Krea Essay - Hriday

I was born in a jain gujarati family in Kolkata.
It was hella roller coaster journey for me from that point

on as spending my childhood in 3 diff cities was not very comforting for me. I spent my childhood in
kol,delhi,bom. Well I was just a tiny little mama’s boy who was always so possessive and very caring and
attached to her. I was just different from others in a way. I was afraid of ppl , darkness,water. I didn’t like
to be separated away from my mum even for a minute. I was even afraid of going to kg as I would cry so
much that my mom sitting outside to pick me up from couldn’t stand my tears and she cried too as she
thought I was suffering because of her. I spent 4yrs of my childhood in delhi after moving from Kolkata.
There I discovered my interest for cricket as I am also from a family who is filled with cricket enthusiasts.
I admired my father very much as he was the one who taught me how to play and his skills too were on
point just like a professional. Cricket is very important aspect in my journey so far coz its an emotion for
me. In a way cricket taught me many life lesson which I couldn’t grasp from textual knowledge. I still
cherish those days when I played cricket with my father on terrace of our building in delhi.
I can say that donating our bags books clothes and other valuables to visually impaired and mentally
unstable orphans was the best thing I did in my life. I did sewa when I was in school. Seeing the joy on
their faces made me think how wonder that even for a small contribution how satisfied and pleased
these kids felt. I notice that even for this small help how happy they were and how much they valued
the things we donated them.
Seeing other people struggling around me and getting a way out of it motivates me a lot. Looking around
and judging on what other ppl do motivates me. The atmosphere, that competitive spirit in any thing
that keeps me going.
Whenever I think I am gone lose and I’m low my fathers’s story flashes into my mind, abt how he had to
work and run errands to earn money when he was in high school at age of 17 because of a tragic
accident that happened with my grandpa. Everytime I’m close to giving up I compare myself with him
that where he was and look at me such a puny little loser. His story inspires me a lot.
My life is just simple. I was a very introvert type of a guy who didn’t express his feelings didn’t open to
other ppl couldn’t adjust very quickly with atmosphere and environment around myself. I also don’t
express my feelings and burdens to anyone ,sometimes it just feels nice to keep it by yourself. I
sometimes feel like an emotionless person. Socially too I had very few friends. Spent 4 yrs in delhi before
shifting to Mumbai where all the things changed. Here the culture was different I had to open up to
different ppl I found it difficult at first then eventually got better at it. Coming to Mumbai had a positive
as well as a negative impact on my social life. I made many friends in school, society, coaching but the
other side made me self conscious abt what I did and who I was. I am still conscious abt my style,
behaviour, looks, physique. I didn’t know what was the switch about me being suddenly insecure abt
myself. I cant judge about how I am myself as a person but what I can judge is who I can become and
what things I can accomplish.
My personality has changed quite a lot. Spending time with ppl around me make me happy. I always am
friendly and observe how ppl talk, act, react around me and learn from them . In a way I’m very silent
humble, kind and honest. My life took a sudden turn as it made me strong and bold on both inside and
outside. It was also instinctive and ppl around me who inculcate these these properties helping me to
leave my fears behind and also become a better person today.
I think sometimes I failed as son as a brother and as a friend. My biggest failure was when I was unable
to make it to the district level cricket team. There were about 1000 ppl gathered for trials that day but
only 15 were to be selected. Just observing around me made me feel at what league was I, in what way
do these selected ppl differ from me as we have been practising the same techniques and same skills to
master this sport. For a moment my body froze, I had goosebumps, I was feeling so empty like only
could hear echoes and ppl shouting at a distance, it was like I lost my consciousness mentally and was
only physically present there. That day made me realise abt the tough outside world and failing that day
made me aware of how intense and competitive it was to get selected at higher level in this sport and
how you need to fight and progress to have your role in this world be it anything.
I want to develop technical and economical skills. I am keen on studying the languages of coding and
different fields in this sector. I also am interested in studying the business chains and how money works.
I want to study the mechanisms of the market chain.
Learning from all the failures and life lessons changed my entire thought process and surely there’s a
change in my character. Academically I’m an average student not that bright and topping the class but
I’m always satisfied with what I score. I’m progressing slowly as a open in front of many ppl as I can. I
want to be charismatic.
I am very helpful I try to do good things so I can earn myself a better tomorrow from which I get to know
about other good qualities which will make me a better person.

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I was born in a jain gujarati family in Kolkata.

It was hella roller coaster journey for me from that point

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