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RE A LI SM A ND
T H E C L I MATE
C R I SIS
HO PE FOR LIFE
JOH N FO STER
REALISM AND THE
CLIMATE CRISIS
Hope for Life
John Foster
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A Note on Notes vi
Acknowledgements vii
Notes 178
References 189
Index 194
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Acknowledgements
This book tries to improve on my After Sustainability, which in its turn tried
to improve on The Sustainability Mirage. While this is a process which could
in principle run and run, I am luckily now old enough for it to be nearing
its natural end.
After Sustainability started from a challenge to widely prevalent denial of
climate and environmental tragedy, and the hopes with which it concluded
were correspondingly both chastened and limited. I have since come to
see that one must start from more robustly transformative hopes, while still
recognizing that our tragic situation conditions the actions which can flow
from them. This shift of emphasis was prompted partly by the personal
considerations mentioned briefly in the Introduction, but friendly and
constructive criticism of the earlier approach from a good many people also
helped; I must especially thank in this connection Samantha Earle, Margaret
Gearty, Susan Goldsworthy, Steve Gough, Doris Hauser, Stefan Morales
and Rupert Read.
Thanks are due, too, to my Lancaster colleague Matthew Johnson,
general editor of the journal Global Discourse, for inviting me to guest-edit a
special issue (Volume 7, Issue 1, 2017) on the theme ‘After Sustainability –
What?’ –later published in book form as Post-Sustainability: Tragedy and
Transformation (Abingdon: Routledge, 2018). This project provided a forum
for illuminating engagement with a number of my fellow contributors,
notably Ingolfur Blühdorn, Mike Hannis and Panu Pihkala. I am particularly
grateful to Rupert Read, my exchange with whom extending over the
last 40 pages of this volume was a very powerful stimulus to rethinking.
Similarly, involvement with the think tank Green House, including editing
its most recent book Facing Up to Climate Reality: Honesty, Disaster and Hope
(London: Green House, 2019) and contributing a series of opinion pieces
and book reviews to its website at https://www.greenhousethinktank.org/,
has brought me many valuable insights from colleagues: thanks in particular
to Nadine Andrews, Anne Chapman, Ray Cunningham, Jonathan Essex
and Brian Heatley. (Neither they nor Green House, however, should be
taken to agree with all the views expressed in this book.)
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Introduction: Hope, Realism and
the Climate Crisis
The possibility of hope is now the central question of our time. That is
because it is crucial to the climate crisis, which is our time’s overwhelmingly
urgent challenge.
Much else is pressing: poverty, hunger, war and threats of war, unravelling
international institutions, clashing religious fundamentalisms, cyber-security,
the dark web, deep uncertainties around sexuality and identity … the list
goes on. This is altogether the most existentially exacting juncture in human
history. But the climate crisis is now absolutely primary. On how we respond
to that crisis depends, it is increasingly apparent, the future of our existence
itself. There can no longer be any serious doubt that the present trajectory
of human-induced global heating, unaddressed or even just inadequately
addressed, could within the present century take the Earth’s atmosphere to
temperatures at which civilization certainly, and maybe human life, could
not survive. That claim is so far from being irresponsibly alarmist that it
expresses the current sober consensus among informed scientists. It would
be excessive to say that in such a context, nothing else matters. But the
basic preconditions for anything else to go on mattering all that much for
all that long are now at risk. When your house is on fire, first things first is
a maxim of mere common sense.
With a house on fire, however, acting hopefully on that maxim is likely
to be a fairly simple matter. You will hope for some swiftly available means
of putting the fire out, and often this hope will be a perfectly realistic one
to entertain in your circumstances, and will be duly answered. With the
climate crisis, however, things are a lot less straightforward.
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movement announces its intention ‘to rise up and take direct action where
older generations have failed’. These closely linked recent manifestations,
responding to urgently perceived danger, have energized a wider green
constituency which was becoming stale and exhausted from the sheer effort
of having tried for years to make headway in pushing this enormous boulder
up this steepest of hills. That is by no means to dismiss the established political,
NGO and academic strands of green activity, which remain importantly in
play. But the whole issue has been decisively reinvigorated and has claimed
a new level of public attention through the activities of these newcomers.
They are easily the most hopeful gleams of light across what is nevertheless
a rapidly darkening landscape. But equally, and just as such, they raise what
I have called the question of the possibility of hope most acutely.
That question, put starkly, is: how in these conditions can hope be
kept honest?
Of course, there is hope and hope. When Greta Thunberg says ‘I don’t
want your hope. I don’t want you to be hopeful. I want you to panic. …
And then I want you to act’, she is calling out the ‘hopefulness’ paraded
at jamborees like the World Economic Forum, a smart-suited glibness
substituting for serious action and shrugging off real responsibility. That
attitude can’t be kept honest, because it never was. But climate activists,
Ms Thunberg included, have to start from genuinely robust hope, literally
morning by morning. They know that in order to carry on, they must tap
daily into the energy that only comes from hoping –from always-renewed
commitment to the achievability of a sustainably habitable world. And for
anyone seriously worried about these issues, activist or not, such commitment
is a condition of remaining constructively engaged, rather than turning
away to the many much more tractable concerns which life (or at any rate,
life in the short term) still offers. Nor is starting afresh, again and again,
from such hope merely a therapeutic resource, a kind of moral exercise
routine to make activism or constructive engagement easier to maintain. It
is what makes them feasible at all, for anyone even minimally attentive to
the situation as it now stands. And for hope of that order, the question of
honesty does inescapably arise.
Importantly, starting from genuine hope means just that, rather than
reaching it as the last hypothesis standing when optimism fails. My own
work in this field was initially, back in the 1990s, probably an exercise in
such optimism: an attempt to defend the then-new sustainability imperative
from perverse economistic modelling, as it started to be taken up into the
mainstream. There appeared, back then, to be at least some prospect that
something better than ‘sustainable development’, with its quantified and
monetized bottom lines, could become the pragmatic governing model.
But thereafter I moved, at first very reluctantly but with (it soon felt) no
responsible alternative, towards pointing out the danger of our being betrayed
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that it genuinely might. We may call the latter requirement the condition
of realism –genuine hope must address itself to a real chance, however
slender, of the hoped-for thing’s coming to pass, just as it must also involve
the courage to run the risk that it won’t. But this conceptual requirement
reflects our recognition of a vital practical necessity. Crucially, aspirations
which fail to meet the condition of realism can’t do the hard work of hope –
the work of getting us out of bed each day to go on risking ourselves in
what might be a struggle against the grain –because they always turn out
to be about what someone can or can’t bear to contemplate, rather than
about grappling with the tough and recalcitrant world over against us: and
one way or another, we always know this. Hoping unrealistically is always
either a denial of the full difficulties confronting us, or a way of giving up
while pretending not to.
That is why the question is one of honesty, and we can now formulate it
more sharply. Can hope for escape from humanity’s climate plight any longer
count as realistic? Do the odds –which, as I began by sketching them, are
now stacked so high against us –leave us anything which could legitimately
be claimed as a real chance of averting runaway global overheating? For if
they don’t, then since life-hope seems non-optional, it can only be embraced
as a form of self-delusion. This fear must gnaw at the heart of any climate
activist who allows him-or herself to think dispassionately about the issues.
Tough hope
I want to argue that hope can still meet the condition of realism. But it can
do so only under other conditions which many activists may find almost as
difficult to accept as hope’s abandonment. That is why, within its class –books
about the climate crisis which contend that we might still have a chance to
survive it –this book will be found to take an unconventional line.
For one thing, although it has been substantially revised and brought to
a conclusion during the ravages of the COVID-19 pandemic, it does not
venture the claim that trying to deal with that grisly outbreak has better
prepared us for confronting the climate emergency. It points neither to
government willingness to upend the economy, public acceptance of
intrusive regulation, nor a new sense of communal solidarity, as potential
COVID-19 bonuses to be carried forward into the climate context. For
reasons about which I say a little more in the final c hapter –essentially, the
difference between an immediate mortal threat and prospective disasters
well over the horizon –I am seriously sceptical of that claim, and would
remain so even were public acceptance of restriction much less patchy than
it has latterly become.
But even more unexpectedly, perhaps, the book also includes no material
on climate justice (except in passing as part of a critique of the Green New
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Deal), and treats neither of human rights nor of alleged rights of any other
kind. It does not discuss techno-fixes, whether favourably or unfavourably.
It lacks chapters on corporate malfeasance and the sins of late capitalism,
the Millennium Development Goals and the scandal of world poverty, the
role of green business and investment, and even the prospects for China. It
lauds neither the virtues of democracy despite its failures, nor the wisdom of
indigenous peoples despite their regrettable marginalization. And it scarcely
alludes to issues of Western diet.
These omissions do not mean that I think none of the above matter. They
most of them clearly do, very much –our attitudes to technology and to
democracy in particular. But they represent a terrain which has now been
very well worked over in that sort of book during the past decade or so,
from Tim Jackson’s Prosperity Without Growth through Naomi Klein’s This
Changes Everything and George Monbiot’s Out of the Wreckage to Jonathon
Porritt’s recent Hope in Hell. And the working-over has answered to a general
approach: ‘Surely now at last we are reaching a moment when all these
progressive concerns must jump together, and serious action to avert climate
catastrophe must garner widespread popular consent!’ –an approach which
has persisted largely unaltered, it has to be said, while the jumping together,
and the widespread consent, have (broadly) continued not to materialize.
All these authors, that is, want to find or renew hope on liberal-progressivist
terms. They want us to be able to hope, even yet, for a transformation which
will yield conditions of general material sufficiency, structured by justice
and organized by egalitarian-democratic methods. They want to retain,
even in this extremity and however sobered and muted, essentially the
Enlightenment package.
Instead of revisiting this terrain or maintaining this approach, I want to
make an uncomfortably different case –one which I believe we cannot
any longer postpone considering. Given the conceptual relations between
hope, experience, realism and transformation, in the context of our wholly
unprecedented plight, hope can now only be honestly entertained on tragic
terms. What that entails in practice is that we have to try to save the habitability
of the planet at whatever cost. And politically, that in turn involves accepting
that nothing decisive will happen, on any of these fronts, until the minority
who are both intelligent and imaginative enough to know what is coming,
and at the same time honest and brave enough to reject complicity in biocide,
finally takes matters into its own hands –by whatever means offer themselves,
and without waiting for popular consent. Nothing will really happen, that
is, until people forming what I call the life-responsible vanguard creatively
reconstitute themselves as a new kind of revolutionary force, something
markedly different from being a demonstrator or even a ‘rebel’.
That, incidentally, is why the book also does not touch on the recently
popular concept of ‘transformative adaptation’, or at least not as such. I think
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But that truth, of course, also requires the vanguard itself to step up. From
its comfortably accustomed standpoint of informed critique, personal or
institutional campaigning or, most adventurously, law-abiding protest (and
even getting yourself carefully arrested by a generally well-behaved police
force, while of course it calls for courage and determination, is essentially still
that), this vanguard must move to becoming capable of doing the sweeping
aside, and fully ready to do it vigorously.
We need, that is, at last and above all, a Green-political movement
adequate to the demands of seeing us through oncoming tragedy –able to
interpret inevitable disaster convincingly enough to be widely accepted as
a guide, ready to confront painful choices and to cut its losses, remorselessly
proactive (since remorse must be tragically forgone, or at any rate suspended),
and unflinchingly cold-eyed about its deeper-than-democratic mandate.
Accordingly, this book concentrates as fiercely as I can on what I take to be
the need and the reasons for that uncompromisingly revolutionary stance.
At the worst, therefore, it may have put forward a case to be seriously
argued with.
A quick preview
Being realistic about the climate crisis requires us to ask whether, starting
from hope as we must, we can keep it both honest and still true to itself,
still springing unquenchably from the life which we are called on to defend.
Chapter 1 outlines the empirical realism according to which the odds against
us appear to be insurmountable. Politics is pre-eminently an arena in which
we are liable to ideological bias and groupthink, and correspondingly to
self-deception and wishful thinking –with green politics no exception. If,
to guard against this tendency, we cultivate a disillusioned realism based on
human experience, we must conclude it to be overwhelmingly likely that
we are out of time to avoid climate catastrophe. This is demonstrated from
consideration of the carbon budget within which we must keep if we are
to have any chance of avoiding runaway global heating; of the breakneck
rate at which we are still currently overspending that budget; of how
precipitously the emissions curve must consequently fall from hereon in; of
how inadequate the Paris Agreement has been in this connection; and of how
vigorously capitalism and the fossil-fuel state are bound to resist the necessary
measures. On all these dimensions, change of the order required is utterly
unprecedented, and the utterly unprecedented is the empirically unrealistic.
In Chapter 2, I go on to show how this need not, however, be the
final word. The heaviest adverse odds have not always been proof against
transformative human action driven by hope ‘against hope’. Though history
and biography prompt us with this realism of transformation, however, it
cannot be grounded empirically. Our ability to defy all the odds cannot be
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they may help shape the new kind of revolution to which we must find our
way –for nothing less than revolution is what life-hope can now be seen
to demand of us.
***
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the real at this epochal crux of action therefore shifts to embrace once more
the radical creativity through which human beings can shape possibility, it
does so under intense, indeed potentially shattering, life-pressure. But radical
creativity is quite unrecognizable unless we take the subjective view –the
view from the perspective of the human agent –with ultimate seriousness.
And (though at this point I would expect many professionally philosophical
colleagues to baulk) one of the fundamental reasons why that subjective view
now has to be taken fully seriously is that unless we can do so, the unfolding
climate emergency will rob us of genuine hope.
The case which I develop through the book aspires to contribute to this
kind of shift in understanding. So while it does not mount a metaphysical
argument as such, it seeks to keep what I may call the issue of the real
sufficiently alive that the resonance for this issue of the practical argument
which it does mount remains clear –and also vice versa. That implies a
balancing act which I cannot claim to have performed faultlessly, or even
very well, but my attempts to perform it explain some of the apparently
awkward shifts in register which the reader may encounter. Overall, the
book asks: what might it mean to do the politics of the crucial next twenty
years in the spirit of a tragically informed realism? Some of the answers
which I offer will certainly be found as uncomfortable as the question is
exigent. The full force of those answers requires, I believe, that we appreciate
something as fundamental as the nature of the real to be always also at stake.
***
Introductions to books about hope and the climate crisis standardly end in
upbeat vein: we can crack this, if only … (followed by the author’s particular
hopeful pitch). But prefacing a critique of the possibilities of hope in that
way would evidently beg the question. Instead, I will invoke the book’s
dedication: jointly to my mother who died while it was being written, and
to my first grandchild whose birth spurred me into writing it. That life-
continuity can perhaps stand in hope’s place until hope is vindicated –or,
while one at least attempts its vindication.
Hallbankgate, Cumbria
May 2021
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perhaps a possibility for any creature which has both cognitions and desires
and is at least minimally aware of both. Any such creature seems susceptible
in principle to finding itself misled by its own wishfulness. But human
beings are unique in having at their disposal very sophisticated powers of
misrepresenting the world –of seeing what they want to see and believing
what it comforts them to believe. The experimental chimp can expect a
banana and get an electric shock, the dog can bounce around in anticipation
of a walk and find himself left behind when his owner is merely going
shopping, but it takes human intelligence and conceptual resource to weave
a dreamland of protected quasi-beliefs and gratifyingly false assumptions
which can be inhabited for weeks, months or even years together. And by the
same token, it would seem to be principally the human ability to recognize
the patterns, rules and norms (including laws of nature) derived from
remembered experience, which provides us with any reliable benchmark
for our attempts to resist losing touch in this way with the real world.
Avoiding illusion
We misrepresent things wishfully to ourselves across many diverse fields
of activity and for many reasons. Standard cases are to be found in our
personal relations, where we regularly promote muddle and grief by
assigning fantasy roles to real others, and in our attitudes to our own
achievements, professional and other, where the fantasy role is typically
filled by oneself. (Familiarly, one of the toughest things about growing
older is that it becomes ever harder to find examples of successful people
who didn’t amount to much at your age.) But because it deals in power
(ours over others and theirs over us), politics is a pre-eminent terrain of
systematic self-delusion –of vision through deliberately assumed ideological
spectacles, of beliefs and drives channelled by class or clan interests and
of the group-conditioned reflex generally. George Orwell’s classic insight
remains sharply relevant here. In an article written just after the Second
World War, when he was already exploring the ideas that were to inform
the chilling satirical account of ‘doublethink’ in Nineteen Eighty-Four, he
observed drily that
In private life most people are fairly realistic. When one is making
out one’s weekly budget, two and two invariably make four. Politics,
on the other hand, is a sort of sub-atomic or non-Euclidean world
where it is quite easy for the part to be greater than the whole or for
two objects to be in the same place simultaneously.
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where this conflicts with what one already, in some other part of one’s mind,
does tacitly see and understand.
As a direct consequence of this, history insofar as it is a record of political
activity exemplifies a very wide variety of unrealisms, and is equally rich in
cases of people only finding out that they were being unrealistic afterwards,
when action has collided painfully with the resistant reality which they had
misconstrued or downplayed. And of course it also displays abundantly
the irony of our never knowing beforehand whether or not that is actually
going to be our situation. Thus, to take a couple of instances more or less at
random, while it turned out to have been realistic of Hitler to think that he
could come to power in Weimar Germany, despite his widespread dismissal
during much of the 1920s as a political no-hoper, it proved wildly unrealistic
of him to suppose that he could knock out Soviet Russia at a single blow in
1941, even though no army in Europe had been able to resist the Wehrmacht
for years before. Again, it was in fact realistic of Tony Blair to trust to his
instincts and push for the abandonment of Labour’s time-hallowed Clause
Four commitment to public ownership almost immediately after taking
over as leader, but career-wreckingly unrealistic of him to imagine that he
could inspire public support for the invasion of Iraq solid enough to tolerate
anything except the swiftest and least costly victory and exit. In both these
pairs of examples and in a thousand others like them, calculations beforehand
easily deceive, and the realistic option, the one that would have reflected how
the balance of relevant political and military forces actually stood, is revealed
only when the chosen alternative has led to confusion, chaos or disaster.
In political and public affairs, however, we much more often than not
have to act well before the relevant reality has fully declared itself. Thus our
constant liability to falsify our situation for Orwell’s kind of reason tends
to place us even more than usually at the mercy of events in these spheres.
As a defensive response, there have therefore naturally evolved some fairly
straightforward rules of thumb (if only we could stick to them) for aligning
one’s picture of how things are with how they actually are, before acting on
it. These rules of thumb familiarly include paying less attention to what
people say (about what they believe, intend and so on) than to what they have
actually done, and particularly to what they have been in the regular habit of
doing; assuming that, generally speaking, more immediate and self-interested
concerns will win out over remoter and more altruistic ones; recognizing
that, of two conflicting ‘expert’ opinions, the reassuring one will always be
much more readily believed; and trying hard not to underestimate people’s
capacities for self-deception about motives, loyalties, values and goals. This
response needn’t go so far as the realpolitik which takes it for granted that
human beings are always inherently egoistic and self-interested, and that states
naturally replicate those motives in their dealings with one another. But the
general strategy is nevertheless to step back as far as possible from whatever
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Climate Change (IPCC), as just about manageable for the ongoing viability
of global civilization in something recognizably like its present form.
Four hundred and ninety-five billion tons of CO2 sounds a lot –enough,
perhaps, to give us time for adaptation, for developing the cleaner
technologies, carbon capture and storage systems and widespread substitution
of renewables for fossil fuels which we will need either to keep within our
carbon budget for the foreseeable future, or to move us into a zero-carbon
regime when the budget runs out. Visit the Carbon Countdown website
maintained by The Guardian newspaper, however, and that impression of
global elbow-room evaporates. This web page displays figures, changing in
real time, for the total remaining carbon budget for a 66 per cent chance of
2ºC; that is, the target level to which the Paris accords supposedly committed
everyone, 1.5ºC being still aspirational at that point although it has since been
recognized as the level at which the commitment should have been set. The
carbon budget for the higher figure is of course somewhat larger, at around
647 billion tons, but there still only remain some sixteen and a half years
before at current emissions rates we overspend it. That is perhaps startlingly
less than one might have expected, but the really shocking figure is the one for
ongoing emissions. Confronting you at each visit to the site is a countdown
clock showing the worldwide total in tons of CO2 equivalent which has
been emitted since you clicked in. As the numbers on this clock flicker past,
so swiftly that you can only keep track of the mounting thousands, the scale
of the challenge facing humanity emerges literally before your eyes. At each
of several visits during the period of writing, this counter was registering
atmospheric carbon being added worldwide at the rate of some 77,000 tons
per minute, or about 1,280 tons –a weight of carbon roughly equal to that
of 103 new-style Routemaster buses –being pumped up into the skies every
second. (That’s some four thousand buses-worth since you started reading this
paragraph, unless you can speed-read.) And when you remind yourself that
atmospheric carbon dioxide is a gas, and therefore how much of it would be
required to tot up to just a single ton in weight, and how far (for instance)
you personally would have to drive in order to emit even that much, you can’t
help being overwhelmed by a sense of the gigantic scale, utter relentlessness
and frenzied intensity at which human activity is spewing out this climate-
destabilizing pollutant around the globe.
And of course by the same token, these eye-glazing magnitudes emphasize
the scale and rapidity of the changes in all this activity which would be
required if we are to have any prospect of hitting even the higher (Paris)
target. An effective graphic representation of what would be involved is at
Figure 1, which pictures what would be required to give us a slightly better
than 66 per cent, but still not especially confidence-inspiring, chance of
keeping within 2ºC. (It is worth asking yourself whether you would get
on a plane with this chance of not crashing en route.) Even on the very
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Figure 1: The carbon cliff-edge: global carbon dioxide cuts required for a 75
per cent chance of not exceeding 2°C, with a peak today
Source: Image from The Burning Question: We Can’t Burn Half the World’s Oil, Coal and Gas:
So How Do We Quit? by Mike Berners-Lee and Duncan Clark, foreword by Bill McKibben.
Reprinted with permission from Profile Books and Greystone Books.
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A bleak prospect
So the claim that we can’t now turn things around and avoid a succession
of climate-driven disasters within the window of opportunity which we
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The truths which it would force us to acknowledge are very hard, and
modern telly-democratic electoral politics, with its crass simplifications,
brief attention spans and routine substitution of slogans for thought, has
not characteristically been an arena in which hard truths can be faced and
then fed into policymaking. That we are already in for what a former UK
government Chief Scientific Adviser, Sir John Beddington, has described as a
‘perfect storm’ of food, water and energy shortages, entailing famine, disease
and homelessness on an epic scale, with associated worldwide migratory
pressures and resource wars, is not going to form the starting point of any
election manifesto under present political conditions –and this includes the
manifestos of Green parties which have undertaken to operate under those
conditions. It is far easier for the political and policy community to stay in
denial with the paradigm of ‘sustainable development’, and its climate-change
corollary of managed incremental (or would-be incremental) emissions
constraints. I have commented already on what this paradigm does for us
by way of giving comfort to wishful thinking. What it certainly doesn’t do
is mandate messy and dangerous challenges to global corporate power, the
world trade regulations which seek to lock that power into place, nor the
governing elites who profit so grotesquely by these arrangements. Hence,
in large measure, its continuing official hegemony. Appropriate action in
the public realm would, as I have shown, need to be driven by policies for
the decisive ending and indeed reversal of material ‘progress’ and for the
best available mitigation of a now gravely alarming climate and ecological
future. No such policies are imaginable from any plausible government of
any fossil-fuel state as currently constituted. So it looks as if what is already
firmly on course to be disastrous won’t be addressed, or even recognized,
in time to prevent its escalating into catastrophe.
How might this escalation progress through the lifetime of someone
born around now? We could divide the process roughly into three phases,
the first of these characterized by widespread and various forms of denying
the situation’s seriousness, until the reality of disastrous impacts becomes
unignorable; then a desperate resort to heroic technology and authoritarian
political management: the failure of which will deliver us into an increasingly
Hobbesian world of the kind imagined in John Lanchester’s recent novel
The Wall, where getting one’s survival strategy in first is the only thing
that really matters to nations and increasingly to individuals. This division
is illustrative and all the hazards of forecasting must be remembered. That
said, it is empirically realistic to suppose that in the first of these phases, the
world will by and large keep soldiering on within the Paris framework, or
patched-up successors based on equally flawed premises, because facing up to
the inadequacy of that approach would simply demand too huge a political
and lifestyle shift. As this strategy fails, however, and the ‘perfect storm’ which
Beddington anticipated from the impacts of continually rising emissions
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Disillusioned hope … ?
That, if we are looking to be empirically realistic, is the future for my
grandchildren –and of course for the rest of their generation across the
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world and those generations which will follow. It is a bleak prospect indeed.
Is it also hopeless?
With this question we are prompted to explore further into the idea of
hope than the brief foray in the Introduction took us. I said there that hope
for the human future is not optional, and linked that claim to its arising
out of the energy of life itself. But there are of course a variety of possible
futures, including the one just sketched, through which life in its human
manifestation might persist. Is there anything in the nature of hope to demand
that we invest it in something more ambitious than whatever a disillusioned
empiricism suggests is realistic? My whole argument in this book is going
to turn on an affirmative answer here.
Hope, as I suggested in those introductory remarks, is the form taken
for a creature which can think about its future by life’s instinctive always-
ongoingness. Life’s commitment to itself takes, in creatures conscious of
having a future into which they are always moving, the form of a forward-
facing generic trust. That trust exhibits itself to us as hopefulness in respect
of the particular projects in which we invest our life-energies. And because
having that kind of consciousness of self over time means being aware of one’s
exposure to contingency, the condition of realism arises in connection with
it: we cannot just trust blindly to life, as creatures without conscious foresight
do, but intentionally direct our living forwards through hope invested in
our various projects and purposes. Where we invest it is then guided by
what we are aware of being able realistically to hope for, and that is how
we steer ourselves through a world of contingency: where hope in ordinary
cases evidently fails the condition of realism, we withdraw it and transfer
it elsewhere as part of the very process of conscious life moving forward.
But we cannot withdraw hope in that way from the overall project of life,
which expresses itself precisely as generic hopefulness seeking out plausible
projects. Thus we have no option but to hope that we can overcome threats
to the viability of the human life which manifests itself in us as hope. That
is the fundamental sense in which we must take the claim that hope is not
optional in face of the climate emergency –life itself in us will not let us
just give up on any prospect of a human future and enjoy what is left to us
in the present while we can.
It is to this sense, I think, that the basic notion of sustainability must be
related, if we are not to misconceive it. That concept tends to be interpreted
economistically as the intergenerational transmission of equal resource-
quanta. But its compelling force as a goal for action comes from much
deeper down –from recognition that it expresses the energy of continuity
at the core of life. The hope that what we do can be sustainable at bottom
expresses an intuitive awareness that a crucial part of the point of life is just
to iterate itself onwards. The underlying impulse of sustainability, in other
words, is life-hope.
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But then, to press again in a different form the question from the start
of this section: how much does sustainability, so understood, demand? Are
the very reduced prospects which seem to be all that empirical realism now
leaves us, hopeless in that sense?
On these grounds, surely not. Life and hope seem so connected that
where life remains at all, no prospect can be completely hopeless, and we
are certainly not here confronting the final end, either of human or –despite
the forecast sixth mass extinction –of all other life either. Moreover, it seems
possible for at least some of us to go on hoping that anyone about whom
one actually cares will belong to a lucky minority. Those will be people
living in currently temperate zones which will become warmer but still for
a time remain habitable. They will need to live outside urban areas where
life-support systems will collapse, and beyond the suburban wastelands
in which people will find themselves stranded as transport infrastructure
unravels. They will need somewhere with some access to land which can
be made productive and on which well-integrated, intelligently led and
practicably defensible local communities can be reconstituted. (Continuingly
habitable areas will in this scenario depend on self-sufficiency not only in
food and other necessary goods, but also in effective weaponry.) And these
lucky ones may be able to insulate themselves from the wider global effects
of climate destabilization for some considerable time. Thinking parochially
(as in respect of such a future one has little option but to do), this is all fairly
readily imaginable for at least parts of Britain, which is not only temperate
and even yet incompletely suburbanized, but which starts the process of
insulating itself from wider chaos with the great advantage of being already
an island. (See, again, Lanchester’s story The Wall.) This prospect is grim,
but it is plainly distinct from the classic post-nuclear-holocaust situation
where, in Khrushchev’s chilling prediction, ‘the living would envy the dead’.
We should surely be foolish to claim that life under these conditions –at
the favoured end of the feasible –could never be worth living in default of
anything better.
It would nevertheless clearly involve hugely diminished human possibilities,
even for the lucky minority. Our recognition of and reaction to this reflects
our strong tendency, already noted, to think of what sustainability requires
in moral terms, and specifically in terms of justice –as placing us under an
obligation to leave future people no worse off, at least in essentials, than
we currently find ourselves. (Hence, of course, arises the dominant picture
of this requirement as to be operationalized economistically.) There seems
to be an obligation of this kind on us in the present to direct our hopes
towards a much more generous future. Thus to envisage a world in which
there is any human flourishing at all would involve hoping for one where
nobody, wherever or whenever born, starves or suffers systematic deprivation
merely by that chance of birth; a world where everyone enjoys, as of right,
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… or life-hope?
This can be seen most clearly by foregrounding the impersonal dimension
beyond the personal concern when, say, I worry about the future awaiting
my infant grandson. What do I hope for him? Well, first of all the basics –
conditions in which he can live healthily and in physical safety, and so on.
I am also concerned that he should be able to find meaning and purpose,
encounter beauty and experience wonder. Being aware that humans cannot
flourish in any of these ways without a functioning biosphere surrounding
and supporting them, I also hope that this will continue to be the case while
he lives. But the key point is that I don’t hope all this for him just as some
particular individual about whose welfare I happen to be exercised, but as
someone for whom I have a grandfatherly concern –and that is, a concern
arising directly out of the natural ongoingness of life. That makes a crucial
difference. For if what I hope for on his behalf arises thus, it would be
completely self-defeating not to hope for it as something which I must also
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at the same time hope that he will, in his turn, be in a position to hope for
in respect of his own children and grandchildren, and then they for theirs.
I take over this thought gratefully from my fellow philosopher Rupert
Read, though I give it a form slightly different from that in which he has
expressed it. His version of the argument is that if we care for our children,
we must care equally for whatever they will care for, which will mean caring
in just the same way for our grandchildren, for our great-grandchildren and
so onwards. Our care for the nth generation will always therefore be just as
intense as that which we feel for our immediate descendants, and this will
motivate us to avoid harming any future generation as we should flinch from
harming our own children. This avoidance will then take the form of our
adopting present practices premised on indefinite biospheric integrity. That
formulation in terms of care, I have to confess, seems to me implausible.
Care is surely the kind of feeling which quite naturally attenuates with either
physical or temporal distance, and I am perfectly happy to admit to not
caring a hoot for my thirtieth-century descendants, if any. But my present
grandfatherly concern for my grandson’s flourishing does I think commit
me in the way I have suggested to desiring (now) the indefinitely continuing
sustainability, as we should try to retrieve the term from economistic misuse
by calling it, of humans-in-the-biosphere. This plainly cannot just be a matter
of his managing to get through and out, nor of his own grandchildren doing
so, before a degrading biosphere becomes terminally damaged. Rather, I have
to hope for the continuance of a healthy relation between human beings
and the biosphere as the basis of life’s essential ongoing intergenerationality,
its iterating itself onwards as far as we can foresee, and further yet. And my
hope for this is not born from any pseudo-obligation owed to distantly future
people, with all the baggage of conceptual difficulties which that idea drags
in its train, but from a genuine duty owed to my children and grandchildren,
to whom I am actually answerable in the way of intergenerationality. To put
this in something like Read’s terms: if you really love your kids, you owe
them your best efforts to retain an indefinitely habitable planet.
Now a wide variety of possible ways of life, economic arrangements
and distributions of power, resources and opportunity could be consonant
with that onward iteration of habitability (so that concerns for justice, just
as such, are beside this particular point). But what certainly could not be
so consonant is the sort of human-driven further degradation of the living
world which a disillusioned empirical realism, as outlined previously, now
gives us overwhelming warrant to expect. Accepting such a future as all we
have left to hope for would involve a deep betrayal of the life-continuity
which life’s inherent intergenerationality itself charges us to foster.
‘Grandfatherly concern’, in other words, is not a concern just for the
appealing little individual who happens to be my grandson, but for how in
and through him life moves forward from ancestor to descendant becoming
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Transformation?
The realism of empirical plausibility represents, as I said in the Introduction,
our taking the parameters for what is count as thinking realistically from a
certain underlying conception of, or set of unquestioned assumptions about,
what is fundamentally real. Central to this at least tacitly operative metaphysic
is the belief that in the nature of reality, true general laws instantiated by
what has happened are determinative of what can happen, and attention to
them is always strongly predictive of what will happen. This is so because
the basically real is thought of as a world of objects and forces located in
space-time, a world which holds together wholly impersonally and not just
as seen or grasped from some unifying perspective, and which therefore
must be organized exclusively and exhaustively by causal connections.
For impersonally and objectively –that is, removed from any notion of an
informing intention or shaping will –the only possible reason for anything’s
happening is that something else caused it to happen. These assumptions,
coupled culturally with growing technical capacity and declining religious
belief, provided the underpinning for the scientific world view as it has
been articulated and developed over the past three centuries. They are also
(and of course, relatedly) the grounding for our deeply held common-sense
conviction that you can’t ultimately buck the odds –that it is unrealistic (it ignores
how things really work) to expect more from the future than you are licensed
to expect by the pattern of probabilities derived from scrupulously careful
observation of the past. From this disillusioning common sense comes the
depressing picture which we were tracing in the first chapter of just how
intractable our climate plight must now appear.
But if life will not let us abandon hope for a genuinely sustainable human
future, if realism is a condition of all hope, and if conceiving the realistic
in terms of what is empirically plausible now leaves us no room for hope
of that order, it follows that life must insist on our conceiving the realistic
differently –which means that it must insist on something to be underpinned
by a different metaphysic of reality. That is a very tall order, given how solidly
embedded is the one which I have just sketched, the one which not only
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‘Oh yes, it’s true, you understand everything.’ Jennifer tightened her
arms desperately and seemed to be hesitating, then said at last: ‘No, I’m in a
muddle. I’m afraid. I should explain all wrong, as I always do. But I’ll write
to you, darling. I may not write to you for some time: or it may be to-
morrow. But I swear I’ll write. And then I’ll explain everything.’
‘And we’ll see each other again, Jennifer? We’ll meet often?’
‘Perhaps. I don’t know. It depends,’ she whispered. Her face was still
hidden, her arms firm in their strangling grip.
‘Oh yes, yes, Jennifer! Oh please! Why these mysteries? Jennifer—if—if
there’s somebody else you’re fond of I don’t mind. Why should it make any
difference to you and me? I’m not jealous.’
‘I’ll write to you,’ repeated Jennifer, very wearily whispering.
‘Soon then, soon, Jennifer. Tell me how you are, what you’re going to
do. Tell me if you go abroad, who—who you go with. Tell me everything.
Because I shall wonder and wonder. I shall imagine all sorts of things....
Jennifer....’
‘Hush, darling. I’ll be all right, I swear. And I swear that directly
everything gets clear I’ll write to you. And then we’ll see. You do trust me,
don’t you?’
‘Yes.’
‘And you must promise me to answer.’
‘Yes.’
‘But don’t write before I write to you.’
‘No.’
‘Good-bye, my darling.’ She let her arms fall to her sides.
At the door Judith turned, forcing her mouth into a smile, but Jennifer
was not looking at her. Once again, only the tangle of her hair was visible,
burning in the lamplight.
12
Then, for months, there was nothing in life save work: a careful planning
out of day and night in order that sleeping and eating and exercise might
encroach as little as possible on the working hours.
Soon, Midsummer term was back with unprecedented profusion of
blossom on the fruit trees, buttercups in the meadows, nightingale choruses
in the cedars and limes. But now it seemed neither exciting nor delightful to
be kept awake till dawn by nightingales; for sleepless nights lowered your
examination value. By day the two thrilling and unearthly pipe-notes of the
cuckoo seemed a mechanical instrument of torture: you found yourself
desperately counting the calls, waiting between each, with a shrinking of all
the nerves, for the next to strike. Almost you resented the flowery orchards
and meadows with their pagan-like riot of renewal. You noted them with a
dull eye from behind the stiff ponderous academic entrenchment of your
mind. But sometimes in the night, in dreams, the orchards would not be
denied: they descended upon you and shook out fragrance like a blessing;
they shone in pale drifts, in clouds, in seas,—all the orchards of England
came before you, luminous and stirring beneath the moon.
From early morning till late at night the desperate meek untidy heads of
girls were bowed over tables in the library, their faces when they lifted them
were feverish and blurred with work.
Pages rustled; pencils whispered; squeaking shoes tiptoed in and out.
Somebody tapped out a dreary tune on her teeth; somebody had a running
cold; somebody giggled beneath her breath; somebody sighed and sighed.
Outside, in the sunshine, tennis racquets struck vibrantly. Long ago, you
also had played tennis in May.
Mabel had a fortification of dictionaries around her corner; whenever
you looked up she caught your eye and smiled weakly from a hollow and
twisted face. Mabel had wished evil to Jennifer. But that was so long ago it
had ceased to matter.
‘Mabel, you’ve worked four hours on end. Come to lunch now.’
‘No, thank you, Judith. I feel I don’t want any lunch. I’d rather go
straight on and perhaps have a cup of tea later.’
‘Mabel, you’re to come with me.’
She came. But as often as not she laid down her fork after one mouthful
and sat and stared in front of her; then crept back to the library.
The copper bowl was filled this term with golden tulips or with dark
brown wallflowers.
Where was Jennifer?
Examination week. The sky was fiercely blue all day; the air breathless,
heavy. To walk into the town was to walk into a steam bath, where footsteps
moved ever more languidly, and the dogs lay panting on the pavement, and
the clocks seemed to collect themselves with a vast effort for their chiming.
This week there was nothing in your mind save the machine which
obeyed you smoothly, turning out dates and biographies, contrasting,
discussing, theorizing.
Judith walked in a dream among the pale examination faces that flowed
to their doom. Already at nine o’clock the heat struck up from the streets,
rolled downwards from the roofs. By midday it would be extremely
unpleasant in Cambridge.
This was the great examination hall. Girls were filing in, each carrying a
glass of water, and searching in a sort of panic for her place. Here was a
white ticket labelled Earle, J. So Judith Earle really was expected, an
integral part of this grotesque organized unreality. No hope now.
The bench was hard. Beside her sat a kind broad cow-like creature with
sandy hair and lashes. Her ruminative and prominent eyes shed pity and
encouragement. She was a good omen.
All over the room girls’ heads turned, nodding and winking at friends,
whispering, giggling and grimacing with desperate bravery. One simulated
suicide by leaning her bosom on her fountain pen.
Just behind sat Mabel. Her face was glistening and ghastly, and she
sniffed at a bottle of smelling salts.
‘Mabel, are you going to faint?’
‘No, I don’t think so. I generally feel faintlike first thing in the morning.
I’ll get better later.’
‘Mabel, you’re not fit—you mustn’t——’
‘Sh! I’m all right. Only it makes my head feel stupid.’ She stared aghast.
‘I don’t seem to be able to remember a thing.’
‘Don’t worry, Mabel. It’ll all come back when you settle down to it. I’ll
look around now and then and see if you’re all right.’
‘Thanks, Judith.’
‘Poor Mabel! Good luck. Wait for me afterwards and I’ll take you to
have a cup of coffee. That’ll do you good.’
‘I shall enjoy that. Good luck, Judith.’
She summoned a smile, even flushed faintly with pleasure.
Then panic descended suddenly upon Judith. Her head was like a
floating bubble; there was nothing in it at all. She caught at threads of
knowledge and they broke, withered and dissolved like cobwebs in the
hand. She struggled to throw off a crowding confusion of half-remembered
words.
Unarm Eros, the long day’s task is done. And we must sleep.... Peace!
Peace! Dost thou not see my baby at my breast That sucks the nurse
asleep?... Who said that? Who could have said such a thing? I am Duchess
of Malfi still.... Cover her face. Mine eyes dazzle. She died young. Beatrice
died young too. Here Mother ... bind up this hair in any simple knot ... ay
that does well.... Prithee undo this button.... Thank you, Sir.... Cordelia!
Cordelia! So many of them died young. There were those two, you had
forgotten their names now, and Cordelia, and Desdemona too. O, thou
weed!... It might be useful to remember them.... But they had already
slipped away. This was the parting that they had Beside the haystack in the
floods. William Morris. Speak but one word to me over the corn. Over the
tender bowed locks of the corn. Gold cornfield like Jennifer. A bracelet of
bright hair about the bone. That had always been Jennifer’s bright hair.
Only a woman’s hair.... Calm hair, meandering in pellucid gold. But
Jennifer’s hair had never been calm.... Speak but one word to me. Roddy,
one whisper from you!
It was Tennyson who said: The wrinkled sea beneath him crawls.... And
Browning who said: The old June weather Blue above lane and wall. Keats,
Coleridge, Wordsworth, and Shelley.... What had they said? and Blake:
Bring me my bow of burning gold; Bring me my arrows of desire.... Once
you had composed a tune for that. Bring me my bow of burning gold.... Oh,
stop saying that now. Think about the origins of drama, the rise of the
universities, the development of the guilds, the order of Shakespeare’s
plays.... O God! A headful of useless scraps rattling about in emptiness—
The clock struck nine.
‘You can begin now,’ said a thin voice from the däis.
There was an enormous sigh, a rustling of paper, then silence.
The questions had, nearly all, at first glance a familiar reassuring look. It
was all right. Panic vanished, the mind assembled its energies, cooly,
precisely, the pen flew.
After an hour the first pause to cool her forehead with a stick of frozen
Eau de Cologne and to sip some water. Behind, poor Mabel’s dry little
cough and sniff went on. The head bowed low over her writing looked as if
it could never raise itself again.
Girls were wriggling and biting their pens. Somewhere the tooth-tapper
was playing her dreary tune. The Cow looked up, shed a peaceful smile
around her and continued to write, with deliberation, a little impeded by her
bosom.
Another hour fled. The trouble was having too much to say, rather than
too little. The room was rigid, dark with concentration now. There came an
appalling confusion of haste and noise, and a girl rose and ran from the
room, supported by the invigilator. The handkerchief she held to her nose
was stained sickeningly with scarlet. She returned in a little while, pallid
and tearful, resumed her seat, bowed herself once more over the paper.
Three hours. It was over. You could not remember what you had written;
but you had never felt more firm and sure of mind. Three hours nearer to
life.
Into the street once more, beneath the noon sun’s merciless down-
beating. But now its rays seemed feeble: their warmth scarcely penetrated
chilled hands and feet, or shivering, aching back.
A troop of undergraduates passed on the way from their examination
room. They looked amused and exhilarated. They stuffed their papers into
their pockets, lit pipes, straightened their shoulders and went cheerfully to
lunch.
The girls crept out in twos and threes, earnestly talking, comparing the
white slips they carried.
‘Did you do this one?’
‘What did you put for that?’
‘Oh, I say! Will they take off marks do you think?’
‘It was a beast.’
‘Oh, it might have been worse.’
Girls really should be trained to be less obviously female students. It
only needed a little discipline.
There was Mabel to be looked after. She was grateful, passive: she drank
much coffee but refused food. She broke the heavy silence once to say with
a quiet smile: ‘Of course I see now I shan’t pass—It seems a pity, after all
that work—My memory is practically gone——’
Back to the vault now for another three hours.
Suddenly round the corner came a slender, dark, sallow boy. He walked
with an idle grace, leaning slightly forward. His faint likeness to Roddy
made the heart leap; and his expression was dejected and obstinate, just as
Roddy’s would be if he were forced to spend an afternoon scribbling
infernal rubbish.
Judith paused at the entrance of the vault and looked back. His eyes were
eagerly fixed on her: and she smiled at him.
He was delighted. His funny boy face lost its heaviness and broke up
with intimate twinklings; and flashed a shyly daring inquiry at her before he
vanished round the corner.
It was like a message from Roddy, sent forward to meet her from the
new life, to say: ‘Remember I am coming.’
That day passed smoothly; and the next. The days sinking to evenings
drenched with the smell of honeysuckle and draining to phantasmal and
translucent twilights of blossom and tree-tops and starry skies, flowed
imperceptibly to their end.
Suddenly there were no answers to be written from nine till twelve, from
two till five—no lectures, no coachings, no notes, no fixed working hours.
Instead, a great idleness under whose burden you felt lost and oppressed.
The academic years were gone for ever.
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The evening before the end of term.
Judith walked with the rest of the circle arm in arm across the grass,
down the wooded path, past the honeysuckle for the last time.
The garden spread out all her beauties that were hers alone,
overburdening the watchers, insisting:
‘See what you are leaving. Look at what you will never have again.’
The whole shrine lay wide open for the last time, baring its mysteries of
cedar and limes and nightingales, of lawns and mown hay, of blossoming
shrubs and wild flowers growing beneath them, of copper beeches and all
the high enclosing tree-tops, serenely swimming like clouds in the last of
the light.
They chose careers for each other, light-heartedly discussing the future,
and making plans for regular reunions.
‘But what’s the good?’ said one. ‘We shall all be scattered really. We
can’t come back year after year as if things would all be the same. There’s
nothing more awful than those gatherings of elderly people trying to be
girls together again. The ghastliness of pretending to get back to where one
was! If we meet again, let it be in the big world. I shall never come back
here.’
‘Oh, but I shan’t have the strength to resist it,’ said another. ‘You see I
more or less know I shall never be so happy again. I’ve got to teach brats
algebra. I shall be pulled back to indulge in vain regrets.’
‘Does it mean so much to you?’ murmured Judith. ‘You talk as if your
life was over.’
‘Something that matters—terribly to me is over,’ she said, almost
fiercely.
‘Oh!’ Judith sighed.
‘Doesn’t it mean anything to you then?’
Judith was silent, thinking how it had all meant the single tremendous
calamitous significance of Jennifer; how since her going it had been like the
muddy bed of a lake whose waters have been sapped day after day in a long
drought; like a tasteless meal to be swallowed without appetite; like a grey
drizzling unwholesome weather. Nothing had brought even a momentary
illusion of restored contentment: nothing save her copper bowl glowing for
her sake with flowers or fruit. Not one of those to whom she had turned had
been able to sooth the gnawing perpetual sore, or bury for a single day that
one face. And they knew it. The three years’ absorption in Jennifer had
separated her irrevocably from them, and, though they had kindly
welcomed her, it had been with the tacit assumption that she was not of
them.
They were so charming, so gentle, so sensitive and intelligent:
fascinating creatures: how fascinating she had never troubled to realize and
would never know now. To all, save Jennifer, that had offered itself, she had
turned an unheeding ear, a blind eye. And so much that might have been of
enduring value had offered itself: so many possible interests and
opportunities had been neglected.
There had been that girl the first year who, from the pinnacle of her
third-year eminence, had stooped, blushing and timid, with her invitation to
an evening alone. Frail temples, narrow exquisite bone of cheek and jaw,
clear little face with lips whose composure seemed the result of a vast
nervous effort, so still were they, so nearly quivering, so vulnerable; eyes
with a sad liquid brilliance in their steadfast gaze; small head with smooth
brown hair parted in the middle; narrow hands folded in her lap; she had
sat, the most important scholar in the College, like a shadow, a moth, a bird,
listening, questioning, listening again.
She was a poet. She never showed her verses, but to you she promised to
show them. She had a mind of such immaculate clarity that you feared to
touch it: yet she was offering it to you, all that evening.
It had come to nothing after all. She had retired very soon, shrinking
from Jennifer as if she were afraid.
There had been the girl with the torturing love affair that had gone
wrong. One night she had suddenly spoken of it, telling you all. You had
lingered by her with a little tenderness and pity and then passed on. She had
said, “You won’t tell Jennifer, will you?”
There had been the girl who drew portraits and who had wanted you for
a model. There had been the silent girl who read “The Book of the Dead”
night after night in her room, who was studying, so it was whispered, to
raise the devil and who looked at you with a secret smile, half malice, half
something else; there had been that most beautiful young girl in the first
year, with her cold angelic face and shining silver-fair hair; all those and
countless others had offered themselves. There had been Martin ignored
and neglected because he disliked Jennifer. And there had been books, far
more books in far more libraries: and new poetry, new music, new plays,—
a hundred intellectual diversions which you had but brushed against or
missed altogether by secluding yourself within the limits of an unprofitable
dream.
She said at last:
‘Oh yes. It means something. I don’t know yet how much. I’m afraid
now I’ve missed a lot.’
They were all silent, and she thought with nervous dread that they were
all thinking of Jennifer.
‘Isn’t it extraordinary,’ said another, ‘how time seems to have stood still
in this place? Nothing’s moved since we’ve been here. Even though I
suppose it’s all been advancing towards the Tripos, I don’t feel as if there’d
been any step forward. Everything—what’s the word?—static. Or else just
making circles. I feel I’ve been sitting in a quiet safe pool for three years.’
‘And now we’re going to be emptied out.’
And swept into new life, thought Judith longingly. Yet her heart misgave
her. The building, caressed with sunset, looked motherly and benign,
spreading its sheltering breast for the last time above its midgets. New life
might find nothing so secure and tranquil as its dispassionate protection.
The clock struck the hour pensively.
‘Well, I think it’s beastly,’ said one. ‘I’m going in to finish packing.’
Where, on this calm lime-scented last evening, was Jennifer?
14
In the end there was no time to say good-bye to anyone. Girls were
scattering, flying about with labels and suitcases, or with flat-irons to press
the frocks they were to wear in May Week.
May Week had been fun last year: five nights’ dancing on end, with
Jennifer and a young cousin of hers at Trinity, and a boy in the Navy. This
year it had not seemed worth while to accept invitations.
While Judith was engaged in strapping her boxes and throwing the
accumulated rubbish of three years out of drawers and cupboards into a
heap on the floor, a maid came smiling and said a gentleman was waiting
downstairs.
It was Martin.
‘Martin! Oh, my dear!’
‘I came on the chance, Judith. I motored up to see a man who’s going
abroad. Are you—are you staying up for May Week?’
‘No, Martin. I’m catching a train in about two hours and going straight
home.’
‘Really home, do you mean? Next door to us?’
‘Yes. Thank Heaven. It’s not let any more. Mother and I will be there
part of the summer anyway. Will you—will any of you be there?’
‘Mariella’s down there now, with the boy. And Roddy and I are going for
a bit. In fact I’m going to-day—motoring. That’s what I came for—to see if
you’d care to motor back with me.’
‘Drive home? Oh, how marvellous! You are an angel, Martin, to think of
me.’
He was as shy as ever, bending his head as he talked to her. Observing
him she thought that she herself had grown up. The loss of Jennifer had
given her a kind of self-assurance and maturity of manner, a staidness. For
the first time she was seeing Martin from an entirely detached and
unromantic angle, and she thought: “Then this is how I shall see Roddy. He
won’t confuse and entangle me any more. All that sort of thing is over for
me.”
‘It’s very nice to see you again, Judith. It’s ages since.... You look a bit
thin, don’t you?’
‘It’s those miserable exams, Martin. I did work so hard.... I don’t know
why.’
‘Oh! You shouldn’t have.’
He seemed quite overcome.
Dear Martin!... In some corner of her heart a weight was lifting....
Jennifer was suddenly remote.
‘Wait for me, Martin.... I’ll be ready in a quarter of an hour.’
She had not said good-bye to Mabel. She had been dreading that last
duty.... No time now, thank heaven, for anything prolonged.... Simplest to
write a little note and tell someone to stick it in her door.
She wrote:
‘Dear Mabel,
‘I have been called for unexpectedly in a car. I have only ten minutes to
finish packing and do all the last things. I knocked on your door a little
while ago but got no answer.’
She hesitated. Was it too gross? It was; but it must stand now; it could
not be crossed out.
‘And now I’m afraid I haven’t a minute to try and find you. I’m
dreadfully sorry not to see you to say good-bye, Mabel. Won’t it be sad
when next October comes to think we shan’t all be meeting again? You
must write and tell me what happens to you, and I will write to you. I dare
say we shall see each other again. You must let me know if you ever come
my way——’ That must stand too.... What else?... Results would be out to-
morrow—Better not to refer to them; for Mabel had certainly failed. She
had not been able to remember anything in the end. The last three days she
had given in one of two sheets of paper blank save for a few uncertain lines.
She finished:
‘I do hope you are going to get a good long rest. You do need it. You
worked so marvellously. Nobody ever could have worked harder. We’ve all
been so sorry for you feeling so ill during tripos week. It was terribly hard
luck.
‘Good-bye and love from
‘Judith.’
Nothing could be added—There was nothing more to be said. Mabel’s
face this last week came before her, blank, haggard, still watching her from
moribund eyes, and she dismissed it. She had thought she would have to
kiss Mabel good-bye: and now she would not have to.
She must be quick now, for Martin.
The car turned out of the drive and took the dusty road.
Almost she forgot to look back to see the last of those red walls.
‘I’m saying good-bye to it, Martin. Ugh! I hate it. I love it.’
The poplars seemed to grow all in a moment and hide it. It was gone.
‘Well, Martin, how are you? What’s been happening to everybody? How
are they all?’
She was slipping back, she was slipping back.
They left Cambridge behind them, and she tried to recall it, to make it
come before her eyes, and could not. The dream of wake, the dream of
sleep—which had it been?
She wondered if she would ever remember it again.
Yesterday Martin had been standing with her under the cherry tree.
Now he was telling her about his home in Hampshire. He acted as estate
agent for his mother now that his father was dead. She must really come
and stay with them and meet his mother. He was perfectly happy farming
his own land: he never wanted to do anything else. He was improving the
fishing and shooting: they had just bought a bit of land they had been after
for two years: half a mile more river and a biggish wood. Forestry was the
most fascinating subject: he was going to take it up more seriously. Martin’s
life seemed very happy, very ordered, very clear and useful. He knew what
he wanted.
The cousins had all been scattered this last year or so. Mariella had been
working with a woman vet. in London. She had spent most of last summer
at his home because she had been hard up and obliged to let the house on
the river. Peter had been there too. He seemed a nice enough little chap, but
nervy. He had a nursery governess now, and Mariella seemed to think more
about her dogs than him. At least that was the impression she gave.
Mariella, so Martin said, had not changed at all.
Julian he had scarcely seen. He thought he wrote about music for one or
two weeklies, but he didn’t know which. Also he had heard that he was
writing a ballet, or an opera or something; but he did not suppose it was
serious. He had developed asthma since the war, poor chap, and he spent all
the winter abroad and sometimes the summer too.
And Roddy. Oh, Roddy seemed to be messing about in Paris or in
London nearly always, doing a bit of drawing and modelling. Nobody could
get him to do any work: though last year he had done some sort of theatrical
work in Paris—designing some scenery or something—which had been
very successful. He was saying now that he would like to go on the stage.
Martin laughingly said he was afraid Roddy was a bit of a waster. Anyway
he was coming for a week or so, and Judith would see him for herself.
At six o’clock in the evening they stopped before the front door of her
home. There, waiting to enfold her again, was the garden. The air was sweet
with the smell of roses and syringa, the sun-flooded lawn stretched away
towards the river, and the herbaceous border was burning miraculously with
blue delphinium spires, white and yellow lilies, and great poppies.
‘Good-bye, Martin. It’s been lovely. We’ll meet soon, won’t we? Come
and fetch me.’
She went into the cool and shadowed hall. There was the old butler
hastening forward to receive her; and her mother’s voice came from the
drawing-room saying softly:
‘Is that my girl?’
PART FOUR
S HE was ready for the picnic. She wore a yellow linen frock and a hat of
brown straw, shaped like a poke bonnet and trimmed with a beautiful
yellow ribbon. It was Mamma who tied the ribbon in a great bow: the
loops fell in the nape of her neck and the ends ran down between her
shoulder blades.
‘Lovely young creature,’ said Mamma dispassionately observing her.
Judith had been home more than a week, and Mamma was being
charming. She had taken her to London to buy frocks. They had stayed at
Jules for a couple of nights, and Mamma had ordered pretty clothes
generously from her own dressmaker. She had said at last in her curious,
harsh yet beautiful voice, with a shrug of her shoulders, as Judith paraded
before her in the fifteenth model:
‘As you see, everything suits that child.’
And the dressmaker had solemnly agreed.
They had been together to a play, and to the opera; and every morning
and every night Judith sat on Mamma’s bed and they chatted together with
friendly politeness, almost with ease.
She was a woman exquisitely dressed, manicured, powdered and
scented. Her face did not age, though the colourless cheeks were now a
little hollowed, and the eyes sharper. Her eyes were like blue diamonds, and
she had an unkind reddened mouth with long pointed corners. The bones of
her face were strong and sharp and delicate, and something in the triangular
outline, in the set of the eyes, the expression of the lips, made you think of a
cat.
She was elegant in mind as well as in person, capable, quick-witted. Her
conversation was acute and well-informed over a wide field,—and men
admired and delighted in her. She had always, thought Judith, seemed to
move surrounded by men who paid her compliments. She had no women
friends that you could remember. She remarked, now and then, how much
she disliked women; and Judith had felt herself included in the
condemnation. She had never been pleased to have a daughter: only a
handsome son would have been any good to her. Her daughter had
discerned that far back in a childhood made overwise by adoration of her.
There was scarcely anything about Mamma to remember: nothing but a
vague awestruck worshipful identification of her with angels and the Virgin
Mary.
There was one night when she had come in, dressed for a dinner party,
all in white, with something floating, rosy and iridescent about her. The
dress had geraniums on it, at breast, waist and hem, a bunch on one
shoulder, and flowing geranium-coloured ribbons. There were diamonds in
her fair cloud of hair. She bent over the cot, smiling secretly with eyes and
lips as if she were very pleased; and Judith hid her face from that angelic
presence; and neither of them spoke a word. A man’s voice called:
‘Mildred!’ from the door: not Papa.
‘Come in,’ she said. ‘Here’s the child.’
Somebody tall and moustached came and stood beside Mamma and
looked down, making jokes and asking silly questions, and laughing
because she would neither answer nor look at him.
‘Don’t be silly, Judith,’ said Mamma.
‘She hasn’t a look of you,’ said the man.
‘No, nothing of me at all.’ Her voice sounded bored.
‘Are you sorry?’
‘Fred isn’t.’
They both laughed a little.
They stood leaning on the cot-rail in silence side by side, and Judith’s
hand stole out unnoticed and touched a geranium. She gave it a little pull
and it slipped out of the bunch into her hand.
‘Come then,’ said Mamma; and then over her shoulder: ‘Go to sleep,
Judith.’
She would have been annoyed if she had noticed the geranium. It was
not real after all: it was made of pink velvet. Judith hid it under her pillow.
Mamma slipped her hand into the man’s arm and floated away.
That was the only vivid recollection of her left. The children next door
came close on the heels of the geranium-frock in memory; and after that
they, and not Mamma, absorbed her passion. Mamma was more and more
away, or busy; and more and more obviously not interested in her daughter.
All life that was not playing next door, or alone in the garden, was lessons
and governesses. Mamma and Papa were relentless about education.
They had dual personalities in Judith’s mind. There were Mamma and
Papa who loved each other, of course, and loved their only daughter; and
sometimes took her to the seaside, and now and then to London for the
pantomime. Once or twice she went abroad with them; but on the many
occasions when they left her behind, they wrote her affectionate letters
which she dutifully replied to in French, so that they might see how her
French was progressing; and they brought her back beautiful presents.
Often when they were at home they read aloud to her in the evenings.
The three were blent in a relationship of a romantic and consoling sort,
—an ideal relationship; but then Fred and Mildred would take the place of
Mamma and Papa, and shatter the illusion. For they, alas, seemed made of
stronger and more enduring fibre: they were real: and they were not often
together: and when they were, there was often coldness and now and then
quarrelling. Life with Fred and Mildred was neither comforting nor secure.
Fred was quite an elderly man, and terrifyingly silent and pre-occupied. He
read and wrote books, and had a few elderly friends. Sometimes these
would pause for a moment between their long spaces of ignoring her; and,
searching her face, would tell her she was growing up like her father. And,
each time, their voices, their faces, their words made an unknown past
spring up in her for a moment, rich with undreamed-of vanished graces—
and she would go away with an ache of sadness. People loved Fred;
Mildred they admired and deferred to, but did not love. That was clear at an
early age, when Judith went walking with one or other of them past the row
of cottages at the top of the garden, and they stopped to speak to the cottage
people over the fences. The cottage people had one sort of voice, look,
reply for Fred; and quite another for Mildred.
Judith grew up with a faint obscure resentment against Mildred for the
way she treated Fred, for her competence—her dry, unmerciful, cynical
success in dealing with the world. Fred was not at home in the world: even
less at home, thought Judith, than she herself; but Mildred was steeped in its
wise unkindnesses. She did not seem to realize that Fred needed to be
looked after.
Then he died; and they became Mamma and Papa again. Mamma had
been gentle, tired-looking, and pale in her black clothes, and dependent for
a little while on Judith. She had not spoken much of Papa; but she seemed
engrossed in sad contemplations, and her replies to letters spoke of him
with tenderness and pride.
But all that had not lasted long. After the first six months she had not
appeared to want Judith much during vacations. She was always visiting,
always travelling, always surrounded by flattering talkative men and
bridge-playing scented women; and she came only once for a few hours to
College during the whole three years. She had a flat in Paris, with a little
room for Judith; but she expected Judith to lead her own life and to stay
with her own friends, or with the one aunt, Papa’s sister, for a part, at least,
of every vacation. Reading-parties, short visits to friends’ homes, long visits
to the old literary maiden aunt in Yorkshire, had absorbed the time. There
had been one rapturous summer month alone with Jennifer in a cottage in
Cornwall; but there had never been a visit to Jennifer’s home. Her parents,
she said, were too unpleasant to be inflicted upon anybody except herself;
and then only for brief spaces and at rare intervals. Like Roddy, she
appeared and vanished again, without a background, blazing mysteriously
into and out of ordinary life.
The hoped-for letter from Mariella, asking her to stay, had never come.
She had not seen Mariella since the summer of Papa’s death; and had had
no sign from her save one little ill-expressed conventional letter of
sympathy, sent, so the writer said, from them all “to tell you how dreadfully
we simpathise.” (But Martin had written a note on his own account.)
The wandering vacations abroad and in England had become a habit; and
now, all at once, there was home again. Mamma had come home, out of
pure kindness and consideration for Judith; for she did not love it, did not
want to live there, found it a heavy expense; had had, so she said, several
magnificent opportunities of selling it.
‘But it seemed only fair you should have it, this summer at any rate,’ she
said. ‘I know you feel romantic about it.’ She added, ‘I see no reason why
we shouldn’t spend a very pleasant summer together. You are very
companionable—quite well-read now and quite intelligent; and extremely
presentable, I will say. I do not intend you to stay with me permanently. I
should find it extremely tiresome to be always dragging you about with me;
and I daresay you’d dislike it too. We are quite unsuited to being together
for long; we should only irritate each other. I thought you might have made
up your mind what you wanted to do by now—’ (Mamma’s remarks had
generally a faint sting in their tails)—, ‘however, since you haven’t, I look
forward to having you with me, till the winter at least. You can decide then
what you will do, and I will help you if I can. Does this arrangement suit
you?’
The arrangement promised to work admirably. It was a step of
considerable importance, thought Judith, that Mamma should want her at
all. And even though they never spoke intimately, they were never at a loss
for topics: there were books, people, plays, and clothes to discuss. And
Mamma seemed happy in the garden, reading or wandering about; she
admitted that she loved going out with a basket and a pair of scissors to cut
flowers for all the rooms.
Surely it was going to be possible at last to establish a satisfactory
relationship; to feel deep affection as well as interest, admiration, and that
curious pang and thrill of the senses which her scent, her clothes, the texture
of her skin and hair gave you and had given you from babyhood.
Mamma finished tying the bow, remarked: ‘Well—enjoy yourself,’ in a
half-amused, half-mocking voice; and dismissed her to her picnic.
2
They were all collected at the front door as she came down the drive: all
except Roddy. They had ceased to hold terror for her now, or anguish: she
had grown up. She could observe the tall group they made without a tremor.
What a way they had of all standing together, as if to prevent a stranger
from breaking in among them! But that did not matter now. Since she had
met them again, there had been no approach to intimacy on either side, no
significant interchanges; and she had not minded, had not lain awake
feverish with doubt and longing. She was equal to them now. Her heart was
in a stupor or dead; and it seemed as if they were never going to disturb her
any more.
Mariella, Julian, Martin; but no Roddy....
Julian had come down for the day. He was more cadaverous than ever.
His face was composed of furrows, projections, and hollows, with eyes
blazing far back in his head. A lock of his thick brown hair had turned
white. He wore elegant white flannel trousers and an apricot-coloured shirt
of softest silk; and he made Martin, in blue cotton shirt and old grey
flannels, look rustic and unkempt.
‘Pile in,’ said Martin. ‘Mariella, I can’t let you drive my new car. You do
understand, don’t you, angel?’
‘I’m not at all a good driver,’ said Mariella, smiling vaguely round upon
them all. ‘I smashed Martin’s car to pieces last year, didn’t I, Martin? I ran
it into a wall. He was awfully nice about it.’
‘He’s an awfully nice man,’ said Julian, putting his hand on Martin’s
shoulder.
Martin was the only one who ever received obvious marks of affection
from the rest. They all treated him in the same way—with a sort of teasing
tenderness.
‘Judith, will you come in front with me? And Mariella and Julian, you
go there.... Yes, that’s right. Will you be comfortable? Are you all quite
happy?’ Martin was terribly anxious lest there should be a hitch. Everyone
had got to enjoy the picnic.
‘Is the food in? And the drink? Who’s got the opener? Oh, I have.
Mariella, remember that this is Julian’s Day in the Country and don’t sit
there and never open your mouth, but point out objects of interest as we go
along, and any country sight or sound you happen to notice. Are we ready
then? To Monk’s Water, isn’t it?’
The car swooped up the drive.
‘Is Martin safe?,’ cried Julian, clinging to Mariella. ‘I don’t believe he’s
safe. If he goes fast I shall jump out. Oh, let’s stay at home and have a
picnic in the garden. Don’t let’s go away from this nice house and see
objects of interest. I didn’t mean it when I suggested it. I never wanted to.
Oh, why can’t you ever see a joke any of you? Oh!...’
He subsided with a groan and shut his eyes as Martin swung round the
corner and out on to the road. Mariella was giggling like a little girl, Martin
was grinning, everybody was in the proper picnic mood. But where was
Roddy?
‘Martin, what’s happened to Roddy?’
‘Oh, Roddy,’ said Martin. ‘Poor old Roddy’s got a headache.’
‘A headache?’ Something leapt painfully in her.
‘Yes. We left him lying down. The idiot would play tennis all yesterday
in the broiling sun without a hat, and the consequence is a touch of the sun I
suppose. He kept me awake most of the night shivering and warning me he
was going to be sick. He looked awful at breakfast I must say,—bright
yellow; so we gave him an aspirin and put him on the sofa and left him.’
‘Left him, Martin? But oughtn’t someone to have stayed with him?’
‘O Lord, no. He’ll sleep it off and be all right to-morrow. His temper was
his worst trouble, so we thought we’d keep away.’
Martin laughed cheerfully, as if he were amused about Roddy’s
headache. How cruel, how callous people were! They called themselves his
friends and they left him ill and alone, and went off to enjoy themselves. He
might get worse during the day: he might be sickening for a serious illness.
Roddy’s absence and his headache mattered terribly. She realized
suddenly that it was chiefly because of seeing him that she had looked
forward to the picnic; that she had hoped to watch him, to talk to him; that
she had had a pang of dismay at his absence from the group by the door;
that she had been secretly alert for his coming, in a fever for some mention
of him until the very moment of starting; and that then a weight had
descended; and that now the day was utterly ruined.
After all, was she going to be obliged to live, to feel, to want again?
Roddy was lying in the deserted house, on the red sitting-room sofa,
with the blinds down. His forehead and closed eyes were contracted with
his headache. He tossed his head and buried it in the cushions; and his hair
got ruffled, and the cushions became more and more uncomfortable. He
swore. You came in on tip-toe and knelt down beside him.
‘Roddy, I’ve come to see you,’ you whispered.
‘Oh, Judy, I’ve got such a headache and nobody cares.’
‘Darling, I care. I’m so terribly sorry. I’ve come to make it better.’
You stroked his forehead with cool fingers, smoothed his pillows, gave
him a drink and told him to lie still.
‘That’s better. Thank you, Judy. Do stay with me.’
It was bliss looking after him. He had ceased to withdraw himself and be
proud: he was utterly dependent. You bent and kissed his forehead....
Martin broke in upon her dream, saying: ‘Quite comfortable, Judith?’