruel to me.
Sai Baba: That is its nature. The purpose of the world is frustration; it has to engender
need. When the need is strong enough, the individual seeks fulfillment.
Devotee: And fails!
Sai Baba: Only when he seeks fulfillment without! Within him, he can get it. The within is
accessible always; it is ever responsible. There is pain only so long as attachment for outer
forms remains. Ultimate relief from pain can come only with the loss of ego, the
neutralisation of that which reacts to something as pain and something else as pleasure,
whose memory, whose conditioning, helps to recognise the dualities of joy and grief.
Devotee: But the world, Swami?
Sai Baba: The world is pain. Expect nothing from the world but that. I willed the totality of
your conditioned existence to be pain, in order to draw you to me.
Devotee: Which I can, at best, only hope to attain.
Sai Baba: God asks for neither hope nor despair. They are subject to relativity. Universal
Being is beyond both hope and despair, both certainty and doubt. It knows no lingering in
its conclusions. It is ever flowing, in all directions, and in none of them.
Devotee: What then shall be my direction?
Sai Baba: Take what works today for today. What works tomorrow for tomorrow. One day
at a time, each day for itself, each moment for itself, without a past, without memory,
without conclusions.
Devotee: Conclusions?
Sai Baba: Yes. Conclusions bind; they press on the mind. The newborn baby is not confined
to conclusions. All conclusions enslave. Most men are slaves to the conclusions into which
they have fallen.
Devotee: Does that mean I have to give up my practice of concentration?
Sai Baba: The question that bothers you is one of fixity. You tried to fix your thought and
attention on a word and later on a form, but you discovered that nothing lasts, that
everything has to change. But I tell you; awareness can remain, even when form subsides,
even when the word melts away.
Devotee: I find it difficult to hold my attention on form or word.
Sai Baba: Because when you try to meditate, the very trial invites the success-failure
conflict onto the scene. You say to yourself, it is good to meditate on this and not that, or to
meditate on that is wrong or foolish. Practice choicelessness; no objective, no intention. Be
yourself. Choose no particular form, for all are equally His. Choose no particular word or
sound, for all are His.
Devotee: I am often tossed between contradictory beliefs.
Sai Baba: Contradictions are inevitable. It is the very nature of this world and of the mind.
But you can choose, either to be buffeted endlessly by the apparent contradictions or to
remain in the calm center of the cyclone. This is the problem of all problems, the problem
of peripheral or central being.
Devotee: The circumference or the center, the rim or the hub of the wheel?
Sai Baba: Yes. The hub is calm, steady, unmoved. But the mind will be drawn along the
spokes, the objective desires, to revolve over mud and stone, sand and thorns. It will not
believe that it can get bliss from the center, rather than from the circumference, without
undergoing a rough journey over turbulent terrain.
Devotee: Ultimately, it means the conquest of the mind?
Sai Baba: Learn to let all the conflicts spawned by the mind play themselves out, and
cancel each other out. Be the witness to the holocaust. The ultimate solution to the conflict
is not decision or even choice, but passive being. Dare to remain inconclusive. See the
endless quandaries of the mind as a divine Leela, God's sport, as the natural function of the
bundle of desires called mind. Do not believe in mind; do not rally to its assertions and
appetites. Watch the mind from a distance; do not get involved in its tumblings and
turnings. Then everything becomes insignificant. When everything recedes into
meaninglessness, you are in the hub, in equanimity.
Devotee: Swami, you are the hub, the spokes and the rim.
Sai Baba: Do not be concerned with who I am! Concern yourself with who you are and how
you can be ever aware of that truth. Do not be a willing captive of the endless stratagems of
the mind. Abstain from all that draws you into its web. I will lead you, if you rely on me.
The alternatives of the world will not bring you happiness, for the mind, which revels in
alternatives, is but a will-of-the-wisp, flitting before your vision. I do not judge you for
what is never yours, really. Your imperfection is no obstacle for me.
Devotee: I confess that I have not always observed the rules of conduct of the Sathya Sai
Organisation.
Sai Baba: Your mind keeps asking for rules. But when you get the rules, you find you
cannot keep them. Rules engender rigidity, they force. They do not bloom out of love or
spread love. There is always a way of doing a thing without the strain of a rule. See how
unperturbed I am with your restlessness! I live thus, so that I may afford a lesson for you to
learn.
Devotee: I am restless, Swami, because I yearn for rest and do not get it.
Sai Baba: It is your reaction to restlessness that is bad, not the restlessness itself.
Restlessness is only the rise and fall of a wave on the ocean that you are. Nothing matters,
so long as the depths are secure. Success is not important: failure does not matter. The river
of eternity is flowing ever into the ocean of the Supreme Will.
Devotee: How long am I to be torn apart from that Supreme Will?
Sai Baba: You are a fraction of that Supreme Will. That is why you are afflicted with the
hunger to seek It and to merge in It and to find fulfillment and bliss thereby. Turning to the
world for solace and sustenance to appease that hunger has been tried by countless
generations, including your own, but the hunger is gnawing still.
Devotee: What then is the proper reaction to the attractions of the world?
Sai Baba: Let go. Don't cling. Be still. Establish yourself in the homelessness of the mind;
physical homelessness will not earn the victory. There are many spiritual aspirants still
caught in the coils of greed, envy, pride and power seeking. They have not escaped from
their homes. They have built prisons around themselves. I describe homelessness of the
mind as mind abiding nowhere.
Devotee: And wandering everywhere?
Sai Baba: Do not exclude anything. Be the witness of everything. The exclusive cannot
endure. God is all. Your restlessness came from exclusion, the pressure exerted by the
excluded into the area from which it was excluded. All is God; how can you push God out
of His Domain? Your mind concludes that the cause for the restlessness is whatever
concerns it at the time. The actual cause is not that. You limit God by your assumptions,
hence the restlessness. For you too are divine, and your reality protests against that
limitation.
Devotee: Swami! Sometimes I feel so sad that I am so strange, so different in habits from
the rest of those that come to you for succor.
Sai Baba: If your path contrasts entirely with those around you, believe that it is my will
for you. Every way is my way and ways seemingly indirect may be the most direct for some
spiritual seekers. For me there are no impossible cases, no incorrigible cases. Practice
choicelessness as hitherto prescribed. Choicelessness is constant contentment.
Questioner: Swami, I am addicted to tea drinking, which hurts me. How can I stop this
practice?
Sai Baba: Heaven is not refused to those who drink tea! A rajasic person is rendered
hyperactive by tea, but to an invalid it is a welcome lift. But do not adore tea as the only
reality. Now with regard to these habits that have gripped you, there are two methods by
which you can discard them. The first is deprivation, denial. This can yield only temporary
success. When one's determination relaxes, the habit reasserts itself and it becomes difficult
to resist. The second method is to become so absorbed in something far more pleasing that
the habit falls off by itself. Remember, what is transient is not important. What is
important is eternal. My prescriptions are varied; they differ from person to person, from
stage to stage, even in the case of the same person. All prescriptions work. Let people come
to me through Bhajan, through Japa, through Meditation, through Mantras, through
Tantra or Seva as I ordain. Every one will come to me; everyone has to come to me. There
are no exceptions.
Devotee: We rely on your grace Swami, we yearn for it. Make us aware of it.
Sai Baba: I never asked you to earn me. I want only that you should need me. Your path is
not one of merit. Bring the recurring desires of your mind to me, every time they emerge.
They cannot shock me, for I willed them! Bring me your confusion, your fear, your craving,
your anxiety, your inability to love the world, your hesitation to serve, your jealousy, all the
deficiencies that defy your spiritual disciplines.
Devotee: How are we to do Seva if we feel the urge to do so? What if the urge is absent?
Sai Baba: There are many ways to serve the world. You can serve, if not actively, at least by
your serenity. Everyone need not do all things. Your Western heritage reveres active work.
But if your being tends towards serenity and solitude, take it as the best. Do not be sorry
for it. Only a small minority can delight in serenity and remain still. God has willed it so,
otherwise, how could the world function? If stillness is your destiny, dare to be so. If you
are a recluse, be a recluse, but a recluse with me. You may not be a saint, but you can
peacefully be nothing. Let each be as he is, remembering, however, his source and his
reality. None is as he is but for me.
Devotee: I have yet much to learn.
Sai Baba: You wish to learn from me. Well, if you are preoccupied by the body's needs, by
the arrangements for its traveling, its accommodation and the food it demands, time will
fly. That student learns best and fastest who does not spend his time constantly shifting
from one classroom to the next. You will learn everything worth knowing in my classroom.
I will expose you to all states of being, so that you may learn to rest in me in all of them.
There are no insurmountable obstacles to me; there are no pre-requisites for me. I am
unconditional.
Devotee: But you are absent so often and away for so long at your headquarters.
Sai Baba: Always, at every time, at every place, I am where you need me. All things without
are subject to the limitation of time and space, to the material laws of Nature. My outer
form is no exception! If you would perceive my physical form, it must come within the
range of your gaze, so position yourself so that you can see it. And even then, it may not
gaze at you. But, I am omnipresent! The limitations of the body and the outer senses do not
hold for the inner vision. Therein, you can see me at any time and any place and receive
Darshan. The outer vision is purposely insufficient, instantaneous, transitory, casual, so
that you may crave for and accomplish the inner Darshan. If I have separated you from my
physical image off and on, it was only to bring you to me and to establish my presence
within you. That alone will replenish you and refresh you, I know. None of my absences was
a rejection or rebuke. So far as you are concerned, I intended them all. And, always, I
willed that you return to me.
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