Roadblocks
Roadblocks
Roadblocks
In the path
Of
By
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Sri Binod Babaji
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abidyar andhakare tritap-duhkha parabare
sada mui hoinu nimajjito,
keshe dhori akarshane enechile brindabane
kripa kori koile mor hito.
“You are so kind that you not only did not hate me for being what I am, but
also granted me a shelter at your holy feet. You cooled my scorching heart by
giving me the right to offer seva. I have never seen any one as merciful as
you.”
“You took mercy on me and showed me the path of love, following in the
footsteps of the Goswamis (the associates of Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu). You
introduced me to Sri Radharani and Sri Krishna Who are forever engaged in
love dalliance in Sri Vrindaban dham and are surrounded by sakhis who are
engaged in seva.”
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sebo mone loiya abesh.
“You instructed me to serve the Divine Couple in the same mood as they
possessed. You ordered me to serve Them by being absorbed in the siddha-
swarup which is my original form, following the instructions of the sakhis.
“You gave me the most priceless wealth that soothed my body and mind
completely. You never asked anything in return. O Master! What can I give
you in return? You are omniscient and you know I have nothing of my own.
“Even this book – about stopping in the path of Bhakti - is not by me, it is by
your mercy alone that it was possible. I surrender this text to you and pray
that my mind may always be fixed on your holy feet.
-Binod
A few words by
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108 Sri Srimad Ananta das Babaji Maharaj
Meaning – “the root word ‘bhaj’ means ‘seva’, hence Bhakti means ‘seva’.”
We must forsake all desires for sense gratification and serve Sri Bhagavan
only for His pleasure – this is called ‘the best form of Bhakti’.
Meaning – “Bhakti is the process by which we serve Sri Bhagavan for His
pleasure alone with a heart devoid of all material desires.”
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Meaning – “When we perform Bhakti such as hearing, chanting etc. only for
the pleasure of Sri Bhagavan it is called Bhajan. This Bhajan has to be devoid
of all material desires. We must surrender our hearts completely in the flow of
rasa that is Sri Bhagavan. This is true ‘naishkarma’1.”
So we see that it is best to hear about the glory of Sri Bhagavan, Bhakti, the
goal of life and how to achieve it from the Vedic Scriptures, Gurudev and pure
devotees and then perform pure devotion with deep attachment. This is
Bhakti.
But often we find that in spite of hearing from the Scriptures, Gurudev and
pure devotees and in spite of discussing so much about the goal of life and
how to achieve it, we are unable to perform pure Bhakti. Somehow our
material desires are not quenched, rather the desire for sense gratification
becomes increasing day by day and we are engulfed by the pitch darkness of
passion and envy. We continue to hear and chant externally like a machine,
but our dangerous mind wanders in the garden of sensual pleasures most
happily.
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An action for which there is no reaction. It is good for the living being.
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Religious text
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Begging for the mercy of Sri Guru and Vaishnavas –
Ananta das.
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Vivek das – O exalted soul, since many days a question is troubling me. If
you take mercy on me and solve the problem I shall consider myself truly
blessed.
Gour kripa –Please tell me in details. I shall try my level best to solve the
problem.
It is with this expectation that I came to Sri Vrindaban dham 2. Ever since I
have reached Vrindaban, I have been chanting continuously and am trying
my level best to perform all the parts of Bhakti. Yet I admit with regret
that I have not made the slightest progress on the road of Bhakti. Not only
have I lost this eagerness but also the earlier enthusiasm for chanting has
disappeared. I do not feel happy any more about chanting Harinaam.
Although I am still chanting, I am not relishing it. It is somewhat
mechanical. In the beginning I whenever I saw the trees and creepers of
Sri Dham Vrindaban, I used to enter a some sort of bhav, but now when I
see them, I am not only unhappy , but I also find all objects in Sri Dham
as material. Earlier I had heard great glory of Sri Harinaam, such as –
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Holy name
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Holy place
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chitta akorshiya kore krishna-premoday.”
- (C.C.)
Meaning – “One Krishna-naam can destroy all the sins. The nine types of
Bhakti are complete only when we chant Harinaam. His prime function is
to attract the heart and arouse Krishna-prem, to destroy material desires
is only His secondary effect.”
In spite of chanting lakhs and lakhs of times, I can see no result; rather
something opposite is happening. Earlier I had contempt for some material
things and now the very same objects are attracting me. I feel I am losing
all faith in Holy name! Please show mercy on me and help me out of this
problem.
Vivek das – I accept what you say – but earlier I did get pleasure out of
chanting and I was very eager and enthusiastic. Then why has it
decreased now? When we continue to chant Holy Name, our interest and
enthusiasm ought to increase, is it not? Yet why is it decreasing?
Vivek das- This is making me very scared indeed! Please tell me more
about this thing called ‘offence’ and please explain in detail about how
it blocks the path of Bhakti. I will be truly grateful to you.
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offence
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Deep love
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Gour kripa- Look, our acharyas1 have stated 10 naam-aparadhs and
32 seva-aparadhs. The naam-aparadhs are greater than the seva-
aparadhs. Again, amongst the naam-aparadhs the offence called
‘Vaishnav-aparadh’2 is the most dangerous.
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preceptors
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Offending a Vaishnav-
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Either show contempt or to disobey or to ignore
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Criticizing a Vaishnav
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Srimanmahaprabhu has especially warned the sadhak about this
Vaishnav-aparadh. Sri Chaitanya Charitamrita and Sri Chaitanya
Bhagabat mention Vaishnav-aparadh repeatedly.
Meaning – “All those fools who criticize Vaishnavas, they fall into the
Raurava hell4 along with their ancestors.” – (Skanda Puran)
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A type of hell
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Gouranga Mahaprabhu Who looks as beautiful as a moon
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Scriptures
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A type of hell
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nasham-ayati tat sarvang pidayed yadi vaishnavan.”
Meaning – “Sri Bhagavan is never ever pleased with all those who
show disrespect towards Vaishnavas.” – (Srimad-bhagavatam)
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Holy person
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Hence, if we ever disrespect a sadhu it is an aparadh.
Meaning – “One who has Bhakti for Sri Krishna alone, even if he is
seen to commit some sinful activities, he always emits the aura of
Bhakti, just as the moon, although blemished, is not defeated by
darkness.” – (Nrisimha Puran)
As evidence we may take the example of Marichi rishi’s six sons who
had laughed when they had seen Lord Brahma (in a state of lust)
rushing behind his own daughter. This aparadh forced them to take
birth from Devaki’s womb in Kamsa’s jail and Kamsa killed them.
Therefore, we must never ever show contempt for a Vaishnav. Sri
Chaitanya Bhagabat has strictly warned us –
“We shall never get any respite if we criticize a worthy Vaishnav, for
his behavior is beyond our limited understanding. Sometimes a
worthy Vaishnav commits the same activities as a sinful person,
only by Sri Krishna’s kripa, someone can understand this – but
there are others who fall in trouble (of Vaishnav-ninda) and perish.
Those who do not fall in this pit, they survive in Bhakti. I can see
only one way out of this peril – it is best to glorify and behave
humbly with everyone. In this mood, we must chant Holy Name and
carefully hear from the great devotees. Then Krishna gives them
divine intelligence, he crosses over the material ocean and no one
can stop him.”
Gour kripa –Of course, it will harm you! If someone come to you
and does Vaishnav-ninda – you don’t know whether that person is
telling the truth or a lie, yet your respect towards that Vaishnav will
decrease, won’t it? Immediately you will incur Vaishnav-aparadh.
This is why Shastras have ordered us not hear Vaishnav-ninda.
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Tato napaiti yah so’pi yatyadhah sukritachchyutah.”
Meaning – “The Vedas state that if we hear sadhu-ninda we lose our sukriti
and fall down in every birth.”
Vivek das – Does this mean that even a Babaji should show respect to a
householder and pay obeisance?
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Pure devotion that pleases Sri Hari – (G.L.8.8)
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One with strong arms
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Therefore, if we accept the above statement of Sri Gita, then it is quite
possible that a grihastha, whom I have shown contempt so far, is actually
a sannyasi. Therefore, I have no business to feel proud ‘Ohh! I am a
Babaji’ and treat a grihastha with contempt. I will only be committing
Vaishnav-aparadh if I think him to be ‘a person worthy of my mercy’ or ‘a
materialist’.
Now this does not mean a grihastha should disrespect a Babaji and think –
‘What is there in a dress? Greatness depends on the quality of Bhajan. I
am a nice devotee, I perform good Bhajan, while this person is only a
Babaji in name, and he does not behave like one.’ Even this is wrong. If a
grihastha thinks like this and has contempt for a Babaji, he is crossing
maryada1 and so is committing Vaishnav-aparadh. If a grihastha sees a
young Babaji and thinks – “I am old and experienced. Moreover, I have
lived for so long in Vrindaban and performed Bhajan while this Babaji is of
my son’s age, so why should I pay dandavat to him? Rather I should bless
him.” This is an aparadh. We must remember that ‘kaupin’ is not
something ordinary. It is according to Srimanmahaprabhu’s wish and
Goswamis such as Sri Rup and Sanatan have worn this attire. Therefore,
we must never disregard this dress.
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The boundary of morality or propriety of conduct
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Meaning – “Whosoever differentiates between Vaishnavs may rest in
peace, for it will take him a long time to realize the Truth.”
- (Sri Chaitanya Bhagabat)
Vivek das – Tell me, when I see a Vaishnav, will it not do if I pay him
dandavat mentally?
Gour kripa – How is that? Pranam means ‘by body, mind and speech’. If
we do not pay dandavat bodily then it means we have a veiled pride. What
will happen if he considers me inferior? Only those who think like this will
not pay dandavat openly. Srimanmahaprabhu does not like this sort of
Pranam. If we are ashamed to bow our head in front of Vaishnavs how van
we expect to advance in the path of Bhakti as shown by
Srimanmahaprabhu?
Meaning – “The one who does not bow his head before a Vaishnav, his
head falls into the pit of hell.”
When we meet a Vaishnav we should at least join our palms, lower our
head, speak humbly and thus show respect.
Vivek das – O exalted one, today I can see the Vaishnavs embroiled in so
many quarrels, due to this my faith is shaking. What should I do?
Gour kripa – Never ever speak like this, because Sri Chaitanya Bhagabat
is saying –
“nitya-shuddha gyan bastu baishnab sakal,
tobe je koloho dekho sob kutuhol.
iha na bujhiye kono kono buddhi naash,
eke bonde, aar ninde, jaibeko naash.”
Meaning – “All Vaishnavas are eternally pure and have pure knowledge,
when you see them quarrel it is only in play. Some foolish people don’t
understand this and take sides. They praise one and criticize the other –
they will surely perish.”
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Meaning – “He is verily a sinner who supports one Vaishnav and criticizes
another. Such a person will surely perish. – (Sri Chaitanya Bhagabat)
Vivek das – But O exalted one! I live amidst so many Vaishnavs. Then how
can I save myself from such Vaishnav-aparadh?
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