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He betrayed me. Now he's gone.
I thought I loved my uncle. He doesn't know what love is.
He only wants to use me.
Who's left?
Francine Pascal
FRANCINE PASCAL, creator of the Sweet Valley High series, was one of the world's most popular fiction writers for teenagers and the author of several bestselling novels, including My Mother Was Never A Kid, My First Love and Other Disasters, as well as the series Fearless. Her adult novels include Save Johanna! and If Wishes Were Horses, and the nonfiction book, The Strange Case of Patty Hearst. As a theater lover and Tony voter, Ms. Pascal sat on the Advisory Board of The American Theatre Wing. Her favorite sport was a monthly poker game. She died in 2024 at the age of ninety-two.
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Love - Francine Pascal
He doesn’t know I know, she realized. He must have not seen her the night before. He was still trying to con her with his cocky Mr. Nice Guy act. For all she know, Loki was waiting just out in the hall. They probably thought they had her cornered then and there—off guard and by surprise. But they were very, very wrong.
Gaia, are you—
I know, Josh,
Gaia interrupted him coldly. I know who you work for, and I know what you’ve been doing to Sam, so you can just drop it.
Josh’s grin returned. Then he shrugged. Okay,
he said simply. Have it your way.
He pulled his right hand from behind his back—revealing a nine-millimeter pistol with a four-inch silencer. This is easier, anyway. I don’t have to make nice to such a ball-busting bitch. It’s harder than you think.
Gaia’s leg muscles tensed. Adrenaline shot through, pumping her body with the electric, pre-combat fizz. She welcomed the sensation. It was like a taste of something sweet and long-forgotten. She could kick that gun away from him and snap his neck in two before he even had a chance to exhale a dying breath.
I wouldn’t try anything,
Josh added calmly.
As if on cue, the suite door came crashing open, and three burly men burst into the common room— all clad in black, all brandishing pistols. Before Gaia could make a move, the three muzzles were aimed at her head.
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FRANCINE PASCAL
To Anita Elliot Anastasi
This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events or locales or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
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GAIA
I’ve realized that I can sum up my entire life with the statement of two very simple facts. And when presented together, they are so ironically juxtaposed that they are either sickening or hysterical. They are proof positive—as if proof were needed—that my life is nothing more than somebody’s cruel joke.
Fact #1: I am fearless.
Fact #2: I am always running away.
There you have it: the sum total of my existence, Gaia Moore in a hermetically sealed nutshell. Pathetic, isn’t it? A fearless girl who runs away? It’s on par with being a stunningly beautiful girl who has to wear a paper bag over her head or an investment-banking billionaire who lives in a trailer park.
But let’s be clear here. True, I can’t feel fear. This is not the same thing as being brave, however. It’s not like I see myself in some Roman epic, weighted down with a hundred pounds of armor, taking on fifty lions or re-creating a glorious battle. I’m no gladiator. Gladiators were brave. Because being brave necessarily means being able to experience fear and then being able to overcome it.
But then, that’s my problem, isn’t it? I’m not just fearless. I’m braveless,
too.
At the very least, you’d think this little fluke in my genetics would enable me to stay in one place for a while. If I’m not afraid of anything, why the hell should I ever have to run away, right? To that end, fearlessness shouldn’t prevent me from making a true friend, either. Or actually keeping a true friend. Or falling in love and staying in love. I should be able to stand my ground. I should be able to face every single crisis and tragedy in my life with complete confidence. Running away is for weak-minded cowards.
I tell myself these things. And then I tell myself: bullshit.
Because when you get right down to it, going on the run isn’t about fear or bravery. It’s about the one principle that applies to every creature on this planet—from the bravest lion to the lowest forms of life, like my father or cockroaches: survival. Self-protection and self-preservation. Even the most fearless animals have a survival instinct. It’s what enables them to perpetuate their species. To multiply.
And I can’t be any different.
Although I have to be honest: I don’t really see myself multiplying in the future. In fact, I’d say the odds of my extinction are increasing by the hour.
all that blood
Add to that his hungry, dark yellow grin, and you had the world’s most foul-smelling vampire pervert.
I NEED TO FOCUS.
Trail of Bread Crumbs
Thoughts were smeared like tar inside Gaia’s head. Shapeless ideas were flooding her mind, melting together too quickly and hardening into an impenetrable black sludge.
Where am I? What do I know for sure?
The subway car lurched suddenly, taking a wicked turn at a high speed. Gaia bumped her head against the Plexiglas window behind her. She tried to steady herself on the hard, burnt orange plastic seat. The sound of screeching metal needled her eardrums. A thick film of sweat drenched her back, shoulders, and face—causing her brown dress to stick to her like a wet tissue. Her hair was in clumps, glued to the sides of her cheeks.
She had no idea how long she’d been on the deserted train. She wasn’t even sure which line this was. She knew she was waking up from one of her postbattle blackouts.
But how long ago had she slipped into unconsciousness?
And where the hell was she, anyway?
She looked across the aisle at the bold white letter encased in a bright blue circle. C. I’m on the C train. Somewhere in Brooklyn, I think. Need to focus. Her eyes wandered to the mirrored siding of the train’s interior. Her muscles tensed. This in no way helped her to focus. Quite the opposite. Her reflection was divided into blurry stripes: some clear, some opaque, all completely distorted—a cubist painter’s urban nightmare. Finding herself in the reflection was next to impossible.
Okay. She had to start from the present and work backward. That was the only solution: to follow the trail of disjointed memories back through time…like Hansel and Gretel. And bread crumb by bread crumb, the recent past began to materialize. A flash of running. The terrified look on Sam’s face as they fled the Bubble Lounge. Sam’s RA, Josh. Then there were Sam’s insistent warnings—forcing Gaia to run for safety through a maze of back alleys.
Each new memory was like a sharp kick to the abdomen—even more painful as it settled into her mind’s eye, making it unexpectedly difficult to breathe. She and Sam had barely spoken a word in their last moment together on the street. Just a few sentences and one kiss. There hadn’t been time for anything else. But finally Gaia understood. Sam hadn’t turned on her, as she’d thought for so long. Someone had taken control of him. And judging from the look in his eyes at dinner, that someone
hadn’t just taken control; they’d scared him in a way that had changed him, maybe for good. There wasn’t even a word for that kind of fear. Not one that Gaia knew, anyway.
But one thing was certain. Whoever had chased Gaia down those side streets must have been terrorizing Sam for months—all those months that he’d been such a bleary-eyed ghost of himself. Months. And all to get to her. Sam had said as much on the street: It’s you they’re after.
Her stomach twisted. She cringed in shame. She had brought Sam into her relentlessly miserable existence. And for that, he’d been—well, who knew what? Blackmailed? Tortured? Worse? All for loving and trusting her. All for wanting to protect her.
She sniffed, her eyes flashing back to the dark subway tunnel. She was to blame. For everything. For all the changes in Sam, for the stilted conversations and fights, for all that mistrust and poisonous distance. It was all her fault. Right from the start. Even their breakup, even the fact that she no longer loved him the way she once had…yes, that was her fault as well. The thought of it was almost too twisted to face—too complicated and tragic even for her. The guilt was a hydraulic press. It crushed her entire body from both sides. She knew she still loved him somehow, in some way, but it would never be the same as it was. They had successfully destroyed that original emotion. Whoever the hell they were.
But at least now they’ll leave him alone, she tried to reassure herself. The train slowed. She nodded and wrapped her arms tightly around her chest for warmth. That was the only solace she could take from this nightmare: Sam would finally be able to start living his life again, without the curse of Gaia Moore hanging over his head. They couldn’t possibly use him now that Gaia knew the truth—that they had used him to get to her. He served no purpose anymore. They’d failed.
She nodded again. She could take some comfort in that. But that feeling was quickly muted by flashes of disturbingly bleak violence. More images slashed through her mind like jump cuts from some disgusting gory movie. Those two thugs who had followed her onto the train…
All that blood.
The fight had taken place on the A train; she remembered that. She must have switched over to the C right before she passed out. Bile rose in her throat. She’d blown open one of the guys’ kneecaps with his own gun. But he had actually offed himself before she could get any information out of him. He must have known he was as good as dead after screwing up Gaia’s capture. Which meant, of course, that death was preferable to actually facing his boss and admitting failure.
And that’s when it hit her—as hard and fast as the gunshot to his knee. She slid back on her seat and crammed the palms of her hands into her eye sockets, trying to jump-start her dormant brain cells. Somehow she had skipped over the abundantly obvious. She’d been too distracted by the chaos and blood on that train.
The man’s boss was Loki.
Of course. Only he could be so fearsome, so intimidating. This was how Loki operated— using people like chess pieces in his own vast game, every little maneuver designed to inch closer to his opposing queen. Which would be her. But why? Why was he doing this? What could make him despise Gaia so much that he would go to such lengths to destroy not just her life, but any life she touched?
And more important: who was Loki?
If she listened to her uncle, it was her father. If she listened to her father, it was her uncle. It was an endless game of tug-of-war between two men she could never trust. Sam’s strange words at dinner came floating back to her: all that stuff about what a great guy her uncle was. Did that mean Oliver was Loki? Was he feeding Sam the lines? Forcing Sam into luring Gaia to him? Or maybe they weren’t lines. If her father was Loki, then maybe Oliver was trying to send her a message through Sam—trying to get her safely away from her father. Maybe her father had never even left New York. He could have just gone into hiding, watching her, waiting for the right moment to strike. And what if her father was the one who was talking to Sam? How would Sam even know the difference? The endless questions were burning holes into the lining of Gaia’s skull.
But her thoughts were cut short as the train pulled into the next stop.
The doors opened. A disgustingly filthy man boarded the train and—given the choice of every other empty seat on the car—proceeded to sit down right next to her.
Gaia’s jaw tightened. Of course.
His once white sweatshirt was almost