Second Chances
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The past summer has been a wild ride for Joelle Gordon, in more ways than one. After discovering her husband, Jackson, cheating, she fled Chicago for her small-town childhood home in Landon, Minnesota. There, her family's lakeside diner, the Shore Leave Cafe, remains unchanged.
Yet nothing else in Landon is the same, including her family of women, her three teenaged daughters, and the intense, passionate love she has found with Blythe Tilson. Now Blythe is in trouble and Jackson is back in Landon, rethinking their divorce. Can Joelle face one of the most difficult and important decisions of her life - or will the Davis family curse ruin any chances of finding and keeping love?
A story about heartbreak, blame, family, destiny, and the difficulties of returning home, Second Chances is the second book in A Shore Leave Cafe Romance series.
A Shore Leave Cafe Romance series:
1. Summer at the Shore Leave Cafe
2. Second Chances
3. A Notion of Love
4. Winter at the White Oaks Lodge
5. Wild Flower
6. The First Law of Love
7. Until Tomorrow
8. The Way Back
9. Return to Yesterday
The story continues in her most recent novel, A Place to Belong.
Also from Abbie Williams, The Dove Saga
1. Heart of a Dove
2. Soul of a Crow
3. Grace of a Hawk
Abbie Williams
Abbie Williams writes passionate, emotional fiction about relationships, heartache, and redemption. The author of more than a dozen novels, Abbie lives in rural Minnesota with her husband and their busy family. Her abiding interest in women's issues, family dynamics, and nineteenth century history permeates her writing. When Abbie isn't writing, teaching, or taking care of her busy family, you can find her hanging out on the dock, listening to some good bluegrass music.
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Second Chances - Abbie Williams
Prologue
THEY SAY YOU ONLY FALL IN LOVE ONE TIME IN YOUR LIFE.
Thank God that’s not true.
I can only tell you what I know about it and that is this: love engraves both your mind and your body in countless irreversible ways. It happens most often when you least expect it. It pitches stars into your eyes so that everything, even ordinary, everyday things take on a luminescence you never noticed. At first it is indistinguishable from lust. Lust is the scent of the warm skin of your lover’s neck, a look in his eyes that makes your belly weightless and your entire body tremble. It is a thousand and one murmured words and soft sighs and intertwined fingers. It is fascination and daydreams. It is hot and sudden as lightning on a humid July night, slick and swift as the endless rivers in your blood. It propels your sensibilities, sparkling, into the air.
Love is getting up in the middle of the night through cobwebs of exhaustion because your child is crying. It is the responsibilities and details, both trivial and momentous, the memories of a shared lifetime. It is jagged as shattered glass and dense as lead. It is a thing of endless contradiction and infinite speculation. No one can explain it, including me.
But I will tell you this: it is not something that only happens once in your lifetime. That is one thing I know for certain.
Chapter One
Landon, MN - August, 2003
GO AFTER HIM?
JILLY REPEATED, DISBELIEF RAISING HER voice about a half-octave.
I lifted my head from her shoulder and curled my arms defensively around my bent legs. I wore our grandmother’s robe, my feet bare and chilly in the predawn damp, unwilling to be swayed by my little sister’s incredulous tone. Instead, resolute in my decision, I rested my chin on one knee and studied the smooth, inky surface of Flickertail Lake, bathed now in muted starlight. The eastern horizon bore a slim stripe of pale saffron, slowly brightening. Though not normally unwilling to voice his opinion, Justin Miller, seated on Jilly’s far side, wisely held his tongue.
Finally Jilly could stand my stubborn silence no longer and prodded, Joelle, what in the hell are you thinking? You can’t possibly follow them to Oklahoma. You have to let him go, for now, anyway.
At that I found my voice, ragged though it was from tears and exhaustion. I won’t.
I sensed my sister softening; her next question emerged more gently. Jo, what did he say when you talked to him?
It stung me to my core to repeat Blythe’s words, but I did, whispering, He told me that he wasn’t good for me, that there were things about him that I didn’t know.
And then, realizing that Jilly certainly possessed information I did not, I demanded, What did Rich say earlier? You must have talked to him.
Jilly shifted and raked her right hand through her short golden hair, creating a spiky mess. From the corner of my gaze, I saw Justin curve his hand around her thigh and pat her twice, a calming gesture. For a moment I didn’t think she was going to elaborate, and I dropped my feet to the dock and turned to implore her.
Jilly, please tell me,
I whispered, studying her familiar profile.
My sister bit her lower lip and then turned to face me, the blue of her eyes evident even in the meager light. She said, Rich called about two hours after you’d gone to bed. Mom talked to him. He bailed out Blythe and then told Mom he was taking Bly back to Oklahoma. No ifs, ands, or buts. It was part of the condition anyway, since Blythe has to face charges there. Now, if Jackie decides to press any here, then Blythe will be in extra trouble.
I curled my hands together and pressed against the ache in my belly. Jackie could most certainly decide to take that option; Blythe not only knocked him down twice, but Jackie was now also missing an incisor from his toothy grin. I closed my eyes, better to block out that image. Instead I saw Blythe’s eyes, deep blue-gray and wounded, as he told me he loved me, but that he wasn’t good for me. That there were things I didn’t know about him. I struggled to draw a deep breath, my heart thumping painfully; I was the one to end our relationship just a week ago, believing I was doing the right thing.
Jilly paused, studying my face now; I sensed more than saw her concern. She added, even more softly, I think—and Jo, I promise I’m only saying this because I love you and I am fucking worried about you—I think you should stay here. I don’t think it will solve anything if you try to go there. What can you do?
Show him that I love him no matter what. I let him down, don’t you see?
I whispered fiercely, not caring that Justin was hearing all of this, too. To his credit, he didn’t clear his throat and excuse himself, didn’t so much as shuffle his feet. Instead he studied the lake, keeping his hand wrapped gently around Jillian’s leg.
Jilly asked, not unreasonably, Wouldn’t a phone call accomplish that?
I shook my head, unable to respond through the emotion clogging my throat. I couldn’t convey to Jilly just how much I needed to find Blythe, to see this through. He needed me, it was that simple. I finally whispered, I won’t stay long. I’ll be back before school starts.
Necessity would pull me home before long anyway, the necessity of motherhood. But I understood what I must do, which was go after Blythe, even if it meant he would send me away for good. I needed to know the truth, for better or worse; otherwise I would forever torture myself with the wondering.
Jo, sleep on it, at least,
Justin finally ventured, his tone gentle.
I will,
I whispered, again bending my knees and threading my hands together around them. I didn’t mention that it wouldn’t change my mind.
The three of us made our way back up the shore a minute later, me in the lead, Jilly and Justin a few yards behind, walking with fingers loosely linked. I climbed the porch steps and then turned to watch them amble along, so glad for my sister’s happiness that I spent a moment soaking in it; Jillian was widowed twelve years ago, and only just recently began seeing Justin Miller, a longtime friend of our family. They continued on past the porch, where I stood with my hips pressed lightly to the top rail. Jilly called over her shoulder, Stay there, Jo, I’ll be right back.
I stayed on the porch, obeying her, watching as sunlight tinted the sky with amber hues. The birds were very much awake; the shore echoed with their lively chatter and conversational chirps. The lake itself remained secretive in the last of the silvery dimness of dawn, level as a mirror with no wind to mar its surface. I studied the familiar sight in all its clear-morning beauty, thinking about what happened since yesterday evening.
Blythe was in trouble. I didn’t know all of the details, but I vowed to find out. Just over a week ago, I’d told him that we had no future together. Despite everything my heart was screaming to the contrary, I felt as though it was wrong to ask him to stay, to bind himself in any permanent way to a mother with three girls of her own, one of whom was expecting a baby in February. For the countless time, my heart seized with the realization of Camille’s pregnancy. My oldest daughter, conceived when her father and I skipped the last half of senior prom to have sex in his car. No protection, just heat and desire and crossed fingers; roughly nine months later we were legally wed, living nearly a thousand miles from our hometown of Landon, Minnesota, and in possession of a newborn.
No matter that Jackie’s mother insisted we marry; we were in it for the long haul, I thought back then. And once upon a time, I’d loved my husband dearly, back when those damnable first-love stars clouded my vision. It wasn’t until over a decade and one gorgeous new assistant at my husband’s law firm later that the foundation of my marriage began to crack and crumble. I ignored it for years, purposely, and by the time I realized I better start paying attention, the whole relationship, foundation to rafters, lay in rubble around my ankles.
I’d come home to Landon this past spring, a place steeped in memories, most centered upon my rambunctious, freewheeling childhood and high-flying teenage years. As a teenager, the thought of settling permanently in this one-horse town seemed loathsome, despite its familiarity and the presence of the women who’d taught me everything I knew about life, love, and the pursuit of independence. I came from women who prided themselves on their ability to avoid relying on men, who equated happiness with that very principle; no man was ever granted ownership of our family business, the Shore Leave Cafe, since its founding in the 1940s. Never mind the legend of the family curse concerning our menfolk.
My great-grandmother Myrtle Jean Davis established and opened Shore Leave after her father died and left her, his only child, the lakeshore property. She’d built a business from the ground up; nothing fancy, just a diner with a porch, a place for Landon locals and the droves of fishermen who flooded our town every year, serving beer by the mug and in the batter of her fried fish. Myrtle Jean was married for a brief time, later divorced, and single-handedly raised two daughters, Minnie and Louisa; in turn Louisa, my grandma, married young, gave birth to my mother and my aunt Ellen, and then raised them solo after her husband’s voluntary departure from Landon.
It was a long-standing and distinctly bittersweet joke that our family of women maintained difficulties holding onto its menfolk, thanks to an ancient curse supposedly cast upon the Davis women. My mother, Joan, carried on the tradition of producing two daughters close in age, though my father, Mick Douglas, vanished from our history while Mom was pregnant with Jilly. The only men who’d ever been permanent fixtures at Shore Leave were Rich Mayes, Blythe’s step-grandfather who had worked in the kitchen since before my birth, and Justin’s dad Dodge Miller, who ran the filling station on the lake and stopped out for breakfast every morning. Dodge was the one to pull our dock out of the water every fall, in preparation for winter, for as long as I could remember; by the same token, he dutifully hitched it to his tractor and hauled it back into Flickertail each May. And now Jilly was dating his son, after a lifetime of knowing one another from afar.
As though my thoughts conjured her, Jilly bounded back from the direction of the parking lot, where she’d spent a few minutes bidding farewell to Justin. I sank onto a chair at one of the porch tables, propping my bare feet on the opposite seat. Seconds later Jilly lifted my ankles and claimed the space; I settled my feet comfortably in her lap. She braced her elbows on the tabletop, chin on one fist, and regarded me with somber blue eyes.
What?
I demanded. I didn’t have to sigh.
You might be able to placate Justin, but not me,
she said. Sleep on it, my ass. You’re set on your decision, I can see it in your eyes.
She tipped her head slightly to one side and then asked, Do you want company? You know I’d go with you in a heartbeat.
It was tempting, but in the end I knew it was something I must do alone, and Jilly sensed this truth.
Don’t worry about the girls,
she reassured me. They’ll understand. And I’ll keep them out of trouble.
I shook my head. It’s not that,
I whispered. I’m counting on you to explain why I have to do this.
She was about to ask me why, to explain it to her, too, but then she sensed the depth of what I was feeling, and asked, her voice very soft, You really do love him, don’t you?
I closed my eyes, seeing only Blythe, and then I reached across the table and gripped my sister’s already outstretched hand. I squeezed it, and she returned the pressure.
I guess so,
she said finally.
We sat for another few minutes in companionable silence, watching as the sun crested the treetops on the eastern horizon and spread its wings over the lake. The sky was powder-blue in the dawn’s wake, cloudless, and voices traveled to meet our ears from the direction of the lake path, which wound back to our house and the detached garage with its second-floor apartment that Jilly shared with her son, Clint. My own girls were crammed, quite literally, into the upstairs loft in the house, the same home in which I’d lived my entire life in Landon, and of late they began to voice complaints about the situation; they would just have to live with it a little longer, until I found us a place to live in town.
One thing at a time, Joelle, I reminded myself, scraping a hand through my tangled hair. Right now the first thing on my list was coffee, then a shower; at the moment I was certain I looked more than a little depraved, my eyes red and swollen from weeping, my hair in snarls, dressed in an old bathrobe, the hem of which was far too short for my legs.
Mom and Aunt Ellen climbed the steps on the far side of the porch, Mom reaching behind herself as she walked to braid her long hair, its blonde length now liberally streaked with silver. Ellen always wore her own curly yellow hair short, and it currently resembled a flower gone to seed, fluffy and errant despite her best efforts. Ellen was just a year older than Mom and I thought of her as a second mother. To be truthful, Ellen’s stoic demeanor and ability to listen quietly led me to her side more often than my own mother’s over the years. She was the first person besides Jackie to know about my prom-night pregnancy, and coached me on how to break the news to Mom, all those years ago.
That thought stuck in my mind as I watched them, two slightly plump middle-aged women with freckled skin and wide hazel eyes, wearing jean shorts and Shore Leave t-shirts, Mom decked in hot-pink hoop earrings with circumference enough to be bracelets. They caught sight of Jilly and me at the same moment; Mom hesitated, but Ellen marched ahead and joined us at the table, setting down the large stainless steel bowl she’d been carrying. It was loaded with a whisk, two clean towels, and a pepper grinder.
What’re you powwowing about, girls?
she asked, no hint of teasing in her voice.
Jo is going after Rich and Blythe,
Jilly told her without preamble, and I rolled my eyes in exasperation, though they’d have to know sooner or later.
Ellen didn’t respond, only turned her concerned gaze to my face; stubbornly, I kept my eyes on my hands, folded over each other on the tabletop. Mom overheard this, of course, and I sensed more than saw her lips purse in disapproval.
Jo, Rich will take care of things, don’t you worry,
Mom said, coming near but not sitting with us. I braced myself for the coming onslaught of guilt that Mom was so famous for dishing out. Like a helping of mashed potatoes that would sit, brick-like, in your stomach.
Mom,
I began carefully, aching with tiredness but determined to speak my piece. I was not a teenager any longer, though Mom’s expression reminded me of those years. I squared my shoulders and continued, I am going to Oklahoma and finding them. I need to do this.
Ellen patted my hand, Jilly tipped her chair on its back legs, and Mom must have heard the conviction in my voice, because she low-balled, asking, What are the girls going to think? What will Jackie think? He’ll be back out here today, and you can bet he’s not going to let this all slide.
Not after getting his ass handed to him,
Jilly said, laughing a little, her rich, deep laugh with its capacity to make everyone in hearing distance smile. I did, just slightly. Ellen, whose back was to Mom, winked at my sister and our mother frowned like a great-horned owl.
Jillian, that is not funny,
she bitched, and I lifted both hands in defense, though I hadn’t made the comment.
Seriously, I have never seen Jackie lose a fight, and he used to get in them all the time,
Jilly continued. But Blythe cleaned his clock. Jackie had it coming, even you have to admit, Mom.
Mom always adored Jackie and tended to stand up for him before anyone else, despite everything he’d done. She surprised me by saying, That is beside the point, Jillian. I agree that Blythe was in the right, but it doesn’t excuse what he did. Jackie was furious when you left last night, Joelle.
I didn’t want to think about my cheating husband who was missing a tooth, courtesy of my former lover. The man I was in love with, Blythe Tilson, was this very moment being driven south and farther from me with each passing second. My hands and legs twitched with impatience; it was all I could do not to run to my car and peel out immediately. But there were a few things I needed to do first, this being number one.
I’ll settle things with Jackie, Ma, don’t worry,
I said. He’ll simmer down and head home to Lanny.
To my surprise, a name that used to set my teeth on edge and my heart thudding no longer seemed to have power over me. Lanny was the woman for whom Jackie left me; the woman he claimed to love and wished to marry. Again, the thought didn’t faze me. If Jackie were here before me at the moment I would gladly sign the divorce papers he’d hauled with him from Chicago.
But what will you tell the girls?
Mom continued, and I struggled not to rub my temples, feeling the light headache I’d suffered since last night intensifying, but Ellen saved me.
Joan, she’s in love and she’s taking this chance,
my aunt said quietly. Do you think life offers chances like candy?
Like jellybeans,
Mom muttered sarcastically, but she backed off, and Ellen touched my hand briefly before gathering her cooking supplies and heading into the cafe.
An hour later, fortified by a strong cup of coffee, I was able to sit down with two of my daughters at one of the booths. Tish and Ruthann, both sleepy-eyed but snapping with curiosity, sat facing me, forearms lining the table’s edge, elbows bumping. Tish’s close-cropped hair, which had grown out over the months here in Landon, was currently adorned by a row of bobby pins holding bangs out of her cobalt-blue eyes; Jillian’s eyes, bestowed on my middle daughter. Ruthie, whose eyes shone a soft hazel flecked with gold, dark curls hanging in a braid down her back, studied me intently; both of them wore pale-blue Shore Leave t-shirts, Tish’s with her name written across the left pocket in permanent marker. Camille, my oldest, was still sleeping, exhausted of late; being roughly a month pregnant did that to a person.
For a moment my conviction wavered; how could I contemplate leaving my pregnant child behind while I drove cross-country? What if her morning sickness got worse? What if she had a question about something?
Mom, you look terrible,
Tish observed in her usual blunt fashion, snapping me momentarily from my worries.
Thanks, dear,
I responded drily, lacing my fingers around my coffee cup.
It occurred to me that in the past two months, since the advent of a boyfriend into their big sister’s life, Ruthann and Tish were more often in each other’s company. Camille had moved on for the time being, however unwittingly, forced ahead into adult life, and they were a little bereft in her wake. Ruthie, even with her scattering of freckles, suddenly looked more like an almost-teenager than my baby. When had that happened? Both Camille and Tish were olive-skinned, like their father, but Ruthie inheirited my coloring all the way, save for the dark, luxurious curly hair that Jackie kindly passed to his children. My own hair was straight and light, hanging now over my back in reams of tangles. I supposed my make-up was under my eyes and probably I should have brushed my teeth at some point. Ruthie, also my sweetest child, amended, No, you just look tired, Mom.
Well, I am a little tired,
I said, and then lowered my chin to study them with serious eyes. Girls, you know what I told you last night, about Blythe?
They both nodded, expressions equally solemn.
Well, Rich and Blythe left Landon last night, to drive to Oklahoma. Blythe has to face some charges there, and I am going to drive down there and see if I can help.
And bring him home with me, ideally to stay forever. His name tasted sweet in my mouth, and I pressed my lips together as though to keep it there a moment longer. I was relatively proud of holding it together so well, when everything inside of me was shrieking, aching to run to the car and go, to find Blythe and get my arms around him.
You’re leaving?
Tish gaped at me. For how long?
Just a week or so,
I reassured, reaching to take her hand. For once she allowed it, curling her long, slim fingers with their short, unpolished nails around my own, like when she was a little girl. I said with quiet intensity, I wouldn’t go if I didn’t love him, you know. But I do love him, and I can’t let him go away from me forever, without trying to stop it.
I hurried to add, I won’t stay long, no matter what. And I’ll call you guys every night.
"But why can’t you just call him? Tish continued.
Why do you have to go there?"
I want to see him, Patricia,
I said, studying her eyes, attempting to impart the seriousness of my words. I have to see if we are meant to be.
Like, meant to be married?
Tish asked, drawing her hand from mine and then gripping the edge of the table with both hands. Ruthie bit her bottom lip, not speaking, but the question was clear in her eyes. When I didn’t instantly respond, Tish slapped the table with the bottom of her palms, a gesture of pure frustration.
This is bullshit!
she snapped, daring me to call her out for cursing. Dad is marrying that dumb woman from his office, and now you’re marrying Blythe? What about us?
Tears sparked into her eyes, and it hurt me physically to see this. She