For many years, I've been a very curious person. I've learned many things and done many things that I found interesting: science, art, computer science. Like a voracious animal, my mind has consumed all kinds of information, eager to understand everything around me and everything I experienced. Soldier, doctor, monk, musician, hacker, etc. Until one day, staring at the ceiling in the bed of a psychiatric hospital where I was hospitalized, I asked myself: "How did I get here, to this?" And that night, 17 years ago, another part of my life began. I began to die and be reborn, to discover how and why I had gotten to that situation. I discovered that I have high abilities, that I am bipolar and autistic. But for every limitation I discovered, I also discovered the limitations of the world and the human society in which I live.
Today I know that nothing has meaning and that life doesn't need to have it; that what many see as progress and evolution, I see as barbarism and brutality, and that humanity is the stupidest species on the planet, not the best. I don't have goals anymore, I don't need them. But I do have a compass, a kind of direction without needing to get anywhere. To live as peacefully as possible and need very little, being aware and critical of everything. A peaceful dwelling isn't just my house tucked away in the middle of the city, but also a peaceful inner life, without the noise and clamor of the lives of "normal people," without socializing more than the bare minimum necessary for survival. And this isn't because of autism; it's because of a kind of purge, a psycho-spiritual hygiene. The forced social being I often was is dying. Until a few years ago, there wasn't so much exposure and socialization; it wasn't mandatory or essential to living and working in this world. With all the technology and supposed progress, there is increasing misery, hunger, war, and violence everywhere, which makes me think that it's more of a trigger than a solution.
Being overly intelligent and being autistic is a fatal combination that guarantees the death of the social being and the development of the inner hermit that every gifted autistic person potentially is. I'm slowly retreating from the world to my quiet inner abode, where a very narrow door filters who enters and who doesn't. Just my small family group and a minimum of kindness toward a few people is more than enough.
I thought a lot about sharing what I'd learned, about helping, but I realized that idealism and the romanticization of compassion are useless when the sufferer doesn't understand the root of their problems and isn't willing to do their part. Human nature is to be a soulless son of a bitch, held back only by fear of punishment, whether from human law itself or some imagined deity. It's better to live in full awareness of the suchness of things. I myself can be a compassionate genius and in the next moment break your head for being rude and treating me badly.
We live in the worst of all possible worlds, and with that, we are warned that the worst can always happen. Knowing that, any good thing that comes or appears is a gift, a bonus track.
I don't give unsolicited advice, but if you want some, it's this: "Step away from the world as it is and watch it burn from a distance."
Went over my Steam collection thinking about which games I want to play again. Tested three of them and realized that even though I liked them all, didn't feel like playing more. The spark wasn't there. Yet another area in my life where I don't seem to get kicks from whatever I liked before.
I started thinking and realized there are only a handful of games I've come back to in my 35 or so years of gaming. The only exception is GeneRally and its sequel which have remained a stable favorite but even there the biggest reason has been creating new tracks.
With music, I've managed to internalize that once I've really gotten into something, I will burn through it and won't come back. I need to understand this is likely true in every media.
Instead of looking back, I should concentrate in what is front of my eyes. Goes nicely together with my Zen Buddhist journey.
The Great #Blocklists to prevent all Mozilla spying and data collecting efforts on their users. @Adguard#Zen@SwitchHosts@Hosty@Opensnitch@personelDNSfilter@Netguard@AdawayuBlockOrigin#mozillaBlocker
Za 3 miesiace konczy mi sie subskrypcja na #ClickUp i...
dzisiaj podjalem decyzje, ze przenosze sie na #Obsidian
Wiekszosc notatek juz przenioslem, znalazlem #rozszerzenie do #Zen, ktore zapisuje zakladki, ostatnie co mi zostalo to opracowac system list ToDo, ktory mam w #ClickUp.ie
Czemu przenosiny? Bo tworcy CU nadal olewaja #Firefox.a i jemu podobne, a po drugie 80 dolarow... za plan "sync" w Obsidianie zaplace polowe tego 🤷♂️ Poza tym, pora sie w koncu nauczyc #Markdown.a, ten system wewnetrznego linkowania notatek jest bardzo kuszacy ;)
The cofounder of the #Zen#Hospice Project and pioneer behind the compassionate care movement shares an inspiring exploration of the lessons dying has to offer about living a fulfilling life. Death is not waiting for us at the end of a long road. #Death is always with us, in the marrow of every passing moment #Bookstodon#Dharma#RecoveryDharma @dharma bookstodon group
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I guess you don't say that Google Chrome is also dead .
#ArcBrowser came to the "stable" state, that's why it slowed down in updates that change UI features or other visible changes. But my problem with it that couple of those features aren't polished enough, like changing tabs with hotkeys when sidebar is hidden.
Still my main browser for now.
#Zen is too buggy and Mozilla web engine underperforms on MacOs imo, while #Vivaldi has too many features I'm never going to use
Czy jak skopiuje sobie katalog profilu w #Zen (#Firefox.ie) z wersji Windowsowej do Linuxowej to to zadziala?
I gdzie mam go skopiowac, biorac pod uwage, ze Zen na #Linux.a jest jako #AppImage? 😅
Film, television and popular fiction have long exploited the image of the serene Buddhist monk who is master of the deadly craft of hand-to-hand combat. While the media overly romanticizes the relationship between a philosophy of non-violence and the art of fighting, When Buddhists Attack shows this link to be nevertheless real, even natural.
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