More of You: The Fat Girl's Field Guide to the Modern World
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Too often, fatness has been viewed as a moral failing. Fat Christian women in particular are shamed and marginalized by the message that they are failing God because they can't change their bodies. More of You will challenge that status quo, teaching readers to resist the shame and guilt that is pressed onto them by the world and instead to embrace their bodies, take up space, and learn to navigate the world in ways that allow them to flourish.
With wit and candor, Amanda Martinez Beck, a fat woman herself, compiles her hard-won wisdom to give the skinny on thriving in a fat body to others who have been pushed to the margins of acceptance. Offering helpful tools like The Fat Girl's Bill of Rights and a script for a weight-neutral doctor's visit, this book addresses real needs in the fat acceptance community, from how to find self-love in a thin-obsessed world, to navigating a world built for butts smaller than yours, to advocating for equality and justice for fat women's medical care.
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More of You - Amanda Martinez Beck
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ALL BODIES ARE GOOD BODIES
Good: to be desired or approved of; the quality of something that fulfills its purpose.
I LIVE MY LIFE IN A LARGER BODY. I have swallowed the shame of not finding anything to wear when my friends have new and formfitting clothes. I have experienced the embarrassment of literally not fitting in, both in the child-sized amusement park rides and the seats of friends’ cars. And I have been subjected to countless doctors’ assumptions and prejudices about me and my body, including that I am lazy or lying about what I have eaten. For literal decades, all I wanted to do was shrink so that I could fully participate in the life around me that I saw all my not-fat friends enjoy, seemingly so easily. All I wanted was to conform to the impossible demands of the culture around me that says in order to be worthy—to be good—I had to make myself smaller. It never occurred to me that maybe it wasn’t my body that needed to change but the culture itself.
After over twenty years of trying to change my body and make it smaller and more culturally compliant, the wave of discontentment swelling in my soul reached tidal proportions. I knew that if I gave myself permission, that wave could come down on all I thought I had known about bodies—about how they were supposed
to look and function. If I let it, that wave would come and clear the path ahead of me, setting me free to live my life in the body I inhabited right at that moment. I decided to let it crash and tear down all the scaffolding of shame and other people’s expectations. I didn’t know what my life would look like afterward, but I was tired of trying so hard to placate the siren of thinness and health
that called so loudly.
As this wave crashed down on the assumptions and expectations I had internalized about bodies, I came across a phrase that latched onto my heart and would not let go: all bodies are good bodies. At first, I balked. The statement was so simple and yet so broad. I wanted it to be true because, deep down inside, I yearned for goodness, not just for my body but for all of me. If all bodies were good, that meant my body—large, weak, and imperfect—was good too. I didn’t know if I could ever believe that, but I wanted to.
What makes a thing good?
This question swirled in my head for a while, and I turned to the wisdom of the ancients to make sense of it. Aristotle taught that a thing is good that fulfills its purpose. So if I wanted to determine whether any body was good, I first needed to understand what the purpose of a body was. Before the wave of discontent had enlightened my framework for understanding bodies, I had assumed that the purpose of my body was to be perfect. That perfection was made up of thinness and health, free from the weaknesses of fatness and illness. But as a Christian, and specifically as a Catholic, when I started to drill down into this concept of perfection, I found that it contradicted what I knew to be true about the God who has a human body, Jesus.
First, I was pretty sure that God created humans with bodies to have a relationship with his people, not to show them off as perfect specimens. Moreover, I had learned that flawlessness wasn’t the aim of the Christian life; rather, the aim is a relationship with God through Jesus. All the cultural rules I knew about what bodies should be like started to remind me of the fastidious record-keeping for which Jesus blasted some religious leaders. Perhaps most importantly, after the crucifixion and resurrection of Jesus, his resurrected body isn’t what we would call perfect. In fact, Jesus uses the scars of his love to identify himself. In Revelation, we read that Jesus is the Lamb standing as if he has been slain. The resurrected God-man walks with a limp.
Seeing all this, I came to the conclusion that the purpose of my body wasn’t perfection or thinness but a relationship with God and with my neighbor as myself. Any body—no matter its size, ability, or level of health—can have a deep and meaningful relationship with God and with others. All this being true, I knew I could confidently say that yes, all bodies are good bodies.
All bodies are good bodies because the purpose of a body is relationship, not perfection. In the years since I discovered these truths, my world has been turned upside down—and let me tell you, my world needed a good shake-up. Shame about my body size, guilt over my inability to make myself smaller, and fear of the future started to peel away, revealing the little girl inside of me who just needed someone to speak tenderly to her. As I began to speak tenderly to her—to my inner self—healing started to flow. Now that little girl knows she doesn’t have to hide herself, and together we can be the fully integrated person I was created to be.
On the journey toward healing and wholeness, another truth solidified in my mind: My body is good today. Wow. Really? My body, just as it is today, is good? This one was harder to swallow. I could believe on a theoretical level that all bodies were good, but like everyone around me, I had been swimming in the waters of body discontentment for so long that I didn’t know how to be if I weren’t striving to change my body and make it better. To think that my current body was good undermined so much of my daily reality. If my body is good right now, I don’t have to stress about changing it. If my fat body is good right now, it means I’m worth as much as the thin lady next to me and as the man in a wheelchair in front of us. I can just be in my body. I don’t have anything to prove. I don’t have to perform. I don’t have to be different than I am.
My today body is good because the purpose of my body is relationship—not perfection. This truth is a revolution in my soul, upending the dictatorship of diet culture and restoring the way things were always meant to be. In a world filled with injustice and unthinkable pain, believing in a good God, a God who loves each of us and has a purpose for our lives, is a legitimate challenge. In one sense, it’s easy for me to believe. I grew up in a well-off, well-educated white family in a place of nearly unparalleled privilege. And yet I had so often been told—in spoken and unspoken ways—that my body wasn’t good enough. This book is my attempt at peeling back my experience with fatness, dissecting it, and analyzing it so that I can give guidance to others who have experiences similar to mine. This is not a definitive guide for what it means to be fat, because that experience is so beautiful, painful, and varied—in America alone, to say nothing of the wider world—that no book could contain it. And in the process of finding my own voice, I have learned that there are layers of oppression and that when they overlap, oppression is compounded.[1] The struggles of others less privileged and more oppressed than me are stories I treasure because they are the lived experiences of dear people in good bodies. So to my Black readers, my LGBTQ readers, my transgender readers, my disabled readers—thank you for your patience as I unpack my pain and share what I’ve learned as a fat, white, cisgender, straight woman. I know I don’t speak for everyone, and I am thankful for your correction along the way.
HOW TO USE THIS BOOK
Each chapter in this book includes a few things: an entry for the fat lexicon (available in its entirety in appendix A), items to add to the packing list for our journey (full list in appendix B), and a touchstone to put in your pocket along the way (the titles of every chapter). Some words in the lexicon may be new terms to you, while others are familiar words with new definitions. Items on the packing list are for your quick reference after you’ve read the chapter and then the book in its entirety; they are practical tools to help while you’re living your best fat life out in the field. The touchstones are like mantras to meditate on and remind yourself of daily, letting the truth they contain take root deep in your soul. I think of each of these as a message etched on a small rock that I carry with me. When I feel it inside my pocket, I recall the words imprinted on it and grow stronger on the way.
Thanks for reading. I’m excited and honored to be on this journey with you. Ready to get going?
PACKING LIST
■Knapsack
■Sturdy hiking shoes
■Clothing with pockets
■Open heart and mind
TOUCHSTONE
ALL BODIES ARE GOOD BODIES.
And indeed, it was very good.
Genesis 1:31
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YOUR TODAY BODY IS GOOD
Body positivity: originally used by fat liberationists as shorthand for their work, today it has been co-opted by non-fat people and corporations as a focus on feeling good about your body rather than focusing on freeing people from anti-fat oppression.
I’VE BEEN A FAT ACTIVIST FOR MANY YEARS, but I still get nervous about other people’s perceptions of my body. When I walk into a room, I’m always bringing more of me, in a culture that demands that I make myself smaller and bring less of me to the table. I walk into a room, and I come to a table that doesn’t look like it was built for someone my size. I come with a big body, a personality that won’t let me sit idly by when I see injustice around me, and a purple cane or ruby-red wheeled walker to help me get from place to place (depending on the day and the severity of my pain). And in every room I enter, I find chairs that won’t hold me. What am I supposed to do? My subconscious immediately plays the What Will They Think of my Body? game (zero out of five stars—do not recommend), and I find myself engaging the very scary proposition that I—both my body and my being—am too much for the people around me.
It’s hard in a culture that continually pushes us toward its concept of self-improvement, urging us to transform our today bodies—exactly as our bodies are today—into some wildly healthy and thin future bodies. That costs time, money,