HD Gates For App

Gate 22 Grace
Harmonic gate- 12
Center- Solar Plexus
Circuit- Knowing
Zodiac- Pisces
To be socially graceful or disgraceful. Learn to trust in the timing of your moods. Honoring your moods
above social protocol. Deep listener, learn to listen before responding, in order to empower through
response to what is heard.
This gate is filled with longing, it is romantic and easily infatuated. It sees the potential for social
mutation, to relate intimately through deep attentiveness and openess, sharing spirit with others. The
other side of this gate can be deeply anti social, learn to enjoy solitude and silence, to digest what was
heard in social encounters.
When moods are not honored and timing is off, either through not listening to the other or to ones self,
this gate can appear to be very ungraceful and socially alienating. Learn to wait and listen until knowing
is clear in you. Admitting you do not know and sharing what you do.
Potential to relate on a spirit level through deep listening and honoring ones moods.
1st line- 2nd Class ticket
Subordination versus Domination. To enjoy a subordinated position or suffer the social humiliation of
trying to socially dominate.
2nd line- Charm School
Self delude or delude others with charm. Believing that charm can hide true nature or using style to
attract at the expense of awareness. Superficial charm that attracts but can lack depth.
3rd line- Enchanter

Embodied Grace versus unconscious grace. Both sides of this line carries a natural grace that has the
potential to empower social awareness, not interested in consummating union, but impacting and then
leaving. Open not intimate.
4th line- Sensitivity

Formal versus informal behavior. Tuning into the vibration of moods through tone or getting stuck in
formal social behavior.
5th line- Directness

Appropriate or inappropriate social behavior. To release social protocol and follow ones own mood
despite projections.
6th line- Maturity
The potential for new social experience that. Paying attention to the spirit of the other so deeply that it
brings social mutation. Crisis that creates a new way of relating on a spirit level.
Gate 47 Oppression
Harmonic gate- 64
Center- Ajna
Circuit- Sensing
Zodiac- Virgo
To make sense of the continuity of the human experience. The inherently oppressive nature of looking
for understanding from the past. To see that to make sense out of something is to look to blame, to seek
the cause. Is it the environment, feelings, thoughts, me, you, parents, government, religion, ideas etc.
To see the futility of trying to prove anything, to make sense of the random images in the mind. Psychic
potential, to see what will happen before it does but to not be able to make sense of it at the time.
Making sense of experience after it has occured.
A deep recognition that oppression is part of the human experience, that the mind will always oppress.
To be able to recognize and deal with other peoples shadows, to see it as an aspect of mind trying to
understand. Potential to transcend oppression through accepting that life does not need to contain
meaning to be purposeful.
Realization can come when no longer looking for understanding in order to escape anxiety or depression,
but trusting the process, when no longer taking the mind so personally but see it as a tool to penetrate
understanding of what it means to be human and alive.
1st line Taking stock
ability to get rid of oppression by examining negative thoughts, or feeling like oppression is an entirely
external cause.
2nd line Ambition
Drive or indecision in the face of oppression. Stay busy in the present and make money for mental
health. Not knowing what activity is healthy. Can't look within for realization.
3rd line Self Oppression
Realizing that the mind has an oppressive nature. Recognizing that everything is ok in the moment by
moment of acting correctly or oppression that can destroy self worth. Really important to recognize
what is fixed and true in the rest of the chart.
4th line Repression

Maintaining the identity or not in face of external oppression. Fixed on the one thing it cannot
understand. Obsessed with finding someone to fix something in them.
5th line The Saint
Compassion through maintaining harmony with forces that oppress while offering aid to those
oppressed. No binary. To enjoy life despite its oppressive nature.
6th line Futility
The strength of spirit to survive oppression. Deep anxiety and fear that oppression will never be relieved.
Recognizing that life is inherently meaningless and therefore no reason to complain. Sensitive to those
who do, conserve energy wisely.
22 min in session 10 rewatch
The deeper into this program I went, the more it was shown to me, how mysterious and incredible this
system of human design is. I thought I understood its significance, but I barely grasped 1% of what this
system can show and how it can reshape ones entire life. How it can literally reshape not only how I
move in and see the world, but how I actually think about life and myself.
To have the privilege of being able to come week after week with the most mundane or profound
questions about my own life and how I relate to others; and to be shown again and again through my
chart, how the mind gets caught and hooked in places that are not the truth of who I am. To not punish
my mind for living out its mechanically fixed nature, but to also not give it total power over my life and
awareness.
Alok, with incredible mastery, conveyed the simplest surface level truths of what it is to be human, while
continuing to penetrate layer after layer of mind, often even answering questions unspoken, as if tuned
into what is really being asked. Showing just how the surface of life can be so deep, so dense. It really
isn't something you can read and understand in a book, but can only be shown to the mind one layer at a
time. I can say with complete sincerity, he brought me back to life, back home to myself, to what is alive
and passionate in me, as the layers of my conditioning were revealed to me and time and again, my spirit
felt lighter and lighter, and all that was left were the most simple and profound truths of my nature, so
obvious I keep missing it or condemning it.
I see now that the part of me always seeking truth and new experience is just how my mind functions, its
mechanical nature. That mind is only one pathway to awareness and that there is a part of me already at
peace and profoundly connected and aware of the physical intelligence of life in every moment. That
openness is not something to fear but windows to the richness of a human experience.
I give Alok the highest recommendation, he really is a master craftsman/artist of the human psyche. A
skillful surgeon of the mind, he literally cuts away layers of conditioning with such incredible precision, it
becomes a work of art and you his masterpiece.
As someone who is a seeker of truth and enriched experience yet to be disappointed time and again
when a new belief, way of seeing things, would quickly just feed into my mental oppression, I see I was
trying to overcome my openness by finding something secure and solid.
why do i take in things I am not in the mood for, food, people, places, etc. When I think I am bored it is
perhaps because I am overly saturated, I imagine releasing people, at least for the day, from my psyche,
from my mind, and this nourishing emptiness fills me.
When I think I need love,

as if it is something outside and beyond me,
I let in so much crap thinking,
maybe I will find love here.
If I search long and hard enough
I will find the diamond in this pile of shit.
Love is a feeling, a space,

that shows up at the door
when you stop searching.
The space between things,
between you and I,
between thoughts and desires and emotions.
The knowing that can arise
when you accept the unknown.
Knowing what I do not need

feels even better then needing to know
what I do need. For...
Less is more,
simple is better.
Follow my appetite
one thing at a time,
a slice of mango,
a sip of coconut water,
a lazy afternoon with a friend.
Until I am full and no more.
No matter how delicious
I reach a point.
Where what would truly nourish me
is myself alone in space and time.
To digest, to empty out,
to take a dip in the void of life.
Refreshed in the space without space.
My mind is renewed, my body softens,
like a baby innocent and open,
but tempered with experience that continously
shapes and molds me.
Into what?
I do not know.
Something not quite human nor animal nor spirit.
A freak of nature I suppose.
That rides the waves of her moods
as if nothing else existed.
that makes sense. yea I hate the guilt trip thing, glad you pointed it out though.
It is so easy for me to take on people stuff. I started feeling like no one wanted to be around me after I
started sitting with you!!
a new fb friend was reading some of my old posts. He said I could be good at freelance content creating.
My first thought is I can't do that. why do I have no self confidence ;(
To not punish my mind for living out its mechanical nature, but to also not give it total power over my life
and my perception.
I know you said I am a manifestor and I can just go get a job if I need one. But I am also in a foriegn
country and would love to be able to stay for longer. It feels like I need to use my mind for work and yet
my mind seems to keep screwing up making money. I just fell for a scam and lost some of the little
money I have in crypto. I feel like my mind can be so naive and idealistic sometimes. I have worked with
my body too, doing farm work and such and that can be exhausting. I just don't know why it feels so hard
to make money, especially online when so many people are doing it. I just feel so victimized right now by
the material plane. Just very frustrated and everything. I try to be strategic about making more money
and I seem to just mess up. Then I end up having to work miminum wage exhausting jobs when I do run
out of money. I am looking online to see if I can figure out how to do data entry or transcribing work but
I just find myself getting more and more frustrated and stressed. I just want to be at peace to
experiment/experience with my design. I am trying not to punish my mind that is already punishing
itself.
Wow it is so obvious now. It was so obvious that it was too obvious. I couldn't see it because it was so in
my face, I couldn't see beyond it or something. I am driving home and then I have the thought to stop at
this one place because I may run into a friendly face. I saw my open G so clearly, looking for love in
another. I see my idealistic mind too, hoping to meet someone new, but really hoping to meet someone
that fulfills an ideal in my mind.
It is not like I can't meet someone new or run into someone I know and enjoy such meetings. But when
my mind is searching for it, I am already lost. Lost in the mechanics of my Open G and my romantically
inclined searching mind. When I do have moments of actually connecting with someone, it is not
because I am searching for it. Then I can actually enjoy such an experience and have the potential of true
communion, because I am centered and aligned in my own form, and not on a mental quest for the
impossible.
7/16
I think there is a part of me that likes to be bad, to be irresponsible and just have fun. Perhaps that part
I think there is this kinky part of me that enjoys being financially irresponsible, like I just want to be bad
and have fun and not have a care in the world. Like part of me is so tired of trying to be responsible and
caring so much. My family takes money soooo seriously. My mother stresses and yells at my dad all the
time about it. My dad hides his debt of it and his constantly anxious about it, my sister criticizes me
about spending money I don't have. I am barely paying off the minimum payments for credit cards and
kind of want to just say fuck it. I am living in a foreign country so its not so easy to make money unless I
figure out a way to do it online.
Seems when I am feeling seperation, when I don't know, it is not that something bad has happen, it is so
that something can mutate, like an aspect of myself, of my awareness. That I am facing a part of myself
that doesn't see how it fits, that doesn't know how it is part of the totality. So this piece for example
thought it had to prove its value, its existence, thus seperating me from other forms. The pain of this
seperation was pointing me home, I just couldn't find my way back until I stopped trying to know. Then it
was like the veil lifted from my eyes and I saw how I completely bulldozed someone else communicating
and didn't even try to understand them, to receive them. So I did, I took them in, I breathed them in, and
I began to see just how charming and seductive, it is to listen. People love it. When before it felt like I
kept pushing people away and couldn't see why. Then I am driving home and I see people and instead of
seeing them as a potential enemy, I am in awe at the mystery of humans, all these people living their
lives around me and I know nothing of it, of their secrets, longings, fears. Listening is like being touched,
it is intimately receiving another, naked of all perceptions, agenda, self.
I am not love, I am the passenger watching the movie of love.
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Unless I truly have an appetite for something in the moment, anything I desire is just part of the mental
illusions that I have digested from others.
Life is a mystery, but sometimes its nice to have moments of clarity.

Sometimes life is a magical, we just have to be willing to open our eyes to more than our own stories.
Letter to Alok
at one point you said something about material laws and then we got interupted and I feel like there was
more there. I guess I don't understand such a thing. To me the material, especially the financial world
seems so random and chaotic. How some are born wealthy, how some get lucky and win big, how some
struggle their whole life and never get beyond where they are, no matter how hard they work or
intelligent. Then there are all these stories, its because I have negative money beliefs, its my relationship
with the masculine, my father, I just need the right mindset, build up my energy container, and on and
on. . I just feel so angry when it comes to money, to watching my mom verbaling abusing my dad all the
time for not making enough, doing enough. To see how the rich blatantly and without remorse take
advantage of the poor and naive. Then you try to tell me there are material laws, that there is a logic to
how money flows and I just have a hard time buying that, stomaching that. Also instead of being given
practical advice growing up; like develop a skill and knowing it doesn't have to be what you do the rest of
your life but it will make things easier. Instead I was fed this crap about going to college, picking the
major that will determine the course of my life and career. Of course I was going to rebel against all that.
Then having recently made thousands in a day by luckly investing in the right thing but not having the
common sense to take it out that day and to lose most of it. To then the idea of going back to minimum
wage jobs. Ok there are some jobs I don't mind doing, but I really don't want to leave the country I am in
and no idea how to make money online and people make it look so easy.
connect to my ambition? 54?
Letter to Parents
Ok feel free to be disappointed in me and angry and upset because I don't live up to some ideal daughter
you have, someone you expect to what, have it more together than you guys. I'm sorry if I don't want to
spend my life always stressing and worrying about money. I'd rather be a bit irresponsible and trust
everything will work out because in the end it always does or I end up dead in a gutter, which is still
better than living my life in stress and fear. Not that I will end up that way but just saying. It's not like a
have a family I need to take care of and I don't plan on that for a long time if ever. So let me fuck up,
make mistakes, and do life my way. Right now I am choosing to stay where I am because my spirit feels
so incredibly alive here, rather than focusing on paying off my debt.
QUestions for ALok
I think there is this kinky part of me that enjoys being financially irresponsible, like I just want to be bad
and have fun and not have a care in the world. Like part of me is so tired of trying to be responsible and
caring so much. My family takes money soooo seriously. My mother stresses and yells at my dad all the
time about it. My dad hides his debt of it and his constantly anxious about it, my sister criticizes me
about spending money I don't have. I am barely paying off the minimum payments for credit cards and
kind of want to just say fuck it. I am living in a foreign country so its not so easy to make money unless I
figure out a way to do it online.
I think my body believes what my mind tells it
trying to prove ourselves makes us so blind to the other.
So it's about getting ourselves to trust something other than mind that really allows us a chance to
surrender and let go?
I have a friend who compromises me a lot, including head and root, and has one dominance 35 36. We
have an electromagnatic channel of struggle, both open spleen. But for some reason I have a hard time
saying no to him and he can be a little bossy with me. Though I do enjoy when we struggle, he likes to
get me to struggle with him and it brings out this obstinate side of myself that I think I haven't really
been comfortable with. But most of the time with him it feels disempowering and even boring, more and
more. Maybe because I am not entering the interaction correctly a lot of the time. But I also keep
running into this person too accidently even when I try to take space from them. Maybe also because
my father has the full channel of struggle, only compromise channel between us. Though it always
seemed my mother was the more overt struggler. Maybe because he dominated her with that channel.
So I often feel overpowered by struggle and now here is this person who I have this nice electromagnatic
channel of struggle with and yet he compromises me in so many other ways. It seems potentially healthy
connection but I often feel so much uncomfortable tension in my body around him and I'm getting pretty
bored of him.
I have a friend who compromises me alot including head and root. We have an electromagnetic channel
of struggle, both open spleen. But I find it hard to say no to him sometimes and he can be kind of bossy.
The struggle feels empowering at times bringing out the fighter in me. But lately the more I spend time
with him, the more disempowering and boring it becomes and the more I want space from him. But we
keep running into each other too. Maybe it can only be empowering when I enter interaction with him
correctly? Have to learn to say no too? Sometimes the connection feels healthy but mostly I feel too
tense in my body around him.
My fathers only compromise with me is the channel of struggle too, not sure how it takes care of the
"problem" of my 38 and open spleen though, maybe because I I can let him struggle and I don't have to.
I used to think he was a bit of a pushover, my mother amplifying his struggle perhaps. Is it good for me to
struggle with a 28 gate then, can that help decondition some of that heavy compromise of taking on my
fathers struggle or how I feel like he didn't fight for me as a child, protecting me from my mothers anger?
That I need to embrace my own inner fighter?
I have a friend who has the open spleen and 28th gate and I am seeing that struggling with him can feel
empowering. Especially because my father had the whole channel. So I imagine it is good for me to
struggle with a 28 gate then, can that help decondition some of that heavy compromise of taking on my
fathers struggle or how I feel like he didn't fight for me as a child, protecting me from my mothers anger?
Honestly I just felt like he was a pushover. Maybe I just need to embrace my own inner fighter? Also this
friend compromises me a lot, including head and root, and its quickly feeling like too much for me. Can I
be friends with someone that compromises me so much or as long as I initiate correctly with him I can
have healthy bouts of struggle? I also find it oddly hard to say no to him sometimes.
How do I deal with anger? I don't feel angry at a specific person, maybe life, my own powerlessness,
fears of not having or being enough, I tried to yell into the ocean, into my pillow, create a video for
myself expressing it. But its still there, this intense ball of energy in my solar plexus. Maybe just time and
patience with myself too? Just let go of the story around it as well?
You said at one point I believe, that if by the end of Living Your Design, if you don't see yourself as a
different person, you've missed the point, something like that. I get that we identify with what we are
not. But a lot of what you said about my design, I also already recognize on one level as myself, so did I
miss the point?
So much inner work is just mind interfering or trying to interfere with the form it seems. I remember
having a claroyvoyant teacher who taught to imagine a ladder from the mind down into the body in
order to descend into the underworld/innerworld. But the more I recognize that my mind is in my head,
meaning the mechanic that makes lots of noise and uses words. The more the tension releases from my
body. My mind isn't designed to understand or interfere with my emotional awareness, just to convey
whatever messages feel clear. Its like a post office, is a post office meant to read and analyze every letter,
no. It is just a place where messages come and go.
7/23
I noticed that my mind is always reacting to my thoughts, its not about stopping myself from being
reactive, but as soon as I stop reacting to my reactive nature, I stop giving my mind power. My mind then
says, why aren't you reacting, do you not love me??
7/25
Sadness is a current
that washes away the past
no choice but to let go
into the unknown.
The grief of releasing the known,
the joy and pain of it all.
The mind detests sadness,

because it likes to grip
to what it knows,
to shield itself from
the void of openness,
Its sharp teeth only a mirage.
Mind's fears creating monsters
of what lies beyond it's boundaries.
Sadness is the gatekeeper

to the underworld.
Riches laying beneath our fantasies,
our hopes and dreams
tainted with the past,
same old stories poisoned with old expectation.
No matter how many times we hope for a different outcome,
we our only ever left with the ashes
of our dreams.
Even dreams come true do not last,
so why hold on to what has past.
Sadness takes us below the surface,

away from the fantasies of the mind
to what is true and real in us,
to what is present,
to the depths of your soul.
Opening you to receive
your own life force.
Ever pulsing, moving, flowing.
it may not be what you expect

or wish for.
But it is raw presence and it is alive.
You are alive,
not caught in dashed dreams,
in love lost or withheld.
How do you hold yourself back from love?

by looking for the ideal in an image
that always fails because she too is human.
Or forgetting that you are love,
but that love can only be felt
when you remember what is true,
when you cease to hold on to an image of self,
but feel the flame of your own truth,
even what it seems to stand alone in darkness
that consumes.
She is just sadness.
Let her in and she will wake you from the dream,
She will bring you home to what is true,
back to the reality of your form,
that holds you together in this illusion of life.
7/25
Self acceptance. Why is it so hard to accept oneself, what is getting in the way of complete total rapture
of embracing all that is
thanks for the company yesterday. You're really soothing to my spirit!
Strangely enough you showed up in my dream last night. Bill and Lana and my parents were there too. It
was all very odd. We went to go see Wimbledon
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It is just me and my relationship to the totality, or maybe it is just the totality. No need for judgement, for
moralistic musings, for righting some wrong I feel I have done, for beating myself up for life happening,
for the clumsy way the material world rushes at me and I am holding on for dear life, trying to navigate it
at all. Letting go the preconceived notions that there is a right way to live, that there is a moralistic way
to be. Letting go of needing to answer to anyone but the truth of my own being. My mind is crowded
with civilization's demands of what makes a good human. I let go of this demand on myself to be
anything other than what I am being. This inner conflict, this struggle to resolve some unresolvable inner
dillema. As if I am at an eternal war with myself, having fought myself for as long as I've been a self. It is
an old game, a story for children who do not know better. It is time to put aside, to stop trying to live up
to some expectation of what it is to be human. To be good, kind, compassionate. Instead I want to
accept all of me, the good bad and ugly. For true ugliness is rejecting oneself to feed someone elses ego.
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Renew VISA
call unemployment about backpay
start making minimum payments
check kucoin login
BUY a phone (maybe iphone)
pay Mark (figure out how much I owe him)
Obsession with time,

as if we are measured in minutes
but descend into the ocean void
and time slips away.
How long have you been...

when will you get...
remember when...
it should take you...
why are you taking so long???
None of that is real.

In these moments between time,
In the cracks between,
I discover myself,
I dissolve myself,
being born from nothing,
as if taking a breathe for the first time,
as if taking breaths forever.
But so much SELF,

isn't it about transcending the personality?
Ok so replace the illusion of self with the illusion of the other,
same thing.
Better to see the world with your own eyes,
then assume you are beyond self
only to make the concept of others,
the playground of your consciousness.
Playing make believe that the cloak it wears
is transcendence.
ABC first session 7/30/2021
we are not educated to trust our senses, to trust ourselves. we are educate to compare ourselves to an
ideal and try to become something better than ourselves.
if you don't know yourself you don't see how other people are mirroring you. what you are consciously
putting out and what you are not aware of putting out. you don't see yourself the way you see other
people. what is unconscious about
so how you see other people is how they see what is unconscious in you.
my body restrains me on the inside from others (but I feel open to everything inside)
Im afraid if I have no desires, I will not be human and be unfulfilled
HD is a tool for self observation
nature is not about artificial patterns
relisten to last 20 minutes of first session
your own idea of people/humans (collective circuit)
That makes sense, I was listening to my friend the other day and then I saw it, how he often feels he
needs to defend his views in order to know himself or something. When I said that, it was like his mind
stopped opposing for a moment. I wonder if the right mind doesn't need a map in the same way the left
does? Though I do feel my resistance to new ways of thinking, like with this current course.
I see now what you mean about innocence and the this and that. I see how its about nuetrality, like great
if X happens and great if X doesn't happen. That isn't the point, if what I think I want happens or not, the
point is peace, awareness, presence, correctness, acceptence. When we think of our authority as a
decision making tool, we still see it as something that is deciding between this and that. But it really isn't
so clear cut. It is much more nuanced than that.
the closer I can get to neutrality, to the this and that no longer holding sway over me, the more peace
washes over me and I start to see more clearly. Discernment is not about choosing the good over the
bad. It is more nuanced than that. It is awareness without judgement, it is seeing beyond my own
judgements to the fears and insecurities behind them. It is allowing myself to judge and not condemning
myself, so that I begin to see it is ok to not like something. That I do not need a moral reason for why
something appeals to me or not. That what I like or don't like can shift with time. That it isn't about that,
it is about how I see not what I do. That movement is not merely a physical thing but moving through
space while not reaching for the things around me but enjoying my own movie, changes everything. As I
watch more and more with nuetral eyes, I start to see that my mind is beating up on NOTHING, there is
nothing there. I keep coming back to this nothingness.
ABC 7/31
"not looking and not avoiding, just doing what needs to be done" - knowing circuit
"the moment you give up the need to prove the value of your individual freakiness, the moment you get
to start enjoying it"
"impose conclusions on others"
when you speak of hd knowledge it just feels like different facets of the emptiness
how do you keep from rejecting or identifying with what arises? You witness, feel, experience it while
maintaining the awareness that you are the space around it, literally holding space for yourself.
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not knowing what my role is in a penta, my family has no material gates. I don't know how to be in
groups, sometimes I feel like I am interrupting something when I initiate myself with a group.
end of first video of questions for cognition
last half hour cogntion video, first one
The simpler the food I eat, the more clear I feel. Yet sometimes my minds cravings get the best of me.
Here I am eating pizza, dairy and gluten, two things I try not to eat. But sometimes I just surrender to
these forces of desire, what to do. And in that moment of taking the bite and tasting it, I recognize, taste
is just an illusion. But if taste (this intense sensory experience) is just an illusion, then what is "real"? It's
not like I feel like I need to transcend or escape illusion, but I want to taste the purity of life, that endless
flow of information, call it love, life force, neutrino ocean; the distlled essence of life. Not because I have
a problem with life's illusion. But I get tired of chasing and seeking, the next experience, a new flavor,
person, feeling.
9/11/2021
When I stop beating myself up for feeling tense,

a layer drops away and I am blown away by the intensity of feeling.
So much passion, so much emotion, I want to die and laugh and sing and weep and scream all at the
same time.
How can one body experience this much energy, feel this much and not combust.
No wonder I am afraid to let go, to feel, to drop the shield of my mind and ride the waves of energy that
course through me.
I almost want to laugh at those who only understand this energy as sexual, that tantra is about sex.
Not that I have studied tantra. But my sense is that when energy is accepted, integrated, allowed,
without condemnation, without trying to fix, change, make it something other than it is in the moment.
That this is tantra. That when energy actually is allowed to move through the body, that is love.
That love is energy in motion, and that all emotional experiences is a form of love, because it is free to
flow, free to be experienced. So I can experience joy pain pleasure sadness and I have so much love for
all of it, because I am alive and I can feel.
Perhaps what I am describing is more passion than love. But love feels like the aspect that is willing to be
with the truth of the moment, to allow life to move through oneself, where awareness is connected to
the truth of the body.
Her milky smooth skin

brings out the tenderness in me.
I never thought I would be so afraid of losing something,
until she came into my life.
It is like my heart skips out the door,
when she walks out,
to go play in the meadow with the butterflies,
The blue yellow green red symphony
dancing among the red poppys.
Flowers of death, they are called.
It should've warned me,
I should've never let her leave.
For one fateful day,

the earth swallowed her whole.
The sky turned black and blue,
As I let my rage get the best of me.
I decimated towns with floods and winds.
For a mother's rage knows no bounds.
My brothers betrayed me,

plotted the kidnapping of my only child.
My love, my everything, my world.
I searched the world for her,
food turned to dust in my mouth
so I lived as a begger.
While spring froze over and
ice covered the world.

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1st line Taking stock

2nd line Ambition

3rd line Self Oppression

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5th line The Saint

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When I think I need love,

Love is a feeling, a space,

Knowing what I do not need

I am not love, I am the passenger watching the movie of love.

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