Intro

Im leaning against his hard body, our eyes locked and lost in the
moment, his breath suffocating my space in an amazing way.
Luther Vandross ft Beyonce is playing" and our favourite song
The Closer i Get To You makes us sing along.
"The closer I get to you
The more you make me see
By giving me all you've got
Your love has captured me
Over and over again
I try to tell myself that we
Could never be more than friends
And all the while inside
I knew it was real
The way you make me feel""
He looks at me and smile, and im thinking " damn i got my own
Trey Songs".
His smile is one i cannot erase, it haunts me even in my dreams. I
hate to say it but i love this boy, but im not sure if right now loving
him is the best thing.
Him: Penny for your thoughts???
I fake a smile a little
Me: It late, im sure our parents are wondering where we are.
He comes closer and i dont hesitate biting his pink like lips..im
drawn to him by his perfume, he grabs me and make me sit on his
lap...in no time we kissing like there's no tommorow.
Him: i love you my heart.
Me: i love you too baby.
A few minute later we part ways. Im outside our yard, i could hear
the giggles from my house.
" i wonder what we celebrating now" i sigh getting in. My parents
are well known business people, they got tenders everywhere
and own a few businesses too.Im their only child and that how it
gonna be like forever since my mom tied her tubes.
Mom: At this time Lelo??
She looks at me sipping her wine.
Me: Nina needed help with Accounting.
Dad: you should stop lying, it doesn't suit you, and leave that
boy alone..
He said the last part already in his way out to join his business
mates. My father is calm, but in his calmness there is that dark
emotion he shows whenever he is serious and right now he was
more than serious. I blink twice and look at mommy dearest who
continues gives me the " dont you even try" look and already i feel
defeated.
Mom: your dad is right, and you know it.
I struggle to say anything, i knew from the start that falling inlove
with Musa was a bad idea, but how could i defeat my heart when
He is the only right thing in my life. By the way my name is
Mbulelo Innocentia Brown. My parents are from different races so
yeah im a coloured, mom is Zulu while dad is white. Im in grade
12 and inlove with the son of my father's enemy.i dont know what
the history behind them but im convinced it pretty bad.Im 18
while Musa is 19. Tag along with me while i tell you how his love
completed and broke me😕.

Insert 1

Lelo

It a monday morning, im woken up by the irritating sound of the

alarm set by my dad. Quickly i get off bed heading to the
bathroom. I brush my teeth and take a short bath. I put on my
school uniform,apply a lil make up and make a neat bun on my
hair. I take my phone and a smile fills my face. Bae sent me a
message " morning sthandwa sami, hope you slept well munchie,
have a good day my Queen, Musa loves you to the moon and
back".
I smiled walking to the kitchen and im astonished when i find my
mom awake.
Her: stop staring already
Me: hangover??
Her: morning to you too
I chuckled
Me: morning mom.
I just eat cornflakes,and wait for my transport . immediately it
arrives, i say goodbye to mommy dearest and run to catch my
taxi. Within 20 minutes im outside our school, Nina is already
waiting for me. Well Nina and i have been best friends for 2 years
now. She's got my back and i got hers.
Her: skhebereshe saka ( my bitch)
I smile, this one is crazy.
Me: my person
Her: you good??
Me: as you can see
Her: mxm lets rush we dont want mr handsome in our case.
I laughed
Me: you sure wont stop calling him that.
Her: hunny the man is sexy
I just shook my head, she is even making this silly facial
expression. We attended assembly then walked back to our
classes. It the third quarter so we only left with a few months to
write our final exams. The classes start as soon as we get in and
boom it break time. Nina's boyfriend is Thapelo whose doing
Grade 11, not that he is younger just that he failed last year.
While me on the other hand got musa who is doing grade12 but
at a different school from ours. We spent the whole break time
eating junk, chatting and loughing. The bell rang, we attended our
last periods and it was school out. I waited for my transport and
left Nina behind since her house was near by the school. I know I
shouldn't be suprised that my parents weren't at home but i had a
little dissapointment cause i'd hope that i find them home.i found
Beauty our helper who is such a sweet soul.
Her: you back already pumpkin
Me: yeah, where are your employers
Her: they left inthe morning, your dad said you should text him
when you arrive.
Me: they never cease to suprise me, i wonder where they off to
now.
I headed to my room and called bae.
Him: my heart
My heart beat just increased, i couldn't break up with Musa, Nigga
got me inlove with him.
Me: sthandwa sami
I said with a low tone
Him: talk to me love
Me: i wanna see you
Him: im coming, wait where are your parents?
Me: i dont wanna talk about them, please come by the park.
Him: on my way lovey.
I dropped the call and changed into my ripped denim jean, crop
top and sandals. I headed downstairs, Beauty was busy cooking.
Me: im going out
Her: owk sweety be safe, and dont come back late i dont want to
be eaten by your father.
Me: dont worry it for a few minutes.
I found Musa already waiting by his car. Oh wait, Musa's father is
one wealthy man, he owns businesses too and i guess him and
dad are business rivals. I just dont know when and how the hatred
began.he was smiling and as soon as i approached him, he
picked me up and kissed the hell out of me.
I was literally breathless.
Me: wow such a nice hellow
Him: and by the way you blushing, im convinced you want more.
I smiled.
Me: how are you too
Him: better now since my other half is here with me.
Me: stop making me blush please
Him: i love seeing you acting shy
Me: who said im acting
Him: who you talking to kanti??
Me: you not funny mr, let go sit down.
We sat down talking non stop. My bae was the best xem.
Him: babe
Me: love
Him: how long are we gonna ignore the fact that your parents
does not approve of us?
I looked at him with teary eyes.
Me: i dont know babe, i realy dont know.
Then it was silence, we were both miles away with thoughts until
we were disturbed by my furious father standing next to us.
Dad: I thought i told to stay away from this boy Innocentia Brown.
You see dad was not shouting but his face wrote angry, and when
he calls me Innocentia i know i've just made him that much
angrier. nobody told one another cause we both stood up. Musa
was so scared while i nearly peed myself.
Dad: and you
He pointed at Musa
Dad: i told you to leave my daughter alone, i gues you both wont
listen.
Me: Musa go please
Musa looked at me with so much sadness, i wanted to hold him
but i couldn't, we stared at each other until dad mumbled
Dad: Now you wanna kiss each other on my presence??
All his time Musa kept quiet, i wonder what was going on his
mind. He shaked my hand and left.
Dad: boy if i find you with her again im gonna mess you i tell you.
He said and looked at me with so much anger.
Him: you just had to be hot headed Lelo.
I looked down with tears floods on my face.
Him: dont act all innocent lady, come let go we got guest and
make sure you wipe those tears and put a friendly face.
I did as told and we headed home, outside there were 3 different
expensive cars. Walking to the living room i saw my worst
nightmare, so this was really happening.

Insert 2

Im still trying to figure out what they doing here when my dad
brings me back to earth..
Him: Dont be rude, go greet them
I walked closer and i can feel their eyes piercing on me. My mom
is busy blabbing non stop when i wish i could just dissapear and
be invisible. I wear my friendly warm look on and smile as i greet
the elders of the Pretorias family. Then its their golden son
Trevor. He is still handsome and big, i walk to him and give him a
hug. He stares at me and give me a kiss on my chicks.
Me: fancy seeing you here
He chuckles and looks at me with a smile
Him: I guess we were not really your best surprise, saw how
astonished you were when coming in.
Me: I didn't know you were coming
Him: it was decided at the last minutes
Me: i see
Him: but im looking forward to spending the whole week here.
I widened my big eyes out..Wtf the whole freaken week?? My
parent just had to punish me like this.
Me: oh, i gotta go i got homework.
I disappeared to my room and locked it
I threw myself on my bed and took out my cellphone, when i was
about to call bae, mom knocked.
Me: what do you want
Her: open up baby please
Me: i dont want them here. .
Her: how are we supposed to talk when am still locked out here.
I opened for her and sat at the bottom of the bed.
Her: this is your future baby, this life was long decided for you.
Me: i dont want him mom, i love Musa
She raised her eyebrows
Her: you dont want your dad to hear you say that now do you?.
Me: mom we tried, it not gonna work.
Tears are already failing me.
Her: baby try harder, he is a good boy.
I chuckle
Me: we both know that aint true mom
Her: but i now he is good for you.
She perked my lips and got out. I just turned onn the music on my
laptop and thought about my life. Trevor is a qualified lawyer , he
is only 23 and works in one of the famous Firms in the world. Our
parents have been trying to get us closer to each other since i
was in grade10. Well we once dated and it didn't work. We were
just not feeling each other, i guess we tried because of our
parents. Trevor comes from a wealthy family too and our dad's
are like best friends. I just fell asleep still deep in my thoughts. It
was by 8 oclock when Beauty woke me up.
Her: dinner is ready babe
Me: im coming, thanks for waking me.
I went to the bathroom and washed my face then headed to the
living room. They were all there, the Pretorias family.
I sat down next to Trevor, not that i wanted to but it was the only
seat that was unoccupied. Every one concentrated on their meals
up until Trevor's grandma opened her tiny mouth.
Her: you've realy grown Innocentia
I smiled, well all of them called me Innocentia, i gues it because
they are white and cant pronounce my other nane correctly.
Mom: she is growing too fast
Her: well we cant wait welcoming me her in our family.
I nearly choked on my food, this people were killing my mood.
Then someone decided to kill it even further.
Trev: she will make a great wife.
God please take me now. My parents were smiling non stop
throughout the whole dinner. I couldn't wait to excuse myself. We
finished and i marched straight to my bedroom. I took hot long
shower and wore my short pyjamas and slippers. I went to the
living room and said goodnight to every one. Back to my room i
found Musa's missed calls and i called him back.
Him: i thought you were ignoring me
Me: you know i would never do that
Him: so what you busy with
Me: nothing just lying on my bed. you?
Him: same, how is daddy??
I chuckled
Me: fine i gues, how i wish i could see you now
Him: i can still come
Me: nah we got guest
Him: for a few minutes
Me: owkay but only ten minutes
Him: alright, now get up and come kiss daddy.
Me: already on my way.
I got up and fixed myself, i wore my gown and went downstairs.
No one was around so i made sure i tip toed and unlocked our
kitchen door softly and quietly. Finally i was outside and i could
see Musa's car down the road.
Him: i didn't think you will come out
Me: baby i always do
Him: you never disappoint
Me: and i will never.
He smiled and showed his deep dimples. My man issa
handsome and i wouldn't trade him for anyone, not even Trevor.
Him: what you thinking
Me: you.. silly
He pulls me closer and made me look deep into his small eyes.
Him: i love you Mbulelo Innocentia Brown. .
I blush and kiss him unexpectedly quickly he responds and we
kiss non stop. His hands around my waist slowly going down to
my butt, we lost inthe moment and i wish it could stay that way.
He breaks the kiss and we got in the car back seat. Our eyes
staring at each other, his lips making movements that makes me
crave for them. He turns onn his phone and play our song "Real
And True by Future
feat. Miley Cyrus & Mr. Hudson ""When the sun dies and the
stars fade from view,Our love will remain real and true
Through the distant and cold depths of space, The radio sings our
song, it's a love real and true"". We spent almost 2 hours
together, it was 11 oclock when he walked me back to my house.
Him: goodnight princess yaka
Me: night my prince.
We kiss one more time and part ways. I walked back in and to my
luck no one heard me, i just went to my room and threw my self
on my bed.
Whooe..i quickly got up and switched onn the light. He looked at
me with his sleepy beautiful eyes.
Me: what you doing in ny room on my bed? ?
I was terrified, who told him he was welcomed in my room
Him: i just wanted us to talk, but you weren't here .
Me: and you decided to sleep here instead of going back to your
room??
Him: i just fell asleep.
The guy was so calm, it was 11 and i had school tommorow.
Me: i wanna sleep please go
Him: where you coming from at this time
Me: you not my mom, i dont report to you man..now get out i got
school tommorrow.
I was now irritated, he wasn't even making it easy for me.
Him: you seeing someone? ?
I coughed, his face was suddenly filled with sadness
Me: Trevor get out.
Him: just answer me dammit.
Wow, this guy got the nerve i tell you
Me: it non of your business bro we aint even dating Trevor..
He chuckled
Him: you gonna be my freaken damn wife Mbulelo..
His words were firm and the calmness of his voice confirmed how
angry he was.
Me: i dont love you, i dont want to be your wife, i dont wanna be
your mrs Pretorias.
He smiled, i dont know if i said a joke or what but fucken smiled
showing off his white teeth, and the gap in between them.
Him: you sound so convincing
He came closer to me, and and touched my not so warm hands.
Him: we have something special babe, we've had it from our
youngest age.
Me: that was then Tee, we didn't work or should i remind you...
Well i called him Tee and he loved it.
Him: what happened to trying??
I looked down, i had no words..
Me: i have to sleep, please
I gave him a sympathetic look and he nodded.
Him: goodnight Mrs Pretorias.
He leaned over to me staring at me, i could'nt stop but stare back.
His eyes were still blue like, his hands touched my face soflty, i
could feel his breath. He came closer and our heads came in
contact, i closed my eyes slowly waiting for him to kiss me
already but he did the opposite. He whispered in my ear
" aint gonna kiss you when you've just kissed him".. i just became
irritated, he kissed my forehead and turned away.
That was embarrassing. " what was i thinking??" I yelled at
myself until i realised that my phone had been ringing. I found
Two missed calls from boo and a message written " i love you
Mrs me"" i just cried... was i suddenly having mixed emotions.
Within minutes i was already in lala land..

Insert 3

Tittiitittttitit" the alarm made an irritating sound, it 6 oclock and im

still sleepy. I wake up any way and make my bed. I make my way
to the bathroom. I do my business , walking back to my room i
already find my school uniform onthe bed, i sigh in relief.
immediately i start wearing it and fix my hair. I take my school bag
and head downstairs. Beauty is already up.
Me: morning
Her: morning sweety, what would you like for breakfast??
Me: cornflakes will do, im already late, and my transport will be in
10.
Her: oh they didn't tell you
I raise my eyebrows
Me: what
Her: Mr Pretorias will be taking you to school for the whole week.
I chuckle
Me: no ways
Just then he comes down smiling like some stupid teenanger after
seeing her crush.
Him: morning beauties
I just nod while beauty say it out loud
Her: morning to you too.
Him: you ready??
This is really happening. I look at beauty who winks at me.
Me: just a few minutes.
I eat my cornflakes anyway, my parents are driving me nuts.
Me: you dont have to drive me you know.
I try and take my chances though i know he wont agree
Him: i want to.
He smiles
We go out and he takes my school back, like wtf??
Me: i can carry my own bag mr
Him: i know you can babe.
I jut roll my eyes.
The drive was not realy fun cause i was trying to ignore him and i
resisted on having a conversation with him. We are 2minutes
away from school when he decides to open his small like beautiful
pinkish mouth.
Him: so about yesterday
He stops and look at me and i just look away.
Him: im sorry i know i shouldn't have come to your room without
letting you know, just that i wanted to be with you, i ve missed
you Lelo.
He sounds so honest
Me: it okay, yesterday is a past now can i get off?
Him: yeah, see you in a few hours
Me: dont you have something to keep you busy, i mean i can just
manage with my taxi.
Him: no im gonna fetch you sweetheart, aint no girl of mine
gonna take a taxi while im here.
I just nod and get out. Nina is already waiting for me at the gate,
she look suprised.
Me: please close your mouth already
Her: bitch what the fuck you playing at
Me: not me my parents bro
She loughs so hard
Her: so they still want you to marry him
Me: do i have to say it out loud??
Her: woo hay ke sisi dont get bitchy with me aint the one marrying
you off
Me: you not being funny..
Her: atleast he is handsome
I lough, she is never serious
Me: i know but Musa is my love
Her: and your families doesn't get along
Me: but we love each other, it even hurt
Her: babe your life could make millions i mean it happening write
a movie..
Me: you so stupid.
We rush to our classes and soon it afternoon. Im praying he
doesn't come but yay he is here, he is not even 5 minutes late.
Me: bye babe see you tomorrow
Nina: tommorow love
We hug each other and part ways.
Me: hy you early
Him: you cant keep the queen waiting.
I smile i dont know why i did that, he just makes me do things
unexpectedly.
Him: you dont want something
Me:im good
Him: remember how addicted you were with sweets
Me: and you always mocked me
He loughs
Him: they weren't healthy, couldn't watch my future wife getting
unhealthy.
Me: nice, your future wife neh
Him: yeah my future wife.
We outside my house and when im about to get in my phone
rings, he is behind me so when i look at it he can see the caller
too. It written bae..im still trying to figure out if i should or not take
it when he disturbs me.
Him: answer it you dont want to keep bae waiting right.
I look at him and nod. I answer it still going inside.
Me: mmhn hey
Bae: sthandwa semuntu
Immediately my heart just warm up, that the effect he has on me,
his voice makes it all alright. I love this man of mine.
Me: you just had to make me blush
Him: i live to make you happy babes
Me: how was school
Him: not complaining love, for you?
Me: just normal baby
Him: so I'm gonna see you today?
Me: not possible baby, maths need my attention
Him: owkay sthandwa sami will call you later then.
Me: i love you munchie
Him: i love you my heart.
As Soon as we finish talking i take off my uniform and put onn my
shorts And tshirts, i marched to the kitchen since im starving.
Trevor is watching tv and the house looks empty.
Me: where is everyone
Him: they had to leave, business you know..
Me: my parents ??
Him: all of them
Wow so no one cared enough to let me know, mom and dad are
selfish.
Me: so it's only us
Him: yes cupcake
He smiles and i just make my way to the kitchen. Beauty is
making whatever she is making.
Her: you look devastated
Me: i hate living here, cant wait to go away.
He smiles and brush my chicks
Her: hate is a big word nana
Me: they always make decisions for me sis Bee, im tired.
Her: shhhh dont put it in your heart you still young, now let me
make you something to eat.
I nod and within minutes i have eaten and locked myself in my
room. Well i hate studying reason being i concentrate during
classes and that alone makes me pass with distinctions that my
parents never see to be enough. I hear someone knocking on my
door, please dont be Trevor, i say a lil prayer. I get up and open
and im not suprised, he makes his way in without asking me.
Him: thought we could talk
Me: i dont want to talk Tee
Him: i love it when you call me that
Me: i know dummy
Him: im sorry
I look at him confused
Me: for what exactly
Him: giving up on you on us babe i made a mistake
Me: Tee it wasn't working you saw it too
Him: but we were once happy, we can still be
Me: i cant im happy, i have a boyfriend that i love.
Him : this is about us i dont know why you even talking about him
Me: but he is already involved and . ..
He doesn't let me finish instead he smashed his lips on mine. I
wanna stop but my mind tells another story. I reply making him
touch me, his lips taste good i can kiss all day, he pulls me closer
to him and kisses my neck, i feel things, im reminded of how i felt
when we were together. He then stops and touch my lips soflty
looking me with his beautiful sexy eyes..
Him: i love you Lelo
I look down, i dont know what im feeling. Im not supposed to
have feelings for him. I love Musa and that's it.
Me: im tired, i wanna rest
He takes my hand and kiss it. I feel the rush in my body but i
choose to ignore it. I can't believe i might be falling for him.can it
be a friday already!!!
Him: see you during dinner then
Me: yeah.
He goes out and i just pinch myself. What happening with me. I
take my phone and call Nina and she answers at the second ring
Her: munku
Me: im cruel my friend
Her: you didnt dump Musa did you? ?, babe the guy loves you..
you better apologies..
I find myself laughing, she just had to jump into conclusions.
Me: no man i kissed him
Her: who??
Me: You can be so dump somtimes
Her: so you ashamed of saying his name now or you scared you
gonna feel something.
I chuckle
Me: no im not, it was a mistake i know it was.
She loughs and i dont know what funny
Her: how is it a mistake if you replied and enjoyed it.
Me: who said i enjoyed it
Her: you didnt have to say love.
Me: mxm i gotta go, need to clear my mind
Him: dont hurt him, he loves you
Me: who??
She lough so hard i can imagine her face right now
Her: Look who is stupid, who is your man kanti
Me: Musa
I say it in a low tone.
Her: just make up your mind doll.
I drop the call and get in my covers. Im so in deep shit, i dont
wanna hurt Musa, he is my love but same i dont want to hurt Tee,
im destined to be with him. I may not want him but somewhere
somehow my body does. It react to his attention and i hate it.

Insert 4

The next was a wednsday, Trevor was the one driving me to

school again.i hate to say it but being next to him somehow felt so
good.we were outside our gate when he decided to get out and
give me one hell of a warm hug.little did i know that he was
playing games with me. I saw Mbali standing by the gate and she
gave me one ugly stare.her eyes shifted to someone and i
followed them. Boom bae was here, he was leaning on his car in
his school uniform. I felt like the world could swallow me. I looked
back at Trevor and he just winked at me. This guy gotta be
kidding me. I had 10 minute so i went to him, he looked at me
and smiled. How does he do it.
Me: what a suprise
Him: thought i could come by and hala my bae since it been a
while
Me: but bbe, it been a day
Him: that alone could kill me
I smiled genuinely, what the heck is wrong with me
Me: im glad you came, i missed you
Him: doesn't seem like it
Me: bbe it not like that
Him: i didn't say anything mna muntu wami
Me: i gotta go love, we will speak right
Him: will come by after school
Me: but
He didn't allow me to finish
Him: you owe me
I just nodded, now i have to find a way to dodge Trevor. I
dragged my feet to the assemble and within hours it was break
time. We went to the school cafeteria, Nina bought Kota and
coke while i sticked with sparkling water. I had no appetite. We
sat next to the Basketball ground and started talking non stop.
Nina: so i did it
Me: you did what? ?
Her,?: i finally lost my virginity bbe
My mouth just opened up so wide that she started getting
embarassed
Me: owh
Her: you sound dissapointed nje
Me: just wasn't expecting you to tell me that
Her: i know right it crazy, but it was worth it
Me: so how was it, i mean it hurt right
Her: veri my much boo but if he is patient and caring it better
Me: wow so you are a woman now
Her: and it feels so good
I laughed. We talked the whole hour and got back to our
classes.the bell rang and it was school out. I really hoped Trevor
was late. We went out and to my suprise they were both there.
Me: what do i do now
I asked Nina who looked clueless too
Her : i dont know bbe you putted yourself inthis situation you
gotta drag yourself out too.
Me: you dont think i know that
Her: hayi booo dont give me that attitude, you love Musa but you
kissed Trevor...
Me: what that supposed to mean
Her: you confused bitch and you messing the only safe
relationship you have.
Me: aren't you suposed to be on my side
Her: not when you playing with people's heart, Musa loves you
chommie but you busy screwing him up.
I left her there, she was not helping
Nina was just bitter, gues the dick got to her. I went to Trevor and
knocked at his car window.
Me: i cant go with you
Him: you cant or you dont want to
Me: Musa is waiting for me, see you at home.
Him: kool.
Wow i expected him to try and convince me byt what the hell i
walked to Musa who just looked at me emotionless.
Me: you came
Him: i dont disappoint babe.
I smiled and got in.
Him : you good, food or a drink??
Me: im hungry
Him: Mcdonald or??
Me: nah just pizza .
Him: owk
He then , started the car and we drove to town. He was silence i
could tell his mind was somewhere else. We bought the pizza and
chilled at the nearest park.
Him: you can tell me anything you know
Me: there's nothing to tell babe
Him"?: you coping at school
Me: ueah, you know i got the mind, just like my babe.
He smiled
Him: i dont wanna lose you
Me: but you wont
Him: it doesn't seem that way
Me: please dont, dont read too much in something that aint there
Him: i just cant imagine my life without you, and seeing you with
him breaks me
Me: i know im sorry, but it out of my control
Him; i know, i trust you Mma Brown
Me: i love you sthandwa sami.
We talked till 5pm. My mom's call interupting us from our moment
Me: mom
Her: dont mom me mbulelo Brown dont
Wow
Me: jooh what wrong
Her: where are you
Me: out with friends
Her: You want your father to kill that boy, would you live with
that?
Me: but ma
Her: i told you what good for you, i hate this myself but i cant let
you persuade your relationship with the Ngema boy.
Me: I hear you
Her: now go home
Me: owk
She dropped the call and i just threw myself in Musa's hand. He
hugged me so tight.
Me: they don't want us together
Him: it will be fine love
Me: it wont be Musa, my dad hate you
Him: and my father hates him love, but he allowed me to love
you, he doesn't involve himself in my love life.
Me: well your dad aint mine.
We stayed for a few more minutes then left. He drove me back
home. There was no one so i just went to my room and slipped it
off.

Trevor

After Lelo left with her boyfriend, Nina came to me and we went
to my hotel room in town. I been seeing Nina for a few months
now and she understands my grounds. She is not allowed to talk
about us to anyone. Yesterday i broke her virginity. Yeah she
was a virgin and i didn’t trust her up until it happened.
Im not falling for her, i love lelo and im just wasting time with her
friend. Im not a bad guy but Nina got the body any man could not
resist.
Me: you good? ?
I looked at her. She seemed out of this world. We just had two
damn rounds and she looked so tired. Well she is still not used to
sex but in time we will get there.
If only i could break Lelo, that would be something to celebrate.
Her: im just sleepy and tired
Me: owk fine, it already late so you can spend the night.
Her face lighted up, i wonder why
Her: we gonna spend the night here
Me: no doll you gonna spend the night, im going.
I could see the disappointment in her face so i just stood up and
left to the bathroom. Withing minutes i was done, I walked back
to the room only to find the bed empty . I took out my phone and
called her.
Me: where are you
Her: on my way home
I found myself getting angry, im the one who is supposed to
make her feel bad
Me: and you didn't care to let me know
Her: bro chill im going home
Me: you know what it kool.
I drop the call and went out. I won't be stressed by teenangers. I
arrived at the Brown's house. Beauty wasn't home so i guess she
was busy with something. We had no one to prepare food for us
so i just ordered pizza and called Lelo. She had locked herself up
and it was now 9pm.
Me: you cant ignore me forever
Her: what so special about you that i can lock myself just
because of you.
Ouch that hurts but i did not put it in my heart. it true that Lelo love
this boy but the fact remains. She belongs with me and i got the
parents to back me up.
Me: owk then prove it, come out
She opened the door and led the way to the kitchen
Her: what for dinner.
Me: pizza
Her: where is sis Beauty
Me: out i guess
Her: so im all alone with you here.
Me:" you said it yourself love
Her: where is the pizza
Me; microwave darling
She chuckled and took three pieces. We ate wacthing tv. By past
9 we were done.
Her; im off to bed..goodnight
Me: night munchie
She looked at me and smiled. How i wish i could kiss her right
now. I stood up and went to her. She looked at me and shook her
head.
Her : i cant keep on doing this Tee
Me: you dont have to
Her: just leave me alone please
Me: but how do i do that babe
Her: start by calling me by my name please
Me: what wrong with me giving you pet names
Her: only my boyfriend is allowed to give me them pet names
I chuckled
Me: so am i a threat??
She looked at me and i could see that there was still something
there.
Me: you can start by answering my questions
Her: i just dont want you to get the wrong idea Tee i love Musa
Me: what about me
Her: you my past that my parents keep on reminding me with
Me: dont include your parents Lelo, what do you feel
Her: nothing i feel nothing.
I got closer to her, held her waiste and touched her breast with my
other arm. I kissed her and she replied. I went to her ears and
started biting them while my other hand squeezed her butt and a
few moans escape from her mouth. I kissed her again and lifted
her up to the kitchen counter. She was breating so hard and i was
controlling myself. She looked at me with her bedroom Eyes and i
knew i had hitted the spot.
Me: do you want me to continue??
Her: mmhm i i Tee i we
Words failed her i picked her up and we went to her bedroom.

Insert 5

Whatever i was feeling was out of this world. Trevor carried me to

my bedroom all the way he was kissing and squeezing my breast.
It felt so good i wont lie. We got to my room and he slowly putted
me down on my bed. He started undressing me while kissing the
hell out of me. Suddenly flashes blocked my sight, Musa' s words
played in my mind " i trust you Mma Brown " repeatedly they
didn't stop. By that time Trevor was unbuttoning his pants. He
came closer and got in between my legs. Musa's face appeared
in my eyes. I started screaming.
Me: stop stop stop it Tee please
His looks changed, he was dissapointed.
Him: Lelo please, i wont hurt you babe.
Me: stop stop talking just get the hell out of my room.
Him: what wrong with you woman
Me: i dont want you Tee, im making a horrible mistake.
I got in my covers since he was staring at me non stop.
Him: why are you blocking your heart, you know you want me.
Me: maybe i do but i want Musa more
Him: so you saying im not enough
Me: you said it not me
Him: you choosing that boy over me
Me: i didn't my heart did. I cant hurt him im sorry
He took his clothes and went out naked while i buried myself in
my pillow.
" what the fuck just heppened Lelo you know better" i cried, not
because i kissed him but because i nearly gave him my
innocence. I cried because i have betrayed my only love, because
i dont deserve Musa. I cried because at the end of the day my
parents want me to marry Tee. I got up and went to take a bath. I
meeded to wipe whatever smell he left on my body. I notice the
red bites showing on my neck. God this is bad, why did i become
yellow? ?. I washed my body and went back to my bed. My phone
rang and it was bae. My heart raced, guilty conscious playing
with my mind.
Me: sthandwa sami
I couldn'thold the tears, im glad he couldn't see me
Him: you still up
Me: yeah was gonna sleep nou
Him: owk just wanted to say goodnight
Me: thank you babe
Him: are you sure you alright
Me:im good love
Him: owk Mrs Ngema i will call tomorrow my queen
Me: sure babe
Him: i love you sthandwa sami
Me: i love you Musa.
He babykissed me through the phone and i could imagine the
smile on his face. How did i get here. He dropped the call and i
tried sleeping.

Nina

Yall know im Lelo's best friend. I love my friend i really do but she
can be selfish sometimes. It is hard to be her friend since she is
always the one to get invites or attention from people when we
together. Like the day he met Musa, we had school competitions
in some stadium where all schools met up, we were going to the
toilets when a group of 4 boys called us out. Musa was the only
gorgeous one just like every other day Lelo got to him. He asked
for her numbers while i was busy left with some fool who turned
out to be black and dumb at the same time. So from that day i
refused to live in Lelo's shadow. When Trev approached me i
thought he was joking and i felt like i was the most beautiful girl
inthe whole world. Trev is one handsome man though Musa takes
the cup but at least i got one of them to me. I know that he thinks
he loves Lelo but he doesn't. He just love the idea of dating her
and on the other hand Musa will die for his sweetheart. I love their
couple i just dont understand how Lelo could be so stupid. Trev is
just playing with her mind and she doesn't see it. I was past 10
when my phone rang. Boom speak of the devil.
Me: you calling me at this time means something else
Trev: i see you've learnt to grow some balls, the dick did you
good??
I chuckled
Me: which dick are you talking about mr
I could feel the anger in his voice
Him: stop playing games bitch i need you now
Me: why dont you go to your future wife
Him: im serious Nina
Me: i would like to sleep so bye
Him: if you dare drop the call it gonna be the end of us bitch.
Me: and do you think i care?? Just because we had sex two days
in a row doesn't make you my everything Trev
Him: you know what stick with your ugly ass i dont care
Me: the ugly ass that drives you crazy asshole
I was getting mad I'd hate to catch feelings for him but he is just
perfect and me pretending i dont care is just to make him mad.
Him: you calling me what bitch
Me; goodnight man, im not up for this.
I dropped the call and played " lie about us " by Avant ft Nichole. I
know he doesn't love me and he won't ever leave her for me but i
just had to sulk it out.i slept with a lonely sad heart. I wondered if
Lelo was happy or what.

Lelo

Thursday morning, i was'nt feeling owkay. I had a massive

headache that made my shoulders and neck in pain. I prayed
before i wake up, i asked God for forgiveness and to give me
strength. I have to tell Musa what happened but first i need Tee
out of my life. He is leaving tomorrow so im hoping i survive with
him for the last time. I woke up and went downstairs. I was
welcomed by my mother's stares. When did she come back??
Me: morning Mrs Brown
Her: i dont see you wearing school uniform
Me: im not going to school
Her; and this has been happening for how long ??
She turned and looked at Beauty
Me: today only, im not feeling well
Her : what wrong
Me: headache
Her : dont play with me Mbulelo
Me: mom im serious.
I started feeling dizzy, my body failed me. I needed to sit down
but my sight was blinded. The headache was killing me. I felt the
house spinning.
Me:mom help
That came out as a whisper. I heard her screaming and that all i
remembered. A few hours later i woke up in a private hospital. I
could still feel my head hurting. I was hungry and dehydrated . I
opened my eyes slowly only to be met by my mom , dad and Tee.
Me: mom water please
Her: you awake baby
Me: water woman
She looked at me and shook her head. She gave me water and i
drank the whole bottle.
Dad: even on a hospital bed you still hot headed
Me: like father like daughter
Mom laughed and dad just ignored me. The doctor came in.
Him; oh there she is awake
Me: what wrong with me
Him: we just need to run a few tests, we will need your urine
Me: what that for??
Mom: babe your fainted and complained of headache so..
My dad cutted her short
Dad: i hope it's not what im thinking Lelo or else
He was calm but his voice said a lot.
Me: oh you better be kidding me, you guys think im fucken
pregnant
They all looked at me..
Mom: laguage Lelo, we taught you well and if you not pregnant
then explain the symptoms
I chuckled
Me: get out now
They stood still and i screamed, the doctor assured them that i will
be owkay i just need some space.they all went out and i was left
alone with the doctor. I did pee and the result came out nagative
not that i didn't know that. By half past 10 they came back with
Mcdonald's breakfast. The doctor told them i wasnt preggies and
the relief in my father's eyes was just suprising. What if i was
pregnant, what would have heppened.
Dad: im sorry princess
Me: i dont wanna hear it Mr Brown
Mon: stop it Lelo
Me: just leave me alone.
Doc: mmhm can i ask
Them: sure doc
Doc:are you some how stressed or?.
I raised my eyebrows, my parents looked at me.
Mom: do you think stress is the reason behind the headache
Doc: yeah, since we could not find another reason it the only
effect that can cause it now, or maybe it can heppen that she is
PMSing of which i doubt cause she was on her periods 12days
ago
Me: i wanna go home, can you give me something
Him: i can subscribe ibrufens for you and some pain killers. You
need to stop stressing if im correct, too much stress gonna cause
you stroke and this frequent headaches aint good for you.
We left the hospital, Tee was silence you could think he wasn't
there.
I went straight to my room and threw myself on my bed, mom
came in.
Me: i need space please
Her: im sorry hun
Me: mom i said i need some space
Her: Mbulelo you not gonna shout at me, im still your mother
Me: then act like it, what kind of a mother leave their child alone
with a man in their house yee?? Care to tell me?
Her:babe we thought it could make you become closer again
I chuckled
Me: well it did, now get out.
She got out and i just locked my room and buried myself on my
bed.
Insert6

Lelo

It a friday, im already on my way to school. Mom insisted on

driving to school i guess guilty conscious is playing with her mind.
Her: baby you fine
Me: why wouldn't i be??
Her: you still mad i see
Me: can i get out now, i got 10 minutes left and i gotta do
something before assembly.
Her: yeah, see you in a few hours then
Me: mmhm don't bother, i will catch my taxi
Her: but
I did not let her finish
Me: mother please. ...
I get off and gave her a kiss then rushed to Nina who was
standing by the gate.
Me: you dont look fine
Her: Doctor Lelo now??
I chuckled
Me": whoe what with the attitude
Her: sorry im just stressed
Me: Boyfriend? ?
She faked a smile
Her: no bitch, let go
We headed to assebly and in no time we were in class. Break
time we chilled at our usual spot.Nina was not the same Nina, i
know my friend she is always bubbly but today she was just sour.
Me: you sho you owkay??
Her: im fine, so tell me, hunk Tee is leaving today
Me: yeah im glad im gonna be able to breath atlast at my house
Her: are you still confused, i mean with who you want to be with
Me: no man i love Musa and that's it
Her: then you should stop giving Trevor fake signs.
Me: who said i was giving him signs
Her: you kissed him right
Me: you gonna preach me about that everytime we talk about
Tee, i dont even know why we talking about him at the first place.
Her: i was just saying
Me: just leave it Nina.
The bell rang and we got back to our classes. I wonder why Nina
is always against me and Tee but then i gues she is looking out
for me. School out, i went to wait for my transport but daddy
dearest chose to fetch me. He pulled over next to me and
whistled for me to get in. This man was just too much. I got in and
he drove to town.
Me: where are we going
Him: we gonna go grab some ice cream
Me: you owkay?
I was just suprised, it been a long time we chilled,just father and
daughter.
Him: im perfect
Me: owk.
We got to kfc and he bought two icecreams. We sat down
outside, it was just weird cause we were both in silence.
Him: i know you probably hate me Inno, but baby im doing this for
you.
Me: i dont want to marry him dad, i rather not marry.
Him: im not asking you, that one thing you have to understand.
I chuckled in disbelief
Me: wow, so what about varsity? ?
Him: you will marry and still go to varsity
Me: i cant,how am i gonna be a wife and student at the same
time? ?. Daddy im young im still your little daughter.
Him: i cant let you make mistakes Innocentia, you gonna go to
varsity next year married and that it.
Me: i wanna go home please.
I got up and ran to his car. I set at the back seat with my tears
failing me. Why does it hurts so much, how can my own father
hurt me like this. Outside our house, i got off daddy's car and ran
straight to my room. I took out my school uniform and wore my
short, top and slippers. Made my way to the kitchen since my
stomach couldnt stop making sounds. Sis Beauty and mother
were there just chatting.
Mom: you didn't even greet us
Me: helow sis Beauty
Her: Mbulelo
She gave me a cold stare
Me: hy mother
Mom: you think you know everything Lelo, you an adult now??
Me: since im getting married yeah
Mon: i know you think we hard on you but baby we doing this for
you
Me: how do i actually benefit from all this
Sis B: we have lasagne want some??
She looked at me and i nodded
Mom: i will see you later.
She got up and left
Sis B: you sure not in a mood
Me: with parents like mine, you will never be in a good mood.
She smiled and shook her head
Her: dont be hard on them
Me: but they are to me
Her: give it time baby.
I left to my room after eating. I slept for a few hours and i was up
by 7. My phone rang and it was Tee
Me: what do you want
Him: why you so cold
Me: i asked you a question
Him: mom and dad are inviting you for dinner tommorow
I chuckled
Me: im not coming
Him: actually your dad approved the request on your behalf
Me: so why you telling me, wanna brag??
Him: i just wanted to ask you myself
Me:im not coming Tee get it, better tell your parents.
I dropped the call and went straight to my dad's study.
Me: im not having dinner with the Pretorias family
Him: how disrespectful, and who you shouting at
Me: im not gonna marry Tee dad get that in your thick skull
He got up and came to me. I became scared. His face was
suddenly pink.
Him: you not gonna shout at me Innocentia Brown.
That came out firm and low toned.
Me: im not going dad
Him: you are and that not up for discussion young lady.
I rushed to my room and called Musa. I needed to calm down i
wanted Musa now.
Him: Mma Brown
Me: please come
I sniffed more than once
Him: baby you alright
Me: im good Musa just come
Him: you sure your parents wont kill me
I chuckled
Me: i dont care about them now please just come
Him: on my way my lady.
I bathed and wore my addidas tracksuit and snickers. The
weather was suddenly cold. Dad was still in his study and mother
was out. I made my way to the kitchen of which i became relieved
when nobody was there. I go out and went to Musa's car. We
hugged and got in. The wind was too much so we closed the
windows and sat looking at each other.
Me: they want me to marry him babe
He sighed and brushed my chicks soflty
Him: so you dont have a say
Me: im trying love, but those two are just hot headed
Him: i cant let you go muntu wami
Me: i kissed him, i kissed Tee . .
He took one huge big breath and looked at me.
Him: tell me why
Me: im sorry, i just had to tell you.
Hin: do you love him??
Me: no of course not baby i love you im fighting for us.
Him: but you kissed him
Me: it was a mistake bbey i was vulnerable
Him: so he makes you weak??
Me: Musa please
Him: how many times
Now i had to lie, the disappointment his face i couldnt add more.
Me: it happened once
Him: i forgive you, but please stay away from him
Me: that what im trying to do
Him: i love you Mbulelo
Me: i love you Mr Brown
We talked for hours. It was 10pm and i just didn't want to go
home.
Him: babe it late
Me: im not going home
Him: i gues you sleeping at my place
Me: your dad will kill me
Him: my dad adores you baby, but he sure hate your father
Me: im still wondering why
He drove to his place. I tell you i was scared so scared but i just
wanted to be with him. Who knows maybe this might be the last
time we spend together. We got in and everyone was sleeping
except for his brother Philani.
Him: Lelo
Me: Philani
Him: this is a first, what did you give her bro?
Musa: shut up and leave my lady alone.
Me: he doesn't have to give me anything
I smiled at my bae. Philani headed to his room while Musa made
us some coffee
Me: baby
Him: love
Me: can we skip the coffee i realy need to lie down.
Him: owk bbey just go to my room am coming
Me: mmhm Musa
He raised his eyebrows
Me: i dont know your room remember? ?
He smiled
Him: oh sorry babe let go sthandwa sami.
We went to his room and it was just out of this world. I noticed he
had a frame which a photo of me next to his bed i smiled at
myself.
Me: you can go and continue with making your coffee.
I wanted him out of the room so that i can take off my clothes.
Him: you kicking me out of my room now?
Me: yes i am.
He went out and i quickly took off my clothes and wore his big
tshirts that revealed my white thighs. He came in finding me sitted
on his couch.
Him: you not gonna get in bed??
Me: waiting for my coffee
Him: i thought you said you didn't want coffee
Me: now i want it mr.
We shared his and i got in bed while he took of his clothes. Nigga
was all muscled and strong. He had one beautiful body and Tee
was never a match, this person here was my own Trey Songs. I
smiled while staring at him
Him: mmhm staring is rude Miss Brown
Me: who said i was staring
Him: who wouldn't stare at this
He pointed at himself. I loughed while shaking my head. He was
left with his boxers. He came to bed and we cuddled. See how
different he was from Tee, Musa respect me and that makes me
feel worthy. We cuddled for some time till we fell asleep. the next
morning we were woken up by screams, people were shouting
and i heard my mom call me.
My heart raised, i couldn't believe my parents.
Me: musa my parents are here
Him: i heard them love please dont freak out
Me: well im not, but how could they? ?
I got up and putted on my clothes. Musa did the same and offered
me a toothbrush with a face cloth. I washed my face and teeth.
We stood next to each other for sometime looking at our eyes, we
were so calm and ready for anything. He hugged me and we
kissed for some time untill someone decided to barge in
disturbing our moment.
Insert 7

Lelo
Dad's face was red, the anger in him was undescribable. I could
feel fear crawling in me but i refused to let it in.
Him: you gonna disrespect me like this Mbulelo,
Me: mmhm dad can we go talk at home
Musa's dad came in mad too, he looked at his son and me then
shook her head.
Mr Ngema: You not welcomed in my house Brown so get out
He was shouting at my dad, my father was beyond angry i tell
you.
Him: so my daughter is welcomed, isn't she a Brown?? How can
you let them pursue this filthy relationship.
Mr Ngema: this is between us man, dont involve the kids
Him: you fucken crazy if you think im gonna let my daughter date
your son.
Mr Ngema: and im not choosing who my Boy gonna date, he is
gonna follow his heart...
Dad: follow his heart huh, well not with my daughter.
They yelled at each other for sometime then our mothers came
through.
Mom: Lelo you slept with him??
Owh woow mom just had to embarass me like that. The room
went quiet and everyone looked at us. Musa held my hand i could
see my dad's veins about to pop out anytime and my mom had
that " no you didn't" look on her face.
Me: it was bound to heppen mother
I lied, maybe they will change their decision of marrying me off.
Musa looked at me and smiled, my dad went out mumbling
whatever he was saying.
Mom: you know what i dont know what to say, your dad will deal
with you.
She followed her husband and i was left with Musa and his
parents.
Mr Ngema: i hope you not just fooling around, cause what you've
started wont end well.
Musa: dad i love her
Mr Ngema: more than your life??
Musa kept quiet then took a deeep breath
Him: She makes me happy, and if it means fighting for her then
so be it.
His dad just nodded and they went out. Musa pulled me for a hug
and looked deep into my eyes.
Him: please dont hurt me
Me: how can i when i love you this much
Him: stay away from him
Me: we just left with 4 months then we leaving this place
Him: i cant wait
Me: we will be free, just me and you and varsity.
We kissed and he drove me back home.
I knew my dad was gonna kill me, the moment i went inside he
called me
Him: how can you Innocentia
Me: dad i love him, im happy with him
Him: you not gonna see that boy ever again, you will be home
schooled for the rest of the year, the only moment you gonna get
out of this house is when you writing your final exam. Do you hear
me??
By that time i was crying out loud. I couldn't believe the cruelty
within this man i call my dad. He was shouting non stop as i
continued crying.
Him: this tears are not worth degrading my name child, you
refused to listen to me now bear the consequences cause im not
gonna repeat myself.
Me: im sorry i disrespected you but please let me go to school i
promise i wont see Musa again.
I pleaded with him but he stood with his decision. I went to my
room and cried myself to sleep. I woke up by 12 oclock , bathed
and wore my ripped jeans, white tshirts and snickers. I made a
beautiful bunny on my hair and made my way to the kitchen. My
parents were both watching tv,wow that's a first.
Dad: where you going
Me: to the mall
Dad: dont try me Mbulelo
Me: i dont understand dad
Mom: lelo please, didn't your dad tell you that you are not allowed
to go out.
Me: mom please not that, im not in prison and you cant be
supporting this crazy idea, im a teenager remember. ?
Dad: yeah a teenager that doesn't sleep at home anymore, im still
surprised
Mom: you still 18 Mbulelo and you sleeping out
Me: mom please the same 18 year old teenager you wanna marry
off, dont you both don't dare judge my doings.
They looked at me with their mouths wide open.
Dad: you see this child of yours im gonna kill her Rebbeca.
He pointed at me when my mom just gave me one cold stare.
Her: jooh hay ke Brown she is your kid too and hot headed like
you
Me: im gonna go now
Dad shook her head and i went outside.
There were 2 men in suits waiting by the door.
Man1: mam you not allowed to go out
I chuckled
Me: nice joke, and who the hell are you?.
Man1: your guard,
Me: my whaat
I felt my inside boiling. Dad had to go extremes, how pathetic. I
went back inside
With so much anger . He looked at me and smiled
Me: you know what im not gonna entertain this nonsense.
Him: no wait, im gonna need your phone.
Me: for what
Him: im keeping it, i told you..you gonna cut off strings with that
boy like it or not. Until im sure you then you free darling.
Me: mom😰
She looked away and ignored me. I took out my phone and gave
him.
Him: now go and look for something to wear, Trevor will be
getting you by 6pm. Dinner plans remember.
I faked a smile and went to my room. How my life had suddenly
changed. I opened my laptop and played music.
The day went by with me stuck in my room, i missed my man and
i couldnt do anything. I thought of our landline but i did not have
Musa's house contacts. Mom came to my room .
Her: you should be getting ready
Me: there's something called knocking you know
Her: you dont have to be cold to me Lelo
Me: im just returning the favour
Her: you just being hard, Trevor is a good boy and he is stable
Me: i dont care mom, i love Musa
Her: that is why you slept with him??
Me: yes and i dont regret it
She slapped me so hard
Her: you better regret it cause this is a disgrace, your husband
was the one who was supposed to take your innocence.
I didn't cry, i was just still surprised that my mom slapped me.
Me: so that is why you left me here all alone with him, for him to
take my virginity? ?
Her: dont put words in my mouth child, your dad is right you
acting like a brat.
Me: i dont care what he is thinking or what you thinking and im not
going to that dinner and that's it.
Mom: Mbulelo
She shouted
Me: you want to play games, im gonna play too.

Musa

I know i hevent realy introduced myself, well my name is Musa

Chris Ngema, im 19 and in grde 12 too. My parents are super rich
and my dad is my hero. It been hours and i hevent heard from
Lelo, my girlfriend. Im sitting outside our house next to the pool.
My older brother came from know where.
Him: mr lover boy
Me: don start with me bro
Him: oh please, today's drama was lit
Me: you never serious, my girl is probably locked out where she is
Him: you haven’t spoke to her after you guys had you know
I laughed
Me: you just have to say it out loud bro, and no we didn't have sex
Him: but the folks said you did
Me: lelo lied to her parents, and i kinda agreed too.
Him: you kids ay, so why not call her
Me: her phone have been off for the past few hours
Him: ay sorry bro, relationships are like this, that why i chose to
stay single
Me: and just chow the girls
We both loughed. He went back inside and i tried Lelo's phone
again. The white woman couldn't hesitate but tell me how the
number is unavailable. I got mad and went inside too.

Nina

Lelo's phone have been off the whole afternoon and Trevor have
been ignoring my calls too. Is it because they might be together??
No Lelo cant do this to me, oh i meant to Musa, or can she? After
all they kissed and maybe did more than that. I cant think of them
together no i refuse. Why do i suddenly feel like this, i knew that
Trevor want Lelo from the start but now im feeling things for him,
im falling for the guy. He took my virginity i should be falling for
him right. I threw myself on my bed and scrolled down to Musa's
digit. I struggled with my thoughts. " Should i call him, i mean i
would just ask when last did he speak to Lelo".at last i called him
and he picked up onthe third ring
Him: Nina
Me: Musa, how are you
Him: im good you
Me: couldnt be better, mmhm i dont mean to pry but i been calling
Lelo for the past few hours and i cant reach her.
I heard him exhale, oh God please dont tell me Lelo dumped him
Him: yeah i been trying too, still no luck
Me: so you guys are fine, i mean why would she switch off her
phone
Him: we good and i dont know, i gotta go please let me know if
she contact you
Me: owkay will do xap.
I dropped the call and tried Trevor again. I know i seemed a little
insecure but you cant blame me. He finaly picked up.
Him:you never give up
Me: i just mmhm i just wanted to say hy
Him: im busy, will call you when I've got time.
Me: Trev im sorry about the other day
Him: i dont hold Grudges that's for kids
Me: so we cool?
Him:just dont make me angry, if i say something you do it
Me: yes mr.
He dropped the call and i suddenly felt better . I lay down and
looked up at the ceiling, picturing a happy family with this
handsome man. Oh Lelo how i wish you could just vanish. I love
you my friend but i want him,i want your future husband.
Insert 8

Lelo

Non matter how much I try to fight my parents at the end of the
day they still win. I'm waiting for Trevor who said he is on his way
30 minutes ago.
Me: mom please don't let me do this
Her: you look beautiful my baby
Me: so you gonna pretend like you didn't hear me
Her:I'm doing this for you plus that family adores you
Me:except that I don't
She looks at me and shake her head.we heard a knock at the
door and the mighty Trevor Pretorias got in.
Him: I'm sorry I'm late
He looked at mom then back at me
Mom: take care of my baby
He nods and we gone.
Him: you are beautiful
I smile a little
Me: thank you
Him: you okay
Ms: why wouldn't I be, after all I'm going to have dinner with my
soon to be in laws
Him: I don't understand you Lelo, one minute you kissing me then
the other you hate me
I chuckle
Me: let me make you understand Tee, I was tempted I know but
please get it in your mind that i dont want to be your wife.
He looks at me all sad and guess what I don't care. He may be all
handsome but I have my own handsome man and my dad might
hate him but he is my king. I love him and in promise not to break
my promise ever again. I might haven kissed Tee back or nearly
slept with him but my heart still belongs to Musa , my Ngema
handsome bae. We outside his house and he still looks sad
Him: can we just be civil with each other maybe pretend you know
my parents
Me: and for how long will i have to do that
Him: please
I nod and we get in.this house is big and beautiful, the furniture
and all is just out of this world. Mrs Pretorias really have an
exquisite taste .we marched to the sitting room and they all
waiting for us. Their faces are filled with smiles and im forced to
fake one too.
Mrs P: Inno you look beautiful darling
Me: thank you
Grandma: oh she always look beautiful, Trevor son don't let her
go
I smile at his grandma who is always sweet, this granny loved me
from a small age.
Tee: I'm not letting her go gran trust me on that one
We pray and eat dinner, then desert. After a few hours we chilled
outside and listening to grandma's stories. It really not bad but I
can't help it but miss my king. I don't have a phone since daddy
took it so I look at Tee who has his on his hands.
Me: I forgot my phone please borrow me yours
He gives me without asking and I'm relieved cause i don't know
what I would have said.I quickly went inside and dialled Musa's
digits. It rings and answered on the third ring and yes I used a
private number.

Musa

It been one hell of a day and I haven't heard from my bae, i can't
shake it but think that something is wrong. I'm with my family
eating dinner when my phone rings. It a private number I usually
don't answer those but with this one something tells me
otherwise. I get up and went to my room then answered it.
Me: Musa speaking
Her: so formal Mr Ngema
Suddenly my heart melts , oh how I've been longing to hear this
voice.
Me: Mma Brown
Her: by the sound of your voice i know you've been worried
I smile at my own, how she can read my mind it so amazing
Me: I almost died sthandwa sami
Her: then I gues you will be dead for a very long time
Me; you fine babe
Her: with hearing your voice im fine baby
I can feel that she is hiding something from me but i decide it fine
as long as I'm hearing her voice
Me:I'm glad you owkay princess, so I'm not gonna see you
tomorrow
She sighs
Her: mmhm babe my parents decided to punish me, so I ain't got
no phone and I will be home schooled for the rest of the year.
Me: wow so you now a prisoner
Her: you can say it like that, unless we breakup of which I will
never do
I smile, how I am stupidly in love with his girl
Me: we will make a plan sthandwa sami it will be alright.
Her: mmhm babe I gotta go, I love you hle
Me: I love you more Innocentia Brown
I can sense her smiling, I just wanna make her happy. Why can't
her parents see that. She drops the call and I sleep on my bed
looking up at the ceiling. I've never loved a girl like I love her. She
complete me in all ways, we've never made love cause by looking
and holding her My love for her always accumulates. I don't know
how I'm gonna cope without seeing her, her parents are just
something else. I go back to the living room,I'm suddenly full I just
drink water and watch tv.

Trevor
I don't know if no should be mad or what. Lelo has disrespected
me. I heard her speaking with her boyfriend using my fucken
damn phone. She didn't see me though because headed back
immediately. I look at her as she joins our little family back.
Mom: so Inno what you gonna do next year
She looks so beautiful, she is one cute lady, I can't give up on
her.I know that a part of her still feels something for me.
Her: I'm thinking Bcom Accounting or Commercial law
I see my dad smile, he loves Inno, actually my whole family does
I mean who wouldn't.
Mom: such a good choice, so we looking at the future Mrs
Pretorias the chartered Accountant.
I cough in between her lines, Lelo just smiles. Then whole
evening goes well, it now half past 10 and everyone is preparing
for bed.
Me: mmhm mom I 'll be back just gonna drop Inno home
My mom smiles
Her: she is not going anywhere, you have a room moc.plus it late
you can't be driving now
Me: but ma
Her:no I will call her parents I'm sure they won't mind
She looks at Lelo who is so quiet and I know by the way she is
looking down she really wanna go home.
Mom: Inno baby it fine you will spend the night right
She just nod, i know she doesn't want to but im glad mom
suggested it. It will be nice sleeping next to her. Everyone goes to
their bedrooms.
Me: well I guess it our Que to follow too
Her: just lead the way
I smile, we go to my room with her following me. We get inside
and I see that she is getting uncomfortable.
Me: you can close the door
Her: as if I didn't know that
I go-to the bathroom and take a shower. A few minutes later I still
find her standing by the door.
Me: you ain't gonna get in to bed
Her:oh please Tee I'm not sharing a bed with you
Me: so you gonna stand there all night
I'm not gonna force her to get to bed and if she thinks that I'm
gonna give her the bed and sleep on the floor then she doesn't
know me well.
Her: I might as well do
I get in and light off the lights, she is still , standing by the door
and I don't care, we both udults here, it not like I'm gonna force
her to do something she doesn't want to do.
Me: just swallow your pride Innocentia .
Her:leave a me alone Tee, I want to go home
Me: go then I'm not gonna stop you, you might as well go to that
boyfriend of yours.
I'm suddenly irritated, a few minutes later I hear her getting in.
Me: take off your clothes this is a bed and I'm sure you can find
something you can sleep with in my wardrobe.
Her: just leave me the hell alone
Me: you can't sleep in jeans, who does that
Her: me
Me: if you don't take em off I will help you
Hrr: I would love to see you try
I wake up and pull out the blanket, she looks at me and away, I
attempt to touch her but she backs away.
Her: stop i can take off my own clothes
I smile, she got up and looked for a shirt of mine, found it and
disappeared to the bathroom. Within minutes she is back with her
thighs exposed not too much though. I can feel Mr Pretorias
getting hard.
Me: now that wasn't hard or was it
She just look at me and get into bed
Her: don't even think of touching me
Me: what so special about you
Her: a lot trust me
I Lough and turn to her side, She looks away and prevent
touching me in any way.
Me: so you called your boyfriend using my phone
Her: you don't mind or do you
I chuckle
Me: don't even think of doing that ever again
Her: you the reason I can't get hold of him at the first place
Me: it not my fault that your parents want me not him
Her: and it not my fault that I want him not you
Ouch that hurts, but I won't let that bastard win, Inno belongs with
me.
Me: yet you sleeping next to me not him right now
Her: because I got no choice
Me: own sweety we always have a choice
Her: just shut up p, I wanna sleep
I smile and come closer to her she tries to move but realise that
she is at the end of the bed.I bent over and kiss her head.
Me: goodnight Innocentia
Her: Night Tee
I turn off the lights and it light out, we go to our dream lands.

Lelo

I open my eyes only to be met by Tee's beautiful self,he is looking

at me smiling. Nigga is sexy. I feel his hands around myself
quickly I attempt to get up but he pulls me down.
Him: morning future Mrs P
I chuckle
Me : in your dreams Mr P
He smiles, he is honestly handsome, his smiles makes me feel a
little bit uncomfortable.
him: slept well??
Me : can't complain
him: who would, sleeping next to me is the best, plus you couldn't
let go of me
I open my mouth wide and close it again, no I didn't. I suddenly
feel embarrassed.
Him: don't act all shy now, it not like we had sex
Me: let go of me, I wanna go home now
Him: and breakfast
Me: home bro, I wanna go home
Him: owkay
He raised his hands and i got up. Wore my clothes and went out.
He followed me still struggling with his clothes. No one was
awake and it was a relief,.we went out and he drove me back
home.
Him:thank you
Me: bye Tee
I went inside finding my parents laughing.I just ignored them and
went upstairs to my room.I took a long bath and wore my big t-
shirt and sleepers. Went downstairs to the kitchen.
Mom: morning to you too
Me:mmhm
Dad: how was dinner
Me: dinner was dinner, I don't know how it supposed to be like
Mom: that attitude won't get you anywhere darling
Me: I thought you were gonna get mad that I didn't sleep at home
Mom: oh come on Lelo we know you were safe
Me: I see
I made breakfast, ate and left to my room. It a Sunday so yeah
since I'm not going to church I'm gonna do maths. Plus we
approaching exams in a months time. Mom got in while I was
busy practising maths.
Her: don't tell me you still sulking
Me: please mother leave me alone
Her: just drop the act Lelo, did you sleep with him
Me: wow just wow
Her: what, I wanna know cause if you did he have to marry you.
I felt my blood boiling, mom got the nerve.

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Lelo

Me: you can't be serious right

Her: what, you slept with that Ngema boy didn't you?
Me: you realy unbelievable leave my room please.
She went out and I just lost concentration. I realy can't wait to get
out of here. Days went by without seeing Musa or Nina.
Sometimes I wondered if we were still friends, because she hasn't
even tried to find out how I was. The teacher I had was amazing
though she bored me to death, but hey I was gonna ace the
exams. Tee spent most of the days eating dinner with us but I
managed to stay away from him. Dad never gave up he even
changed our WiFi password restraining me from using any social
media. This was prison and I swear I was surely and nearly dying
by every passing second. We were starting our last exams next
week, the way time passed, I never saw or spoke to Musa since
that day. I don't know if he has a girlfriend or what and on the
other hand, I'm supposed to be marrying Tee the following week
after we finish writing. Im 18 for God's sake. I was chilling with sis
Beauty watching the Vampire dairies.
Me: how I wish I had my own Stephen
She laughed looking at me
Her: sweety we all wish for our Stephen's, but life wishes the
different for us .
Me: I miss him sis Beauty
I started getting emotional
Her: I'm sure he misses you to baby, don't break down now
you've come a long way.
Me: I can't believe I event seen him for Two months now
Her: time flies baby
Me: I'm sure he even for forgot about me
Her:I don't think so, if he loved you he will never forget you
We talked and continued watching tv, I decided enough and went
to sleep. Minutes later i heard someone getting in my room.
Me: there's something called knocking you know
I didnt even care if it was my mom or dad.
Him: I'm sorry but I thought you were sleeping, didn't want to
wake you.
I turned and there he was, he looked tired but still handsome. He
was holding a bunch of flowers and I gues with chocolates.
Me:Tee
Him: mmhm I had to drop this
He pointed with his eyes
Me: ow,
I was really out of words, I mean it been a while since I received
such.
Me: thank you
Him: anything for my Princess
Me: you can leave them there at the table
Him: owkay, you good?
Me: never been better now can I sleep
I just needed him out of my sight , I couldn't be thinking about his
handsomeness that was crap.
Him: will see you tomorrow then
Me: tomorrow? ?
Him: dinner at my place, thought your parents told you
Me: I'm surprised as you see
Him: owk sure then.
He went out and I immediately got up and looked at the flowers,
they were beautiful, he bought me my favourite chocolates, well
our favourite chocolates. I just smiled then beated myself about it
" don't Lelo don't do that".
I threw myself on my bed and drifted to sleep.

Tee

As soon as I drove out of Lelo's house, I called her friend Nina. I

needed some relief i had a very busy day and it was just
exhausting.she answered on the 2nd ring.
Her: what a nice suprise
Me: how soon can you come to my hotel room
She chuckled
Her: talk about being nice
Me: don't get to me Nina
I heard her huff
Her: Trev you need to start treating me like a person you know I'm
not that desperate
Me: if you not there by 7 don't think twice of coming
I dropped the call. I realy was in no mood. If only things were
looking up with Inno. I went straight to the hotel and took a long
hot bath. Wore my boxers, ate and listened to Drake's music.it
was to 7 when I heard a knock.
Me: just come in man
She came in, she looked so hot damn that girl has one freaken
hot body. I activated a small grin on my face.She acted shy but I
knew girls like her.
Me: I see you on time
Her: when you summoned by the king, you make sure you on
time.
I smiled
Me: now that my girl
She came to my side and I did not waste any time. I just got to
business.we had like 3 rounds and she looked so tired while I was
thinking to myself" this is just the beginning ".
Her: Trev I'm tired
Me: tell me then why did you come here??
I was already on top of her, she tried answering but I entered her
unexpectedly, she letted out a huge moan and that turned me
onner. I buried myself deep inside her and did as I liked. After a
few minutes I letted her ride me. She was so perfect and I was
surprised
Me: I see someone has been naughty
Her: I had to for my king
She blushed still doing the deed. How I wish this was Inno, but
then her time will come.

Musa

It been one hell of a long 2 months. Well right now I don't know
what happening between me and Lelo, but i know that I love her
and i will always do. I'm outside our house chilling by the pool with
dad.
Him: so where you going next year
That was difficult, my plans were to got to UKZN with Lelo but
right now i don't know. But I've been accepted at UJ, TUT and
UKZN so I have to decide between the three.
Me: mmhm pops I'm still thinking
Him:make a wise decision son we talking about your future here.
Me: yeah, it's just so hard you know
Him: because of that girl
Me: I can't stop thinking about her
Him: boy it been what,2 months you said it yourself she is being
forced to marry someone else and by the look of things it gonna
happen.
Me: pops Lelo would not marry him
He chuckled
Him: son I know that family, I've known it all my life and trust me
when I say Brown will not even think twice he's gonna marry off
his only daughter to that family.
I started feeling uneasy, Lelo will marry him, and what about me,
what about our promises I guess dad noticed that I was suddenly
out in another universe with my thoughts.
Him: you just need to move on son, there are a lot of girls out
here , and you still gonna meet some at varsity.
Me: that what you don't understand dad, I don't want any girl I
want Lelo and her only.
I got up and left him alone, I went to my room, took my cap and
car keys then left. It was past ten in the morning, normal people
are going to church. I drove straight to the park not far from her
house. I've been doing that every day hoping I might see Her but
nothing. I got out of my car and seated on one of the benches, the
sun was not that realy hot. I stayed there for like an hour and still
nothing, minutes later something caught my eye. I saw a car
stopping right outside her house and the guy she's supposed to
marry appeared. He went in and within seconds he was out with
her. She looked so beautiful in her pinkish dress, I heard her
Lough from a distance, how I've missed that Lough. He opened
the door for her and then drove away. I was left with tears in my
eyes, how I've waited for someone who already moved on with
her life. I quickly went to my car and drove off. My Sunday was
already spoiled so I decided on studying when I get home, I
needed to concentrate on something that can destruct me from
my thoughts something like mathamathics, pity that her favourite
subject maybe I should do Accounting. Yes we doing the same
subjects, and we both wanna be Accountants, well or maybe
auditors. I arrived at home and went straight to my room, My
brother called me but I ignored him, I just wasn't in the mood. I
knocked myself into my bed and the dude just barged in to my
room.
Him : your face is written, " LADY PROBLEMS"
Me: you don't need to spell it out you know
Him: let go out
Me: on a Sunday??
Him: bro I'm doing you a favour, plus they call it Sunday chillas
Me: I wil pass
Him: you not a Ngema I swear
I chuckled
Me: just get out, wanna study
Him: fine nerd
He went out laughing, I'm not a nerd He is just crazy. I did
accounting, though I kept on making mistakes with the balance
sheet reason why the sheet was not balancing, Lelo would have
know what wrong but then again, Lelo is not here and I doubt I'm
gonna see her again.

Lelo

It a Monday morning, I've got class with Mrs Smith, my only

teacher.well we always studying at my dad's study. I had a great
day yesterday, well I spent the day with Tee, as in I had lunch
with his family and then went to watch a movie then returned back
to his house and ate dinner. It was really not bad, plus it was
better than being locked up here. He really was a gentleman, and
reminded me of everything we use to do while we were dating.
Tee is not really bad, maybe marrying him won't be A bad idea.
Well on our way to the movie's I kept on looking in all sides
hoping to see the guy I truly love but then nothing. I just wish to
see him, maybe not to hold him but just to lay my eyes on him.
Back to the current day, I woke up and did my hygiene process
then bathed, and wore my shorts, top and sleepers, I wasn't going
out so yeah. Mrs Smith was already downstairs. Talk about being
punctual. I made my way to them already with my books, today
was Maths, Accounting and Afrikaans.
Me: morning everyone
Mom: finally you up
I hissed, what is it with this woman.
Me: I'm gonna be quick with breakfast
I said looking at my dear teacher.
Her:it fine, we not in a rush
Mom: huu hay ke Lelo, poor lady came here early
Me: mom please
I went to the kitchen and decided on eating cornflakes.quickly I
was done.
Me: shall we
We went to my dad's study and began studying.
The day was normal and we did everything we had to do for
today. It was half past two, Mrs Smith left and I was stuck with my
mom here. Sis beauty was gonna be around late.
Her: don't you want to get out
I let out a fake smile, getting out with mom was torture
Me: I'm fine Mrs Brown
Her: come on look at your hair
Well i haven’t done my hair since last month, not like I had to be
seen by someone.
Me: mom just go
Her: I'm not gonna beg you Lelo, I was just giving you some fresh
air since you ain't gonna be getting one for the following days.
Me: owkay fine
She looked at me up and down
Her: ain't you gonna change
Me: mom
Her: stay behind then
Me: ay give me 10 minutes then
She laughed
Her: what are you??
I looked at her confused
Her: cause surely you ain't no lady
Me: get to the point please
Her: I spend more than 10 minutes by just thinking of what I'm
going to wear.
I laughed
Me: we not all drama queens
I headed to my room and wore my high waisted black jeans white
crop top, white all stars and took my maroon jacket. I made a
messy bun on my hair then applied lotion on my face. Thats it with
a red lipstick, I loved couler on my lips. I went out and that took
me 8 minutes.
Me: we can go
Her: you need prayer.
I loughed. We went out to the mall, first we stopped at my regular
salon.
Mom: what you gonna do
Me: just straight up, I don't feel like weaves
Her: you realy some sort of a Tom boy
Me: don't start please
I looked at myself and I was so beautiful. We went to the mall and
mom couldn't stop talking and waving to her friends. At the same
time we entered every boutique we came across. The woman
was realy some kind of a shopping freak.
Me: mom I'm hungry now
Her: oh come on Lelo we've just been in a few stores
Me: you kidding right
Her: ok you go to spur and I will find you there
Me: now you talking, money please
She gave me her card and I made my way to spur. I found us a
table for Two and I ordered for myself. So long I had coke. I
heard voices laughing at the entrance, the other one was familiar.
I looked up and saw him in his school uniform.
He was holding a pink school bag, no that wasn't Musa's bag,
then I noticed the girl next to her. She was dark and beautiful,
had the best body structure. He was with his friend Thato, then
the two girls I didn't know. He didn't even see me. I noticed that
he opened the chair for her, how romantic, then I remembered
that Musa has always been romantic. I wanted to go to him but
the way he was so comfortable with that girl I decided otherwise.
Tears streamed out when I noticed that then girl had her arms on
his shoulder. I wanted to scream and cry but my dear mother
walked in. I had no choice but to quickly wipe off my tears. I
smiled more like faked a smile.
Her: you hevent ordered
Me: mmhm i did
Just then then waiter came with my food. I was no longer hungry,
mom said she was watching her figure.
Her: Lelo
Me: mom
Her: you not eating
Well I was literally staring at the food, my appetite was long gone.
And the giggles from their table made it worse.
Me: mom im not feeling well anymore can we go
Her: okay, I cant stand this place
Me: you never stand any place unless it have clothes and shoes
Her: you know me
Baby.
We got up and I tried with every part of me to not be seen by him.
Though my eyes longed to see his face, I just couldn't. I took the
menu and pretended to be looking at it though I knew I was
blocking my face from being seeing. Finally we were out and I
breathed out loud.
Mom: you don't want anything else
Me: home will do please
Her: home it is then.

Insert 10

Lelo

I'm laying on My bed listening to our song,

Luther Vandross ft Beyonce, The Closer i Get To You"
"The closer I get to you
The more you make me see
By giving me all you've got
Your love has captured me
Over and over again
I try to tell myself that we
Could never be more than friends
And all the while inside
I knew it was real
The way you make me feel""
Tears stream out as i imagine his voice, so soft and free. I sing
along sobbing. This is it, my life is going the opposite way. It been
a month, I've finished writing gues all I'm left with is a wedding
that will be taking place on the 20th of December, where i will be
officially turning 18.Nina and I have been separate and I wonder
what went wrong. And as for Musa I don't know cause I last saw
him that day at Spurs. Tee have been trying shame but man the
heart want what it wants." INNOCENTIA I DONT HAVE ALL DAY"
That would be my dad shouting. I quickly stood up and went to
him.
Him: you just had to take your time
Me: I'm sorry
Him: that all you good at this days, you always sorry
Me:😦😰
Him:your mom will be fetching you now, for the dress fittings hope
you ready
Me: I'm good dad
Him: good then choose whatever dress you want don't mind the
price
Me: I will
He then let me go, I went to my room and took a long bath, I was
crying it was hard. I couldn't believe I was getting married the
following week. Mom came back and she called me out to the
living room. I went there and I noticed that Tee's parents were
there too.
Mom: sit down Lelo
I sat next to dad who seemed off.
Mom: we couldn't find a venue and everything is just out of place,
so the wedding can't be next week.
I kept quiet cause that didn't mean that I wasn't gonna marry Tee,
there will definitely be a wedding like it or not.
T'mom: we decided that we throw a small gathering where you
will just celebrate your engagement with friends and family.
I sighed, not that I was surprised.
Mom: so the wedding will heppen but not this year
Dad: and you will go to varsity engaged
Did he have to say it out loud??
They continued planning and i left them. The party was going to
be held here at home since our yard was so big and beautiful.
The week just had to be this fast, it was already Saturday, the day
everyone had been talking about in this house and yes my
birthday. I was still not having a phone. My dad made it clear that
I will get it after my engagement and I had bodyguards so my
whereabouts were known. Nina wasn't coming she said she was
sick or something.My mom walked into my room while I was deep
with thoughts.
Her: you ready
Me: they are here already??
Her: yes baby,
She yelled and a lady and a gay came in.they were there one who
were styling my hair and making sure that I look beautiful. Mom
left and they did their job. I was wearing a not so long bobtube
white dress with white hills and my hair God I looked like a
princess. Dad walked in, he looked at me and smiled.
Him: you look beautiful princess
I wanted to tell him fuck you but I held my cool and just faked a
smile too.He gave me his phone.
Him: someone want to talk to you
I took it and he went out,.
Me: hey
Him: happy birthday Mrs Pretorias
Me:thank you
Him: can't wait to see you
Me: in a few minutes Mr
I dropped the call and attempted on calling Musa but decided
otherwise cause I would be breaking my heart and I already have
make up on my face. Dad came back and took his phone.
Minutes later we were all gathered around our yard. It was
beautifully decorated in white and peach. Mom couldn't stop
smiling and loughing, the woman love attention. The event started
and our engagement was announced. Tee looked all handsome
plus he is always beautiful. Our engagement was announced and
everyone was happy. I had one big beautiful stone around my
finger. Then people sang happy birthday for me. It was amazing
and I'd tried forgetting about Musa, my Prince. Speak of the devil,
I saw his car driving outside our gate, I was standing by the pool
chatting with Tee's cousins. I felt my heart rising when I saw him
not far from us he came Closer to where I was standing. What
was he doing here, dad will kill him. I noticed his that his eyes
were puffy only to realise that he was crying, I wanted to hold him
but I couldn't.
Him: you are beautiful
No please why is he so relaxed??
Me: thank you
Him: Happy birthday Mrs Pretorias
I nearly died , was he trying to make me feel bad cause already I
was feeling worse.
Me: Musa please
Him: you never kept our promises Mma Brown
Oh how I've missed him calling me that, but now was not the time
for getting all emotional. And yes, I didn't keep any of our
promises but I love him I still do, I am madly in love with him
Me: I'm sorry
Him: you don't need to be, just wanted to wish you a happy
birthday.
He then gave me a little wrapped box and left. Tee's cousin's
were so noisy I just left them there.
Musa

I couldn't believe it was true,she was realy engaged when I didn't

throw away the towel, I kept on hoping and dreaming. Lelo played
with my heart, God I hate her no I Love her, how do I move
on.how do I just erase my feelings for her, how do i let go??I can't
I can't get over her, she is my smile keeper. All this thoughts
played in my mind. After seeing her beautiful self, I couldn't stop
thinking that I was dreaming. I wanted to pinch myself so hard so
that i can wake up but yay it was real, reality hurts. I went straight
home and drank one of pop's wines that knocked me off. I fell
asleep on our couch crying for Lelo, for my love.days went by and
it was Christmas not that I enjoyed it but yeah. It was January and
the following day we were getting our matric result. I was so
enxious. I couldn't stop thinking.we were eating dinner with my
family.
Dad: so you ready son
Me: I don't know dad, what if I failed
Mom: you wouldn't dare baby, phela wena you take after me not
your stupid hot headed Dad.
Dad loughed out loud
Me: I'm hoping so mom, I can't afford to fail
Dad: so varsity???
Me: mmhm UJ dad, I'm gonna do Bcom Accounting
Well since the situation with me and Lelo I decided it better that
we go on our separate ways. I can't be with her at UKZN, that
why I decided that I go to UJ it will be easier that way.
Mom: I'm proud of you my son
Me: isn't too early to say that, I mean we don't know my results
Mom: I know you did well love.
The night went by and we went to sleep, though I couldn't sleep
and I wondered if Lelo was managing too. I don't know how I fall
asleep but I did then I was woken up by screams from my dad,
mom and big brother.
Them: you made it boy
Me: what
Mom: I'm so proud I'm gonna buy you a new car
Me: mom you shouting
Her: because I'm proud of you son.
She was kissing me all over and hugging me in a way that i
couldn't breath
me: woman you gonna kill me
My dad and bro loughed, I seriously couldn't breath mom was
hugging me so tight. Finally she let go and I looked at the paper. I
had 5 distinctions which were for, Accounting, Maths, Business,
Economics and English. I was realy happy
Me: UJ here I come
I screamed and everyone followed. I made my patents proud I
was so happy.

Lelo

I was literally shaking when my dad came with the paper, i saw
him smiling and i knew i had done it. I wondered how Musa did. I
had 6 distinctions in English, Accounting, Business ,
Economics,Maths and Afrikaans. My family was so proud. Tee
congratulated me earlier on with his parents too. I was so happy
but sad that I couldn't share this day with my heart.
Dad: you did good Inno
Me: thank you dad
Him: now all you have to do is go to school and remember that
you have a husband, don't let those boys fool you
Me: dad I know I'm someone's wife, the ring says it all
Him: I hope UJ doesn't change you
Yes I've decided on studying at UJ since Musa might be going to
UKZN and I can't be on the same place with him. I just can't so I
gues UJ will do me good.I will be doing Bcom Accounting, and I
can't wait to get out of this house, place and all. I just can't wait to
get out of Mpumalanga. Gauteng is is calling me though I'm
engaged😰😰

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Lelo

Since the day of our engagement Tee has been distanced. Well his
parents said that he is Busy at work and has quite a lot of cases to
attend, not that I'm complaining cause realy i don't feel his
presence, or maybe I'm lying, I do feel something for him but
every time he is around i feel like I'm betraying Musa. I'm with my
mother in my room packing since tommorow I'm going to
Johannesburg, schools are opening so yeah, It time I get out of
Mpumalanga.
Mom: you better behave when you get there Mbulelo, remember
you are now someone's fiancee.
I nod as she goes on and on about being on my best behaviour,
suddenly she changes the topic.
Her: so when will you spend the night with your husband
I raise my eyebrows not realy sure what she meant
Her: oh don't act all innocent now young lady we both known that
you now know ever thing since you gave that Ngema boy your
innocence.
What mom doesn't known is that I actually never slept with Musa,
he respected me and knew I wasn't ready for sex.
Me: mom please I'm not ready
She clapped her hands once
Her: you now have someone to satisfy baby, if you don't they will
snitch him I tell you
Me: I realy don't care, can you please leave my room im tired
Her: I was just saying Innocentia, you now belong to someone
else and he's gonna need you and you know what I mean when I
say that.
She then went out and I took out my phone dialing Nina's digits.
Oh yes daddy dearest gave me back my phone last night, he took
his time I tell you, it like he never wanted me to speak to anyone
else except his precious son in law. Nina' s phone rang and rang
and when I was about to drop it, it was answered.
Person: Nina's phone
Me: mmhm Mrs Jacobs it Lelo, her friend
Her: oh Lelo it been a long time, heard you got engaged
Me: ehh yeah, where is Nina
She exhaled
Her: sleeping, all she does is sleeping this days, she is never out, I
was hoping you know what wrong with her
Me: no ma, it been a long time since I saw her
Her; but you were with her the whole weekend last week
I found myself speechless
Me: mom I have to go please tell her I called
Her: Lelo don't we still talking, Nina spent the whole weekend
with you right
Me: Ma I hevent seen her for Three months now
Her:Oh owkay, bye then
Me: I hope I didn't put her in some trouble
Her: the truth always come out my child
I then dropped the call and lay on my bed, I realy wanted to call
Musa, just ask how he did and what he is gonna study but I
pushed my thoughts away. I'm now someone's else's fiance, I
just need to concentrate on my studies. The day passed and it was
a Saturday, finally within hours I will be gone, I still need to
register and do all sorts of things, i will be staying at our campus
residence. Which means I will have a roommate of which I can't
wait to meet. Mom and dad, even Tees's parents wanted me to
rent a flat at town but I refused, I want to experience varsity like
every other student.
Mom:this is it
Me: yeah, I'm gonna miss you guys
Dad coughed
Him: oh please stop with the pretence
Me: but I mean it
Oh God knows I didn't mean that bullshit, I just can't wait to get
out of this hell hole. I thought my parent were the one driving
me only to find that they called Tee to do the pleasures. He got in
our house looking all drained but still handsome as fuck.
Him: morning people
Parents: Son in law
I just rolled my eyes, I hated this situation.
Him: ready to go??
Me: yes sir.
I said my goodbyes to Sis Beauty and we left. I was sitting with
him in the front he couldn't stop stealing glances at me.
Me: just say what you want to say
He looked at my thighs yes I was wearing a short and my thighs
were exposed.
Him: you fucken sexy Mrs Pretorias
Me: Oh
Him: I love you Innocentia
I felt his hands on my right thigh, I didn't know what to say or feel,
was it right for him to touch me just because we engaged, he
brushed them when in my mind all I was thinking was" do I have
to let him so what he want to do with me",I finally managed to
open my mouth.
Me: Tee don't please
Him: what, you my wife right??
I nodded
Him: so what is it Innocentia
I looked at him, while he was concentrating on the road. He
looked like a mess, I could tell something was eating him and he
was bulling me now.
Me: I just don't feel comfortable
He laughed and immediately pull out a huge serious face
Him: you kidding right
I pushed his hands and looked away outside the window. He kept
on clicking non stop and mumbling words I couldn't hear. A 4
hour drive and we were finally outside my soon to be home. We
went out and I just sighed. How I'm gonna enjoy staying here.he
helped me out with my bags and we went to my room, the door
was open, I smiled when I was welcomed by a beautiful young
woman, she was so beautiful and had that one slender killer body.
She too looked 18years old.
Me: hy, I'm Lelo or Inno, you must be Sharon right
Her: Sharon that my name but baby Shaz is me
I smiled
Me: nice to meet you Shaz
Her: same here roomy, you will excuse me I've got to run
Me: ok see you
I managed to put everything in order, with Tee's help of cause. I
made my tiny bed and then ordered pizza. Tee was laying on my
bed, he had that grin on his face.
Me: thank you for today
Him: there are lot of ways you can use to thank me
I managed to fake a smile, nigga must be dreaming ain't gonna
give him my virginity just like that.
Me: I'm sure you've got somewhere to be
Him: stop changing the subject Lelo
Oh wow he called me Lelo. He came to me and made me face
him, he kissed me and I must say it been a long time since I kissed
someone. We kissed and it wasn't realy that powerful, he kept
touching me all over and his hands ended up being on my butt,
he squeezed em and i tell you that was uncomfortable I ended the
kiss after feeling his hard breath.
Me: I'm tired I need to rest
He chuckled
Him: you know this have to heppen right
I nodded and he just left. I sighed and threw myself on my tiny
bed.

Trevor

The anger I have in me now I realy don't know, Inno is just

unbelievable, I hate to say this but I miss Nina, at least with her I
can do anything i want. And yes I've messed up big time, I slept
with Nina without plastic now the bitch is pregnant. A part of me
is excited and then another is just confused, how do I tell Inno or
my parents that i made someone else pregnant. And Nina has
been clingy, this pregnancy is playing with her. I don't want her to
abort, I may act cruel sometimes but I would never make that
decision. A child is a blessing from God, what I need to do is to
make sure that I do the same with Inno so that she can think twice
before leaving me. I mean if I impregnate her now when she
doesn't know about Nina being pregnant she won't have a choice
but to stay.I known it her first year in Varsity but many girls do
attend their first years pregnant right. And as for Nina, she passed
her matric too but she is taking a gap year, I think its because she
doesn't want to be away from me.Now I'm on my way back to
Mpumalanga, I will be seeing Inno during weekends or when I
have work this side.

Musa

I got here yesterday, I'm staying at res and I must say I'm gonna
enjoy being here. Already I've met Shaz one cute damn hot
slender lady. She is one of the kindest people I've met so far.
And yes my roommate Trey,he is a cool coloured guy I tell you, he
will be doing Commercial Law. Nigga love ladies too much, I don't
know how many girls he has asked out today.
Me: man you should stop irritating this poor girls
Him: bro you hevent seen anything, just shut up and look
He went up going to a group of girls, then seconds later he came
back smiling like a retard.
Him: who am I
Me: loser
He loughed
Him: you see that tall like yellowbone
I nodded
Him: I've already marked her on my one night's stands list
I loughed only to find out that he wasnt joking.
Me: you not
Him: I am
Me: you need prayer
Him: welcome to varsity boy
Me: I'm gonna enjoy seeing you beaten up by a group girls
Him: man forget about that, you didn't see what i saw today
Me: not another girl please
Him: a really beauty bro, she looked so innocent showing off her
sexy yellow thighs
Me: that the only thing you saw her thighs ??
Him: you don't get it bro, that girl is flames, plus she is coloured
too.
Me: owh, i can't wait to see her then
Him: she came in today, but with a guy I don't know if it her
brother or what and I don't care but I know I want a piece of her
I loughed
Me: I'm not realy into girls right now
He chuckled
Him: don't tell me you gay man
I almost died laughing because of his facial expression
Me: no man, how can this handsome person be gay Mara, you so
stupid mfana wemlumbi.
He loughed
Him: that's a relief, bacausenI wasn't gonna share a room with
someone who might be into me
Me: now you are too forward
We continued talking and I must say, with Trey on my company, I
forgot about Lelo, my love.

Lelo

Then weekend ended and I was already done with my registration.

Shaz is a sweetheart we decided on sharing our groceries, she
comes from a rich family too but you can never tell. She is just a
darling and normal.
Her: so who was the hotee that brought you here
I sighed
Me: my fiance
Her: oh, I noticed that round thing on finger but I just let my
thoughts go away, honey you engaged😊
She smiled so wide that I found myself smiling too
Me: yep I belong to someone
Her: well I won't judge, he is handsome i tell you
Me: i realy don't wanna talk about him
Her: oh owk, now hurry up we got an orientation to attend
Me: I'm done baby
We went out going to campus. Shaz couldn't stop bubbling all the
way. Well during the orientation were told everything we had to
know, we then look for our timetables, Shaz was gonna do
Teaching. Every one was told to follow their course leaders, Shaz
left and I was alone since we were not doing the same course. We
followed Mr Naidoo who was showing us our classes and then
welcomed us. Within an hour it was all over and we were told that
classes resume tommorow. I walked out of the classroom looking
at my phone, I got knocked off by someone and I couldn't believe
my eyes. I closed them again hoping it was all my imagination but
damn this was reality.

Insert 12

Musa

George Michael "One More Try"

"I've had enough of danger

And people on the streets
I'm looking out for angels
Just trying to find some peace,
Now I think it's time
That you let me know
So if you love me
Say you love me
But if you don't
Just let me go..."

If it's a dream I don't wanna wake up, no I have to wake up.

Seeing her standing right infront of me brought back every
feelings I felt for her. She looked so innocent and most definitely
beautiful. Is this fate or what??, how come she is here not at
UKZN, how do I let her go when she is right here with me, how do
I move on. The look in her eyes confirmed it too, she was
surprised like I was.
Me: Mma Brown
Her: Musa
We said at the same time, I wanted to kiss her, God I wanted to
hold her but the ring on her finger drove my mind crazy. She is
taken, I told myself, she now belongs to someone else, bro she is
marked and not available.
Me: fancy seeing you here, I didn't think you will choose UJ
Her: same here, I thought you will go for UKZN
I chuckled
Me: well I'm here, no we both here
She giggled, oh God please don't let me feel this way. We both
became silence and looked at each other, I found myself lost in
her eyes, I remembered the times we spent together, the
moments we shared, the giggles we made. It true I'm never
gonna get over her, she is my life, she holds the keys to my heart,
Father how do I just erase how I feel, how do I forget the beautiful
lady right infront of me. Trey came running disturbing us from the
moment
Him: bro what the fuck I been waiting for you
Me: mmhm sorry man I didn't realise I stood you up that long.
He then turned and looked at Lelo whose eyes were fixed on me,
I swear she didn't even notice that someone was here.
Him: bro this is the lady I told you about
Me: oh Lelo
I called her out since she seemed lost,
Her: mmhm yes
Me: this is Trey my room mate and I guess friend right
I looked at Trey and he nodded
Him: lady nice to meet you
Her: same here, have to run
Me: oh owk see you around then
I felt my heart broke into pieces for the second time again, I
wished she would stay with me forever, it clear that she never
stopped loving me, I can see the pain in her eyes, the way she
looked at me, I just wanted to make her happy, but I gues my
father's sins or whatsoever stood in the way of our happiness, our
love.
Me: ok cool
She then left, I stared at her until she disappeared from the
crowd, Trey tapped my shoulder.
Him: What the fuck just happened
Me: a story for another day
Him: man that girl is chillies
Me: you stay far away from her bro
I realy hated the way Trey looked at her, it was just too much and
I know him, he won't stop till he get his filthy claws around her, I
just have to make sure Lelo stay far away from her, plus he is
now my friend right, remember the guy code??. We left to the
cafeteria since I was feeling a little bit hungry.

Lelo

I can't explain the feeling, seeing him was the best feeling ever, I
wanted to hold him, tell him how much I've missed him, how much
I love him, but this thing on my finger restricted me from saying
so, from declaring my love for the only guy I love in this earth. I
couldn't take my eyes off him, I wanted to remain there for a
while, I wanted to feel his presence,God knows how much i
wanted to kiss those soft lips. Oh Musa, how do I live without you,
how do I forget about you when you are just around the corner,
how do I eliminate this feelings, this thoughts, the great times
stuck in my mind, Tell me how do I let you go when I want you
with every part of my body. The moment we got disturbed by his
friend I decided it was my Que to leave, though I wanted to stay
with him longer, but I couldn't. Life how could you be so cruel??. I
ran to my room and locked myself. Shaz wasn't there so I decided
to sleep, though my mind and heart said otherwise I had to, this
was the easiest way to not think about today. I slept for two hours
and got interrupted by my ringing phone.
Me: Tee
My voice was filled with exasperation
Him: guess you sleeping
Me: yeah
Him: just wanted to say hi

Me: I'm good thanks

Him: and sorry about yersteday
Me: it's all in the past now
Him: great then, I will tell you when I come that side
Me: alright, now can I sleep
Him: you are my fiance Inno you should respect me
I sighed
Me: owkay Mr Pretorias
Him: you know what,
Me: no I don't
Him: mxm I'm gonna call you later
He then dropped the call, I got up and fixed some food for myself,
I'm gonna die here cause cooking ain't realy my thing. I made
noodles, you know the drill then ate.it was now 6pm when Shaz
got in looking all fresh but tired.
Her: baby
Me: you've been at school all along?
Her: no darling, I been chilling with some guys and they realy fun
to hang out with
Me: ow owk
Her: yeah, you should come, they hotties too
Me:I think you forgot something
I showed her my hand and she just smiled
Her: I know baby, but that doesn't mean anything, you engaged
not married
I loughed and shook my head
Me: I rather stay indoors trust me
Her: then you will get bored of varsity within a month
Me: trust me I been bored for months now
She laughed and left to the bathroom. I took my phone logged in
to Facebook it been months since I used it. I went to Nina's
timeline and I couldn't believe my eyes, Nina is pregnant. I
decided to let it go and went to Musa's timeline and realise that he
hasn't been busy, just posting his handsome pictures only and
writing silly statuses. I changed my profile picture to the picture
that Musa took of me the last time we were at the park. I smiled at
myself when I remembered that day, I never deleted the pictures
we took, it just so difficult to press the delete button.the day went
by, we slept and within hours it was a Tuesday, I'm gonna see
him I smiled at myself.we woke up and prepared ourselves, Shaz
was no cooker too, we only ate fast foods and ordered, I gues that
how our lives will be from now on.
Her:I don't know what to wear
Me: don't tell me you like my mom
She smiled widely
Her: babe I have to impress
Me: and I've got to go, my class start at past 8
Her: so you not gonna help a sister out
I smiled broadley
Me: baby everything looks good on you, I'm sure you gonna
manage.
I left with another speed cause I knew she was going to make me
choose outfits for her non stop. I don't realy understand the fuss
over clothes, well I was in my black jeans,vest,jacket and vens.i
like being simple and i look good I tell you. I had a Brazilian
weave on. Mom made me do it, she was like" be a lady mani
Lelo". Well my first class was Financial Accounting. I was two
minutes late and the lecture just shook her head, I got in just
looking for an empty chair. I didn't look who I was sitting next to
until I turned my head with the aim of greeting the person next to
me. Boom it was Musa, he just smiled, oh God take me now. I
smiled back and looked at the front quickly cause if I start staring
at him I won't stop.
Him: you look beautiful
Me: thanks
I did not look at him, I couldn't. The lecture got on and on about
statement of financial position, assets and liabilities and the
Income statement. Well that was easy grade12 work. Within an
hour we were done and the following class was taxation but it was
gonna be at 11. I packed my things only to be met by Musa"s
handsomeness at the door.
Him: can we talk
Me: Musa I can't
He looked at me
Him: please
Me: few minutes then
He led me to the soccer field where we found a place to stay.
Him: I can't stop thinking about you Lelo, I couldn't even
concentrate during class
I looked at him, wondered in his eyes, I felt his words, I couldn't
concentrate either, his cologne was extreme, I could feel his heart
beat, it was hard for me too.
Me: you not the only one
Him: I can't live like this
Me: what do you mean
Him: I want you but I can't have you, i dont know what to do
Me: I want you more than anything, I can't think of anything else
but you
Him: you know we can't be together right
I nodded with tears filling my face
Him: you belong to someone else and that's not me
He touched my face slowly and looked at me, he wiped my tears
and faked a smile.
Him: I love you Mbulelo
I felt my heart at ease, his love I could feel.I want him God knows
i want him with everything in me.
Me: I love you Musa, please forgive me
Him: no need to apologise Mma Brown, something's are just not
meant to be in life.
Me: this is not fair at all
Him: life ain't fair Lelo
He then coughed and held my hands, he looked at them with a
smile and then a sour face.
Him: you were supposed to be wearing my ring Mbulelo.
I sighed looking at him, he was hurt and I was broken, very much
broken if you ask me. This love for him was draining me, how do I
love someone like this at an early age.
Him: we have to let go of one another
I thought I heard wrong, how can he say something like that. I
remained quiet with my mind wondering.
Him: I can't do this anymore,i can't put my life on hold, I'm setting
you free, please do the same, for both of us cause this ain't
healthy.I have to move on just like you did.

I looked at Him and he was dead serious, he was crying too but
hell I did not care, he want to forget about me just like that, i got
up and ran with tears blinding my sight. I couldn't breath, the pain
was too much. He is setting me free, what kind of bullshit is that. I
ran to the toilets and cried till in had no tears left. I knew he was
right, I knew that I was engaged and he couldn't have me. But no
thought maybe, maybe there was a slight chance of us getting
back together. I don't know how but we would have managed, I
love him, God i can't imagine him with any other girl. After my
crying session i went out and waited outside the class for my next
lecture. I attended everything though being in Musa's presence
killed me. I went out before everyone and rushed back to my
room. Like always Shaz wasn't around so I just rolled myself on
my bed, took my phone and played music then it was lalaland for
me.

Insert 13

Musa

It been a week and I must say,it has been hard seeing Lelo
everyday, we forced to be seeing one another since we are doing
the same course. I hate to admit it but I can't realy get over her, it
not easy but I have to try. It a Saturday and I'm out with my boys,
well we've befriended this other guy his name is Justine but we
call him Jay, he is coloured too, I gues I'm the only one who is
black, but hey I enjoy this guy's company.
Trey: I think it time we get you a Mrs Ngema
I Lough and hope he is kidding
Me: bro I just got out of a serious relationship I'm not realy looking
for a girl right now
Him: don't tell me you nursing you heart
Me: man I just don't need a relationship that all
Jay: well me I'm looking for a hot bbe to despise my ex, you know
that lady broke my heart .
Well I'm not the only one with a broken heart, Jay too have been
cheated on by his girlfriend with his brother who ended up
choosing the brother instead of him.
Me: you too are crazy
Just then Two beautiful cute darkies passes us, the other one was
realy beautiful, she had one huge booty and he boobs bro she
was out of this world, she was not realy tall but not short too. I
found myself lost in her body. Trey brang me back to earth
Him: I gues that the Mrs Ngema we've been talking about
Me:no man,
Him: nigga you been staring at that girl like some raw meat you
couldn't wait to get your hands on
I chuckled
Me: was just admiring God's creation bro
Him: you need prayer
Me: I'm sure i do
Him: and a pussy too
I loughed , i don't remember when last I became intimate, it was
before I met Lelo, that girl changed me I tell you.
Me: now I won't argue with you
He loughed so hard with Jay too.
Jay: don't tell me you a freaken virgin
Me: you too big for your shoes now
Jay: nigga you need to get laid
Me: now you talking,i just need the right girl for the job
Trey: with me, in a few hours baby you will be drowning in
someone's p***
Me: not an ugly bitch please
Jay loughed
We talked with Trey telling us about some party happening in
some hood, well I wasn't realy into parties but everything has a
start and I gues mine gonna heppen soon. And as for being laid,
there I'm not kidding maybe in that way I can get over my first
love.

Lelo

It had been hard but I'm coping, I've been burying muself with
school work and if not that I'm reading at the library. Well I love
reading and fictions are just the best. Trevor is coming today and
I'm not realy looking forward to seeing him, mom has been calling
me and telling me about all sort of pregnancy preventions. She
even told me to go for an injection that will last me for 3 months
and that i should not forget to get it. And daddy hasnt realy called
me and for that God im greatful cause i hate this man. Shaz have
made friends all over campus, the way she is so chilled you will
never understand her, sometimes she never comes or sleep here
so I'm guessing she has a boyfriend or whatever. We chilling
outside and she has been busy with her phone ever since we
decided to come out.
Me: New boyfriend ??
She smiled
Her: no hun, I'm not looking for a boyfriend man I'm fine alone nje
cha
I chuckle
Me: ow
Her: yes sweety, a fuck buddy will do
I'm still trying to digest what she has just said
Her: whhoe close your mouth already
Me: I'm just surprised
Her: boyfriends are too much bbey
Me: ow what wrong with commitment
Her: it results in heartbreakdps, I just don't want to find myself
sleeping on a wet pillow ever again
Me: so you've been heartbroken?
Her: twice lovey, now I'm just playing a game and making sure I
enjoy it, no strings attached is fine by me
I smile nervously, who does that!?
Me: I don't think I can do that
Her: trust me it simple, but for you mmhm since you engaged I
don't know
I look at my tiny beautiful hands and sulk, I hate this thing on my
finger,i just wanna take it off.
Me: you know I never told you why I don't like talking about
Trevor, my soon to be husband.
Her: come out with it bbe
Me: I actually don't love him, maybe i like him but not that much.
Her: so how come you are engaged to him
I sigh
Me: my parents and his parents decided our destiny years back
when we were still young, I once dated him but it didn't work out
so now I was forced to leave my boyfriend and marry him.
Her: wow so you actually in an arranged marriege
Me: more like that, though they don't see it like that
Her: but at least he is a yummy, imagine been married off to an
ugly pig
I Lough
Me: my ex boyfriend is more yummy that him man
I smile as I imagine his smile there may be handsome guys out
there but there is no one like Musa.
Her: you even blushing
Me: sadly I don't belong to him anymore
We talk for a while then a group of four girls come to us
screaming by the look of things, they know Shaz.she gets up and
give them hugs while I'm still taken by their presence.
Shaz: you guys I didn't think I will see you today
One: well we couldn't leave you behind knowing that you all about
fun
Just then she screams, this girl is crazy
Her: where is it falling, Ziwaphi bobaby
The girl: Soweto hunny, don't worry we have transport
Shaz then realise that she did not introduce me to her noisy
friends.
Her: oh man, guys this is Lelo
I smile
Her: and that's Centia, ,Neo,Millicent and Queen
I smile again, Centia was the one talking, she is a yellowbone,
short and well shaped, Neo is dark and very well shaped and so
is Queen, well Millicent is yellow too and tall, have that model
body.
Centia: you coming right?
She looks at Shaz
Her: count me in Dali and my friend here
She says looking at me
Me: oh no I'm not realy a fan you guys enjoy
Her: you gotta be kidding, you've been stuck in that Dom all week
baby you 've to go out
Me:I'm cool trust me
She just nod and tell her friends that we gonna be ready by 7
o'clock. They go and we left alone.
Me: I thought I said I'm not going
Her: well you coming with me like it or not
Me: I 've never realy went out partying
She laughs
Her: everything have a first time
Me: I gues
We go to our room and rest since we have a party to attend later.
I get a massage from Tee, I forgot that he said he was coming. I
open it and I smile as he explains how he couldn't make it, Oh
mighty God you never forget your child. Later we out with Shaz
friends screaming, we in a quantum and I don't know anyone here
except for Shaz who is screaming too and dancing while the taxi
is moving. Tholukuthi hey is playing and the shouts are killing me.
I should have just stayed at campus. Within minutes we arrive at
this beautiful big house, realy doesn't belong in Soweto.
Shaz: this is gonna be one fucken night to remember
They scream and we get inside, it realy beautiful and neat. 5 guys
comes to our direction, they are darkies and handsome but I'm
not there
One: what should we get you ladies
Shaz: flying fish handsome
He blushes as he make his way to some room. The house is full
and already some are drunk. I look for a seat and see an empty
couch,the guy comes with different kinds of alcohol and wines. I
take one can of Hunters dry, well I know alcohol just that I've
never realy partied. I make my way to the empty couch and enjoy
the music as the Dj plays Amanda blackftLasauce I do".

Trevor

If I knew that being with Nina will put me into trouble I wouldn't
have even asked her out. I was supposed to be in JHB today but
her hormones were playing with her. She is a month and a few
weeks pregnant and already she is giving me headache.
Her: Trev I'm hungry
Me: but you've just eaten an hour ago
She looks at me with a sad face, now she wants to cry
Her: what you trying to say, that im eating too much yee??
Me: no babe, what do you want to eat
Her: I want pizza
Me: owk then I'm gonna order it.
I do just that and come back to bed, well her pregnancy want me
to be with her always, when I talk about work she cries, she even
moved out of her house, and her parents don't realy have a
problem with it, she is renting a flat of which I'm forced to sleep
over everyday.
Her: I want ice cream too, carrot cake and mash mallows
Me: do you think that's healthy??
Her: do you think I care??
Me: I gues you don't
Her: now Trev
She shouts already in tears
Me: and where the fuck am i going to get all that
Her: you just had to ask a bus already written it destination
Me:but it already late, which stores are open now
Her":Trev I don't care I want pan cakes with ovacado
Me:huh
She then cries out loud, I get up and go make some pancakes for
her, well she does have ovacado so I take them too and within
minutes I'm done,I've got no one to blame I'm the one who made
her pregnant so I have to take responsibility. I just hope Inno
never find out, well not now, I still need to impregnate her then
make sure that she stays with me forever with Nina being my
mistress. I put the food on a tray and go to her room, only to find
her sleeping, this girl is just unbelievable, I mean it took me
minutes to make this pancakes.

Musa

Everyone seems to be enjoying themselves, and by the look of

things, most of the people here are from our campus. This party is
lit and the Dj is awesome.I'm drinking Heineken and I must say it
been a while since I last drank alcohol. The girls i saw earlier are
here too, Trey give me that look and I find myself already trying a
chit chat with that dark beauty. She is beautiful in all ways.
Me: I'm musa
Her:Neo is my name
Me: such a lovely name for a beautiful lady
She blush
Her: thank you, yours ain't bad either
Me: so who you with
Her: friends, you
Me: same, eh can I have your digits
Her: mmhm I don't know why
Me: a beautiful lady like you deserve a handsome man like me
Her: ow owkay
She gives me them then leaves, I come across Shaz the girl I met
first day on Campus
Me: you are here too
Her:baby a party ain't a party without me
I Lough, She is realy a bubbly person, and beautiful too
Me: I see, so you met your roommate already??
Her: yes and she is one of a hell beauty, she's here but I don't
know where
Me: gues I'm gonna meet her one day
Her: owkay, now let me destroy the stage
Me: as if you can dance
Her: watch me lovey
She runs to the stage and everyone shouts at her, her dance
moves are just too much. Soon the Dj plays Sexual healing and
damn that girls blows man's minds. I get out with the aim of
feeling some fresh air only to be met by Neo outside.
She looks so damn delicious in her chocolate body, I'm already
imagining her on me.
Her: already bored
Me: just need some air
Her: and me I gues??
I bite my lower lip, this girl will be the death of me
Me: well if you suggesting
Her: you just too cute
Me: so they say
Her: and I love cute boys
Me: come to daddy then
I slowly touch weist and smashes my lips with hers, she doesn't
hesitate but kiss back, my hands moves faster to her ass and I
squeeze only to hear a little moan coming from her mouth,
Her:you know we can take this somewhere
Me: we far from campus
I whisper in her ears, biting em roughly so
Her: I know a place
Me: no I have a car,
Her: then why are waiting
I grab her hands and rush to my car, I can't wait to taste her
Apple, it been a while since I had one.

Lelo

I just needed some fresh air, I was already falling asleep at a

party imagine that, luckily some guy came to my rescue. He said
his name is Jay he is coloured too and handsome I must say.
Why are this guy's here all handsome, especially those I find
myself around with. We taking a walk outside in the street. It not
realy quiet but at least it not that noisy.
Him: so what does a beautiful lady like you love if not partying??
I want to say Musa but i know he is not asking me about
relationships
Me: I just prefare my own space
Him: I see, you realy beautiful you know
Me: I've lost count of how may times you've said that since you
rescued me from boredom
Him: I gues your beauty deserves to be complemented now and
then
I smile
Me: you realy nice
Him: and I can be more nicer
Me: meaning
Him: I like you, in fact I want you to be my girlfriend
I chuckle
Me: I'm engaged Mr
Him: not married though
Me: that doesn't prove anything
Him: it does, you engaged meaning that's just a promise
someone made and hopefully one day he is gonna keep.
Me: oh
Him: and it won't stop you or him from fucking anyone else
Me: well it is stopping me
Him: what about him
I'm lost with thought as I think about Tee, is he seeing someone,
well I never realy thought about him with someone else, I mean
he says he loves me but a guy like him will never dance to the
kind of music I play, I mean I dont give him sex but someone must
be giving it to him. The way Jay says it means that I can still be
with Musa right??

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Musa

I just say I had a great quicky with Neo, the girl knows her thing I
mean she means business. I did use protection cause im not
ready to father any child, I can't dissapoint my parents plus it not
like I'm in love with her. I woke up with a heavy head, yesterday
was lit and I wouldn't mind partying again.I was sitting with both
Trey and Jay.
Me: I'm just glad we ain't got school cause I wouldn't have
survived any class feeling like this
Trey: was the pussy that good
I chuckled
Me: man don't even go there
Jay: I gues im the only one who didn't get some yesterday
Me: wenza kancane boy( you too slow boy)
Him: I have an eye on someone though
Me: I wonder who it is
Trey: this time make sure you don't catch feelings my outy
Me: we don't want broken hearts again
He chuckled
Jay: trust me I'm gonna play this game carefully
Me: I'm now all about fun bro, fun no strings attached
Jay: with you on that one
Trey: as for me, I was all about that from the start, girls are just
too much
Me: women bro they unpredictable
We shared a lough
Just then I saw Shaz with Lelo, they were coming from the
market.
Shaz: majita (boys )
She was too loud
Us: yeah
Her: y'all staring at my roommate
Me: huh, Lelo is your roommate
Jey: you guys know each other
Lelo was quiet all along.
Me: yeah we come from the same hood
I didn't want people to know about our history, now was not the
time.
Shaz: yes she is my roomamte, isn't she beautiful
Jay: an angel indeed
I looked at him then back at Shaz, Jay should not be thinking
what I'm thinking
Me: she is
I smiled
Trey:with a beautiful name too
This guy's gotta be kidding me
Jay: so Lelo what you studying
Her: Bcom accounting
Jay: beautiful and smart, what a combination
Me: Jay stop with the complements already you making her shy
bro
Lelo:actually it fine
Shaz: saw how you got it all down with Neo yesterday
Fuck Shaz did she have to say that now??
Me: mmhm yeah, she was kinder cool to hang with
Shaz: you must be crazy, cool ain't the word from what I heard
you. ..
I didn't let her finish,
Me: and I saw how you turned the dance floor up and down girl
you were super
Her: that my thing man
I looked at Lelo who was staring at me, Jay eyes were fixed on
her too, I hated how he looked at her I realy did.

Lelo

We were with Musa and his friends, i found out that Jay is his
friend and that Musa was having a thing with Neo, Shaz's friend
yesterday at the party. I mean I heard the girl's talk about her
disappearance on our way back to campus but I didn't think she
was with the love of my life. Looking at him now his face wrote
guilty, he couldn't even hide it. I gues me and him are history.
Me: Shaz I realy need to get back to our room
Her: owkay nu I will find you there
Jay: let me accompany you Angel
Me: my name is Lelo Mr
He chuckled
Him: feisty I see
Me: mxm
Musa: Do you realy have to accompany her, I mean she's going
just around the corner
Me: actually you can Jay
I winked at him
Jay: let us go then princess
I gave him a cold stare
Me: please stop whith the nicknames
Jay: blame your beauty on that one
I smiled, this guy
Me: bye guys
Musa: sho, Jay behave
He showed a serious face
Jay: chill bro, I might be accompanying the future miss Jay
I smiled
Me: Mrs Jay sounds nice
Musa: just go already
We left with Jay busy making me Lough all the way to our room.
Me: thank you
I was now getting in
Him: you realy are beautiful
Me: You should stop with the complements realy
Him: lady I can't, your beauty is something else
Me: mmhm gotta rest Jay, see you around
Him: you not even gonna invite a handsome like me in
Me: Jay im tired, yesterday was too much I need my beauty sleep
Him: can we take a walk later then
Me: sure that won't hurt
Him: later then beautiful
Me: bye Mr
I closed the door and it was lalaland for me.

Narrated

Mrs Brown had attended a business conference with a few

business women , when she came across Mrs Ngema, Musa's
mother. Both women never liked each other because of their
husband's feud.
MrsB: you here too
MrsN: I'm a business woman remember
Her: who doesn't know
MrsN: you acting as if you don't
Her: well I just didn't think you would be here
MrsN: what's with the chits chats anyway
She realy looked irritated
Her: I'm sure you heard that my daughter got engaged
Mrs Ngema chuckled
MrsN: arranged marriage, you never cease to surprise me, you
and your husband
Her: who said anything about arranged marriege
MrsN: do you have to ask, I mean your daughter was head over
hills in love with my son
Her: in love with your son my left foot, I wouldn't want my
daughter to be involved with your family
MrsN: so you chose on marrying her off
Her: Lelo was bound to marry that Pretorias boy
MrsN: so you say
Her: at least now she is far away from your son
MrsN: you know true love sense no distance, if they were meant
to be, fate will bring them together
Her: fate my foot
MrsN: you and me both knows the truth, I just don't understand
why your husband had to involve the kids
Her: what you man did will never be forgotten
MrsN: I wonder if what your man did will be forgotten na
Her:I'm just glad my baby is far away from your daughter
MrsN: UJ is far from UKZN, so your daughter is safe miss
Her: you gotta be kidding
MrsN: what,Musa is at UJ
Her: so is Lelo
Mrs Ngema loughed
MrsN: I told you," fate my foot"
She mimicked Mrs Brown's voice
Her: this doesn't mean anything, My baby is engaged and that
filthy boy of yours better stay away.
After that she left. She thought to herself, how could Lelo not tell
her that Musa was studying there too.her husband is going to be
furious when he hears about this." What will I say" she thought to
herself. Arriving at her house she called her daughter.
Lelo: mother
Her: mother..mother my foot
Lelo: what wrong mom
Her: did you think i will never find out
Lelo: mom what you on about
Her: are you back together with that Ngema boy
She huffed
Lelo: mom I'm engaged remember
Her: then explain why you hide the fact that he is there too
Lelo: because the was no reason to tell you that, Musa and I have
been staying away from each other
Her: I wonder what your dad will say about this
Lelo: mom please you know dad is gonna overreact
Her: I don't know Lelo, I just don't trust you enough with that boy
there
Lelo: I promise you nothing is going on with me and him
Her: I will take your word for it, don't tarnish our name Lelo
Lelo: I won't mom
Her: I'd hate for the Pretorias famiIy to find that you cheating on
their son, you engaged remember that and focus on your studies.
Just then Mr Brown got in finding his wife all tense still on her
phone.
Him: what's is it
Her: nothing my love, just miss my daughter
She dropped the call and got up giving her husband a hug.
Him: you don't want to lie to me woman
Her: it's about Lelo
Mrs Brown knew the better than lying to her husband.
Him: talk already
She coughed
Her: mhmm Musa is at UJ too
Him:what are you trying to say
His veins were already popping out, being white never realy
helped him, his noise was already red.
Her: honey they both at UJ, but Lelo promised me that she is
staying far away from him
Him: that's nonsense, how come she didn't tell us from the start
that the boy is there
Her: baby you know how you are, you'd probably get her out of
there
Him: damn right that what I'm gonna do
Her: honey School has already started
Him: I'm a man with so much power, I'm sure I can pull some
strings in other universities
Her: but
Him: don't, I will be fetching her, I don't want to see that Ngema
boy next to my daughter, plus my reputation is at stake here, for
God's sake she is engaged.
He huffed taking his keys and getting out
Him: I need some air.
He went out and called one of his mattresses
Him: room205 in 10minutes don't be late
Lady: at your service sir.
He then drove to his hotel suit already imagining how he is gonna
deal with this Lelo saga. The way he hated thinking about him and
Musa was too much. It reminded him of his past. A past buried
but now threatening to come out and repeat it episode.
Him: you better make sure your boy stay away from my daughter
Ngema, otherwise this time around, you will have to bury another
son.

Lelo

After the phone call with my mom I struggled to go back and sleep
again. I woke up and washed my body, Shaz wasn't around, I'm
sure she is playing her no strings attached game. I'm not sure if I
can do that, I can't. Today I decided to cook chicken stirfy, steak
and make some pan cakes. Internet helps a lot when you can't do
anything like me, I mean I miss sis Beauty now.someone knocked
at the door, I went to open and i was shocked to see Musa.
Me: what a surprise
Him: it a nice one I'm hoping
Me: don't full yourself Mr Ngema
Him: I like the sound of that
Me: if you mind I'm busy
Him: got somewhere to be??
Me yeah, meeting up with Jay
He looked at me weird
Him: you not doing that
Me: why not, he's kinda kool to chill with
He chuckled
Him: don't get to me mama Brown
I smiled
Me: am I getting to you Mr
Him: you know what, Stay away from Jay
Me: that im not gonna do, you can't tell me what to do Musa
Him: well gues what I am telling you
Me: just go please
Him: not without tasting what burning
I chuckled
Me: you don't have to be this mean
Him: I don't want you near Jay
Me: I don't need your permission
Just then my phone rang, damn it was my day
Me: keep quiet please
He nodded sitting on my bed
Me: father
Him: don't father me Innocentia Brown
Mom told her, that woman though.
Me: mmhm
Him: I want you to pack all your things, tommorow I will be
fetching you
Me: dad you can't do that
I was now in tears, why does he have to take the worst decisions
ever for me.
Him: I'm not asking you Innocentia, you better start packing now
young lady.
He dropped the call and I fell on my knees.I was now thinking,
how can my parents be so inconsiderate. Musa came closer, he
picked me and gently layed me on my bed.
I could see how hurt he was too, this boy was still madly inlove
with me.
Me: he is getting me out of UJ Musa
I cried, I cried for many things, mostly I cried because that meant
there was no way I will be reunited with my love again.
Him: what's for babe
Me: you, we both here remember
Him: im sorry but your dad is something else
Me: I don't know why he hates me this much, hates you this much
Him: me and you both
His hands were realy soft, I can't remember when last I felt like
this. Being on his embrace was the best feeling ever. Was I not
deserving to be happy, Musa make me happy, can't my dad see
that?. I sobbed still on his embrace.
Him: don't let him do this Lelo
Me: what can I do, he pays my fees remember
Him: that doesn't mean anything, he is your father he should
Me: I can't disrespect him Musa
Him: so you gonna leave me again
Me: you already left me Love
Him: you know that's impossible
Me: but you slept with her
Him: that didn't mean anything
Me: you hurted me
Him: you did too
Me: so that was your revenge
Him: can we please stop arguing
Me: I'm all drained, I don't know what to do anymore
Him: come let sleep
Me: let me turn off the stove off first
Him: I will do that okay
He got up and went to the kitchen, then came back smiling. He
undressed himself and only being left with his briefs.
Me: Literaly you naked bro
Him: I can't sleep with clothes Mma Brown
I chuckled
Me: I'm hoping you not expecting me to undress myself Mr
Ngema
Him: well how we gonna cuddle with your body all dressed up
Me: mxm just get in
I took out my clothes and I was left with my bra and panties.
Realy weird I tell you, but it felt so good.I even forgot about my
dad.
Him: please stay far away from Jay, actualy both Jay and Trey
I chuckled
Me: jealous much
Him: I won't repeat myself Mma Brown
Me: threats doesn't suit you Mr Ngema
Him: you won't like my actions baby
Me: I would love to see them
He got closer making me feel his body, his hands all wrapped
around myself.I felt home, we slept on that position.
Him: I don't know what you gave me, but I'm so madly in love with
you
With that he dossed off, I found myself smiling. I dont know when
and how I slept but i was woken up by Shaz and her friend's
noise.
Me: some of us are sleeping please
I was realy irritated
Shaz: sorry boo, guys keep it down, give me a few seconds I will
meet you Outside
Them: sho case
They gave me ugly states but I didn't care. I went back sleeping,
but Musa's smile got me very much active.
Him: that was too much noise
Me: and your girlfriend is outside
Him: which girlfriend
Me: ooh how many are they
Him: don't try me Lelo
He got off and wore his clothes Shaz was in the bathroom. I too
wore my clothes and we went out.
Him: ladies
He said as we passed them. The way Neo was looking at me God
I'm even afraid of going back to my room
Me: see what you just did
Him: what did I do
Me: you telling me you didn't notice the way they were looking at
me
Him: and you care??
Me: shit Musa i don't want any more drama in my life
Him: you worry too much sthandwa sami
Me: don't call me that
Him: what Mbulelo
Me: bye Musa
I left to my room, Shaz had already dressed all nice and beautifull,
her friends were now inside.
Neo: so you and Musa
Me: mmhm
Shaz: Musa was the one with you here baby??
She was even shouting
Me: you don't have to yell you know, we can all hear you
Her: huuu hay me baby just come out with it already
Me: there's nothing to tell realy
Neo: then you better stay away from him
I laughed
Me: honey if only you knew
Shaz: I saw how you too were like earlier
She clapped her hands
Her: yazi I thought it was my imagination
Me: stop it already Shaz
Her: by the way you make a good couple
Neo: don't tell me you entertaining this shit Shaz
Shaz: honey cool down, you were a one night stand, well not
even a night, a two second stand, don't tell me you already
catching feelings
I loughed Shaz is realy something else
Neo: it meant more than that though
Shaz: don't let her intimidate you, but still you and me have to talk
She said looking at me with that " serious talk have to take place
look", then they went out with her friends.
Her: see you later love
Me: later then, be safe
Her: I should be telling you that.

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Lelo
""The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants""

Im singing in the shower with tears flowing against my cheeks. It

hurts so much and the worst part is I can't talk to anyone, i dont
have a friend to confide into. Shaz did not come back last night
and i spent the whole night thinking about father. It a Monday
morning and i have a Tax class only at 10 the following class is at
12. My mind hasn't been resting since the phone call with dad. I
cant let him do this to me, I let him marry me off and now he
wants to get me out of the only varsity I've been dreaming about.
This man won't stop controlling my life if I don't fight back. I get
out of the shower when I realise that the water is cold.I lotioned
my whole body and wore my boyfriend jeans, black and white top
and my old school vans.I'm going to town i have to do my hair, I
really do look ugly. I make a neat bun though my hair has grown a
little growth. I take my black hand bag and make my way out.
Already I've called a cab so when I got out it already there.
Me: hey
Driver:where to mam
me: Sandton baba
He looks at me and smile. Well I decided Sandton because I've
got the money, daddy gives me 5000 monthly allowance while
mommy dearest gives me another 5000, we should not forget that
i have a fiance right, who promised to give me 7000 per month, so
why not spend it if you have it. i smile as we arrive, I get out
smiling, today I'm gonna spoil myself to the infinite. I wonder
around enjoying every moment of it. Seeing celebs all the way
and waving to some. I'd hate to be a celeb trust me I cannot
endure all that fame it too much. Finally I've seen whatever that
amuses me, I enter in one of their salons, I'm not gonna look at
the price.
Lady: you welcome dear how can we help you
I struggle to say what exactly do I want to do until she handed me
one of their pamphlets. I sigh as I decide on repeating a Brazilian
weave.
Me: Brazilian weave please
Her: how would you like it
Me:mmhm... with big beautiful waves with some smaller curls at
the bottom part please
Her: nice let get started then.
Within two hours we done, I look at the mirror and I look so sexy,
bro those varsity boys will be drooling over me the whole week.I
get out and do some shopping, then I'm off to a close restaurant
and have myself one nice expensive meal leaving the waiter with
a big tip. My phone make a notification reminding me about my
class. I've got only 10 minutes left and i wont make it even if i tried
running. I make my way out the mall with my head all over, Tax
seems to be difficult that why I can't miss any of my classes.I
head out rushing then I remember, I did not call a cab. I sigh and
call it, nigga will be here in 15minutes. I'm really dead. I'm still
waiting for my cab as I run out of patient.
A fine brother walk to me, he is the Miguel type of
person.Handsome is the defination.
Him: who keeps a beautiful lady like you waiting ?
Me: hy to you too
Him: oh hy
Me: that wasn't hard right
Him : not at all, I'm Nick
Me: okay Nick
He chuckles and raise his eyebrows
I really don't have time for chits chats, I need to be at campus as
in now.
Me: what
Him: you are?
Me: a woman
him: you are beautiful
Me: I know
Him: you seem off
Me: I'm always like this trust me
Him: I doubt
Me: I gotta go, My cab has arrived
Him: so you gonna spare me your name
Me: it aint important right
I wink at him as I make my way to the cab. Within minutes we at
Campus and he drops me. As I go to my room I'm meeting a lot of
stares from girls. I get inside after realising that it not locked. To
my surprise I met by my dad's scariest look, nigga is handsome
but what I'm seeing now is a white beast that had turned to be
pink.
Him:" Innocentia
Me: father
Him: don't father me, what is it that I see, I told you to pack all
your staff we leaving.
I try to act cool though I'm scared as shit
Me: dad I'm not leaving with you
Him: say that again
me; I'm not leaving UK and that's final
He came to my side and I go back withbear crawling in, I know
daddy will never neat me but somehow I'm scared of him.
Him: I'm not gonna be told by my baby what to do, now pack your
staff I won't repeat myself
Me: daddy please
Him: don't Mbulelo, who do you think you are, I pay for everything
so I make the decisions here
Me: I have class to get too now please
Him: don't dare me little girl
Me: father am I not allowed to do what I love where i want??
Him: what do you know, you just 19
Me:and engaged remember
He seems irritated but I don't care, dad is too much of a
controlling freak
Him: I hate saying the same thing all over again, If I get out of
here and you not following me, you gonna have to bear the
consequences dear daughter.
Me: I'm sorry father but it time I stand up for myself
He went out clicking his mouth, as I sit on my bed tears falling
down. I love my father I really do but I hate the way he makes
decisions. It is always for his good cause, nobody else matters as
long as his needs are met first.

Narrated

Mr Brown got out of the campus feeling defeated, not once in his
life had he expected his daughter to decide against him. He felt
like he needed some relief and there was neither one of his
mistresses this side. As he got into his car, he saw a group of
ladies who were staring at him and laughing. He thought to
himself " God you always on my side"
He liked them dark, as white as he is black pussy turns him onn.
He stood against his car and smiled, he then pointed to one of the
girls who didbt believe that he was being asked to come over to
him. She came swaying her hips, her walk was turning him onn,
as she reached his side she acted all shy.
Him: beautiful lady
She blushed
Him: so you are? ?
Her: Neo
He not his lower lip
Him: beautiful namevgor a beautiful girl
Her: thank you
Him: oh honey there's no need for that
Her: mmhm
him: so Neo beautiful can I borrow you for a few hours
Her:it depends what for Me white
He chuckled
Him: Mr white I like
Her: I don't have class till 2 so .....
Him: is that an approval
Her: maybe
She said biting her nails
Him: acting all shy I see
Her:always does the trick
Him: and it working, now get your ass inside the car
He said as he spanked her hard, she let out a normal lady like
scream then loughed gettibg in the car. Gone are they to kne of
the expensive hotels in sandton then the rest was history.

Trevor

I'm preparing for a meeting when I receive a call from an unknown

number
Me: Pretorias speaking
Caller: so it really you son of a bitch
I know the voice from somewhere but I don't remember it
Me: who am speaking to
Caller: your worst nightmare nigga
Me: please if you not gonna speak something fruitful i have a
meeting to prepare for
Caller: you drop me I tell you peace will be the last thing you know
Me: oh I'm scared is that a threat
He loughs as I run out of patient.
Him: man you have marked the wrong girl, you have to do the
right thing to the family
Me: who you talking about
Him: who did you screw
Me: nobody
That come out a whisper
Him: I'm not gonna say this again, you have to do right by me, my
family and sister
Me: I don't have time to entertatain this shit
Him: it is shit now but don't tell me I didn't warn you
Me: I'm not scared of you people
Him: now we are you people, but when you fucked my little sister
you never thought of her race, as black as she is you enjoyed
drowning your ugly white dick in her.
Me: fuck you man
Him: I will surely do fuck your pink face trust me
The person dropped the call and immediately I called Nina with so
much anger in me
Her: bunny
Me: who the fuck do you think you 're woman
Her: Trev what do you mean
Me: don't fuck with me Nina you will be sorry
Her: Trev baby I don't....
Him: yey bitch I'm gonna Show you hell if you think this
pregnancy will make us husband and wife.
I could hear her sniffing, I hate doing this to her but she has
pressed the wrong buttons.
Me: for God's sake Nina I'm engaged to you friend worst part
Her: don't you think I know that
She let out a big sob and I hated myself for that.
Me: now act like a big girl and be the best side chick honey
Her: ....
Me: Nina
I shouted but firmly so
Her: Trev
Me: tell that brother of yours I'm not gonna entertain his rubbish
Her: I will do
I smiled
Me: we don't want to lose each other because of this nonsense
Her: I get you
Me: now what would you want me to get for you
Her: muffins please and a chocolate mixed with vanilla icecream,
don't forget hot wings
Me: will be at your service then Mrs Jacobs.

Narrated

As soon as Trev dropped the call Nina called her brother. She
hated how Trev treated her, and how she had fallen for him so
deeply. Being his brother's favourite was the best.the phone rang
and was answered at the fourth ring
Her: I know you fucking someone you met at the driveway
He loughed
Him: you know me too well little sister
Her: Nick we have a problem
Him: you just called me by name that means it huge
Her: Trev threatened to leave me and you know I can't lose him
Him: that nigga is tempting me
Her: he has to be mine, he impregnated me and wants me to be
his mistress, what's that huh ?,
Him: leave him to me I'm gonna sort him out
Her: you have to, I lost my bestfriend because of him, I can't let
my loss to be worthless
Him:don't worry sweetcake I will sort that white face.
Her: don't push him away please just make him see that he has
got no choice but to marry me
Him: all done then, after sorting him I'm gonna make sure I play
with his territory too
Nina thought immediately
Her: what if you start now I mean you can ask Lelo out and start
dating her
Him: meaning
Her: don't act all dump, date Lelo and make sure that you sleep
with her then we make Trev aware of what his golden fiance gets
upto that side
Him: that is an idea, but how do I get to her, I mean I haven't
seen her in ages I wouldn't even recognise her now.
Her: I will send her pictures, she is at UJ I hear
Him: will hear from you then now let me continue with what i do
best
She chuckled
Her: I'm feeling sorry for the poor girl
She then dropped the call and smiled brushing her tummy "
mommy is gonna do anything to keep you in a real true loving
family baby"".

Insert 16

Musa

Lelo missed both classes today, so I made it a point to rush out to

her room after class. I'm just hoping she is there and that her
father changed his mind.
I knocked slowly praying that she was indeed inside.
Her: whose there?
The relieve I got after hearing her voice
Me: Mma Brown please open up
She realy took her time but eventually she opened looking all
beautiful and sexy.
Me: wow you look beautiful nor you are beautiful
She blushed
Her: thank you now how can I help you Mr Ngema
I chuckled
Me: was realy worried after not seeing you in both classes
Her: God he recongnised I wasn't in today
Me: I always feel your presence my love
She chuckled
her: now that's pure lies
me: you will never understand
We were both sitting on her bed, she realy looked beautiful, I
swear every guy on campus was gonna hunt for her.
Her: daddy dearest came
Me: and
Her: I disappointed him, I'm sure he is still angry wherever he is
Me: well you can't always bow to him
Her: he is my father Musa
Me: but he is selfish truth be told
Her: well I don't wanna talk about it anymore
She got up and I did the same,we looked at each other and got
lost in our thoughts. I wanted her as much as she wanted me,
right now i didnt care if she was to marry someone else or what
but all i wanted was to be with her, to hold her and tell her how
much I love her.
Me: I can't do this anymore, I want you Lelo, you and only you.
Her: Musa but. ..
Me: no Lelo I love you, I want you Mma Brown
Her: Oh Musa
Me: I want to make you happy
Her: I love you too Mr Ngema
me: Can I kiss you now
Her: do you have to ask
I came closer and kissed her sweet lips softly. I didn't want to let
go of her and so was she. Our lips dance to the rythm of true
love.I could feel my heart about to come out. The excitement my
body felt was beyond measures. God knows I truly love this
woman next to me. After some time we stopped kissing , our eyes
locked yet again. I shed a tear of heppiness, she was so innocent
like the first time i met her.
Her: please don't leave me again Musa
Me: I'm not going anywhere muntu wami
Her: and please don't hurt me
Me: I promise you babe
Her: I'm tired
Me: let us sleep then
We cuddled until we slept. That was the best feeling ever,
sleeping next to my heart was just amazing.

Lelo

We both got up after hearing the door open. Shaz gasped as

soon as she saw us.
Me: close your mouth already
Her: I'm gonna take a shower first
She winked and I just smiled
Me: babe you have to go
Him: well I gues I will see you tonight
Her: what's happening tonight
Him: im taking my person out
Her: well I can't wait
He perked my lips and went out. I smiled as he closed the door. I
truly love this creation, I love Musa, though I'm engaged to
someone else, but now that doesn't matter what matters is my
Ngema man.
I didn't even realise that Shaz had already done showering.
Her: earth to Innocentia Brown
She was waving next to my face
Me: dah I'm here already
I blinked twice as I said that
Her: out with it girly
SHe said while still lotioning her body
Me: out with what??
Her: Mr hotty was here,in your bed next to you. ..damn girl
I smiled
Me: well we kind of got back together
Her: tell me you are kidding
Me: I'm not
She threw herself at me screaming all kinds of silly things
Her: now you make sure you hold on to him cause I tell you babe
most campus girls want him
Me:I'm not letting go of him again sweety
I smiled showing off my beautiful white teeth.
Her: you realy are happy
Me: It been a while love
Her: I'm happy for you sweetheart
Me: not the way I'm happy
She wore her clothes taking along her sling bag heading outside.
Me: you going out again?
Her:honey I'm all about living the life
Me: mmhm so I've heard
Her: yep I have a date
Me: you have a date??
Her: It weird right
Me: thought you weren't doing feelings
Her: call it a little outing nje
Me: own goodluck then
Her: later bae
me: as if you will come back
Her: it not like you notice my absence with Mr hotty all around
your arms
I chuckled
Me: go already
Her: already gone
She went out leaving me all amused.
I got up and washed my body.
I wore only my gown and made cornflakes for mysef. I ate and
studied Taxation since I missed it today. I got a call from mother
which I struggled to answer as I knew what to expect.
Later by 8pm Musa called saying he was downstairs waiting for
me.I wore my short black dress with nude hills, had my earings
onn and my make up onpoint. I wanted to look good and make
sure that he never look at this campus tramps.I took my bag and
went out. He looked at me with his sexy eyes and immediately I
found myself falling for him harder.
Him: Mma Brown
Me: Ntante Ngema
he smiled, It like he was speechless or something
Me: someone is blushing
Him: you complete me
Me: you are my life
Him: you realy are a princess, I'm blessed to have you
Me: stop it already
He chuckled
Him: umuhle sthandwa wami ( you beautiful my love)
Me: and so are you my handsome man
Him: your man?
Me:yess my man
Him: I'm so proud right now
Me: I love you
Him: not like I love you my heart
He held my hand and went one to his car driving to this other
expensive restaurant. Musa realy made my night, with him
pouring his heart out every opportunity he got, we loughed at our
silly jokes and smiled throughout the whole dinner date thing.
Him: I realy enjoyed your presence
We were outside my room
Me:Same here
Him: well I gotta go
Me: goodnight then
We kissed for a moment then broke it down
Him: Night Mma Brown
I smiled shyly
Him: I love you
Me: I love you
We parted ways as I went in and him going out. Shaz wasn't in so
I just stripped myself naked and slept thinking about my day. I had
an auxhausting morning but an interesting night. As I was about
to knock off my phone rang and it was dear fiance
Me: it half past11 for God's sake
Him: I'm sorry I know it late
Me: then why call when you know
Him: had to hear your voice
Me: oh since you've heard it now can I sleep
He chuckled
Him: you've got to stop treating me like shit Inno
I chuckled
Me: what exactly do you want Tee
Him: you are my future wife dammit you've got to start respecting
me
Me: owh I'm so sorry sir
Him: you know what I'm coming over this weekend
Me: so??
Him: I'm gonna book us a hotel room
I chuckled
Me: you telling me??
Him: we are literaly husband and wife so I have to get what
belongs to me lawfully
Me: we haven't signed the paper's Tee, and what do you mean by
what belongs to you??
Him: I don't have to answer that, I've said what I wanted to say so
goodnight
Me: Night Tee
Him: I love you Mrs Pretorias
I chuckled
Me: sleep well
I dropped the call and sighed.so much for having a great night.
Tee must be insane if he thinks in gonna sleep with him, give him
my innocence, I have to make things heppen with Musa. I slept
still wondering.
Nina

As much as I would hate to hurt Lelo but my happiness come first.

I have to make things happen for myself first then others shall
follow. I love my friend but I love myself more and this baby I'm
carrying deserves a loving complete family, not this shit Trev
keeps on talking about. I will not settle for less, I'm not even poor I
know my worth. I was seating with mom having breakfast. It a
brand new day on a friday monday. The weather is cool but it
seems like it will rain later.
Me: so mom when will we go to the Pretorias family?, I mean I'm
already showing
Her: I don't know i still have to ask your aunt's cause I cant do this
on my own Khabonina
Me: it's just that I want this over and done with
Her: I still dont understand how you got pregnant at this early age
and out of marriage
me: mom please we talked about this
Her: no Nina, your father is realy dissapointed on you, with all the
kids he have you were the only one he was hoping to be proud of.
I chuckled, well my mother is in a polygamy marriage. She is the
second wife and has two kids with father who are Me and Nick.
Daddy dearest lives at Eastern Cape with her First wife and his
other 5 kids since mom was against us living together which is
why we left Eastern Cape for Moumalanga. Mom and dad are still
together and father visits us every month. So basically i 've not 6
siblings. Three boys and girls.
Me: mom I know I dissapointed daddy but what's done is done
now
She breathed out loud
Her: I don't know where I went wrong with you my child but I gues
we can't change the situation
Me: I'm glad we both agree
Her: but I'm gonna tell you the truth, you better pray that that boy
admit that you are carrying his baby
Me: that shouldn't worry you mommy but Trev's family need to be
told about my pregnancy
Her: I will call over the aunts and uncles then and your dad too
Me: i know I have to face him overtime
I said as I drank my tea

#17

Musa

I would be lying if i said i wasnt happy. Lelo makes me happy and

im glad to have her in my life.
Trey: bro if you don't stop smiling all alone I swear I'm gonna give
you a wake up slap.
I chuckled
me: can't a nigga be happy
Him: bro you in love
Me: I've always been you asshole
He laughed
him: thoughts you were all about fun
me: not when my heart lives right next to me
Him: oh boy who is the lucky chick
I smiled like realy smiled
Me: Mbulelo Innocentia Brown
He screamed
Him: that yellowbone beautiful coloured chick
Me: whoe stop It man that my woman
Him: wow who would have known
Me: you stay far away from her gazi
He chuckled
Him: since she is taken by my roomie, I will definitely stay away
Me: nice boy now I got class
Him: and a woman to attend to
I smiled
Me: you know the drill
I left hurrying to attend Auditing and to see my baby. On my way I
met Neo who blocked my way.
Me: fuck off man I'm in a hurry
Her: Musa how can you speak to me like that after that day.
Me: which day
Her: mxm you realy are a dog
Me: I said Im in a hurry
Her: you think you are better neh
I chuckled
Me: I got no time to explain myself to you now get out of my way.
She moved and I walked to class. It has already began so i found
a seat and listened. After class I went out alone after seeing Lelo
busy talking with the lecture. He looked like he was in his early
thirties and I hated the way he looked at her. After a few minute
she got out and came to me.
Her: hey muchie
She leaned over and kissed me
Me: my heart
She blushed
Her: how are you doing
Me: good bbe, what did that man want
Her: just like you I'm still wondering cause whatever he was
saying was confusing
Me: maybe you
She loughed
Her: don't play like that Mr
Me: I'm serious babe, look at you and that hair style just make it
worse
Her: someone is jealous
Me: honey who wouldn't be
Her : don't worry babe I'm all yours
Me: I know sthandwa Sami
we kissed and chilled busy laughing and eating. It reminded me
back home at the park. Those are memories to keep. I hope we
stay like this forever.

Nina

My family decided that we go over to the Pretorias residence on

Saterday this weekend . I know Trevor will be mad at me for this
but i got no choice. I can't keep my child a secret.
Mom: i hope things go accordingly
Me: same here mother, when is father coming
Her: this afternoon
Me: he is fuming with anger isn't he??
Her: you know your father Khabonina
Me: I hope he forgives me
Her: he is going to want that boy to marry you are you ready for
that
I smiled cause that what I wanted and I knew daddy will definately
want Trevor to marry me.
Me: I got no choice mom
Her: but you so young
Me: and I'm going to be someone's mom, my baby need both a
mother and father
Her: what about your future
Me: I'm going to school next year dear mother, I'm not giving up
Her: good to know there's still some sense in you
I smiled
Me: I just want a better life for my son
She chuckled
Her: who said its a son
Me; I can feel it
We loughed while drinking tea . Oh Trevor you gonna have to
forgive me but im doing what you cannot bring yours to do. I can't
keep my baby a secrete forever. What will people say for that
matter?

Trevor

I'm in my office looking at our engagement picture. We look good

together but I don't know what is the problem .
Me: why can't you love me the way I love you. What difficult about
that huh"? Who has won your heart, who made you forget about
me that easily? ?
I'm angry at myself and at Inno. I know she loves someone. She
can't even hide it. No one will ever have her if I don't, I need to
mark my territory. And sleeping with her without protection is one
thing I have to do. You will carry my baby Innocentia, even if I
have to force you. I took my phone and called Jason, my friend
from Soweto.
Him: talk boy
Me: I see you've grown some balls
He chuckled
him: you sound interrupted
Me: Nigga is stressed
Him: out with it brother
Me: It Innocentia man
Him: that chick will give you high blood plus diabetics
Me : I love that girl man, I think she is cheating on me that side
Him: as if you are a saint
Me: I'm a man nigga
Him: and she is a woman asshole
Me: just help me find the boy invading my property
Him: and when i find him??
Me: I deal with him permanent
Him: you joking right
I chuckled
Me: im serious like in court
Him: don't introduce yourself to such life man
Me:this is about my woman man
Him: fine will ask my lil bro to spy for you, he is on the same
Campus
Me: you mean Jay??
Him: yeah, only if you promise not to kill the boy
Me: who said anything about killing
him: permanent was the word
Me: ok then I will just teach him a lesson
Him: great then will talk to him.
After the call I sat down trying to think of my life. What am I gonna
say to my parents about Nina. I realy have messed up but
whoever is messing with Inno I'm gonna kill them.

Lelo

I'm with Shaz eating while talking.

Me: you never said anything about your date.
Her: honey please stop referring it as a date
I loughed
Me: so how was the thing you went to looking all hot.
She loughed
Her:the food was nice
I loughed she was even serious
Her: it not funny dummy, the guy looked all hot and ambitious but
down there,Oh God I wished I never agreed to such, I mean I
couldn't even sleep thinking about my dildo atleast it did a better
job than his thing.
I couldn't stop loughing yet she was serious
Me: Shame poor guy
Her: poor guy my left foot, poor Me...I mean I was hot babe and
ready for action
Me: you indeed crazy
Her: what do you know I'm sure you still sealed
I gasped and she screamed
Her: you realy are a virgin??
Me: you don't have to shout you know
Her: oh sweet little Mary
I frowned
Me: don't try me
Her:honey how come you are a virgin with two hot guys in your
life
Me: gues I'm not ready
Her: wow, who would have thought
Me: I'm not gonna hear the end of this right
Her: your secrete is safe with mommy baby.
Just then her friends got in. They were all giving me nasty looks
except for Millicent.
Shaz : babies I didn't think you were coming
Neo: we going out aren't you intrested
Her: nop, have an assignment due tomorrow
Neo: we will come back earlier
Her: like I said love I have an assignment due tomorrow
Neo looked at me and I just looked away.
Neo: okay then see you tomorrow
Shaz: sure babes
Neo:and please warn your friend to not mess with me.
Shaz: just leave Lelo alone man
Neo: ain't gonna allow some little virgin get into my way
They all loughed
Me: why cant you just speak directly to me and stop throwing
tantrums
Her:so she can speak
Again they loughed
Me: mxm just fuck off man
Her: same attitude as her boyfriend's
Me: ain't got time to entertain useless bitches.
I left to the bathroom then I heard the door being locked. After
some time I got out and wore my short pj's then called my man.
Him: nhliziyo yami ( my heart)
I blushed
Me: muntu Wami
him: you sound so down
Me: it nothing babe, what you doing
him: I was about to bath you
Me: just finished bathing
Him: I miss you, don't you want to come and sleepover
Me: tempting but what about your friend
Him: he left, emergency at his house
Me: I'm already in my pj's
Him: I don't care please
Me: I will sleep over tommorow
Him: no problem love
Me: goodnight munchie
Him: night sthandwa Sami
Me: I love you Musa
Him: I love you more cupcake
I dropped the call and slept. Minutes later I was woken up by my
non stop ringing
Phone.
Me: it 10pm Jesus
I just hate it when people interrupt me from my sleep.
Caller: manners young woman
Shit it my mom
Me: mommy
Her: mxm that what you good at..mommy my foot
Me: you don't have go be so mean woman
Her: and she has learnt to talk back
Me: I'm sorry
Her :you are apologizing to the wrong person child
Me:😕😕😕😕
Her: do you know how dissapointed your father is
me: I know mom
Her: are you sleeping with that boy Lelo
Me: mom
Her: what?? I can't be always caught up in your mess, now my
husband is stressed and doesn't even sleep without drinking
Me: if only he was reasonable we wouldn't have fought
Her: it just like he said, you better come home this weekend
Me: I'm not leaving UJ mama
Her: we heard that.
Me: then what's for cause we haven't closed
Her: your dress fittings, we still have a wedding remember.
I sighed
Me: I can't, not this weekend
Her: your father had already bought a ticket for you, just be ready
and don't disappoint him this time around
Me: but mommy
Her: no Lelo, you wedding will take place next month, and Trevor
agreed to move that side so you will be staying with your husband
next term.
I remained calm , my biggest nightmare seemed to be happening,
just after I got my man back.
Me: i hear you mother
Her: you will love the dresses I found for you baby they are to die
for
Me: I sure they are
Her: sleep well my child
Me: night mom
I cried as soon as she let go of the call. I know this was dad's
Idea. I called Musa who sounded sleepy.
Him: sthandwa Sami
I sniffed
Me: please come fetch me
Him: love you okay??
Me: just come babe
Him: I'm on my way Mma Brown
Within 5 minutes he knocked and I just threw myself at him.
Him: it will be fine babe.
We went to their room in silence. We got in and went straight to
bed.
Him: baby talk to me
Me: I'm so sorry Musa
Him: Mbulelo
Me:they want me to marry him next month
Him: as in March?
I nodded
He held me tighter.
Him: you can't marry him babe
Me: what choice do I have Musa
Him: I won't allow it, I can't I'm not making the same mistake
twice. I'm not letting you go again.
Me: Musa you don't....
Him: stop it Lelo, you not getting married and that's final.
I cried seeing he was this hurted . Maybe getting back together
was a bad Idea. Maybe I should have left with my father. He
wiped my tears and made me lay on the bed, he got inbetween
my legs and kissed me slowly. The kiss was just amazing and
seductive. I felt things I've never felt before. He kissed me non
stop as his hands moved to my breast. There more he played with
my nipples there more I got wet, as the kiss depened I couldn't
help it but moan unexpectedly.I wanted him as much as He
wanted me, I could feel Ngema poking on his boxers. He took off
my top and looked at me smiling. That worsoned the situation,
foreign feelings attacked my body. Whatever I was feeling was
just out of this world. I tried taking off his shirt as he took of my
top, but he restrained me.
Him: you don't have to
me: I thought
I looked down shyley. He made me look at him and smiled.
Him: I know you not ready
Me: I want to Musa
Him: not at this state love
Me: please I....
Him: shhhhh..
He kissed me once again and took off my shorts.I wasn't wearing
my panties so my naked self was laying on his bed. He went
down on me and licked me so good. I swear I was in heaven. This
was my first time and it felt so good. His tongue doing wonders in
my Apple. The moans that escaped my mouth, I held on the
sheets as i felt my body shaking. Whatever i was feeling God I
wouldn't mind feeling it again.He kissed me with a smile on his
face.
Me: God what did you do to me
Him: I made you happy honey
Me: I love you
Him: I love you beautiful
We kissed yet again and cuddled till we slept.

Insert 18

"When the sun dies, and the stars fade from view our love will
remain real and true"

Lelo

Waking up next to him felt good, I didn't even want to wake up all i
wanted was to stay right there with him. It a Friday afternoon
although mother commanded me to go home this weekend I'm
not going. I can't marry Tee, not now not ever. I called him.
Him: Mrs Pretorias
Me: I'm so sorry Tee but I can't be your wife, I've decided and I'm
not changing my mind.
He chuckled
Him: don't fuck with me Inno, we getting married woman.
Me: I will return the engagement ring when school closes, please
let your parents know and I will do the same on my side
Him: that ain't heppening
Me: bye Trevor
I sat down with Shaz showing me a pity face, I swear I'm gonna
be dead by the end of the day.
Her: you doing what's best for you babe
Me: I know, its just that im hurting a lot of people Shaz
Her: but you can't live a lie just to please people around you.
Me: I gues you are right.
Just then I received a call from dad.
Me: father
Him: I will kill you Innocentia Brown, what the fuck is wrong with
you??
Me: I can't dad please don't force me
He chuckled
Him: get into that plane Inno or else
Me: I'm not coming and that's final, I'm not marrying Tee father.
Him: you don't decide that
Me: I broke off the engagement
Him: do I look like I care, you still gonna marry that boy my child.
Me: I'm not marrying him and that's it, you better tell the Pretorias
family cause I'm not coming home this weekend.
Him: you will regret this I tell you
Me: if only you could understand how I'm feeling dad
Him: I know you back together with that boy, I will make sure he
regret going against me.
Me: this is not Musa's fault father, blame me not him, blame my
heart.
Him: if you persue this relationship,you will be declaring war yet
again.
Me: father please
Him: don't tell me I didn't warn you Innocentia, you better stop this
nonsense before things get bad.
I was already crying, I even had hiccups for that matter. What is
wrong that I have done, how do I stop what I'm feeling for him? Is
it wrong that I love him more than I love me? God please
intervene. I dropped the call since I couldn't speak no more. Shaz
came to me and brushed my shoulders.
Her: it alright babe
Me: it not Shaz, he is gonna fight me and Musa, he won't rest till
we break up
Her: I gues it up to you and your mr Hotty to prove him wrong
I smiled
Me: Mr hotty neh😊
Her : yeas baby your man issa hot xem, I don't blame you for
fighting for him, damn
I chuckled
Me: you stop right there honey that's my man we talking about
Her: now she is jealous
Me: I will forever be when it includes my Trey songs
Her: hay ke ntombi your Trey songs better not shake when daddy
dearest attack
Me: I hope so too, worst is our families don't get along
Her: kusazoshuba apha mos ( It about to go down here)
I loughed
Me: it not funny hey this is serious
Her: I'm just saying
We continued talking and I slept while Shaz left to her friends. I
knew she was gonna come back tomorrow.

Nina

I was with Trevor in his room. He looked stressed and wasn't

even giving me attention.
Me: I'm leaving since you ain't even talking never mind looking at
me.
Him: leave If that what you want
That broke my heart I tell you, do I have to always beg for his
attention.
Me: mxm I'm hungry by the way
Him: then cook woman
He snapped at me, his eyes were red and it looked like he was
crying or something.
Me: have you ever seen me cook Trev
Him: just leave me alone Nina I'm trying to think here
I faked tears just like everytime but he just got up and went to his
study, I even tried sniffing louder but I didn't even receive a little
attention from him. I ordered pizza and watched tv.

Narrated

Mr Brown had been busy in his office trying to concentrate but the
thought of his child with the Ngema boy killed her. He can't be
dating his daughter. Even his grandfather and both his parents
will go against it, though his grandmother long told them to stop
this feud between the two families. He remembered his granny's
words " blood will be spilled, hate will rule and anger will destroy,
stop this now before the kids experience what made us to be like
this". Well no one listened to grandma as they said she was too
old to understand. He packed his bag and went out to his father's
house. It was empty as they were out of the country. He went to
his used to be room and slept thinking about what gonna happen
next. The Ngema's has declared war , why didn't they just tie their
dog. a plan need to be formed. His daughter doesn't have a
choice but to marry Trevor, it a deal long made by the two
families. If it doesn't happen they gonna have to suffer the
consequences. This is hard more than he has thought. Why is
Inno giving him such stress? If only she knew that she belonged
with Trevor and that both of them are already one. They cannot
be separated. He then remembered grandma's words again "
matters of the heart cannot be controlled, let the kids be, if they
were meant to be then they shall be together", again nobody
listened to grandma. He fell asleep at that state.

Musa

It a beautiful Saturday and I must say it been a long week. Lelo

called me yersterday and told me that his father has declared war
with my family. I don't understand this man, so I saw it a must to
call my father.
Him: I know you've done something for you to call me
I chuckled
Me: haw pops is it bad for a son to call his dad now
Him: but you my son you ain't no ordinary son, now out with it
I exhaled hard
Me: seems like Lelo's father is on a mission to kill your not so
ordinary son
He chuckled
Him: what did you do Musawakhe
Me: dad I got back together with her
Him: when and how??
Me: it been days now, pops tried staying far away from her and
trying other girls but there's no way I could forget about Her I
can't.
It was bad I tell you I almost cried cause it hurt the shit out of me
to think that I lost her once now I couldn't, not again.
He sighed so hard
Him: I feel you son
Me: I'm sorry dad but please I don't want the families to fight
Him: Brown will make sure that you leave his daughter even it
means killing you
Me: he can do that??
Him: he once did it, and what will stop him now, you see son what
you and that girl has started it above your powers.
Me: is it that wrong to love each other??
Him: if he has declared war then it's is war, I hope you are
prepared
Me: for what pops
Him: whatever that's gonna come your way, first you have to ask
yourself I you are prepared to fight and lose your life over some
girl
Me: she is not just some girl dad
Him: call me before the end of the day, think clearly son cause
once we go to war there's no going back.

#19

Lelo
It's a saterday I'm planning on Spending the day with Musa. We
gonna go watch movies at 12 and have lunch then go sight
seeing. I woke up and cleaned our room then made breakfast
after bathing. Shaz got in hyper
Her: baby
She screamed
Me: the dick must have been that good
Her: you have no idea baby
I chuckled
Me: and I'm sure you gonna tell me
Her: sweety some people are dick given
I loughed
Her: you in a good mood
Me: yes love
I said smiling
Her: that smile spells Mr hotty involved
Me: he makes me happy
her: I'm happy for you babes
She said then left to take a shower. Time flew, I wore my
boyfriend jeans and white t-shirts then old school vans. Shaz
fixed my weave then I put a lil bit of makeup. Red lipstic then took
my bag. Musa was already waiting with his car, I went out and got
in.
Him: muhle sthandwa Sami ( you are beautiful my love)
Me: thank you love, you not bad yorself
He chuckled
Him: I know I'm handsome sweety
Me: don't flatter yourself baby
He drove, we chose action since he wasn't into romance plus it
makes me emotional, and reminded us of our situation. After that
we went to steers and had some burgers and coke. We were at
the park when a car stopped right next to us, two man in black got
out but we didn't mind them as we were walking with our hands
together. After some time I felt someone touching me and I was
injected with something. Slowly I lost control while Musa was
beaten up by the other buff guy.I felt my eyes failing me as I tried
screaming but no voice went out and that was light out for me.

Narrated

Mr Brown had been waiting with her wife, after a few hours a door
bell rang after the security let the man with Lelo inside. She was
already awake and fuming with anger. She got out of the car
feeling a little bit tired, he texted Musa that she was safe when
she realised that the men were taking her home.
Mr B: thank you guys for your services
They nodded and he gave them a cheque, Lelo went upstairs to
her room and threw herself on her bed. Her mother got in.
Her : you could have just made things easier.
Lelo: you all go fuck yourselves
Her mother slapped her so hard that she flinched but did not allow
tears to come out,she had to be strong for both her and Musa.
Her: you not gonna speak to me like that Mbulelo never.
Her father got in and the look he gave her was disgust at it best.
Him: we going to Trevors house, get ready
Lelo: I'm not going and you not gonna force me
Him: I won't repeat myself, I'm gonna drag you there even if I
have to.
Lelo: mxm
Her mother have her a death stare, she got up and fixed herself
then called Musa.
Him: love you okay
She sighed
Her: I will be fine baby don't worry
They went silence
Her: they didn't hurt you did they??
Him: I'm not a sissy boy love, I'm okay those were nothing, I'm
just worried about you
Her: don't worry love, I'm not changing my mind, I'm not gonna
break my promise again.
Him: I trust you babe
Her: I gotta go.
The family drove to the Pretoria's residence. The whole famiy was
there even Mr Brown's parents. Trevor was outside with Lelo
Him: so you came
Her: as if I had a choice
him: you were serious
Her: dead serious
him: who is he
Her: my heart, my life , my everything Tee.
He looked irritated and jealous. Lelo seemed inlove and not with
him with someone else. Only if he knew the boy responsible for
his heart break.
Him: I see
her: just let me go Tee
He chuckled
Him : not even in my last breath Inno,we belong together and you
know im right
She chuckled
Her: don't please...
He smiled
Him: I know deep inside you feel it too
her: I'm not feeling anything for you Tee, try to understand that
please.
Just then the famies called them to the living room. They ate then
had drinks and the meeting began.
Lelo

As irritated as I was, I couldn't disrespect my elders. So they

talked and talked with us busy nodding.
Trev: I'm ready to make her my wife, and reside to Johhanesburg
Dad: that great my son, a wife and a husband belong together.
Mom: please take care of my baby
I wanted to Lough but decided not to.
Me: not to be disrespectful elders but please give me a chance to
talk.
My father gave me an evil eye.
Him: not now Inno
Me: then when dad , cause you will be busy arranging a wedding
that's not gonna heppen.
They all gasped, but I continued with them staring at me.
Me: I like Tee but I'm not prepared to be his wife.I don't love him
that way infact I'm inlove with someone else.
Dad: you stop this nonsense now Mbulelo Innocentia Brown.
T's mom: speak to your child Brown, you know this wedding have
to happen nomatter what
She looked angry
HisDad: this is not what we expected Brown, you know the
consequences
I sighed.
Me: isn't supposed to be my choice to choose who to marry, I
mean matters of the heart cannot be decided against.
Mom: what do you know Mbulelo, you embarrassing our family.
Me: you should have just listened to me mom, and Tee I told you
how I feel.
Trev: but we can still learn to be Inno
Me: I can't.
Just then we heard people coming in, I thought my eyes were
deceiving me when Nina appeared with her family. Her bump was
visible but what was she doing here. Mr Jacobs greeted and all
eyes were on them.
Me: Nina
She looked at me suprised then embarrassed.
Her: Lelo
Me: what are you doing here??
Her eyes went forom me to Trevor.
Me: no that's not possible
MrsJacobs: Lelo
Me: Mrs Jacobs
MrP: can we help you people
Trevor was lookig down all the time and that comfired it, my friend
deceived me, I don't care about Tee but Nina betrayed me, she
chose Tee instead of me, her best friend.
MrJ:we've come in peace but seems like we disturbed you
MrP: it owkay, what is the matter
Before that they were welcomed and offered drinks.
MrJ: your son has deflowered my daughter and left a seed
growing inside her.
He said looking at Nina. The whole room went silence, Tee has
got some explaining to do.
MrP: Trevor
He shouted
Tee: father
MrP: you know anything about this
He looked annoyed and angry
Tee: yes father
Him too looked angry he didn't even look at Nina but he spoke
looking at me.
MrP: I don't know , this is a mess.you children please leave us.
We got out leaving the elders talking. Maybe this was my ticket to
leave this mess. Nina came to me.
Her: I'm sorry
Me: I don't care trust me, you actually did me a favour
Her: It just happened, I didn't mean to I swear
Me: I said I don't care Nina, you can have Tee cause I have Musa
She looked amazed
Her: you still together??
Me: he is my Romeo, only death will separate us.
Her: I'm happy for you
I chuckled
Me: realy
Her: yeah
Me: I'm just glad you went after Tee not him.
After that I went to sit alone. Nina must be crazy if she thinks I'm
gonna welcome her back in my life cause I don't care about Tee.
What makes me angry is that she abondened me, I relied on her,
she was my bestie but she went awol just because of Tee and left
her best friend just like that.

After sometime we were called back in again, all families looked

exhausted. Mom was even irritated. She looked at me with a pity
face which got me thinking hard.
MrP: the families have talked, and since we can't ignore the baby
issue we have to make amends.
Dad: we doing this for all of you, and what we have decided is
what we think is the best.
Mom: baby please you have to understand the is no other way
exept for this
Me: I'm just hoping this wedding is off
My grandfather the great Brown man spoke looking at me.
Him: we will do this the right way, I'm not gonna hit the bushes so
I'm gonna say this once and for all.
All eyes were on him, I just prayed he accept that there's no way
this wedding Is taking place.
Him: we've acknowledged the pregnancy of the young woman,
we know that a baby needs both parents and the young lady is
your age Inno and happens to be you friend too.
I nodded
Him: The baby will have both parents And will be raised in a
loving home, our son in law impregnated the lady knowingly that
he was engaged to you, and he has to apologies for that but the
wedding is still happening, infact we will have two weddings
taking place. A white wedding for Innocentia and a traditional
wedding for Khabonina, since she will be the second wife and
coming from a Zulu family.

Insert 20

Trevor

What Nina have done is unacceptable but a part of me is happy

she did so. How was I going to tell my family about her
pregnancy?? What the families have decided is realy big, how do
I satisfy two woman in my life. But I like their thoughts, I'm just
glad Inno's parents did not call off the wedding. We still trying to
digest what her Grandfather has said. Inno walked out of the
house running, I followed her while Nina remained silent.
Me: Inno stop
She looked back at me and continued running, I ran faster untill I
reached her.
She was crying and even had hiccups.
Me: it okay
She chuckled wiping her tears
Her: what's okay Tee, that im now forced to get married to you
and my friend being your second wife?? Is that what okay??
Me: I'm sorry I didn't mean it that way
Her: then how did you mean it, I'm sure you are happy things are
just going your way Mr Pretorias
Me: Inno Please I understand you are angry but..
She disturbed me
Her: oh please Tee im not angry, I'm disgusted
Me: don't talk like that
Her: just marry Nina and leave me alone please
Me: I I love you Innocentia I'm engaged to you
She took out the ring and gave it to me, I could see she wasn't
into me, not anymore.
Her: I gues this will explain things better, we done, I don't care
what the elders have decided but me and you we done.
She left me there heading where ever she was going.

Musa

After Inno left i followed her, I was home with my parents and my
big bro. Dad being dad has been asking me if I was sure about
messing with Mr Brown.
Him: son I understand you are inlove but this love of yours may
bring death in our family
Me: dad I cant let her go, well not again this time I'm gonna fight
for her, for our love and if that means being stabbed to death then
so be it.
Mom got in disturbing is.
Her: he is not changing his mind is he??
She said looking at dad
Him: no your son is hot headed
Me: I'm still here parents
Her: I don't like what you have decided, why cant you let go of
the girl
Me: you wont understand, all of you won't understand.
Him:well whatever decision you taking I'm gonna support you son,
I know how it feels to fight for what belongs to you.
He said looking at mom.
Her: don't put stupid ideas on his mind
Him: I was just saying my love.
Her: there are many girls out there Musawakhe
Me: but i not want any girl, I want her I want Mbulelo mom.
Just then my phone rang and it was Mma Brown herself. I smiled
walking out and my parents just shook their heads.
Me: sthandwa Sami ( my love)
Her: baby
Her voice was hourse, I knew that she was crying.
Me: baby are you okay
She sniffed
Her: baby I don't know how I'm feeling
Me: calm down love
Her: I hate them Musa they are cruel
Me: you don't mean that, It will be okay my love
Her: I do they are all cruel. .
She cried out loud and I felt a part of me leaving, her sorrows are
my sorrows if she is hurt I am hurt.
Me: babe I'm coming where are you
Her: oh baby that nice but you don't have to, I'm coming back
tommorow morning
Me: no baby I'm already here
Her: you not kidding are you cause I'm gonna hate you too love
I chuckled
Me: just say the word
Her: baby you realy here
Me: yes my love, where you go i go
She giggled, now that what I want to hear.
Her: I'm by our park, come fetch me
Me: already on my way sweetheart.
Her : I'm waiting babe.

Lelo

It was already to 6pm when I called Musa. I knew I wanted to be

with him after the meeting with the elders, I realy don't care what
they have decided the fact remains, I'm not gonna marry Tee, not
now not ever. Right now all I'm feeling is hate, I hate this family
and I hate Tee for not accepting my decision. Why is it that
important for us to marry?? Why cant he just marry her baby
mama and leave me the hell alone ??. Just then my Prince
charming stoped right next to me and I couldn't hold my self but to
throw myself at him.
Me: you realy are here
I said wiping my tears
Him: i never deceive baby
He looked at me then smiled,his smile said" everything is gonna
be alright", he made me feel better.
Me: I love you Mr Ngema
Him: I love you more Mma Brown
We stared eat each other for some time then he slowly planted a
kiss on my left cheek.
Him: it already late
Me: I'm not going home
Him: baby you know what heppened last time you spent the night
at my house
I laughed remembering my mom shouting all the way from the
living room
Me: well maybe I shouldn't spend the night at your house.
He shook his head
Him: not happening sthandwa sami
Me: I realy don't wanna go home babe
I wasn't kidding, I wasn't in a mood for my parents.
Him: but baby...
Me: you not gonna change my mind, please drop me at town I will
book a hotel room or look for a BnB.
Him: owkay then.
We went to town and got a neat and safe BnB, I think it was better
cause my parents would find me If i chose a hotel. We were at my
so called room with Musa looking all around.
Me: it safe, I will be fine you can go
He looked at me and frowned
Him: I'm not leaving you all alone here, I will call my parents.
Me: babe you dont have to
Him: don't act as if you want me gone love
I chuckled
me: mxm you so full of yourself.
He called his dad and the call took longer than I expected with
him busy nodding then in a few minutes he was done and as for
me I sent a message to my mom and switched off my phone.
Me: baby in hungry
Him: eat me my love
He said giving me a naughty look that made my body to feel
things. I got up nd went to him, I was realy hungry.
Me:let go out please
Him: they have a restaurant downstairs
Me: let rather order pizza then
We did and they delivered withing 30 minutes, we ate and went to
bed. We cuddled with him smiling at me non stop. With Musa I felt
at home, and at home it where you belong, that how I felt like I
belonged with him. I kissed him, he replied. Our kiss lasted as it
got heated, I could feel his manhood pocking at me, while my
body longed for him. He broke the kiss and looked at me. His
eyes were so beautifully small and sexy, he kissed my forehead.
Him: we can't baby
I looked at him and kissed him again, his body wanted what I
wanted, why was he against us.
Me: I want you Musa
I whispered as i kissed him again, he got ontop of me and kissed
the hell out of me, our clothes went out flying as he got inbetween
my legs. My Apple was already wet and ready for him, the kisses
he planted on my body left me amused, he licked my nipples as
they went hard, his hands went to my thing and started playing
with it, small moans escaped my mouth, he looked at me as he
fingered myself. I found my self entering heaven just by his
hand.After some time he looked at me.
Him: baby
Me: mmm
Him: you ready? ?
I nodded
Him: it gonna hurt
Me: I trust you
he kissed me while he tried putting his huge thing in, it was realy
huge but I had no choice. I screamed on his first attempt, he
kissed me giving me a " I'm sorry look" , he tried again and again
and again with me screaming my lungs out. Shit was painful, after
some time he got in with my eyes closed and my face wet with
tears.
Him: I'm sorry babe
I just nodded,he wiped my tears and kissed me. We kissed and
he began getting in and out.his groans filled the room when I was
still feeling pain. I closed my eyes again.
Him: babe look at me
Me: it painful love
He kissed me and held me tight, our bodies became one, his
hands going all over my body giving me shivers. He was going
slowly and I was beggining to feel the pleasure although I could
feel the pain. For some time we were still on our love making
mood then after some minutes we both came. He looked at me
smiling like a fool.
Him: I love you baby
Me: I love you more Musa
He smiled and I lay on his chest. It felt good,God I felt good.

Narrated

Like every parents, Lelo's parents were worried sick about their
daughter. She had her phone off and it was now midnight still she
wasn't home.
MrsB: see how your stupid decisions has turned against us, I
don't why I even agreed to this nonsense from the start.
She was realy fuming, Lelo is her only child and her only
happiness she may love material things but the love She has for
her daughter is indescribable.
MrB: calm down now, your daughter is just playing games with us.
Her: don't tell me to call down Brown, what If she has committed
suicide, we both know she doesn't want to marry Trevor
Him: don't dare shout at me woman, you know what at stake if
she doesn't, she has to do this If not for us then for herself.
Her: I'm just worried about my little baby,she is only 19
Him: and you think I'm not worried huh??
Her: make sure your boys find her please
She went upstairs to lye down, it been a long day and now Her
daughter has disappeared. She knew that she was safe but she
needed her home.

15 years ago.

Their blood binds them together, if we mix both bloods there's no

way they can be separated, they are meant to be. By mixing their
bloods their souls become one, In the name of the ancestors they
are already married. Are you sure you want to do this??
MrB: absolutely sure
MrP: very well
Him: when the children grow, make sure that and up together,
make sure they grow up fond of each other, this mixture of their
blood may either let hate or love in their lives .
Grandma: this is nonsense, why can't you let the children be
MrB: mother please stop
Voice: Their blood will hold the future of both families, as they
grow old,they will have to marry and live happily ever after.
MrB: what are the circumstances if they go against our wishes
Voice: no happiness will be fulfilled, the female shall not bear any
children except for his binded partner
MrP: and for the male??
Voice: he can have children, but he will never feel loved, he will
never feel happiness, only his binded with partner can make him
feel all that.
MrB: and what about the families
voice: hatred and curse is all they will know after all they decided
on the binding of the two souls, your riches will be there but your
kids will hate and despise you. You will be cursed and there will
be no peace in your families.
Mr Brown and Mr Pretorias sighed deeply as they agreed into the
binding of both kids. Lelo was 5 years old while Trevor was 10
years old. Both their bloods were mixed, and a series of rituals
were perfomed. Both families believed in ancestors, they took a
big decision that had them trying their best to make the kids end
up together.
Voice: it all done, the ancestors agreed, your children are married
not by law but by blood.

Insert 21

Nina

If the Pretorias family think that i will stood that low and be a
fucken second wife then they don't know me. I'm supposed to be
the only wife for Trev, for God's sake I'm carrying his child. I
called my brother Nick after sending him Lelo' s photo.
Him: damn sisters your friend is flames
I chuckled
Me:. I know right, now make sure she ends up in your bed and
take pics along with videos
Him: done deal baby
I dropped the call and sighed deeply. I hate doing this but I don't
have a choice, I don't even know how come daddy agreed to this
nonsense .

Lelo

2 months later

It was now May and we were gonna start with our examinations,
not that I'm scared but you never know this is varsity. Well I must
say that a lot has been happening during the last weeks, my
father hates me but I don't care and they still want me to marry
Tee, while my mom says it's best for everyone though I don't
know why. Me and Musa are very much inlove, there was a time
where he dissapeared but his father found him though he still
doesn't want to tell me what heppened. I know it had my dad
included cause he came back wounded and has scars all over,
good thing is he was still my handsome bruised king. On the other
hand Trevor has been stalking me and using Jay, Musa's friend to
know what we upto , although we figured that late but at least now
we knew who to trust and not to. I was at the library when
someone tapped on my shoulders.
Him: beauty and nerdy
Me: Huh?
He chuckled like for real
Him: she is beautiful and is a nerd
Me: do I know you?
He smiled
Him: I thought my face was irresistible
Me: you thought wrong then
Him: we met at Sandton mall
Me: I meet a lot of people
He brushed his head
Him: I'm Nick
Me: owkay
Him: you realy are ignorant
I chuckled
me: how can I help you
Him: can I take you out, like dinner
Me: no you can't
him: atleast have your numbers
Me: hell no Mr
shame he looked defeated
Him: then can I be your study mate
I loughed so hard
me: okay, what you studying
He brushed his head again
Him: that was me asking you if i can see you some other time
Me: you can't, now please leave me I wanna study
He left after winking at me, but then he was handsome shame.

The day went by and I got a call from my mom.

Me: mother
Her: my baby
She sounded so down
Me: are you fine
Her: I think your father Is cheating, he is having late night calls
and even comes late from from work
Me: dad will never do that mom
Her: I'm telling you Inno, this thing of yours is stressing him out
Me: but ma how is it my fault
Her: you won't understand Lelo, but you are destroying our home
with this scandals of yours.
I sighed
Me: I have to go.
I dropped the call, mom was being unfair now. Days went by with
us writting our exams. I never heard from that Nick guy exept that
I will occassionaly spot him at campus. It was clear that he wasn't
a student either. Today we were writting our last exam. I went out
follwed by my very own handsome baby.
Him: sthandwa Sami ( my love)
I smiled
Me: my world
Him: how did you write
Me: it was easy things baby, you
Him: very easy thanks to my everything
I chuckled
Me: i should be thanking you though
Him: then thank me later
He gave a naughty look, and I blushed like hell . It didn't help that
I was white cause I turn pink the very same moment.
Him: and she is blushing
Me: haha stop it Musa
He smiled at me, whoever said true love died with Romeo and
Juliet must have been realy unlucky when it comes to love cause
what I feel for this boy was realy true love. I will die for his love
and even get hated for his love, I mean I broke off my
engagement for his love and I would do anything for his love.
Him: what are you thinking
Me: you drive me crazy
He blushed too and tickled me.
Him: I love you
me: I love you more sthandwa sami
We went to the cafeteria and had lunch. Jay came over and
suddenly Musa' s mood went from 100 to 0.

Musa

My love for her accumulates every minutes I spend with her. I will
die for her love, hense I got kidnapped for her love, got beaten up
for her love and nearly died because of her love. Some will say
I'm mad for taking such decision, yes I'm mad but madly inlove.
Life doesn't matter without Mma Brown, she is my other half, the
one that completes me. When Jay came over to our table I just
got mad. I been trying to ignore this nigga for weeks now and he
still wants my attention.
Me: what the fuck do you want
Him: I just wanna apologise to the both of you
Me: fuck off Jay now
Lelo: calm down babe you drawing atttention
Me: no Lelo, this nigga is realy tempting me, I mean the nerve
Him: I swear I had no choice , I'm sorry man
Me: for what exactly
He went silence
Me: talk man
Him: for what heppened to you, I know it was my fault
Me: just disappear
Lelo: it fine Jay go now please
He left leaving me pissed off. Lelo held both my hands
Her: calm down now
Me: he is a fucken spy, he broke our friendship and I'm not gonna
forgive him
Her: babe it hepened and it over
Me: I know love, please be careful around him.
She sighed
Her: I promise you babe.
After a long day I was in my room with Trey.Nigga have been
pleading with me to forgive Jay. And to hell with that, Jay nearly
got me killed for his selfish reasons, I knew he had a stupid crush
on Lelo but I kept quiet.
Me: so what are we doing tonight, hey it our last day on Campus.
Well school was closing next week and we were done writing.
Him: The school got a bash tonight man
I loughed thinking he wasn't serious
him: don't tell me you are unaware
Me: well I been busy studying and other things so I realy don't
know
He chuckled
him: this love got you all loyal and nerdy
Me: mxm so what's time does it start
Him: by 9 it will be full.
I called Lelo and told her about the bash, she agreed on coming, I
was gonna make sure she doesn't leave my sight. I'm scared
something might heppen and I don't trust anyone not even Trey
himself.

Lelo

It is past 8, Shaz was doing touch ups on my hair.

Her: beauty at it best
I chuckled
Me: is that meant for me or you
Her: oh please we both know you are one ugly coloured I've ever
seen
Me: mxm Musa will disagree with you
She loughed
Her: baby for that Pussy they will even say the world means
nothing without you
I loughed, she was realy crazy
Me: thank you sweety now imma go and put on some shorts and
show them legs
Her: make sure you don't forget a lil make up honey
I loughed
Me:make up doesn't do anything to me, I'm naturally beautiful hun
She Loughed
Her: don't let your stupidity fall on your face, put on that make up
cakes..
Me: mxm
We got dressed I was in my high waisted denim jean , Air Jordan
snickers and a crop tee long unbuttoned cost, I looked beautiful I
tell you. Shaz' s friends came over but I did not leave with them.
My Musa fetched me looking all Chris Brown, God your creation
though.
Him: you are beautiful baby
He said biting his lips
Me: and so are you my love
We went to campus and hell it was full, I even noticed Nick who
was giving me funny looks. I made it a point to not leave Musa's
sight plus I don't trust this bitches. We went over to Trey and his
friends only to find that Shaz and her group were there too. Musa
handed me a Flying fish, well I like it while he had Heineken. The
music started getting high and people were already in the mood.
Neo: some people though
She looked at me disgusted, I was leaning over Musa' s shoulder
and didnt give a fuck about her.
Shaz: what is it about some people bitch
Her: she is too much shame, the guy can't even breath for
heaven's sake
Shaz: whoe hay girl you need to change your attitude cause that
her man.
Me: and why should it bother you
Musa: baby don't let her get to you
Me: I'm okay Musa
He kissed me
Trey: you guys need a room
We got loughed
Musa: you keep quiet not
Neo: what does she know, virgin Lelo
All eyes landed on her, and I just chuckled
Me: what realy do you want from me bitch
Neo: you think you are the It cause you are coloured
Musa: just stop it Neo
Shaz: people we here to party man
She shouted as " I do" played.
Shaz: you are spoiling the fun
Me: let get them on the dance floor sweety.
Musa gave me a "don't dare " look but i just smiled at him.
Him: baby..
Me: I will be right here love
We went over and started moving, I realy was good at dancing.
Shaz was realy good, well better than me but hey we killed the
floor.
Me: I do ngyavuma ay. ...
I Sang out loud looking at Musa. He smiled at me and frowned as
someone touched me from behind.
Me: what the fuck
I turned and the heck it was Nick, he was even smiling
Me: what's wrong with you
Him: I thought we were dancing
Me: bru you stalking me now??
Him: whats so special about you
Me: who knows cause this days everyone wants a piece of me
The alcohol was starting to get to me
Him: poor you
Me: leave me alone I repeat leave me alone man
He smiled , and what's for exactly
Him: you starting to get to me
Me: shame on you
Him: I don't take rejection so good
I chuckled
Me: bruh leave
Just then Musa appeared
Musa: babe you okay
Me: yeah love let's go
We went back to our seats. Musa gave me an eye
Me: awa babe say it
Him: who is he
Me: His Nick that all I know
Him: what does he want
I shook my shoulders
Him: be careful babe
Me: I'm with my superman so I'm safe
He smiled and we continued drinking and dancing. Nick was still
giving me nasty looks but I just shooked them off. The night went
by and it was now 2am. My baby wasn't that drunk hense he was
playing Spider-Man looking out for me. Shaz asked me to
accompany her to the ladies room.
Me: babe I will be back
Him: be safe
Shaz: I kick balls boo, she will be safe
He loughed then kissed me
Neo: you guys are mood killers
Me: get yourself a man bitch
She mummbled something but I chose to ignore her. We went to
the ladies room, Shaz got in and I fixed myself on the mirror. Just
then I saw Nick's reflection behind me, he was smiling like a fool.
Me:what the fuck
He injected me with something on my neck and within seconds I
was out. I couldn't even say a word for Shaz to hear me.

Insert 22

Narrated
He called one of his friends after Lelo passed out making sure he
dissapeares with her before Shaz come out of the toilet. Two guys
came over and helped him out putting Lelo in his car. He left the
campus in a maximum speed driving to his flat.

Shaz came out and when she couldn't spot Lelo around she
thought maybe she went back to the crew. She washed her
hands, fixed her makeup and went out. As soon as she
approached them Musa gave her a worried look.
Him: where's my woman
She loughed as she thought it was funny plus the alcohol was
already playig it role.
Her: I thought she came back here
Him: don't fuck with me Shaz, where is she??
He got up afraid and scared. He went to Shaz and started
shouting at her non stop. Poor Shaz was already in tears.
Her: I told you She left me while I was still inside the toilet.
Him: no no no
He shook his head with his hands creating fists .
Her: Musa calm down maybe she is around here
Him: yall look for her
Neo: the bitch is hunting for some...
She didn't finish her line as Musa pinned her against their car.
Him: don't dare me Neo not now.
Trey: we gonna go that side, you go that side.
All of them looked for Lelo, Musa was already going crazy.hours
later still they hevent found Lelo. It was already 7 oclock inthe
morning when he called his father letting him know about the
situation.
Him: dad she is gone
MrN: what the hell you talking about
He sighed as he knocked his head in frustration.
Him: She dissapeared at the school bash, what if they have
taken her and she is not coming back, what if I'm never gonna
see her again. Dad I can't, I can't live without her.
His father felt how broken his son was.could this girl have that
much effect on him, how can he love a girl like this on his age?
Thought gambled in his mind. He cant lose his son, if he says he
can't live without Lelo then he is gonna help him fight this battle.
MrN: calm down now son, now tell me was there anyone or
anything suspicious that we can link her disappearance with??
Musa thought about the way the Nick but was giving Lelo states,
his heart raced as he thought of the worst.
Him: there was this Nick guy who kept on looking at her, I think he
has something to do with her dissapearance.
MrN: do you think he was sent by her father
Him: or maybe Trevor,oh dad I don't know.
MrN: okay try finding something about this Nick and i will do the
same, I mean he had to sign at the gate before getting into
Campus right??
Him: yes pops, thank you
MrN: don't thank me yet
She opened her eyes slowly with her body feeling a bit numb and
a headache killing her. The sun made it impossible for her to open
her eyes fully with the curtains and Windows opened. The place
wasn't famiier, the bed , the sheets, the surroundings weren't
familiar. She realised that she was naked and i mean naked. Her
heart started beating fast, she looked at her self and tears
streamed out. What happened to her. Just then she heard giggles
not far away from the room she occupied. She got up and looked
for her clothes but couldn't find them. The headache hit her strong
that she became dizzy, her eyes couldn't handle the torture, she
fell down.

Nick heard something falling and rushed upstairs, he found her

laying down on the floor and his heart started racing. He called his
friend who happened to be a doctor. Minutes later he was there.
He checked her up and did some tests.
Nick: she is fine right??
Him: yeah, what did you give her??
Nick: just minor drugs man but she is fine you said it yourself
He looked at her and shook his head.
Him: the lady is pregnant, you could have killed her child.
Nick paused at his statement.
Him: and what the fuck you doing drugging woman, what wrong
with you man
He huffed
Nick: I didn't know she was pregnant man
Him: well now you know, better leave that girl cause she is
carrying someone else's child
Nick: I heard you man

After a while Lelo woke up, she was now feeling better. A
handsome Nick came to the room holding a tray filled with food.

Lelo

I remember everything. Nick kidnapped me, what the fuck does

he want from me.I looked at him and he was smiling. It funny
cause I was no longer afraid. My mind ran miles to Musa. how
stressed he must be right now.
Me: what do you want from me
He smiled, what is it with this guy and smiling.
Him: nothing sweetheart, I told you what rejection drives me to
Me: and you thought kidnapping will do what exactly??
Him: I didn't kidnap you love
Me: don't don't love me, I'm not your love
He loughed
Him: it all hormones I gues
I raised my eyebrows.
Him: let's leave that, last night was lit
I looked at him with tears falling on my face, he wiped them
smiling. How I hate his beautiful teeth.
Him: don't tell me you don't remember
I shook my head
Me: you... you raped me😰
Him: no that's an accusation, you left with me willingly baby
Me: no you drugged me, you kidnapped me Nick, then raped me.
I don't know where the tears were coming from. I'm not that of a
cry baby, but I was now emotioal, he looked at me with no
sympathy and left the room. It long came to me that last time I
woke up I was naked but now I was wearing clothes. What did he
do to me?? He came back with his phone and an envelope.
Him: now that's what heppened all Night long, sweety you were
giving it to me as If it was your last time you get it.
I cried as I saw the pictures he took, I was naked and all, my eyes
were even so small as if I was high or something.
Another one was him ontop of me, the grin on his face. I pushed
them away and cried, that wasn't me, I don't remember having
sex with him. Non of this I remember.
Him: don't cry sweetheart we both enjoyed it, it was fun all fun
Me: I don't remember all that, I didn't sleep with you I didn't
I screamed shooking my head. Oh no Musa what have I done. I
shouldnt have gone with Shaz to the ladies room.
Him: i can still keep this our little secrete you know
Me: what do you mean
Him: you gonna break up with Trevor and that dumb boy you are
love struck with.
He was serious
Me:just go to hell mr
Him: and you gonna abort that thing you carrying
I looked at him as if he was crazy, well he was cause I wasn't
pregnant.
Me: abort what thing
Him: oh shame she doesnt know she Is pregnant
Me: don't play mind games with me.
Him: I'm gonna let you go and you gonna do exactly what I say,
otherwise the internet will be full painted with your naked pictures,
I must admit you are one damn sexy lady.
I had nothing to say, those pictures could destroy my future and
my parents reputation.
Him: now you do what I say and I keep our pictures. Intime you
and me will date and get married, my sexy yellow wife to be, mom
will love you.
He must be crazy, I told myself
Me: can I leave now??
I sniffed
Him: just get what is yours, remember we don't want the school
paper filled with your nasty pictures, just imagine my goods
making guys cum just by looking.
Me: please stop
He was realy getting to me. Her went out of the room and I took
my belongings. I went to the bathroom and washed my face, I
cried silently as I went out down to the living room. The flat was
realy beautiful. A picture caught my eye. The Jacobs Family, Nina
and her whole family including her brother I last saw 10 years
ago. I shook my head no, this can't be the Nick, the Nick I grew
up with, it can't be him. I pulled myself together going out. He was
at the kitchen with his two friends.he came to me and baby kissed
me, it was clear now, this is Nick, Nina's brother.
Him: go well sweetheart and don't forget to...
He touched my stomach, I was still not buying it that I'm pregnant.
He gave me my phone and 100 notes to get a cab or taxi. I left
walking slowly,I didn't know what I was gonna do, my life was
really shutting me down. As if my dad wasn't doing enough now
the Jacobs Family was after me too. The thought of those pictures
killed me, how was I gonna fight this, nomatter what happens I'm
not gonna lose Musa, not now not ever cause if I do, then there is
no reason for me to live. I rather be dead than be with Trevor or
Nick.

Y'all should remember, Lelo can't be pregnant for Musa, the curse
doesn't allow it or can she be??

Insert 23

Lying beside you

Here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper
You're so sincere
How could our love be so blind
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side
"Open Arms" Maria Carey.

Lelo

Arriving at Res I went straight to our room, my mind was all over
the place, I couldn't hide the pain in my face. I opened the door
and to my suprise it was unlocked, getting in all eyes were on me.
The whole crew was there and I felt my body failing me, the
dizziness again ,( maybe I'm indeed pregnant). Musa ran to me
and held me tight, I could see how worried he was I cried in his
arms, more like i wailed. The whole crew walked out as
instructed, Shaz pitied me with her look too. Musa picked me up
and layed me on the bed. I kept on looking at this handsome boy
I'm inlove with, why does it have to be this difficult for us to be
together. I cried again with him hushing me, now he was crying
too. I felt bad realy bad when thinking of those pics. Do I tell him
or what??

Him: thank God you are fine

I sniffed , I'm not fine I'm not even close to being fine.
Me: I'm so sorry Baby
He held me tighter
Him: shhhh, it all over now lay down and rest we gonna talk when
you wake up right.
Me: I'm hungry
He smiled
Him: let me prepare something for you then
Me: just cornflakes baby
He made them for me, I ate then took a bath and slept for a few
hours. I was woken up by my ringing phone.it was an unknown
number.
Me: Lelo speaking
caller: who would have known that your voice is much more
sexier...
I didn't let him finish, screw this nigga I'm not gonna entertain his
shit . I dropped the call and tears were formed in my eyes. I didn't
even realise that Musa was looking at me since he was next to
me sleeping too.
Him: you fine
I got up and sat on the bed playing with my hands
Me: I need to see a doctor
He looked worried
Him:what happened to you
Me: Please say you gonna believe me
I was now crying, he nodded
Me: Nick kidnapped me, he drugged me and..
I cried again
Him: and what Mbulelo
Me: I don't know, I think he raped me Musa
Him: baby He what????
Me: he took photos, nasty photos of me and him and others
doesn't include him.
He got up and went out without talking. I'm losing him God why
did I tell him. I sat there crying my lungs out. Shaz got in with Neo
and Millicent.
Shaz: baby what wrong
Me: I'm gonna lose him I know
I cried, she came to me and hushed me
Neo: that what you get for ubufebe girl..
Shaz: just shut the hell up Neo would you
Her: I was just saying
I didn't even bother myself with her. I had much more things to
worry about. Musa got in looking different. As handsome as he is I
remained still on the bed.
Him: come we going out
Me: where to??
He gave me a serious look.
Neo: trouble in paradise
Shaz: you never know when to shut neh
I got up and fixed my hair, I was only in my nike tracksuits. We
went to his car and he drove in silence. We parked at some
doctors offices.
Me: what we doing here
Him: you said you wanted to see a doctor, plus we have to know if
he raped you or what?? I'm sure the doctors can find out if you
had sex yersterday or not.
I exhaled hard.
Him: and morning after pills if he did rape you.
Me: I'm scared
Him: I'm with you right.
We walked in, the Secretary referred us to the doctor.
Doc: Musa
It was a lady a beautiful dark lady
Him: Doctor Botha
Doc: you owkay right
Him: yeah I'm good but my girl is not
She looked at me and smiled
Doc: I see let get in.
We told her everything, she took me to some room and had some
tests. The whole time I was praying she says I wasn't raped, and I
wasn't pregnant too.
The procedure was realy uncomfortable. she took a vaginal swab
to see if they can get any DNA samples, like semen,even though
she said that people who commit date rapes are smart enough to
use protection, thus helping to eliminate evidence, but it was
worth a try right. She didn't find any force entry or varginal
damage and comfired that I wasn't raped. After some time she
called us both.
Her: according to the tests we've taken it proves that you were
indeed drugged but not raped although we found something else
She sighed
Musa: what is it doc
Her: your girlfriend is two months pregnant but her pregnancy
ain't realy normal.
The room went all silence, my worst nightmare turned out to be
true.
Me: but doc I been having my periods,how is this all possible.
Her: well it common to some of us as our bodies does not react
the same.
Musa: so we pregnant
The smile on his face, God this guy though, she looked at me and
kissed my face all over.
Me: Musa stop
I couldn't even breath
Him: Doc thank you but we have to go now
Doc: you should come for check ups, I'm worried you not even
showing a little
Me: I'm not even sure I'm pregnant
Her: tests don't lie honey
Me: I don't know, Its just impossible
Her: but you 've had sex without a condom
Me: goodbye doctor
She loughed as we went out.

Musa
I know I should be scared, worried or whatever but I'm happy, I'm
going to be a daddy, Lelo has made me the happiest man on
earth. Right now I dont care what people gonna say, I don't give a
fuck I realy don't.all I have to do is keep my two babies safe, and
to do that, that Nigga need to be taught a lesson. We were at
Steers eating after the session with Doc Botha.
Me: baby we preggies
She smiled nervously
Me: what's wrong
her: I don't feel pregnant Musa, she said two months but it doesn't
feel like that
Me: but baby you did get dizzy today
She loughed
Her: I'm sure that was because of the drugs and alcohol in my
system
Me: ok then we will wait and see
Her: were you going to leave me? If Nick did realy rape me??
I smiled and looked at her
Me: Never baby, we are forever remember
Her: I was scared
Me: I will deal with Nick trust me
She smiled
Her:baby he is older than you
Me: age doesn't matter, stupid nigga went after the wrong lady
Her: he is Nina's brother, I think they are conniving against me.
I was realy shocked, Nina is that obsessed with the nigga
Me: I gues we will deal with both of them
She looked at me with teary eyes
Her: baby the pictures, he's gonna upload them, I'm scared Musa
Me: he wouldn't dare sthandwa sami.

It was late when I decided to go to my room, Lelo was already

asleep with Shaz. I made sure that they lock the door cause that
nigga ain't to be trusted. I called my dad as soon as I went in.
Him: son
Me: dad I need your help
Him: I know you do, calling me at this time
Me: yeah right father
Him: is she okay
Me: she is dad and thank you for putting some sense in me
earlier, I was just shocked
Him: we all need to be directed to the right way sometimes.
Me: I'm just glad that man didn't force himself into her
Him: great then what assistance do you need from me.
I told him everything and that he is Mr Jacobs son.
Him: consider it sorted, that boy will never upload this pictures
I exhaled hard
Me: thank you father
Him: Im still waiting for you to agree on your training son
Me: I don't think now it the right time
him: when I was your age, I could beat 10 men by myself never
mind holding a gun
Me: you never missed
I loughed
Him:not even once, son you need to be trained so that you can be
able to protect yourself
Me: I know dad but i still have school
Him:that can be arranged
Me: alright then speak to you tommorow
Him: I will let you know about that stupid boy.
I dropped the call, took a long bath and slept. I didnt even wanna
think about my dad's training thingee, I'm not a fighter bro but a
lover.

Narrated

" a curse has been broken, not entirely broken but another curse
has been added to the broken curse, a child, an unknown child
has been conceived where he/she does not belong. Another
curse has been lifted, a mother is yet to lose her life after
delivering or she lose the baby before she shows her pregnancy.
The baby carried is a son more powerful and is a seed of true
love, affection strong enough to go against the wishes of the
ancestors. War, blood and death, i repeat war, blood and death,
to be added is unending pain, broken hearts and hatred. Thou
shall not let the child live.
She woke up all sweating, her heart was breathing fast. " oh my
goodness What did this children do"
She went to her hut and consulted with the dead.She said a few
things with languages that called out the ancestors to listen to
Her.
Her: by blood they were married off, the curse has been tempted
with, what should I do, speak to me.
She continued throwing and drinking her staff for some time.
Her: the baby, sacrife??, my ancestors ...
Your will shall happen.

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Trevor

It been two months now and I still don't feel human,my life is
falling apart. I have the money, the job but who am I kidding
cause im not happy. It is only when I think about Inno then my
heart will feel at ease. How do I feel connected to her in so many
ways? How is it possible that my body react differently if I see her
or think about her?. Nina has been great , she is now 5months
pregnant and so very big. We still haven't got married since I have
to marry Inno first. I've tried everything to get her back, we even
once kidnapped her boyfriend but still she didn't give up. Does
she love him that much??. Now the only thing to do Is to kill that
boy, if he ain't here then I will have Inno, she will be my wife like it
or not.

Nina

I got a call from Nick, my brother sounded scared and strange, I

wonder what wrong.
Me: talk now what is it Nick
Him: I'm never gonna mess with Lelo, look what that stupid plan
of yours got me to
Me: what do you mean
Him: I had everything,I drugged her and took pictures as if we
slept together but stupid girl ran to that boy after I told her the
consequences
I sighed
Me: atleast you got the pictures
Him: why are you so stupid like your friend
Me: don't shout at me
Him: everything is gone , my bank account is empty, I didn't even
pay for my apartment shit I'm homeless and jobless because of
you
Me: I still don't get it
Him: does the word Mr Ngema ring a bell?? the greatest of them
all, if I knew God only if I knew...
Me: stop being a cry baby man
Him: so how I'm a cry baby Khabonina, I don't have a job,money
and house to live in and you saying I'm acting like a cry baby huh
Me: I will send you some money just stop owkay
Him: as if it will help me, all I have is a broken nose and some
broken ribs from that awful man, why didn't you warn me?
Me: I didn't know she will run to Mr Ngema instead of her father
Him: she is pregnant..
I felt my body tense up, Lelo is pregnant and I'm sure not for
Trevor it can't be for Trev, then a smile just attacked my face.
Now I don't need to worry myself all things are coming together.
Me: tell me you joking
Him: I'm certain, for 2 months now
Me: Thank you brother, I will deposit R5000 for you now
Him: gues i have to say thank you
Me:I'm sorry you didn't tap that pussy
Him: mxm go to hell

After two weeks

Lelo

This pregnancy thought is realy getting to me, Im not pregnant

cause I don't feel pregnant not even once did I have to experience
all the symptoms. I was laying on Musa's chest.I spent the night
and damn it was one of a hell night. Nigga did not let me rest, the
styles he made me do and the way he got it all in jeez it was
amazing. He opened his eyes and turned me to look at him. He
smiled as he kissed me.
Him: morning sthandwa sami
Me: morning baby
He kissed me again and attempted to go ontop of me but I
stopped him
Me: ha.a baby I'm tired
Him: baby please just one round nyana
Me: love no
He didn't even listen to me and in seconds I found myself
moaning. This shit is real. We had one steamy hot amazing
fucken great undescribable round and headed to the shower.
After that we ordered pizza and ate in bed.
Him: I'm thinking of getting a flat
Me: but why??
Him: baby I want us to feel comfortable, plus you being pregnant
you know you will need a very good and tidy place.
I looked at him, only If he knew how i felt, I didn't even have a little
bump on my stomach, it was normal so I didn't see any
pregnancy or màybe the baby is hiding.
Me: so you will be driving to and from campus
Him: not realy, I will find one next to campus , I just don't want this
sharing anymore
Me: you growing too fast baby
Him: I blame you for that
Me: for what exactly, making you come inside me cause baby that
one you did it yourself and left me pregnant for a ghost baby
He punched me loughing
Him: my baby ain't no ghost love
Me: but I cannot see or feel him sweety
Him: it's your first pregnancy just give it time love.
He said brushing my stomach. Oh father God I love this boy. I
confess I'm inlove with Him and i will never let anything come
between us.never!!

Narrated

The two families were brought together by the healer they once
approached to marry off their kids. Mr Pretorias couldn't stop
pacing up and down with Mr Brown doing the same too. Were
their decisions going against them?.
Healer: I'm greeting you all people
They greeted back and putted money on the ground.
Her: I never thought we will see this day, I thought you had
everything under control, but I was wrong.
MrB: we don't know what you talking about my healer
She chuckled
Her: Your daughter is pregnant for another man, and your son
She pointed at Mr Pretorias
Her: pregnanted another woman, now tell me so you call this
having all things under control.
Both famies looked stunned. Mr Brown couldn't stand the thought
of Inno having to carry a Ngema child, he gave his wife a death
stare that shook her too. But was it her fault? ?.
MrB: are you sure she is pregnant
Her: my ancestors don't lie to me
MrP: now what should we do? ?
Her: you all know the curse, but the child in question was
conceived through true love, those souls that made it feels
something strong for one another, breaking them means war.
The families mumbled to one another
Her: and you all know that war means no peace, blood spilling
and hatred.
MrB: just show us the way
Her: the baby must die, it is against the curse
MrsB cried out loud, she couldn't let that happen to Her only
daughter.
MrsB: you can't kill her baby, you cant please don't
Her husband looked at her then shook his head.
MrB: stop this nonsense now, you know exactly that she can't
keep that thing
The healer continued telling them the circumstances and
consequences they were gonna face. After some time they
agreed that a ceremony shall be done now not later, and that
Lelo's child should be sacrificed, that meant more money and
stability to both families although that weren't in their thought. If
Leloh ad to keep this baby, she will die after birth and the families
wealth will die with her while Trevor finds no love ever again.

Hours later, the ceremony was a success, both, both families

celebrated but MrsB couldn't. She rushed out to her house and
cried her lungs out. A parent is supposed to protect her child but
she was doing the opposite. She could feel that her marriage was
breaking since MrB hasn't touched her for a month now, but what
she couldn't understand was if wheather it was one of the
consequences they had to come across if the children go against
the wishes off the ancerstors or her husband was cheating on
her??. She went to the living room and drank her sorrows, MrB
got in all angry.
Him: you just had to embarass me just like that, what wrong with
you woman
She looked at him with teary eyes, the pain in her heart was too
much, why does he have to despise her now, how can he be so
heartless to their only daughter, only child.
Him: I'm talking to you woman, couldn't you just pretend you were
happy the sacrifice was a success
Her: and celebrate the death of my child's baby, that what you
mean Brown??
She cried but hell his husband clicked his toungue and went
upstairs. After some time he came back looking all refreshed and
went out.
Him: don't wait up
She didn't even ask him where to cause she already knew the
answer. Life was turning against her, she gulped down all the last
whisky in the bottle and lay on the couch crying.
Her: im so sorry my baby
She said as she struggled to let out another sound. Her drunk
body lay there for the night.

Musa

I was woken up by screams from Lelo, she was spending the

night with me again since Trey went home and will be coming
back tommorow.
Me: baby you fine??
She couldn't say anything, her body was cold as in cold. I got up
scared and turned onn the light. The look on she gave terrified
me,she cried touching her stomach and abdomen. I didn't know
what to do, I cried too she looked pained and that hurted me.
Her: baby ahhhhh it painful I can't breath I can't...
She went quiet as I called the ambulance
Me: baby please be still it will be fine
Her:.......
She just cried silently, I carried her and went down with her to my
car. She was in her short pyjamas.Her body was cold to the
maximum.i was losing my baby. I drove to the hospital with tears
blinding my sight. I can't live without her God please protect her
and our baby. In this moment I felt my life shutting me down.
Getting into the hospital I ran with her in my arms shouting for
help. The nurse's came to me running then took her to some
room. She was still quite but with her eyes open. I was left outside
with them attending her. I knelt down and prayed to Almighty. I
prayed so hard crying, I couldnt lose her, we still have to get
married and have our 5 kids.

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Musa

I was woken up by the doctor. I slept sitting on one of the chairs. I

blinked twice remembering last night then my heart started
beating fast. I was scared so scared.
Me: Doc is everything fine, are they okay ?can i see her please? ?
She tapped my shoulders
Her: breath just breath
Me: please tell me they are fine
She looked at me and sighed
her: she is fine
I smiled then realised that she said her only, what about our
baby??
Me: she is fine??
Her: yes she is fine you can go and see her.
Me: doctor what about our baby,??
She looked confused
Her:what baby??
Me: she was 2 months and 2 weeks pregnant.
Her: no there must have been a mistake, we did not come across
any pregnancy.
Me: that's impossible, her pregnancy was comfired doctor
Her:I'm sorry boy, but your girlfriend wasn't pregnant when
entering this hospital.
I remained still, what was happening, tears scroll down as I
thought about the day doctor Botha said she was pregnant, we
even had scans taken few weeks ago. But still Lelo wasn't even
showing maybe our child was a ghost.
Her: you can see her
Me: Thank you doctor but please tell me what was wrong with her
She sighed
Her: we still trying to understand the reason behind her coldness
because that was way too much and for her to survive it was a
miracle, the tests will be back tommorow
Me: I don't understand
Her: Your girlfriend suffered from unknown factors we still trying to
understand, no human could have lived through that coldness
cause even her heart was cold.
Me: I don't understand what happened, she was fine all day
Her: only God knows my child.
She left and I went to her ward. She looked miles away with tears
filling her face. I just broke down seeing her laying there . She
didn't even look at me, it was like her mind wasn't with her, her
eyes were fixed on the ceiling. I went to sit next to her and
touched her hands. She didnt turn to look at me I just cried
silently. Her body was warm now, she was still beautiful like
always. I kissed her chicks shit she didn't even blink or move a
little.
Me: baby
She went silence, I called her for many times but it like she didn't
acknowledge my presence.
Me:Mma brown
Finally she turned and looked at me with her face wet with tears.I
wiped her and kissed her lips.
Me: it okay baby
She didn't say anything but just cried. I couldn't hold it anymore, I
cried with her.
She made space for me on her bed and I got in. She rested on
my chest and we cried together.
Her: he is gone
That's all she said, I gues the doctor told her. I held her tight, our
hearts were broken, our ghost baby dissapeared. How is that
possible??

Trevor

I was called by my family early inthe morning, they said it was

something about me and Inno. I walked in looking out of it, I slept
late last night since I was clubing all night. I had 3 different girls
whom I spent the night with.last night I was realy a ratchet, I felt
like a part of me was falling apart that why I went out.
Dad: you look restless
I chuckled
Me: that's because I didn't sleep a wink
Him: go get a cold bath, the Ngema's are coming over
Me: right on it
I had my cold bath as dad instructed and felt better, then
breakfast with grandmother.
Her: you look troubled my son
Me: you've got no idea gran
Her: all will be well
Me: not without Inno, why do I feel like this for her gran , its like
she is a part of me and my body can't function without her
presence, my heart gran, my heart feel lost and my mind wonders
of her doings..
I was now literaly crying and I didn't even realise it. Gran looked
at me with a pity look, she did not look at me again, something
told me she was hiding something from me.
Me: gran
her: it will be fine baby, you and Inno will reconcile , you will be
happy
I nodded and finished my food. The Ngema family arrived and we
went to sit outside.

Dad: we all know why we are here

Me: except for me
Him: you will find out
I sat there quiet as they talked about war between the three
families.
MrB: the Ngema's have to pay, if that boy refused to let go of my
daughter then we have no choice
Me: so we going against the boy's family?
Dad: do you have a better idea?
I shook my head, I wanted that boy dead with every part of my
body. He have something that belongs to me.
MrB: I gues war it is, Trevor are you ready son??
Dad: oh he will be trust me, he just needs some training since it
been a while
Me: I'm good dad, I'm ready
We all raised our glasses
MrB:To war
All of us: to war

Narrated

After the meeting with the Pretorias family, MrsB received a call
from Musa who told her about Lelo's incident. She told her
husband.
Her: Lelo is at the hospital
Poor mother was in tears, so her daughter lost her child, how was
she going to look at her without feeling guilt.
Him: I gues the sacrifise was a success
She blinked twice not understanding the man she calls her
husband, he didn't even show mercy.
Her: I'm going to Johannesburg now
Him: I need to see her too
They packed and drove to Johannesburg.

Lelo

What I experienced I cannot describe. For the first time last night I
felt my baby, I felt him, I could feel him God I felt his presence
inside me, and I felt him being ripped out of me. Am I going
crazy??,how does it heppen that I finally feel my baby but the
doctors says there was never a baby. What's happening me
God??. I spent the night here again with Musa ofcause nigga did
not want to leave my side. We were woken up by the nurse, she
was a friendly soul.
Her: morning my couple
We smiled at her
Me: morning
Her: you've got guest
Me: so early? ?
Her: yes they say they are your parents
I looked at Musa
Him: I called your mother babe
Me: you shouldn't have
Him: you need her, she is your mother
I sighed
Me: give us a few minutes to bath please
Her: okay then I will tell them to wait.
We got up and took a shower together. Musa was the one paying
my hospital bills although I insisted in paying for them. I knew my
parents will hate seeing him here. A few minutes later we were
done and ready, I was gonna be discharged later today after we
receive the tests taken. Mother walked in first followed by father,
Musa did the opposite and went out after perking my lips.
Him: be strong hey
Me: I will be fine
Him: I love you okay
I smiled and nodded
Me: I love you too
He went out with dad giving him a death stare, well he didnt even
mind him.
Mom: my baby
She was crying and that made me cry too
Me: mother
Her: you will be fine
I looked at her and something told me my mom knew something
but then she didn't know I was pregnant nobody knew except me
and Musa.
Me: you look so thin
Her: I just miss my child
I chuckled with tears after remembering when she said she thinks
father is cheating on her. I looked at him and damn he had that "
don't dare me look" on his face. I quickly turned to my mother.
Me:you now being sarcastic.
Her: I was so worried
Me: it was just a minor thing I'm fine now
I said with every means to hide the fact that I lost My ghost baby,
no He actually dissapeared may be he will re-appear who knows,
that what ghost do right.I was disturbed by my father's husk voice.
Dad: you still seeing that boy
Me: and I'm never gonna stop seeing him daddy.
He tried by all means to keep himself calm.
Him:I swear I'm gonna kill him if...
I did not let him finish
Me: then you will be killing your daughter, him dead is me dead.
I said looking straight at him
Mom: baby He still your father don't. ..
Me: no mother look at you, it obvious you not happy, he doesn't
even show remorse and didn't even ask how i was all he worries
about Is my relationship with Musa, as if It his business.
I was realy mad, dad is abusive even If not physically but
emotionally he is, my mom is getting thinner as if she wasn't thin
enough because of Him.
Him: you don't talk to me like that Innocentia Brown.
Me:and you don't detect my life Mr Brown
Him: it's because of that boy, all this disrespect it because of him,
well you tell him I'm coming for him and his family
Me: you touch them father I tell you, you will lose your only
daughter.
Mom: you both stop it
Me: tell your husband I do not ever want to see him again
I was now crying.
Her: Lelo stop it mani
Him: I'm just saying, I don't care if you don't want to see me or
what but the fact remains, I'm not gonna have my baby being in a
relationship with a Ngema boy, never
I looked at him and he was serious, my dad will never accept
Musa
Him:I'm hoping he doesn't find himself laying in this very same
hospital with you.
He said going out and I buried myself in my mother's chest.

Insert 26

Two weeks later

Lelo
I won't say it been great but with Musa by my side im coping , well
I'm trying I gues I have to say we both trying.Musa has moved out
of res and is staying near the school at some flats. Me and mom
have grown closer since my incident and as for dad , he hates me
to the core. We've just attended Tax which was our last class. I
was with my baby.
Him: you coming with me right.
Me:no babe today I'm spending the night at my room I miss my
bed hle
He chuckled
Him: we both know that bed ain't comportable so i dont
understand exactly what you missing
Me: peace baby peace, your snoring kills my nightmares
He loughed
Him: atleast in a positive way
Me: awa baby but seriously today I'm sleeping in my bed alone
with my teddy
Him: okay then
He displayed a sour face but I ignored him, I've been spending
the night at his flat for a week now. If my dad could hear about
that I swear his gonna kill him with his own hands now.
Him: I love you
I blushed
Me: go already
He frowned
Him: awsangfuni na ( you now don't want me)
I loughed
Me: ncooh baby go now
Him: you don't love me anymore ??
Me: you know I do
Him: do what baby
I smiled
Me: I love you sthandwa sami
He smiled
Him: I love it when you call me like that, It kinda weird because of
your colour
I chuckled
Me: baby I'm mixed raced not white thou, you know I can speak
Swati and Xhosa so good
He loughed
Him: I would love to see you try
We kissed then he left.

Musa

I was training with Sydwel who heppened to be sent by my dad.

This guy is huge and very big muscled. It been a week now since
I started and I hevent even punched him to bleed. He is so strong
I can't even make him fall but I have to try hard. Today he said we
are trying something new, we were at his house in Soweto. Its so
big and have rooms underground of which that where the training
was happening. He came with a bag and smiled at me.
Him: I hope you are ready
Me: I'm always ready
He took out five guns different versions. I'm scared of guns trust
me I felt my body shake. Nigga loughed at me.
Him: breath boy I ain't gonna shoot you
I faked a smile
Me: what we doing with guns
Him: its part of the training
I shivered a bit
Me: I dont need a gun man
Him: trust me you do
He came to me and gave me the small one. I thought I was gonna
die me holding a gun God this is too much.
Him: cool down it not full
Me: what am I supposed to do now
Him: follow me.
We went to some room, it was very similar to those in movies
where you learn how to shoot.
Him: you gonna learn how to shoot and aim at your opposite
I nodded , speaking was hard. He loaded it then gave it to me. I
wore whatever he gave me for my ears and started aiming and
firing shots at the made man. I did this for some time and before I
realise I was out of bullets. I heard him clapping his hands.
Him: boy boy boy....you killed that person at the first shot.
I smiled nervously, the thought of me killing was terrifying.
Him: atleast you good at something Mr hitman
Me: Im suprised myself
Him: maybe a gun is all you need
Me: I realy don't need a gun
Him: I won't argue with you then, now back to push ups, give me
100
Me: no man I just did that few hours ago
Him: I thought you prefer this than a gun, now go 150 son.
I looked at him and he was fuck serious.
I went down as I started counting.

Narrated

Mr Pretorias was with Mr Brown and Trevor at his study. Both

man did not look appeased at all.
MrB: why can't we just kill the boy and get over and done with this
Trev: I'm with you there, if we kill Him then Inno will be mine.
MrP: we will face the consequences, what if Ngema kills you too
He pointed at Trevor
Him: dad I can protect myself, plus my security is tight , but what if
he kills Lelo?
Mr Brown shook his head.
Him: he wouldn't dare i will kill everyone in his household if he
dares touch my baby.
Trev: this Is some kind of shit
MrP: we have to be smart or else we will lose both of you.
Just then Mr Brown's phone rang, he answered it.
Him: Brown speaking
Caller: your plans won't work, conniving against me aint worth it
this time around.
He knew who he was talking to.
Him: Ngema
He chuckled
MrN: you dare touch my son Brown
Him: Then do what's right unless you want to see the past
repeating itself.
Mr Ngema sighed.
MrN: let the kids be
MrB: over my dead body
MrN: then let the war begin
MrB: I'm coming for you
MeN: I will be waiting
He then dropped the call.

At the Ngema household.

He took his whiskey and poured it in his special glass. He drank
thinking about the past. What made the Browns and the Ngema's
enemies after being being friends for fucken 10 years. His wife
came to his side and sat on his lap.
Her: honey
He looked at her and still couldn't believe that she is alive, She
survived all the pain she went through because of him and that
she still loves him that much although she once brought pains in
her life. He smiled at the beauty that loves the whole him, that he
loves with every part of his body. He understood her son, he
knows how It hurts to almost lose or lose the one that makes your
heart beat abnormally .
Him: my love
She blushed looking at his man. Although he sometimes takes
risks and make bad decisions but she love him, with all his inflows
and outflows.
Her: you seem miles away
Him: we are about to take a dangerous route my love.
She sighed
Her:all for love right
Him: all for our son baby
Her: I just hope It doesn't get bad Ngema cause I can't afford to
lose my son, I've lost enough inthe past.
She already had tears in her eyes.
Him: we won't lose him love
Her: I hope so hunny, I don't like this at all
He sighed
Him: I don't either, but that hot headed man won't stop, he is so
unbelievable
Her: he hates you
Him: I don't like him either
They both loughed
Her: I'm gonna go and prepare your favourite stew
Him: that can wait
He gave her a naughty look
Her: don't even start Ngema
He kissed her as he picked her up in bridal style heading to their
bedroom. The giggles from his wife were what could calm him
down right now.

Later that day he called his men and commanded them to stay
input. Some he transferred to Johhanesburg to guard his son, he
needed all the protection since he couldn't protect himself. He
then called him.
Musa: Father
Him: you sound auxhausted
He chuckled
Musa: all I want is a cold shower and some sleep.
He loughed
Him: you are such a lady
Musa: I'm no stone father I'm a human behaving like a human.
Him: heard you can shoot
He chuckled
Musa: I try
Him: that's not what I heard
Musa: then what did you hear pops
Him: my son can aim, he doesn't miss just like his
He didn't let him finish
Musa: like his father
Him: you said it sonny
They both loughed
Him: sleep then, and yeah I got some people looking out for you
Musa: dad
Him: it's for your own safety
Musa: Is it that bad
Him: you don't wanna know
Musa: let me sleep then
Him: I love you son
Musa: pops that's gay
Him: is It wrong to declare my love for my own damn son
He chuckled
Musa: I love you too pops
They both Loughed.

Nina
6months already and I feel so big. Trevor ain't giving me that
much attention but atleast we sometimes spend nights together
although he sometimes daydream about her and even call her
during our moments which makes me very much jelous and
angry. Why does she have to get everything she want and that
she aint even interested in?? I wont rest until Trev becomes mine
and mine only and with this baby things are gonna turn out good.

I took my phone and called Lelo, it been a long time since I spoke
to her plus I want find out about the pregnancy. She picks up on
the third ring.
Her: what a suprise
I chuckled
Me: you still mad at me
Her: for what exactly
I sighed
Me: betraying you
me: you said it yourself, how do you keep people who betrays you
in your life
Me: Im sorry my friend
Her: don't please, friends ain't snakes like you Nina, what do you
want
Me: I just miss my friend
She chuckled
Her: so now she remembers she has a friend, the one she
abondened because of a dick
I rolled my eyes
Me: its not like you wanted him Lelo
She chuckled
Her: and you thought fuuking him behind my back was a good
idea, why didn't you just come forward about your feelings?
I sighed
Me: because he was gonna be your husband, we were just
having fun no strings attached.
Her: no strings attached neh, so now tell me how come your
brother kidnaps me and warn me to stay away from Tee....
I pretended to be suprised
Me: he kidnapped you??
She loughed like as if she was mocking me
Her: oh poor Lelo, do you think I'm that stupid Nina??
Me: I realy don't know what you talking about
Her: I'm sure you heard I was pregnant and you wanted to verify it
huh?? Let me make it clear to you dear besty, I don't want your
stupid Trevor, not now not ever.
I smiled a little, so the problem is Trevor and his family followed
by Lelo's family. And Lelo agreed she is pregnant but Trev doesn't
know that. All I have to do now is to find out the reason behind
this forced marriege because it clear that Lelo ain't after my
Trevor. I dropped the call and lay on the couch brushing my
stomach.
Me: I'm gonna make sure we have daddy all to our selves baby,
even if it means killing his sweetheart.

Insert 27

Lelo

Its the end of second semester and God I must say its been
difficult but because I have my bae with me every step of the way
we did well, we both came out with the highest marks and even
got nominated for best academics at school.
It's the end of June and we going home, Musa has changed, well
he is now muscled and all heavy, that's multiplies his
handsomeness and my dad says I should leave him, never ever
Mr that boy is mine and mine alone. Like wise Neo has been on
my nerve the whole second term but I did not give her my
attention, just because she fucked my man once that doesn't
mean she meant something to him. I had finished packing and
waiting for my driver, well daddy sent one for me I don't know why
and I don't care, and yes I been having this feelings of being
followed but i brushed them off after Musa told me to not worry
myself. Since i lost my baby we've been having protected sex, I
hate the thought of falling pregnant again. My phone rang and
yeah It was my mother.
Me: mom
Her: the driver is waiting for you baby
Me: ok I'm coming out now
Her: I can't wait to see you
Me: ncooo that's cute
She chuckled
Her: I'm making your favourite
I loughed
me: auto correct mommy sis Beauty is making my favourite
Her: but I'm the one who asked her
I chuckled
me: I will be there withing hours
Her: and we gonna go Shopping
Me: here we go again
We both loughed and ended the call. I went out and yeah I was
on my way to my hell home. I'm just hoping daddy doesn't do
anything stupid.

Musa

I was already home, the perks of having a car but then I wished I
had come with my princess right next to me but situations
forfeited us. I was chilling with my dad, my brother was out of the
country due to the war declared by Mr Brown, daddy didn't want
both his son's in danger and my brother being a fucker he had to
let him go somewhere where he will not be found, even me
myself doesnt know were he is. I'm just glad he is safe cause I
won't forgive myself if he gets hurts just because of me.
Dad: son you sure you wanna do this
I sighed
Me: dad I can't live without her trust me I've tried but it
impossible.
Him: I see, you know you might lose your life or one of us might
end up in a hospital bed because of this?
I nodded slowly, I'm putting my family in danger, all because of
my crazy love.
Him: I hope you have your gun at a safe place and where you can
easily access it.
Me: yeah, it's still weird having it though
Yes I finaly agreed in keeping a gun, and my strength has
doubled or maybe tripled, Sydwel taught me a lot, I now can stand
up and say " I am capable of protecting myself".
Him: good then cause you never know when they will strike
Me: this is realy heppening
He coughed
Him:I've faced a lot than this before
Me: what realy happened pops
Him: nothing you have to know
Me: I just want to understand this feud between the two families.
He sighed
Him: its a long story, one that you will never understand, but I will
tell you one thing son, Brown won't stop this if you dont let go of
his daughter, he might even kill you if that's the only solution.
I looked at him and he wasnt kidding, am I realy ready to die for
Lelo? Yess, I will die for my love, my heart ❤.
Trevor

They both home, it's school holidays and one thing I know for
sure is that they will be busy Playing happy couples rouming all
around the streets. One thing I hate is to lose and with Lelo it
seems like I always keep on losing. Her father invited me for
dinner today, I can't wait to see her.

Later that day

I bought lilies for her,and her favourite box of chocolates, I'm a

gentleman indeed. I went in, it was already past7 inthe evening.
Lelo opened the door for me and led me to the living room. She
looked so beautiful and happy, while my life was a mess without
her. Seeing her made my heart beat faster, she had that effect in
me. I smiled as she allowed me to sit down. Her parents were
upstairs.
Me: you look beautiful
She smiled
Her: I am beautiful Trevor
I returned the smile
Me: you've always been beautiful
Her: I know
Me: so how have you been?
Her face lightened up, she was realy happy without me.and that
made me mad.
Her: you realy wanna know??
I nodded afraid of how my voice may sound like.
Her: I've been great, my life is perfect Tee, I'm so happy for once
in my life I found happiness, a secrete haven that completes me,
all of me.
She was even smiling God in gonna kill that boy, I'm gonna make
sure he dies a painful death, I wanna rip his heart out and make
him eat his own intestines, I want him to suffer like I'm suffering
now.
I faked a smile and looked at my supposed to be wife.
Me: well I'm happy for you
That was a lie, I hated that she was smiling because of him not
me. Mr and Mrs Brown came down looking all gorgeous. I
imagined us walking together hand in hand, smiling like idiots, I
didn't even hear Mrs Brown greeting me.
Her: already you dreaming son
Me: mmhm im sorry
They loughed
Her: you fine?
Me: never been better
We ate while having chats there and there, after that we had
desert outside and by 10 the parents left to their bedrooms.
MrB: son you spending the night right?
I looked at him and he gave me an assurance look so I nodded.
Him: goodnight then.
Lelo:mmhm dad where is he going to sleep cause the guest
rooms ain't prepared.
Him: your room ofcause, you engaged right?
She gave him a serious look but he left.
Her: If I were you I would leave right now cause there's no way
I'm sharing a bed with you.
I chuckled
Me:what are you afraid of Innocentia.?
She raised her eyebrows
Her: nothing, I didn't invite you here bro
Me: well I don't care but fact remains I'm not leaving and we
gonna share a bed today, I just hope the good happens.
She looked at me and got up leaving me hanging.

Lelo.

After I left Tee inthe sitting room I called Musa, I'm not gonna
share my bedroom with Tee never.
Him: my heart
I fake tears and sadness
Me: baby come fetch me
Him: you alright love?
Me: Musa just come please he is here
After that I heard the call being ended, I knew he was coming, I
packed a little bag for myself and changed to my pyjamas.after 15
minutes he called me.
Me: love
Him: I'm outside
I took my things and went downstairs, Tee was still sitting inthe
living room. I passed him and went outside using the kitchen door.
He looked at me suprised but to hell I didn't even care.
Me: you can use my room dear hubby
Him: where are you going
Me: to my man
He chuckled
Him: you not gonna leave me here alone with your parents, for
God's sake Inno I'm here because of you.
I displayed a little smile
Me: I never asked you Mr Pretorias
My phone beeped
Me: I'm gone
I went out and found him outside the car. He gave me a long
warm hug, something I needed.
Me: I'm Glad you came
Him: you got me worried
Me: I'm sorry, I had to get out of there
Me: I'm glad you called me
He was looking deeply in my eyes, and so was I, in those eyes I
found assurance that he loved me as much as I love him. They
assured me that I wasn't in this alone but we are both
cooperating.
Me: I don't know what I would be without you, life will be
meaningless
Him: losing you is my biggest fear Mma Brown, I love you with my
kidney
I loughed
Me: and I love you with my..mmhm..I don't know babe
We both loughed
This love is dangerous, what we feel For each other is beyond
love. We got in the car and he drove playing Michael Bolton "Said
I loved you but I lied" we started singing along
Him: "You are the candle, love's the flame
A fire that burns through wind and rain
Shine your light on this heart of mine
Till the end of time"
I smiled, my babe had that voice man, he was just perfect, my
Trey songs. I sang along too..
Me:" You came to me like the dawn through the night,Just shinin'
like the sun
Out of my dreams and into my life
You are the one, you are the one"
Both: " Said I loved you but I lied
'Cause this is more than love I feel inside
Said I loved you but I was wrong
'Cause love could never ever feel so strong,Said I loved you but I
lied".
All along i was looking at him driving and singing, i just lost myself
there. Within minutes we were outside his house, I started getting
nervous.he looked at me.
Him: I love you
He kissed my nose and I smiled
Me: I'm creating trouble for you and your family
Him: you are part of our family.
I smiled
Him: " With all my soul I've tried in vain
How can mere words my heart explain
This taste of heaven so deep so true
I've found in you,so many reasons in so many ways my life has
just begun
Need you forever, I need you to stay
You are the one, you are the one""
He was singing to me God I blushed to the muximum, Musa was
going to be the death of me seriously. I felt things man why is he
like this.I even hide my face with my hands, i dont know how he
made me feel like this.
Him: I can't live without you, you are the one Mbulelo, no else
I was in tears already, he smiled and wiped them off.
Him: Im sorry I made you cry
I chuckled
Me: your love completes me, it's scares the hell out of me....I love
you so much and you are the one Musa Ngema, my chosen one.
He hugged me
Him: let go in now
We did and luckily no one was awake. We went to his bedroom
and stripped naked the very same moment. We slept while
cuddling, I just heard him mumbling
Him: goodnight my heart....☺☺

Insert 28

Musa

We woke up late at 9, it was Sunday.

Me: morning my heart
She smiled lazily
Her: morning my person
Me: are you fine?
She looked worried
Her: I'm good baby, your family will kill me this time around...
Me: don't be silly, now wake up so that we can go take a bath.
She pouted and I loughed. I'm just relieved that this time around
her parents didn't come at my house and acted crazy. We got up
and washed out bodies together. We used the shower and damn
my Ngema warrior was standing hard. I couldn't stop appreciating
her body and kissing the hell out of it.
Me: can I??
I didn't give her a chance to answer already I was in, I lifted her
left leg and pushed her over the wall, he mouned as i got in slowly
and started pounding in fast then faster. The water was still
flowing, atleast my parents wouldn't hear all that mouning. I bent
her over, moving in circles..
Me: fuck Lelo ahh
She was so good, so tight, I moved faster until I felt her shaking
and I was cuming too, she came first and I followed.
Her: sex in the shower
I loughed as she said smiling
Her: you so naughty
Me: it's all your fault
Her: we didn't use protection
Me: we will buy morning after pills.
She nodded and we continued with our shower. We went out and
got dressed. She was dressed in a red knee dress, so beautiful
and black heels,she didn't need make up or draw up her
eyebrows, she was so perfect.
Her: staring is rude
I acted suprised
Me: who? Me? Staring at you baby never
She loughed, that Lough completed me.
Her: you know you can stare at this the whole fucken day Mr
Ngema without even blinking
She said pointing at her self
Me: I dont stare ugly people Mma Brown
Her: me and ugly we don't mix
Me: shame my heart you and ugly same whatsap group.
She frowned and I loughed at her
Her: you wish
We went downstairs to the kitchen, by the sound of it my folks
were already there. She gave me a nervous look and I just held
her hands.
Me: don't worry babe they don't bite
She nodded...
Me: morning family
They both looked at us with daddy smiling and mom suprised
Me: so you not gonna greet back
Dad: mmh morning
He didn't leave sight
Me: well I know y'all suprised to see Lelo here,I'm sorry she spent
the night without your knowledge.
My mom sighed
Her: Lelo right??
My heart nodded
Her: you realy are beautiful, no wonder my son is inlove with you
She smiled.
Her: i know your parents doesnt know where you are so I'm not
gonna ask ..
She was still looking at her.
Me: what are we having for breakfast
Mom: you
I loughed
Me: im only reserved for my lady
She blushed as my parents shook their heads.
Mom: young love
Dad: hope you using Protection..
Me: pops !!
Mom: true baby, we don't want little ones right now..
Lelo was quite, she looked so adorable.
Me: well me and my bae we are still pure,
Akere baby...
She smiled
Mom: that was a naughty smile, now we know for sure you play
the game too..
My heart looked at me and we just loughed
Me: but ma that smile wasn't naughty at all..
Her: it was, you saw it too right baby??
She said asking dad.
Him: it all written all over their faces, I can tell they just had some
be for coming down..
We all loughed,
Me: ay you making my babe shy ,come let go make some food
hun.
She got up, I knew she wasn't good in the kitchen and I loved her
with all her strengths and weaknesses, I loved her with every part
of my soul if it does have parts .
Her: why don't we just go out babe
I chuckled
Me: you that bad baby
She giggled
Her: I wish I could say no
Me: I think I need to give you some cooking lessons
Her: that an option baby
I prepared English breakfast for all of us, I knew my way around
the kitchen, I used to cook with mom and I enjoyed it. My heart
was helping me there and there then when we were done we
dished for everyone and made the table. We were now eating
with both My parents.
Dad: I'm glad you both did well at school with everything going on
right now.
Me: Lelo wouldn't give me no time to rest pops, I swear I studied
for 8 hours every day..
They loughed
Lelo: as if you did spent the 8 hours, baby you always fell asleep
at the fourth hour of our studying.
Mom:and here I was thinking he did studied for 8 hours. ..
We loughed
Me: babe 8 hours is too much thou
Mom: no you just lazy my son
We finished breakfast, then I had to drive Lelo to her house.
Mom: hope your folks doesn't kill you my baby...it was nice
knowing you his heart.
She smiled
Her: same here ma, you so nice
Mom: you are adorable and I can see you are a nice person too,
my son chose well.
Her: thank you
Mom: visit us again, during the day please we don't want heart
attacks in the morning.
We loughed
Me: don't be silly mom
Her: I'm serious, I nearly got one
Lelo: have a good Sunday
they gave we hugs and we left.
Her: your parents are amazing
Me: they loved you
Her: I loved them too
I squeezed her hand
Me: you will be fine??
We were outside her house ,but two houses away.
Her: I will be, don't worry
Me: I love you sthandwa sami
Her: I love you more baby
We kissed and She went out. I left after she got in her yard.

Lelo

I walked in the kitchen and heard them arguing. I sighed deeply

then greeted them.
Me: morning
Mom came to me and gave me a hug
Her: baby you are okay
Me: I'm fine mother
Her: you had us worried
Dad: I hope you were not in the Ngema household
Mom: stop now Brown
dad: what??, she is still a child and she sleeps out, is that how we
raised you Innocentia.
He said taking off his belt, dad wasn't gonna beat me, I refuse to
belive that. I looked at mom.
Her: you not gonna beat my daughter
Him: watch me then, this child is spoilt to the maximum
me: so dad what you saying is that it fine to sleep with Trevor in
my room under your roof..wow
I clapped my hands and his belt landed on my back. I screamed a
little still astonished. Again he whipped me again and again. Mom
was trying hard to stop him but he over powered her.
Him: I feed you Inno, you wear me, school me, everything me and
what do you do? Disrespect me and go against my rules.
I looked at my father, what is wrong with this man. He left me
laying on the floor.My whole body was painful.Mom helped me out
and we went to my room.
Her: I'm so sorry Baby
me: I'm fine mom
Her: he was just so angry, your father loves you sweety
I nodded
Me: I know mother
Her: now talk
She looked at me
me: what mom
Her: Mbulelo where did you sleep??
I sighed
Me: you wont be mad??
Her: I will be, but not like your father
Me: at musa's house
Her:you realy love that boy?
Me: so much mommy
Her:you know baby sometimes life denies us what we admire and
love the most, it's just life baby..
Me: it can denie me anything and everything but not him Mom, I
can't live without him, I tried and I failed
Her: I'm so sorry you have to go through this, It now that I realised
I've wronged you in the last few months..
Me: you were just supporting your husband mom, it not your fault.
Her: I can't imagine losing you baby, and this war thing between
the three families scares me.
Me: what war mom??
She sighed
Her:I thought you knew
Me: knew what? ?
Her: your father will do anything for you to break up with that boy..
Me: I still don't get you
Her: war baby, both families are planning on attacking the Ngema
household.
Me:you kidding right
Her: I'm not love....our lives are in danger and so are theirs.
Me: I swear if dad hurts one of them mom I won't forgive him
Mom went out and I called Musa.
Him: my heart
Me: you knew dad declared war between our families?.
I heard him sigh
Him: I didn't want to worry you love
Me: Musa how can I not worry when we putting lives in danger
huh??even our own lives are in danger
Him: I know baby, but we will win this right??our love is much
stronger
Me: only if you told me baby
Him: I can handle this my love
Me: Im scared baby, this is big
Just then I heard so much noise, it's like two cars were
colliding...screams attacked as people shouted
Me: Musa, baby
My heart beat raced, I couldnt breath, it wasnt what i thought
no😰😰.
Me: baby... musa
I screamed so loud crying, mom came running.
Her: baby what is it???
I just cried,the pain I was feeling was similar to that I had when I
felt like I was losing my ghost baby. Moms chest was wet with my
tears.
Me:I have to go now
I got up not even paying attention to the bruises by my father's
belt. I took my phone and wore my snickers, heels wouldn't do
right now. .
Mom: Lelo slow down baby, talk to me
I ignored her, my mind was miles away with Musa. I told myself
he was okay and that it's all my imgination. I went downstairs and
found my dad drinking his favourite whisky...
Him: where are you going
I ignored him and went out, he shouted my name but I continued.
At the gate the security didn't open for me.
Me:please open the gate
Him: your father told us not to...
Me: he what??.
Him: yes madam.
I went back in.
Him: this is my house Innocentia
Me: so you going to hold me captive.??
Him: if thats what I want yes...
Me: I need to go out please
Him: you not going anywhere
Just then the Tv news talked about an accident that heppened
minutes later, it was Musa's car and a truck , my legs failed me
and tears streamed down on my face.
" it is believed that the truck came out from know here knocking
down the young man's little car, the truck driver is injuered but
will live since he only broke his leg but the paramedics are still
trying to get the boy out of the car, we hoping for the best results"

Insert 29
""The odds are clearly stacked against us
We've been in this storm for way too long
There are many things that will test us
But we can win this fight if we just stay strong, And I just need to
know, you wanna go.""
" take it back "by Babyface ftTony Braxton .

Lelo

Should I just continue to cry or what? I don't know what to do, I'm
locked inside here and my feelings are being ignored. I cant think
of anything else but my love. The news hasn't updated us about
the situation yet. I decided on locking myself in my room since I
had no other choice. I've prayed thousands times now even God
is probably irritated by my voice.
Mom shouted from outside my door
Her: Mbulelo baby
I kept quiet, I don't need anyone now but my Musa.
Her: baby please open for mom
Me: I'm trying to sleep mother
Her: have something first then please
Me: I'm full thank you
I heard her sigh
Her: Mbulelo open the door, Or else I'm gonna ask one of the
guards to knock it down.
I got up and opened, my eyes were red and my face too.she
looked at me and gave me a warm hug. I cried on her shoulders.
Her: he will be fine baby stop crying
Me: it hurts mother , what if he is ....
Her: don't do this to yourself, you have to be strong for your love
Me: I'm tired of acting strong, I've lost too much and yet again I'm
about to lose the love of my life.
Her: shhhh baby I hate seeing you like this please pull yourself
together
Me: I just want to see him mother
She exhaled
Her: I will make a plan baby, now please calm down we don't
want you Having headache right.
I nodded sobbing. She went out and I decided on taking a cold
shower.

Narrated

Him: are you sure he is not gonna survive??

caller: very sure sir , I don't think he can survive, his car you can
never identify.
Him: you can fetch your cheque then
Caller: thank you sir
Him: I should be thanking you.
He dropped the call and called Mr Brown.
MrB: son in law
He sounded so happy
Him: father in law
MrB: I saw the news
Him: I'm just hoping he is dead
MrB: thoughts you wanted him to suffer
Him: I did, but that would have taken long
MrB: I'm just glad you fighting for what's yours
He chuckled
Him: your daughter is my everything
MrB: atleast I know she will be in good hands with you
Him:i just wish she knew how much i love her.
MrB: give her time son she will come around.
After ending the call he called Nina.
Her: nice suprise
He chuckled
Him: you missed me that much??
Her: no we missed you
Him: I see, I'm taking you out today
She giggled sofly
Her: I'm sure you are
Well Trev wasn't keen with them going out so today she was realy
suprised that he actualy asked her to go out with him.
Him: be ready by 7
Her: you serious??
Him: will see you later.
He dropped the call and smiled then poured some wine for
himself.
Him: mission accomplished.

Nina

Trevor is too much but I love him, I know he doesn't love me but
he will after all im giving him a baby,well we still dont know the
sex of our baby since we decided on making it a suprise.this past
few days I've been trying so hard to find a way to eliminate Lelo
that I even went to see an Inyanga from Kwamhlanga. The
woman told me that I cannot separate what has been put together
and I did not understand her, she couldn't rectify for me because
she claims my payment wasn't enough so I have to go back as
soon as I get my monthly allowance. I can't believe Im doing all
of this for a man, I just 20 years old and already I have to fight for
a guy that doesn't love me but I ain't got no choice.

Musa

I'm not supposed to be here, living or breathing but by God's

grace I am. I've been given another chance in life. I saw death
knocking on my door; I feared for my life I don't know if it miracles
or what but the way the accident happened,next saterday would
have been my burial. Today I saw God, I saw his miracles and I
saw his greatness, he is indeed mighty. Thank you father, thank
you for giving me another chance in life.

I was laying on a hospital bed, with my parents beside me. I

remember what heppened, I wasn't neglecting the road, I'm a
proffessional. thou I did answer Lelo's call but I was driving
correctly so I have no doubt that what heppened wasn't an
accident. I'm just glad I'm okay,I only passed out for an hour with
only a broken hand and some bruises. Talk about being lucky,
although I cannot say the same thing about my car.
Mom: baby you fine??
She looked pale and scared, mom will die If i die shame.
Me: I'm good mom
Her: you scared the shit out of us
I loughed
Me: mom language
Her:you always talk like that haw
Me: I'm just glad I'm okay
Her: yu nearly killed me Musawakhe
Me: I'm so sorry mother, where Is
my phone? ?
Dad: it died with your car
I chuckled
Me: pops
Him: what?it's dead seriously
Me: I need to call Lelo
Mom: Musa baby...
I interupted her
Me: mom please I have to, I know she is dead worried
she sighed
Her: you can use mine
Me: thank you..
She handed it and I dialled her number. It rang and rang but she
answered it. Her voice was calm, she sounds like someone who
was hurted, I hate it when she is like this.
Me: Mma Brown
I knew she could easily realise that she was talking to me If I call
her like that.
Her: Musa, baby...its you???
Her voice lightened up
Me: your only love sthandwa sami
Mom looked at me and shook her head but I ignored her.
Her: baby you are fine, you are owkay??
Me: slow down loves, I'm good very much good.
Her: you scared me, oh thank you God, You are so amazing,God
you are great, father you are amazing..
I loughed
Me: awa baby just like that you've turned into being mam'pastor
Her:Babe I would have lost you but he said no, he showed us his
mercy love.
Me: he is indeed wonderful love, imagine me dead hay bbe, death
doesnt suit such handsomeness
She chuckled
her: you and your handsomeness though, you even think about it
on your death bed.
Me: I'm just stating facts muntu wami.
She giggled
Her: I love you so much Musawami
I loughed
Me: I love the new name
Her: I know you do
Me: nah I was kidding
Her: mxm so how hurt are you
Me: just my left hand but I will survive baby, I'm your super man
remember
She giggled
Her: be well love, I will try and see you later
Me: I can't wait baby.
We ended the call and I found my folks looking at me as I I'm
crazy.
Me: And??
I raised my eyebrows
Mom: you so inlove my son
Dad: you realy are whipped boy
Me: I love her so much, I even screamed her name when that
truck attacked me..
They both loughed
Mom: if only things were that easy
Dad: you know that her father may be behind this, or her
supposed to be husband.
I nodded, last thing I need is to hurt anyone close to Lelo, but how
do I do that when they want me dead???

Lelo

His greatness is beyond, God thank you, Father thank you, you
heard my prayers, you gave us another chance. I sang out loud, "
Father we adore you,we lay our lives before you oh Lord we love
you". I may not pray always but I believe in God and today he
showed me he is the way and the truth. He gives and takes but he
showed mercy, compassion, he chose to let him live one more
time. I wore my short dress and black pumps. I went downstairs
smiling and singing. I need to attend church at school too. My
parents were sitting in the dining room.
Mom: someone is in a good mood
Me: God mom, God is wonderful
Dad looked at me as if I said something bad, while mom just
smiled.
Her: I wonder what is it
Me: He saved him mother, Musa is fine
I said smiling touching my heart, it was safe now, it owner is alive
so it shall beat, only for it love. Dad coughed and excused himself
Mom: that's great baby, but how cause his car looked so recked
Me:God mama God, you know that man upstairs never turns a
blind eye on his children...
Mom chuckled
Her: I'm glad he Is okay cause that means my daughter is okay
too
Me: Musa is a part of me mom, If he is hurt I am hurt, if he dies ,
I'm good as dead too.
Her: no baby
Me: seriously mom, and if dad attempts to kill him, he might as
well start with me.
Her: but baby..
Me: no mom, and if I find out that Musa's accident was arranged
by him or his mighty son in law,trust me I ain't gonna forgive him, I
will despise him and I will make sure I leave this house for good.
Mom: you dont mean that Mbulelo
Me: I do mom, from the bottom of my heart....now can you please
ask the guards to open for me.
I smiled
Her: I already did, come before 7
Me: okay mommy.
I went to the hospital, it was a private one. I found him with his
folks.
Me: sanibonani
They smiled
Them: hey
Musa: sthandwa Sami
I smiled,he has bruises and his arm was covered but other than
that my man was perfectly fine. I was lost in my thought thinking
about when the incident heppened, I could hear the screams and
sounds of cars crashing. I didnt even realise that i was crying until
his mom Bramg me back to earth.
Her: he is fine baby, look at him
She hugged me
Me: i was so scared,
Her: I know honey I know
Musa: baby please come and sleep next to me
me: no Musa I will hurt you
He gave me a commanding eye and his parents nodded, I got in.
Him:parents you can leave now please
They chuckled
His Mom: just like that we dissmised, Lelo you stole our son..
She said frowning
Him: mom please out
they went out loughing and I was left alone with my love. We
stared at each other without breathing no word. For some time the
room went silent.
Me: how do I live without you Musa, I mean how do I survive
without you
I said as tears threatened my eyes
Him: I'm not going anywhere my love, not anytime soon, you
stuck with me Mma Brown.
He said then kissed me so deeply, tears fell on my face, tears of
heppiness, tears of joy.

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"You think I'll leave your side baby, you know me better than that,
think I'll leave you down when you down on your knees, I wouldn't
do that..I will tell you you right when you wrong ah ah aha"
Sade "by your side"

Lelo

It been two days since the accident heppened, dad has been
acting funny while mom on the other hand has been supportive, it
realy feels good to feel her comfort. I was sitting in the living room
talking to Shaz who called me.
Her: I'm so glad Mr Hunk is fine
Me: same here so how Is home??
Her: not bad , I just miss school and you ofcause
I chuckled
Me: and partying
Her: honey I do that even here at home
Me: you are lying
Her: I'm telling you
Me: I see
Her: I met someone, he kinda hot ..
I giggled
Me: thought you did not do feelings
Her:I'm still thinking about it, you will meet him though
Me: now I can't wait for school to reopen
We talked about staff then my dad came down and signalled for
me to end the call. I did.
Him: you look happy
me: I am father, what can make me sad in a beautiful day like this
one.
He chuckled.
Him: I want to be clear to you Mbulelo.
Okay dad just called me by my Zulu name, this is serious.
Me: I'm listening
He sighed
Him: I love you, you are my only daughter Inno, and I want what
best for you baby
Me: I know dad
Him: I know you don't agree with me but Trevor is good for you
Me:I know you love Tee father but I don't
He nodded and left me amused, ok what's happening???

Narrated

Mr Brown went to his study and called Pretorias.

Him: get me boys, hood boys that can use guns and those who
doesn't miss
MrP: I was starting to thik that you've gone soft
Him: we doing this, I want them trained, Ngema would not know
what hit him
MrP: i know where to find them
Him: we don't want a repeat of failure
MrP: I will be on it then.

Weeks later

Musa

Mom: please be careful baby

I sighed
Me: mom we've been over this now
Her: I'm just worried my son
Me: I promise you I will be fine mom. well we were going back to
school, dad bought me another car, Audi R8 , not bad cause I
once liked it.
Him: when you feel uneasy just call me right? ?
I nodded then gave both of them hugs. After that I called my
princess.
Her: Musawami
I smiled
Me: I'm coming are you ready
Her: yeah,be quick cause dad will be home soon
Me: I'm on my way

I drove to her house, this time around we were going back

together. I found her outside and we kissed briefly then we left to
Johhanesburg. Arriving there we went to my flat.
Her: I cant believe it's the Second semester
Me: you better believe it babe, so what we gonna do today??
Her: I don't know
She said biting her lower lip in the most seductive way..
Me: don't baby, let go out I'm hungry
Her: haaa Musa please
Me: please what my love
She looked at me frowning
Me: baby....mhmm let's just chill I will cook later I promise you
I loughed
Me: I still wanna live motho waka
Her: I've learned a few things
She said coming to Me, her eyes so beautiful and small..
Me: we still dont have groceries and...
She did not let me finish, she brushed her soft lips against mine..
while her right hand went down to Ngema, I became hard the
very same moment. She saw my reaction and smiled then broke
the kiss .
Her: we can go out, I mean groceries won't buy themselves
I chuckled
Me: you playing a game you won't win Mma Brown
She blushed
Her: am I Mr Ngema??
I smiled, my babe is becoming naughty
Me: come here
She did, I did not waste any moment cause I just attacked her
with a kiss. We did it on the couch, the table, our bedroom and
inthe shower. Few hours later we were laying on the couch
watching Vampire diaries, my love is so addicted to them.
Her: baby order pizza
I chuckled
Me: I thought you were cooking
Her: did I realy say that??
Me: a wife I have here
I said shaking my head,she chuckled
Her: I just don't remember saying that I will cook,me baby cook??
I loughed
Me: baby pots don't bite yaz
Well we ordered pizza and slept after eating.

Narrated

Mr Brown travelled to Gauteng too, he needed to sort a few things

out. He was staying in a hotel in Sandton. When he arrived he
called Neo, who heppened to be one of his Mistresses
Her: Papisa
He chuckled
Him: how fast can you make it to our suite??
She chuckled
Her: I can even fly
Him: well be here by 8pm
Her: I'm on my way
He then poured a wine or himself and called his wife.
Her: Brown where are you??
He sighed
Him: I will be home in a few days, have a few things to sort out
here..
Her: Where ??
Him: Johhanesburg woman
Her: you not going after that boy are you??
Him: you know the circumstances, some things need to be done
and this has to be done, I will call you tomorrow..he dropped the
call and called Trevor
Him: is the equipment ready
Tee: ready and sorted
Him: make sure you leave their house in ashes with them inside
Tee: like you told me old man
Him: I don't want any mistakes son, I want that boy to suffer
Tee: we both want the same thing
Him: well make the headlines tomorrow, leave no traces..
Tee: the guys are proffessionals
Him: I hope so....

After his phonecall he took a bath and waited for Neo who
knocked minutes later.She was in her short dress and heels.
Him: right on time
She giggled
Her: how can I help you sir
Him: follow me.....

In the Ngema household

Mr Ngema and his wife were sitting in the living room watching tv.
Him: Honey you look disturbed
She sighed
Her: I'm scared, what if they go after my son Ngema
Him: he is safe don't worry baby
Her: I just have a bad feeling about this love
Him: don't worry baby
Her: tommorow I'm still going to Hawai right??
Him: I'm gonna miss you
Her: it's just for a few days, I miss my son I'm sure he misses his
family too.
Him: I know but he Is safe where he is baby, we doing this for him
who knows what's Brown is thinking now
Her: If he dares touch my sons i swear this time around I will
destroy that old man
They both Loughed
Him: baby you know i don't like that side of yours, you know it..
Her: I know love but If he does I will go crazy, let him touch one
thing that belongs to me he will regret it, I lost my parents
because of him and his family.
Him: I just hope it never comes to that
Her: he started it by organising that accident babe, I don't even
want to imagine the consequences if I did loose my son because
of that stupid man.
Mrs Ngema was becoming emotional now, Ngema knew how
strong his wife was, she was once a gangster during their
twenties and was one hell of a gangster that was feared but
having a family of her own changed her. She left that life for her
family, her kids and husband but lost her parents in the hands of
the enemy. The family did not only lose Mrs Ngema's parents but
their baby girls who heppened to be twins, they were slaughtered
to death at the age of 4, those were their first babies, their first
borns who would have been 27 this year.

Lelo

I was woken up by Musa's kisses

Me: stop it now
I said giggling
Him: morning pumkin
I blushed
Me: I'm hungry baby
He chuckled
Him: I said morning
I tried getting up but he held me
Me: I wanna go and pee
Him: not after you ask me how I slept
I smiled
Me: baby how did you sleep
Him: like a baby, although I dreamt of our first baby boy, how
beautiful he looked like, our ghost baby love
Me: you are serious? ?
Him: yes love, I held him, he was so perfect, he looked so
peacefull like an angel
I was now in tears, he brang me closer to him and held me tight
Him: I don't understand what heppened baby, I still don't
Me: me too love, only God knows...now let me go and pee.
Him: baby you 've been going to the toilet all night
Me: is there any problem?
Him: no there isn't love
She got up and I did the bed. We took a bath and prepared
breakfast.

Nina

Me: what binds them together??

Makhosi was busy throwing her bones i was even getting irritated
I mean I pay a lot of money here and she doesn't give me her
attention but only her stupid bones.
Her: don't get involved, I'm afraid I can't help you this is Beyond
me
Me: you cannot be serious, I'm paying you a lot of money here
She mummbled a few things then gave me a scary look
Her: this is hard, child go back where you come from
I chuckled with exasperation
Me: I'm not going anywhere until you help me, i didn't come all
this way for nothing.
She continued talking to her bones. I sat there still brushing my
baby after I heard her/him kick, I like to believe it a girl. After some
time she looked at me.
Her: they are meant to be together, you cant break the spell its
very much protected....
Me: what do you mean??
Her: he will never be happy with you, I believe you are carrying
his child
I nodded
Her: do you desperately want that man ??
Me: I want him, he can't impregnate me and leave me just like
that and I wont settle for being a second wife..
I said with so much anger, Tee belongs to me, with me and our
baby.
Her: we can try only one thing that can open ways for you to his
heart.
I smiled,now we getting somewhere.
Her: don't get too excited, it might not work,like I said we trying.
Me: I get you
Her: how far are you??
I raised my eyebrows
Her: with your pregnancy??
Me: 6 months
She smiled
Her: your baby is the only weapon we can use to make him love
you
Me: what do you mean??
Her: think child think
Me: I still don't understand
her: her blood
Me: I'm realy lost
Her:are you ready to sacrifice your baby for the man you claim to
love????

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Nina

I blinked twice looking at her serious face.

Me: are you being for real??
She smiled an evil one
Her: we on earth young lady, every thing cost even love itself.
I got up feeling irritated, I can't do it this baby is the reason why I
want Tee, I can't sacrifice it, this is my blood and I'm not that cruel
that I can attempt to kill it because of a man, and to add to that it
might heppen that I sacrifice my baby for nothing since she said it
herself that it not guaranteed that Tee may love me after that. I
can't lose both, one I have to have.
Me: I can't, I can't do it
Her: it your choice I won't force you to anything
Me: so you mean you will not give me anything that can make him
give me his full attention then?
Her: my child, like I said you can never cross that man's mind
unless he want sex or it because of the baby you are carrying.
Me: so you mean he can never be interested to any other woman
except for Lelo??
Her: you said it
I groaned in frustration
Me: what kind of muti did she use on him that can never be
broken??
Her: are you dumb or stupid?
Me: huh??
Her: how can she use muti on him while she is inlove with
someone else?
Me: then make it clear to me
Her: their destiny was long decided, they belong together.
I got up in frustration and took my bags then headed outside.
Me: thank you for nothing.

Lelo
We didn't have classes today due to student striking. I was with
Shaz at the cafeteria when Neo and Millicent came to us.
Me: your friends doesn't realy excites me
She loughed tapping my shoulder.
Her: you shoud never mind them
Neo came smiling like an idiot.
Her: people
We both nodded
Her: chomi you won't believe what I'm about to tell you
Shaz: talk already bishhh
Her: my papisa is in town
Shaz: huh??
Her: that guy man, the one who spoils me rotten
Milli: trust me she's been talking about him all day,I'm even tired
of hearing about this papisa of hers
We all loughed
Her: it not my fault you can't get yourself a rich dawg bishh
Shaz: I have to see this papisa, how old is he again??
Her: matured enough darling, he's like 40 to 50 something old but
damn he knows his thing, old man issa active in bed.
I couldn't hide my shock, I mean Neo is like 20 or 21 years old.
Shaz: sweety you riding a 50 year old black dick??
I loughed at her exclamation,while Neo gave me a evil look.
Neo: oh honey this babe here ain't no more doing black dicks ,
I've upgraded love, nigga is white.
Me: Jesus Christ
Shaz: you bishhhh you lie
She screamed
Neo: I will show you then
She took out her phone and pressed it then gave it to Shaz.
Her: now that the dick I ride, it even taking me out for shopping
today..
Shaz: you such a hoe though
Her: In a good way baby, we gotta milk this man dry, ain't no
pussy for mahala.
Shaz handed me the phone, I just found myself losing air.
Me: this is your paposa??
I said with tears threatening my eyes, they all loughed at me.
Neo: hay mani virgin Mary, it's Papisa not Paposa you stupid..
Shaz: what's is it Lelo
I gues she saw it that I wasn't comportable.
Me: this can't be
Her: Mbulelo talk
Me: that's my dad man, the bitch is riding my dad's dick
I found myself shouting and they all stared at me.
Neo: you gotta be kidding me
Me: well I'm not,
I said standing up, I took my bag then headed to our room. Dad is
such a man hoe, sleeping with kids my age.

Narrated

Him: you did what?? You can't be serious.

Her: I didnt know she was your daughter I swear papisa.
Him: owkay it not your fault, so you saying you know my
daughter??
Her: yeah, she shares a room with my friend.
Him: dont worry I will handle her..
Her: we still going out for shopping right
Him: yes baby, wear something nice
She giggled
Her:something short??
Him: very much short

He ended the call and sighed. Things are just taking another
route. He called Tee.
Him: are you ready
Tee: they are on their way
Him: I hope they don't fail
Tee: I trust them
Him: I will sit and watch then
Tee: they wont dissapoint.

At the Ngema household.

Him: go well my darling

Her: I will miss you though it for a few days honey.
Mrs Ngema said kissing her husband. She was going to Hawai to
visit their son.
Him: don't spoil that boy too much there
Her: am I not allowed to spoil my baby now
Him: which baby are you talking about??
She loughed
Her: I won't argue with you love, my flight leaves in 30 minutes.
They kissed one more time.
Her: I love you so much
Him: I love you more darling
she blushed like a little kid
Her: take care of yourself
Him: be safe honey
He walked her outside and waved goodbye as the car
dissapeared on the road . He went back inside and drank his
whiskey then attempted to sleep.

Musa
I was in my flat with Tray,I hevent been spending time with him
and he was busy complaining.
Him: man you've turned into being a pussy I tell you
I chuckled
Me: don't get me wrong but I like what I am boy, If that's being a
pussy then I like being one.
He loughed
Him: bakudlisile boy
He sounded weird saying that and i just loughed
Me: there's no such thing man
Him: we going out today right??
Me: yeah, I firstly need to ask the madam
He chuckled
Him: I told you, Lelo's muti is realy working
Me: you talking shit now
We chilled for moment then he went back to campus. I decided
on checking up my dad since he was alone with mom going to
Hawai.

Him: you've just woked me up I hope you have a very good

reason for that.
I chuckled
Me: already bored??
Him: you don't have to spell it out son
Me: I feel for you pops
Him: might as well go to a strip club
Me: and you think mom won't find out??
Him: but I would have gone anyway
I loughed
Me: you want an early death I see
Him: I'm already old son
Me: you old?? Never pops
He chuckled
Me: so the maids are in right??
Him: yeah only two though, how are you holding up?
Me: very good, Mr Brown hasn't striked yet but I'm ready for him.
He sighed
Him: be careful he is that side, I'm sure he is cooking something
up
Me: you mean he is here??
Him: yeah, my man spotted him in some hotel in Sandton so you
keep you head up and be careful
I exhaled hard
Me: I will be, you be careful too
Him: I'm safe son, I'm only worried about you
Me: I will be fine dad
Him: don't forget that I love you, you are my last born.
Me: I love you too pops
He chuckled
Him: take care then I need to hit the shower
Me: be safe.
I dropped the call and watched soccer. Lelo walked in feeling
drained.
Me: Mma Brown
Her: Ntante Ngema
I smiled
Me: I wonder who taught you that
Her: awa baby I did not need no teaching
I smiled
Me: come here
She came and say on my lap, she looked like she was crying.
Me: talk to me babe
Her: my dad Is cheating
I raised my eyebrows
Me: you kidding right
Her:Im telling you love, worst part is with that good for nothing
bitch
Me: baby language
She smiled
Her: with Neo baby, can you believe it
Me: how I mean It impossible
Her: well i possible love, that man is cruel to the core. I'm telling
you baby if you ever cheat on me I'm gonna buy an Ak47 and
shoot your cheating ass 6 times then call the cops, go to jail,pay
the judge and go dig your grave....
I stopped her
Me: joooh baby you are too much
Her: I will Musa you dare mr
Me: I will make it a point I don't ever mess with any other woman
then
Her: oh yeah i forgot, i will make sure that the bitch you cheated
with never forget my name, she will never find peace I tell you
unless in death and even make sure you don't get to see one
another wherever you would be, heaven or hell. .
I loughed holding my chest
Me: ay baby how would you make sure unless you will kill
yourseld too
Her: me kill myself for your cheating ass never baby,
Me: but I so love you sthandwa sami
Her: i love you more Musawami
Me: promise me forever
Her: forever baby
Me: even when the storm gets harder
Her: yess love, surely it will be over, and we will be singing"
storm is over now,I can see the sunshine"
She said singing and I found myself smiling like a retard.
Her: our sunshine is coming baby, It wont always be this
challenging
Me: what will I be without you
Her: a stupid handsome fuck boy
I tickled her hard
Her: it's the truth though
Me: well atleast I would have been stupid and handsome
She shook her head
Her: bad combination sweety.
Me: so you gonna tell your mom about your cheating father?
Her: I don't know, I mean she already knows that he is cheating
but doesn't know with who
Me: this is difficult
Her: I hope she cut his balls
Me: awa love..
Her: what?? Every cheating man deserves such, if he ain't got no
balls then he won't cheat.
I loughed
Me: I'm in trouble here
Her: atleast you now know
I chuckled
Me:baby you are dangerous
Her: love is dangerous baby,expecialy ours, so you can't do
anything that will give my dad a powerful reason that you ain't
good enough for me.
Me: but baby who will be good enough for you if not me, I mean
look at this
She smiled
Her: no one sweety, now let go out I'm hungry.
I chuckled
me: weren't you at the cafeteria few hours ago??
She gave me the " wtf" look and I raised my hands accepting
defeat.
Her: do I now have to count how many times I eat
Me: no baby I was just saying
Her: mxm let me sleep
Me: and the food??
Her:leave me Musa
She said going to the bedroom and I just followed her beautiful
sulking self.
Me: baby but...
Her: I'm not hungry anymore
Me:owkay I will be inthe living room.
My flat had two bedrooms which had bathrooms and toilet, living
room and the kitchen. I sat there and continued watching soccer.

Narrated

Mr Ngema was watching soccer when he heard guns outside his

house. He rushed to get his gun but because he was drunk he
couldn't make it intime since one of the Brown people had already
gotten inside the house. Tee made sure he got 30 man to attack
the Ngema household. Their premises had only 10 men who got
killed in seconds followed by the two maids.
Him: fuck what the hell is happening here
He said trying to get up, he couldn't even run to the safe house
due to his drunkness. He realised then that it was all over for him
when 5 men got in carrying guns and some materials.
Him: Brown had to make the worst decision ever.
He said showing a little grin on his face. He didn't fear death but
he knew that if he dies, this war will never be over untill all
families are wiped out by death. The reason he never fought
Brown is because he feared what might heppen, he prayed he will
let this go but then he was wrong, the man wasn't letting go.
Him: tell your master to be prepared cause this time around, he
messed with an angry liones.
The guys started setting bombs all around the house. They tied
him in his chair.
Him: can you please do me the pleasures, let me drink the rest of
my whiskey one last time.
The guy did that loughing at his statement. He drank it then
smiled looking at the family photo in the passage wall.
Him: goodbyes are the hardest but I'm glad you ain't here to
experience such death, I love you, all of you,I'm sorry I acted
slowly, I thought i was protecting the family but instead I putted oil
inthe fire..
The men walked out very quickly while he closed his eyes with
tears running in his face, the bombs were activated, In minutes
the house went down, and it was the end for Mr Ngema.

Insert 32

Narrated

"It has happened again, the Ngema family have faced yet another
horror, it was found later today that their residence was burned
down into ashes later this afternoon, the police are still
investigating the matter but we have lieutenant De Venter onthe
line who can tell us what's is realy going on"
Her: Lieutenant are you there??
Him: Yes Jane, uhm we all know that the same family suffered an
accident that heppened weeks ago where by their son nearly lost
his life but to our surprise he only injured his left hand, but today it
was found that their residence was burned down using bombs
that left no tracks.
Her: so do you think that they were attacked??
Him:I believe so, because we came across dead bodies which
were killed by firearms, although the fire took advantage too.
Her: what are you saying lieutenant?
Him: we believe the Ngema family was attacked and killed
although we haven't spotted any of the family members, we not
sure if they got burned into ashes or what, but the forensics are
still turning the area upside down, we hoping for better results.
Her: such tragic, well we all hoping they have survived, so so far
how many bodies did you come across??
Him: only 12 bodies, 10 man and two ladies who we sure that
they were maids
Her: aoh God, may their souls rest in peace,thank you lieutenant
we will be intouch
Him: Thank you Jane.
Her: well you all heard what Lieutenant De Venter said, 12 bodies
were found which clearly belongs to the securities and maids, let's
hope the Ngema family is safe since their bodies are still missing.
We will keep you up to date, this is Jane Mashile from SABC1
News, thank you"

Mr Brown smiled as he turned off the tv, he poured himslf some

wine then leaned back on the couch. He picked up his glass and
pointed in the air
Him: cheers to you Ngema
He loughed but got disturbed when his phone made a ringing
sound. He picks it up and smiled widely as he answered it.
Him: if it ain't my favourite son in law
They both loughed
Trev: I assume you've heard the news
Him: loud and clear sonny loud and clear
Trev: I hope their bodies burned into ashes
Him: those bombs were exported from Egypt, they are probably
the dust itself.
Trev: now we only have one bird to get rid of, I can't stop going
crazy thinking about them doing things..
Him: I know just the right way to handle this, now all we need to
do is make sure that my daughter is safe
Trev:he won't hurt her right??I mean we've killed his family
Him: I don't think I will, but its not guaranteed, I still need my baby
safe and you make sure of that as her rightful man.

Lelo

Me: I can't believe this, I mean this is not possible, it can't be.
I said crying out loud, I couldn't bare the pain I was feeling. I
screamed and yelled but it did not help.
Shaz: I'm sure they are okay babe
I couldn't stop panicking, I couldn't stop thinking about Musa, Is
he aware of what heppened to his house, his parents. I cried
loudly. Well Shaz is the one who came running and showed me a
YouTube video of Musa's house being burned down.
Me: I have to go and see him, I have to go now.
I said getting up and rushing to the door. It was already past 8
and dark outside.
Her: bae you can't go all alone
Me: and I can't just stay here Shaz
I hated how my mind was telling me things, they say it was
bombed, is my family responsible for this??is my father that cruel
and murderous? Not it can't be him it can't be. All along I was
running to Musa's flat. I knocked but no response. I used my key
and got in. I found him sleeping peacefully on the couch. He has
not heard,that the first thing that came into my mind. I went to the
bedroom and took out a blanket. My whole body was shaking I
was trying my best to keep myself together, to not break down,
not now. I walked back to the living room only to find him staring
at the blank ceiling. I stood far from him as tears streamed out of
my eyes. He acknowledged my presence and turned to look at
me. My eyes failed to look at him. I'm the reason he is going
through all this, maybe I should just let him go, he can't lose his
family in The name of love, what kind of love is this??just when
we thought things were looking out, that the sun was finally
showing up and moon was lighting this darkness then the devil
choose to strike so hard. I was lost in my thoughts that i didn't see
him making his way to me. I felt his cold hand touching my chicks,
I still had the blanket with me. I looked away as he wiped my
tears. He showed a faint smile that broke my heart into pieces. He
took the blanket and threw it on the close couch. He made me
look at Him forcefully. His handsomeness is what made my eyes
stuck in his face. His broad hands brang me closer to him. He
hugged me so tight that i found myself not wanting to let go. I
could feel and hear his heart beat. The gu gu gu gu sounds it
made told me it all right. He let go and took my hand leading us to
the couch. We sat down, took the blanket and made ourselves
comportable. I didnt know how to break the silence, he kept
looking at me as he made himself comportable. Lastly he had me
lying on his chest breathing fast. Was he trying to keep his
coolness, I mean his heart beat wasn't normal, it like it was about
to get out and run away. I stole gances at him and heard him
chuckle.
Him: I know Mma Brown, I found out hours ago.
I turned and looked at him, why was he so down and cool about
it??
Me: but you are..., baby aren't you supposed to be breaking
down, breaking things and shouting.
He chuckled
Him: that wont bring back my parents love, shouting won't bring
them back, I'm just hoping they are fine, that they were out when
all this happened.
I sighed
Me: I hope so too love, but they should have contacted you if they
were right?
I know I should be positive but let be realistic, any parent would
have said something like" we fine, don't worry " in this case.
Him: let's not think the worst
I looked at him, I was amused at how strong he is, if it was me i
would be breaking by now.
Him:let's go out
Me: you can't be serious Musa
Him: I just want something to disturb me
I chuckled
Me: and you think alcohol is the way to go??
Him: you don't get it babe
Me: then make me get it
He looked away
Me: stop acting strong Musa,I know it hurts, I don't want to say it
but it's a possibility that you only left with me in this world, baby
please..
He cutted me short
Him: and your father is probably celebrating where ever he is.
I got toungue tied, what do I say?? If it's father who is responsible
for the death of My boyfriend's parents, what do I say?? How do I
say sorry, how do I console him?? How do I tell him all is well
when my dad is probably cooking another attack.
Him: hey look at me
I was already in tears, kanti what is it with this tears???
Him:don't blame yourself, find even think about it.
Me: I just don't know anymore, this is too much Musa, I thought
love was supposed to make everything alright but no, our love
kills, it denies us heppiness, It brings hatred, it's is a curse, our
love is cursed.
Him: don't say that, our love is pure, it will shame the devil, it's is
what keeps us together, what makes us one and what makes us
smile when waking up inthe morning. Which curse can make me
feel what I feel for you?? Which curse makes me smile when
thinking of you?? Don't look at the worst side love, consider the
bright one too, we love each other, we are forever remember??
I looked at him and nodded, he brushed his lips against mine then
made me rest on his chest again.
Me:I love you so much
Him: you see this heart ?
He made me touch where his heart is situated.
Him: every beat it makes it because of you; it is for you.
I smiled looking at his handsomeness.

Musa

Two days later

It been two days since the incident heppened, well I know my

mom is safe since she left to Hawai visiting my older brother. She
is the one who told me about the accident at home which
surprised me because she was calm as fuck too. My dad's
remains hasn't been found, it kind of strange but from what I
heard from mom is it I possible that he escaped, of which that is
why I'm calm. I was skyping with the old lady, making sure that
I'm alone Since I didn't tell Lelo that mom wasn't around when
the house got bombed.
Well I would like to make her father believe that he killed my
family and that I'm alone now, but his day is coming.
Me: you so calm as fuck it's scares the shit out of me.
She loughed
Her: language boy
Me: but ma for real aren't you supposed to be panicking??
Her: ohh baby i dont do panicking, how would that help me??
Me: this is not my mother
She chuckled
Her: it thee lioness baby, Brown ain't go no idea of what I'm
gonna do to him
Me: mom
Her: no son, listen you be carefull and read your books, I'm gonna
sort all his thing out.
Me: do you think he is dead??
Her: I'm not sure love, but what I know is that your father is a
hard-core, I didn't get married to a softy mna
I chuckled
Me: I repeat, you don't sound like my worrying soft mom who
shed tears because I'm leaving for school.
She loughed
Her: you now getting too big for your shoes, remember no one is
supposed to know that we are still alive
Me: I know ma, I just hate lying to my heart
Her: I know baby but it's for Both of you, I wonder how that stupid
man thinks, yazi the old man Is beyond the name stupid
Me: ahhha ma what do you mean?
Her: how can he not be aware that your dad was alone, that I left
and that your brother left weeks ago, he is dumb I tell you. Who
attacks not knowing how big or small the beast is, nje yena he just
plans an attack, watch the news and yayy he has done it...stupid
fool.
I loughed
Me: I gues his men lied to him
Her: and maybe his men are our men
Me: now I'm lost
Her: goodnight baby, mama loves you son, take care of my
daughter in law. She is realy beautiful.
Me: mom
Her: be safe Musawethu
She said smiling
Me: its Musawakhe...
I said with her loughing then it was goodbye. I thought about
what she said but brushed It off, I mean it ridiculous.

Insert 33

Lelo

I was in my room just sleeping listening music. Shaz got in smiling

all wide.
Me: someone is in a good mood
Her: I just feel different bubu
I smiled, I wonder what is it. I looked at her waiting for her to tell
me.
Her: what??
Me: I'm waiting
She loughed
Her: zindabazabantu
I loughed
Me: I heard that
Her: remember that guy i told you about??
Me: yes hunney, I'm still waiting to meet him.
Her: well you will meet him today
I smiled
Me: Is he a hotty??
Him: the Miguel typa of man...
She said biting her lower lip and i just loughed
Me: do i know him??
Her: I don't think so Barbie
Me: name atleast? ?
Her: his Name is Nick
Me: he is white??
Her: no loves he is one yummy dark babe , I might as well keep
this one
Me: and no strings attached??
She loughed
Her: I'm still on that one, just that there is something different
about this one, his s** experience is too much and it turns a girl
onn and onner and onner, you know what I mean.
I just loughed and looked at her crazy self
Me: So it all about the sex??
Her: maybe his representation too
Me: ay asazi ke ntombi
Her: that wasn't bad at all
She loughed, everytime I speak Zulu she does this.
Me: So when will he be around?
Her: by seven, we going out
Me: and you not coming back
Her: you said it yourself babe , ain't gonna leave a dick for a half
bed mna. .
Me; you are worse xem baby
Her: the D is life sweety
We talked about random staff, then selected clothes she was to
eat today at her data. I wanted to see this Nick guy, I mean Shaz
never realy get amused by a guy this easily, this one played his
cards right.

Narrated

Him: I will be going back to Mpumalanga tommorow, i want you to

do sonething for me.
She smile laying on his chest.
Her: anything for my papisa
Him: I think you know that my daughter is dating that Musa guy
from your school
Her: yeah, those two just kills my mood
He smiled
Him: So I'm guessing you won't have any poblem with what i want
to ask you.
Her: if it comes wih benefits, not at all
Him: mmhm Neo,I want you to sleep with Musa
She stood up and looked at Mr Brown who was dead serious.
Her: you mean sleep with your daughter's boyfriend??
Him: yes, I want them separated, I hate that boy, I don't want him
near my baby
Her: well whats in it for me??
Him: 50000 you will get after showing me all the proof I need
Her: you gotta be kidding me, I mean Musa is one damn hard boy
I hardly even say one word to him...so this is gonna be difficult.
Him: So what do you mean
Her: I need a deposit, which is the 50 000 and another when the
job is done
Him: 100 000 for sleeping with a guy, who said your p**** got
strawberries??
Her: well you might as well find someone else to do the job for
you
He sighed
Him: owkay then I will give you the cheque right away
She smiled
Her:now let me go I have an assignment to submit Monday
Him: after you give me some goodbye feeling
he brang her closer to him and started kissing her, he never did
foreplay with his Mistresses, that was for his wife although it been
weeks since they made love. He looked for condoms but couldn't
find them, Mr Brown was already hard as rock and condoms
wouldn't stop them anyway.
Him: I will pull out.
She first resisted but his convincing was too much. They had sex
without protection.

Mrs Brown needed some retail theraphy, she was stressed

because of her husband. She couldnt stop thinking about how she
has turned her dildo to be Her husband since Brown couldn't
satisfy her needs. She walked around the mall looking beautiful in
her white knee dress and heels, she looked beautiful with a body
of a 22 year old female. After some shopping she went to her
favourite expensive restaurant where she sat on the corner and
waited for the waiter. After a minute a waitress came.
Her: afternoon mam, what can I get for you?
She smiled as she looked at her
Her: water for now please, I'm still deciding.
She looked at the menu infront of her and wondered if what to
eat, she is not a fan of oily food , junk food of which that how she
maintaned such body. The waitress came with her water. She
drank as she thought about Her sorrows, her cheating husband
and the decision by the ancestors for her daughter. Right there
she felt like water wasn't doing anything for her,she needed
something strong but she had to eat first. After sometime still
stuck on her menu, a talk dark beautiful man walked inside the
restaurant, he was well muscled and so strong, his cut was
perfect, had the perfect body structure, she was lost at her
thought staring at the man well created by God himself." Was he
once a rugby player??" She asked herself, " nah maybe he is into
boxing" she thought to herself.She found herself drooling over the
perfect stranger, she kept on imagining how his touch felt like, she
still had the menu on her hands but wasn't looking at it, instead
her total focus was at the man who just stole all the women
attention at the restuarant.
Voice: may I??
She wasn't there, still daydreaming
The guy coughed twice and she came back to earth. She couldn't
believe her eyes when the very same man was standing right
infront of her.
Her: mmhm sorry you were saying?
He displayed a dirty like grin that made her stomach feel this
things she only felt with her husband.
Him: are we waiting for someone or??
She coughed trying to discover her voice
Her: I'm..m..I'm not expecting anyone
He smiled showing off his Colgate teeth, she found herself
attentively studying the movement of his lips, the way he smiles
and the mark not far from his chicks. Again he brang her back to
earth.
Him: day dreaming again
She handled her menu too well and tried not minding how hot her
hands were now feeling, all this feelings from a stranger??
Her: no I'm just thinking about something.
Him: I see you haven't ordered
She nodded shifting her attention to the menu that now looked
like It been there for 2 weeks. She found it hard to pick what to
eat and sighed deeply ,plus how was she going to eat with this
yummy man next to her?
Him: seems like you don't know what to have
She nodded
Him: I can order for both of us....
She looked at his smiling self and approved.
He ordered for both of them.
Him: beef fillet Tartare for starters please
He said to the waitress
Him: and with white wine
All this time she was watching him closely ,"Oh Brown here
comes temptations" she thought to herself.
They ate, having a conversation now and then. He seemed like a
kind person.
Him: So am I gonna see you again.
Her: I don't think so
She looked at her ring
Him: well i would love to see you again, only if you can allow me
beautiful lady.
She smiled, then realised she never asked for his name.
Him: here is my card, you call me then
Her: I didn't get your name
Him: Samuel, Samuel Kubheka
She handed him her card too then left.

At the Brown'n household

My Brown walked in all smilefull, she was suprised when she

found her husband's car outside their yard. All that smile vanished
at the thought of his bitter cheating cruel husband. But still she
loved him, he is hers as much as she is his. She found him inthe
living room watching soccer.
Her: good afternoon
She said kissing his chicks, he looks at her then back at the tv.
She attempted to walk away but his voice stopped her.
Him: where the hell are you coming from??
Her: doesn't the shopping bags spell it out
He turned with an evil eye, he looked like he had been drinking.
Him: for 3 hours, who does shopping for 3 hours?
Her:Brown Please I don't have time for this I'm tired.
She walked upstairs to their bedroom, took off her shoes followed
by the dress, She went to the bathroom and took a quick shower.
Brown got in after she had just finished.
Him: So you were washing away your hoeing ??
She remained calm still figuring her husband, how can he suggest
sonething like that?.
Her:i don't know what you talking about,can I sleep?
She was still naked only in her towel, Brown looked at her and felt
anger growing inside him, he was sure his wife was sleeping
around. He went to her and pretended to want to kiss her but
ended up strangling her with his right hand.
Him: you sleeping around now
He shouted with his wife crying from the inside,
Tears streaming out down to her face. She was surely losing her
breath with his hands right on her neck. She tried yanking his
hand but she was overpowerd. After sometime he threw her on
the bed taking off the towel.
Him: you want a dick right, I will give you a dick.
He said taking off his pants only, he spreaded her legs squeezing
her breast, all She was feeling was pain, and still trying to catch
her breath.
Her: Brown please
Him: I thought this is what you wanted woman
He said getting inside her dry apple, she felt like she was being
raped by her husband. After sometime after he came he went out
buttoning his pants. She left her laying like some chicken on their
bed.
She cried herself to sleep hoping she dream of her beautiful
stranger.

Musa

We've been aguing with my heart if wheather to go to the club or

stay indoors.
Me: baby please we will come back earlier.
I heard her huff, yes we were speaking via the phone.
Me: please sthandwa sami
Her: owkay then, what time are we leaving?
Me: to 7 baby, we going to Pretoria
Her: but baby i wanna meet Shaz's boyfriend at 7.
Me: you will meet her another day love
her: alright then.
I smiled and dropped the call. I called Trey.
Him: we on right??
I chuckled
Me: yeah man
Him: gues I will have to thank the madam myself
Me: don't start now.

Later that day I fetched her looking all beautiful, we were going to
some club in Pretoria.
Her: I hope I will fit well wherever we going
I chuckled
me: you look good baby.
We drove to Pretoria with Trey and some guys too, well me and
my heart we were using my car. I don't want no man looking at
my things.
Her: I hope you don't drink too much since you driving
Me: I promise I will maintain my drinking.
She looked at me and smiled
Her: I still don't love this idea though
Me: baby I'm fine trust me
Her: but your parents baby, you still hevent heard from them??
Me: I'm sure wherever they are, they are fine, we promised to be
positive right?
She nodded. I realy hate lying to her but I had no choice and yeah
I wasn't realy lying that much since I don't know if wheather my
dad is alive or what. I just hope he is. We arrived at the club and it
was already going down. There were many cars there and it
looked so fucking expensive. We got In followed by Trey and the
other guys. We dont do VIP, we want the fun itself, plus there
were some guys who looked like billionnairs there.
Me: babe what you gonna have??
I looked at her and heard screams coming our way, It those
bitches.
Neo: you guys are here too
She was already drunk.
Me: as you can see
Neo: and virgin marry too
She said looking at my heart, who just ignored her rolling her
beautiful eyes. I loved how she never pays her attention to loose
things like Neo.
Me: if you mind please excuse us
her: mxm,
She went to Tray who entertained her and by the way he looked
at her I knew she was gonna and up in his bed today. Well the
night was awesome, I was dancing with my baby,I loved how she
appreciates me.
Me: babe I need the loo, I will be back
I said kissing her chicks and she nodded.
Me: gents behave please
I said to the guys, people my woman is one fucken beautiful lady
and to add to all of that she has self respect and that why many
boys want her, so please don't blame me for being over
protective. I don't want any man touching what's mine expecialy
my heart. I went to the man's toilet,did my business then heard
the door been closed. I turned around to a sexy drunk Neo.
Her: my Hotty
I chucked and washed my hands.
Me: what the fuck do you want?
She displayed a naughty smile, sucking her lower lip, I might say
it was sexy the way she did it.
Her: I want you
She said in a singing manner, coming close to me. My dick
reacted a little but behaved.
Me: too bad I'm not intrested bitch
She swallowed hard but didn't stop. Her hands went from my
chest to my Ngema. I looked at her thinking of what I would have
done to her if i wasnt in a relationship.She grabbed my dick and
when when she was about to unzip my pants I pushed her away.
Me: you try that again I'm gonna fucken kill you skhebereshe.
Insert 34

Lelo

I was drinking a flying fish, Musa came back looking all irritated.
He sat right next to me.
Me: babe are you fine?
Him: I'm good hun, they didn't poke you right?
I smiled
Me: nah, I need some fresh air for a few minutes
Him: I'm coming with you
Me: you don't have to, I will be fine
Him: babe
Me: I'm not a kid Musa
Him: few minutes then
I nodded and got up with my drink. I went outside and stood by
the entry. A group of loud girls were entertaining some old men
who looked more like their fathers. One of the girls looked at me
for sometime. Its like she was reading me or something. She
came to me as drunk as she was.
Her: you shouldn't be drinking that
She pointed at my drink
Me: and why is that?
She loughed a bit
Her: I mean with your condition
I raised my eyebrows
Me: I don't understand, what condition??
Her: you are p.....
She started losing balance, I made her lean on me. I think she
was feeling dizzy or something. After some time she could stand
on her own.
Her: uhmn I'm sorry I thought you were someone else.
I nodded still lost.
Her: I'm Linah
Me: I'm Lelo
She offered me her hand to shake, but when our hands came in
contact, I felt some lighting, I screamed.
Her: I'm sorry
She suddenly became sad.
Me: what was that?
Her: I don't know, Lelo right??
Me: yeah,
Her: do you pray??
Me: huh???
Her: please pray
She already had tears streaming out of her small eyes.
Me: you are weird
She smiled at me then left to her crowd. I watched her dance as if
nothing happened. I sighed and went inside finding Neo where I
was seated.
Me: if you don't mind please..
She looked at me and then at Musa who gave her a " don't try me
" look.
Her: your father doesn't own this club bitch
Me: since you know Him that well then who am I to argue with
you?
Her: mxm
I sat down thinking about that girl. I even stopped drinking.

Narrated

Him: issa... m...y family safe??

He tried talking but his situation could'nt let him. His injuries were
that bad and seemed like they were gonna take weeks or maybe
months to get better.
Guy: So long they are fine Sir
He closed his eyes and fell back to sleep. Atleast his family is
alright.

Her: Again we come with heavy hearts, as presented days ago,

the forensics and the authorities have recovered the remains of
the Ngema family. Their older son, together with the wife and the
husband. It is said that their last born is still alive and has resided
to Johhanesburg for school purposes. The poor boy is now left
alone. We submit our condololences to the boy who has lost his
family, we hope that the people behind this to be found. This is
Jane from SABC 1 news, thank you.
Her: don't worry baby I will be back to S.A in nor time.
She was speaking to her son
Him: I still don't know how you pulled that off, I mean the remains
and all that stuff.
She loughed
Her: my baby, you have a lot to learn, but don't worry I will be with
you every step of the way.
Him: So the authorities thinks you realy are dead??
Her: no sweety, they know I'm absolutely fine and alive, although
they don't know about your dad.
I sighed
Him: I'm still hoping he made it
Her: since there ain't no remains of him, I'm sure he is fine
Him: but why hasn't he contacted us
Her: that I don't know.
Him: I'm starting to lose hope
Her: dont even dare, your father is very much alive I can feel it
Him: this is all my fault
Her: blaming yourself won't help now, im sure Brown heard the
news and stupid man will believe what he heard , so it time we
strike back.
Him: mom we can't hurt Lelo' s family, she will be hurted.
Her: we don't need to lay our hands on them trust me.
Him: So what you saying
Her: that you should be careful and stay away from that Neo girl if
you still want Mbulelo.
Him: how did you know...mom
Her: I know everything, now concentrate on your books and
always keep your gun with you. That Pretorias boy is after your
blood.
Him: I'm realy not up for any fight
Her: too bad you started it my baby by taking his betrothed wife
Him: and I don't regret it, that my life
Her: I won't say anything, we will talk some other time.

Trevor

" you will never find peace if you are not with her, you will never
feel complete. She is your other half, your wife to marry, your
everything, she holds the key to your heppiness as she is your
heppiness. She is your chosen one, your life, your heart, and your
blood. She belongs with you, you belong together. Don't give up,
don't let her love another man; don't let her find heppiness in
another man's arms. You are her right suiter , her rightful
husband, make sure she ends up with you,kill if you have to, fight
for what is yours, fight for what is yours, fight for what is
yours...fight fight fight fight "

I woke up sweating, it's was just a dream.the words fight kept on

playing in my mind. I will never be happy if I'm not with Inno. But
why?? How is it that possible for someone to be my only
heppiness??. I love her, I love her spiritualy, physically,
emotionally, horizontally and even vertically. God I love her, her
smile complete me, her voice I could listen to even in my sleep.
But she doesn't love me, she is inlove with some kid, I won't let
him have her, nobody will except for me. I will fight for what's
mine, for my heppiness,my heart, my everything.

Lelo

I woke up in a bad mood, i slept crying after watching the news. I

wasn't with Musa, although he called me thousands times, I just
didn't know what to say. My father killed his family. And to add to
that I had a weird dream. I was pregnant and beautiful, I could
see my big belly, but a few seconds later it was gone,my stomach
was so flat. I was crying as I heard voices saying" a baby is what
you will never have with anyone except for your rightful husband "
I couldn't see the person saying those words but they sounded so
evil. I woke up with mixed emotions, and thought of that girl from
the club, I decided to pray.
Me: Father God I come to you with all I am, all I have. I know I'm
not perfect, I sin now and then, i don't deserve to be called your
child, but Almighty I beg you, please forgive me my sins, please
guide and protect me, protect my love one's, protect my love, give
me strength and courage, lighten my way and cleanes my heart,
enlighten me oh God, be with Musa in this difficult time, be with
my father and make him realise his faults, burn his cruel heart and
give him an angelic one, I know it not his ways but the devil
making him commits such, in the Name of Jesus Christ of
Nazareth, I command every force's against me and my heart to
burn, with the blood of Jesus Christ we are protected, we are
safe, with your name everything bows, There is no other name
that can protect us through obticles and when the devil strike
except for yours, Your name is Mighty,it is beautiful, it saves the
lost , and heals the broken, it is life itself, In the Name of Jesus
Christ of Nazareth amen.

I opened my eyes only to be met by my handsome Ngema. He

had ready eyes.
Me: Musa
I looked at him lazily, I had tears all over my face, I was a mess.
Him: I love you so much
He came to me and gave me a warm hug.
Me: I'm so sorry, I just...
Him: don't, I understand
We went silent for a few minutes up until my stomach decided to
misbehave.
Him: someone is hungry.
Me: I haven't ate
Him: go and bath I will make you a sandwich
I smiled and got up. Minutes later we were both laying on my bed.
Him: you look miles away
Me: I'm sorry about your parents, and your brother
Him: I'm fine, I will be fine
Me: so you gonna bury the remains???
Him: I rather have their ashes
I nodded, he didn't look like someone who has lost his parents,
but we all have different ways of mourning right?.
Me: not a bad Idea.

We chilled together and when Shaz came back we left to his

place. I played up some music using my phone. Beyonce "
dangerously inlove played"
Me:
Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrops
I am a seed
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud to be your girl

He smiled shaking his head, I was even dancing for him. I just
wanted to cheer myself and him. We needed some loughter.
Me: I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
'Cause I'm dangerously in love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me
'Cause I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
'Cause I'm dangerously in love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you moving me.

Him: I'm not gonna stop loving you until my last breath in earth.
Me: I want you to know that I love you more than I love me,I know
you are the man in this relationship but I want you to be not
ashamed to cry, to feel pain and sadness, I want you to cry when
its hurts, dont act strong for me; you are a human and have
feelings too, don't shut them, I want to cry with you, share every
sorrow with you just like I share every heppiness with you. After
all we are one.
Him: where did I find you again??
I chuckled smiling broudly
Him: you are heaven sent sthandwa sami, my pillar my light, my
smile keeper. Don't leave me Mma Brown, we gonna face more
difficulties but promise me you won't give up on me.
Me: I'm not going anywhere, come storms and lightning with
stones and earthquake, I'm still gonna be here with you, tell you
everything is going to be alright.
We kissed😊😊.

Insert 35

Trevor

I had a drastic day today, a difficult client and one stressfull hour
in court. I was now having lunch with Nina who looked miles
away.
Me: you should have said so if you didn't want to have lunch with
me..
She looked at me with teary eyes, and I couldn't care less.
Her: you hurting me Trev
Me: you seem to forget we were never dating Nina
Her: but I'm now carrying your child, isn't that enough?
Me: you just lack understanding woman I don't love you owkay,
I snapped at her and she broke down causing attention.
Me: I'm sorry you just push me
She sniffed wiping off her crocodile tears
Her: I know yu don't love me but did you have to spell it out
loud??
Me: I said I'm sorry
Her: I can't wait to deliver this child, cause it seems like I'm forcing
myself in to you.
I just drank my drink and continued eating.
Her: "mommy's gonna find you one hot damn younger daddy
love, whose gonna love her and you, not some stupid baby maker
who uses her for his sexual needs"
She said brushing her stomach telling my baby that shit . I felt
anger brushing in.
Me: and you think I'm gonna allow you do all that??
Her: you talking to me??
Me: mxm let go
Her: and your food ??
Me: I just lost my appetite
Her: shame are you stressed, is it Lelo??
I shot her a death stare but she just loughed
Her: they do make a good couple with Musa right??
Me: don't try me Khabonina
Her: now you know how I feel
Me: if only you wernt pregnant I would have...
I stopped myself
Her: what?you would have what Trevor???
Me: just leave me..
Her: i don't know why I even got myself involved with you at the
first place
Me: too late for regrets honey

We went to my apartment, she slept after a few minutes then I

headed for a bath. After that I took my laptop and did some
research.I smiled at myself thinking about Musa and his
family,poor boy is now all alone just because he chose to listen to
his heart instead of looking away. Now the only person he trust is
about to leave him too. My plan is to kill that burstad but I firstly
need to tear his heart piece by piece, make him watch me and his
love play happy families. I called my assistant.
Her: Mr Pretorias
Me: I'm not coming back today, tommorow, actualy I won't be in
the whole week, and the weekend too.
Her: I see, but you have clients tommorow, wednsday and Friday
Me: reschedule that why I called you Right
her:yes sir
Me: great, make sure I don't lose my clients
Her: I Will try
Me: I don't pay you to try Messy
Her: I will make sure sir
Me: great then, i will call you when I need something.
" wait for the surprise of your life dear wifey"

Lelo

The dreams I keep on having are weird. Today I had some white
old granny telling me to not let go, to be strong, to pray, and to
hold in to my love. Her words were
" the storm is yet to begin, the clouds will be black, you will lose
sight of the moutains, the way will be darker you will find it hard to
know where you going, which way to go but your love will help
you get up and head to the light, don't be afraid,be strong, pray
and hold on to your love for it is the only thing that makes you feel
safe". I woke up that very moment. I hate this dreams, and they
seem to love me this days.

Now I was at school attending my last class for today. Well maybe
I should have said I was with Musa since we both doing the same
course. I wonder how our children will turn out to be like, I mean
both parents being Chartered Accountants...that's too much,
maybe they will be too clever or too dumb. But I'm praying they
take my genes, not that something is wrong with my love but he
takes things easily just because he's got the mind, no i don't want
that for our kids, I want them to study hard even when they are
capable, I want them to work very hard not to be lazy like their
handsome father.
Him: you daydreaming Mma Brown
That when I realised that the class was empty only left with me
and my love.
Me: I wasn't. .I..when did the lecture dismiss the class??
He loughed at me
Him: I hope you were thinking about me cause you passed out for
like 20 minutes
I chuckled
Me: don't be silly
Him: look at the time
I looked at my watched and he was telling the truth
Me: I...you know what I'm hungry let go to the cafeteria
Him: Mrs daydreams
Me: I won't hear the end of it
Him: I will kill whoever is trying his luck with you
I chuckled
Me: and why do you say that??
Him: because you went miles away with thought while I was
sitting right there next to you, so it clear it's wasn't me you were
thinking about
I loughed
Me: jealousy will kill you before you kill them baby
He chuckled then he kissed me unexpectedly.
Him: I would kill for you trust me, you the only reason I wake up
smiling.
Me: let's go before you start getting emotional
Him: mxm..
We went to the cafeteria and bought pies and cokdrinks. A group
of girls got in screaming.We all turned and looked at them.
Him: attention seekers
I loughed
Me; leave the kids alone
Him: Im glad you are one humble soul
I smiled, I noticed late that it was the same group of girls from the
club. I even saw that girl, Linah. She saw me and made her way
to our table.
Her: young love, so true so pure but dangerous, fought against
yet never been discouraged,.
We both looked at her with shock, she wasn't moving not a little
bit, her eyes were white and that very much open, not blinking not
even for a second, only her lips moving.
Me: are you okay ??
Musa shook his shoulders while I tried speaking to her but it
seems like she wasn't hearing me.
Her: strong but like every other every other human being beholds
a few weaknesses.
Me: Linah??
Her:drawn to the world of darkness a place of the death, a
hellhole for women.
Now I was becomong scared, Musa seemed to have frozen.
Me: baby
He kept quite too, what was happening??
Her: lonliness, strungle, sacrife, oh God sacrife???
After some time her eyes went back to normal, she looked deeply
at my eyes, owkay she was back. She looked at Musa too and
smiled, wtf??
Me: what's heppening?why were you saying a those things
She reached for my hand and for Musa's too, I felt a little
electricity at her touch.
She made us touch one another and smiled.
Her: it is indeed love at it best, give them strength father for their
storm has just begun.
Me: what storm, what are you talking about.
Her: mmhm I have to go, was nice running to you Lelo...it's Lelo
right?.
Me: yeah..
She left while I still wanted to ask her what the fuck?? I mean she
did that last time too, acted as if nothing heppened.
Musa: you know her??
Me: yeah,long story
Him: and that??
Me: I dont know babe, I truly dont know
Him: that was realy weird and terrifying
Me: and you looked taken too
Him: I was shocked, all this death and darkness talks
Me: we need to attend church regularly
Him: we will start next week right
I chuckled
Me: God doesn't bite yazi Musa
Him: I was just saying
Me: no this weekend baby, I'm even thinking of fasting
He loughed
Him: now you going extreme
Me: baby you heard her, we need to pray
Him: amen love

Narrated

Her: he is coming to Joburg, make sure his hotel room have

cameras, install whatever hidden camera that will be clear enough
to hear and see what he is upto.
Him: yess madam
Her: I want to know what he is thinking, when he takes his bath
and what he will have for dinner and at what time, everything
Dash.
Him: all will be done accordingly boss lady
her: and please protect my son
Him: he is protected madam.

She dropped the call and called her friend.

Her: Mr Kubheka
Him: I'm trying to get some here man, you interrupting me
She loughed
Her: make it snappy we need to talk
He chuckled
Him: woman I don't do snappy I take my time and right now I..
Her: oh please save the madness...Now talk
Him: you won't stop acting all bossy right
Her: cause in thee lioness baby
Him: mxm toothless lioness
They both loughed
Her: I will act as if I didn't hear that
Him: because it vaar
Her: stop playing and tell me, was Mrs B rolling on your fingers
like they always do??
Him: she is not a bad person do you know that??
Her: well i do but she is the enemies wife so she will choose her
husband no matter what.
Him: she looked stressed but damn she s one nice hot lady Jesus
Her: Christ already he is smitten by the stupid man's wife
Him: you can't blame a man for reacting
Her: I see, now when is the next date??
Him: next weekend, she cancelled today
Her: I'm guesing that why you went out and looked for some
pussy
Him: you know I dont take reject very well
Her:just do whay we agreed on
Him: I will complete my mission, don't worry.

Two days later

Trevor

Me: doc are you sure that my sperms are that active, I mean I
realy need to know If i will be able to impregnate my girlfriend
within two rounds.
The doctor sighed
Him: you much very healthy Mr Pretorias, and I'm sure your
girlfriend will be pregnant if she is not on contraceptives or any
other preventions of pregnancy.
Me: ohk then thank you.

I walked out of his offices to my hotel room. I made sure the place
was tidy, very much romantic. I have to do this, I've been stalking
Inno for 2 days now and I must say that lunitic boyfriend of his is
always with her, but I managed to know what she does nd when
she does it. Like yesterday, she went to church late at 7 o'clock,
so I'm hoping today she goes to church too.

I poured my self some wine, I needed much energy, I have to

make Inno pregnant, even if it is by force.
nsert 36

"Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for

I can't help it, there's nothin' I want more
You know it's true:
Everything I do, I do it for you, oh, yeah"
'Bryan Adams' Everthing I do

Trevor

It's almost 7pm, and my room is clean like no other room. I made
sure evrything was red and white, the bed covers are white with
no stain, filled with red roses so is chocolate and candles, wine
and strawberries, I must say I outdid myself. This is the night to
remember, a day my second child will be made. I was sitting busy
with my laptop when one of my men called me.
Me: talk
Him: she is coming out sir
I sighed
Me: then you know what to do
Him: yes sir
Me: bring my wife to me then
Him: right on it sir.
"Well well well, once im done with you Inno im gonna sort out that
orphan of yourz"

Lelo

Going to to church have been my favourite thing lately, well as for

Musa he went with me once and the following day made excuses.
I won't force him to come with me, it has to come deep from his
heart. I was speaking with him through a phone call.
Him: I promise I will go with you this weekend my heart
Me: I know baby cause you will say the same even this coming
weekend.
Him: this time around it will be different
Me: we will see love.
Him: mmhm I'm going out for drinks with Trey, you coming over
after church.
Me: nop I will see you tommorow, please don't get too drunk
Him: I won't my love
Me: I love you, I have to go
Him: pray for me baby, I love you Mma Brown
Immediately after dropping the call I took my bible, bag and went
out. Shaz was with her friends or her new man I don't know. I
went out of res, church was just less than a kilometre away. I felt
like I was being watched but I brushed it off. I walked listening to
"dance with my father by Luther Vandross". I dont know what
heppened next but I felt a little something being injected on my
neck.
Narrated

Her: you not gonna abuse me inthat way ever Brown, you've
turned into an animal overnight, what heppened to my sweet
loving husband.
She wiped her tears slowly looking at her beast husband.
Him: I'm sorry sweetheart, this whole Inno saga is just stressing
me out
She chuckled
Her: dont pin it on our daughter please
Him: I said I'm sorry
Her: If you ever strangle me Brown I will leave your cheating ass
do you hear me, you seem to forget that I'm my own woman just
like you I'm a business woman so I'm not dependent on you.
Brown calmed down and looked at his wife.
Him: you will never leave me woman, I made you,you seem to
forget that too.
She loughed looking at her stupid husband
Her: with what?? By sacrificing my daughter's heppiness? Is that
how you made me??
Him: don't speak nonsense
Her: the truth hurts so they say
Him: truth my foot, It's what was best for this family.
Her: no you were just hungry for money, for power and married off
my daughter through witchcraft in her early years, and what is that
doing to our family now huh ??
Him: you never complained when you were busy shopping non
stop and today you've got the guts to tell me that nonsense
Her: as If i had the choice, I was against the whole thing but no,
you and your father agreed and left me with no choice, just like
when I lost my son, you made that choice Brown, you made me
loose my only son, you and your whole family you are cruel.
She was now crying, Mr Brown looked at his wife with both anger
and pain.
Him: did you have to bring that up now??
Her: what?? I 've been holding a lot inside me, so you think I
enjoy all this shopping, all this trips, all this money?? Do you think
I enjoy my life?? I don't, one of the reasons i decided to tie my
tubes was because I could never ever want to give you another
child for you to turn it life upside down, I wouldn't live with myself.
Him: you know what heppened wasn't my fault, we were at war
woman, our baby died because it had to, plus it wasn't a baby
that time.
Her: I was 4 months pregnant Brown, how can you say it wasn't a
baby, I heard his heart beat, I felt him inside me.
Him: I thought we were over that
Her: we were up untill you decided to kill the only boy's parents
that my daughter is inlove with, now we are being hated by our
only child .
Him: Inno is just spoilt and that family had to die you know it too.
Her: there was realy no need for killing
Him: you now crazy
Her: that what I am to you this days
Mr Brown's phone rang and he looked at it then dropped the call.
Her: what, you not gonna answer your mistresses calls now
Him : how many time do I have to tell you that I don't have
mistresses
Her: and you think I believe that?
Him: suit yourself
He went out and called Neo, she was the one calling

Him: talk
Her: Papisa
Him: straight to the point please
Her: you so mean, well I wanted to tell you that be ready to
transfer my 50 000 rands later today.
Him: you saying what I'm thinking?
Her: yess now let me go freshen up cause today it heppening.
Him: make sure you use protection
Her: year daddy
Him: did you buy the pills last time
Neo kept quite cause she forgot about the pills but then she didn't
want to make Brown angry
Her: I did daddy
Him: great cause we don't want any pregnancies between us.
Her: we sure don't.

Musa

It was by 9pm, I was Still at the club with Trey and some gents.
I've been trying to get hold of Lelo but her phone take me straight
to voicemail.
Me: something is definitely not right here Trey.
I said worried
Him: man don't stress yourself, maybe she is sleeping already
Me: My heart doesn't sleep this early
Him: I still think you just worrying yourself.
Me: probably but its just strange
We continued drinking, I told myself Lelo was sleeping probably
tired from all that preaching and singing. Trey suggested we go to
Soweto to some house party.
Me: but I will be coming back by 1, we still got school tomorrow,
and who does house parties in a Thursday.
Him: some dude from school, I hear he invited a lot of hot chicks
man it going down dah. .
I chuckled
Me: already got my heart for that
Him: you so witchcrafted
Me: is it my fault I'm inlove ??
Him: you are triple whipped bro, what kind of a man says he's
inlove
Me: this kind..
We went to Soweto and damn the place was so full, filled with
students ofcause. It was a triple storey house with a pool and a
very beautiful garden. Trey was indeed telling the truth, most of
the girls here were hot and sexy. I notice Neo's crew too, ay those
never miss fun xem.
We decided on Heinekens and savanna's.
Him: i dont see myself sleeping alone today
I chuckled
Me: atleasy now you have the privacy
Him: imma go and get myself some chick.
We partied and by 12 we were all drunk, the house wasn't realy
dirty but damn it was decorated by a lot of stuff, like bras and t-
shirts, you know what happens in house parties.

Lelo

I woke up feeling numb, I even struggled to open my eyes a bit. I

heard sexual healing by Marvin Gaye playing inthe back ground.
The room i was in smelt so good. When I managed to open my
eyes properly, I was met by Trevor's handsome self. He looked
out of it, like he had been drinking. I looked at my surroundings
and the room was in red and white, the bed I was laying on had
red roses, the room's light was turned off only the light of candles
showing off the colour red. It took me some time to actualy realise
that Tee kidnapped me. I looked at him and his face was written
lust.
Me: what am I doing here??
Him: how can you ask me that?
Me: you kidnapped me Tee, did you plan this with my father?
He chuckled
Him: this time around I decided on be coming a soul trader, I did
this on my own.
Me: so what are you going to do with me now huh?
Him: what I should have done ages ago
He came to me and held my chicks, I tried to yank his hand off but
his other hand stopped me.
Him: you are so beautiful Inno and I love you so much, I can't live
without you it impossible.
Me: what's I'm possible here, accepting that I don't want you or
accepting that I'm inlove with someone else?
Him: you don't get it do you?? My life is incomplete without you,
you the only one who can give me heppiness.
I chuckled
Me: that's crazy, you've got Nina
Him: She is irrelevant, she is just my baby carrier you are my life
Inno
Me: stop convincing yourself with nonsense Tee, we will never be.
Him: then I've got no choice but to do this
I looked at him and he was taking off his clothes,
Me: what do you mean??
Him: I love you so much Inno it's hurts me to see you with that
boy..
He was now left with his briefs. He came closer to me and I slowly
whispered "no" when it clicked to me that he was gonna rape me.
Me: please Tee don't do this
Him: I don't have any choice Inno, you made me do this.
I tried stopping him from taking off my dress but he overpowerd
me, he was that strong. After he took off my dress i was only left
with my panties.
Me; Tee please
I said as tears streamed out of my eyes. I had no energy to fight
him, the drugs they injected me with were that strong.
Him: just go with the flow Inno and we both gonna enjoy this.
Me: I don't want to please stop this..
He started squeezing my breast and kissing my neck. I did not let
him kiss me, he tried but i closed my mouth. He then gave up and
started kissing my neck to my nipples. My heart cried for Musa, I
found myself accepting what he was doing to me.I felt him tearing
my underwear, he rubbed my dry apple with his hard hands. I
hated my body that very same moment. He then made his way
inside my cookie jar. The dryness made it painful when his shaft
got inside me. I flinched and cried out loud but he looked at me
smiling. After he went all in he started pumping in and out. His
groans filled the room. His thing was so big and painful. I cried
silently and prayed to God to please give me strength to face the
world tommorow.he continued thrusting inside me with myself
feeling every kind of pain with every thrust he made.eventually i
could not stand looking at his disgusting sight, nigga was even
sweating i closed my eyes and my soul left my body to my
imaginary place where only Musa and I lived. A place where there
was no tears to shed, only loughter to activate.

Narrated

The music was that loud,Neo and her crew were now sitting with
Musa and Trey's crew. Neo excused her self to the ladies room,
she asked Deneo, some yellowbone who was with them today to
accompany her. They both went to the ladies room.
Her: remember to not let him see through you
Deneo: Im not the one whose gonna be sleeping with him right??
Her: leave that to me
Deneo: great then, can I have my 10 000 rands
Her: after you finish the job you get the other 5000.
She transfered 5000 to her then gave her the drugs.
Her: make it quick
They went out to their spot. People were now leaving one by one,
some were still partying. Deneo went to sit next to Musa
Her: you not much of a drinker ?
Him: well i would actualy disagree with you
Her: and why is that??
Him: because I'm drunk and I've never been this drunk.
She smiled
Her: wanna dance?
Him: why 'not.
The whole crew was dancing and minding their own business.
They both got up leaving their drinks unattended.
Her: oops I forgot to take off this jacket, there's no way I'm gonna
dance in this.
He nodded and she went to their spot and took off her jacket.
Immediately she spilled the pills in Musa's drink and went back
smiling. They danced to "Spirit" by Kwesta. After some time they
went back to their spot.
Trey: man i will be around the house
He chuckled because Trey had 3 girls with him, so he was gonna
have a 4 foursome. He drank his drink and immediately felt his
eyes shutting down.
Him: I think I'm gonna leave now
He tried standing up but his legs failed him. Neo noticed that he
was now out of it and came to them.
Her: let's take him to one of the bedrooms upstairs.
They did and when they found an empty room she gave her the
rest of her money then she left leaving her and Musa.
Her: Mr hotty all to myself
Him: what is going on, what's heppening
Her: we gonna have a little fun
She placed the camera at the right spot where all was going to be
clear. After that she undressed a drugged Musa who let her did
everything she wanted to do. She then undressed herself and
started giving him a head. Yes he groaned since the pleasure was
there. The camera kept on recording the video. Neo did
everything, she did put on a condom and started riding Musa like
crazy. His vission was blury causing him to not be able to see
well. After some time he came and layed naked just like that. Neo
slept next to him and made sure she puts his hands all over her.
Her mission was accomplished, Virgin marry will hate her for real
now. She smiled as she thought of her plus the 100 000 rands
she made just for sleeping with Mr hotty, something she would
have done for free.

Insert 37

Lelo

I woke up next to a smiling Tee, my eyes had swollen from the

crying, my head so painful. I looked at this beautiful was
supposed to be my husband monster, how his cruelty has
spreaded over this past few months, how he has turned into a
beast, a rapist. Just then the thought of last night attacked my
mind, how he made me bend and unbend, how he forced entry
into my Apple, his groans of pleasure while all I was feeling was
pain.
Him: slept well??
I couldn't utter no other word, I hated him with every part of my
body, I hated my body too, I hated my life, I hated the thought of
Musa, how devasted he will be when he hears of this, will he still
want me?? I hated feeling this way.
Him: don't beat yourself too much it was just sex Inno, something
you've gotten used to since you were not a virgin.
My voice still failed me, tears just streamed out of my already
swollen eyes, I found my self feeling suffocated,I couldn't breath,
the pain I was feeling was too much, I felt helpless, I felt useless, I
felt like a nobody. All because I am inlove with Musa, my heart,
my world, my pillar, my happiness, my everything.
Him: dammit Inno breath
I looked at him, I wanted to die, why would I breath? Why would I
want to live after all this.
Him: woman breath
He shouted so loud that I found my self breathing in and out. After
some time he came with water.
Him: drink
I looked at him and shook my head.
Him: I'm not gonna beg you
I just got out of bed, I was still naked, I looked for my clothes with
him watching me doing just that. I wore my dress not even looking
at myself, I hated this body.
I took my bag and noticed the bible inside. It got me so angry
because If I didn't go to church this wouldn't have happened, God
is the reason I got raped by my ex, by someone I've known all my
life. I went to the door with the aim of going out but it was locked.
There was no key either. Now I was forced to talk to this monster.
I forced my voice from coming out but non, I couldn't speak, my
tears said the words I wanted to say. I saw him come my way and
my body shivered. He touched me, fear attacked me and I just
froze. His smile all wicked yet beautiful.
Him: not so fast dear wifey
I struggled to understand what he realy meant by that. His hands
went from my chicks to my breast, all along i have just frozen
unable to say anything or move anyhow.
Him: I love you when you are this vulnerable, it's makes my job so
easy.
His left hand took my bag and threw It on the floor, In that very
same moment he attacked my lips with so much force, I tried by
all means to block him.
Him: You belong wih me Inno, no one else do you understand
me??
Tears again, I swear 5litres would have been full by now. He
quickly pulled up my dress and and threw me on the couch. I
became so vulnerable that it seemed like I submitted myself to
him. From there he got inside me without notice, he forced himself
until all of him was in, I cried silently waiting for him to finish. I
blocked every sound he made, I couldn't bear hearing him feeling
all mighty. After a few minutes he came and smiled like a retard.
He wiped my tears using his filthy hands.
Him: you realy are so tight , damn Inno I can't get enough of you
I got up and pulled down my dress, for a moment I looked at him
with so much pain and hate.
Him: you can go now
I took my bag and walked out slowly after he opened for me. I felt
like the whole world knew what heppened to me. From outside
the hotel I took a taxi to res. I felt dirty and not belonging. I wanted
to die that very same moment.
I got into my room and went to the shower, luckily Shaz wasn't in.
I took one hell of a long shower and got out when the water
became cold. I threw myself on my bed and lay there feeling
lifeless. I needed some sleeping pills or whatsoever drugs,
something to just turn off my mind. I took my phone and dialed my
mom's digits.
her: my baby
I couldn't speak, I couldn't say anything all I managed to do was
to cry, that the only voice I could activate.
Her: Lelo baby are fine??
I dropped the call and slept on my back, I made sure I wore my
long pyjamas that hid my dirty body which I couldn't look, I
couldn't even look at my face, how do I face myself after this. I
hated this body more than I hated my father, more than I hated
Trevor, God I hated being alive.

Musa

I was woken up my someone's lips kissing me. I tried opening my

eyes but they hurted so much, the headache I was feeling was
too much. I groaned at the pain I was feeling. I heard an annoying
yet a familiar voice speaking next to me.
Her: morning handsome
trust me when i say I forced my eyes to open that very same
moment. By force I tell you now i didn't mind the pain but what
was Neo doing next to me in the morning??
Me: fuck its realy you
She smiled and I just shot her one evil stare that made that smile
of hers dissapear just like that.
Me: what the hell are you doing here, am I doing here?? Bitch
what did you do??
Her: don't tell me you dont remember
Me: would I ask If I did??
Her: don't shout at me phela
I swear she just activated the beast in me
Me: bitch talk
Her: isn't clear, I mean we both naked what Is it that you want me
to say
Me: don't fuck with me Neo i tell you, you don't wanna mess with
me
Her: well I've already did, I've never had such a nice night in a
long time
I got up and wore my clothes, the headache was realy killing me,
seems like my head was full of stones. I looked for my purse and
keys.
Me: we not done here
Her: you mean we should do it again
This bitch was realy getting to me
Me: don't , don't test me Neo
Her: I wonder what will virgin Mary say after this, I mean you were
all over me yersteday, I told you from the start that you do love
me.
She said the last part trying very hard to breath cause i was
already on to her, my tough hands around her neck.
Me: say that again bitch
Her: Musa you hurting me
Me: If you ever say anything, I mean anything about this I'm
gonna fucken kill you, and bury you by myself skhebereshe ndini.
I walked out leaving her all teary, I didn't care all I wanted to do
was get to my flat, bath me and go to my heart. But then again my
head was realy painful, was it the alcohol or what, and how did I
end up with Neo next to me, wait how did I even find myself
sleeping in someone else's house, I don't do that, I've attended so
many house parties but I've managed to drive back home.
Something was off and this bitch was gonna spill It all out like It or
not.

I drove back to my flat, I took a short shower with this headache

killing me, it was even blinding my sight a little. I wore my short,
vest and then went out. I drove straight to the doctor. Lucky there
was no line so I was quickly transfered to her.
Her: you look terrible
Me: I know right,
Her: hang over
Me: plus a terrible headache, I can't even see properly
Her: isn't it normal? ?
Me: not at all, I've never experienced such
Her: I will run some tests
Me: please give me something I'm dying here
Her: I will let's run this tests first
I couldn't bear it, my head was pounding so hard, my heart beat
increased, everthing became blank from there, slowly I lost my
sight. I don't know what heppened next.

Few hours later

Her: I'm glad you are awake

I looked at my sarroundings and noticed i was in a ward like room.
Me: what heppened
Her: you just became unconscious
Me: I don't understand
Her: mmhm how are you feeling
Me: my head, it is now better
She smiled
Her: can I ask you something
Me: yeah sure
Her: are you an addict, like do you take drugs
I chuckled
Me: I've never took any, doc I don't even smoke I only drink.
Her: I dont understand, I mean if you don't take drugs then how
did they end up in your system
Me: you mean...
Her: very well, and It seems like you overdosed them which is
why you experienced such headache, you should probably thank
your God or ancestors for deciding on coming to see a doctor.
I exhaled hard, that bitch drugged me.

Narrated

Him: i received the pasel, well done, I will make sure i use this
effectively
Her: you know I excel in everything I do papisa
He chuckled
Him: now I know, sadly our relationship ends here.
She chuckled disbelief
Her: what do you mean papisa??
Him: I'm afraid my wife knows I'm. cheating
Her: was she told by that daughter of yours ?
Him: don't dare include my baby in this
Her: then tell me why
Him: we are done Neo, don't call me ever again.
Her: I don't believe this
Him: well you better do,I have to go now, It was nice knowing you
Her: I refuse this
Mr Brown ended the call.
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Narrated

She kept on pacing up and down, her mind was telling her a lot of
things.
" that old fool can't drop me now, not after this". She took her
phone and dialed someone's number. It rang for some time and
after a few minute it was answered.
Voice: long time bitch where you at
She chuckled
Her: you know school keeps us busy
Him: you and school, rather say men
Her: we gotta survive this thing called life
Him: so you say, now how may I be at your service?
Her: nigga just dumped me, so I'm sure you know what to do
Him: be specif
Her: just roughen his white ass a little bit too much
He loughed
Him: he is white? ?
Her: yes bhutiza he is white
Him: ay you've upgaraded sana
Her: just break a few bones please, a wheelchair will do him
good.
Him: I hope we pull this off, you know we just hood boys right
Her: I know but I'm sure you can teach that barstard a lesson
Him: so what in it for us?,
Her: we kidnap his golden daughter and ask for a ransome
Him: you know jail doesn't suit me right?
Her: chill brother that asshole will pay I tell you
Him: as long as this doesn't come back to bite us
Her: I will make sure it doesnt
Him: good then we will talk soon
Her: yeah, I will tell when to strike, just be ready.

The Brown's household

He came down from upstairs and kissed his moody wife who
couldn't stop thinking of Samson who seemed to have stolen her
heart just like that. Her husband disturbed her from her thought.
Her: you in a good mood
Him: finally I can get rid of that boy
Her: what do you mean
He took out a CD and played it on their tv, Musa's scene with Neo
played.
Her: what the hell Brown??
Him: he is not good t out daughter I hope she sees it too
Her: that boy look so drunk and drugged, look at him he isn't even
participating in this whole thing
He chuckled
Him: still he slept with her and seems like he was enjoying
Mrs Brown got up irritated
Her: you so unbelievable yazi Brown
Him: atleast I'm trying and doing everything I can to keep this
family together and it riches
Her: that all you care about, and before I forget, Lelo called me
earlier and she sounded so hurt, is that the reason.
Him: I don't know what you talking about cause i hevent showed
this to Inno, I'm sure that boy has it something to do with her
sadness but don't worry I will put this all to an end.
She sighed and took her bag.
Her: I'm going out
Him: this days you are always going out
Her: to get some air, isn't what you always did and still does??
Him: don't dare me woman
Her: I'm not gonna fight with you, Tell Beauty what to cook cause i
dont feel like food .
Him: let's hope for your own good you just going out
She winked and took her car keys. On her way she called
Samson.
Him: sunshine
She smiled feeling foreign things inside her stomach, his voice is
one of an angel.
Her: mmhm I'm going out, are you busy?
Him: for you my lady I'm always free
She blushed like a teenager
Her:our favourite spot right??
Him: give me 10 minutes or less
Her: I'm counting.

All along Mrs Ngema had been trying to reach her son. She has
seen what Trevor did since she made it an order to her boys to
bug his hotel room with hidden cameras. She couldn't stop
thinking about Lelo, what she was feeling, how she was. She was
disturbed by her phone ringing.
Her: Finally
Him: I'm sorry I've been busy ma
Her: busy with what Musawakhe? Have you seen your girlfriend?
Do you know what she's been through? I thought I told you to
always stay with her, protect her , now look what heppened..
Musa was still lost.
Him: ma what are you talking about
Her: I'm talking about Lelo, your girlfriend remember?
He nodded seeing how angry his mother was.
Her: that stupid Trevor got to her Musa, I don't think you too will
get through this, she has been hurt so much now
Musa stopped her.
Him: mom wait, what do you mean, what did that asshole do
Her: language my boy
He hissed
Her: she was raped..
Musa felt like a part of him was being ripped off, he felt so many
emotions that he dropped his mother and banged whatever was
next to him. His place went all upside down with him messing it all
around because of his anger. He was even trembling with every
thought that that hit him, imagining Trevor and her, then him and
Neo. All this was a mess which made him wonder if they could get
through this, and If so, how?

Lelo

It was late by 7pm, I haven't heard from Musa and a part of me

was glad he hasn't contacted me but another wanted him right
next to me. My phone rang as I was doubting if I should or not
answer it, but the person did not give up so I got up and looked
for it.
Me: hey
I was Shaz
her: bitch I been trying to reach you all day
Me: sorry I been busy
She chuckled
Her: can't get enough of mr hotty?
I sighed
Me: you know me
Her: well i wanted to tell you that I won't be coming today or
tommorow, so enjoy the privacy while it last
Me: oh
Her: Lelo
Me: I heard you, I will miss you, though I'm used to your
dissapearance
Her: you don't sound normal, talk
Me: I'm good, look we will talk when you come back
Her: is mr hotty giving you trouble
Me: no man, we will talk, bye.
I layed on my back, all the memories came back filling my mind. I
tried calmimg myself down but I couldn't, I was damaged,I'm
damaged goods, Tee damaged me. I haven't ate since yersteday
and food was the last thing on my mind, although my stomach
kept on making funny sounds but I ignored it. I heard someone
knocking on my door and fear kicked in. I felt myself loosing air,
what if it's Him, no he can't do this again to me, no what if it
Musa, he can't see me like this. Slowly my heart was failing me.
Me:Breath Lelo, breath
I contained myself and started breathing in and out. The person
kept on knocking.
Him: Mma Brown please open for me
My heart felt at ease, hearing his voice gave me a little strength. I
did the breath ins for some time then I was calm again.
Him: baby please
I cried hearing him plead, I hated how I was feeling.
Me: I can't Musa,please go
I heard him pinch the door furiously, does he know?? I asked
myself. No he can't know, he will leave me, but then who would
love demaged goods like me.
Him: Baby please open up,
By this time I had hiccups, the pain I was feeling was beyond and
at the same time I was hungry as fuck, but I didn't care, I wanted
to die, if only it was possible for hunger to kill one.
Him: I'm not leaving you here alone, please open for me
I went to sit by the door, I could hear him clearly, looks like he
was sitting down too.
Him: Mma Brown
I swear my heart wanted him more than anything right now, but
the image of men is what my soul resented.
Me: Musa
Him: I won't leave you
I cried silently
Me: please
Him: no Lelo, I'm not leaving you here all alone again
His words contained more authority but I needed to be alone.
Me: just for tonight , please
I heard him sigh
Him: why are you doing this?
Me: I need to be alone baby
Him: you need me Lelo, I need you baby
Me: please go
Him: how do you expect me to just go and leave you, how ?
Me: I will see you tommorow I promise
Him: I will call you then
Me: I love you so much Musawami
Him: I love you Mma brown.
I then heard footsteps walking away, I sighed and walked back to
my bed. I closed my eyes with the hope of not seeing Tee's face
but hell the nigga gave me no space. All I could see was him and
all I could hear was his groans. His image was stuck in my mind
and probably will be stuck there all my life. I got up since I couldn't
sleep, took my bag and packed a few things for myself. I couldn't
face Musa the following day, I wouldn't even be able to face
anyone for that matter. I called my mom.
Her: Baby
Me: I want to come home, please send the jet early inthe morning
and some guys to fetch me here, please mom
Her: Lelo whats wrong
Me: mom please I can't stay here
Her: owk baby I will make sure of that then
Me: make it 5 am please
Her: so early Lelo
Me: please ma
Her: owk be ready then

Musa

After leaving Lelo's room i went straight to my flat. Trust me when

i say I couldn't recognise it myself. I went to my bedroom and
skyped mom, I needed her now than ever.
Her: I hope you didn't do something stupid
me: well i hevent but I'm going to kill that barstard
She sighed
Her: don't Musa
Me: what ma, he raped her, he violated her, she's so hurt ma
Her: who wouldn't be, now tell me, how is she
Me: I don't know, She doesnt want to see me
her: it understandable, she's been through a lot son
Me: but she is shutting me out ma, how do I help her get through
it
Her: you can't baby, she just need support now
Me: can she report him?? I mean to the cops
Her: that guy is a lawyer himself baby, his family have the money
to bribe and kill then wake up to the nice life again
Me: so he's gonna be free in all of this
Her: he raped her knowingly that she won't do anything about it,
hense she is her betrothed wife
Me: but that doesn't mean he's got the right to rape her
Her: in his mind he has got every right to sleep with her
Me: If the law doesn't take it course then I will do, I won't let him
walk free after traumatizing and desroying my heart's life, he's got
to pay ma.
Her: he will baby trust me, now don't do anything stupid that will
probably land you to jail, we dont want that now do we? ?
I scratched my head
Me: we don't
her: now tell me, what else are you hiding from me?
Me: why do you mean?

Insert 39

She huffed
Her: don't try me wakhe
me: mom
Her: what heppened at the house party??
I gasped
Me: mmhm...I well...
Her: now you can't talk??
Me: wait how do you know about..
Her: I know everything son
Me: I don't know what heppened trust me
Her: I know, you were just stupid enough to leave your drink
unattended
Me: well i didn't think...
Her: that your problem, you don't think
Me: mom
Her: what??
Me: you being harsh
Her: do you want me to clap hands for you??
Me: no but..
Her: don't try and excuse your actions
Me: I wasn't ma
Her: you stupid mani Musa, I've told you tons to be careful but
no, you decide on drinking and dancing with hoes who will do
anything to break your relationship with Lelo.
Me: I feel bad already
Her: now do you think your relationship will survive??
Me: uhmmm I hope so
Her: with the rape and your stupid acts, you slept with the girl, the
video she took, and gues what??
Me: she's gonna blackmail me
She chuckled
Me: you so stupid, I don't think you are my son
Me: mom
Her: Brown has the tape
Me: what the hell
Her: can't you solve the puzzle??
Me: she is his mistress so I'm not surprised
Her: now tell me, will your relationship survive both of this??
I kept quite, this was too much, too much for Lelo, this will kill her.
Me: my heart won't survive this
Her: she is one strong courageous lady you know
me: but this is too much, she won't forgive me ma, I'm going to
lose her
her: don't, just stop all you need to do now is find a way to tell
Lelo everything
Me: how when she doesn't want to talk to me
Her: just find a way son, theres always a way.
Me: I just wish dad was here
Her: be a man Musa, your dad lives within you, you are his son
remember...
Me: yeah, goodnight mamzo
She smiled
Her: everything will be alright
Me: i hope so

Lelo
" their blood binds then together, their blood binds them together,
their blood binds them together " those words repeated in my
dream. I woke up frightened, I checked the time and it was 4 am. I
woke up and took a long bath. I just wore my nike tracksuits and
slippers. I couldnt look at the mirror neither applied lotion on my
body. I hated this body with all of me. I took my phone and played
" Said I loved you but I lied"

""You are the candle, love's the flame

A fire that burns through wind and rain
Shine your light on this heart of mine
Till the end of time
You came to me like the dawn through the night
Just shinin' like the sun
Out of my dreams and into my life
You are the one, you are the one

Said I loved you but I lied

'Cause this is more than love I feel inside
Said I loved you but I was wrong
'Cause love could never ever feel so strong
Said I loved you but I lied""
Me: With all my soul I've tried in vain, how can mere words my
heart explain this taste of heaven so deep so true I've found in
you,so many reasons in so many ways,my life has just begun
Need you forever, I need you to stay you are the one, you are the
one""

I sang as tears streamed out, all along i could hear Musa's voice,
the way he sang to me, the look on his face when he told me he
loved me, that I was his love. I cried so hard, I can't let him go but
I have to, we cant be together, we don't belong together, fate
doesn't want us to be. Maybe I belong with that monster, that my
destiny right??. My phone rang disturbing me from my thoughts.
Me: mother
Her: they are waiting for you
I dropped the call and took my bag. I went downstairs going out
and found the car waiting. I got in and within minutes I was on the
jet and on my way back home. I wasn't worried about school
since we've just written our semester tests. I was home by 7,
found my mom waiting for me. She rushed to me as soon as she
heard me come in and I just threw myself at her already crying.
Her: it alright baby you home
me: 😭😭
Her: shhhhh baby please calm down
We went to my room and sat looking at each other. She was
crying too.
Her: talk to mommy
Me: he raped me ma
Her: what, who, how????
Me: Tee, Tee raped me
This time around I said it calmy
Her: that barstard, how could he
Me: he kidnapped Me
Her: oh my baby, I'm going to kill that asshole
Me: it doesn't matter anymore, he has destroyed me already
Her: dont Lelo, don't talk like that baby you not destroyed
me: I hate him ma, I hate me...
I cried loudly
Her: everything is going to be alright baby
Me: I don't think so

Later that day

I was going downstairs to the living room when i heard my parents

arguing.
Her: she belongs in jail Brown, he violated our daughter.
Him: stop with this nonsense, Lelo is his wife you know it too
Her: you so unbelievable Brown, did you see her, she is a mess
Him: she will be alright, sex is sex
Her: you know what I'm not gonna argue with you with this
Him: stop making a tissue an issue
Her: stop behaving like a monster and start behaving like a father.
Me: you guys please stop it
I shouted and they both looked at me stunned.
Him: I will be on my study
Dad excused himself not looking at me.
Me: where is sis' Beauty
Her: she's not in yet love
Me: I need to go to the chemist
Her: what for??
Me: I need some pills ma
Her: Lelo
Me: please
Her: i will tell the driver to take you
I nodded.
We went to the chemist and I bought sleeping pills, I needed them
that much i even bought 4 pockets that contained 20 pills each.
Walking by steers their smell made my stomach grumpy, I still
haven't ate. I ignored whatever tricks my stomach was playing
with me and continue walking to the car. I accidentally bumped
onto someone
Me: oh sorry
I looked up and it was no other that my former best friend, Nina
Her: Lelo, you look..ummh well you
Me: bad I know
I knew exactly how I looked and I didn't care, my hair was messy
and my eyes swollen with my face pink and my nose very much
pink.
Her: how are you, I mean how is school
I looked at her bump and it was so big, I mean so big as If it was
about to explode. Then the thought that Tee was the father hit
me.
Me: I have to go
Her: please can't we catch up or have lunch
Me: we not friends Nina
I ran to the car and the driver took me straight home. I found my
dad inthe living room. He pointed that I should go to him.
Him: sit down
I did not looking at him
Him: I know what heppened with you and Trevor
Me: okay
Him: he is your husband Inno
Me: no he is not, he is a monster and I hate him with passion
I shouted
Him: you not gonna raise your voice at me young lady
Me: he raped me dad
I said with imploring eyes but he just continued
Him: we not going to report this, what will people say, I mean
basically Trevor is our son in law, your soon to be husband, and
you two had sex and thats it
I cried going up to my room i locked the door and threw myself on
my bed.

Trevor

I was in my office when my phone rang. It was Lelo's father. I

sighed before answering.
Me: Mr Brown
him: I hope you did not use protection
I was lost for some seconds
Me: I don't understand
him: when making love to my daughter, I hope you did not use
protection.
I chuckled
Me: i did not
Him: great then, let's just hope she is pregnant
me: that was the plan
Him: I like it though my baby is a mess
Me: I know I just didn't think it will affect her that much
Him: you have to come and make things right, she is here with us
Me: I will come
After the call I called the boutique for some flowers.

Musa
I have knocked and knocked at Lelo's door but no response. I
went downstairs and found Mrs Lihle.
Me: excuse me ma, have you seen uLelo
Her: she left early this morning
Me: what do you mean by she " left"
Her: i mean just that
I forget she is one grumpy lady
Me: ok thank you
I went to my flat and called her cell. It rang for some time before
she answered
Her: Musa
Her voice wasn't normal, looked like she has been crying but then
who won't.
Me: my heart where are you
I heard her exhale hard
Her: at home
I swear I wanted to die, damn that gives her father the opportunity
to show her the video
me: what do you mean Lelo
her: I'm sorry I should have told you
me: yes you should have
Her: please don't shout at me
I lowered my voice
me: I'm sorry
Her: no I'm so sorry Musa
Me: Lelo don't
Her: I'm I'm curse, I don't deserve your love, I don't deserve you
Me: stop it Lelo please don't
her: no Musa im the reason why you are an orphan and why you
are lonely
Me: Lelo please, I'm not an orphan I've got you babe
Her: you can't have me Musa, I thought I could fight this but I
can't, it too much i cant do this to you, you deserve heppiness
Me: you are my heppiness Mbulelo
Her: I'm your worst Musa, I bring pain and and so much
responsibility, you still young, you deserve the best.
I swear I was sweating to the maximum, Lelo can't do this to me,
not now please
Me: Lelo please
Her: goodbye Musa, I love you
Me: don't do this Lelo please
Her: find heppiness my love
She dropped the call and I found myself crying out loud. I cried so
bad, it's hurt, her words couldn't stop ringing in my ears, she left
me, that was it?? No i can't allow it, I won't allow it.

Narrated
She looked at the pregnancy test on her hand. It was positive; she
was 3 weeks pregnant, and with Brown's baby. She sighed after a
lot of thinking.
Her: I need to make a plan, I hope I don't show soon cause this
baby can't be fathered by an old white man, what will they say at
home, my father will disown me, I have to convince Musa that it is
his child, I have no other plan otherwise I have to get rid of his
baby.

Insert 40

A week later

Musa

It was the end of September, school was gonna resume on the

13th of October. I last spoke to Lelo the day she dumped me and
I should admit I haven't been coping and I've done everything in
my power to not kill that motherf**, but as for Neo, I taught her a
lesson she won't ever forget. I would not let a bitch play with my
love, I 've heard that she has been spreading rumours saying I
impregnated her, and I realy don't buy that even though we slept
together. I packed a little bag since I was only going home for a
week. Even though it won't feel like home since our house was
burnt down and my family ain't with me. Oh and I got a message
from an unknown number saying my dad is alright, although when
I called it, it said subscriber ain't available, my mom said she got
one too but we did not realy talk about it that much. So i will be
staying in one of my dad's properties. I skyped mom first before
going.
Her: sonny
Me: thee lioness
She loughed
Her: It mommy to you
Me: how are you
Her: great, your brother got a job
me: realy?where?how?
Her: whooooe one question at a time
Me: I thought he wasn't into working though he's got his masters
Her: we've got to do all we can to help you out of this and find
justice for Lelo
Me: what do you mean
Her: he's gonna be working with the most successful lawyers and
prosecuters in various countries which includes South Africa too.
Me: wow that huge
her: we have to play smart honey
Me: hay I'm not your husband
Her: mxm who would want an ugly husband like you
Me: me and ugly....
I loughed
Her: Lelo realised she couldn't deal with your ugly ass that why
you got dump
Me: mom😰
Her: sorry my baby, how is she
Me: truth is I don't know, I'm hoping to see her when I get that
side
Her: don't put too much pressure in her, she's still hurting
Me: but we promised to share everything together, both
heppiness and sadness
Her: be strong for her son, you will never understand woman, we
like that
Me: ok mom, I have to go now
Her: be safe Musa
Me: always mom
Her: I love you owk
me: wayazi mamzo
She frowned and I just chuckled
Me: I love you more mom

Trevor

Well I tried getting close to Inno but that seemed to not have
worked out. I've tried every method but every one fails, Inno hates
me to the core, she can't even stand my presence. I gues my plan
ain't working but I'm hoping she is pregnant, her father said she
will go with her to the doctor after three weeks, since this one has
passed i gues we left with two. I was still working when my phone
rang.
Me: what??
It was Nina
Her: ahh Trev I'm...
She sounded so weird, like she was in pain
Me: Nina what is it
I started panicking
Her: I'm on my way to the hospital ,the baby....
Me: what, what wrong with the baby
Her: damn Trev mani, I'm in Labour
She shouted and screamed at the same time.
Me: what? I'm coming...

Lelo

It been a week and a few days and I've been locking myself in my
room. I don't even come out I just stand by the door amd my mom
would come and give me food. I hate my dad so much i can't
even stand his sight and as for Tee he has got the guts of coming
here and telling me how he can't live without me. I've been
stuffing myself with junk food and meat, for the past few days my
appetite has rised, I just feel like eating non stop. Well sis' Beauty
is the one I 've been asking to go and buy for me sweets and
stuff. She is the only person who understands me, and right now
we were sitting on my bed watching Vampire diaries season 4.
Her: it's been days hle Lelo, you need to try and go out sweety
I sighed
Me: you guys don't understand , I can't
Her: you need to get some air, you even gaining some weight
baby
Me: I realy don't care, I can be all fat that I can't even walk
Her: you don't mean that
Me: I do trust me
Her: Lelo
Me: I hate this body, I don't care how it looks like,fat or thin I realy
don't care
Her: so you eating this much to ruin yourself
Me: no, because I fell like eating all this
She looked at me and shook her head
Her: owkay since I always do you favours, just do this one favour
for me
Me: you making me pay now
Her: no I just need a few veggies and you know going to the mall
all alone sucks
I looked at her
Me: I can't go out,worst the mall
Her: then I won't be doing you any favours
I sulked but she just excused herself
Me: owkay just this once
Her: I will be waiting
I got up and took a bath, I wore my addidas tracksuit, kicks and a
cap. I made sure i dont expose this dirty body of mine. I wish I
had some mask to cover up my face. By the way I walked
downstairs and found my dad with sis' Beauty, he gave her the
card and we got out. I didn't even look at him, I just passed them
and waited for Sis'Beauty .
Me: I hate him
Her: she is you father, you cant hate him
Me: well i do
The driver started the car and within minutes we were at the mall.
At first i couldn't get out of the car but a persistent Beauty did not
give in
Me: I can't
I said as tears formed In my eyes
Her: you can do this Lelo, you are a strong woman
Me: 😭
Her: please baby
I wiped my tears and sighed
Me: let go so that we can leave this place
We went to pick n pay, bought a few veggies.
Her: you don't want anything
Me: nah I don't
Her: we can go then
We were going past Spurs when the smell of their fresh delicious
ribs caught me. My stomach misbehaved the very same moment.
Me: can we...
I said pointing my head
Her: you something else
Me: please don't blame me blame their ribs
She just chuckled and looked at me weird
Me: is everything alright
She coughed
Her: we will talk at home
Me:owkay
We got in at Spurs and looked for an empty table which we
happened to find at the corner.

Musa

I was at the mall, I needed to feed myself cause i 've been driving
the whole last 3 hours with no breaks. I found MacDonald's fully
packed so I went to Spurs. On my way I kept thinking about how
I'm going to see Lelo, I know it won't be easy and I was wondering
if Her dad has shown her the video. I marched in Spurs busy on
my phone. I looked for a table since it wasn't realy that full, I
found one next to the corner, I went there and sat down still
looking at my phone up until I heard a familier voice.
" I'm so starving right now and they are taking so long"
I turned so fast and saw her with a young woman. If you didn't
know her you would never have seen her. It looks like she was
hiding herself, even the cap hid her face but not her beautiful sexy
lips. I found myself staring at her not knowing what to do, for
some time I gues she felt a little uncomfortable and looked at my
side. She shifted her cap a little upwards and looked at me with
her already teary eyes. We were both lost in our eyes, she
seemed so broken and lost, her eyes contained so much pain,
she got up and ran while I followed her running too. I caught her
at the parking lot, she was trembling, tears filled her face.
Me: Mma Brown
She looked at me and shook her head
Me: please don't run away from me
Her: how....I mean did you plan all of this
I looked at her confused
Me: what do you mean
Her: how did you know I will be here
Me: I didn't, I
Her: stop I have to go..
I couldnt let her leave, not now
Me: Lelo please can we talk
Her: I can't, I dont want to talk
Me: I'm not letting you go untill we talk
Her: not against my will Musa
Me: I'm sorry, I just, we need to talk
Her: you not hearing me Musa, I don't want to talk to you
I tell you that hurts but I wasn't backing out now
Me: I know , I know everything Lelo
She looked at me and started shaking her head slowly
Her: no you don't
me: I do, and I still love you babe , I love you so much
She was now crying
Her: you don't know what you are talking about
Me: I do, and I swear he is going to pay my heart, but please
don't let him break what we've built, please don't
Her: Musa stop, you don't get it
Me: we drawing attention, can we please go somewhere secure
The lady She was with came running
Lady: Lelo I was so worried, babe are you fine
She nodded and looked at me
Lady: who is he?
Her: mmhm that's Musa
Lady: oh let us go
Me: I don't mean any harm ma, can I please borrow her for a few
minutes
She looked at me and looked at Lelo For approval.
Her: it's fine sis Beauty
Lady: you will find me here, I don't want your father to kill me
Her: alright,
Me: thank you
She nodded and we went to my car.
Her: it's for a few minutes
Me: yeah
God knows I needed more than a few minutes, so I just got in and
went off to my house.
Her: what are we doing here
Me: it secure, we need that much space
Her: mmhm
Me: you look different in a few days
Her: that what rape does to one
I looked at her and she wasn't kidding
Me: Lelo
Her: don't please, I've heard so many sorries the past few days
Me: you shouldn't have left me that way
We were now sitted inthe living room
Her: it was for the best Musa
Me: for who??
Her: both of us, how much more pain do we have to feel, I can't
lose you to death Musa cause i know if we continue this
relationship my dad or Tee will kill you, and I can't...
Me: isn't that for me to decide
Her: I've already felt so much pain, I hate myself Musa, I hate this
body, this life
Me: but you love me??
Her: so much its hurts
I looked at her and she looked away
Me: I love you too, I don't care what he did to you but I love you? I
will love your body for you until you learn to love it again.
Her: I don't think I will
Me: you letting that asshole ruin your life, you giving him power
over you
Her: he already ruined me Musa
Me: I thought you belives in God, no one has the power to bring
you down, not when he is by our side
Her: but God is the reason I got raped, I was going to church
Musa
She was now crying
Me: those who believe are daily tempted by the evil, some have
faced so much my heart and still they stood still, their faith not
shaken.
She smiled at me
Her: I love you
Me: I know
Her: I'm so sorry
Me: I'm so sorry too
Her: you didn't do anything
Me: actualy I did.....
Just then Her phone rang, it was sis' Beauty
Her: Sis Beauty
SisB:
Her: dad!!!..we on our way...
Shit when I was just about to tell her about Neo.
Insert 41

Lelo

Me: it's Sis Beauty...we have to head back

Him: but we still talking
Me: we will talk..
We both got up heading outside. He looked nervous but I shook it
off. We got in the car and he drove back to the mall.
Him: I'm sorry
Me: I don't understand
him: it's wasn't my fault, no actually it was my fault cause i could
have prevented it.
tears streamed down his face,I started getting nervous too.
Me: what are you talking about
Him: whatever your das tells and shows you just know that I'm so
sorry, I love you and I don't wanna lose you, and I'm not losing
you over this, I'm not.
Me: Musa what is it
Him: please just know you are my heart, without you im dead, I'm
nothing.
Sis Beauty kept on calling non stop so he dropped me off at the
parking lot.
Him: I love you
He looked so much hurt
Me:I love you more
Him: dont leave me, please
Me: not ever
Him: It won't be easy
Me: this time around im keeping my promises
Him: it's gonna hurt
Me: we will make it
We kissed with him not wanting to let go
Me: I have to go
Him: just promise me onething
Me: owkay
Him: that whatever comes our way you won't get cold feet ever
again, that we will stand together no matter what
Me: I promise you
I got out and he went to Spurs since he was hungry. Our driver
took us back home.we got in and found both my parents waiting
for us. Das looked rather scary than mad.
Him: so you were going out because of that boy
Me: you stalking me now
Him: I'm just protecting my daughter from being hurt
I chuckled
Me: if only you could protect me from yourself since you are the
one hurting me
Him: come i want to show you something
Sis Beauty has already left so It was me and my folks.
Mom: Brown don't do this
Him:what, I want to show her what that good for nothing boy of
hers is upto when he is out clubbing
Me: mom what is he talking about
Mom looked at me with teary eyes.
Her: it alright baby
Me: no it is not
Her: don't get mad love
Just then our tv displayed Musa and that bitch getting it all down. I
felt my body shutting me down, tears just streamed out, his
groans showed how much He was enjoying that bitch, but then
something seemed off, Musa like taking control when we making
love, but here he was just laying while Neo did everything. I
looked at my dad with so much hate, he did this with his mistress,
I continued watching as the bitch made those irritating sounds
busy kissing what's mine by force. Then it occured to me, that
bitch drugged my man. I wiped my tears slowly and asked to
excuse myself
But daddy dearest chose to provoke me
Him: I hope you now know that Trevor is the right man for you
I chuckled
Me: like you are the right man for mom??
He wasn't expecting that was he??
Him: don't bring your mom into this
Me : you mean I shouldn't bring up your affair with that skank you
paid to drug Musa and sleep with him by force?? You know I
wonder how you sleep at night, how you wake up everyday
knowing how cruel you are.
He was getting mad now but my mom was cool like a fridge.
Her: Lelo go to your room
Me: no mom he has to know, I was raped by the very same man
he want me to marry, the very same man who impregnated my
best friend , do you know how that feels and worst of it all I'm
supposed to be the so called" first wife" since Nina is concerned
all of this im experiencing at the age of 19.
Him: If only you have listened Trevor wouldn't have opened
someone else's legs, It all your fault.
I chuckled in disbelief
Me: you've got the guts but then what more would I expect from
someone who sleeps with students same age as his daughter's,
you and Trevor are the same that why you love each other...
I felt a hot slap from him and I just stood strong, I didn't cry though
my whole body wanted me to scream my lungs out.
Me: go on beat me, from being a bad father and a cheater to an
abuser
Mom: you two just stop it
Me: I'm going to my room
I left with mom following me
Me: not now please
Her: I'm so sorry baby
Me: he is cheating on you
Her: I know that love
Me: he is a monster, i hate him, he paid her ma I know Musa
wouldn't do that well not with her for that matter.
She smiled at me with tears falling on her face.
Her: you trust him?
Me: with my life, I know him mom
Her: you love him I can see
Me: very much, I'm not gonna leave him ever again
Her: he knows about the rape??
Me: yeah, and he still wants this filthy me, if it was somebody else
they would have left but he loves me mom I can see it
Her: you so young for all of this drama my baby
Me: and it keeps on adding itself , I just don't know anymore
Her:you so strong my love
Me: I'm not, I just dont have a choice
Her: I know how you feeling baby
Me: no you don't, you've never been raped , only cheated on
She chuckled
Her: i know you won't believe it but i was once raped, it funny I
don't remember the guys face but he did leave a scar in my life,
but baby i got through it with your dad ofcause, by that time he
wasn't this cold man he had turned to be now, he was caring but
his family was dangerous.
I saw how hurted she was,I didn't know
Me: what heppened
Her: it all started with the Ngema brothers, your father's family
forced him to prove himself that he was indeed a Brown man, he
had to steal from the Ngema family...
She sighed deeply
Her: he says he didn't have any choice, he wouldn't allow his
family to call him with words, he stole diamonds worth more that
2million..
I gasped,
Me: and where does that include you
Her: some how the Ngema family realised who stole from them,
so they went after him, those people are clever.
Me: I don't understand
Her: one of the brothers I had dated back in high school asked me
for lunch, I didn't want to overreact so I agreed only to find out I
was being kidnapped
Me: so one of musa' s family member abused you??
I wasn't ready for this
Her: nop, but one of their security guards did...and when they
found me laying there helpless they let me go, they were mad too
and I'm certain that they killed that guard, all they wanted was
their diamonds, not to harm me.
Me: this is too much
Her: and it all goes away in time, although it will always haunt you
but learn to live with it
Me: I'm so sorry mom
Her: no I'm so sorry my child
Me: so is this the reason why our families don't get along?
She smiled
Her: actualy It one of the reasons, from that day a lot heppened,
family members were killed, both families attacked each other..
Then I remembered the death of Musa's family
Me: just like it happened now
Her: it not your fault
Me: no it is
Her: it was bound to happen
me: he is now an orphan and I nearly left him and gave my dad
the satisfication
Her: don't give up on him
I looked at her
Her: he only have you, without you now he is nothing
Me: and why are you still with dad and his cheating ass??
Her: he is my husband not a boyfriend
Me: but he is...
Her: you still young you won't understand

Narrated

Mrs Ngema was chilling by the beach when someone closed her
eyes and whispered in her ears .
Voice: beautiful lady all alone
She couldn't be2live it at all, she tried to limit her excitement but
couldn't, she felt like a typical inlove school girl all of a sudden.
Her: you better have a very convincing excuse for leaving me all
alone all this weeks ugly man
She turned to be met by his husband's soft lips, for some time
they looked at each other with no blinks.
Her: you did took your time, did they hit you that bad
He chuckled
Me: no I was taking a break from my ugly family
Her: you wish darling, you the ugly pig In our family
Him: ouch that's hurt
Her: I missed you so much bunny
Him: pet names at this age,now I'm so sure you missed Ngema
more
She blushed and didnt every try to hide it.
Her: you've got no idea
He lifted her in a bridal style and they went off to some hotel.

At the Brown's household

Him: that child of yours is disrespectful, how dare she talk to me

like that, her own father.
Brown was shouting with his wife looking at her.
Her: you so unbelievable Brown yazi
He chuckled
Him: don't try me, not now
Her: so one of your mistresses is a student??how many students
are you screwing ye??
He looked at her with so much anger, it like he wanted to strangle
her to death
Him: I don't have time for this
He took his keys and left.

" it's is starting, Betrayal, hatred, blood spilling and death. It's
happening, so much is still yet to happen, they are already turning
against each other, hatred is ruling their hearts". She woke up
feeling overwhelmed
Her: this is realy happening
She got up and went to her hut . She threw her bones and they
were organised in this way " betrayal, hatred ,blood spilling and
death "
Her: they can't die, they are still young.

Insert 42

Lelo

Voice: " don't give up on him, not again"

Me: who are you?
Him: can't you hear who am I ?
Me: I don't, you sound so young
Him: I know right
He loughed, his Lough was one I could listen to through out my
sleep
Me: please tell me
Him: I can't, you have to know I mean you have to feel it
Me: I don't understand
Him: you won't since you are so angry with God
Me: I'm not
Him: you are
Me: I'm not
I was feeling irritated
Him: you don't have to shout
Me: okay im so sorry, please show yourself
Him: I can't
me: why
Him: because you were never supposed to see me
Me: you speaking in riddles
Him: he loves you so much
Me: who??
Him: my father, look I have to go, I love you too mom...
I woke up frightened, what was the dream all about,who was I
talking too. I was even afraid to go back to sleep. I looked at the
time and it was 4am. I decided on calling my heart since we
haven't spoke.

Musa

Him: "tell her the truth

Me: what are you talking about
Him:just tell her what might make her go crazy on you
Me: wait, who are you
He loughed so softly
Him: I'm no one
Me: then what do you want from me
Him: nothing
Me: leave me alone then
Him: I can't
me: why not
Him: I just can't..

Just then my phone rang, I realise I was dreaming when I opened

my eyes and I was in my room alone. " what a dream" I said as I
looked for my phone. It was Lelo, oh God is she fine
Me: my heart
Her: I'm sorry I woke you up
Me: nah it fine actualy you've just saved me from a very weird
dream
She chuckled
Her: thought I was the only one having those
Me: you mean
Her: yep, I can't go back to sleep
We went silent for a while
Her: I saw the video
Me: I'm so sorry
Her: I still love you
Me: you not leaving me??
I had gotten out of bed already pacing up and down
Her: hell no although I'm still very much angry at you for enjoying
that bitch's p*** Nigga you were even singing hallelujah with her
busy riding you like a crazy woman.
I didn't know what to say
Me: uhmmm babe. ...
She loughed so hard
Her: you realy don't remember what heppened?
Me: I seriously don't, I don't know when and how I ended up with
her
Her: shame poor love, we were both raped at the same day
She loughed
me: you loughing Lelo
Her: I've cried enough baby
Me: I'm so sorry
Her; I know you love me
Me: and I know you love me too
Her: and you wouldn't hurt Me
Me: my mom will kill me
Oops I forgot
Her: but she is already...
Me: mmhm my heart tell me about your dream
Her: I'm sorry I know you don't want to talk about your parents
Me: yeah
Her: we will talk about my dream when I see you
Me: in a few hours right
Her: yes baby
Me: you not afraid of coming out
Her: you will be fetching me and riding me back home,I'm not
going out
I sighed
Me: for how long will you hide yourself
Her: till I accept and get better
Me: okay I understand
Her: you have to, you were raped too
I chuckled
Me: I love you so much
Her: I love you I can't explain
Me: we will talk then
Her: definately

Nina

I was with my mom and Trevor at the hospital. I had already

delivered a beautiful baby girl. She was just so perfect and looked
exactly like Trevor.
Him: welcome to the world little Pretorias
He smiled as he held her comfortable. .
Me: she is so beautiful
Her: I will have to carry my gun every fucken day here
I chuckled
Mom: she is so pretty, makes me remember the day you were
born, you were so tiny and beautiful, just like her
Me: I love her mom, she is my all
Her: I know baby, that's a feeling of being a parent
Trev: I'm gonna protect you baby girl
Me: I'm tired I need to lie down
Mom: you need to eat first
Me: no thank you, hospital food is the worst
Her: you need to breastfeed your baby
Trev: you have to eat Nina, you cant starve my child
I rolled my eyes
Me: get me something from steers then
Him: I will be right back
He gave me back little Amo, yes we named her Amogelang
Princess Nicole Pretorias...the English names came from Trevor.
Mom: he loves her
Me: yeah, I wish he loved me too
Her: he will baby don't worry
Me: I dont see it happening ma, his family hasn't called even once
Her: they will love, just be patient
Me: maybe I should just let this all go, leave Trevor alone
Her: you can't Nina, that boy has to marry you, your father won't
allow it
Me: I can't marry someone who doesn't love me, not even care
about me
Her: don't do this to yourself
me: no ma, now that I'm not pregnant I think I can think clearly
without blaming it all to hormones
She sighed
Her: but you love that boy and your future with him is secured
Me: but there will be no happiness ma, he won't be happy and he
won't be able to make me happy
Her: how do you know all that
Me: I just know, I don't want to be misrable all my life ma
Her: it is your choice to make my child

Narrated

Both Mrs and Mr Ngema were on their way to South Africa while
their older son was in America.
Her: I can't wait to see my baby
She was referring to Musa
Him: you making that boy a toddler, he is now a man sthandwa
sami
Her: he will always be my baby Ngema
Him: I hope he is fine
Her: I know he is, now how are we going to show ourselves to the
world again
Him: still organising that, I'm thinking of making a statement to the
public and explain why we had to fake our deaths
Her: that could work
Him: yeah, still organising a few press conferences since our
businesses are concerned
Her: can't wait to see that smirk on Brown's ugly white face
he chuckled
Him: someone has achieved a certificate in beauty courses
Her: he is ugly nje
She loughed
Him: I know baby, I'm even ugly too lakuwe
Her: you know love, I don't have to tell you
She smiled at her husband, they both smiled at each other
Her: I dont know what I would have done If I did lose you
Him: I'm a die hard sweety
Her: my hard core
Him: your very own
Her: I love you so much
Him: and i know you've awakened the lioness
She exhaled hard
Her: I didn't..I.
Him: it owkay,whatever plans you've planned you have to share
when we arrive
She sighed
Her: I will do
Him: just know I hate that side of you
Her: I didn't realy awaken the wicked heartless lioness
he chuckled
him: there's no way
Her: I couldn't hurt Lelo, our son loves her so much and already
she has been hurt enough
Him: now I can say I love you so much
She blushed and kissed him.

Mr Brown's Household
Him: we have to do something, that boy have bewitched my
daughter
Her: nothing can be done, Trevor has to marry Lelo, unless this
situations worsens.
Mr Brown was speaking on the phone with the same person who
married off Tee and Lelo.
Him: I don't know what to do anymore
Her: the bones don't lie Brown, you've already betrayed both your
wife and daughter and Trevor too betrayed Lelo with her
bestfriend, your daughter hate you both and your wife hate your
guts it only a matter of time that you start spilling blood and to that
death will follow.
Mr Brown's exhaled so hard.
Him: I will have to make another plan
Her: just know that your daughter needs to get married to Trevor
by the end of tjis year
Him: I see
He dropped the call and sat down thinking very hard. His
daughter is one hot headed lady, just like him. It is already the
October, how is he going to do this. Just then he got an idea. He
smiled calling Trevor
Him: son in law
Trev: you sound happy
Him: you are getting married tomorrow
Trevor was shocked
Trev: how I mean, did she agree??
Him: no but we will make her agree
Trev: I dont understand
Him: all we need to do is to drag her to home affairs, sign those
damn papers and we done, the whole wedding thing will follow.

Insert 43

Lelo

I was passing by my dad's study when I heard him talking through

the phone. I thought I heard wrong but my stupid cruel father was
realy plotting the unbelievable.i wasnt suprised on what he was
planning I was just suprised he took his time for that. I rushed to
my room quickly but tip toed though. I took my phone and sighed
deeply calling my heart.
Him: Mma Brown
A smile displayed on my face
Me: Musawami
Him: how I've been longing to hear those words
I giggled
Him: and those amusing giggles
Me: stop it babe
Him:mmhm and that soft voice
Me: babe we have to talk
Him:sound serious
Me: I might be getting married tommorow
I heard him breath heavy
Him: tell me you kidding
Me: I'm not, I don't know what my dad gonna do to me but he is
planning on marrying me off tomorrow
Him: I'm fetching you now
Me: babe but. ..
Him: no buts love
Me: okay come
Him: now Lelo, pack your bags
Me: haw babe
Him: 10 minutes love
Me: how am I going to get out of here Musa, dad won't allow me
Him: make a plan, I'm tired of all of this
I sighed
Me: what do you mean
Him: what if we get married first, I mean go to court
Me: huh? ?
I was still taken by his decision
Him: we want to be together baby right?? I mean if we married
then they won't be able marry you off without us divorcing which
will never happen
Me: I don't know Musa
Him: Okay then what do you suggest
Me: I love you I know but marriage, one that doesn't have any
blessings?
Him: it was just a suggesting babe
Me: I understand love, for now come And fetch me
Him: I'm on my way.
I took my bag and packed a few of my clothes. We had 5 days left
before school reopens so i was gonna spend the rest of the days
with Musa. I just hoped my dad will never do anything stupid. I
sent a message to my mom and tip toed going out. Luckily our
security wasn't that tight so I just went out with no disturbance.
Musa was two houses away from my house. I rushed and hugged
him for life.
Him: my life
I smiled widely
Me: sthandwa sami
Him: you are beautiful and a little bit chubby
I loughed
Me: you calling me fat Mr
Him: I'm not
Me: you did silly
Him: but you realy are gaining weight
Me: can We go now??
I gave him an eye but the nigga loughed
We got in and he drove straight to his house.
Following day

Miss

I was woken up my non stop ringing phone.I answered without

looking at the screen, i mean I was still sleepy and it was 5am.
Me: xo
Voice: you better wake up now and stop talking like a drunk
person or maybe you are drunk
I chuckled
Me: drunk inlove yes I am
I quickly got out of bed cause i realised the beholder of the voice
Him: my son
Me: father, you are realy alive
I was beyond happy
Him: I'm the lion son
I chuckled
Me: I'm glad you are fine
Him: I know, now get out of that house quickly you will find a car
waiting for you
Me: what heppening
Him: you took someone's else's daughter yesterday remember
I sighed
Me: eix dad I...
Him: I know, wake her up and take all your belongings you will
meet us where the car will make a stop.
Me: dad it still earl. ..
Him: now Musa
He dropped the call. I walked back to my room and looked at my
beautiful sleepy woman. She realy looked innocent, I smiled
looking at her then came back to earth after hearing my phone
ringing again
Me: father
him: I said now Musa do you want to die
Me: I'm sorry we coming
I dropped the call and slowly woke her up. She opens her
beautiful eyes slowly and smiled when his eyes landed on my
face.
Her: handsome
Me: morning sleepy head
Her: why are you awake
Me: we've got to go now
Her: mmhm..what do you mean
Me: uhm wake up please we will talk on the way.
Her: owkay
I kissed her and she woke up. We took our belongings and
marched downstairs. I was about to unlock the kitchen's door
when I heard gun shots outside.
Her: did you hear that?.
Me: yeah babe I need you to stay put
She was trembling already. I touched her chicks and made her
look at me.
Me: be calm please, I know you scared I'm scared too babe but
we've got to be strong right, be a team.
She nodded
Me: now I need you to stay here and please don't panick

I took my gun and she looked at me shocked

Me: I will explain later
She nodded. I went out using our back door. There were 7 men I
could spot from where I was standing. I started aiming at all of
them not even missing. I realy was good at this shooting thing, I
made my way to the front and finished the 4 that was about to get
in. I looked around and noticed that our driver was killed too. I
went back inside and found my heart hiding shaking at the corner.
She looked scared even scared of me.
Me: Mma Brown
She looked at me with her red eyes and an already swollen face.
She was crying. I went to her slowly after placing my gun on the
table next to me. Her eyes shifted to the gun and back at me. I
sighed as I looked at her scared self.
Me: I won't hurt you baby
I said as I tried touching her but she flinched
Me: my heart please
Her: please don't, don't touch me please
Tears just streamed out of her already swollen eyes. I didn't know
why to say or do. So I just say right next to her holding my head
down. We sat there for about 30 minutes and after some time I
heard her sobbing.
Me: Mma Brown
She looked up to me and threw herself on my chest. I held her
tight as she let it all out holding me very tight too. We cried
together and after a while we looked at each other, our eyes
potraying so much love and pain.
Her: why are you crying
I shook my head not knowing way to say cause me too I didn't
know why I was crying
Her: you such a cry baby
I chuckled and still amazed cause she was acting as if everything
was alright
Me: it a your fault
Her: im so hungry
Me: we have to go now
Her: I know
We got up, I took back my gun from the table and she just looked
at me. This Lelo wasn't normal at all. We went out leaving the
bodies there. We took my car and I sent my dad a message
telling him what heppened. Nigga decided to call me.
Me: my man
I couldn't say dad next to Lelo
him: go to Johhanesburg now
I chuckled
Me: you kidding right??
Him: am I loughing??
Me: I assume you ain't
him: now do all I say
Me: yes sir
I dropped the call and looked at my beautiful woman.
Her: who was that
Me: uhmm someone close to me
She looked down
Her: close to you??
Me: yeah, babe we going back to JHB
Her: but we still have 4 days more
Me: I know but your dad is out for my blood
She just nodded and played "Have you ever by Brandy". She
increased the volume and looked at me singing along
Her:""Have you ever loved somebody so much It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever?.

I knew by the sound of her soft voice That she was crying inside. I
decided on ringing along too.
Me:""Have you ever been in love been in love so bad you'd do
anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away you'd give
anything to make them feel the same,Have you ever searched for
words to get you in their heart but you don't know what to say and
you don't know where to start
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry""

Narrated

He was pacing up and down in his living room. He looked rather

scary than mad. His looks could kill a person. Her wife walked in
all smiles after a very beautiful morning with Mr Samson. She had
her breakfast with him and it was much more wonderful than she
had anticipated
She stopped after catching her husband's sight
Him: where have you been.
She forced a smile
Her: out
He chuckled
Him: out I see...
He said biting his lower voice
Him: you are now hoeing around like your daughter
She looked at him and chuckled
Her: we not all like you Brown so please give me a break
He walked closer to her and held her hand so tight making sure
he squeezes it painfully so, she found herself begging for him to
stop but he did the unthinkable and squeezed her throut. She was
unable to breath for seconds after that he kicked her so hard
giving her black eyes with his manly punches. She screamed but
not high enough for someone to hear her. After some time he
stopped after a little bit glimpse of blood appeared on the floor. He
hissed and kicked her showing her that she must get up from the
floor, she whimpered with her body all painful.
Him: you not allowed to get out of here any more, and I'm telling
you im gonna kill that boyfriend of yours.
He shouted. He went back to the his study still waiting for a phone
call from his men. He called Tee.
Him: what heppening
Tee: all of them are dead
He was now more angry than before
Him:dammit
She shouted
Him: I need to think
Tee: same here but I know where they are heading
Him: talk already
Tee: JHB, We will talk.
Insert 44

Trevor

I'm getting impatient with all this Lelo saga. I was home with my
dad.
Me: I don't know what to do anymore dad
He sighed
Him: I know son, but we will find a way
Me: I just hope she is pregnant
We I did tell my father about my plans and he approved.
Him: I hope so too, and I think it time we step up inthe game too
Me: I don't know how that boy get to be one step ahead from us, I
mean we killed his family
Him: I fail to understand too and from what I've heard he doesn't
have any relatives of close family members too so I don't know
who is helping him
Me: this doesn't seem good at all dad
Him; we need to act soon son cause i see Brown is failing
I nodded
Me: ummh dad you haven't asked about my baby
Him: oh that..
I looked at him
Me: that?? Seriously dad??that??
Him: I meant your child
Me: you so unbelievable father that is your first gran child
He chuckled
Him: I will only have grand children's from Inno my son not any
other woman.
I thought he was kidding but no nigga was serious
Me: please say you joking
Him: I'm not
He Kept a serious face. My whole family haven't seen or called or
asked anything about Amo, i failed to understand why cause
everyone pretended as if she wasn't alive or born.
Me: why are you guys doing this??
Him: doing what??
Me: please dad don't make me a fool, non of you guys has asked
about Amo, my daughter
He smiled
Him: because we can't accept her my child
Me:what do you mean you can't accept her??
Him: I mean just that
He then left me standing at the patio. I went to my gran mom's
room and knocked. She let me in
Her: my son
I smiled, her voice is always calm and she is the only one who
gets me
me: I'm lost
Her: find the way then
Me: I have a daughter, I named her after you" Nicole"
She smiled but you could see that it was all fake. I frowned
Me: not you too grandma
Her: I'm so sorry my son
I sighed
Me: why?
I said in a low yet husky voice
Her: I can't tell you that
Me: she is part of me
Her: and not part of Innocentia
Me: this is not about her gran but me and my daughter, she is so
beautiful gran, so perfect just like me
Her: I'm so sorry child but...
Me: no buts gran , she is my life now and you guys have to accept
her
She exhaled hard
Her: I need to lye down a bit we will talk
I nodded and walked out stepping into some one. It was dad
Him: it won't work
Me: huh??
Him: grandma knows what and what not to accept or who and
who not to accept
Me: I'm going...
Narrated

At the Pretorias family

Her: you all can yell and say all you want by this have to happen,
and it's starting now although you can't see it
It was the same Sangoma lady, she had came late at the
Pretorias residence with the aim of letting them know the
circumstances or effects of Trevors daughter from another
woman.
Her: I'm sick and tired of you families, you cant keep your shit
together
She realy looked mad and irritated
MrP: this is a critical stage and you are telling and asking us to do
the impossible
She loughed do hard
Her: because now it's on your side you can't do it but when the
Brown's faced the same problem you supported it.
He sighed, he noticed how Trevor loves her daughter by the way
he talked about her and now this was just taking another turn,
one that they were not ready for
Her: we just need her mind that's what the ancestors wants..
She said looking at Trevors granmother who was sorted quietly at
the corner.
MrsP: so you saying out grandaughter won't have a mind, I mean
she will go crazy??
She smiled
Her: not realy crazy, but she won't be able to think for herself, she
is not welcomed in this family and you shouldnt say gran child for
that matter
MrP: and when are we supposed to do this?
Her: I will call you, just be ready cause i still need to prepre the
herbs you will need to comete the ritual
Mrp:we will have a ritual??
Her: like always and I'm telling you your bank balances will
double
MrsP smiled with his husband maintaining a straight face.

Mrs Ngema was having lunch with her husband

Her: do you think he must tell her now, I mean she is still going
through a lot and hasn't dealt with it although she seemes to be
so strong.
Him: I don't know but the sooner the better cause people will
recognise us
She sighed
Her: this is too much Ngema, she is just a child, both of them are
Him: they chose to fight for their love baby, we can't do anything
She smiled looking at her husband
Me: I gues love conquers everything then
Him: it always does baby, but only if you stand together
Me: yeah, so I've heard that our Mr Brown had turned into being a
woman beater
Him: i thought he loved his wife
Her: I wonder what changed
Him; same here, now we've got to prepare for was cause im sure
they still wondering who is with Musa
Her:I want Brown to suffer babe
Him: we cant ignore that she is her father
Her: she is cruel though
Him: let's just not go the other way around around, we cannot kill
Brown or his wife for that matter
Her: if I wanted him dead he will be sweetheart
She said biting her lower lip sexy and Mr Ngema chuckled
Him: we need to give Lelo some fighting lessons
Her: now you talking
Him: that's out first step

Lelo

We arrived at JHB at Musa's flat.I was so hungry in a way that

my stomach was talking in tounges
Me: Musa...
He looked at me as if he was browsing my body.and I found
myself wanting him inside me.
Him: you were saying??
I was still looking at his handsomeness and the broadness of his
shoulders as If he played rugby, his huge hands that made me
feel safe, feel at home and those pink like lips that tested like
honey. I found myself biting my lower lip in the most sexiest way, I
was lost in my own world.
Him: Mbulelo ??
He shook me and brang me back to earth. He had that huge grin
on his face, the dirtiest one and I found myself touching my own
breast slowly, wait what was I doing?? Why was I feeling like
this?? He spoke once again
Him: you want me that much ?
I nodded unable to say the words, but I was hungry too but the
good won't go away
Him: are you sure I mean you've ..we've been .
Me: please
I said in the most lowest pleading tone ever and he smiled at me
Him: I can't Lelo, not after what we experienced back home
I felt like I was being stabbed right through my heart. Suddenly
tears fell down voluntary, I couldn't hold myself, Musa hated my
body too, I mean I was raped and now He can't make love to me.
Him: Lelo don't not now Mma Brown please ..
It was like he was pouring the oil more to the fire cause i cried out
loud. He came to me and touched my chicks making me to look at
him.
Him: why are you crying babe
I sniffed so hard
Me: you don't want to make love to me no more, you don't find me
attractive?? Do i disgust you Musa??
He breathed out loud
Him: I love you so much to hurt you and to know that you are
hurting, you not ready to have sex and you know it
Me: but I...
Him: don't do this to yourself Babe
Me: just make love to me
I looked deeply in his eyes, I wanted this, I have to do this and
maybe this nightmares and fears of what heppened might go
away. Maybe i will stop seeing him enjoying himself while I was
asking him to stop, maybe I will stop hearing his gross groans that
haunts me every fucken day.
I kissed him slowing making my way to his manhood, I could feel
my hands shaking but I told myself I can do this. We kissed while
busy taking our clothes off. He picked up in bridal style and went
to his bedroom. From there the business began, our kiss
deepened and our bodies danced to the tunes of true love. He
caressed my body inthe most amazing way, I couldn't look at it
but what I was feeling was beyond. He took me straight to muff
land and I found myself in my own safe haven, a place where ply
two hearts beats mattered, mine and his. After some time I came,
he went back to my mouth and kissed the hell out of me making
me taste myself. The moment he tried getting it in my apple those
flashes I tried by all means to ignore came back. His wicked smile
I could see when he forced himself inside me. Musa tried once
again and when his thing got in he started thrusting in me slowly.
His groans filling my head as well as his groans,they both played
in my head and I felt a part of me going crazy. Tears just
streamed out of my eyes as I slept there emotionless. He stopped
the moment he saw my state. Worry and guilt filled his face.

Insert 45

Musa

When I saw her tears I just couldn't take it, it broke me even more
that I agreed to making love to her while I knew that she was not
ready. I failed to say anything to her with her looking at me
emotionless. I don't know her pain but i can feel it, becase it's
hurts me even more to see her in this state. I immediately got off
her and slept next to her holding her tight.
Me: we gonna get through this babe
I heard her sobbing then minutes later She was fast asleep. I
slowly got out of bed and went to the kitchen. I ordered pizza first
since she said she was hungry, then i called mom.
Her: you guys are fine??
I sighed deeply
Me: physically yeah mom
Her: whats wrong Musawakhe
She sounded so worried
Me: I messed up ma
Her: what did you do to the poor kid now?
She shouted
Me: hay ma no shouting please
Her: khuluma mtana (speak child)
Me: well we tried making ummmh...
Her: Musa
She warned
Me: ma we tried making love but she then became emotional.....
She chuckled in disbelief
Her: you know she had been raped a few days ago right??
Me: yeah
Her: then you would know she still have a long way to recovery,
she is traumatised mani Wakhe.
I sighed
Me: I know mama and the gun shots today made it worse, she's
afraid of me I can tell
Her: she is not baby that girl loves you and seeing you shooting
people today shocked her
Me: I hope she is just hurt cause i can't lose her mom
Her: you wont lose her son just hold on to her and ask her to look
at some options like therapy cause she does need some
counselling
Me; Lelo is hot headed mama she doesn't want therapy, she said
she hates herself, her body ma....
Her: it understandable son, speaking about rape ain't easy
expecialy when you are this young...
just then I heard someone knocking at the door
Me: ma I have to go talk later
Her: okay son I love you
Me; I love you too honey
Voice: " I love you too honey"??
I turned , she looked at me with her already red teary eyes, she
cries a lot this days.
Me: love you are awake
I had to change the topic
Her: oh please dont try me Musa
She gave me one look I've never seen before. I firstly went to the
door, it was the pizza guy, I paid him then he left.
Me: come lets feed you
Her: Musa
She warned
Me: please then after that we can talk
Her: I'm not hungry
I sighed
Me: Lelo I'd hate to repeat myself, come and eat.
I was firm and down, she tried rolling her eyes at me but I have.
her that" dont fuck with me" look. I saw her coming slowly taking
her time. She was on my shirts only. And one stare at her,
Ngema reacted so I tried to behave and calm myself since I knew
the situation. We ate in silence and after that she curled herself at
the single couch and looked at me.
Her: what heppening Musa
She said with her tiny yet sweet angelic voice
Me: I, well...uhmm
Her: Musa
Me: babe my parents were never dead. ..
I said it loud and quickly, she firstly looked at me with no emotion
look and then after some seconds blinked twice looking at me
again
Her: you kidding right??
Me: nop, I did think dad was dead but turns out he survived and
mom along with my older. brother were out of the country that day
Her: so you lied to me??
Me: I had to babe , your father wanted my parents dead and they
made me promise that i only should know that they were alive
Her: I'm...I need a bath
Me: I'm so sorry Lelo
Her: I heard you Musa, you thought that I will tell my father that
your parents are still alive??
Me: no babe I..
Me: no wait, you didn't trust me enough to hide the truth about
your parents, do you think it made me happy that your parents
were dead when I had both mine and daddy was the reason
behind your parents death?
Me: I know how you felt but
Her: you don't know how i felt Musa, you didn't trust me with the
truth
Me: I'm so sorry I know I messed up
Her: was it her on the phone??
Me: yeah it was mom
Her: I see
She got up and went to the bathroom.

Lelo

I went to the bathroom feeling devastated. I felt like I was carrying

a heavy load on my shoulders. My life meant nothing no more,
I've been deceived by people close to me. Instead of taking a
bath I took a shower. Minutes later I was out. I made my way to
the bedroom, took one of Musa's shirts and boxers. I went to the
living room and found him drinking flying fish. I ignored him and
went to the kitchen, I felt like Ice cream but there was non in the
fridge, I wanted to cry I tell you. I stood by the fridge for minutes
already teary, my emotions were playing tricks on me. I realy
needed and ice cream and now. I felt Musa's breath behind me.
Him: want something?
I nodded
Him: ???
He raises his eyebrows
Me: ice cream Musa
Him: yenzeni I-icecream?
I gave him an eye with my already teary eyes, he raised his hands
for surrender
Him: I will be back then
Me: please be quick
him: is that all you want
Me: strawberries and muffins
I said biting my nails
Him: owkay
He went out and I decided to eat some snack while watching
game of thrones. My phone rang.it was an unknown number
Me: helow
caller: mmhm Lelo
I felt my heart breathing fire, how dare he call me
Me: what the fuck do you want
Him: I'm sorry I just needed to hear your voice
Me: my voice Tee, the one that begged you to stop hurting me
I was now breaking, fear kicked in, I dropped the call and called
Musa.
Him: My heart
Me: please come back
Him: I'm already outside babe
Just then I heard the door been unlocked. I rushed to him and he
held me tight .
Him: what heppened??
Me: please teach me how to shoot
He looked at me shocked
Her: Lelo
Me: I want to kill him Musa otherwise he won't stop terrorising me
Him: what heppened
Me: he called
Him: fuck that asshole
Me:I need a gun too
Him: you don't need a gun my heart
Me: I will get it Musa, even if not from you, I want that monster
dead
Him: trust me you don't mean that
Me: too bad I do, I want to kill him myself
I don't know where that anger came from but damn.
He sighed and gave me my goodies.I took the muffins only and
the rest I put away.

Narrated

A week later

Her: so it shall begin

Him: "forgive me my son" he whispered
Her: as said years back, " by their blood we bind them together,
their future is already determined, their lives already planned,
they are the keeper of their family's wealth"
She threw her bones one more time and started speaking in
unknown tounges. Both families were present. Only their children
were absent.
MrsB: this is all wrong
His husband gave her an eye and her body just froze. For the
past few days her life had been so hard, her husband beat the
hell out of her.
Her: " great ancestors we come before you, wealth shall be rain to
both families, her mind shall defrost what has been frozen"
She made the Pretorias family eat nd drink some herbs. It was 4
am inthe morning
Her: " Her mind shall do wonders in both families, everlasting
wealth is one of them.
She started speaking non stop and fast making weird dances.

While all along Amo had been crying non stop. Trevor and Nina
couldn't understand the reason behind since she just started
crying after she had been sleeping peacefully.
Nina: it been 20 minutes now Trev and she is still crying
Him: this is strange, Amo doesn't just cry well not like this
Her: let me call mom
Him: and say what? That our baby is crying, babies cry Nina mani
maybe she is in pain, give her a panado.
She did with Amo fighting her which made her to spill some of the
panado. Trevor suggested that they go to the hospital. Well they
did and arrived there within 20 minutes with a crying baby Amo.
Her voice was starting to fade away but she was still crying.
Her: " it all done, what left is the marriage between the binded or
else many souls will be lost"
Both families were relieved but concerned because of what she
said.
MrB: what do you mean?.
Her: all of this is just a punishment from the ancestors, your kids
should have been married by now but look they don't even get
along
MrsP: and whose fault is that?
She said looking at Brown and his wife
MrB: so you saying it our fault that Lelo chose love, pure love
rather than a marriage by ancestors
MrB: shut up woman
He said looking at his wife
MrsP: our son is prepared to marry your daughter but she is busy
opening legs for some boy.
Mrs Brown couldn't hold herself
MrsB: you seem to forget that your son's heppiness lies with my
daughter, he can't live without her that why he wants to marry her,
while my baby can live without him although she can never keep
babies from outside.
The two woman kept on shouting at each other untill the sangoma
last spoke.
Her: it's perfect, the ancestors accepted our sacrifice, the ritual
was a success
They all sighed

At the hospital baby Amo just went quiet , the nurse's were
suprised by such behaviour, she was laying there with here eyes
wondering all around the room.
Nurse: I think we need to keep her for the night, she has been
crying for more than an hour but her temperature is still normal
She said to her parents
Nina: she just stopped crying just like that?
Her: it's strange I know
Trev: atleast she is fine right
They nodded and the nurse went out leaving the family.
Nina: look at how she is behaving Trev our baby is not okay
Trev: stop Nina we at the hospital right, she will be fine
Poor Trevor was so scared, she loved her daughter with every
part of his body, atleast she gave him some heppiness,
something he can only find in Inno.

After the ritual they all went back to the Pretorias family to
celebrate the tripling of their wealth as they always do.
MrP: now what happens with my grand child as she grows up with
no mind
Her: she will just be a growing statue.
Insert 46

Musa

It been 4 days since school reopened, Lelo hasn't been attending

but I made it a point that she goes to therapy, I cannot be living
with a vulnerable Lelo,so my father insisted that I give her fighting
lessons. Well we've been doing that lately with me going to
school and briefing her when I come back and with her going to
therapy which took place in my flat since she doesn't want to get
out. I was with Trey at the cafeteria
Him: man I hevent seen Lelo around, where is she
I raised my eyebrows
me: nigga why would you want to see my lady at the first place
He chuckled
Him: just asking dawg
Me: she ain't around this week
Him: I see, so what do you say, we clubbing the whole weekend
Me: not this time around man, have a lot on my plate
Him: party pooper
Me: I don't care
Just then Neo and her bitches came to our table. She had gained
some weight and complexion which did not suit her.
Her: If it ain't my baby daddy then who shall it be, " Mr Hotty"
I swear I wanted to kill her that very same moment but Trey held
me.
Me: fuck off Neo now
I maintained a straight face
Her: our baby is growing and healthy
She said brushing her stomach
Me: I said fuck off before I do something you I will never regret
Her: it's not over Musa I will be back, oh and yeah where is virgin
Mary
Me: none of your business
She loughed
Me: why not ask her father because you two are like this, I
wouldn't wouldn't suprised if you were carrying a white baby dah
She went silent for a moment
Me: did I say something, or maybe hit a nerve??
Her: you don't know what you are saying
Me:fuck you carrying lil Brown??
Her: I'm carrying lil Ngema
She said forcing a smile
Me:keep telling yourself that
Her: I'm the mother I know
Me: the hoe is a mother, I fear for the baby
She left with her skank friends with me loughing
Trey: dawng what if it your child
That made me wonder
Me: it impossible man, she cannot be having all this symptoms
within two weeks of pregnancy
Him: women are different
He chuckled
Me: shut up Trey
We continued eating.

Nina

It been a week with my baby behaving weird, she doesn't play

and lough like before, it like she has turned into being a living
zombie. It pains me to see her like this. Today we were going to
consult with my mother to some Sangoma her friend told her
about.
Me: mama I'm scared, what if she can't help us
Her: she is a good sangoma baby, people recommend her.
I sighed
Me:I hope she helps us then
We went there, arriving at the place it looked old yet beautiful. We
took off our shoes following the voice calling us.
A woman came looking beautiful but you could notice that she
was old, older than my mother.
Mom: thokoza gogo
Her: you are welcomed
Her voice was deep yet controllable, she led us to her hut where
she threw her bones, she looked at us now and then then
coughed.
Her: so you are here about the baby
Mom: yes makhosi
Mom wasn't used to this traditional things, it was her first time.
Her: bring her to me
I gave her Amo who looked lost, shame my baby.
Her: she is so beautiful, just like her father
I was suprised when she said that cause she doesn't know
Trevor.
Me: how do you know her father
She coughed
Her: I see everything, just by holding her
I nodded
Me: can you help us
Her: yes you came to the right place
Mom: I told you she was good
Well we stayed there for about an hour with her doing her things
non stop. She gave us herbs to pour in her food and some to burn
before sleeping.
Her: all will be well
Me: thank you
Her: akubongwa ntombazane
Mom: we will be on our way
We left after paying her R5000, I just hoped my daughter will be
on her normal state again.

Narrated

After the Jacobs family left, she went back to her hut and started
throwing her bones. She was the same Sangoma the Brown's
and Pretorias family consulted. She had given Nina the wrong
staff, what she gave her was to form hatred in Trevors eyes
everytime he sees his daughter. She felt the love Trevor had for
the baby.
Her: Trevor can't love anyone else beside Lelo, his heppiness is
with her not his baby.

At the Browns household

Mrs Brown looked at herself as she lotioned her bruised body.

Her legs were painful which made her wonder if she will be able
to wear her heels today. They had a business function in one of
the businesses she partnered in. Her husband got in looking all
handsome in his expensive suit.
Him: we don't have the whole day
She nodded and putted on her white long sleeve dress covering
every part bruised. She applied makeup in some arears like her
neck since it looked much more worse from the strangling. She
wore her nude heels and putted on some makeup and lipstic. She
took her bag and marched outside to her already waiting
husband. He looked at her smiling
Him: you remind me of the night of our wedding
She forced a smile
Him: you look beautiful and sexy wifey
Her: thank you
The car started and she looked away to the window. They arrived
at the function, played the happy couple, took a few pictures and
then mingled with other members. She excused herself and told
her husband that was busy flirting with other woman while she
was right there with him.
Her: I need some air
Him: okay
He didn't even look at her but loughed with the women he was
interacting with. She went and stood outside next to the pool. For
some time she thought about how she had been tolerating
Browns madness and his cruel acts. Just then a voice that sent
shivers to her spine appeared.
Him: beautiful lady
She turned smiling like a fool, that how he made her feel.
Her: Samson
Him:looking beautiful as always
Her: I try
She then looked away when she remembered that Brown
threatened to kill Samson if she ever met with him again. He
noticed the frown on her face.
Him: what wrong ntokazi
Her: I have to go
Him: you not going anywhere, that husband of yours left to some
room upstairs with a young skank, so tell where are you going
Her: if he finds me here with you he is going to kill you
He loughed so hard
Him: I would love to see him try
Her: Samson
Him: I'm not scared of him
He leaned to her and kissed her shivering lips. She went with the
flow and held on him tight. Been a long time since she received a
warm welcoming seductive kiss. Well it was their first kiss which
lasted for a few minutes.
him: I know you married but I can't do this anymore
Her: what do you mean
He sighed
Him: I'm madly inlove with you woman
She looked at him as if she was browsing the internet
Her: Sam..
Him: you don't have to say anything now
The looked at each other for some time, he looked at his clock
and back at her
Him: I have to go
She nodded, he walked and when he had taken about 3 steps
she spoke
Her: can I spend the night with you
He smiled and nodded. They went to his car and drove off. There
Mr Brown has had a 3 some with some young ladies which were
organised as entertainment.He fell asleep right there.

Lelo

It's a saterday morning, we've just been back from jogging with
Musa, he has realy been helpful and sincere with me. He have
been giving me some training on how to protect myself and i
must say it made me feel good, punching and kicking made me
feel in controll , I would sometimes assume that I'm kicking Tee
and giving him some hot punches that left him asking for mercy.
Well as for Musa lying to me about his parents Im gonna let it
pass for now, I haven't forgiven him although he has a point but
he made me feel bad. I cried for mahala when I heard that his
parents were dead and now they alive and healthy, which is a
relief but they lied to me. Oh and about daddy dearest I wish I can
find a gun and shoot his eyes out, nigga almost killed my heart,
I'm just glad Musa learned how to use a gun cause if he didn't he
would be dead by now. And as for Trevor that one I wanna shoot
those big balls of his and cut that thing of his he calls a d*** since
he can't use it widely.

The therapy sessions had been helpful and I must say I feel
different, it one step at a time right. Well next week it test week so
today and tommorow it's studying, that I cannot procrastinate no
matter how much my life is messed up.
Me: babe come on we have to get started
We were writing Accounting monday, and since i hevent been
attending the whole week i needed some help.
Him: I'm coming, babe we need some snacks awa
Ay Musa hated studying xem and i think it because he has the
brains
Me: now i know we will end up eating and talking non stop if we
include some snack
Him: study pooper
I loughed cause there is nothing called that
Me: just come nigga
We started studying and I must say my heart knew exactly what
he was doing. We went on for 3 hours and took a break.
Him: we almost done
Me: yes baby..
Him: let go watch a movie
I frowned
Him: one step at a time right, baby you promised to try
Me: owkay
Him: and wear some shorts
Me: now you going too far
Him: i was just trying, since you love your shorts
Me: loved Mr
Him: owkay
I wore my denim jeans and white t-shirt and a red jacket with my
dad and white snickers. I attepted to put a cap on but Musa took
it.
Him: you not hiding your beauty with me
I sighed
Me: lets go before I change my mind.
We went to the mall, I must say I missed this, us going out and
me sorrounded by people.
Me: I missed this
This fool of mine smiled
Him: I know honey
Me: I love you and thank you
Him: anything for my queen
We watched Madea busy loughing our lungs out and it felt so
great. We went to play games and there we met Shaz.
Her: lovies
She had that broad smile on her face
Me: sweety
It realy felt great seeing her
Her: you've been scarce Mr hotty treating you good
I nodded smiling
Me: didn't think i will find you here
Her: I'm with bae lovey
Me: the Nick bae??
Her: yess sweety
Me: so you realy are dating , no more strings attached?
She nodded smiling, Musa had gone to buy some tokens.
Her: yeah let me call him, you gotta meet her bunny
Me: ay I'm not bunny
Her: I'm sure I'm not the only one who can see that you are
gaining and becoming more beautiful
Me: you now talking nonsense
Her: and the spirit, boy Mr Hotty left something in there
She said poking my stomach
Me: you dreaming
Her: I shall see
Me: may you shall wake the hell up
her: feisty baby how far are you?
Me: I'm not pregnant Shaz
I was starting to get emotional
Her: hey sorry I didn't mean to make you mad although I think...
She did not finish because of a familiar voice That called out her
name
Him: Sharon baby I'm done
He didn't even look at me, I remained calm as fuck
Her: owk hun, this is my friend, the beautiful one and Lelo this is
the Nick guy..
Me: you dating him??
I found my self shouting, Shaz looked suprised
Her: am I missing something
Me: nah I have to go
I followed where Musa went, so Shaz is dating Nick, Nina's
brother, the one that kidnapped me. This was no coincidence,
Nick knew that Shaz is my friend and roomie, I wonder what he is
upto cause this time around i wont play the victim, I tired of this
men thinking they can do what they like with me, I'm getting my
life back from today I ain't gone allow Tee or Nick or any other
men to control me.

Insert 47

Psalm 27v1

"The Lord is my light and my salvation, Whom shall I fear? The

Lord is the defence of my life, whom shall I dread? "

Narrated

She tip toed heading to the guest room but got disturbed by
someone clearing his throat. Her whole body tensed up and fear
cripped in.
Him: hoe of the month
He said in a low voice yet disgusted. She did not know what to
say except for staring at the floor
Him: get out of my sight
She quickly ran off to her bedroom, undressed and washed her
body. She did not sleep with Samson but only cuddled, yet it felt
so good and made her feel special, something she hasn't felt for
months now. When she was done she went back to the bedroom
finding her husband sitted on the other side of the bed. She let
her towel loose and started mosturising her bruised body. After a
while Brown broke the silence.
Him: you are sleeping with him??
He wasn't looking at her though
Her: does it matter?
He chuckled
Him: what did you say?
Her: I said does it matter?
He got up and started pacing up and down, his anger grew minute
by minute. Mrs Brown did not mind him .
Him: you've learnt to talk back now
She kept quiet
Him: what did I say last time??
Her: just leave me alone Brown
The Brown part came out as a whisper cause the beast himself
had taken over. He gave her two quick punches that left her
feeling dizzy although she was sitted
Him: i wont allow such disrespect, and I won't allow you to ruin my
reputation woman..
He was now kicking her non stop with her crying begging him to
stop.
Him: if you dont leave him I will kill him..get me??
She nodded feeling like a fool. What has she done??

Lelo

We finished writing our tests, I think I did good with Musa's help
indeed. Now all we have to do is study for our coming final
examinations which will take place inthe next coming two weeks.
Today is a saterday, I woke and did my hygiene process. I was
eating when my mom called me.
Me: mother
Her; my baby
She sounded so down
Me: mom are you owkay
Her: I'm good my love I just miss you
I sighed, I knew that she wasn't fine
Me: I miss you too mother
Her: so you won't mind coming just for the weekend right
Me: I can't I'm sorry maybe next weekend
Her: it's fine I will survive
She was disappointed, her voice made me to feel bad
Me: owkay but I'm leaving first thing Monday
Her: I can't wait to see you
Me: who is driving me?
Her: they will be there withing an hour
Me: you planned this knowingly that I will agree after you made
me to feel guilty
Her: I just miss my baby
Me: let me prepare myself then.
I dropped the call and went to put bedroom. Yes I was staying
with Musa. My heart was still sleeping. I shook his sleepy body
and he woke up slowly opening his beautiful eyes.
Him: my heart
I just melted
Me: mmhm baby wake up
Him: but I am awake
Me: mom called and she want me to visit just for today and
tomorrow
Him: you not going
I sulked , Musa has been too much protective this days.
Me: I promise I will be fine
Him: baby you not going
Me: I wasn't asking Musawakhe
He looked at me once and got up heading to the bathroom. I
decided to make the bed when i heard the sound of water. I went
down and prepared his favourate English breakfast. Yes I've
learnt a lot, I now can cook, I'm not a pro but I try. He came down
only in his boxers and I found my self staring at his hard body.
Him: a photo will last longer
Nigga wasn't even smiling
Me: I made you breakfast
Him: I see
He ate concentrating on the television. It was realy akward.
Me: baby
Him: mmhm
Me: I already agreed to mom
I said biting my nails
Him: like you said you don't need my permission right??
I suddenly became emotional
Me: I'm sorry
Him: owkay
Ay Musa was cold I tell you.I went to our bedroom and packed a
small bag, changed into my knee black dress and black heels. I
just let my long brown hair loose. I found Musa drinking.
Me: Musawami
That came out as a whisper, he turned and looked at me
Him: you are beautiful
I smiled but he wasn't smiling
Me: I know how you feel about me going to my house but baby
we have to agree that, that is my home, my mom lives there and I
can't ignore her because of my father's sins.
He sighed
Him: I know but I can't shake the feeling that something bad
gonna heppen
Me: I'll be fine babe, God will be with me
Him: let go then
We kissed and he accompanied me to res where I would be
waiting for my transport.
Him: I love you Mbulelo Brown
Me: I love you more Ntante Ngema
His smile God
Him: call If anything heppens
Me: yes sir
My driver came and we left. Hours later I was home and very
hungry. I went inside finding both my parents watching tv. They
were sitted in different couches, and from the looks of things I
noticed that they were mad at each other.
Me: everyone
I said going to the kitchen
Mom: baby that wasn't greeting
Me: I'm hungry mother
I said shouting
Dad: so much disrespect
Well I decided to ignore him, I made cornflakes and went back to
the living room. I sat down looking at my mother who looked like
she was in pain or something, she was still dressed in her long
pyjamas that hided her body. Hey eyes looked swollen but the
make up she used hided them pretty well for someone to notice.
Suddenly I lost my appetite when I thought of father beating her. I
gave him a devil look that made him turn red the very same
moment.
Him: how dare you look at me like that Inno?
I chuckled
Me: are you beating my mother?
He looked away
Me: mom!!!
Her: it alright baby,
Me: nothing is alright, why are you still staying here with him, it
not like you are depending on him or something?
Her: you won't understand
I walked to my room feeling powerless

Narrated

Mr Ngema looked at his lovely wife who looked more like a

goddess, he smiled as she turned to his direction
Him: my lady, your beauty seemed to have accumulated
She smiled looking at her husband
Her: and you look so much younger my love..
Him: thank you for loving me, and giving such strong kids
Her: no, thank you for changing me for the better, I love you
Ngema
Him: I love you my soul
Her: we should go, we can't keep the press waiting
Him: i hope everything goes well.
They both went out to one of the hotel's they owned. It's was
gonna be a long day with all the journalists and business partners
interrogating them about their fake deaths. They arrived there
finding a hell lot of people waiting for them. They both walked
inside with cameras taking shots of them left and right
Him: so many people
Her: i can already see the headlines " millionares rise back from
death"
He chuckled
Him: it " death faked by one of the rich families in the country "
Her: or maybe " death couldn't take them down"
Him: let go shame the devil my love
She smiled.

His phone rang disturbing him from his thought.

Him: son in law
Him: open up the news
He quickly turned onn the television
Him: what the hell??
He nearly died
Him: me and you both
He quickly dropped the call and headed to Lelo's room. He found
her wife and daughter chatting while loughing.
Him: so you all knew about this??
They didn't know to what he was referring to so they just looked at
him. He roared angry shouting.
Him: you knew that your boyfriend's family is alive??
Lelo was even more afraid to talk so she shook her head together
with her mother.
Him: you are lying to me dammit
They realy were afraid of saying any word looking at his Brown's
scary face
Him: you, get up we going to see a doctor
He pointed at her daughter
Her: but father im not sick
She said in a low pitiful voice
Him: I'm not gonna say this twice
She got up still wondering what the hell?? Her mother nodded,
they both changed clothes and went down finding her cruel father
waiting for them. The way to the doctors was silent and long.
Finally they arrived, the line wasn't long so they waited to be
called.
MrsB: Brown what are we doing here?
She asked her husband who looked angry
Him: consulting
She exhaled
Her: I don't understand
Him: why are you so slow??
Mrs Brown prayed hard that her husband did not notice that their
baby has changed which would be a reason that she might be
pregnant. She prayed inside because she knew that keeping the
baby would be impossinle.
Her: what do you mean?
All along Lelo was sitted quietly.
Him: Inno might be....
Just then the doctor called them. They got in with Mr Brown
talking to him.
Him: we are here for a pregnancy test
Lelo's eyes popped out and tears didn't hesitate the very same
moment. She looked at her mom.
Her: Mother...
MrsB:it alright baby
Her: I'm not pregnant, I can't be
The events of her last pregnancy played in her mind. She found
herself remembering the day she found out that she was about 3
months pregnant but then suddenly she lost her baby which just
dissapeared. She didn't even hear the doctor talking to her.
Doc: we can start now
He gave her something to go and pee into. She took it slowly
thinking of the day Tee raped her and it finally clicked to her that
it was his idea.
Her: I wanna go home im not doing this mom, I'm not pregnant, I
can't be.
She cried letting all out but her dad made it worse
Him: we dont have all day Inno just pee and let the doctor do his
damn job .
He was firm, she went to the ladies room and did as instructed.
They waited for a moment with Brown busy pacing up and down.
While Lelo strungled to say any other word.
MrsB: you will be be fine baby
only if she knew how she felt, she told herself that If she was
indeed pregnant and with Trevor's baby She was going to kill
herself. Her mind was made up the very same moment the doctor
walked out with her urine. She couldn't bear carrying a child of
rape, a child she was gonna despise her whole life.
Her: if I'm pregnant with Tee's baby I want an abortion
She said it loud enough for her father to hear. He turned in the
most dangerous way giving her a deadly eye which did not shook
her. She was tired of being scared. She continued
Her: otherwise i kill mysef
Her father became more angrier, he was still trying to find ways to
kill the Ngema family permanently now, and on the other hand he
hoped Lelo was indeed pregnant with Trevor's baby.
Him: you will do no such thing
Her: wait and see.
He didn't get time to argue cause the doctor came in rushing. He
looked at Lelo one more time and exhaled hard. He was suprised,
how she was pregnant with such a small tummy??
He firstly cleared his throat
Him: congratulations Mrs Brown and Mr Brown you will be
grandparents soon.
Lelo felt like the world was against her, she suddenly felt dizzy
with tears streaming voluntary. She lost consciousness the very
same moment.

Insert 48

Narrated

A smile appeared on his face, the doctor rushed to Lelo while his
wife prayed for miracles.
Him: did you hear that??
Mrs Brown nodded non stop. She was confused by Lelo's
pregnancy, who was the father and worst part the doctor didn't
say how far she was. Mr Brown went outside to make a call. He
was wearing that wide smile making him seem like a crazy
person. He called Trevor.
Him: son in law
His voice had confidence
Trev: father in law
He was unsure on how to feel
Him: you made me proud, you've shown me that it not yet over
Trev: I don't understand
Him: you know I had the worst day ever but seeing and heard
what I've just heard atleast I still have hope
Trev: I'm still lost, are the Ngema's dead again?
He loughed
Him: better than that, their son won't know what hit him
Trev: I'm still trying to reach you
He chuckled
Him: you've made me a grandfather
Trevor chuckled in disbelief
Trev: you not joking right??
Him: you are going to be a father
Trevor did not believe it, he smiled as happiness cripped in, he
had made Lelo pregnant, the love of his life.
Him: didn't you hear what I've just said
Trev: mmhm I did,I'm speechless
Him: and I'm so happy
Trev: I can hear it
Him: I can't even hide it
Trev: I can't wait to tell my parents
Him: I know son, after the bad news we came across today,we
needed this
Trev: atleast we achieved one thing
Him: and thanks to you.
They both said their goodbyes, Mr Brown headed back to Lelo's
ward.
Him: how is she??
Doc: she just fainted, she will be up within a few hours
Him: the baby won't be affected??
Doc: the baby is out of danger
He smiled and went outside the ward finding his wife sitted.
Him: you seem so lost, aren't you happy that our baby is carrying
a Pretorias??
Her: she is carrying a child conceived through rape Brown, aren't
you worried of how she is feeling??
Tears failed her
Him: oh stop it woman, she will get over it, she wasn't the first
person to get raped and she was lucky it was her betrothed
husband.
Mrs Brown looked at her shaking her head, the irritation she
couldnt hide. She got up pacing up and down.
Her: I just can't believe how cruel you are, didn't you see how
traumatic she was after the rape??
Him: and now she is alright right?
Her: nearly alright Brown, our baby won't survive this
Him: she is a Brown, she will survive
Her: you don't care about her and don't act as if you do
Him: she is my baby, how can I not care?
Her: mxm, I need some air.

Trevor
I can't explain the joy in me, I'm the happiest man alive, The
thought of Lelo pregnant with my child just make me wanna
dance like a crazy man. I still can't believe I achieved my mission,
finally things are working up. I called my father immediately after
receiving the news from Mr brown.
Him: I hope you have something portable to tell me cause you
disturbed me from watching my favourite game.
I chuckled
Me: pops she is pregnant
Him: who is pregnant?
Me: dad you so slow, Inno is pregnant
Him: okay
I chuckled
Me: what do you mean by " okay"
Him: you said she is pregnant,
Me: yes she is carrying my baby
I could hear him breath heavy
Him: don't play games with me son im too old for those
Me: I'm serious dad her father just told me, She is pregnant im
going to be a dad
Him: but you are already a dad Trevor
Me: mxm you mean to that stupid child
Him: I thought you loved her
Me: I did but now I understand why you guys don't love her, she is
just a curse
Him: I'm sorry to hear that
Me: don't be dad, Lelo is carrying a Pretorias heir , my heppiness
not that curse Nina gave me, stupid child is a child by a name that
all
Him: son I have to go, let me go and tell your mother and granny
the good news
Me: very well father, let me go out and celebrate
Him: congratulations son, you've made us proud
I smiled then dropped the call. The way I was so happy i even
posted on Facebook tagging my future wife. I was so proud.

Nina

Her: she is not even smiling ma

Amo has been quiet the past few days, my baby seem lost, she is
not even responding when we play with her, It hurt me so much
because even babies with down sydrom smiles at times. I was
with my mother who has been assisting me with her, I'm just glad
she is here since Trev has been ignoring us. I mean he came the
other day after we went to see mama's sangoma. Oh yeah I
forgot to tell you that we've been giving her the herbs and bathing
her with them but still no change but my mom keeps on saying
that things like this take time to work so yeah I'm still hoping so.
Back to Trev, the way he looked at Amo when he was last here
wasn't pleasing at all, he didn't even stay long or played with her
as usual.
Her: don't worry baby she will get better
I sniffed as tears threatened to come out
Me: it been days ma, I'm starting to lose hope now
Her: stop it Nina, you have to be strong for your baby, you are a
mother now
Me: it's just hard ma with Trevor giving us a cold shoulder I just
don't know anymore
Her: he is just scared baby you know how much he loves Amo
I nodded cause i knew that Trevor loved his baby, I mean who
wouldn't??, Amo is one cute baby. I looked at my sleeping baby
one more time, she wasn't burning or whatsoever, she was
breathing just fine and eating normaly, i just dont know what went
wrong. After making sure that she was sleeping comfortably I got
up and took my phone. It been a long time since I logged on
Facebook, Amo had been keeping me busy I tell you. I was
shocked when I saw Trevor's status. " I dont shoot blanks,
another Pretorias on the way, Thank you fiance" I strungled to
hold my tears. The truth is I fell hard for Trevor, i love him
although i know i wont own his heart but him being with me i
appreciate.mom got in finding me all depressed, Lelo did it again,
seems like she is always out to get me, now she is carrying
Trevor's baby because I have one, I thought she loved Musa, but
then she fooled all of us. Mom walked in while i was lost in my
thought
Her: you seem so lost
Me: she is pregnant
I said with so much irritation burning inside me
Her: who is pregnant
Me: who else ma, the first wife is pregnant
She chuckled
Me: you think it funny hey
her: hold your horses baby im not the one who went after her
friend's boyfriend or should I say husband
I looked at her with so much disbelief, how can she say
something like that??
She is supposed to make me feel good not bad
Me: ma😭
Her: I'm not a baby Nina, you cant talk to me the way you like
Me: I'm sorry
I sobbed
Her: now come and sit here next to mommy and tell her exactly
what heppened
I did forcing a smile, I hate Lelo and I regret ever being friends
with her, she thinks only about herself. All this is just putting a
strain on me, Amo being sick and a pregnant Lelo. Life you never
cease to suprise me.

Lelo

In a place filled with peace, I found myself belonging. A place I

could adopt forever, voices singing from a distance so angelic and
proud I found myself smiling like a retard. The sounds of birds
chasing one another, If only life was like this.
" I wish I can stay here forever" I thought to myself.
" sadly you don't belong here"
A voice murmured, I stood still since I couldn't see the person
talking, fear cripped in
" do not be afraid for I am with you"
Me: who are you??
" that ain't important, all you need to know is that givin up is not an
option"
Me: but my life is hell itself
" no life is hell, life is a blessing"
I chuckled
Me: well not mine.
Suddenly it went quiet, I looked around but could not catch sight
of anyone.
Me: where are you
" you need to be strong mom"
Now this voice was different and familier
Me: not you again
" you have to be strong, for her"
I don't know what heppened next cause suddenly I found myself
sleeping in some ward. I remembered what heppened but tears
streamed out the very same moment. The thought of me pregnant
and what I've just experienced. My life seemed so messed up, I
hated myself like no other. Voices disturbed me.
" she is awake, oh babe you scared me"
It was my mother who was followed by my father
Him: mommy to be
I frowned
Him: you should be happy dear daughter
I couldn't hide the pain anymore, I cried out loud.
Her: sshhhh hun you will be fine
Me: I hate this baby ma
Him: you are now talking shit Innocentia
I gave him a death stare
Me: I want an abortion now, where is the freaken doctor
I shouted, I couldnt carry this thing planted by a cruel man in me, I
hated it with passion
Him: stop it Inno
Me: this is my body mother please let me
I said imploring to my mother not even looking at my father
Her: baby the child is innocent
Me: innocent my foot, I want this thing out of me now
All along I couldn't hold my emotions, I was so angry and hurted,
what will Musa say??after all we've been through this happens.
How can life be so unreasonable. Why am I the one who seems
to always suffer? What have I done to deserve such pain and
horrific life. Am I not supposed to be happy, don't i deserve
compassion? God where are you when I need you most? How
can you give me a cold shoulder when all I've done is to stay
sincere to you, or is there something I'm not doing right?? Are you
punnishing me or what? All this played in my mind, I had shutted
out my parents giving my thoughts a chance. Am I making a
mistake by wanting to get rid of this filthy child, i know it innocent
but it brings pain in my life, how am I supposed to wake up
everything feeding this thing inside me? Feeling it growing each
and everyday, making sure I take care of myself for it health, I
can't I rather die than keep Trevors child,I hate it along With it
father, I hate how he had punished me, how he is always winning.
Me: I hate it, I hate it with everything in me, I want it out now
I didn't know that i was now thinking out loud in a way that i found
myself screaming. Both my parents looked at me as if I was
crazy, mom looked so pale shame.
Her: Lelo you cant......
Me: I want it out now
I shouted, the doctor came in looking all excited, he was all smiley
Dic: I see our patient is up and well
I just looked at him
Doc: we have to do some tests to make sure that the baby is....
I didn't let him finish, I was tired of hearing about this baby
Me: I want it out
I said firmly and he looked at me shocked
Dad: don't listen to her she Is just scared you know how woman
are
Me: I'm serious I want it out, I'm above 18 so I have a say , doc
please do me a favour and take it out now
Mom: Lelo
Me: you guys stop talking infact get out this is between me and
the doctor
The doctor was silent all along
Me: please
I looked at him and back to my parents
Doc: I'm afraid that ain't possible
Me: what do you mean by " ain't possible"
I was burning with exasperation , what Is difficult by terminating a
few weeks pregnancy,people always do it right?
Him: Ms you are 5 months pregnant and terminating the
pregnancy now is way much dangerous
Trust me when i say I didn't hear the rest but only " 5 months
pregnant"

Insert 49

Narrated

Suddenly the room went quiet, it's like every one was still trying to
digest what the doctor has just said. Mr Brown's facial expression
had turned from happiness to frustration, he held on to his wife's
shoulders and tried breathing in and out. In the other hand his
wife was relieved but unable to show it because of his husband.
She was happy that Lelo wasn't carrying Trevors son cause she
knew that her daughter could never live with herself knowing that
she is carrying a rape seed, but then again she was worried of the
consequences that will follow since it is now known that her baby
is carrying a Ngema child of which it is impossible for her to have
someone's else's baby except Trevors. Lelo was stll trying to
mend everything, she was indenial that his was realy heppening.
She didn't believe the doctor because she herself didnt know she
was pregnant up until today so how come is she pregnant when
her stomach is still normal. She shook her head many times with
tears streaming down, she just couldn't believe the doctor. I mean
it was Impossible cause she should be showing right now if she
was 5 months pregnant. Right there all emotions took place, she
remembered the girl she met at the club, the one named Linah,
she then remembered her dreams, the young boy she couldn't
identify, what made it worse is that he called her mom once, but
how was it possible all this was just confusing. She did breath ins
too finding all this overwhelming. Her father broke the silence.
Him: what did you just say??
He was expressionless, you couldn't identify if he was angry,
upset, happy or shocked.
Doc: mmhm sir i know it hard to believe cause i myself did not
believe it at first but after running the tests more than once I had
no choice but to.....
Mr Brown interupted him
Him: this is impossible, this is just impossible
He was now pacing up amd down the room. Mrs Brown kept quiet
all along with her daughter.
Doc: sir believe me when i say she is 5 months pregnant, and
with God nothing is imposible
He said looking at an emotionless Lelo Laying on the bed.
Her: uhm doc how? why am I not showing, I mean you saying I'm
5 months pregnant right?
The doctor nodded
Her: but my stomoch is normal, I'm not experiencing any
pregnancy symptoms.
She was so calm
doc: some women are lucky enough not to experience morning
sicknesses, nausea and frequent headaches, but some do have
cravings but they do not think about them as something big, so do
tiredness along with too much sleeping.
Lelo listened to him attentively, she remembered how she was
suddenly becoming more tired during their test week, and the
cravings she had, the moods and emotional phases she
experienced. How was she so ignorant? She should have known
something was different with her, she remembered the day she
spent at Musa's house, the day Musa had an accident, this was
the very same day they forgot to buy morning after pills, but
something ticked her mind.
Her: but I've been having my periods.
That came out as a whisper cause she was still remembering
when last did she have them.Her father looked at her with so
much anger then back at the doctor
Him: you see this is just impossible
Doc: Ms when last did you have the periods, be specific please
Her: I don't realy remember but I think it was end of September if
I'm not mistaken.
Her father coughed more than once, with her wife trying to think of
ways to save her daughter and grandchild.
Doc: your pregnancy is realy unique and interesting , we haven't
had such in the past but I'm glad I'm the one who saw such a
miracle.
The family kept quiet, each and everyone was busy talking within
their minds.
Doc: mmhm are we gonna do a scan, I mean such news are the
one to put a smile to such confused faces, maybe hearing the
baby's heart beat will make you belive it.
Lelo looked at her father with pleading eyes but he just looked
away
Him: sorry doc we have to go
Lelo: but dad. ..
Him: I thought you hated that baby
He snapped at her daughter
Him: oh by the way doc are you sure we cannot get rid of this
baby, you heard my daughter When she said she want that thing
inside her gone, as in gone.
He said it with so much hatred written all over his face. The doctor
didn't understand how a father who was literally happy that her
daughter is pregnant could change hearts and want to get rid of
the blessing given to them.
Doc: I'm afraid it risky and it could lead to both deaths of the
mother and baby
Him: are you sure no other doctor can take care of it, I mean I
could pay millions if I have to, money is not the problem.
The doctor sighed
Doc: we do have doctors world wide but a few have managed to
save the mother.
Him: find me the ones who managed to save them, I will give you
a call.
The doctor nodded feeling uneasy. He saw the pain in Lelo' s
eyes but there was nothing he could do. The family headed back
to their house with silence ofcause. When they arrived Lelo asked
to excuse herself but his father shouted at her.
Him: how could you be so careless
Lelo looked at him shocked
Him: sex without protection realy Inno?, didn't they teach you at
school?
he was so furious. Her mother came to the rescue
MrsB: Lelo go and lay down baby you need to rest
His husband chuckled
Him: there's no way you keeping that thing
He said pointing at her stomach. Lelo rushed upstairs crying, she
threw herself at her bed after locking her room. He life seems to
be turning wheels everytime she experienced something new and
hard to accept. Now she didn't know how to feel about the baby
She was carrying. Some how she thought it was much better that
it was her heart's baby but the thought of her late pregnancy
blocked her heppiness. She was scared and had mixed emotions.
Everything was just a disaster. She sighed and slept thinking all
about today's events.

Musa

It's a Sunday, I spent the day with my parents tying to make up for
lost times. It was realy great being with them and the thought of
going back to Johannesburg the following day just killed me. I was
with my dad chilling outside.
Him: so you starting your exams next week
Me: nah the next coming two weeks pops
Him: and when is you last exam?
Me: I think it 27 November I'm not realy sure, why the interest
though??
Him:we have a lot to do, and I have a feeling that Brown will strike
soon since he heard of our fake death
I sighed
Me: this ain't gonna end right
Him: not anytime soon son
Me: I still don't understand why is it so important for Lelo to marry
that white assless dude
Dad chuckled.
Him: you realise you've just called him ass less
Me: he just get in my nerves pops and the thought that he had to
walk freely after raping my heart kills me, I swear If i ever cross
paths with her im gonna cut his small tiny balls that he can't
handle.
Him: calm down son we will deal with that son of a bitch when the
time is right.
Me: I can't even wait I want him dead father.
I had so much hate towards him, I wanted him dead as in dead, I
couldn't careless about jail or after consequences all I wanted
was to kill that motherf***** and burn his body seven times.
Him: we will get him son right now all we need to do is protect
your heart
I smiled at the thought of her cute beautiful face, just like that my
hatred gone, indeed Lelo was my cure my everything, my smile
keeper cause just by thinking of her my heart becomes at ease.
Dad brang me back to earth while I was still smiling like a retard
Him: now you smiling on your own..mxm
I chuckled
Me: you the one who brang her up
Him: this love i yours is dangerous I tell you, it make me nervis
cause i can't lose my son over this
Me: love is risky dad , especially this Romeo and Juliet kind of
love
He smiled
Him: i know son trust me I know
I chuckled at this old man
Me: care to share
He loughed
Him : you are still 20
Me: and I've dodged death more than twice
I loughed
Him: im sure you now think you are superman
He was loughing all along
Me: atleast my heart says so
I said getting up with him loughing at me. I had to speak to my
other half since we haven't spoke, I just hoped her phone was
active now cause it had been off the whole day yersterday and
today morning Which realy made me worried. I went upstairs to
my bedroom. My family moved to another estate which belonged
to us too, well my dad owns many properties so yeah. I took my
phone and called my heart luckily it rang. The joy in me when i
heard her sweet soft voice, Jesus I can not describe.
Her: Ntate Ngema
I was blushing on my own
Me: Mma Brown, how are you sthandwa sami
Her: I'm good love, how is my heart
She was down, I wondered what was wrong
Me: very good now that I've heard your voice
She giggled
Her: I'm sorry I kept my phone off
Me: it all water in the drain love now talk to your heart, what's is
it?
I heard her sigh
Her: we will talk tomorrow babe, this we have to talk about face to
face.
Suddenly my heart beat raced, not from heppiness but I was
scared, I knew that her going home was not a good idea.
Me: you not leaving me are you??
I said in a lower voice, I was scared, it like my heart could not
fuction well without her, she is my pillar and I will go miles to be
with her, I'm gonna fight for her and even go to jail for her, Jesus
Christ I will kill for her.
Her: not in a million years, I cannot live without your handsome
craziness Ngema, you are my life baby.
I smiled on my own
Me: I love you so much my heart
Her: not like I love you sthandwa sami.
We kept on talking and loughing non stop, I so wondered what
was that we had to talk about face to face, I just hope that fool
called Trevor didn't do anything stupid.

Narrated

Brown was sitted in his study drinking non stop. He had been
drinking since morning without eating nor resting. Poor man has
been ignoring everyone including his friends and business
associates. Her wife got in walking in slow motion afraid of what
he might do to her seeing how angry he was.
Her: I cooked your favourite
She forced a smiled, Brown looked up to her with so much hate,
his face had turned into something she did not know. Her body
shivered afraid of her husband, her love, the person she said I do
to years ago, the very same person who promised her the best
life ever, the one that is now bringing sorrows and hatred to their
family. She stood still afraid of talking. He looked at her and
gulped the rest of his whiskey after that he attempted of getting up
but his legs failed him.
Him: it all your fault
He said struggling to talk, his wife looked at her shaking her head.
Her: I brought you food
Her hands were already shaking, she putted down the plate and
attempted on going out but her husband spoke
Him: if it wasn't for you all this wouldn't have happened
Her: what did I do
She said in a low voice
Him: you failed raising your own fucken daughter, you failed me
your husband woman you failed me!!!!
He was shouting very loud
Him: you failed me !!!!

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Narrated

It a rainy monday morning, the weather is cool rather cold, Brown

fell asleep at his study through his drunkness. He was woken up
by a breaking glass which fell from the table where he was
leaning his face along with his hands. He woke up feeling
defeated, not only by his body but the entirely world. He felt like a
failure, unable to move his head he struggled to keep his eyes
open, the headache fitting him was extreme, his phone rang
forcing him to try and control his body which was hard and painful.
He looked at the screen and Pretorias name filled the screen.
Suddenly he lost interest in answering it and bowed his head
down in defeat. How is he going to handle such, it would have
been better if he did not tell Trevor about the pregnacy, now He
was sure that he told his father. He kept on beating his head
trying so hard to maintain his pain and anger. All this is a mess,
Lelo have to lose that baby, she can't carry it till full term cause if
she does she is going to die leaving the Ngema family with a part
of his daughter which he is going to hate with every part of his
body.

Lelo woke up after a terrible dream, she looked at the time and
sighed hard cause she was supposed to be up hours ago. It was
8 in the morning and she was supposed to be driving back by this
time. She woke up thinking about the dream that made her body
uneasy. She went to the bathroom after making her bed and
taking out her outfit. She did her business and washed her body
then wore her addidas tracksuit with her kicks. She made her hair
and want downstairs with her already packed bag. She found her
mother making breakfast, singing along to the song playing inthe
radio .
Her: now that's a first
She said looking at her mother who looked rather disturbed
MrsB: morning sunshine
She forced a smile that brightened her chocolate like face
Her: Mrs Brown making breakfast....now that something to write
about
She chuckled
MrsB: some of us can do things on our own baby
Her: mmhm now tell me why didn't you wake me up
MrsB: you were sleeping so peaceful baby plus I checked your
timetable
Her: but ma...
MrsB: you need to rest baby, you are not the only one now
Lelo sighed at the thought
MrsB: have you told him??
Her; Who?
MrsB: you know Who I am talking about
Her: I haven't
She sighed
Her: but I will as soon as I arrive in JHB
MrsB: ok, now let feed you and her...
She said filling her plate
Her: who said it a her??
MrsB: I can feel it
She said looking at her daughter. She was realy worried because
she knew that she might lose her baby once again. But this time
around she would never be a part of such evil, she did play her
role last time but now enough is enough, she won't agree to such
nonsense and she will do all she can to protect her and her
grandchild but what was she going to do??
Her: what are you thinking about
She snapped from her thoughts
MrsB: ummh nothing important love eat your food you already
running late
She couldn't tell her daughter what was realy going on, she
couldn't tell her the truth about the ancestors, cause she knew
that she will hate her if she ever knew or that because the
sangoma told them so.
Lelo ate up and the driver drove her off back to JHB.She hasnt
seen her father since that day, she didn't even want to be at the
same room as his, good enough cause her dad has been locking
himself in his study if not in the guest room. She didn't like seeing
him like this after all he is her father but his hatred towards the
baby and Musa made her feel some kind of anger towards him
too. The drive back to JHB was rather short than long since she
has been thinking all the way, she was there within 4 hours, she
went to her room at res rather than at Musa's flat.

Lelo

I got in finding Neo laying on my bed, the bitch had the audacity to
do such. I kept a straight face looking at her with so much anger, I
hated her with every part of my body , maybe it was the
pregnancy i don't know but the moment I saw her my blood
became hot the very same moment. I looked around then heard
the water running, I gues Shaz was inthe Inthe shower.
Me: just leaving for a few couple of days and suddenly someone
has made herself comfortable on my bed.
She clicked her tounge looking at me with an annoying face and
trust me when i say i wanted to redraw her ugly black self with a
hot slap on her face.
Me: bitch get up
Her: mxm virgin marry has grown some balls now
I chuckled
Me: you so used to balls you can't even stop talkig about them,
how useless
She tried slaping me but I held her hand and twisted it. Bitch
started screaming
Me: you dare try and touch me again I will rearrange your face
nonsense.
Her: let go of me hoe
Me: what did you call me ?
Her: you hurting me
Me: i said what did you call me?
I twisted her hand again and this time around I did not show
mercy,she looked like she was crying shame I decided to let her
lose and fixed my bed.She lay on shaz's bed busy giving me
looks
Me:If you have something to say, you might as well spit it out
Her: just because you think you are supergirl doesn't make you to
talk the way you want with me
I chuckled
Me: watch me honey
I said taking out my chocolate muffins and 100% juice this child
was gonna be the death of me I tell you.
the bitch was busy brushing her tummy, I remembered that Musa
told me that she said she was pregnant and saying that it was his
baby. That thought alone drove me crazy but I could not let this
hoe take what's mine, I realy don't care if it Musa's baby or not
cause i love my heart and I know he was raped too, well you
know what I mean.
Her: he is growing isn't he??
She was referring to her pregnancy
Me: who?
I pretended to not know
Her: haw kanti what kind of a hotty is Musa, didn't he tell you he is
about to be a father ?
I looked at her
Her: shame virgin marry, me and Musa we gonna be a family
along with our baby boy.
She loughed
Me: you realy are talented in ruining peoples lives right? ?
She raised her eyebrows
Me: ain't my dad's dick enough for you now, or is that you are
carrying his child or some of your sugar daddy's burstard and you
think you can pin it on Musa,??
Her: what are you talking about, this child is Musa's no one else
Me: I realy don't care trust me, even if it is my heart's child i will
accept his baby but just remember this..
Her: what??
Me: you will forever be the hoe babymama who sleeps with
married man for money and the slut that raped the father of your
baby for money...nc..nc..nc..I wonder what will your child say after
hearing such about his mother's past .
She blinked twice not allowing tears flow down, Shaz came back
wearing a huge smile
Her: you are back
I was remembering how we left things because her Nick boyfriend
turned out to be the Nick that kidnapped me.
Me: yes honey
Her: I see you've gained again
I frowned
Her: kidding, now what were you two talking about
Me: staff, right Neo?
She gave me and ugly look before nodding
Me: you have classes?
Her: yes baby in an hour nje
Me: owk then we will go together if Neo doesn't mind at all.
I said staring at her and she rolled at eyes
Me: or do you??
Neo: mxm you will find me outside.
I changed my outfit since Johhanesburg was cool.I wore my black
dress, heels and putted on some make up, l let my hair lose after
straightening them,I took my bag not forgetting my tax textbook.
We went out finding Neo onthe phone. She dropped it as we
approached her.
We went our separate ways as I headed to my lecture hall, I
heard someone's hand on my shoulder and looked next to me. It
was Jay. It been a long time since We talked.
Me: you??
Him: me
I chuckled
him: how are you, you look beautiful
I smiled
Me: you should try and manage your sentences
He chuckled
Him: I can't help it with you
Me:what do you want Jay
Him: does it have to be something I want
I kept my face straight
Him: okay okay I hear that your nigga impregnated one of your
friends and I thought I should come and see how you've been.
I chuckled
Me: Neo is not my friend
Him: but still she...
Me: I think our talk ends here
Him: if you need a shoulder to cry on you can come to me baby
im always available
He said winking at me
Me:just get the fuck out of my face
Musa

Our lecture dismissed us 30 minutes earlier and I will be lying if I

say I heard what she was teaching today cause my attention was
all where Lelo was seated. My heart looked beautiful the way she
walked in, her face of a Goddess and a body of an angel, evryone
looked at her the moment she stepped in and it doesn't help at all
that everyone was seated since she was a few minutes late. I
found myself all jelous with all this niggas staring at her like some
raw meat, some even whispered making annoying sounds. I
swear every nigga that did that will be on my diminishing list. Well
we got out and my heart was waiting for me. As quickly as I
approached her she gave me that warm smile that drove me
crazy. We hugged after kissing each other with so much passion.
Me: man I missed this
She smiled
Her: and I missed you
We kissed yet again
Her: I'm hungry
Me: let go to the cafeteria
We headed there and ordered our food , my heart bought a carrot
cake along with amagwinya which she asked to be filled with
achaar and palony with hot Russians too, she then bought Apple
juice which was a first. I looked at her carrying all this staff.
Her: what is it
Me: ummh babe you gonna eat all this
Her: that why I bought it right??
I nodded then received my steak and kidney pie and coca cola.
We then found an empty table where we made ourselves
comfortable. She started with the cake and damn the way she ate
it amazed me, I was looking at her when she spoke
Her: staring is rude especially when I'm eating I mean how am I
suppose to chew with your ugly self looking at me.
I chuckled
Me: I love watching you eat
Her: well i don't
I decided on eating my pie, when I was half way to finishing it
someone snatched It
from me.
Me: babe😯😯
Her: sharing is caring, didn't your parents teach you.
Mxm she was already eating it,
Me: but you've got your own food
Her: but your pie looks good .....no it tastes nice
She made that face
Me: you should have bought it then
Her: I didn't want it
Me: huh?!
Her: haw Musa it just a pie
By the time she said that it was all eaten
Me: I'm gonna have your cake then
Her: then you will see me for who I am baby
I chuckled, my heart was different. I drank my drink with her
eating her staff, seems like she was on a mission to finish
everything. After a few minutes we walked out bumping to that
strange girl with her friends. Those were the loudest girls in
campus. She stopped and looked at us smiling nervously
Me: what is it now
She looked at Lelo, her face was suddenly emotional
Her: the things you go through at such a small age
Lelo: Linah, we meet again
Her: you now know
Lelo: know what
Her: you know, just keep on praying, he never forsake what
belongs to him
Me: what are you talking about
Her: talk to him, you guys still have a long way to go to fulfil your
heppiness, the mountains you still have to climb, but our God
answers when you call him, call him he will hear you.
She said leaving us astonished.
Me: she is weird
Lelo just nodded and we went to my flat. We both took a bath, i
was only in my briefs when Lelo came down wearing only my
shirt. Her yellow thighs all exposed made Ngema hard the very
same moment.
Her: not your naughty thoughts please
I chuckled
Me: how am I supposed to not have them when you keep on
tempting me
Her: stop it baby we have to talk
Me:oh the talk
She nodded sitting next to me. She looked at me and for the first
time I saw how scared she was.
Me: is everything okay??
Her: everything is fine love
Me: then why the afraidness love
Her: baby Im. ..
She stopped and looked at me
Me:you are??
My heart beat was now racing
Me: I'm pregnant
She said in a low voice, how was she pregnant, then it clicked,
how her behaviour changed, the sudden change of food , and the
way she was daily emotional and dramatic, she is pregnant and
she is not carrying my baby. That barstard did this on purpose, he
wanted to impregnate her..I got up from the couch feeling all
dizzy, my eyes were filled with tears, I couldn't accept such, I can't
lose her.
Me: you can't leave me babe, we will raise the baby together, I
can't let you go not like this
I snapped, I didn't even feel my tears scrolling down my face
Her: Musa
Me: no Lelo I don't care whose child you are carrying my heart, I
just want you and you alone, beside what's yours is mine right??
I was now kneeling down next to her; tears streamed down from
her eyes,we shared a moment of silent. She touched my chicks
wiping my tears .
Her: where did I find you huh??.
Me:babe
Her: shhh. ..
She kissed me holding my face, we kissed for a moment then
broke the kiss
Her: I'm carrying your child
Me: huh???
Her: I'm carrying our baby, no one else's but ours, baby we going
to be parents.
I swear I kissed the daylight out of her, I couldn't hold my tears
from falling. I was happy and relieved but mostly i was happy that
I wasn't losing a part of me.
Me: babe you not kidding right? ?
I looked at her after realising that she wasn't showing
Her: I know it hard to believe but I'm 5 months pregnant, I found it
hard to believe too.
Me: this is....I don't know
She smiled
Her: I know right
She held my hand and placed it on her tummy looking straight at
me.
Me: we pregnant
I smiled like a retard, we heard some kicks slowly then again and
again, I couldn't believe it, I just became emotional and when I
looked at my heart, tears had blinded her sight
Me: did you feel that??
She nodded unable to speak
Me: he is his father's son after all
She smiled
Her: this is the first time I hear him kick
We hugged each other feeling like one. Me and my soon to be
mini family.
Me: God I love you
Her: no I love you
Me: and thank you, once again you've made me the proudest boy
on earth
Her: and what was the first thing
Me: making me yours, I so love you Mma Brown.
Her: I love you more my heart
We both smiled
Her: a twenty year old father and a 19 year old mother😂
Me: our daughter will have young beautiful sexy parents
Her: I thought it was a he
Me: I now have a change of heart, she is my princess, my little
Innocentia.
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Lelo

I've come to realise that my father is doing this because of

something cause there's no way he could go this far just for his
daughter to take the Pretorias name and whatever it is i have to
find out during the december holidays cause now its me and my
books.well me and him haven't spoke for sometime now, I don't
even know what to say to him I gues him too got nothing to say to
me either. Well things have been perfectly working between me
and my heart, poor guy has been supportive since he found out
about the pregnancy, well back to that we did go to the doctor all
nervous but things came out just fine. I was indeed 5months and
2 weeks pregnant counting the past days too. We took scans
together hearing our baby girl's heartbeat,yes you heard me right
we having a girl. My heart was so happy and couldn't stop talking
about his little princess, busy staffing me with food and yes he did
tell his parents who sounded so concerned but happy too
although they shouted at us first before the congratulations.
Another thing is I was suddenly showing, not that much but you
could see a change in me and i think I liked myself more when I
had this mysterious pregnancy cause now I can't wear some of
my clothes.

Today we writing our third paper which is Accounting.I've been

studying so hard along with Musa we realy make a good team me
and my heart xem. I woke up feeling drained, I don't know why
but I wasn't feeling well nje. I did my morning hygiene process
and took a shower that lasted for like forever. I wore my summer
dress seeing that the sun was realy out, with my push one God
my feet were starting to kill me, another thing that I hate about my
pregnancy. My phone rang.
It was a message from my heart it reads " morning sunshine,
hope you slept well my heart, and that you ready to balance that
shit, I love you my person, actualy I love you both." I smiled eating
on my own. Shaz wasn't around, well we haven't seen each other
for a while now cause when I'm at Musa's she's here and where
I'm here she's at her boyfriends place, I gues she love him after
all and I should just be glad for her, I mean she's been there for
me through it all maybe it time I accept Nick as her boyfriend, I
don't know how I will do it but I have to try for the sake of our
friendship cause she is the last person I'd want to lose. I took my
bag heading to campus, on my way I got the feeling that i was
being followed but I brushed it off.

Narrated

Mr Brown hasn't been himself for weeks now, he felt like a

foreigner in his own body, like he didn't belong and there was his
wife too who seemed happy while he was in hell. He has tried
following her all this days but he did not succeed, he was siiting
on his kitchen chair playing with the glass filled with juice in his
hands, yes he has stopped drinking after realising that it wasn't
helpful at all. All he had to do is stand up and take action again,
he can't lose like this, not to the Ngema family. In this past few
days he did tell Trevor that it wasn't his baby which he didn't take
well cause he has been burying himself in alcohol too with Mr
Pretorias busy putting strain on his shoulders. His words rang in
his ears for more than days and even today he still heard them
when thinking of his daughter's pregnancy, he had seen how
happy she was through social medias but his heart couldnt accept
it. " you know it has to be done like it or not Inno have to lose that
thing before time is up" mr Pretorias said.
" she needs to lose it now unless we lose everything, I mean
everything Brown " Mrs Pretorias supported her husband. All
along Mr Brown and his wife kept quiet along with Trevors granny,
Trevor's father spoke again. " we can't afford to lose everything
just because your beloved daughter couldnt keep her legs closed,
you should have disciplined that girl from the earliest age now
look at the consequences she has putted us in, no Brown you
need to fix this sooner and I dont get how the ancestors missed
this, I mean they always ahead of everthing right? " they all
nodded, it was suprising that Lelo Managed to keep her
pregnancy for more than 5 months which wasn't good at all
cause if she were to have the baby She will die after giving birth
and if she dies , their wealth dies with her, that they couldn't
accept, so in order for her to be alive and for their wealth to live,
she must lose that baby, and losing that baby now will double
their wealths just like before.
" we have to go and consult to gogo before it is too late, she will
know which way we should take" that was Trevors granny, Mrs
Brown looked at her with so much anger" there's no way we killing
my baby's child, not again, our children deserves better don't you
think??" She said looking at everyone " you know she will die as
soon as she gives birth" Mrs Pretorias snapped, all along Mr
Brown has been quiet while they got on and on , on each others
throuts." We will do what's rights for both families, we are in this
together right" he said after a long time being stuck in his own
mind. " I knew you will do the best thing for both families, after all
we all sacrificed so much in this" Pretorias said after finishing his
glass of whisky. Both famies agreed on meeting up with the witch
doctor, they decided that it was the best option although Mrs
Brown's tried by all means to decide aginst except that she had
no say since no one voted along with her, her view remained
useless. They did go to the Sangoma lady who like always threw
her bones speaking in ancestral tounges. After waiting for so
much time she told them to come after a few days, yes she will
call them. " what's wrong please tell us they are not angry" Mrs
Pretorias said, " you shouldn't have allowed your daughter to visit
another church at the first place, you were supposed to stick on
the church decided for you", she said.
Mrs Brown and her husband stared at each other " we didn't know
or did you" he asked his wife who was suprised too " no I didn't
I'm shocked as you are too" she said. The sangoma told them of
how impossible it was for them to kill Lelo's baby through muti or
any other spiritual form, she said that the baby was protected and
darkness couldn't touch her soul, yes she saw that it was a she
and was more powerful than the other baby, which realy worried
her because the baby managed to hide for almost 6months
without being noticed, that was something that scared her most,
she was supposed to know the moment she fell pregnant but no
she heard from people and that she was already about 6 months
long. " I thought the ancestors knew everything before it
heppened, now how come didn't they tell you about the
pregnancy like before" granny asked looking worried too.
" this baby is more powerful than the one we killed, she has got
more protection than the other baby and it seems like she is
intouch with the other baby, I believe that she's not fighting alone,
she can't be this powerful" she talked seeing that she was losing
the battle. She has never losed before and she will not start now."
I will try and find a solution for this you wait for my call" she said
getting up all irritated. Since that day Mr Brown and both families
have been waiting for her call, they were sure that she will come
up with the best decision. While still sitted steady on his chair his
wife got in all smileful, she was even singing. He coughed after
he noticed that she was ignoring him
Him: you look happy, hoeness paying off?
She shrugged her shoulders and went upstairs. She had no time
for Brown's mind games and she wouldn't allow him to ruin her
good day. Sam has been a sweetheart and was realy treating her
good, she couldn't denie that she was falling for him deeper and
deeper although he hasn't altered those three words to her, which
disappointed her but she knew that maybe it was best for both
since she is married.

Musa

Accounting wasn't difficult at all, we write and I'm sure we passed.

I was chilling with my heart giving her a massage, shame my
heart.
Me: you still not okay
She nodded
Me: ay baby im tired now
Her: you can't be complaining about being tired while I'm carrying
a person inside me, awa Musa. .
Me: if it was possible I would have helped carry her too when you
feel tired
She loughed
Her: I think it time I accept Nick as Shaz' s boyfriend
Me: mmhm
Her: Musa!!!
Me: awa baby you can't blame me for hating the guys guts, I
swear if i ever see him around you hehehehe...
Her: but I can't lose my only friend because of this.
Me: I know baby but that guy almost destroyed us remember
She nodded
Me: but then I gues you have to give Shaz a chance and maybe
she will see him for who he realy is
Her: I hope that will be sooner
Me: same here now let us go and feed my baby
Her: hay bbe I'm full hle
Me: you are full not my princess
Her: you gonna make me fat I tell you
Me: as long as my daughter is well taken care off you can be fat
for all I care.
She maintaned a straight face, my baby hate being fat xem.
Her: I'm not gonna let you make fun of me
Me: but baby
Her: no your baby can be hungry for all I care cause mna
Innocentia Brown cannever be fat never ntate.
I loughed cause she was serious and trying hard to hide the fact
that she was hungry.
Me: okay baby
Her: and still on the matters to be taken care of, what are we
going to do about Neo? ?
Me: that one is crazy baby, and the truth is i dont know muntu
wami
Her: what if the baby is yours
I struggled to say anything
Her: don't worry we will cross that bridge when we come across it
then
Me:I just hope it ain't
Her: me too, but no matter what just know I will be by your side
Me: I know love, trust me I know

Nina

It been 2 months now, Amo is growing but she is just not getting
better, we've tried everything and even her beloved father ain't
giving her attention anymore. It like as if he hates my baby and it
hurts me so much. Today we were going to church since we've
tried everything every kind of muti but no luck. I dressed my baby
in her beautiful pink dress and her purlpe shoes. She realy looked
like a princess although she was only there with us physically.
Me: I hope they help us
I said to mom after wearing my long red dress and black hills.
Her: they will baby, we have to trust God I know he will help us
Me:I hope so cause I can't do it any more, I can't live like this
mama.
I had realy given up on my child,it like i was raising a doll that
could only eat and sleep, she wasn't smiling not even once or
even by mistake. This broke me and it doesn't help that Lelo is
living the life, seems like everything is looking up for her while I'm
suffering. I realy envy her and I would do anything to have her life
but then life works in myterious ways.

Trevor

I still remember the day Brown told me that Lelo was carrying that
barstard' s baby, I don't wanna lie and say I took it easy like a
man cause i didn't. I felt like a part of me had been taken away by
some unknown fellow, I felt like I was missing something untill I
realised that it was Inno, she is that part of me that I keep on
losing bit by bit and it hurts me so much that I can't live anyday
without thinking of her. Since that day I've been drinking non stop
trying to forget about Her and my suddenly irritating daughter. I've
accumulated so much hate for Amo and even myself can't define
the reason why but by looking at her I just become irritated, truth
be told is I hate her, I hate that she is living and I hate that she is
mine, I hate that child with everthing in me. Today I decided on
going to Johhanesburg for a few days, I need to find a way to kill
that baby Inno is carrying before she becomes too attached to it,
and I can't let that boy win, I just can't be beaten by a boy that's
embarrassing plus we all know that I'm the rightful husband for
Inno, she is my wife and I have to do something before it is too
late.

Lelo
Me: I'm sorry I couldn't let you explain earlier, I wasn't fair I now
know
I said to a busy Shaz, she was folding her clothes
Her: I swear I didn't know he was the very same guy who
kidnapped you, you know I wouldn't have....
I stopped her from continuing cause i saw how much She had
fallen for him
Me: nah it fine, I'm happy if you are happy
Her face lightened up
Her: so you saying I should....you don't have a problem With us
dating??
I nodded and she screamed
Her:God I'm so relieved
Me: I just hope he treats you well
Her: honey he is soooo goooood I tell you
I smiled
Me: you realy love him don't you ?
She nodded smiling
Her: he's so perfect babe and different from all those dicks I've
come across
I loughed
me: ay you realy worship the guy shame
Her: and I see Mr hotty is treating you well too
Me: you've got no idea, It would be my luck if he doesn't call inthe
next coming minutes
she loughed
Her: and I see baby hotty is growing too
Me: this one is abusing me
Her: still can't believe you are about 6 nonths pregnant, girl
borrow me your body when they knock me of too
Me: we not all this lucky babe
Her: ay but I've never seen your case except on tv, you know " I
didn't know I was pregnant"
I nodded
Her: I've always thought they were playing with us and now that
I've seen your senario trust me I believe them bitches.
Well we chilled for almost an hour with her trying to choose the
right outfit for her date. Nick was gonna come and fetch her at 7
and we had an hour left now
Me: ay you such a drama queen shame
I said clapping my hands
Her: a girl has to look good darling
Me: I couldn't survive your life
her: like I wouldn't survive yours too
After a long 30 minutes she finally decided what to wear
Me: Nick won't stop staring at that ass
Her: that the idea honey
We both loughed. Someone knocked.
Her: I need the bathroom please take care of that
I nodded and got up to open. Nicks eyes caught me, he still had
the same scent.
Me: mmhm come in
I made way for him he got in looking all good, no doubt that he
was a charmer shame.
Him : you look.....mnhmm...
Me: pregnant you can say it..
I said smiling
Him: so you are pregnant
Me: that what I said
His facial changed, like as if he was annoyed or irritated
Me: you owkay??
Him: I'm good, so who is the father??
Me: non of your business
Him: Nina knows?
Me: I realy don't care about Her
Him: I see
Just then Shaz came in and kissed him then smiled at me.
Her: I hope i gave you guys enough time to talk
Him: yeah...right Lelo??
I nodded, Nick was realy weird, his look was absurd.Shaz smiled
and so did I.
Her:we will be gone then, don't wait up
Me: trust me I know better
She winked at her then they were gone. I decided to watch teen
wolve on my laptop while eating.

Narrated

After a long phone call about directions and every little information
about Lelo and Musa, they both sighed hoping everything goes
well.
Him: are you sure this plan will go well?
Voice : I wouldn't recommend it If it wasnt going to
Him: I hope it does then cause she has so much protection from
the Ngema family, and you know....
Voice: stop it, we can't be negative now
Him: okay then consider it done

Insert 52

Nina

I'm sitting on my bed feeling defeated, tears streams out of my

eyes as they lands on my baby girl's beautiful innocent face. I
don't know what went wrong and I cant understand how it came to
this. Yes we attended church yersterday but it seems like we were
wasting our time. My mom asked the reverend aside after church
and he agreed, we told him our problem after seeing that he was
perfoming miracles during the service . I don't want to lie and say
I believed everything I saw there but the work of Almighty can
suprise one. Ok back to the pastor, well he took my baby who just
looked at him as if he was crazy or something. He prayed for her
in silence throwing my poor baby up and down. For a moment he
prayed and then in silence for some time. Mom and I were
watching him pray for her while we didn't know what to do or say,
I won't say we don't believe in God cause we do but we've never
realy been that keen on knowing more about Christ. Growing up I
did attend church but you know as soon as one becomes a teen
we wanna do what we want to do so church was the last thing on
my mind. After some time Pastor looked at us shaking his head.
He was looking at my poor baby then handed her to mom.
" I need to pray for the mother" he spoke to me he started right
away praying even in tounges, his hands were searching through
out my whole body that I tensed up when he touched my breast
with one and my but with another, still he didnt stop but kept on
saying those unkown tounges of theirs loudly, It took more than
minutes for him to finish after that he smiled again and I didn't
realy understand why the smiling.
" everything will be alright you just need to do what I ask of you "
he said eyeing me weirdly. " as long as my baby becomes herself
again I will do anything" I said after taking Amo from mom. " I
understand your daughter's situation and I'm willing to help you
although it gonna be along process" he attered blinking much. "
we will do anything Pastor Denzel, just say the word" mom said. "
you come this coming wednsday we have a service later then we
will see the way forwad". We both nodded and took our staff
making our way out." You have a beautiful daughter Mrs Jacobs
I'm sure the boys are always running after her" he said while we
were going out and mom just smiled at him. And yes that how our
moment at church ended, although he said he will help us but I
wasn't sure because that pastor seemed too good to be true or
maybe I've lost that much hope.

Back to today, I looked at my baby who looked more like his

father the one who has resented him. I took my phone and dialed
his dijits. It rang and rang till the white lady spoke. I called him
again and this time he answered it.
Him: what do you want? ?
His voice was sending chillies in my body, I don't know if I was
scared or happy to hear him speak, I gues my baby's situation
has confused a part of me greatly.
Me: I...mmhm..I thought I could.....
I couldn't utter no word, tears streamed out voluntary
Him: I dont have all day Nina talk man
I breathed in then wiped my tears away
Me: I miss you Trev
Him: okay
He was so cold but I'm used to this kind of Trevor, I mean he was
never nice to me
Me: your daughter misses you too
He chuckled
Him: you mean that doll you living with in your house?
Me: she's not a doll !
I snapped
Him: she is and im tired of feeding something that eats and
sleeps, I think it's time I stop sending you money cause that baby
of yours is useless.
Me: she is still your baby Trev and we will find help for her.
I said
Him: keep dreaming baby girl that thing doesn't need help, she
will always be a domkop and please stop calling me if you will talk
about her.
He hanged up on me, not that I was suprised just that maybe I
expected more. I love Trevor and he knows that I always tolerate
his bullshit but I think now it's enough, I'm one hell of a beautiful
sexy woman, and I can find myself any man I want, now I don't
realy care about love,cause look where it got me, now I'm stuck
with a beautiful babygirl that I can't even show off with, I can't
even post Her pictures on instagram and Facebook because she
looks like some kind of a growing doll with no feelings just
breathing.

Trevor

When Nina called i was realy in a bad mood and she made it
worse by talking about that stupid baby of hers. I dont realy hate
nina but i dont love her either i just need her for my sexual
desires cause i know im safe with her not this stupid hoes who
sleeps around with everyman. Well I dropped the call and
immediately regreted doing so after realising that I haven't been
sexually active this past few days and the frustration was too
much. I sighed and called her. She answered onthe sixth ring yes
I counted.
Me: what were you doing?
I said seriously cold towards her, I know she is used to this me.
Her: I'm not your little puppet Trevor
she said broadly and I chuckled in disbelief
Me: I see you've learned to talk back
Her: what do you want?
Me: I want you to come to JHB tommorow before 2pm and I'm not
going to argue with you.
Her: you think I'm some call girl huh?? And what are you doing in
Gauteng??
Me: that's non of your business
She chuckled
Her: you still after Lelo?? Oh shame poor Trevor....
Me: I won't say this twice
Her: I'm not coming
I chuckled
Me: Khabonina!
Her: I'm not stupid Trev, I may love you and you may be the
father of my child but I'm not stupid.
Me: mxm you think I can't get any girl that i want? ?
Her: then why are calling me??
Me: because I wanted to make you feel special dummy, when last
did you get yourself some nice dick
she chuckled
Her: and you think i will leave my not so well baby for some nice
dick , honey I see dicks wherever I head and if I want one I will
surely get i..
Me: don't dare me Nina. .
Her: no you don't fucken dare me Trev, I'm tired of your stunts
and coldness and hatred towards my baby, I'm tired of you nigga
just leave me the fuck alone cause mna I ain't your sex slave
man.
Me: I'm gonna get you for this little bitch
Her: mxm
Me: and you forget I don't make loose threats bitch so you better
be here tomorrow.
I dropped the call and continued plotting my plan, I knew axcatly
what to do, I'm gonna shoot Lelo' s stomach if the poisoning plan
doesn't kill that baby. I hate hurting her but this is a must do and I
already have someone who will do this for me, someone who is
atleast or a little bit close to her.

Narrated

He was looking at the beautiful woman laying next to her. She

was the best and had one amazing sense of humour. Her body
was one that man could kill to have except that he wasn't that
man. Yes he enjoyed her company but his heart felt nothing for
her except that he had to act as if he cared. Her small beautiful
sexy eyes landed at his and he smiled looking at her seductively.
Him: slept well??
She nodded and kissed his sexy lips
Him: we better wake up now since you still have to go.
Her: it's a Monday and I'm not writing
She said throwing her hair backwards after getting up heading to
the bathroom
Him: still i'd hate to leave you here alone since I'm going to work
Her: I will be fine Nick, you will find me here waiting for you
yummy
She shouted from the bathroom. He sighed and got up making
the bed after hearing the sound of running water. Shaz is realy a
good girl who has been hurted so many times by boys, yes she
has shared her deepiest secretes with him and he knew how she
hated man after 3 guys left her heartbroken which is why she
decided on no strings attached relationships. He went to the
bathroom too and found her stripping to the flowing water. She
was realy hot but sadly he wasn't feeling her the way he felt for
Lelo. Yes he was convinced that Lelo was the girl for him and he
will do anything to get close to her even if it means faking his
feelings for Shaz. He joined her and they took a long ass shower
together. He got out first, lotioned his body and wore only his
briefs. He went to the kitchen and started on preparing breakfast
for them. He thought about their yersterday love making session,
how he perfectly pictured Lelo as he grinded inside of Shaz, he
was perfect he told himself.everytime Shaz moaned he
Convinced himself that it was Lelo and she was enjoying him. He
went to the fridge and took out his alcohol, he was still making
breakfast picturing the sexy Lelo coming to the kitchen smiling to
the smell of food. He smiled on his own but his smile disappeared
immediately after remembering that Lelo is pregnant, she is Lelo
is pregnant!. He strongly kicked the chair which flew to the other
side of the kitchen. " she can't be pregnant, she cant be dammit "
, after hearing footsteps coming his way he pulled himself
together.
Her: is everything alright?? I heard some noise. ..
She asked looking at him
Him: everything is well babe,mmmhm breaksfast is ready...
He said looking down
Her: smells delicious honey
Him: I'm not only good in bed baby
Her: who would have known
He chuckled and they started digging in.

She rubbed her stomach steady sitted on the couch. Her parents
wanted answers and she had to give them. She knew exactly
whose baby She was carrying but her parents will disown her if
she ever told them about Mr Brown. " child talk" her mother
shouted, she was the child of Mrs and Mr Khubonye, her mother
is the principal of a high school while her dad is a well respected
doctor. Her parents has worked hard for her to get everything
except that they were the strictest parents ever. " don't look at us
as if we are foreigners Neo tell us who impegnated you" her
father said. Unlike her mother her father was calm." We thought
that you were studying there kanti you are busy entertaining boys
huh??" Her mother again. She looked at their dissapointed faces
and wondered who told her parents that she is pregnant cause
she has never saw them up untill yersterday when they asked her
to come home quickly, but then she thought it was some
emergency not that she knew which but the thought of them
knowing didn't hit her which is why she came wearing a loose
summer dress which hided her tummy well." I'm sorry" that all she
could say."We don't want to hear your stupid sorries, we want to
know who is responsible for this " her mother shouted. She
seemed like she was losing patient and she knew the
circumstances of that. " some boy from campus" she finally said."
And he doesn't have a name?" Her mother again. She tried so
hard to say it but words failed her, she sighed so hard after
breathing in."Musa Ngema, that's his name" she said.

Lelo

"My head God ahhhhh babe"I screamed laying on the couch

Musa came in running, I was at his flat ..
Him: sthandwa sami what's wrong??
Me: my head babe it killing me
I was now crying out loud, I was experiencing this unexplainable
headache and my head felt like it was about to explode. I cried
Me: babe it's.....it's painful
Him: what do you need babe cause you did take tablet few
minutes ago
Yes I had some pills minutes ago thinking it will go away but the
stupid headache became worse.
Me: I don't know Musa
I said touching my head frustrated
Him: let's got to the hospital then
I shook my head no
Him: okay let pray then
I chuckled, out of all things Musa suggested we pray
Me: wow
Him: what? it a suggestion nje
He made a puppy like face trying so hard to make me feel better,
something in me encouraged me to pray and I wont say what
cause i too doesnt know.
Me: let us pray
Him: huh??
Me: pray as in pray baby
He smiled
Him: I know what ''pray" means loves
Me: ok then sing first
He loughed so hard, this stupid guy of mine though
Him: baby we ain't at church that ridiculous
Me: I know dummy but we can't just pray out of the blue
Him: ok then lets read the bible
Me: you open the verse sweety
Him: am I paying for something??
I chuckled
Me: no why
Him: cause it seems like you are punishing me now
I smiled
Me: no babe go and take the bible Ntate Ngema I'm waiting and
this killer headache ain't getting better.
He rushed and came back with it already paging it non stop.
Him:I think I found the verse
Me: or the verse found you
Him: you not funny Mma Brown
Me: I'm just kidding hle Ntate Ngema
he smiled, ay this one
Him: Exodus 14v14
Me: yes baby
He smiled giving that look
Him: " the Lord will fight for you while you keep silent"
Me: amen pastor Ngema
Him: haa.a babe you not being serious
Me: haw pastor I am
He loughed
Him: now let's pray
We both went on our knees and started praying, every word i
uttered broke something in me, i felt like I was being relieved from
some dark magic. The headache became worse but when we
held hands together with my heart things started going flames,
we prayed so hard that we couldn't stop and out of the blue the
headache dissapeared.
Me: you said it in your word father that no evil can prosper against
us, that you are our light our salvation, on "Isaiah 40v31" you said
that those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength, that they
will mount up with wings like eagles, they will run and not get
tired, that will walk and not become weary" father please guide us
and protect us from evil, we know we not saints and we not
perfect but mighty Lord we ask for your mercy, please be with us
along with our families, may this fights and hatred filling between
our families end, and God before I forget please protect my baby,
please protect us and protect my heart, Lord give him strength
that no matter what happens he shall be able to stand next to me,
God you know I love him and its probably wrong that we
commited a sin, " I mean sex before marriage " but father you
gave us this child and the last one we lost, and a child is a
blessing coming from you so please father protect your child,
protect the blessing you gave us inthe nme of Jesus Christ amen.
Him: amen
He said smiling at me
Me: it's gone
Him: huh??
Me: the headache dummy
Him: thank you father Mma pastor is alright
I loughed
Him: I love you reverend me
Me: I so love you pastor Ngema
Him: and this blessing God gave us
He said touching my tummy and we smiled laying on the couch.
Insert 53

Lelo

After writing we went straight to Musa' s flat finding his parents

waiting for us. I won't say I wasn't scared cause i was.
Him: I wonder how you guys got in.
He said looking at his mom who just smiled at us.
Her: that our secrete right honey??
She said looking at her husband who just smiled deeply. He
looked more like Musa instead of his older son Philani.
Me: mmhm ninjani ma??
I realy was scared of them although they were the sweetest
people on earth.
Her: we good baby thank you.
I smiled and went to the bedroom and this fool of mine decided to
follow me. His mom shouted " don't take too much time in there
we going out in 10 minutes.
She loughed. I looked at Musa who looked suprised too.
Me: did you know that were coming??
Him: I'm shocked like you babe.
Me: okay
Him: for real love
me: okay Musa
I changed to my jeans and struggle to get them up. I cried as I
looked at myself. I was getting fat day by day and I hated it.
Musa came in from the bathroom and found me sitted down inthe
floor sobbing.
Him: babe what's wrong
Me:they don't fit me at all, I'm fat Musa I want my body back.
I know I sounded so weird but it hurted me that I was getting fat.
Him: but baby you are not fat
Me: mxm don't lie to me Musa
Him: okay maybe you've grown some weight but love you look.....
I didn't let him finish just cried out loud.
Me: you see you even say it too,I'm fucken fat and it your baby's
fault.
Him: I'm sorry that my baby is making you fat sthandwa sami.
I looked at this fool of mine, and the thought that his parents were
here suddenly kicked in. I got up and searched for something to
wear but nothing only dresses and skirts fitted me comfortably .
Me: I need new pants
I said wearing my white short dress and he just looked at me.
Me: what??
Him: nothing...mnhmm you will find me with the folks.
Me; no we going out together
Him: haw babe. ...
Me: what?? Help me with my hair
He did and after looking at myself at the mirror, I took my bag and
we found them outside waiting for us. His mom looked at us.
Her: women are driving together
She said taking her husband's car keys and led the way winking
at me. Musa gave me an eye but I just shrugged and followed his
mother, after all what was I supposed to say. I got in and she
started the engine.
Her: you looking good baby
I smiled
Me: thank you ma
Her: I hope he is taking care of you cause if he doesnt i will....
I stopped her
Me: he is, he is the best
I was now smiling on my own thinking of my crazy heart, my
love.She looked at me and smiled
Her: you love him I see
Me: so much..
The fear was nolonger there, this woman was just so warm and
smilefull
Her: it bad enough most people doesn't approve of your
relationship.
Me: I don't understand why
Her: that what we have to find out and I'm hoping you can help
Me: count me in, I wanna know what is it that the Pretorias family
have got over my family that can make my father go in all ways to
make me end up with Trevor.
Her: and we will find out sweety, now all we need to do is to
protect our little Ngema princess cause anything is possible.
Me: what do you mean??
Her: her life is in danger, you are their possession and they won't
hurt you but your baby and Musa.
Me: who??
Her: I think you already know which is why you can't go home
when school closes or after you finish writing
Me: then where am I suppose to go?
Her: you will stay with us baby, with your permission ofcause we
won't force you.
I nodded. The car stopped and that where I realised that we were
at sandton mall. We got out taking our bags with us.
Her: now we will first do a little shopping
Me: and I realy need it
Her: I knew form the swollen eyes that you couldn't find
something to wear
I smiled
Me: it's so frustrating
Her:I know sweety.

Narrated

He stared at the potrait he is always hiding in his tiny office. A

photo of Lelo he stole in instagram. He smiled with tears scrolling
down his eyes, "how pathetic". He thought to himself, "how am I
this obsessed with you, why do I feel like you only belong to
myself" he sighed and took a long breath. He putted the potrait
back in his cupboard and took his phone. He dialed someone's
numbers.
Him: I'm taking up your offer
Voice: are you sure??
Him: I'm sure as long as she ends up with me at the end.
He hated the idea of sharing her but now he didn't have a choice,
he had to sacrifice somethings to get her.
Voice: bro don't get cold feet then cause if you do we are screwed
Him: I'm prepared to risk my life for her, I've come across the
Ngema family before so I know what they are capable of.
Voice: atleast you know. What I'm gonna do is send you every
thing we gonna need and when I'm done with that bitch I will
leave her all for you and you gonna decide what you do with her.
Him: glad we understand each other man, now let put out the plan
into action cause schools are closing soon.
Voice: her last exam is in five days as you see we don't have
time.
Him: we better hurry up then
Voice: im counting on you Nick.

At the brown household

He stared at her daydreaming wife irritated. He now knew that his
wife was inlove with that Sam person she dreams about at night.
Yes she said his name out loud the previous night while she was
sleeping. He still recalls how soflty she mouned his name out
loud.
Him: thinking about your man??
He asked trying so hard to hold the anger within himself. He has
been busy trying to find solutions about Inno' s pregnancy and
time was running out. He didn't even have one and didn't know
what to do without hurting her but all he knew was that she had to
lose that baby.
Her: leave me alone Brown
She snapped
Him: you still married to me you know that right?? Woman you still
my fucken wife
He shouted
Her: how could I forget that when you remind me everytime you
get a chance.
Him: now do your wife duties
He said getting up heading to his bedroom
Him: I won't say another word wife

She was with Shaz who was all smiley telling her about the night
at Nick's house. How he spoiled her rotten and how he made love
to her like some God.
Her: chommie I tell you that nigga knows his way around the
bedroom and kitchen.
She said smiling while Neo was trying so hard to concentrate on
her but she couldn't. Her phone rang, she looked at the screen
and sighed
Her: I will be back, I have to take this.
Shaz nodded and she went outside.
Her: please tell me you are ready
Her voice handled worry
Him: we are ready? The boys need assurance in How much we
gonna get when we abduct her.
Her: I'm sure you will walk away with 40000 each of you
He chuckled
Him: are you being for real
Her: yes, it's just the three of you right? ?
Him: yeah, we will make it happen tommorow then.
Her: take her to the township
Him: will talk after the job is done.

Narrated

Standing by the window watching as the wind blew nature and the
raindrops falling on the dust. The church tidy with people getting
in one by one filling every chair unoccupied. It was a Thursday
and mostly have come to get blessings and get healed. Bishop
Denzel was one of the most famouse phrofets around the area.
His church was always full and mostly filled with rich people from
high places. He was wifeless and always said that God gave him
this gift to heal his people so He doesn't have time for families
and no woman will ever accept his busy life because He is never
home but always healing and setting people free. He went up to
the pulpit and started greeting everyone. A young lady with the
most precious voice sang along with people joining her. After a
whole lot of singing he started preaching the word of God. He
went on and on and then asked for those who needed prayer to
come inthe front. People got up and headed infront raising their
hands. "In the name of Jesus Christ" he said' he started praying
and praying, people started falling and some were screaming
while some were still standing still. Nina was there with her baby,
her mother couldnt come because of work. Right then when she
went infront all traumatised of what was happening, pastor Denzel
stopped her, she then remained in her sit holding baby Amo. After
some time the service was out, people left to their places and it
was just Nina and him. He came next to her and smiled.
Him: I see you made it
He said playing with a still baby Amo.
Her:my baby needs help
Her voice was trembling a little bit with tears threatening her eyes
Him: we all need help
She raised her eyebrow and looked at him, he smiled admiring
her beauty and soft skin with her round teary eyes.
Her:.I gues so
She didn't say much, she didn't know what to say.
Him: let go talk in my office
He didn't give her time to answer him but just led the way. She
followed him walking slowly. She wasn't sure why he chose the
office instead of remaining at the church. He coughed as he saw
that she was lost in her thought
Him:care to share
she sighed and shook her head saying it nothing.
Him: you can give her to me, I'm gonna start with her.
He said maintaining his eyes, Nina was wearing a knee royal
blue dress that fitted her body too well showing her figure all out
and her breast standing too well. He couldn't hold himself and the
devil in him wanted her as much as he wanted her. He took baby
Amo and started praying for her, he noticed that she wasn't sick
but bewitched although he knew that he couldn't say because the
person who bewitched her was the very same person who gave
him powers for people to love and trust him, and for them to be
blinded and believe that he was God sent to heal them although
all he wanted was money and power. He pretended that he was
praying and when he was done and putted her down forcing a
smile, now he had to pray for the mother and hopefully he will be
able to deceive her. He touched her head and started praying, his
hands started searching her body, she opened her eyes quickly
with fear. He smiled and looked at her " yes Father talk to me,
your child need help God let me help her, give me strength mighty
one give me strength " he shouted pretending he was talking to
God." Let me help her God, although it might be hard but father
She has faced so much pain, she deserves the best God you
gave her the child, she is connected to it she can't lose it"he
continued with Nina trying so hard to understand him and stay
calm. After some time he stopped and stared at her beautiful
eyes.
Him: you hold the healing of your child, It is now in your hands....
She looked at him weird, what did he mean??
Him: your child's life is in your hands " or father God make this
easier" he said
Her: I don't understand
Him: In order for your child to live you have to be enganged in
sexual intercourse with the man of God.
He said not blinking, she chuckled
Her: no way pastor
Him: I gues you don't believe in God
Her: maybe I dont
Him: so how would you feel if your baby
Die and you know you would have been able to help her, such a
beautiful princess.
He said looking at Amo.
Her: I just don't understand how sleeping with you will help my
baby
He exhaled hard
Him: this child is way connected to you than it father , In my
prayers I've found that your pain has damage her brain, the things
you've gone through affected her so much and only you can
relieve her from it.
Her: huh??how ??
Him: during your pregnancy you were always stressed about the
father of your child, you even went to witches hoping they help
you, all along the stress you carried affected her, I know that one
of the witches you consulted even suggested that you sacrifice
her.
Nina was shocked to hear all that, she was suprised on how did
he know cause it only herself who knew what heppened.
Her: how did you??
Him: God shows me everything, and I do what he asks of me to
help his children.
He said after feeling that he was winning her.
Her: you saying I caused this on my baby?
He nodded and tears scrolled down her face looking at her baby.
Ofcause she loved her and she knew that she was her life, that
why she couldn't sacrifice her. She finally found her courage and
looked at Bishop Denzel.
Her: I will do it
Him: say you will do it inthe name of Jesus Christ our saviour.
Her: I will do it inthe name of Jesus Christ our saviour.

Musa

After a long day with the parents we were finally home alone.
Me: so what were you talking about with mom cause i know her
She smiled and shook her head
Her: woman staff baby
Me: mxm uright
Her: she said my father might harm our baby
Me: dad said so too, I dont know what to say babe
Her: can he do that?? I mean I'm his baby love he cant hurt me
like that
Me: we dont know love but he will do anything to break us apart
and you know it too
Her: I know love, it's just so hard to believe that my own father
can be this wicked against his own only daughter
Me: I know its hard to believe it my love .
well we continued talking untill we fell asleep.

" their blood binds then together, by blood they are one " their
blood binds then together" their blood binds then together" their
blood binds then together" their blood binds then together"
hahahaahahhah you will never rule her heart, it already belongs
to someone, hehehehe waste no time find the right girl for
yourself, she will leave you for him'she will leave you for him' she
will leave you for him, or else death will take her away from you or
else death will take her away from you" hahahahaaha leave her
before you burn hahahaha you will never find peace in your lives
as long as you are seen together" you will never find peace you
dont belong together"
Hahahahahah😂😂😂😂�😂😂😂

Insert 54

Musa
I'm in a dark forest unable to spot any material or living thing. I
cant see the way so I'm stuck between remaining where I am or
moving and taking the risk of my life. I decide to move slowly
kicking with my feet trying to feel wherever Im going. I can't seem
to notice anything and there is no light not even from a far
distance. I'm hearing voices screaming but they do not have any
direction from where they are coming from. I feel like someone or
something is watching me and I turn only to see darkness. I feel
defeated cause I'm going no where, I can't seem to be leaving this
blur area and I find myself kneeling down. I don't know what
made me do that but I bow my head and start praying. Inbetween
my prayers i hear voices, loud feminime voices shouting trying by
all means to make me lose it.

" their blood binds then together, by blood they are one " their
blood binds then together" their blood binds then together"
their blood binds then together" their blood binds then together"
hahahaahahhah you will never rule her heart, it already belongs to
someone, hehehehe waste no time find the right girl for yourself,
she will leave you for him'she will leave you for him' she will leave
you for him, or else death will take him away from you or else
death will take her away from you" hahahahaaha leave her before
you burn hahahaha you will never find peace in our lives as long
as you are seen together" you will never find peace you dont
belong together"
Hahahahahah😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂"
I struggle to breath, It's different voices saying one thing, their
laughter makes it an effort to break me down, I'm still kneeling
down and now I've stopped praying. Again they say the same
thing
" leave what is ours alone" they shout while I lose every energy in
me, feels like everytime they say something and my ears gets hold
of it I lose myself. " stop it stop" I shout back nervously. Whatever
this people are surely evil, their voices can make one have an
heart attack the very same moment they open their mouths. "
leave what is ours alone" , I lean back struggling to keep balance, I
don't understand what is it that i have to leave alone, I don't even
get how I came here at the first place. "You will never win, and if
you do you will through death" one voice spoke, it was not gentle
but it was atleast calm." Who are you? ?" I snap and it loughs it
evil lough that I found myself fearing for my life. All this happens
im still stuck in an evil forest, I get cold feet cause only I can hear
voices but i cant see anyone. "do not be afraid for I am with you"
an angelic voice says as my weakness has taken place and I can't
seem to be stronger with this fear kicking in stronger. I manage to
look up and finaly there is light, a beautiful baby boy with wings
lightens up the place,I dont undestand cause this is just a baby
boy, barely 2 years old. " it is not safe here, you've got to go" I say
as he continues smiling non stop. He is so beautiful and I dont
know why he is here at the first place." She belongs with you, do
not give up on her" he says and I notice a few tears scrolling down
his cute little face." Who are you talking about, what is going on
here?" I'm lost and this people are confusing me." She doesn't
belong with him and you know that" a huge scary voice says with
so much anger that I find myself getting scared, I turn and a huge
cat is standing beside me.I'm scared as fuck it's so scary I can't
even look at it for a second, it appearance tries to blackens the
light made by the baby boy but it doesn't succeed." She is ours,
you can't change that" it says again. " she is pure, you are evil,
those two doesn't mix" the boy whispered, he is calm as ever he
doesn't look scared at all while me on the other side I'm about to
shit on myself. I mean i have this scariest cat next to me which
doesn't seem to be any kind,it has this long filthy nails that makes
me wonder what kind of cat it is. " you can say all you want but
the fact remains, he doesn't belong with her",the cat said with it
deep scary voice. Right there I became more scared cause it was
shouting with it beastly voice, of which cats doesn't have . I move
a little away from it." What is happening here, am i dreaming" shit
I was freaking out, I am dreaming cause this ain't possible, a
talking cat and a flying baby, it has to be some fairy story.
" hahaahaha little boy run and never look back"..the baby boy
disturbed it "boast no more so very proudly,do not let arrogance
come out of your mouth for the Lord is the God of knowledge
and with him actions are weighed" he said turning a little with his
with wings then he looked at me " the Lord will fight for you while
you keep silent, Do not be afraid, again ask and you shall receive
so that your joy may be made full " he smiled and dissapeared. I
looked around and the cat has dissapeared too." Baby wake up" a
sweet voice said, I opened my eyes to be met by my very own
heart.
Her: one would say you are the one pregnant.
I yawned and it hit me that I was dreaming.
Me: what time is it
Her: mmhm about 12 love
Me: was I that sleepy??
Her: yess baby, I tried waking you up but you were that deep
asleep, hope you weren't dreaming about your hoes
I chuckled
Me: someone Is jelouse
Her: mxm and im serious
Me: don't worry baby mama I ain't got no hoes but you my heart
Her: ain't no baby mama mna
I loughed
Me: just kidding my pineapple
She smiled
Her: so, why the long sleeping ?
Me: let just say a terrible dream heppened
Her: oh
me: you won't get it
Her: owk go take a shower, we need to study.
I got up and kissed her forehead, the words " don't give up on her
" rang in my mind and i found myself speaking out loud.
Me: I ain't gonna give up on you Mbulelo
She turned and looked at me with her beautiful smile, I just
became weak.
Her: I know bbe
Me: i love Mbulelo wami
Her: i love you more Musawami

Nina

I been trying so hard to block every thought about yersteday. If

you asking yourself I did it or what, yes i did. I slept with bishop
Denzel and it was in experience I never wanna repeat ever. The
man changed into things I've never come across, I don't even
think they've played them on movies too cause that shit was
scary. I kept on pushing him until I couldn't no more, he was so
strong and his face kept on changing to different animals, the last
I remember was a black scary cat, its moans were so deep and
strong, note that it was only his face that was changing while
everything else remained human." If you say one word about this,
you and your baby will die and your mother will follow with your
brother too" he said after he was done tearing my Apple. I cried
feeling pained him physically and emotionally, I was even afraid of
looking at him not sure of what i might see." You were a good
girl, your baby will heal" he said picking up his pants. Yes we did it
at his office on his desk right next to my kid, he said that she had
to see this for her to heal, and my stupidity agreed." We should
do it again, I mean for your baby to recover sooner" that was him
again. I wore my clothes in mute mode while he was blabbing non
stop. I took my baby and got out of that filthy church, I made it a
mission to not even look back. I dont know how mAny times I've
washed my body but still I can smell that filthy barstard." What
realy happened yersterday"asked my mom who was feeding Amo.
I sighed and tried very hard to not let this tears control me, I
asked this for myself, all his pain I caused myself, If I stayed far
away from Lelo's man I wouldn't be feeling such, I would be a
normal teenager, doing her first year in varsity and have the most
handsome boy ever in my life but no, I betrayed my only friend
for a dick that left me pregnant with an abnormal baby that I now
can't stand cause I've done everything and almost sold my soul to
the devil just to make her feel better again, for her to be a normal
kid, to play and smile but no even after I've slept with a snake of a
pastor still she doesnt get better. I looked at my mom with my
already teary eyes.
Her: talk to me baby
Me: I'm just tired, all of this is too much, I can't do it anymore
mom
Her: haw baby I thou....
Me: stop it ma, no one is able to help my baby, I might as well
give up.
Her: what about pastor Denzel?what did he say??
I sighed, hearing his name just killed my mood more, that Satan.
Me: he can't help us ma, let's just accept that I'm raising a doll.
I ran to my room already crying, I can't live like this, first thing
tomorrow I'm gonna give Trevor his daughter, he and his family
will see what they do with her, as for me I'm done, because I will
end up killing myself because of this baby.

Narrated

" we managed to talk to him, although that baby is protecting him

in so many ways" said the witch doctor. Both families were there
except for Mrs Brown who didn't come even when her husband
tried by all means to scare her, she didn't give in." And another
thing, we can't let your daughter have the baby, so we have to act
now, and since we can't touch her in any spiritual form we have to
find someone to kill the baby for us" , she said not even smiling a
bit. " and how do you suggest we do that, and how" Mr Brown
said concerned."who is going to do that" asked Mr Pretorias. "
some one she trust and so very close to her" the witch continued,"
we should be able to find ways to get to her boyfriend, the only
person she trusts with her life and If we succeed since he is not
realy that much powerful in prayer, we can be able to switch off
his emotions, creates hatred in his heart and make him resent Lelo
ending up wanting to kill her, but then that is a huge risk to take
since we want her alive, so we need to make sure he only kills the
baby not her", all of them looked at her with no words to utter. "
the ancestors will help us, we should be able to capture the boy's
spirit while he is asleep, right there our mission starts, we then
build a heavy heart but I will need your help too" she said looking
at Mr Brown. " and what will that be"? He asked.
" I will need your daughter's favourate material and if not her
DNA, whether it a toothbrush or her blood, anything that
connects me to her", she said, both families gathered together for
dinner then left to their houses.

Morning came, Mrs Brown woke up feeling good, she has a date
with Sam. She took a long shower and wore her beautiful maroon
not so long dress with her black heels, weave onpoint and so does
make up. She looked at herself one more time then took her
clutch bag. Right there she went downstairs, Drank water and
headed outside. She took her car and left playing Whitney
Houston," I look to you". All along her husband followed her after
taking his gun . He was tired of his wife's ways and disrespect,
today he was gonna show her flames. He stopped not far away
from her car and got out hiding, Mrs Brown got in her favourite
restaurant smiling non stop as she spotted her date. Sam got up
welcoming her, he opened the chair for her." How romantic" she
said smiling." You look like a goddess " he said" aren't you a
charmer" she smiled already sitted. They ordered their food and
ate talking non stop. Sam realised that Mrs Brown was one kind
person and he was falling for her magically so. " I had a good time
' he said exiting the restaurant."breakfast was amazing" she
blushed." We should do it often" he was leaning by her car
waiting for her to get in. All along Mr brown was trying to find the
right shot in his chest, he had a silencer onn since he didnt want
to cause havoc, finally he managed to point it directly to him, now
he had to pull down the trigger. He closed his eyes and
immediately shot him, he didn't know that the very same moment
when he pulled the trigger, Sam will lean for a kiss, and now he
didn't know who he shot, his wife or Sam??

Nina

" we should have everything by now" I shouted putting Amo's

toys and bags in the car. I had made up my mind and I wasn't
going to change it. I called Trevor while getting inside, he
answered onthe third ring.
Him: you again
Me: yes me again, I'm on my way to your parent's house and I
thought I should let you know
Him: to do what exatly
Me: give them your kid, I'm tired, your family too should know
how it feels to be me, and trust me I don't care if they love or hate
my baby because at the end it their gran daughter like it or not.
I heard him sigh
Him: you not giving my family that thing you hear me?
He shouted
Me: oh baby I am, you better let them know.
I knew that Trevor was still in JHB doing whatever so this was
good for me cause I know that if he was here, he would be at my
crib the very same moment I threatened him.
Him: I'm warning you Nina
Me: continue warning brother.
I dropped the call and looked at my baby. Outside the Pretorias
residence I looked at her one more time." I'm sorry but I have to
do this baby, mom can't do it anymore, I know I promised you a
happy home but this is too much, you are too much, just know
that mommy loves you and she tried everything " In every word i
cried so hard while she looked at me emotionless, I couldn't deal
with this any more, this was too much." I love you baby, I love you
so much princess yami"😭😭

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Narrated
" we only have today and tommorow, we can't afford to miss this
chance" Neo shouted at the guy onthe phone.
Him: we on our way, just trust us on this one.
Her: you better deliver, remember how much daddy's princess
costs.
Him: that you don't have to say, we will be in touch.
She sighed and ended the call.

" help somebody help, oh shit no " he screamed holding her tight,
she just fell on his arms the moment the bullet made contact with
her body, she looked at him as if she was taking her last breath. "
yall just standing here looking, what the fuck is wrong with you
people, can't you see she's losing her life " he shouted already
picking her up in bridal style and putting her inside her car, within
minutes he was driving like a mad person using the maximum
speed. All along Mr Brown saw what he just did, he couldn't
believe what he just did, he rushed to his house not wanting to
look suspicious and waited for someone to let him know about her
wife. Going inside he went straight to the living room, took out his
best wine and drank like no other, with tears scrolling down his
face." Fuck" he screamed throwing the glass at the wall, he
banged the table so hard shouting" you made me do this woman"
so loud.

At the Pretorias household

" you can't leave your little witch here with us, how dare you tempt
us like this" she shouted at the poor Nina, that was Trevor's
mother, this woman was one heartless person Nina has ever
know. She looked at her as she continued calling her and her
baby names, she couldn't even cryt this time around she had
cried enough because of this child, and today she told herself that
she won't cry, well especially not infront of this cruel family, she
couldn't even believe that she wanted to be their daughter in law,
how could she be so blind? " I don't want to find you here when I
get back" she yelled again taking her Gucci bag, and shaking her
hipless and bootyless body, Nina just looked at her not saying any
word. Trevor's father came down with his mother, they both gave
her the same looks she was given by Mrs Pretorias.
" what do we have here" Mr Pretorias asked as if he was seeing
nothing. Nina gave him the" don't dare me" look and blinked twice
tryin to gather her strength.
" I brought your gran child, that all" she putted her on the nearest
couch and smiled" i will be on my way" she said not giving them a
chance to say anything. " you cant leave her here" grandmother
spoke." Reason why?" She asked and no one answered, she
marched outside to her car after kissing her baby Girl and
whispering" mommy cares and she loves you doll". She got inside
her car and drove off in total speed. Tears streamed out as if she
just lost her baby, she didn't go to her house but straight to a club.

"I've made up my mind

Don't need to think it over
If I'm wrong I am right
Don't need to look no further
This ain't lust
I know this is love but
If I tell the world
I'll never say enough
Cause it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do
If I'm in love with you"

He was turning slowly on his chair listening to Adele "

pavements". He smiled at the thought of watching her sleep and
waking up next to her in the morning. How he has dreamt of
taking her out on a date, watching movies and playing games.
Going out for ice cream and heading back home, making love to
her now and then, and smiling at her cute face. " oh how world
you have turned against me, the only person my heart cries for is
carrying some dickless baby" he thought to himself. Adele
continued playing with him thinking about his only love, his
heartbeat his everything. He got up from his chair and went by the
window looking down at the people going up and down, left and
right. He smiled at the thought of being in arms to arms with Lelo,
him holding her soft hand and smiling while walking around the
park," I will make you happy, I just want to make you happy " he
said out loud. He then went to his table and took out his phone.
He called his sister. She picked up at the fourth ring, the
background was noisy. " are we celebrating something?" He
shouted. Nina laughed at his stupid question." Brother
brother"she said feeling a little bit drousy. She was already drunk
and couldn't even walk.it been a long time since she drank and
today she needed to forget everything, get drunk get a dick and
forget about young Amo. Nick was getting irritated seeing that his
little sister was drowning herself in alcohol, he didnt know her like
this, he knew the strong little sister who has always fought for
what hers, they both grew up fighting and were taught to never
give up, If you want something, go get it, which is why he wasn't
letting go of Lelo, he was gonna get her, wife her and live eternal
life with her. " Nina you better go home right now, and please call
a cab cause you cant drive like this" he shouted. " oh stop acting
as if you care Nick just leave me the hell alone" she shouted
back. She felt like no one cared for her, no one has ever asked
her about her feelings except for her mother." Of cause I care
man why would I not, you my little sister dummy and I know you
not stupid to get drunk over a stupid boy "he shouted again. "
don't tell me what to do Nick, you never asked me how I was
except calling me and asking me questions about Lelo, seems
like everyone only cares about that little bitch not Nina, so please
spare me the useless concerns dear brother" she ended the call
and continued drinking." Another one " she shouted at the
bartender. Nick sat down struggling with his thoughts. He wanted
to ask Nina, Lelo' s favourite colour, but after her snapping, he
couldn't do that and yes she we telling the truth about him not
caring, he hasn't asked her how she was coping with all the Amo
drama. He sighed and went back to his day dreaming, picturing
his perfect couple, that would be him and Lelo.

Musa

Tomorrow we will be writing our last examination, I've been

studying with my heart and damn she wasn't letting me rest. It
been 2 hours now and we haven't taken a little short break. I dont
mind studying but man im not realy much of a studying person.
Her: don't look at me like that haw
She said busy writing endless notes
Me: baby im tired hle Mma Brown
Her: just a few more minutes then we done for now ntante.
I laughed
Me: hay this is abuse you know
Her:hay stop being lazy babakhe
Man i blushed the hell out of me, this was the first time She called
me that.
Her: what??
Me: I love you mamakhe
She smiled
Her: stop being silly
Me: you don't love me??
Her: you know I love you
I frowned
Me: say you love me then
She loughed
Her: I love you muntu wami
Me: I wonder what I ate today
She raised her eyebrows
Me: I mean I'm being called by all this cute names" babakhe",
muntu wami" ay mine na😊😊
Her: ay Mara Musa
She said smiling. We continued studying for sometime and then
took a break 45 minutes later..
Me: atlast
I said getting up, she laughed and only that lough can make me
feel better.
Me: want anything??
Her: ummhm yeah
She said biting her lower lip and by doing that I knew exactly what
she wanted.I smiled at her cute begging face.
Me: what is it that you want my love?
She displayed her shy self
Her: ha.aa babe you know
Me: I don't sthandwa sami
Her: Musa you do
Me: I don't for real
I loughed coming closer to her.
Me: tell me what excatly do you want sthandwa sami
I whispered and her eyes locked with mine. From there only our
eyes spoke the feelings we felt, they displayed the love we have
for each other, the struggles we've gone through but together we
came out alive. They spoke the language of true love and
potrayed two hearts that belonged together.
Her: I want you
Her voice activated emotions and foreign feelings in my body,
now I couldn't utter any word, that how effective her voice was to
me. It made me weak and vulnerable, I chose to let my body
speak for me. Our lips came into contact, everything felt like the
first time I kissed her although it had been the thousands time
now. We danced to the sound of our talking emotions, together
we made love in the most romantic way, every moan every say
uttered passionately meant the world, our hearts made one and
so our bodies.We lay down on the floor after the best love making
ever. She looked at me innocently so and i found myself smiling
at her beauty, this is how I wanna spend the rest of my life, with
her, my special somebody.
Her: you staring Mr
Me: at what mine right
She blushed
Her: I love you my heart
Me: your love complete me Mma Brown
She smiled
Her: always remember that when those campus hoes goes after
you
I chuckled
Me: I so love your jealousy babe
Her: I'm not jealous brother
Me: I know you not love
I loughed.

Trevor
" you come and take this stupid baby of yours now Trevor, I never
asked you to go and impregnate some bitch you hear me, now
that little skank of yours left this little witch here at my house" that
was my mother shouting through the phone. I couldn't believe that
Nina could do such a thing after I told her that she should stop her
craziness.
Me: I'm sorry mom I will make a plan of coming over today.
I know that my family doesn't love Nina, and to add to that, Amo is
not a normal baby and my parents can't take care of her so I have
to make it a point that I drive back home now and come back
since I'm still plotting my plan this side.
Her: you better be on your way now Trevor!!!we can't even eat
with this thing of yours staring at us.
She yelled again.
Me: I will be there mom
She ended the call me I called Nina right after that. Her phone
rang and rang, I gues she was ignoring me. I left her a !message"
you better have a reasonable explaination for what you did bitch
nxn".
After that I looked for a flight for today and luckily there was one in
an hour. I took some of my belongings and called a cab to take
me to the airport. within hours I was outside my parent's house. I
got in finding them seated at the table, it was time for dinner. Amo
was sitted on her baby chair not even playing with her toys
although they were around her." Finally" that was my mom.
Me: evening
Her: evening my foot take this rubish out of my house now .
I looked at dad and he shrugged
Me: I will do so, where is the rest of her staff? ?
Her: you asking us to answer you, where were we when you got
inside that girls legs, what were you thinking huh??
I didn't understand why my mother was this angry.
Grandma: at the passage, take her back son
Me: thank you gran
I firstly took her things to my car the took her, just by touching her
my hate for her increased, I didnt understand why but I couldn't
stand her presence. Her cute face didn't even save her from my
hate.
" your mom will know me today, I left important matters for you
shit" I was talking on my own cause this thing couldn't hear me.
With the best speed I rushed to Nina's house. I couldn't wait I just
wanted to strangle the life out of that bitch, how can she
disrespect my orders. Firstly she didn't come to JHB after I told
her I wasn't asking but telling her and now She takes her little
bitch to my parent's house. She realy doesn't know me I tell you.
All this thoughts played on my mind with me driving like a crazy
person that I didn't notice the red robot which led me to drive off
to another car causing two more cars to colide with us.with all
means I tried to stay put but the dizziness got the best out of me. I
remember men yelling and the boom I was out.

Narrated

" are we speaking to Mr Brown " the lady said. " yes it is him" he
said already knowing what she was about to tell him." Sir your
wife was shot, you have to come quickly to the hospital it's an
emergency" she said and every word she said buried Mr Brown
hard. " I will be there now" he said feeling defeated. After ending
the call he took one hot shower then made himself comfortable in
his tracksuits. He looked at himself at the mirror and he couldn't
help it but see a broken man in himself. He wondered what went
wrong, his family was falling apart and he was to blame." But I did
what I did for this family, now where did I go wrong? " that the
question he asked himself.He went straight to the hospital after
sending an sms to Lelo. He shot his cheating wife, if she wasn't
cheating he wouldn't have shot her, She deserved it although it
wasn't his plan to shoot her. He wanted to kill the man she was
seeing not her but what has heppened has happened and nothing
can be done now.

" you choose which way to take, the right way or left?? You
choose" a voice said. He tried looking for the person speaking but
he could not catch sight of anyone. He sighed and stood still
looking at the two ways ahead him. He didn't know where to go,
which one to take." Just choose, follow your heart" The voice
again.

Lelo

Musa kept on turning him stop, I think he was dreaming and

having a bad one. I went to the bathroom to pee, coming back I
found him up about to exit our bedroom.
Me: babe where are you going? ?
He didn't answer me not even looked back, he opened the door
and went out. I think it was about 3 am or something. I followed
him.
Me:love
Still silence
Me: Musa!!
I shouted cause I was getting impatient now. I went ahead him as
he was about to exit the living room to the kitchen.I noticed that
he was still sleeping. Now that was disturbing. His eyes were
closed and his cute lips attached to each other. Fear kicked in
cause what I was seeing scared the shit out of me. I stood infront
him shouting he should wake up.
Me: no Musa wake up please love
He tried pushing me but I stood still, I had to do something to
wake him up cause my screaming wasn't helping. I tripped him
and he fell down hard, I had to.I heard him groan in pain.
Him: fuck what the hell? ?
He opened his eyes slowly running his head.
Me: I'm sorry
I couldn't say much cause I was still shocked by his behaviour.
Him: what happened
Me: I should be asking you, where we you going
He looked at me suprised
Him: where was I going? ?
Me: I asked you nigga
Him: I don't know, weren't we sleeping? ?wait how did I get
here??
I felt defeated, this wasn't normal at all
Me: you were sleep walking
Him: hahaha very funny Mma Brown.
I just looked at him not evening smiling.
Him: you not serious are you??
I nodded.
Him: no I wasn't
Me: then how did you and up here
Him: I need water.
He said getting up, he looked so bad I tell you like as if he was
carrying the world on his shoulders.I wondered what was
happening to my babe. This needed prayer, cause no devil can
prosper and take advantage of us.

Narrated

She came in feeling like a staring, yes it was about to 4 inthe

morning when she entered her house. " i had a good time" that
were the last words she heard from the guy she just had sex with.
She was still drunk as ever when she got inside her house but
immediately went sober when she saw her mother crying soflty
laying down onthe passage floor. She had Amo's little kitty top
with her.She looked at her as she browsed what could be wrong.
Her mother wailed louder the moment she saw her daughter." Oh
my child I'm so sorry" she cried unendless trying by all means to
find strength as she looked at her. Seeing her mother like that
destroyed her" what is it mother " she asked with her already
shaking voice. She noticed her phone next to her and wondered
what kind of news she received, then Her daughter's top hit her.
She suddenly couldn't breath, all the alcohol gone now." Ma what
heppened " she cried along with her mother who couldn't say
much," she is gone".that all she could say. " who"? She asked not
wanting to jump into conclusions, she didn't even want to think
about it" mom" written pain she said " Amo, the hospital called,
she is gone".

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Nina

I struggled to breath, The pain i was feeling was beyond. I couldn't

cry, I couldn't scream, I couldn't react, I just lost every emotion,
whatever I was feeling I've never felt before, not even labour pains
came closer to the pain i was feeling. I felt like my heart was
ripped out forcefully from inside, like as if the world just ended,
that when my body couldn't take it anymore, I felt myself shut
down immediately.

Narrated
Mrs Pretorias and her family were already at the hospital, they
were all worried and shaken by what has happened to their son.
Mrs Pretorias couldn't stop pacing up and down the hospital
passage. The doctors were still busy with Trevor, so they have
said. " I don't know what's taking them so long," she snapped
looking at her husband, " give them time they are still busy" he
said not know what to say. In his mind he blamed himself for
everything that has happened, he couldn't stop thinking about
Amo, his only grand child, the one he sacrificed for riches, the
only granchild he might have had but now she is gone, just like
that but then she was long gone since the day her mind was taken
away from her. " calm down would you? " shouted grandmother
who was suddenly irritated by her daughter in law's ups and
downs." How can you ask me something like that when my only
son is fighting for his life, this is all that skank's fault, if only she
didn't bring that thing at my house his wouldn't have happened "
she shouted back. " stop it, this is not the time to point fingers"
said Mr Pretorias.

While Trevor was still fighting for his life, with doctors going up
and down trying to save him, the ambulance walked in with Nina,
she was rushed to one of the wards immediately after it entered
the hospital. Again, Mrs Brown was at the same hospital too
fighting for her life. Sam left immediately after she was on the
hospital care, he had to find proof of who did this although he did
think it was Brown but speculations wouldn't matter, he needed
proof then he will deal with the motherfucker himself. " I'm here
to see my wife" said Mr Brown feeling bad in all ways although he
wouldn't let his heart knowledge his weakness, only his mind
played games with him." And who are you sir", asked the Madam
by the reception desk." Brown, my wife was shot earlier" he said
looking down. The whole scenario played in his eyes and he
couldnt stop or pause it, the lady cleared his throat after seeing
that he was suddenly miles away." Mmhm sir, she is on ward 3B "
she smiled a little and he nodded going away.

On his way he was shocked to find the Pretorias family standing

outside another ward." People" he said in a low yet raw voice.he
noticed how tense they were and was suddenly wondering what
was wrong." What is going on" he asked looking at his friend."
Trevor was involved in a car accident, and why are you here?" said
Mr Pretorias,. He cleared his throat and looked down " My wife
was shot" finally he said." They all gasped as they received the
news." What is happening to our families ?" Said mr Pretorias
scrubbing his head, he sat down feeling the world on his
shoulders " this is all our fault" again he said." No this is Inno's
and that Nina's fault, if they hadnt done what they did our families
would have been alright, but no those two little bitches went
against our wishes" said her wife. Mr Pretorias just shook his head
feeling defeated." We did all we can" grandma whispered.

It was about seven in the morning, Lelo woke up feeling hungry

yet tired, she looked at her handsome sleeping hunk next to her.
She sighed after remembering what happened hours ago. She
woke up and went to the bathroom, did her hygiene process and
took a long hot shower. After that she prayed and went to the
kitchen,made herself some cornflakes and ate watching the
television. Her phone beeped, she reached for it finding two
messages.one was from her dad and one from Shaz.
" your mom was shot, you need to come home soon" that was
from her dad. For a moment she thought her father was playing
games on her, I mean he is that manipulative right. She opened
the other one," munchie I miss you, girl outing today please
babe"that was from Shaz.She smiled cause she missed her too,
she called her father first." I'm hoping you on your way, both your
mom and Trevor are hospitalised " said her dad. She kept quiet
for a while still trying to digest everything ." What happened " she
said." That not important, case is you need to come home Inno
now" her father said shouting," I will be there later today, but I
won't be spending the night" she replied, she couldn't come
sooner because she had an exam to write today which was her
last exam. Her father ended the call immediately and she called
Shaz, she answered onthe third ring. " finally I thought you were
ignoring me" she chuckled
Her: I've been busy mani baby
Shaz: mmmhm I see, Mr hotty keeping you all to himself
She loughed
her: you know him moc
Shaz: and how is little hotty treating you
She smiled
Her: you don't wanna know
She said brushing her tummy
Shaz: shame babe, so we going out today? ?I miss you hle
Her: Im not sure I have to rush home babe
Shaz: owk sweetheart maybe when you come back, gues I will
have to visit Nick then
Her: I'm sorry love i will make it up to you munchie, and i hope
Nick is treating you good too
Shaz: he's a sweetheart lovey i will tell you all about him when we
meet, got a loooot to share baby.
Her: oh world roommy is inlove
She was laughing.

There lay Mrs Brown with every kind of machines connected to

her. Mr Brown sat next to her looking at her like lifeless body. She
was in ICU fighting for her life.
" please come back to me" said her husband slowly." I'm sorry I
didn't mean to, this is all your fault Rebbeca if only you respected
me, damn I wouldnt have done what I did baby " he was now
pacing up and down the ward. " Inno needs you baby, we need
you please come back to me to us " he said again.
Nina

I woke feeling dehydrated, mom was next to me with her eyes red
as fuck. She looked at me with her pitiful eyes, I swear I wanted to
scream but the voice within me did not let me. She gave me a
glass of water which I first resisted but man I needed it. I gulped
down the whole glass and attempted to get up.
Her: baby please you need to....
I stopped her without going further, she couldn't be, I got up
feeling a little bit light, I had to see my baby, I wanted my little
Amo, maybe it wasn't her
Me: where is my baby??i want my baby, I want to see her now
mom.
She looked at me with her already teary eyes, she was hurted too,
I never realised how much she loved my child.
Me: mom I want my baby, my princess
I said slowly losing the power in me.
Me: I killed her mom, I failed her I'm the one who gave her up, I
killed my very own blood my only princess.
I couldn't hold it no more, the pain was too much. I'm to blame, I
killed my baby the moment I took her to those cruel hearted
people, I killed my own joy.
Her: babe it wasn't your your fault
Me: stop stop it ma I killed her you can say it too, I killed your
grandchild, my princess.
Her: baby please stop
Me: ma please I need to see her, I wanna hold my princess please
I sobbed on her shoulders, this was hard. The doctor got in, she
found us crying together." May i?" We nodded and she kept on
checking me non stop, then smiled.
Doc: you are okay but you need to stop worrying cause that aint
good for your heart, you suffered a heart attack which could have
caused a stroke too.
I sighed looking at her, life didn't matter anymore, I should have
died too.
Doc: I heard you lost your baby and I'm sorry but there's nothing
we can do now, we can't lose two lives, that why you have to try
and and let it go although it will be hard but stressing too much
ain't good for your health right now.
Me: can I go see my baby now??
Doc: yes you can, Mma I suggest you take your daughter for some
counselling because depression is the last thing we need from her
now.
Her: thank you doctor, we will consider it
She then left after we signed out. I rushed to where they said they
were keeping my princess. I found Mr Pretorias and his mother
looking at my lifeless baby. The hate I accumulated for them
could have bombed the whole hospital if it was some kind of a
bomb. That when it clicked that Trevor could be on the very same
hospital too. Her grandmother looked at me with pity but I gave
her a death stare .
Me: you all get out of here now
I shouted
Her: you can't chase us out, that our blood
I swear I wanted to squeeze the life out of that old bitch
Me: your blood, now that she is dead she is your blood, get the
fuck out of here now, please just leave my baby alone.
I was now crying , they went out following each other. I stood
there looking at my princess. She still was beautiful and well
cleaned up. I lifted her and cried holding her right. I couldn't
accept it, I couldn't accept that she was no more. "God please
forgive me, i know I've done a lot and that I've sinned against my
friend, i left my daughter with those terrible people but please
hear me now, I'm so sorry I slept with that pastor, I sorry I didn't
accept my baby the way she was I'm sorry I caused her sickness,
please don't take her away from me, I will accept her, I will look
after my baby please God"

Musa
We wrote our last exam and i must say it was so easy. We were
now back at the flat, with my heart preparing herself to go to
Mpumalanga. Yes she told me about her mom and Trevor
although I wished the nigga was dead.
Me: babe when are you coming back again
Her: I don't know babe i will keep you updated but I told daddy
that I won't be spending the night.
Me: just be safe please
She nodded smiling. Did I tell you that she was now 6months
pregnant. Yes our babygirl was growing fast and i couldn't wait to
hold her, I've already imagined how she was gonna look.
Her: what are you thinking ??
Me:mmhm you bbe
Her: Musa
She warned
Me: ha.a babe haw
Her: have you heard anything from Neo
Me: mxm that bitch better stay away from me love
Her: okay, so i will call you when I arrive
She kissed me and I felt like I should go with her but Brown will
not hesitate to kill me not even for a second.
Me: I love you both baby
Her: we love you too babakhe
I smiled. I accompanied her to the taxi tank, we couldn't take
chances of her being driven by her family cause we didn't trust
them.
Her: will be intouch my heart
Me: be safe my life
We both hopped out of the car and she took a taxi. I kissed her
goodbye and left to my flat. I slept the moment I threw myself on
the bed, my body felt so tired and out of energy, i wonder what
made me feel so tired cause I haven't been running not even
going to the gym.

Lelo

Leaving Musa behind pained me, I couldn't stop thinking about

what might heppen to him while I'm not there, well after last
night's scenario I just can't stop worrying about my heart. The way
home took longer that I fell asleep on the way.
"Wake up child " a voice said while my body rested so peaceful in
the Greenland with only the sound of birds singing and chasing
one another." Wake up mom" said a baby boy's voice so sweet
and calm but concerned." Please stop I'm trying to rest" I said
cause they were disturbing me from my sleep." You've got to
wake up now child, wake up wake wake up wake up wake up" the
voice continued and i was starting to get irritated." Stop it will
you, I'm trying to rest here man" I snapped. Just then a familier
voice called out my name. " Lelo" I looked around and saw her by
a tree sitting looking all sad. I got up and went to her, she looked
like as if she was crying." Linah" I called out her name. She forced
a smile and wiped her falling tears .
" you need to go back " I looked at her shocked" where should I
go" I asked. " go back,wake up now Lelo wake up" I struggled to
understand her, I mean I wasn't sleeping how could I when I'm
speaking to her." I'm not sleeping Linah, look at me I'm awake" I
said touching her. She sniffed so hard and that hurted me so
much." Please don't cry" I said." You have to wake up now Lelo
wake up, wake up wake up Lelo" she yelled at me and I found
myself blinking much inside a taxi, I remembered that I was on my
way home, shit I fell asleep, I was dreaming. Just then the taxi was
stopped by a group of men holding guns. The driver was killed
along with 5 men, only females survived the horror and i was one
of them. When others screamed I prayed hard from inside holding
my tummy, I had to maintain my coolness and think of my
princess. The guys shoved us outside and made us to line up, they
looked atbl us one by one and stopped when they reached me. I
said one prayer which was" save me father, it all in your hands
now" when I was taken to some black polo with a gun on my
head. If only I had the strength and not pregnant maybe I would
have tried to defend myself but now I had to think of my baby, my
life.

Narrated
" we got her" said the guy onthe phone. " I'm hoping you didn't
cause much havoc" the other person answered." Well we did what
we had, atleast we have her with us.he said, " make sure you take
the route discussed and i hope you didnt leave any trails behind
cause i wont go down when you do"

Insert 57

Lelo

After a single knock a huge man walked in with a plate of food. He

didn't even look at me but I could see he was one scary person. I
thanked him for the food and he nodded getting out. I realy was
hungry and it would be selfish of me to not eat since I have to
think about my baby. Coming to that, it been 2 days since I was
here and no one has spoke to me about what was going on, I've
tried screaming and shouting but it didn't help, all I'm grateful for
now is that I'm in a clean place with a bathroom and toilet, clean
bed and blankets, and that im receiving food now and then. I take
one bite to the chicken brought to me with buns and Salad, it
doesn't taste good but my baby kicks immediately i let it all in. I
smile as tears streams down out of my face, I'm thinking of my
heart, how worried he must be right now. Okay this is not the time
to be vulnerable and all, I have to be strong and find a way to get
out of here, problem is I don't know where I am and i don't know
who kidnapped me, my guts says it all dad's and Trevor's ways,
but I'm not sure, I mean I'm not sure.

Nina

I struggle to eat sitting on the matress next to my dear mother.

Ever since I saw her tiny self I hevent managed to get something
inside my mouth, everytime I try to eat, her face is all I can see,
even when I close my eyes, her eyes haunts me. I can't do
anything without picturing my dead baby, I killed her still I say."
You realy don't have to kill yourself with hunger baby you know
that" that would be my mom.I sigh and try again,this time around
all I can see is the day I had her,her soft hands running across my
face, her smiles soothing my heart, and her beautiful cute face
sleeping peacefully, now it all gone, she is gone, tears fall down
immediately followed by the spoon filled with porridge.
Me: I can't do this, I need some air
I got up and took my car keys not minding everyone. The house is
filled with relatives but my dad's family haven't come yet only his
mother came." Where are you off to Khabo" says poor
grandmother, I call her koko. I dont have the energy to talk I just
wanna get out of here, get some air, drink some booze and forget
about Amo. I don't mind her I just continue walking out, I don't
mind my black long dress and the grey duke around my head, it is
what it is.I drive straight to the park, there are kids playing around
with their parents. Some are screaming because of joy and some
are crying because of their naughty friends. I find myself thinking
about my own baby, we were never given this chance, not even
once did I experience such joy with my heartbeat. I fall down in
tears untill someone clears their throats. I look up faintly and this
day just becomes worse" Pastor Denzel"the smirk on his face
sent shivers down my spine. All our episodes plays on my mind,
this man is the devil himself and i must run for my life. I get up
quickly and attempt to walk away but he is right infront of me "
now i know my sense of smelling works perfectly, I could smell
you from miles away" he said with his horse yet beautiful voice. I
look up to him and i see a young handsome jerk of a pastor, he
has this long eyelashes I've never paid attetion to, his eyes ain't
realy that beautiful but their china way is cute, and his sharp like
nose that I can't understand because it doesn't go well with his
lips, although they seem tasteful. I'm still studying his face when
he whispers " just say you do and all will be well". I look away in
shame, why am I even standing here with this snake?
Me: I need to go
That come out as a whisper
Him: do you?
He says reaching for my hand, I feel hot things and i quickly
remove mine. He smiles and damn he can smile, "snap out of it
Nina", I tell my stupid self
Him: we have a connection
I chuckled
Me: a connection with a monster like you
He grins
Him: I can take away all your pain, if only you can let this
connection of ours connect .
I can't understand what he is saying
Me: take away my pain? How?
He smiled again and take my hand, I feel things, I feel belonging, I
feel free, free from every kind of pain, I can Imagine my babygirl
but I don't feel anything, not even pain not even joy, my emotions
are turned off, its like I don't have any feeling but a cold heart. He
smiles and let it loose. I've never felt like this, and the moment he
breaks out hands, I feel it all, the pain, the hate, everything, I feel
every ounce of it.
Him: just say you do
I struggle to talk, do I live with this pain or do i allow this evil man
in my life ?

Musa

I can't stop trying, I've been trying to get traces with my parents of
what realy heppened that day, we've learned that the taxi she was
in was attacked and only a few woman made it out alive but she
wasn't there, One of them said that she was taken by the guys
with guns driving black polos . Well we have many polo cars
around here so we won't know which exactly took Her. We
discovered that Trevor and Mrs Brown were indeed in hospital
fighting for their lives , which means that Brown wasn't involved in
the whole kidnapping thing. But who can it be? I'm writing down
every kind of person who maybe against us and the first person
who comes in mind is Nina, I mean she want Trevor all to herslef
as she just lost her baby, yes it on social media, so maybe she
didn't want to feel pain in her own, kidnapping Lelo and killing her
or her baby will make things better and she won't have to face
sorrows on her own. Okay its stupid but it's something right." You
need to rest now you've been up all this past 2 days honey" mom
shout coming in my room. I roll out of bed and throw myself on the
couch. I feel so useless and frustrated that I aont making any
progress.
Me: I can't eat not knowing if she has ate mama
She smiles but you can see she has been crying, her love for Lelo
has grown, she is like her female best friend if not her daughter.
Her: I promise you we will find her son
Me: I don't know about that
Her: we don't approve of negativity remember
I nod, I can't stop thinking and feeling like she is not coming back
to me, but I have to hope, I think of something that she would
have said and one thing that comes into my mind is praying.I
kneel down and my mom is watching me.
Her: what are you doing?
Me: praying, she would have wanted us to pray,when things goes
left prayer is the only thing that made it all right.
She smiles and kneel down too. We pray and pray letting all out.
Me: God please protect her from whatever creature that has taken
her, protect both of my babies and give them hope and light,
guide them father, and make them strong. In the name of Jesus
Christ of Nazareth amen.
Her: amen
We get up and i feel a little bit easy, mum smiles at me
Her: she makes you a better boy
I Lough
Me: I'm not a boy
Her:just because you decided to have sex and make a child that
doesn't make you a man baby.
I chuckle and leave her all alone, I need to find my babies.

Narrated

The machines makes sounds that irritates Mr Brown even more.

He can't stop feeling like shit ever since he learned about her
daughter's disappearance, her dying wife and Trevor again. All
things are just going left and he is now hesitant about his next
decision. The doctor comes in and fake a smile "it all out of our
hands now, we can't do anything" he says. Mr Brown can't stop
brushing his head, this is all messed up, his wife might be gone
for good and it all his fault. " isn't there any specialist even from
abroad who can help her? " he asks with hope but the doctor
shook his head which breaks his heart in to pieces. " the more we
keep her, there more the costs " the doctor says and get out. He
sits down looking at his wife and the words " war, hate, blood
spilling , death" plays in his mind. It has began, this is what the
ancestors talked about.

He opened his eyes and all he could see was his little daughter.
He tried touching her but she faded right into thin air. His heart
broke into pieces as he felt like he just lost his princess. He
banged his head so hard, Mrs Pretorias saw him shaking and
called out the nurses." He is waking up " shouted another one.
" a ransom amount of R500 000 has been decided by Mr Brown
who happened to have his daughter kidnapped inthe tragedy that
we all heard about on our daily news. Innocentia Mbulelo Brown
was kidnapped by the people who attacked the taxi coming from
Johannesburg to Mpumalanga in the last two days. if anyone
have any information regarding her please come forward to the
Brown's offices and we will find a way forward." That was the
news, Mrs Brown made it a point to have her daughter's
disappearance known and told in every radio stations and tv
channels. He would do anything to get his child back, she is his
only daughter and he loves her even though they always
disagreed but she remained the princess in his castle.

" fuck how did we miss her" screamed Neo after hearing the
news, it's was all over the internet, I mean everywhere. "
someone beat us to it, who could be that asshole " she asked
herself again. She couldn't stop thinking about what next and how
she can get hold of that R500 000, she needed something to
make Brown pay for stringing her along and leaving her pregnant.
That made her think about Musa, how he must be feeling, maybe
she must concentrate on him, try and get close to him now that
virgin Mary is missing and May be consoling him would make him
fall for her, it doesnt help that her parents wants to meet the
Ngema family to discuss the way forward regarding the
pregnancy, and now that she might not have the money, she have
to come up with another plan to meet up with Musa, but the
problem was her tummy, it was too showing and was now 3
months where arears if it was his baby it would have been a
month and days now.She sighed feeling defeated.
" this is all fucked up, who could have taken her first??" Asked
Nick feeling drained too. After receiving his Niece's news he
received again bad ones about Lelo. He struggled to keep control
and freaked out when he thought about the things he had already
imagined they will do together." Who might have taken her" he
thought once again but couldn't put together the puzzle. Maybe it
was Trevor, but the nigga is fighting for his life in hospital or
maybe that was his plan all along, play dead while his plan is
being carried on by someone. He again punched the table so
hard that he felt his veins moving. He couldn't care less all he was
thinking about was Mbulelo, his supposed to be here with him
girlfriend, not the poor Shaz who calls him every now and then,
only of she knew he wasn't into her but her roommate. He took
out his diary and wrote sitting down" who has Lelo"????

Insert 58

Trevor

I still remember the first day I lay my eyes on her pretty little self,
she was so tiny and yellow, so beautiful like a princess, that when
I realised that I had my own princess someone I had to protect
everyday. Someone I had to think for now and then but that
feeling, that love i had for her somehow dissapeared. I don't know
happened, what caused the hate but I hated my daughter in her
last few days, I remember the names I called her, how she didn't
deserve any of them but anyways that's is all over now, and i
know how much Nina hates me, I killed our baby,our princess.
I was still in hospital but was gonna be discharged later today, it
been 2 days since I woke up and somehow I feel like I shouldn't
have, I should have died with my baby, after all the person I'm
living for doesn't want me. " need anything else"? Said the female
doctor standing right beside me. I shook my head signalling no
and she went out. Her words played on my mind" the accident
affected a lot, I'm sorry to tell you this but you can never have
children in future, your manhood will work perfectly fine but will be
unable to give you kids" I swear I hoped I didn't hear well, after
killing my own child then some freaken doctor tells me I won't be
able to have any children in future. What kind of fuckery is that??
By the way I couldn't tell my family about that, I mean that
embarrassing and the fact that my dad want grandchildren, I just
can't deal with all of this.

Narrated

" war, hate, blood spilling and death" this are the words the
ancestors once said. That if things don't go according to the plan
the following will take place, if the two souls ain't married off to
each other, blood will be spilled, hatred and bitterness resulting to
death. But who will die and who will not die?? Will the two young
souls be married off or will Inno right for her love?? Is her baby
gonna live or will she die after giving birth? Will Trevor find inner
healing or a peace of mind with all the terible things he has done?
Will Brown be able to live with himself after all the things he has
done, the hate he created within his family and the things he did
in the past? This are the questions we should be asking
ourselves.
Again the families were having dinner together, with the absence
of mrs Brown ofcause. Poor woman is still in coma and Mr Brown
can't let go of his wife even when the doctors said it was over, he
just couldn't. Yes he has abused her a lot inthe past and even
called her names but she is the love of his life, his wife, his love,
his heartbeat, his other part. " we will be going in an hour, We are
burying Trevors daughter" said grandma already getting up.
Although Nina said she didnt want to see any Pretorias or Brown
at the funeral, the family threatened to sue her ass because they
too are related to the baby and they should be the one burying
her but then they didn't like the doll of a child so they can bury her
but they will be at the funeral to see her meet her ancestors.
Trevor couldn't say anything, guilty conscious killing him,the fact
that he is going to bury the same child He killed, and the last child
he was able to have, made his world spin with mixed emotions.
His mind couldn't allow him to go and bury his own daughter but
his heart wanted to see her rest for the last time. They all got up
heading to their cars . It's was a saterday morning, and the
weather was cool, the family arrived at the Jacobs apartment
finding a lot of people attending the burial. They stood at the back
not wanting attention from all of this black people." We should
have remained inside our cars" said his mother, her husband
gave her an eye and she shrugged. This woman was just
something else.

Nina

Seeing her for the last time killed me, I struggled to say any words
as her tiny coffin went down resting. I couldn't cry no scream, the
hurt was too much, after letting her rest we went back to my
house, I did see the Pretorias family but I ignored them because
what I was gonna say they wouldn't comprehend well. As soon as
we arrived at home, I quickly ran to my room and locked myself
up. I didn't want the stares from people and i didn't want attention,
I just wanted to be alone and mourn my poor daughter in peace.
A knock came through and i huffed." Nina please I would like to
talk to you", the nerve this boy have. How could he? Trevor must
be tempting me." Just go away Trevor, I'm not inthe mood" I
shouted. " I'm not going anywhere without speaking to you, if you
dont open up here I will break this door "he said. I woke up and
opened for him. He looked terrible for someone who should be
happy because he just lost his stupid bitch daughter.
Me: what do you want? Kill me too??
He sat on my bed not minding me. He took off his shoes and
slowly lay there looking up. I've never seen this Trevor, where is
the rude white guy??
Me: don't act all emotional here Trevor, I don't even know why
you here at the first place.
Him: just shut the hell up woman
I clapped once
Me: now the real Trevor reveals himself
He looked at me and I noticed a few tears filling his red eyes, he
was crying,damn world what did you do to this guy, cause my
daughter's death couldn't possibly be the reason.
Him: I'm sorry I didn't mean to kill her, I was angry and driving not
so slow but I didn't mean to kill our princess.
Tears streamed down my face, how could he, how could he
pretend he cares or maybe cared.
Me: don't please, don't call her that
Him: what??
Me: princess, you calling her princess now because she is dead,
what happened to my stupid child, my bitch child??huh??
Him: I'm sorry I don't know what was wrong with me, I loved my
daughter Nina and you know that, i just dont know what changed.
He looked so sincere but my heart couldnt buy it.
Me: please go
Him: you the only one who understands my pain, I can't mourn
her with anyone else but you.
Me: are you hearing yourself nigga get out now
Him: I'm not going anywhere, you can lock the door...
I saw him fall asleep on my bed, how could he? ? I decided to
sleep too and his arms found it's way around me. I hated it but he
was the only one who knew how I was feeling too, and seeing him
like this, meant he did have a soft spot but liked the bitter him
more.

Narrated

" I wonder what is it that Brown is using, the man does the
impossible in a few seconds" said Sam trying by all means to cool
down. He have been trying to get evidence that stupid Brown shot
his wife but nothing." He knows that he is being watched and he
keeps his traces clean" said Mrs Ngema drinking her ice tea.
They were all trying to find some ways to get to Brown and find
Lelo. " this is all fucked up, Rebecca doesn't deserve this" Sam
said feeling emotional. He has fallen so hard for her and its wasn't
part of the plan, he was on a mission and he failed, although mrs
Ngema didnt mind at all but he failed her." She still haven't woke
up yet? " ask Mrs Ngema. Sam shook his head feeling the world
on his shoulders." She might not wake up" he said . Mrs Ngema
thought of Lelo, how this gonna affect her. they had to find her
although they still digging trying to find anything that might help
them find her.

Musa

"You got me scattered in pieces

Shining like stars and screaming
Lighting me up like Venus
But then you disappear and make me wait and every second's
like torture
Heroin drip, no more so
Finding a way to let go
Baby, baby, no, I can't escape
The bed's getting cold and you're not here, The future that we
hold is so unclear, But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up, But the heart
wants what it wants"
The lyrics kept on playing and I kept on wiping the tears. I can't
stop thinking about how she is, is she being fed, is she fine, are
they both fine??? I know mom said they will find her but it been
what? , a week and still nothing, no one knows where she is,
seems like she just dissapeared into thin air. I try my best to stay
strong but it hard,it's hard sleeping while she ain't next to me, it's
hard breathing while I don't know if she is still alive. I'm
interrupted by my ringing phone. I grab it and sigh when I see that
it Trey, I'm not inthe mood for " it's gonna be alright" situation but I
answer it any way.
Me: bro
Him: man you so down
Me: why should I be up??
He chuckles
Him: sorry man just wanted to cheer you up...
Me: not a problem
Him:so still nothing ??
Me: yeeah
Him: don't worry we will find her man
Me: I hope so
Him: yes you just need to keep on hoping
Me: gues a little faith wont kill
Him: yeah, bro we will talk
Me: sure my out
I sighed and browsed through my pictures, her beautiful self filling
my screen " I hope you are okay Mma brown"
Lelo

New Balance

"Most of us are angry

Most of us are strangely
More alike than we'd like to believe
Most of us are empty
Most of us are simply
More alive in the scenes of our dreams
Then there's you
You've got something I've been wanting, oooh, You're so new
Oooh, You're my salvage, you're my balance, oooh, You're so
new
Most of us are hurting, Most of us are searching someone to love,
someone to understand, Most the time I'm fighting
Multiple voices residing In my head
Then there's you
You bring silence to my violent truth
Yes you do""

New balance by Jhene Aiko plays not far from my so called room,
still i haven't seen anyone except that hulk of a man. What I've
noticed is that he is some kind of a coloured, or maybe I'm wrong
I don't know. It's been a week, I wonder how my heart is. I hope
he is not weakling cause i know him. I stand up and try working
out, I'm pregnant I need some exercise, I can't be sleeping all day
here. " you are what I've been waiting for" a voice said as I keep
on kicking the air. It's cannot be identified so I fail to identify the
owner. " who are you?" I ask irritated
Voice: your future
Me: my...my future??
A scratchy laugh fill the room
Me: Tee???
I shout
Voice: you will find out soon, now rest we have a lot to do inthe
next coming days, and we want you not tired, don't we??
I click my tounge
Me: go to hell
Voice: me and you both baby
Me: coward!!
Voice: you won't believe it when i show you me, so chill and
sleep.
Me: just leave me alone
Voice: I'm not going anywhere baby
Me: just stop calling me baby man
Again the laughs
Voice: I like the feisty you much more
Me: fuck off who ever you are
Voice: whatever medicine or whatsoever thing you using works
perfect, bitch you leave a man weak on his toes
Me: so I'm making you weak?
Voice: you've got something I've been wanting, baby you are my
salvage, my new balance ohhhh you so new.
Me: your singing is terrible, try something else like showing
yourself .
Voice: are you that keen on finding out who I realy am?
Me: I fail to understand a kidnapper that hides themselves for an
entirely week, or is that you are ugly and you know well that I
won't fall for your ugly self
Voice: very funny his heart
For a moment I stood quiet
Me: what did you say??
Voice: what? Are you shaken?
Me: who are you?
Voice: patient my lady
Me: I know you right? Why do I get the feeling that I know you?
Voice: stop imagining things and go take a bath, lunch is coming
I sigh breathing fire. Whoever is my kidnapper, obviously he or
she knows me.

Narrated
" she is six months pregnant bro, will it be possible "he asked with
a concerned look." Just trust your bro, we will take that baby out"
he said looking at his brother." And will the baby live or die?" He
said." I'm an qualified doctor and I've done this almost all my life
man,the baby will live but we will have to find her a safe place,
don't worry the operation will go well, by next week your girlfiend
will have no baby inside her". He kept quiet thinking of how they
gonna pull this through." And for how long do we have to wait for
us to wipe her memory, I can't go in there with her knowing that
I'm the one who captured her, I must be the first person she have
to know after clearing her memory, I want to be the only person
she knows in that way she will be able to trust everything I tell
her" he was pacing up and down,he has loved Lelo since the first
day he saw her, and now he has her and he cant lose her that
why wiping her memory and taking out her baby is the only
option.

Insert 59

Lelo

It's not realy an abandoned place that I'm at, but a place full of
people wearing body hiding clothes and only you can see their
faces but the remainder of nose , mouth and eyes. I look around
and ask myself what I'm doing here and i cant seem to
understand how I got in here,just then somebody waves for me
calling my name and when I look back it's Linah, she is wearing
like the other women, no shorts or knee less dress, but a long
dress accompanied by a scarf like thingee around her neck and
head, her entirely body is hidden only I can see her small mouth
moving.
Her: hey you came...
I look at her amused
Me:I don't understand..how did I end up here cause last time i
remember I was kidnapped
She smiles genuinely and shake her head
Her: I know, follow me
We walk in to the big building that seems so old to be standing,
I'm scared what if it cracks and fall over us. I touch my tummy and
i feel better, my baby girl has a way of making me feel better.
Her: you should be proud
Me: huh
Her: and scared too
Me: stop speaking in riddles please
Her: I'm sorry, lets go in
We are now in some room, it's so cold that I shiver a little bit,
Linah looks at me.
Her: I will get you something
Me: please
I say , she walks out leaving me all alone in this not so scary
room, it has a lot of drawings, but they are drawings of a man in a
cross, all different in their ways. I look around and i notice that it's
Jesus Christ's, there is one when he was born, it's so beautiful
and it makes me emotional as I think of my own baby." From what
I've heard, a drawing wouldn't make you cry like this this " a voice
said. I wiped my tears away and turned to look at who was also
there, he is tall but handsome, he wasn't hiding his face and head
but then his other parts were hidden. A young white man with blue
like beautiful eyes and his well pushed back soft hair, he is
definitely a player this one.
Him: I'm not a player but an artist
I'm shocked
Me: did I say that loud??
Him: you didn't have to, and we didn't do any greetings
Me: yeah I'm sorry ...my name is Mbulelo Brown.
Him: Prince Bolton
I don't know what to say next so I keep quiet, Linah walks in
holding a huge jacket.
Her : im afraid this is all I could get
Me: it's fine thank you
I wear it and i feel much better
Her: I see you've met Prophet Prince
Oh he is a prophet
Me: yes, so what am I doing here
She smiles
Her: i will leave you to it
She said looking at Prince and he nodded.
Him: please take a seat.
I did while he was sitting on his own chair again painting what
looks like a man in a mountain.
Me: how do you do that? I mean your painting seems alive
He smiled
Him: becase he is alive, he is a living God
Me: I don't get you
Him: there's a lot you don't get
Me: I gues so
Him: give God your attention and he will fight for you
Me: I do believe in God
Him: tell me one scripture you know with your heart
I struggle at little bit trying to think
Me: Ephesians 6v6
Him: I'm listening
Me: it's about obeying and respecting your parents so that you will
have many days to live inthe world
Him: do you respect your parents??
Me: yes but my parents, you know what my family is just
complicated and obeying their wishes now is insane
Him: I see, what other verse do you know by head
Me: actualy that was the only verse I knew..
Him: we will work on that
He gave me a bible which looked so old and brown , some words
you couldn't see properly.
Him: don't mind the pages but what's inside them, you have a few
hours to study the book of Psalm.
I looked for it and God there were many pages there.
Him: we don't have time young lady
I started reading as soon as possible with him busy with his
paintings and by the time I finished It felt so good, reading the
word of God, it was challenging but amazing. " breakfast is
served" a strong voice frightened me, I was suprised to find that I
was dreaming
Me: I'm still kidnapped??
He laughed
Him: eat up we have a long day ahead
Me" I need to bath first
I said getting up, you see my kidnapper realy had a soft spot for
me cause I was given clothes and every thing but I couldn't help
but get the feeling that something big was gonna heppen. So right
after the guy left I knelt down and started praying. After my
praying session I went to the bathroom and took a shower.

Nina

Trevor spent the night, I woke up feeling better, although my

baby's potrait reminded me immediately of her, I tried by all
means to stop this thoughts.
Him: morning snoring woman
I chuckled
Me: mxm you wish Ntate
Him: sleeping with you is like watching a horror movie all night
long
Me: and you've only realised that now??
Him: I was afraid to say it but now I had to, seems like you've
upgraded your snoring
I shove him a bit laughing
Me: you and afraid??never
Him: I'm telling you, I should go
I nodded
Him: I'm sorry I can't bring her back
Me: she is gone and we have to live with that, we are forced to
Him: its all my fault
me:it's done Trev, are you gonna shower first??
Him: nah thank you though for allowing a jerk like me sleep over
Me:as if I had a choice
He chuckled
Him: bye Khabonina
Me: Bye Trevor, I'm hoping this is the last time we see each other.
Him: what do you mean?
Me: we dont have a baby anymore so we don't have to mingle or
get married anymore
Him: Nina...
Me: please, I'm looking forward to moving on and that means
starting my life afresh
Him: I understand
Me: i know you love Lelo, so go for what you love
Him: that I can't say, she is happy with him
Me: she is your happiness and i think it's time you ask your
parents questions??
I know what I was saying now was uncalled for but the witch i
once went too did say that he couldnt love any woman but Lelo,
she was his happiness but question is how and why??
Him: what do yu mean??
Me: you can't seem to think of any other woman but Lelo, can't
you see there's something wrong about that, even during our
sexual moments you always called her name Trevor, go look for
answers.
Him: I realy have to go now
well i walked him out, we said our goodbyes and i went back
inside finding mom making tea
Her : baby..
She gave me a pitiful look
Me: I'm fine mom
Her: tea? ?
Me: coffee please
Her: just the way you like it
We sat down talking about staff.
Me: I'm thinking of going overseas
I said sipping my coffee looking down
Her: Khabonina
Me: I need to get out of here ma, I wanna go study overseas
Her: I see, we will talk to your father
Me: thank you
I got up and marched to my bedroom, and i swear who i found
there wasn't a welcomed guest
Me: how did you get in??
Him: I am a man of many talents
He looked so fresh in his navy suit, i sat down on my little couch
next to my bed
Him: so have you thought about it
Me: pastor Denzel or whoever you are....
Him: don't disappoint me Nina I have great plans for you
Me: sorry but I can't marry you, you are evil and using the word of
God for your own dirty ways
Him: we slept together, we shared a moment
Me: and thank God I survived the torture
Him: you enjoyed it as much as I did
Me: are you hearing yourself, how can I enjoy sleeping with a face
changing man.
Him: we didn't use any protection, you might be carrying a little
me and from what I heard, you are already pregnant.
I chuckled, this was one more reason for me to leave this country,
leave all this madness.
Me: you are sick I tell you, haven't you heard of contraceptive?
Him: those don't work with someone like me, I'm not normal baby
and you've seen it yourself so don't fool yourself.
Fear started kicking in, I couldn't possibly be carrying his evil child
Me: you are crazy get out
He laughed
Him: you can't run away from me, just agree to be my wife
Me: you are mad, my God won't allow you to control my life, he
won't allow this pregnancy madness of yourself to happen, a child
is a blessing from him, he can't give you a child you are evil.
Him: except that you ain't carrying a child
Me: what do you mean??
Him: he won't give you a child but my master will provide me with
a little cat that will bring undending riches for my whole life
Me: are you hearing yourself? ?
Him: yes you will be pregnant with the very same cat you saw
when we were intimate.
I found my self pacing up and down, what did
I do to myself.
Me: you know what, try scaring me all you want i don't care but I
still don't want to be close to you.
Him: this is your destiny Nina, your God failed you the moment
your child got sick.
Me: or maybe I'm the one who failed my child, I slept with an evil
man inthe name of curing her, she is better off without me
Him: keep telling yourself that
Me: just stay away from me
Him:we still have to have an agreement
Me: agreement my left foot
Him: goodbye mother of my cats
Just like that he dissapeared, I knelt down the very same moment
and started praying. Nothing beats prayer right, I needed to go to
church, a real church with real pastors.

Narrated

" you go call that Musa of yours to give us his family location Neo
now" shouted Neo's mother. The family was sitted all together
talking about the future. " we have to go and discuss your
pregnancy with the boy's parents im sure you understand that"
said her father. Between both her parents, her father was the
calm one but she knew not to mess with him cause he was good
at punishments. " I will call him right away" she said getting up but
her mother stopped her." You can do that here, put him on
loudspeaker" she said. Neo felt like she was drowning and had no
one to help her out, she should have just eliminated the
pregnancy but then it was too late for that now. She looked for
Musa's contacts with her parents staring her, finally she called
him.
" loudspeaker child" said her mother again. She did that, and they
waited for Musa to answer, he did on the third ring.
" unknown number " he said . Her mother looked at her suprised
on how can he not have her number. " ummhm Musa it's Neo"
she said slowly shaking shame. " bitch what the fuck do you want"
he snapped, " I told you to stay far away from me and take that
time to look for your baby daddy" again he said and dropped the
call. She was left with her parents waiting for answers.

Musa

Laying on bed everyday wasn't helping me at all, I got up and

went straight to the shower. All along I was playing Luther
vandross and Beyonce" the closer I get to you" our favorite song
,I sang along taking a shower. After that I got out and lotioned my
body, wore my briefs and went downstairs. I took my phone and
went on instagram, I just needed some distraction. While I was
browsing something caught my eye, a picture of Trey, I don't
know if I was halucinating but right at the back I saw the very
same necklace mom bought for her, I called out my mom cause
that necklace wasn't found around South Africa but was from
Hawai, mom was the one who bought it after I asked her. She
came in rushing and i gave her the phone.
Me: please don't tell me that's the same necklace we bought for
Lelo.
She looked at picture for a while then nodded
Me: mom why are you nodding??
Her: it's the same necklace baby
Me: mom!!!
Her: and it's was the only necklace, it was made specially for her.
Me: so you saying she's the only one with this kind of necklace
Her: yes I'm saying so, excuse me
She attempted to leave but I stopped her
Me: does that mean???
Her: wear some trousers and watch TV, i will be back
Me: you can't do this to me
Her: I'm sorry but this we have to deal with without you
Me: Trey has my heart and you are expecting me sit down and
watch TV, are you hearing yourself
Her: we don't know for sure
Me: then I will find out on my own.

Insert 60

Musa

" I told you to stay put, we will deal with this Musawakhe" my mom
shouted and gues what I didn't care, she can't be expecting me to
stay here and act as if it's alright when the only person, the only
friend I made and trusted at varsity betrayed me. Surely I didn't
see this coming, I didn't think that Trey can do something like this
to me, I realy am disappointed and afraid of what he is up to at
the same time.
Me: mom please just go do whatever you wanna do i will do my
own thing.
mom didn't understand what I was feeling, all I wanted to do right
now was to pop Trey's mind out and leave him for death, he
deserves it.
Her: baby we will find her
Me: I know but I can't stay here and wait for you to come back
with her, I have to do something .
she sighed
Her: why are you this difficult
" he is just just like you mamakhe" said father getting in.
Her: don't please
Mom warned
Him: so what's the plan sonny ?
He ignored his wife
Me: I dont know but all I i know if that I'm gonna kill that nigga
Dad smiled
Him: so very much like your mother.
Mom clicked her tongue and went away
Me: I need some air ,I have to think
Him:alright let me go and make peace with my wife
Me: good luck
I went out and took my car, I had to find a way and go get my
heart before anything happens that's if something hasn't
happened yet. I went to the mall filled with thoughts, I needed
some cash and i was a little bit hungry. My phone beeped and it
was a message. I opened it, " my parents wants to talk about the
pregnancy with your parents, you are responsible Musa so please
make things easy for both of us cause they ain't backing out, I
don't want your money just accept the pregnancy and we will
leave you alone" shit this bitch gotta be kissing me. I immediately
called her.she picked up quickly
Her: Mr Hotty
I chuckled
Me: leave me the hell alone Neo if you know what good for you
Her: Musa please just accept the pregnancy then we go our
separate ways
Me: you've got the nerve
Her: I'm making things easy for both of us here man
Me: I know I'm not responsible for your baby bitch, go find your
baby father and leave me alone.
I could hear her sniffing, she was faking tears this one
Her: then you leave me with no choice
Me: do what you wanna do cause i don't have time for your
games,I've got more important things to deal with you are wasting
my time.
I dropped the call and went to sit at MacDonald's, Neo got the
nerves i tell you. Just when I thought my day has been ruined
enough another motherfucker appeared. " mighty Ngema" he said
grinning non stop, how I hate this guy God. I just stood up not
wanting to cause chaos but he blocked my way.
Me: get the fuck out of my face
Him: who do you think you are huh? The rock???
I chuckled
Me: for someone your age Trevor you act so childish.
Him: I warned you to stay away from Inno instead you
impregnated her you asshole.
Me: call me whatever you want but remember I have her, she is
mine Trevor
Him: and trust me when i say you havent won little boy.
Me: I don't have to win, I'm not competing with anyone.
He chuckled and maintained a straight look afterwards
Him: I will kill you
Me: I'm not scared
I pushed him aside and attempted to walk away, but instead that
motherf**** did the unexpected, he pointed his gun on me, I could
feel it on the back of my head, people started shouting and
screaming, I turned and looks at his stupid face. Who does that
publicly.
Me: get over yourself Trevor
Him: nothing is stopping me from killing you right now
Me: except that you won't kill me coward
Him: stay away from Inno
Me: how about you stay away from my heart jerk.
I turned and walked away, so much in a day but I won't stop, I
have to go to Johannesburg and look for the mother of my kid,
fuck Neo and Trevor, I wonder why destiny couldn't match them
together, they so good for one another.

Nina
I woke up earlier, I need some jogging first before starting the
day. I've already started on looking for universities in the US, I
realy need a break from South Africa. After my running I came
back finding my mother already Gone to work, I called Nick.
Him: Mrs California
I laughed, I told him I wanted to leave S.A yesterday and he
suddenly came up with the idea of me going to study at the
university of California in Los Angelas.
Me: brothers kaNina
Him: what do you want?
I chuckled
Me: I wanna come and visit you, I need some air away from
Mpumalanga
Him: oh
Me: please
Him: okay but it only for a week
I sighed
Me: thank you bro
I ended the call and continued looking for careers and and the
best varsities, I will go to Gauteng tommorow, i just wanna get
away from this house, it's reminds me most of my daughter, even
my flat that why I asked Nick for a visit, then I will go overseas
next year.

Lelo
" we need to rush, time is not on our side, I'm hoping we get all
the right equipment to take out that baby today midnight" said an
unfamiliar voice. I couldn't hold the tears, my baby, how cruel are
this people??. I had to do something, I need to find a way to
contact Musa, but how do I do that when I don't have anything
with me. I banged the door so hard, the hulk of a man came in.
He was indeed coloured and huge. He had a cute face with marks
and tattoos.
Me: I'm bored, can I have a pen and some crayons??
He chuckled
Him: this ain't pre school young lady
Me: pretty please, I just wanna do some drawing to keep me
busy, it's much better than sleeping here all day.
He sighed
Him: wait then I'm coming
I faked a smile, he was not a bad person though. He came back
with a book and 4 crayons.
Him: don't try anything funny
Me: promise I will behave
Him: I hope so, we don't want to put your baby's life in danger
I nodded already teary, if I lose my child i lose me, cause I can't
live without her, I won't survive. I sat on the bed and started
drawing just crazy staff, I wasn't realy good at drawing but I had
to. Another page I drew a young girl and write a huge HELP with
colours, I then wrote MBULELO BROWN with small letters, then
wrote " anyone who finds this please help, I've been kidnapped
and kept very close next to where you found this, please call this
numbers for help" I then included my mothers numbers and
Musa's digits. I couldn't put my dad's since I wasn't sure of who
had me, maybe it was him and Trevor cause the last time we
spoke he wanted me to get rid of my baby. And I couldn't say
where I was cause i didn't know . I then made an aeroplane with
the page and went to the bathroom's small window. I think we
were at the last floor of the building cause i couldn't clearly see,
so I just prayed the aero makes it down and somebody finds it, I
had crayoned it so well and inviting, but I hoped that whoever kid
get its shows it to his / her parents. I threw it and went back to my
so called room to get some sleep.

" their blood binds them together, they are already married inthe
name of the ancestors, not lawfully. As they grow up, they have to
get married to one another, and your wealth will live as they bare
children, with their heartbeats, you shall forever be rich", said a
voice scarier but female, it's sounded so harsh." What are the
consequences " asked another." If they do not get married, the
male will never find heppiness for she is his only heppiness, he
will never love any other lady, he will have the money inthe world
but be misrable without her" she said." And the female?" asked
another familiar male voice." She will never conceive children by
another man, but if it happens that she is able to carry a child till
full term she will die right after she gives birth and all your riches
will die with her". " hey hey hey wake up, your lunch is here" said
a male voice. I opened my eyes as I recalled the dream I just had,
it's still early and already I'm dreaming, and i don't understand
what ever that I am dreaming." Still fantasizing? " ask the guy, I
look at him and i swear I saw a little reflection of someone I know,
I closed my eyes and opened them again. " what do you want?" I
asked
Him: it's obvious darling
Me: I don't understand
Him: my brother loves you
I chuckled
Me: your brother
He realy looked like Trey, I mean his nose right straight up, his
mouth, his physics he was Trey every thing. I smiled as tears
made their way out of my eyes.
Him: don't worry he will treat you well, he is a good boy
Me: I don't love him
Him: but he loves you, now behave little doll.
He winked at me and made his way out. I took the plate and
started eating right after I was done praying. After I finished I went
straight to bed and thought about everything.Trey might be my
kidnapper, I'm having dreams I cannot understand, one moment
im at church and been taught how to pray and to read the bible,
another I'm hearing voices speaking only evil things, why is my
life so messed up. Worst of it all I overhead my stupid kidnappers
that they want to take my baby out of me tonight, I know I won't
get help today but God I wish you can procrastinate their plans for
me.

Narrated

Mr Brown walked out of his wife's ward looking drained, it's wasn't
promising at all. She was gone and there was nothing he could do
but turning off the machine was something he wasn't ready for, he
had to wait and find her princess first, she needs to say goodbye
to her mother too.

At the Ngema Household

Musa went to his safe and took out his gun, he had already
packed a few clothes and was ready to leave for Johannesburg.
Although he didn't know where his heart was located, he just
needed to find all the places that his cruel friend is familiar with.
He went downstairs finding his parents about to go out. They
looked at him after seeing that he had a bag on his hand." Going
somewhere" his mother asked. " I'm driving to Gauteng, I can't
stay here you know that dad, she is in danger I can feel it" he
finally said. Just then when his father was about to speak his
phone rang. He answered quickly" Musa speaking" the person
wasn't that loud, so he couldn't hear her properly." Hellow" he
said again." Hy my son found a help note right by where we live ,
it had two your numbers one of them is yours and the other is not
working, I don't have much airtime right now..." the call was
ended, Musa quicky called back the person.
Him: are you here ??
He was even shaking
Her: yes umh we live at Joburg' CBD at the Beekers street, my
son found the paper aero next to the Grey's apartments.
Him: thank you, you don't know much you've helped me.
He then dropped the call with his parents staring at him." Lelo
wrote a help note, she is at Joburgs CBD in Beekers street or
something hopefully in some Grey apartments." Then we should
be on our way" said his father.
" this can't happen, this is impossible, the secrete cannot be out,
she cannot know this will ruin our plans" she yelled throwing her
bones but that didn't help her." You've ruined so many lives, all for
what??power??" She turned to look at whoever was talking but
she couldn't see anyone. Feeling weak she already knew that it
was no other but Christ's Angel." You are not allowed here " she
shouted. " this is my territory, you are not allowed here do you
hear me!!" Screaming she said." Do what right, reverse what ever
curse you you declared amongst the two souls" the kind voice
said. " you are not my God, you can't tell me what to do" she
replied." Then she will find out, she will know the truth and she will
lift the curse on her own, She has the power and you know it, with
her true love, she is able" after that the voice went quiet, she
gained her strength again." Do what you must have queen mother
of mice, she cannot find out, it's time we use that boy now" said
one of her mice.

Insert 61

Lelo

Dear my heart

All were against our reunion,

In all sides we always fought
Unseen weapons from the ghosted ,
Never was peace in our lives
never was hope for our love,
Only our heartbeats danced
To the feelings and emotions
We felt within ourselves,
Only our minds and hearts
Appreciated our love,
Through all the fights, the
Breakups, the hate we still stood
Still, our love concured every storm,
Every lightning, every departing train of sorrows, every kind of
earth shake,
Our love never dissapointed us,
It's gave us A blessing
A little me and you
Another heartbeat caught in
between the fire,
Today it may all be history for
I do not know if I'm gonna see tommorow, never mind seeing your
handsome cute face,
Or feel the gift you gave me,
Nonetheless know I love you
You were my everything
My star when I was lost
My smile keeper
I love you my heart
I always will
Musawethu❤

I sigh as fold my little something and put it under the pillow I'm
just hoping he finds it if he comes for me or if anyone else does
come,I'm already in tears and i can't stop but cry out to Almight"
please God it ain't my time yet, I don't know what they are going
to do with me and my baby but please interfere, I ask for your
presence father I can't leave like this, I've got my whole family
looking for me, my love my heart, I'm carrying your blessing, I
can't lose her, I can't lose another child". I'm kneeling crying out
loud, I can't stop picturing my heart, I can't stop feeling his pain,
and i can't stop thinking of my baby. I brush my showing tummy,
she has grown so much," I can't lose you Baby, I love you so
much" I say and i feel a kick the very same moment. I smile in
between my tears , it's so hard I can't be strong, not now, I'm
shaking I'm losing it. " what are they intending on doing with my
baby, is she gonna die?? No God she can't. I start afresh and
kneel down calling the almighty to intervene. I remember Linah
teaching me how to pray " you don't have to say the right words,
just say what you feel from inside, pour your heart all out and he
will hear you" that what she said. I don't have to be perfect, but I
have to say what I feel. I bow down and start pouring my heart
out, I feel the need to continue and not stop, i pray for everyone, i
pray for my baby, my heart and my family, i ask God for his
protection, his guidance, suddenly I'm feeling like I'm not the only
one praying, that gives me the energy to not give up, I pray till I
don't know what I'm saying but I'm praying, I'm a crying you
woman in pain and sorrows begging for mercy, I'm a sinner
wanting to be saved, I am a child of God Inneed for rescue.

Narrated

It was about 10pm, she was in her hut trying to work on her next
mission,which was attacking Musa. Mr Brown already gave her
Lelo' s crop top, the one she always loved but left at home since it
was now smaller. She took it and started working on it, all kind of
muti's burnt with the top. " I can't find the way show me elders"
she said throwing the bones and singing an evil song." I can't see
him, it all blur I can't reach him" louder she said irritated, it's
frustrated her that she couldn't find Musa's scent, where was
he??.Lelo's top is meant to make it easy to change his heart and
make it cold, she wouldn't be able to kill him but she can be able
to win him over. " give up woman, You ain't gonna win this time"
said a pure little voice. She laughed as she realised that it was
Lelo's little boy, then one they sacrificed." So much nerve little boy
who do you think you are that you can defeat me??" Again she
laughed an evil one." I don't think so, but I know so" he said
smiling sweetly, the grounds started shaking, two different worlds
in one place." We killed you once, we defeated you and sacrificed
you, what can stop us from doing so again??" She said , " keep
telling yourself that, me and you both know how powerful I was
and still am, and i know you can feel how powerful she is" after
that he dissapeared. Witch lady started feeling dizzy, she fell
down feeling powerless.

" give me a few days doctor I will get back to you" said Mr Brown
through the phone. He sighed as soon as the call ended and
gulped down his last whiskey. " how can you leave us so soon, in
this situations for that matter, how can you" he was looking at his
wife's potrait on the living rooms wall, she looked so happy in her
white wedding gown and gold earings, she had that happy face
you could tell that she wasn't faking it, next to her potrait was Mr
Brown's potrait in his grey suit, looking all handsome and free. "
its all your fault Rebecca if only you stayed in your lane this
wouldn't have happened. Quickly he thought about his daughter,
he hasn't heard any news from his people, his life had just turned
into being the worst nightmare ever. He slept on the couch not
having the guts to smell his wife's scent in their bedroom.

Trevor

I can still see her everywhere I go, her perfect face haunts me
everywhere I turn, in my office,at home and during my sleep. I
cant find peace, I killed her and she is making me pay. I
remember the last time I took her at my parents house, the things
I said to my princess, the names I called her, every thing plays in
my mind, it a horrible movie that I can't pause no stop. It's about
11pm and i can't sleep, I can't concentrate I can't even think. " I'm
so sorry princess " I say as I hold on to her little micky mouse
shoe, I feel her presence, it's amazing I've never felt like this
before." Find the truth,look for answers" a voice says. I look
around the room but I see no one, maybe I'm halucinating. I then
remember Nina saying the exact same words, but what's truth??

Lelo
After a few minutes, I hear the door open, two guys come by my
side and drag me out of the bed. Its dark inside they didn't switch
on the light." Where are you taking me" I cry out loud. " just shut
up and be good girl" says the other one." Trey please don't do
this, don't hurt my child" it's hurts I can't lose her, not again." Stop
it bitch" we finally get out and they lead me to some cold like
room, it full of staff or whatever equipment , there are other two
guys there. Im being forced to lay on this single yet made tall bed,
." We dont have all day Mbulelo Brown" i fake a smile as i
remember my father. " dad where are you, do you realy hate me
this much, how come you haven't found me even now " this i think
to myself as tears rushes out. I'm already laying there like a
lifeless body, next to me is different king of scissors, every kind of
pills, its like im in a small hospital ward or some kind of a lab. " we
are ready when you are ready"says a soft voice." Inject her then "
another one said. I close my eyes and pray for the last time "
father God please save my baby " i say out loud and they stare at
me ." Please whatever you do just don't harm her, i dont care
about me but i can't lose another baby, you can take me but leave
her out of this" I say crying my lungs out." You don't have a say
lady , we do what we want" says his brother, the one i met
earlier, there is no sight of Trey, nigga is such a coward ,I'm
scared as shit but i don't have a choice it all done, I'm gonna lose
my baby. The guy injects me and i just fall asleep right away, that
how strong it was.

Musa

We are already In the very same area where Lelo might be kept.
Dad has been busy on his phone trying to get some information.
Him: we got him
He says but looks concerned
Me: and? ?
Him: we don't have all day, I've already called my boys, they on
the way
Me: but you just said we don't have all day father lets just go get
her out of there
Him: umh son this people are dangerous, they've got a very right
security, so me and you won't defeat them.
Me: pops I'm going now
I take out my gun and load it full
Him: another thing is, they might be working on operating her.
Now I can't even shake the feeling that this assholes are touching
my heart in some sort of ways.
Me: I'm going in now
Just when I've just hopped out of the car four black Isuzu's stop
next to us, different man get out and wait for my dad's orders,my
mind ain't here but with her. "God please protect them " I say
within myself. After dad's orders we walk in the building, we
already know which room number, in no second bullets are being
shot, I don't care if I'm killing or committing murder but I shoot like
no other, we finish off those outside the apartment and get inside,
there's so much noise it's like we just entered some kind of a bar,
we meet eye in eye with my dear friend. He smiles while I
maintain a straight face.I wanna kill him right away but I just stop
the feeling" where is she "?I shout already on his throat, the
puches he receives while he just grins non stop.
Him: I..I..I don't know what you talking about man
I hold his balls tight and he screams out loud, I'm guesing he is
now sobber
Me: I won't ask you again
Him: I told you bro
I get off him and walk to the other rooms, I can smell that she was
kept in here. I look around and turn the place upside down, some
kind of a folded paper I find under a pillow, Its written " Musa " I
can't stop the tears from falling. I go back finding my dad busy
with him. he has been tied up on a chair and receiving the best
medicine of his life."
Me: is he talking
Him: unfortunately "the rock" here is acting rough.
I click my tounge in irritation, " over here" someone yells and we
follow him.
Dad: go get you heart son, I will deal with this motherf***
We get into some kind of a hidden elevator, going downstairs,
just as it opens we are met by men with guns, already prepared
we kill the motherfuckers like inserts. " I can hear people arguing ,
I run to where the sounds come from, " what heppening , I
thought we had this place hidden and covered"

Yells another one," we do, let's start im sure she is deep in sleep
now" another one again.
Me: that won't be necessary boys
I say already inside their creepy room, I can see her laying
peacefully, I wanna run to her but I have to deal with this asses
right now. They look at me and laugh but they do seem suprised.
Me: Oh boys what have you gotten yourselves into?
I say shaking my head and holding my gun, the other one tries
something funny, and i shoot his leg, he groans in pain but I don't
care.
Him: shit what the fuck man? ??
Me: what the fuck wamanyala
I look at the other one and he looks just like Trey.
Me:I see you are the brother
Him: fuck take your girl and leave
I chuckle, this nigga though.
Two of our guys gets in, quickly they take my heart and rushed
her outside, she have to go to the hospital. I remain with the
operators, dad comes in finding me busy with them, I've already
tied them, now all I have to do is use their big scissors on their
cruel filthy bodies. I smile as I look at how scared their coloured
asses are.
Me: let me start with the manhood, or maybe take out your eyes
and ears first.
I'm smiling while I brush the sharp scissor I'm holding on his face,
the thought that it was meant for my heart kills me, damn I wanna
kill this niggas God they can't live to tell the story. " please I'm
begging you bro"
Me: shut the hell up I'm not your bro
Him: please man
Me: or maybe I can start by taking your teeth out one by one, the
pain is what we looking for right.
Dad: Musa....
Me: dad please, they need to feel what I was feeling, what she
was feeling
Dad: son I know they can go to jail, I will make sure of that
Me: jail is too comfortable, they need to meet their ancestors
He chuckles
Dad: you are not a killer Musa
Me: well after today I will be one
I say as I take one sharp knife from their equipments too
Me: you were going to use this, this huge knife on her???
The anger in me accumulated, unexpected I hear two shot, dad
gotta be kidding me.

Insert 62

Unedited😕

Narrated

It's nearly seven in the morning when his phone ringing tone woke
him up, he got up and looked for it." Brown speaking " he said in
his sleepy voice. " we found your daughter,her kidnapper is at
your door step right now, you the father you deal with him your
own way, and by the way she is still at the hospital" Mr Ngema
said and ended the call right away before he answered him. He
was still unaware of who he was talking to but soon realised that it
might be Ngema. He went outside and found his guards and a
young man who looked so numb dueol to the beatings he
received. " I need a bath first, boys keep him busy" he said and
went back to take a bath.

" what heppened there" asked Mrs Ngema who noticed that
things were a little tense between her husband and son. Musa
looked away not caring about his parents conversation, his mind
was with Lelo whose ward was filled with doctors. " I saved your
son from being a freaken killer, he is going to be a father for
heaven's sake and is still 20" Ngema said looking at Musa. He
knew that he was so like his mother, and yersterday proved it that
one day he will be a cold monster who won't be afraid of killing,
but it better if it's one day cause now he ain't ready for that shit so
that is why he quickly shot the two guys to death before his son
could show them flames, he was gonna slaughter them to death,
that he saw in his eyes." I gues I should say I'm sorry for wanting
those fucken coloured dead" Musa finaly said, his mother already
had teary eyes, she knew how he was feeling, she was familiar
with the feeling and she knew that if it's was her too, she would
have done the impossible to those freaks to feel the pain she has
felt, but mostly what made her wanna cry is that she saw it in
Musa's eyes that he was turning to be like her although she had
tried to hide that cold barstard inside her, gues her son was more
like her and she hated that thought , she wanted a normal life for
him and with her husband she knew that they can give their
children one. " your father was right boy , you are not a killer son"
finaly she said with tears scrolling down her face. The difference
between Ngema and his wife was that Ngema was able to think in
difficult times, he was a strong ass that could do anything for his
family but he was against killing, he was a forgiving man while his
wife never forgave any bitches, she would get them unexpectedly
but our mighty Ngema knew how to calm his lioness, he never
loved that side of his wife but he learned to live with it.

" so you are the barstard that kidnapped my daughter" he shouted

drinking his wine. Trey remained quiet, he was ready to die, he
knew that this monster infront of him was never gonna let him live
at all." I'm talking to you " Brown again, he was giving him the
best punches of the time and he enjoyed them, every punch
literally described how he was feeling. Although the flashes of the
day he shot his wife kept on playing in his mind he tried blocking
them with his princess face and the thought that she was alive
and safe.when he was tired He took a break from hitting Trey and
went to eat. Trey was in some kind of pain that he wished for
death right now, his body was blood covered and his nose was
literally broken, his eyes could not see and his mouth was so big,
he already lost about five teeth, all he had to lose now was his life
just because he wanted to be with the girl he loved. He still
remembered the day he first saw her at campus, she has just
arrived with another white guy who he thought was her brother
but turned out he was her fiance. He remember telling Musa
about her although he didn't know her name, but the nigga went
for her anyway. He loved her and always succeeded on hiding his
feelings everytime they went out together with Musa, he would
sometimes steal looks at her while she wasn't aware, he spends
most of the time stalking her on both Facebook and instagram
and the day Musa told him about the pregnancy he nearly gave
up his feelings but contained himself, rightthere he decided that
he had to do what he had to do to be With her. kidnappin her was
the only way. Just as he was lost in his own thought, Brown
coughed looking at him strangely, he had two man with him."
There he is, you both know which organs are important right" the
guys nodded. "I'm pretty sure he is healthy, look at him he is still
young, now you take out all the important organs and we will talk "
he said looking at him, " say your last short prayer man" he then
dissapeared to his bedroom, he had to go and see his baby but
first he called Trevor who sounded so weird.
Him: son in law
He chuckled
Tee: I wonder if im still gonna be one
Him: don't worry son you will be, Inno was found and the ass that
kidnapped her is already donating his heart for the ill now get
ready we have to go to Gauteng
Tee: oh ...
That all he could say
Him: we don't have all day man
He ended the call and went to take a short shower, he smelt of
blood.

Musa

I was still sitting next to her, she was sleeping peacefully with her
hands on her tummy. Now she realy looked pregnant but you
could never tell that she was 6 months pregnant maybe 4 yeah.
I've been holding the little piece of paper she left for me, I opened
it and started reading, every word hit me, I love this human being,
God knows I will die for her.
" now why are you crying ntante Ngema " she said in her soft
voice. I smiled looking at her beautiful glowing yet hurt eyes." You
are awake Mma Brown " she forced a smile and i kissed her
chicks
Her: you found me
She smiled
Me: i nearly lost you love
Her: but you didn't baby, you found us
Me: you made it all easy, you are one strong woman i know baby
Her: please kiss me already, i wanna make sure if im not
dreamimg cause right now I'm not sure.
I chuckled
Me: Is that your way of asking for a kiss my heart
Her: you are wasting time ntante Ngema
I smiled and leaned over, we kissed slowly, oh how I missed this
soft lips. Finaly we let go and looked at each other. Our eyes
stuck on another, we didn't leave sight, if only we could stay this
way.
Her: why do I love you this much again??
Me: if only I had the answer muntu wami
Her: God I'm not dreaming right??
I laughed
Me: what is it with you and dreams bbe
Her: I just don't trust myself this days, one thing I feel like I'm in
reality only to find that I'm dreaming and I'm gonna be awoken up
by a huge man with a dark voice.
I laugh
Me: well right now no huge man gonna wake you up cause it's
happening babe, you are with me where you belong.
She smiled so perfect
Her: feel this
She grabbed my hand and made me feel her tummy, a few kicks
from our bundle of you left me in tears , just the thought that they
were gonna cut her out killed me more.
Me: my other heart, she is so active
Her: she is indeed, very much like Her father
I smiled, just the sound of " her father " and that's me.
Me: I cant wait to meet her
Her: I bet she can't wait too
Me: I love you so much Mma Brown, I promise you I'm gonna
protect you baby, I will make sure that nothing like this never
heppen in the future.
Her: don't beat yourself love, it wasn't your fault, I blame my
parents though...
I look at her and I don't have the words
Her: for making me this beautiful dummy, maybe if i was little bit
ugly no man would have thought of kidnapping an ugly ass like
me.
I laugh and she is damn serious
Me: well i would have loved your ugly ass either way.
Her: lier baby!!
Me: trust me i would have, who said I love your beauty??
Her: well you do love my cute face
Me: but baby you ain't cute
She frowned
Me: okay maybe you are
Just then my parents got in carrying a hell lot of food.
Me: and then? ?
Mom: my babies are hungry and you busy talking non stop
I chuckle
Me; baby you hungry??
I ask Lelo who nods shyly
Me: but....
Mom : Musa shut up and feed your heart please
Me: okay Mrs lioness
She gives me an eye and i ignore her and smile at my baby.
Her: we will be outside, and Lelo baby expect your dad inthe next
coming hours.
Lelo: okay ma and thank you for the food, I nearly died of hunger.
She looks at me smiling
Mom: I know baby this one only knows talking non stop, I'm just
glad you Are fine love,now please feed my granddaughter .
She smiles and they went outside.
Lelo

Seeing him made everything alright, he looked so very much hurt

but the moment he realised I was awake that smile came back,
my Musa came back to me although I could see he was trying to
be strong but he was still my heart. We just finished eating.
Me: what heppened to Trey
I just felt like I needed to know
Him:I don't know love, I too wanna know
He then kept quiet, he looked so sleepy xem and tired
Me: come sleep next to me
Him: babe I'm fine
Me: stop acting stong love just for once
Him: but...
Me: Musawakhe!!
Him: wabani??
He smiled at his stupid self
Me: Musawami come sleep next to me baby you look tired.
He did and within minutes this stupid man of mine was snoring. I
kissed him and fell asleep too.

" " their blood binds them together, they are already married inthe
name of the ancestors, not lawfully. As they grow up, they have to
get married to one another, and your wealth will live as they bare
children, with their heartbeats, you shall forever be rich"" ....

" am i being tempted or what??" That was my dad, his yelling

woke us up and interefered with same dream i been having this
past few days. I slowly opened my eyes and realised that the
lights were onn and that it was already dark outside. Musa slowly
opened his too, " shit what time is it" I couldn't speak I was still
taken by my dream and my dad's presence of which he seemed
not bothered by.
Dad: boy get the fuck out of here before I blow your brains
He said, then boom Trevor got in....now who the hell said I
wanted to see him and wait where is mother...?? I was busy
thinking that I caught Musa kissing my chicks, he was already out
of bed.
Him: I will be back, I love you bbe
I smiled and he walked out. Dad looked at my stomach and his
hatred for the baby I could see .
Me: their blood binds them together, inthe name of the ancestors
they are already married not by law.....
Dad: what????
His facial expression has changed, now he was worried and i
don't know why
Me: father where is mother??
He shook his head
Him: what did you just say Innocentia, where did you here that
Me: hear what?? I just asked you where my mother is
I didn't understand cause that the only thing I said
Him: don't play me
Me: you didn't even ask me how I was, and now you talking...
Him: stop stop it....your mother was shot, we might lose her.
He just had to throw the bomb, this man though. I couldn't say
anything after that, what if I lose her, who would I be in this world?
? Just when she was on my side then boom she is on her death
bed.
Him: I will give you time with Trevor
He got out and left me with this rapist, just how crazy is my
father? ?
Me: follow him please I need my space
Him: I know I'm one person you don't wanna see right now but I...
Me: stop with the pretence Tee, we both know you don't care
about me all you care about is yourself amd I dont know why you
even here...
Him: Inno I know I'm no perfect right...
He snapped, i looked at him and for the first time all I saw was
pain, the mighty Pretorias feeling like rubbish
Me: you raped me Tee, I asked you to stop but you went on and
on enjoying yourself, you broke me and when the only person
who picked up the pieces you left me with helps me gain my
strength, you come back to remind me of my filthiness.
Him: I just wanted you to be mine , that all I've ever wanted, I
can't live without you too, I can't lose another person in my
life...you the only person who complete me now Innocentia .
He spoke with so much honesty but I didn't get what he meant
by," he can't lose any other person"
Me: what do you mean with , you can't lose anyone else.
Him: we lost Amo, we buried her two days ago.
I felt my heart break into pieces, I'm not a terrible person and i
don't hold grudges, I know Trevor did me bad but he doesn't
deserve the loss of a child, and i know Nina betrayed and hurted
me but she doesn't have to go through all this alone, I know her
better and i know deep inside this is killing her she may act all
tough but she is vulnerable. And I know how it feels like to lose a
child, I lost my ghost baby before I could meet him but I felt the
pain so what about someone who lost their child, one that they
fed and bathed, one that they sang for to sleep, one that they
smiled at and played with.
Me: I'm so sorry Tee, I don't know what to say
Him: maybe I deserve it, I've done so many horrible things
Me: regardless of what you've done, you dont deserve such
Him: you always have the right words to say, that why I love you
Innocentia
Me: dont make this what it isn't Tee , you still hurted me and gues
what I forgive you, now can we please live out lives with peace.
Him: how do I when you the only thing that can bring peace in my
life
Me: I'm sure you will find someone, and I'm sure you will learn to
love Nina too
He sighed
Him: you don't get it do you??
Me: what??
Him: you are the only one I am able to love, my mind only thinks
of you and my heart beats for you.
Now that was strange, his words reminded me of my dream.
Me: now that ridiculous Tee and you know it
Him: how far are you??
He was referring to the pregnancy, I realy didn't want to talk about
my baby, I don't trust him and dad
Me: I'm sure you know very well
Him: he makes you happy doesn't he??
I smiled
Me: I just love him Tee, like you I can't love anyone else but him.
Him: I just wish I could take his place
Me: I'm sorry you can't
he then walked out, I took my phone and called Nina, I know we
ain't besties anymore but I had to console her somehow. She
answered at the third ring
Her: Lelo!!
She sounded so strange
Me: ummh hey
Her: God they found you
Me: yeah
Well Musa did tell me that I was made famouse due to my
disappearance and the lady who called him was given the money
promised by my dad, and I'm sure people will be pointing my side
everywhere I go.
Her: that's great
Me: yeah well how are you holding up
Her: you know??
Me: I've just found out
Her: I am getting there thanks
Me: I'm so sorry you had to go through such pain
Her: well maybe it was bound to happen with all the terrible
mistakes I've done and the decisions I made
Me: don't please , no one deserves such
Her: I'm happy you called, I know you hate me and I dont blame
you.
Now I know she was crying, I just wish I was there for her, she
realy is not a terrible person just someone who made wrong
decisions and ended up being burnt on the very same fire she
made.
Me: please don't cry on me I've cried enough today
She giggled
Her: you don't know how much i missed this, although I know we
can't be friends anymore but I'm glad I heard your voice
Me: I just want you to be better and dont think that you are alone
and please note this, I don't hate you, how can I when I've spent
10 perfect years being friends with you bishh
Her: im so sorry for all that i did Mbulelo I realy am, now I know
when they say karma forgets no address
Me: be well hey, and please don't think too much..

Insert 63

3 days later

Lelo

I'm out of the hospital, today I'm going to see my mom although
my heart can't stand the thought of seeing her lifeless body like
but I have to, dad said that he is switching off the machines today,
I've cried and cried but it won't help, she is gone and not coming
back to me, to any of us. My pa acts so strong but I can see he
still loved her, he still cared about her, I just don't know what went
wrong." Inno finish up we should be going now" he shouts as I
take my jacket and exit the room, yes I went back with father, he
wouldn't let me stay with the Ngemas and I've been surrounded
by guards even outside my bedroom, dad's doings all that not that
I blame him but I'm safe, they caught Trey so I don't know who
else gonna try and kidnapp me again.
Me: I'm ready
Him: we don't have time, I'm having a meeting in about 3 hours
I nod unbelievably, what kind of person goes to a meeting right
after he just signed his wife's death, who does that??
Him: what??
It's like he read my mind
Me: nothing
I say
Him: we still need you to marry Trevor you know that right??
Me: not now dad, I'm about say goodbye to my mother so please.
We get inside her ward, every kind of tubes makes their way to
her body, it hurts to see her like this, it's hurts that this is the last
time I see her beautiful body, it pains me that I'm now about to be
motherless, and about to have a baby. Who will teach me how to
be a mother, who will help me when i struggle with my cupcake
.tears are formed in my eyes as I think of all the time we spent
together and yet I'm about to say goodbye to the only woman who
showed me love, who raised me and forced made me put on
make up, dress up and wear weaves. Whose gonna smile at me
even when the situation says otherwise?? " I know its painful but
standing here looking at her will make it even worse" dad says.
Me: I don't know what to say
Him: just speak from your heart princess
I fake a smile
Me: can we be left alone?
Him: don't take too long
He goes out and I sit on the chair next to her bed
Me: I'm sorry I've always been hard headed, I'm sorry I've always
went against your decisions.
I sob I can't hold myself, how do I say goodbye?? I still need her, I
want her to live, for me for my baby, for my father,God for us.
Me: mom please wake up, it's me your only princess, wake up
my queen please if not for me then for your grandchild. She has
grown so much and can't wait to meet you, you can't leave us,
you can't mom who will I be left with?? I'm not ready to lose you
yet and I'm not sure I will ever be ready.
Tears scrolls down blinding my sight, I've never felt such pain, I
touch her soft yet messy hair, she will kill me right now cause she
never wanted me to play with her hair, she used to say they
define her beauty, but she was naturally beautiful even without
her expensive weaves. " it's time" a voice says next to me. I blink
more than once It can't be, she needs to open her eyes, like in
movies right, they always do someone maybe shake her hand or
finger but she ain't responding, she is literally dead and i can't
accept it, I'm not accepting it. Dad is next to me, he looks at me
with pitiful eyes but I shook my head " please dad just give me
one more 10 minutes, she's got to wake up she has to" I criy out
loud begging my father but he just looked at me with his already
pink face, seems like he's been crying too." She is gone sweety,
accept it " he says . I look at mom one more time and the doctor
who had started taking off all those terrifying tubes connected to
her.
Him : you can switch them off now
I felt a part of me being ripped out of my chest, i couldnt control
myself I just let out a huge cry that left me kneeling down next to
my mothers body as dad switched off the machine. Just like that
she was gone and i couldn't do anything to save her, not even
God himself showed mercy on me. " mom" I cried out loud unable
to describe the pain I was feeling, two males in powder blue
uniforms came in and wheeled her out of the ward, I didn't even
have the strength to follow them, I just looked at her body being
wheeled out of the room until she dissapeared. I remained sitted
on the cold floor with my hands on my stomach. Dad followed the
men, while I couldn't even stop hoping that this was one of my
nightmares I'm gonna wake up and see her beautiful smile or
receive her annoying calls. Minutes later I had fallen asleep on
the floor, dad woke me up, he was now with Trevor. This guy
always have the wrong timing to show up. He helped me get up
and took my bag. Firstly I could see that he didn't know what to
say thus he chose to be quiet. " I'm going to that meeting, Trevor
will drive you back home" das said, nigga just pisses me off, i
hate to say this but my dad is one hell of a stupid man. I chose to
just nod, fighting him was useless plus I had no strength." Can we
go now?" Asked Trevor, ofcause we have to go I mean we are
already in the car, how dumb was his question.
Me: just drive Tee
Him: don't you want anything
Me: I want my mom, can you give me that??
Him: im sorry I didn't mean it like that
I just felt bad of what I said
Me: no I'm the one who should be apologising, I'm sorry
Him: i know how you feel
Me: I gues
Him: so did you get your results?
Me: now is not the time Tee, can you concentrate at the road
please
Him: ok cool.

Musa

"No mountains too high for you to climb

All you have to do is have some climbing faith, oh, yeah, No rivers
too wide for you to make it across. All you have to do is believe it
when you pray

And then you will see the morning will come And everyday will be
bright as the sun All of your fears—cast them on me
I just want you to see...

I'll be your cloud up in the sky

I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel, And when all hope is gone, I'm here. No matter
how far you are, I'm near ,It makes no difference who you are I
am your angel, I'm your angel""

" ncooo love can you please not stop" she says smiling, we are
skyping and i am singing I'm your angel" for her. Her eyes are red
as fuck , I can see her face already turned pink and her English
like nose poking red. It pains me to see how much hurt she is, she
can't be stressed she is carrying a human being but the loss of
her mother we can't ignore. I know how she is feeling, I once
thought i have lost my dad forever and the feeling that i didn't
know if he was alive or not killed me.
Me: I'm so sorry bbe, I know it hard
She forced a smile
Her: I will be fine my Angel
I chuckle
Me: be strong hey, I will come over late if that's not a problem
Her: not at all, I would love to see a handsome face too, maybe
that will calm me a little
Me: then I will be there babe and I'm hoping that white bull ain't
stressing you out
She chuckled
Her: then you chose the word "bull"
Me: i dont have a better one
Her: ay bbey
me: I love you yeva
She smiled
Me: Mma Brown
Her: mmhmm
Me: I love you hun
Her: I love you more bbe
Me: what are you thinking about? ?
Her: I'm scared Musa
Me: don't worry love i will be with you every step of the way
Her: I know I just....I don't know
Me: hey, you are strong babe, I know this might be the hardest
task you've ever faced but you are one tough woman, you are
allowed to be scared bbe you just lost your world, but please don't
let this break the strong woman in you.
She was already in tears
Me: I'm coming now
Her: with chocolates please
She said in between her sobs
Me: ofcause my baby's favourite
Her: hurry up please
Me: on my way baby.

Trevor

I know i may sound all crazy now but if this chance slips me
through I won't get another. Inno is on her weakest point and
vulnerable now, She need a shoulder to cry on and since I'm
around I may offer her that and maybe more, I can console her in
different ways. I bought vannila ice cream, although the thought
that shes gonna be eating it with her baby kills me but I'm doing
this to win her heart. I take two tea spoons and head to her
bedroom upstairs. I knocked a few times before her messy yet
beautiful self showed up at the door. She looked surprised.
Her: Tee???
Me: mmhm I'm sorry to just...
Her: what do you want??
I coughed a few times, she seemed scared too. Is she afraid of
me???
Me: thought you could use some company
Her: mmhmm Tee we not friends remember??
Me: look Inno I just thought maybe you need someone to talk to
She chuckled
Her: and that would be the very same person who raped me? ?
That hit a nerve I tell you
Me: well i would never hurt you..
Her: so you say
Me: okay then I will leave the ice cream for you
She faked a smile
Her: no thank you Im not ready to follow my mom
Me: you think I will kill you??
Her: since you are capable of raping you are capable of anything
Me: fine suit yourself
Her: thank you, now can you please take your ice cream with you
Me: I just wish you knew how you hurting me
Her: get over yourself Tee just see how heartless you are, I'm
trying to digest the death of my mom for God's sake .
I looked at her beautiful self once more and walked away, Inno is
so difficult.

Narrated

The news of Mrs Brown's death travelled very fast, because she
was partner in most businesses, her death was spoken of in radio
stations all over. Her family was to arrive the following day, while
the Brown family was already occupying the Brown residence.
Lelo was waiting for her heart to call her patiently, while the other
family members couldn't stop feeling sorry for her." Where is
she?" Said Mrs Pretorias already entering the living room in her
pink outfit. She went upstairs where Lelo was keeping herself ."
Oh poor you my baby, how are you holding on?" Lelo faked a
smile after Trevor's mom attacked her with one huge hug." I'm
fine mother" finally she said. Mrs Pretorias looked at her then at
her stomach, her smile dissapeared the momont she noticed how
big her tummy was." I see She is growing" she said not smiling
bit. Lelo saw it but decided to not mind her, after all she is not
related to her or her baby." How long are you again" she asked. "
today ain't about me or my child ma," she said. Mrs Brown forced
a smile, she wasnt good at hiding her feeling." You know you
should be carrying my son's baby but instead you chose to open
your legs for that boy, after all we've been through together with
both families, truth is you should be ashamed of yourself
Innocentia i dont even know why we still pursuing this marriage of
yours with my son because you are already demaged". All this
time Lelo is looking at her phone not minding her, she knows she
can say anything just to hurt her and she's not about to apologies
for not loving someone else except Musa she wont apologies for
not loving Tee." I'm sorry but I have to go somewhere" she said
taking her phone that just beeped with Musa's message." But I
thought we could sit down and talk you know..." Mrs Pretorias
tried talking her out of it but she took her night bag and left her
sitting on her bed.
Insert 64

Narrated

Just after Lelo left, Mrs Pretorias went downstairs to the rest of
the family fuming with anger. " how could she?, now that she is
pregnant she thinks she is a woman? This child is just
disrespectful " she was shouting non stop that made her husband
to come calm her down." What happened " he asked, Mrs P just
blinked more than twice trying to regain her strength, she hated
the thought that Lelo is pregnant while her son doesn't have any
child." Isn't that child of Brown, she just make me wanna puke,
let's get the hell out of here " she said. Mr P shook his head and
faked a smile," but honey we've just arrived, Brown is our friend
we need to be here for him" he tried changing his wife's thoughts
but she didn't give him a chance cause she took the car keys from
him and left him there. Mr P had no choice but to follow the one
he shared his life with, his wife was just difficult. Outside he
bumped to a sour Brown." You leaving already?", he was so pink
you could see he has been crying, his eyes were all puffy and
red." Seems like it" Pretorias confirmed " be strong man, she was
realy a good woman in all the years I've known her, and a good
wife and the best mom, you should be proud you met her and
spent years with sucha beautiful woman, but there's nothing we
can do, she is in a better place and and relieved from our doings"
he wasn't smiling at all, not even one teeth showing. Brown just
nodded and they hugged after that he left.

Lelo
The nerve of that women is Just in another level, how could she
say all those things, she didn't even try to make me feel better but
worse, sometimes I just wonder if all I'm meant for is pain or what
cause everytime someone suprises me. I'm with my heart inside
his car, I'm not going back home which is why I brang my clothes
along. I won't stay there and listen to those people whispering
about me and others telling me shit, and as for my dad's family,
we don't get along very well, they think I'm that spoilt daughter
and from the whispers I heard I'm a disgrace that fell pregnant for
another man while I'm engaged to another, every one seems to
have an opinion in my life, and i don't get why people are
intrested to such painful life." You seem so far away, tell me what
heppened in there " Musa's voice brang me back to earth.
Me: nothing bigger than me babe, now can I have my chocolates
munchie.
I realy don't want to bother him with my problems, already I'm a
buggage with lots of problems.
Him: don't lie to me Mma Brown
I sighed
Me: Musa my chocolates please
Him: okay if you don't want to talk to me it's fine
he sulked and gave me a box of chocolates, he looked so cute in
his angry created face.
Me: baby
Him:.......
Nigga just looked at me, I smiled cause in his mind he wanted to
stay angry but his heart wanted that face of his to display the
smile that makes my day better.
Him: i love you hey
that's my man, I giggled
Me: I love you Ntante Ngema
He smiled, gosh Musa and his smiles
Him: you brought a bag along??
Me: I'm staying over at your place
Him: you want your father to kill me MBULELO INNOCENTIA
BROWN? ?
Me: trust me he wouldn't succeed
I laughed
Him: but seriously babe
Me: Musa please
Him: isn't kind of disrespect, I mean your mother just passed
away
I sighed, and tears just scrolled down
Me: but Musa I can't handle their bad talks,and father looks at me
with hate everytime he shows sight, he hates me, he hates our
daughter.
He just brought me to his chest, and kissed my forehead
Him: please don't cry, all will be well sthandwa sami
Me: please dont make me go back there
I implored
Him: okay then but I will bring you back early in the morning
He wiped my tears
Me: it's fine then, I know father will be mad at me but I will be fine.
Him: I know you will be.

He then played This Song by Bebe Winans while driving to his

house. I wasn't scared of Mrs Ngema and her husband anymore,
they were welcoming and smilefull, they reminded me of my
parents before i turned 17 years old. They were always inlove and
were always on each others throuts, where there was dad, you
will always find mom next to him, but I gues we live in a suprising
world, cause immediately things just changed, dad became
obsessed with me marrying Trevor of which I can't find the reason
why, and mother received the worst attention from her husband. I
still can't believe that in her last days in earth, he abused her
physically, and the thought that my mom was actualy shot still
leaves a million questions in my mind that why I can't bring myself
to talk about it cause i don't know why she was shot at the first
place, and by who ??." Baby we here" Musa again, I had zoned
out to my own island, a place of many questions left unanswered.
Him: are you okay? ?
Me: I will survive love
We both got out of the car and went inside, her mother was
watching tv while we saw no sight of his father. Immediately when
she saw me she just attacked me with a huge warming hug,now
this is what I needed.
Her: sana lwami ( my baby)
I giggled because of the language
Her: be strong baby
She said smiling and kissing my chicks
Me: I'm trying ma
Her: I know you are, dont you feel like girl therapy, baby you need
a message and a hell lot of things. ..
She said looking at my nails and hair, this woman though. I tried
opening my mouth but she husshed me..
Her:shhh...give me a few minutes then we are out, I need to
strengthen my hair kaloku.
I smiled, her behaviour wasn't different from my mom, she found
shopping healing everytime. Musa smiled, he was already
searchimg for something to watch.
Him: I'm sure you are now used to her
Me: I've got no choice love
Him: I think she is right though, we don't want you looking like an
old pregnant woman right??
That's hurts, and i just frowned trying to hold my tears, this boy
just said I'm ugly in a different tune
Him: baby???
Me: leave my ugly ass alone Musa
He chuckled but stopped right away when he saw tears on my
face, he got up and came to my side, we were sitting in different
couches
Him: I didn't mean it like that sthandwa sami
Me: mxm, just leave me alone
Him: I'm sorry babe you know you are beautiful nje
Me: I know my left foot....
Just then his mother's presence saved him cause he just made
me cry and i wasn't gonna let him win this one.
Her: seems like my son walked with the wrong foot.
She laughed at him while he stood there looking at me with his
sorry face.
Me: im ready when you are ma
Her face brightened, this woman though
Her: let's go then darling, son you stay here and practice saying
the right words to your lady.
She smiled then we were out, I was wearing my shorts and a
medium nike t-shirts with my nike kicks , my tummy wasn't that
big but showing.
Her: how's your father??
We were already on our way
Me: he's realy affected by this whole thing, he is hurted and he
hates me and my baby.
Her: no parents hates their child baby, he just hate that you are
pregnant and carrying the child of his enemy
I sighed
Me: I wonder what heppened
Her: a lot that if I had to tell you, I won't stop and you will get
confused
Me: so we dying for our families sins or drama or whatsoever
She breathed out
Her: I gues so, but Brown shouldn't have brought this up cause it
was a long time ago, before you guys were even conceived.
Me: my dad is so very hot headed though
Her: and you are so like him
I laughed
Me: my mother used to say so
My mood just changed
Her: I know how it feels to lose your parents at an early age, Im
sorry you had to experience that too, but don't forget that we will
be right here everytime, you are now part of our little family.
I just smiled at her, she was just so sweet atleast I had some
people on my side, fuck Tee's mom and her family.

Nina

I was in Joburg visiting Nick, like I said I needed to get out of

Mpumalanga before I go crazy." Stop finishing my coco pops you
little witch" that was him shouting, growing up we both loved coco
pops, they were our obsession, and with me here, he had to buy
plenty of boxes cause i end up snacking with them.
Me: I'm not a witch you old men
Him: im going to work, better cook cause i will be back later with
someone
I frowned
Me: one of your bitches??
He chuckled.
Him: just someone I'm learning to live with.
Me: oh! Is it serious ??
Him: not at all, my heart belongs to someone already taken.
Me: shame bro you will be strong
Him: I'm getting there, now let me dissapear before traffic beats
me.
I continued eating, then searched for something to watch, you see
my brother doesn't easily love a person, he was once inlove with
Naomi a girl he met in Cape Town where he attended varsity, she
played him very well cause she was in all for the money not love,
she realy bruised my brother's ego, cause she never dumped
him but he saw it on every social media he had that his current
girlfriend was getting married the following week but he couldn't
accept it, he loved her with all his life that why he ended up
stalking her and kidnapping her on her wedding day. It's was just
a chaos cause even after he let her go, the following week she
was found dead next to a forsaken pool, my brother was the first
to be questioned but there's wasn't any evidence held against
him. So now him saying he's inlove with someone taken scrared
the hell out of me, I just wish he gets over her whoever she is
cause this i do not like at all.

" you thought you can hide from me, you can never hide from the
mighty Denzel lady", his voice scared the shit out of me, how was
it possible?? He wasn't here physically but he just appeared on
TV, I was watching Being marryjane when suddenly the channel
changed and showed this evil monster.
Me: wtf??
I attempted to get up and run but something held my feet still.
Him: you can never run away from me woman
Me: what do you want from me you devil?
I shouted, I was scared but I've heard it somewhere that you
shouldn't show the devil your weakness.
Him: I thought i gave you a task
Me: damn you and your filthy evil tasks
He laughed
Him: mother of my cats you shouldn't speak to your king like that
Me: fuck off, I'm not carrying your evil cats do you hear me??
Him: keep on telling yourself that, now on a serious note, I need
you to do something for me, in exchange for that i will leave you
alone.
Me: I'm not doing anything for you barstard
Him: hear me first
I didn't reply
Him: your friend is carrying a child she shouldn't be carrying, I
need that child dead or else I will lose a lot of things, I can't fall
when I'm on my greatest, so if you do this for me, I leave you
alone and find another weak girl to carry my cats.
Me: my friend??
Him: Mbulelo Brown
I laughed
Me: and how does her pregnancy affect you?
Him: you will never get it, just kill that baby before she turns 8
months, and you won't have to think of running away from me
cause I can even follow you to the United States my dear.

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Narrated

The witch doctor couldn't rest nor sleep, she was out of ideas of
how to protect her soul, she was about to lose everything
because of Lelo and the people she made rich and famous, and
those who were trusted by the community were in trouble too.
Everyone she worked with was in trouble cause if she was to lose
her power they fall with her, all those spirits she worked with will
forsake her and who would she be in this world? An old woman
with nothing? ?. That why she contacted Pastor Denzel after
seeing that he can be a little help since he is close to Nina." How
did she take it??" She asked worried, all this worried her. " she
might do it, I don't know but she was scared of me so chances are
she might be help" he said assuring her. Well that was a relieve
since her plan with Musa didn't help at all, that baby was powerful
and Musa was protected even with his small belief, he was
untouchable. Lately she learned that the baby wasn't really
sacrificed,but he gave up life himself to protect his parents , how
stupid of her to actually think that she can just kill a powerful baby
like that one. I gues her and the ancestors were deceived and
made fools by heaven ." I hope she does cause we are in a
terrible position , all this wealth can just disappear and your fame
of being a prophet can just vanish from thin air within seconds"
she said to Denzel who looked worried,he wasn't about to lose it
all just because of a child, a stupid girl who fell pregnant for the
wrong mate, he just couldn't but he was unable to attack or go
after her, evil forces couldn't go close to Lelo, only human could
do the job and kill her baby.
" pity I can't touch her, If I was able to that baby will be history
today'" he said trying so hard to keep his coolness.

At the Brown household, Mrs Brown's family had arrived,

tomorrow was the day of the burial. Their premise was full of
white and black men, the Brown family wasn't ready close to the
other family but they managed to keep it together and mourn for
Mrs Brown.

Mr Brown had fallen asleep thinking about his life, his wife,the one
he shot and now about to bury " Brown" he opened his eyes and
to his surprise he was met by his wife's beautiful self, she was in
their wedding dress." do the right thing" she said sowly walking
wondering around their bedroom." Rebecca baby" he said trying
to hold her but he couldn't, he couldn't touch his wife he couldn't
even feel her." You cant touch me husband,you killed me
remember" she said, he broke down in tears, " I'm sorry I didn't
meant to, that bullet wasn't meant for you ", he was know kneeling
down, he was weak and this wasn't his style." I know you didn't
mean to kill me, you wouldn't kill me, you love me" she shed a few
tears too," but you did kill me, you killed me more than once but
everyday you killed me, with your words and threats , your
assaults you killed me Brown" she said as she was slowly fading
away." I'm sorry" that all he managed to say." Do the right thing
husband, free our daughter, your princess, my life, our seed, free
her from all this evil you committed her into" she then
disappeared, Brown woke up trying to recall his dream. Now he
couldn't make up his mind, does he let his riches fade away or
does he fight and marries Lelo off to Trevor?? And how does he
break this curse without Lelo dying because she is already
pregnant??

Neo's family had to take matters into their own hands, with Neo
not participating enough, today they made it clear to her that they
were going to the Ngema premises, they had to know about the
kid. Now she was with her mom inside her bedroom busy
dressing up." Tell me the truth Neo, Is the Ngema boy responsible
for the pregnancy?" Her mother asked because she wasn't
convinced that she was telling the truth.
" yes mother, he is the only boy I dated in campus " she replied,
she couldn't tell her mother the truth because she will kill her right
away, her family is rich and she has everything but because she
loves money and old man, she made the worst decisions and
ended up falling for an old white man, how would she tell her
parents that?? " I'm hoping you telling the truth for your sake, plus
we don't want to be embarrassed, now be quick we have a long
way to go" she said. They were going to spend the night in some
hotel then go to Musa's house the following day, they found out
where they lived easily since they are famous and easy to
contact. Neo breathed out loud right after her mother left her
room, she couldn't possibly walk away from this problem,
tomorrow she had to face a bitter Musa who might tell them about
Brown, that old man.

Lelo
It's the day of my mother's burial, today I'm saying goodbye to the
woman who gave birth to me. I couldnt sleep, i tried but i couldnt.
Yes i had my mom's family who were not rude like the Browns,
well i found them already here when Musa brang me back
yesterday morning, he made sure of that even though I didn't
want to come back. Dad didn't even alter any word to me about
my behaviour, I guess he was not in a mood for me but some
people like his father just threw the worst words on my face not
forgetting to tell me how they despise the thing I'm carrying but do
I care?? No I don't. Dad just let them say anything they wanted to
me the way they felt like, There's this cousin of mine who told me
that I should have aborted before I turned 2 months, like really? ?
Well i woke up earlier than everyone, it was about 3am in the
morning I found my dad sipping his whiskey in the living room, I
guess he couldn't sleep too. I went over to the fridge and took
water, I made sure it was clearly closed because I don't trust
anyone here. I was opening the kitchen door when he stopped
me, I needed to go out and get some air, try to think." W hy did
you wake up so early " he said not looking at me.
Me: I can't sleep, you?
Him: me either, we are burying her today
He pointed at the wall where there was her portrait
Me: I guess there's just the two of us now
Him: come here princess
I went over to him, he was clearly drunk but could manage his
steps
Me: you should probably stop drinking because the funeral starts
withing a few hours .
Him: I lost my queen, I realised late that she was one of the
important parts in my life, I confess I did abuse her both physically
and emotionally but still I loved her, she was my wife and we were
once happy.
He was crying, my dad crying no maybe it's the alcohol playing it
course.
Me: I know you loved her I just don't understand how she died,
who shot her?
Him: I'm sure it was one of our business rivals, but we will get
them
Me: I hope so
Him: as you said now it only me and you
And I can't lose you too princess.
I looked at his sincere face, I know my dad loves me, I can feel it
but I don't know why the hate too, why so much anger and evil in
his heart.
Me: I love you too Mr Brown
He smiled faintly
Him: I'm sorry about everything
Me: I'm sorry too
Him: but you and that Ngema boy can't be together, the Ngemas
can't be related to us baby
Me: but father...
He just disturbed me
Him: you can go get your fresh air princess.
I went outside wondering around our yard. Withing hours it was
time, I wore my all black and looked at my mother's picture one
more time. They showed us her body, I wanted to see her, but
mostly I wanted to hold her but then it's was all impossible, she
was gone. Musa and his parents couldn't come because of the
feud between the two families but the Pretorias were present, not
that I cared. " are you alright?" Fuck how can I be alright when
I've just buried my mother, Tee is just stupid like his mother.
Me: don't please, If you don't know what to say just keep quiet.
We were back from the cemetery, yes it was confirmed that I was
now motherless because some fool took her life. I didn't allow
myself to talk at the funeral because I would break down and put
my baby in danger, I just acted all strong when they talked about
how kind she was, a smilefull woman full of life but now gone just
like that.
Him: I'm sorry I just...
Me: you are always sorry Tee, you rape me then you are
sorry,everything you are sorry just stop being sorry and be a man.
He was making me angry or i was taking out my anger On him,
but then he deserves it.
Him: listen Inno I'm trying to be there for you here don't you get
that??
Me: who asked you huh??
Him: you know what, I'm not gonna beg you, you just being selfish
now.
Me: just get out of my sight Trevor.
We were now at home, people left one by one then within minutes
it's was just us, both families drove off and it was just me, father
and sis Beauty. I went to my room and called my heart, there was
no need to cry anymore, she was gone and I had to think of my
baby, I wouldn't want to lose her too. His phone rang for some
time before he picked up.
Him: motho waka ( my person)
I smiled, how easily he can just create a smile on my face
Me: ntante Ngema
Him: how are you holding up sthandwa Sami ( my love)
Me: there's no need to complain
Him: I wish I was there for you
Me: I know bbe but I'm fine
Him: and how is your father
Me: fine I gues
Him: and my other heart
I smiled
Me:I thought I was your only heart
Him:you were until you decided to bless me with a mini you my
heart
I giggled
Me: she is fine and been throwing hard punches on my stomach, I
don't know what kind of a girl is this.
He chuckled
Him:she is strong like his mommy
Me: I don't know if I'm strong Musa
Him: I know you are bbe
Me: well if you say so Musawami
Him: I love you Mma Brown, and if you ain't strong baby I will be
strong for the three of us.
Me: I love more my heart.

Nina

Since yesterday I've been shutting out both my brother and his so
called girlfriend. I'm still scared and taken by the scenario that I
couldn't even sleep at night. how do I when he is always around
me, how does he do it?? Is he that powerful?? I don't know how I
fell asleep cause I remember playing candy crush trying to ease
my mind. I woke up and did my hygiene process and then went to
the kitchen to make some breakfast , but I found my brother's
girlfriend eating in the living room watching tv.
Me: hey
She looked up at me and smiled, she was really beautiful i just
don't understand how Nick cannot fall for this girl.
Her: hey
Me: you are? ?
Her: oh sorry, I'm Shaz and you are Nina right??
Me: yeah, so Nick has already left??
Her: yep, he's gone
Me: ok then i guess it the two of us
She smiled
Her: I guess so, up for a little shopping later??
Me: yeah actually I've been meaning to have some but you know
hitting the mall alone is just boring
Her: trust me I know
I made some cornflakes for me, I wasn't realy in a mood for food.
Me: so how did you guys meet
Her: it's a long story, but to make it short, I never thought I would
fall for him.
Me: oh why??
Her: boys are just jerks, I been heartbroken for more than twice
so I made this decision to not fall for anyone anymore, but when
Nick approached me all changed, at first it was just sex then
boom we were in love.
Me: I know right, I did a mistake and fell for my friend's man, I
thought it was just sex too but I ended up getting pregnant, he
didn't love me still, I made the worst decision, lost him, my friend
and my baby.
Her: that's a lots, I'm sorry
Me: it's all my fault now I'm stuck with ...
I couldn't proceed, how do I tell a stranger that I slept with the
devil himself
Her: it's alright,
Me: trust me it's not mending a broken heart is difficult but a
broken soul is impossible, I'm broken in all ways.
Her: you can't say that, look at you, you are beautiful and you
canbfind a man who will make you happy
Me: you will never understand
Her: well maybe God will, we going to church tomorrow, its a
Sunday.
The way I now hated pastors its was beyond, how do I trust them
when one turned out to be the devil himself
Me: I don't know I...
Her: hey I'm not a saint but I trust in God, I believe in him and the
God I'm praising never forsake his creation, you might have been
through worse, you might have made the worst horrible mistakes
but he doesn't counts sins, instead he forgives us and gives us a
second chance.
Me: I guess you are right
She smiled, she really was a kind person and my brother would
be crazy If he leave her.
Her: I'm always right darling, now tell me who do you think is
more handsome between Trey Songs and Usher?
I laughed, just how she can change a subject.
Me: Trey does it for me
Her: ok maybe he is cute but damn a one night stand with Usher
is a life goal
Me: hey watch it you still my brothers girl
Her: ain't no wedding ring in my finger lovey, or do you see it??
Me: you so crazy you know that
Her: I know, but bbe just take a good look at how he moves his
body, your brother can't even dance gwaragwara.
I laughed
Me: stop mocking my brother
Her: he is mockible, except for his charms
Me: well at least he is handsome
Her: that the only thing we can say about him
I chuckled
me: you love him though
Her: I have no choice
I laughed, Shaz was really good company and I'm glad we got
along, she just reminds me of Lelo.

Musa

A buzzer came through as I finished washing the dishes, mom

has turned me into a helper, not that I'm complaining cause I
spend the whole day indoors. I went outside and who I found i
wasn't expecting, I opened the gate for them and led the way not
saying a word. Neo have the liver to bring her parents here, I say
her parents because they just look like her. As they got inside
mom was already by the door.
Her: and then??
Trust my mother for acting like a jerk
Me: I too don't know
The man spoke
Him: we come in peace, I believe you can give us an ear.
Mom: you can get inside
They did but I held Neo behind
Me: wtf are you doing??
Her: I'm doing what's right Musa, and it's wasn't my plan my
parents forced me to come here.
Me: are you hearing yourself right now? ?
Her: do you think I want this??
Me: don't tell me nonsense bitch take your rents and get the fvck
out of my house before things get mixed up cause we both know
you don't want that, or do you??

Insert 66

Musa

I woke up feeling defeated, the episodes of yesterday replayed in

my mind, the state of Neo's parents when they found out that I'm
not the father of the child, although the father of the child wasn't
revealed since Neo told them she wasn't sure but I'm guessing
she was ashamed enough and didn't want to cause drama in the
presence of my parents. I'm just thankful she told them the truth
at least I'm not once involved in all this,I already have enough in
my plate for such drama in my life.

I woke up and took a long bath, I had a date with my heart to

celebrate our results. Yes we passed with distinctions and my
parents are proud of us.
" I'm so glad you were able to concentrate at school through all of
this drama you were facing, I'm proud of you both son" that was
my mom, she was even teary but I shook my head,I mean it's not
the first time I pass with distinctions definitely not the last.
Me: I'm poud of us too mom
She smiled
Her: now go you should know that you can't keep a lady waiting
especially your pregnant girlfriend.
I smiled anxiously, Lelo is sometimes difficult I don't know if it's
her or the baby
Me: you don't have to remind me of that every second right
Her: I do cause when she's mad at you, you be sulking for the
whole entirely day
I laughed
Me: but ma that ain't true
Her: you now calling me a liar?
Me: well you not telling the truth
Her: I wonder what Mbulelo gave my son, shame he is love
blinded.
I chuckled
Me: whatever she gave me I want more
Her: ay I want my baby boy shame
Me: better learn to live without him cause he ain't no boy anymore
She laughed
Her: you will always be my baby Musa.
Me: nop I'm about to be father hle
Her: I don't care but you are my baby son
She kissed my chicks, ay this woman.
Me: bye ma, and please no more kisses only my heart is allowed
to do that.
I winked at her and she showed me her tongue
Me: that's childish
Her: go already
I rushed outside after kissing her goodbye," my heart I'm on my
way" I sent her a text before starting the car then I was on my
way.

Nina

Being at Nick's wasn't relay bad, and spending time with Shaz
was the best, I mean she is one crazy girl and I loved having such
an outspoken person around me. And about Pastor Denzel, I
been having bad dreams about him warning me and telling that
time ain't in our side. This areas i found myself in displayed a lot
of unnatural things I never seen and I wouldn't see live happening
on earth but in my dreams I saw all, I went to places I cannot
describe, truly speaking I think I sold my soul to the devil or to
satan himself cause what I've gone through no human would want
to experience. It like my soul leaves my body immediately after I
passed out and wonders all around this evil places and if I had to
say I'm sure this people have their own planet, I mean where do
they reside then??

I was doing laundry when sudden Shaz started playing " in the
shadow of your wings I know I am safe" I know I'm not much
strong in belief but that song hit home, I stood at the passage and
tears just flowed down my face, just then I found myself sitting the
floor crying on my own." Hey hey are you owkay" I turned and
looked at her with my face full of tears , I couldn't wipe them, I had
no power to. She came and sited next to me.
Her: it's alright
Me: no it's not, everythig is wrong
Her: crying about it won't help, whatever you facing you should
talk about it get help cause its really affecting you.
Me: you won't understand, I see things , I experience things
Her:is that why you were screaming last night
I looked at her surprised
Me: I screamed??
Her: yeah you did, you don't remember??
She was shocked
Me: remember what??
Her: I came into your room after hearing you scream, I thought
you were having a bad dream or something, we talked for hours
before you fell back asleep.
I didn't remember any of those, I don't remember waking up at
night and I don't remember speaking to her and the screaming, I
didn't scream but how do I explain all this. Am I losing my mind??
Me: I dont remember,whats happening to me Shaz? ?
She shrugged her shoulders looking Shocked too.
Her: I don't know Nina but I know that this is bigger than any of
us, you seriously need to go to church, I mean you wake up
screaming and then we talk keeping me awake for hours, now
you telling me you don't remember any of that, we even talked
about Lelo, I didn't know she is your friend.
I blinked more that twice, this was all Denzels work, he was using
my body.
Me: yeah I don't really wanna talk about her, it's all messy
Her; I get it, I mean she once told me about you
Me: oh you know each other
She huffed
Her:you know this is all creepy cause we talked about it last night
Me: I'm sorry I guess my mind is just tried
Her: well if you don't mind we can still go to church today, this
other pastor is visiting us today.
I sighed
Me: we will see
Her: we are going munch
Me: but I said...
Her: you will enjoy bbe

Narrated

" it's time we put an end to all this" he said repainting his old
painting, " it's looks so much better than the last time" again he
said paying attention to its more than to the person he was talking
to.
Her: I've done all I could, both of them are not strong enough
He smiled
Him: try harder Linah, you are God's favour, he chose you to help
this kids
Her: but I am a kid too, how am I suppose to guide them while
they think I'm some insane creature.
She was crying kneeling down next to Prophet Prince Bolton, he
had travelled to JHB in relation with the matter in hand, as said in
the bible that only God makes the impossible possible, him who
turns stones into bread, he turns water into wine, and he never
lose a battle but every battle with him included is never easy,
patience and faith is what we need.
Him: it's true you are still a kid but God chose you, not me, not us
and definitely not the world but him who created it.
Her: I just don't know anymore
Him: faith Linah, faith keeps us going
Her: I get you father
Him: Prince, let's just keep it that way
Her: okay Prince, now where do we start again, cause we've got
some devil to set fire to.
Him: you work on Lelo, you were assigned to help her and I will
do the rest
Her: right on it.
Linah is a 19 year old girl, blessed beyond, she is not our loud
varsity girl but pretending to be one to help those who need help,
she can hear and see things that are about to happen, every time
the Browns and Pretorias families consulted, she saw everything,
which is why she came to UJ to try and help Lelo out. " I'm will be
attending reverend's Peter's church today, are you coming
along?" Prince asked
Her: I will be praying the whole night today thank you
He smiled
Him: nothing's beats prayer right
Her: I need answers, we need answers on how to lift the curse
Him: and we will get them
Her: only through prayer
Him: want me to stay behind
Her: no go and attend church, a lost soul needs you there
Him: I think I felt something like that
Her: then you should go prepared
Him: you will make a great prophet one day do you know that
Her: I'm hoping so, this road is not an easy one, it's has stones
that keeps knocking us down but neither the less we get up and
keep moving cause we cannot accept defeat no matter what
darkness can never win
He smiled
Him: pray for her father too
He winked and took his jacket then went out whistling

Lelo
A day well spent with my love, I didn't even wanna go home to my
sulking dad and an unwanted guest called Trevor, ay this guy just
kills my mood hle.I'm eating ice cream laying on my favourite
couch, I won't lie and say I don't miss my mom cause I do every
single minute I'm reminded that she is gone. But then someone
did say that "it's not really death that cause the sorrow, but the
absent of the love one" and I'm guessing that not feeling her
presence is what kills me most." You seem distracted" that was
my dad. I turned to look at the man I call my father who has
turned into a living skeleton.
Me: I'm just thinking about mom
He sighed
Him: may her soul rest in peace
Me: I hope she is indeed in peace
Him: we can only hope, you were saying something about your
results earlier
Me: uhmm yeah that are out, wanna see them??
Him: I'm the one paying for your fees or am I not??
Mxm you see what I mean, I
I took out my phone and showed him, he smiled a little then gave
me back my phone.
Him: I will be out today, Trevor will keep you company
Me: so you not gonna say " you did well my daughter"
He chuckled
Him: well I guess you can do better than that
I looked at him seriously is this man for real.
Me: but my percentages are over 90
Him: I need some air
Me: I just don't understand you sometimes dad, faking would
have been easy just for once
Him: well I can't take shit, we still need a way forward now that
you've proven to us all that you are having sex
I chuckled
Me: ready dad ??
Him: one thing I know for sure that child won't be allowed in my
house,now let me go and mourn my wife .
He left me there and went out, Tee walked in " can't this day
become better"
I screamed
Him: I can leave you know
Me: right then leave
He looks at me with an emotional look but fuck it I don't trust him
at all
Me: just leave already, you've overstayed your visits Tee
Him: not until we solve our problems
Me: we don't have problems, I don't have problems so just leave
Him: well I do have a problem and you are carrying it in your
womb
Me: like you said my womb so how is it your problem??
Him: what do I have to do to show you how much I love you
Me: walk away, leave me in peace that will show me you care, for
once do something that won't benefit you
He chuckled
Him: you will never get how I feel when I see your face, when I
think about you, it's like I'm cursed and you are my only
redemption .
I struggled to talk, Tee's words sounded familiar again, am I
missing something?? Are my dreams real??but how is it possible,
no this is not happening, I'm not married to Tee, I can't lose my
baby, I'm not married to Tee.
Me: I'm not married to you, I cannot be your happiness.
I screamed, I shouted I did everything to stop this thoughts, he
looked at me like some crazy bitch
Him: Inno you are crying...what
He tried touching me but I backed away
Me: I'm not married to you Tee, I can't be your happiness, I don't
love you for God's sake.
I shouted I needed to clear my head, I could hear those voices
again and again and I realised that when I said they were familiar
they were indeed familiar only one I couldn't make out. " don't be
scared, it's about time" a kind voice said. I couldn't see the
beholder but I heard it, it was soft and light.
Me: who are you??
All this time Tee is looking at me as if I'm losing it and I don't care
Hin: Innocentia
He shouted but i had zoned out to my world." Now you know the
truth, you managed to put the pieces together, question is what
are you going to do"??

Narrated

"It's all gone, now that she knows chances of us surviving are less
than a quarter" the witch doctor said trying so hard to breath." Not
unless we kill her, she is our fall, but If she dies only both families
will be affected but we will survive, not realy that much but we get
to keep our wealth even if we lose power in our world" he said.
The witch smiled and looked at him" im glad you have a brain
after all , it's time we become selfish for once we shouldn't care
about the Pretorias and Brown families i mean we are in thIs
mess because of them" she said wondering in her hut." Pity the
Pretorias family will fall because of the Brows, because if we do
kill Lelo, all this wealth is gone, she is the holder of all riches and
our power, but we can survive, we will develop other spirits, we
can't fall yet"

Insert 67

Nina

We are on our feet praising and i must say I feel so belonging and
relieved. We are waiting for Prophet Prince Bolton to take the
stage. " he is the prophet i told you about" Shaz says as he takes
the mic and sings father we adore you.
Me:he is white
She laughs
Her: yeah as you can see we are all mixed here
Me: yeah I see, he is beautiful
She chuckles
Her: because he is white??
Me: no he is just beautiful
We continue with our singing and he asks us to sit down." Good
evening everyone" we greet back and he continues"well this
came as a surprise to me cause I thought I was just visiting and
the man of God here decided to give me this huge opportunity to
take a stand and preach the word of God, today I'm not gonna
say much,we will speak about Peace and hope, not forgetting
righteousness through faith. Like my brother said, i am Propbet
Prince Bolton born in Cape Town, I am the son of God our saviour
and I believe he will show himself to us his creation one day " he
says . He doesn't seem nervous or anything.

Him: Romans chapter 5 speaks about hope and peace.

I'm listening attentively as Prophet Prince Bolton speaks. His eyes
suddenly meets mine and I can't shake the fear that cripps inside
me. Why do I feel like that? ? He continues.
Him: "Therefore,since we have been justified through faith we
have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ ,through
whom we have gained access by faith into grace in which we now
stand.And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so,
but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that
suffering produces perseverance, perseverance, character and
character ,hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God
has poured out his love into our hearts by the holy spirit,whom he
has given us" that was Romans 5" he says.

"Faith, hope, love and peace" those are four difficult things we fail
dismally to keep in our lives, Romans says that Christ died for the
ungodly, and we know that its is very rare that one can die for the
righteous but God demonstrate his love for us by dying for our
sins, but our father holds all those four, in him we find peace
although we are always tempted but life with him is peaceful , he
gives us the power of faith and hope, he taught us about love the
moment he took the cross for us, his love for us meant death for
him, how hope full of him to think that his creation will believe
in,but we still hate each other, we receive one another, we kill and
lie in the name of Jesus, we accuse one another, our hate grow
stronger than the love poured in us by Almighty, we call ourselves
the children of God when we know that the devil is pursuing his
evilness through us. People our God is a faithful God, he
promised us his protection, like David said" he is our shepered in
him we lack nothing, through dark valleys, we fear no evil
because he is with us, and we shall not fear. You may have faced
the worst situations, has experienced the worst difficulties but his
word encourages us to keep the faith, hope for better situations
and pray for peace in your life, not only yours but your love ones
too. Never be selfish with the word of God, preach his greatness
in good and bad times, do not let the devil hold your voice for you
do not know what power it holds, it's doesn't matter what you've
gone through, You may be tired and frustrated with the way your
life is going. You are losing hope that things will ever work out and
you don't see any change, yet you've prayed and been your best.
Isaiah encourages us, "those who hope in the Lord will renew
their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles. They will run
and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint.If things aren't
happening on your timetable, stay in hope. God will renew your
strength and you will soar like an eagle.

By the time he finished preaching I was in tears, I realised that I

didn't have any of those four things, love I did give but it was
going side by side with hatred and deceiving, Iost hope and faith ,
my life wasn't peacefull at all. I'm being haunted by an evil spirits
that won't let me rest in peace. People were prayed for, A lot of
demons were casted out from some, I too went to wait for my
turn, like Prince said, " believe that he can fight for you, that his
blood will save you from the evil cause all it takes is believing"
and there I was, I was praying for my belief, I asked God for help
and I hoped that this evil man will be burnt by his holy spirit. " you
look afraid" i didnt even realise that it was my turn to be prayed
for." I don't know how to feel, fear is all I can display" I said, he
smiled a little then held my head, he kept silence as if he was
listening to something, on that moment I was hearing different
voices playing in my mind, Denzel's face appeared, he looked
hurt, he was burning " get the hell out of there Nina" his voice
couldn't be identified clearly, it like he was forcing it to come out."
No you leave this body evil spirit, this is not your property but
God's property, him only is allowed to give orders to his creation" I
started feeling things, my body was burning up. Prophet
continued praying and I let go, I gave my whole trust to God, and
he showed me his mercy, he healed me, all those broken pieces
in me came together, he fixed my soul. " you have to let your child
rest, you are not the reason she died" he said smiling again," all
this anger and confusement in your life you have to pray for it,
God doesn't promote anger, instead he promote love, learn to
love do not pretend but love, I see jelousy is the root of all this
trials you've gone through, you may not have known it or realized
it but it's all started with jealousy, its takes a little thing for the
devil to use you".

Lelo

"I'm not hallucinating am I??" I asked a confused Tee, he just

looked at me as if i was insane.
Him: we are not married Inno, how can we be??
Me: I don't know Tee, but we are married, not by law but by blood
in the name of ancestors we are married, our blood binds us
together, we are one...
I shouted crying, I too didn't even understand a single thing I was
saying, it's was not making sense but I just said it.
Him: you are not making sense at all
Me: can't you see I know that already!
Him: hey chill I was just saying
Me: we are married
I cried
Me: we can't be married, my child God my child, I will die
I cried yelling, all of this wasn't making sense at all.
Him: you really are going insane
Me: you said it, Im your happiness, I'm your only love, you said it
not me and I've heard it somewhere, I .. you can't be happy with
someone else
Him: yes you are my happiness but what's that got to do with our
sudden craziness
Me: who said I'm crazy???
Him: how do you explain all this, firstly you were talking alone and
hearing things that ain't here
Me: i need to be alone
Him: and I need something strong
I left him there and went to my bedroom. My mind was playing
games on me, was what I heard real or I wa hallucinating, maybe
I am going crazy.
" you are not crazy, just follow your heart Mbulelo" a voice said, I
looked around the room and I almost fainted when I found a
beautiful Linah standing next to my window.
" Linah, how did you, I mean how is it possible that you are
here,in my bedroom ??" She smiled and tears followed," you
need to be strong for your baby and for your love too " she said
Me: I don't understand, no firstly how did you get in??
Her: I didn't get in
Me: then why do I see you here in my bedroom
Her: what if it's all in your mind
Me: stop please I'm not going crazy, wait am I??
She smiled
Her: you can be anything but not crazy
I sighed
Me: I'm hearing things
Her: you just need to calm down and listen properly, give God
your time Mbulelo
Me: but...
Her: no you need to stop with the buts and kneel down, you
seem to only remember him in tough times and forgets that even
in good times you have to pray, if I may ask when last did you
pray??
I blinked twice trying to comprehend what she's just said
Me: the day my mother passed
Her: you didn't pray that day you shouted at God, you asked him
to save her but you didn't pray, maybe if you prayed and poured
your heart in him you would have had your mother sitting at the
living room today.
Me: so it's my fault that my mother died??
Her: I didn't say that, we are talking about God now, where all the
impossibles became possible, who rised from death after giving
himself up to the cross not because he was a sinner but we were
and he took the blame.
Me: I don't understand
Her: the voices you hear, the things you dream they are all real
Me: I'm married to Trevor??
Her: you need to find out yourself, I can't help you but I am
assisting you
Me: but how?? Okay if I am married to him, am i going to lose my
child?? Is that why i lost my first pregnancy? ?
Her: light, pray for light so that you can see which route to take.
Just after that she disappeared." You really are crazy, now you
are talking to yourself " said Tee getting in, I don't know who said
he should but he just budged into my room." And you really are
feeling yourself, I'm sure you feel king you just get into some ones
room without even knocking"
Him: do I really have to knock??
Me: mxm get the fuck out of my room now Tee and you are
disturbing me
I was really irritated
Him: chill woman
Me: how do i chill when the last time I found myself alone in a
bedroom with you I ended up being raped
He tensed up
Him: you will always remind me of that huh??
Me: do you think I enjoy reminding you?? Do you think I like
saying I was raped??
Him: I said I'm sorry.
I chuckled
Me: good for you, you just rape a person and say you sorry
Him: I'm trying to live with the fact that I raped the person I love so
please cut me some slack
Me: shame poor Trevor playing the victim now, and to think that
you raped me already pregnant just boils My blood but you know
what I can't hate you, I've tried and I've told myself that I will hate
you as for long as I live but something in me doesn't allow me to.
Him: I'm glad you dont hate me
Me: pity i wish i was able to, you hurted me repeatedly
Him: I think I'm gonna go now
Me: yeah just leave
Him: just so you know, whatever I'm feeling for you I cannot
controll it's beyond my control.
With that he left my room, his words just confirmed that are were
the victims here, we are married in some way and our parents are
behind it.

Insert 68

Narrated

It's a saturday cold morning, a few days before Christmas and

Lelo' s birthday. Mrs Pretorias was laying on her couch trying to
rethink all possibilities of how to solve this difficult equation faced
by her family. " thinking a lot causes stress which may result in
stroke" her husband's voice cheered her up. She smiled and
immediately looked away," I'm so sorry" she said hiding herself. "
I know I'm the one who manipulated you to all this, I know I
shouldn't have chose money but at that time we realy needed it"
she couldn't hide her tears so they fell on her pink face. " hey
don't blame yourself, we both are responsible for this, I may have
not liked the idea but I agreed you didn't force me" he said trying
to calm his wife. He remembers the very first time his father and
Brown's father came to their house and introduced them to this
idea. For a very long time their friendship was strong, so both
father's encouraged their sons to think about marrying off their
children in exchange they will be wealthy for the rest of their lives,
Pretorias was against the idea at first while his wife liked it, the
fact that money was involved but Mr Brown loved the idea of
which his wife was against but she had no say and no choice. "
still I know you never wanted it to happen, I made you to agree I
am a horrible wife" she said crying. Just then Mr Pretorias phone
rang, he answered it briefly then it ended.he sighed and looked at
his wife" we have to consult today at 9pm", he said already
heading to his study. This whole thing was getting to him, he
called Brown.
Him: Pretorias
P: Brown
Him: you sound so down
P: any man in my situation will be
Him: oh, what is it??
P: we have a consultation today at 9pm, and I'm sure it bad news
He breathed out loud
Him: yeah well with my daughter pregnant its bad news or even
worse
P: man I know i shouldn't say this but don't you think we can get
out of this without further damage??
Brown chuckled
Him: we married then off through our ancestors, they will not let
this slide just like that, they will punish us Pretorias, I'm not talking
about losing all those millions but real punishment.
P: I just thought maybe we can end this in some way, we've done
our best and it's seems like we not winning
Him: I know and my daughter is still carrying a Ngema child which
is worse than anything
P: man I will see you at 9
Him: great I will come with my father

" I'm very disappointed in you Neo, you made us fools in that
house" shouted her scary mother, for the past days she has been
shouting at her for the same thing, she couldn't even defend
herself seeing that her results were really bad, she only got 50 to
60% which was a first because she's always been the best
student, she was forced to be with both her parents being
educated and smart, earning more than thousands every month. "
I'm sorry mama" that all she could say. She brushed her belly
which was not nrealy that much showing since she was just 2
months pregnant." Stop apologising and tell us who the father of
the baby is?" Her father said calmly,she loved her father more
than her mother, her mom was too much while her dad was calm
as fuck. " I can't tell you, I mean I can't tell you who the father of
my baby is" she said looking down." Oh we'll my baby since you
can't tell us who impregnated you, you will no longer receive
anything from us, no allowances and no roof cause you are
moving out within the next two hours" said her mom who looked
like she meant every word." Dad !" She tried playing little cute
face but her father didn't look at her" we discussed this baby, we
can't feed an unknown child, if you are ready to tell us you can
come back home".

"She knows, finally but she doesn't trust herself, she is just too
soft" Linah said getting up.she has been praying and fasting for a
week now." At least we are getting somewhere" Prince smiled at
her, " so what happened yesterday at church, did she come??
She asked
Him: yes she did,such a cute lady
She chuckled
Her: I'm sure she is, but did it seem like she will never allow the
devil in her Life again??
Him: I hope so that's all I can say, hey she thinks I'm beautiful
He said smiling broadly
Her: oh good for you then, and beautiful ain't used to describe
men.
she smiled back at him and he frowned
Him: I guess I'm that beautiful
They both laughed

Musa

" just a few friends, we don't want a crowd of teenagers" mother

laughed, We have been trying to get some ideas on how to
surprise Lelo on her birthday.
Me : I'm serious ma, we are going to be parents soon we can't
have a bunch of silly teenagers around us.
Her: just because you are about to be parents doesn't mean you
ain't teens
Mom said
Me: I'm already 20 and my heart is turning 19, I'm not a teen!
Her: whatever, so we gonna have only 20 guest right
Me: not that bad but I prefered 15
Her: it's a damn party Musa
Me: language dear mother
Her: just get out, I will do this on my own
Me: I'm out
I took my car keys and called my heart. She picked up on the 3rd
ring
Her: ntate Ngema
I smiled
Me: I love the sound of that
Her: I know you do
Me: how are you my heart
Her: I'm good, am I seeing you today cause I really need to see
you
Me: well I'm on my way to your house so you better get out now
cause its very rude to keep a man waiting
She giggled
Her: I thought it was rude to keep a lady waiting
Me: well times change love
Her: just get over here already
Me: your superman is already by your house waiting to rescue
you from all the boredom you've been facing
Her: I wonder who said I need some rescuing
Me: I can feel you need some
Her: dad ain't home so you don't mind coming right.
Me: now you really want your father to kill me and bury me under
his study table I see
Her: seriously bbe '
Me: you know I can't get in
Her: pretty please just for a few seconds
I chuckled
Me: then why am I even getting inside if its for a few seconds
Her: I miss you hle Musa , we miss you
I laughed
Me: don't drag my child in your dirty thoughts my love
Her: we will be waiting patiently
Me: you are really serious
Her: so very serious, now be here in 3 minutes
I chuckled
Me: why three though
Her:I just love number 3 and please stop with the questions and
be on my doorstep within the said minutes.
She ended the call just like that, this woman.

Lelo
Y'all should say I'm crazy but i miss my guy, I miss our moments
and I just wanna forget about all this just for a few hours before I
take charge. Musa won't be seeing me much this coming days
and we've got varsity opening soon in January so by that time I'd
like to believe that all this madness will be dealt with. I got out
from bed and made sure my room was tidy, Musa is a clean freak,
then went downstairs to the kitchen, took some ice cream and
made pop corns. I was only in my short and t-shirt which didn't
truly bother me at all. Musa's call disturbed me." I'm coming love
". I went outside finding him standing by the gate, my handsome
bae he looked so yummy. We kissed briefly and I took his hand
allowing him to follow me.
Me: relax Mr Brown ain't home and won't be anytime soon
Him: you know I don't like this right
Me: I know but bbe I just wanted us to be together just for once,
just me and you
He sighed
Him: alright then come here
We just got in, he pulled me closer and gave me one amazing
kiss. His baby just kicked non stop.
Him: my baby is jelous
Me: very territorial I see
Him: relax princess it's just daddy
He said kissing my tummy, we went to my bedroom, of cause we
were not gonna chill at the living room, what if dad pops out of the
blue finding us all cosy. We got in and locked the door, shame
my heart didn't like this at all but sometimes we have to take risks
right and this here was one I was gonna take.
Me: relax would you
he chuckled
Him: I'm picking the movie
Me: no you not and we not are not watching a movie but a series
Him: I will die watching this vampires of yours, can't you download
anything else
Me: but baby I do have being Mary jane
Him: not that woman please
Me: but ...
Him: ' he is just not into you" sounds great
Me: love
Him: come sit next to your lover
I smiled and went to sit next to him. For once it's felts so nice and
I just felt so safe in his arms. We watched the movie till the end.
After that we had some sexual healing, and like every other day
my man got me feeling like a queen, as if i owned this world. Well
spending the day with my guy felts ready good and the time he
had to leave I almost cried." I know what you thinking and I'm not
sleeping over Mma brown" he said wearing his pants.
Me: I just....it's fine
He kissed me and held my face, we stared at ech other for some
time.
Him: I'm always with you, I love you
Tears just streamed out,
Me: you are making me cry my heart
Him: I just don't want you to feel lonely some how
Me: I know and I love you more babe
Him: now accompany your heart out
I wore my gown and we went outside with him busy kissing me
non stop. Only if there were only moments like this in my life, not
all this burden I'm carrying on my shoulders, I just wish mother
was here with me. As we exited the gate, we found the biggest
surprise ever. "The devil is really tempting me now, Neo what are
you doing here??!!"

Trevor

It's just irritating to feel the way i feel, y'all will say I'm crazy but
she makes my heart goes into another level. Being in her
presence got this" it's all alright" feeling i can't controll. I hate
loving her this way, I hate feeling this way when she hates me like
this, yes she hates me cause she don't wanna be with me. I'm her
love, I love her if only she knew that this love is killing me she
would allow me to love her, but she's not into me, she will never
be no matter what I try. I'm in my apartment holding a bunch of
pills, a loaded gun and a very thick rope, I'm still deciding which
one will be quicker, which one won't hurt at all. I take a little paper
and writes :

" your love killed me, if I can't have you then there's no reason for
me to live, like I said, you are my happiness without you my life is
meaningless"
Insert 69

Nina

Life has taught me the hardest way, at the age of 19 i have

experienced the worst situations ever,not that it's wasn't my fault
cause I too contributed to the life I've lived the past few months,
I'm the reason I cried day and night not being able to live with
myself, to live with the decisions I took. I'm the reason I lost my
baby although many tries to say it's wasn't my fault but it was, and
I'm the reason I lost my best friend because of a simple ordinary
dick, as if it's was something I couldn't live without, and I'm the
one who tolerated the shit Trevor got me through because I was
delusional and blinded by the word love. Not that was worst
scenario but sleeping with the devil himself took the cup, i never
thought i would stop dreaming about him and seeing him in my
worst days and hear his groans and evil laughs when I'm trying to
concentrate on my life. But today I'm happy to say I've been
saved, "the devil is the lier", that how it's said right! He made me
do his dirtiest ways, promoted jealousy in my life and made me
think of witchcraft I won't forget trying to kill my best friend, the
only friend I had in all years. But as they say" it is never to late to
say you are sorry" and that what I've been trying to encourage
myself. I know I've hurted many people and mostly my friend but
I'm willing to apologise sincerely and move on. I won't mind if Lelo
doesn't want to be friends with me anymore but I hope she
accepts my apology even though it will hurt me so much to lose
her. And yes devil Denzel did not impregnate me with his cats, but
prophet Prince Bolton said that he was in a process of doing so
since he was visiting me in my dreams, well that realy scared me
but I'm happy he wasn't able to, truly saying not all Prophets and
Pastors are like Denzel.

I'm leaving Nick's place going back home, I've packed all my
belongings and my soul is just peace full. I'm glad I came to
Gauteng cause here I found my freedom, I became a new person
and God saved me. This place I'm gonna be thankful to for the
rest of my life. And yes Shaz helped me a lot, she saved me from
myself, If it's wasn't for her I wouldn't be feeling this light today. I
owe her my life, she really is beautiful and very much big hearted,
I hope she gets the best in life, and I hope my brother learns to
appreciate and love her cause she will make a very good sister in
law. Lelo is lucky to have her as a friend, they are both just a
good combination.I'm glad she found someone with such a good
heart.

" I'm gonna miss you " said my brother sarcastically. " we both
know that ain't true" I say taking my bag heading outside. Shaz
gives me a warm hi that leaves me in tears." Tears of joy I'm
hoping" she says smiling.
Me: I'm glad you are in my brother's life
She smiles, she has that amazing smile
Her: I hope him too is glad
She looks at Nick who smiles faintly
Me: I know he is
Her: now go well, and please don't hesitate to call me
Me: as soon as I get home
Her: I'm hoping to see you at Lelo's party
I sigh
Me: we will see
Her: hey don't do that
Me: I'm not do it anything
Her: you promised
Me: okay then
Her: great, now let me go pack my own bag.
Me: oh !!
Her : don't give me that " Oh " look I too miss my family
Me: I understand
Her: yeah, now leave I want to say goodbye to my man
romantically so
She gives Nick a naughty smile and I laugh at his shyness.
Me: then I will not keep you waiting.
I hug both of them and hopped in my car then I'm gone.

Trevor

Life has so many surprises, growing up I've never thought I would

be so madly in love with one creature that hates my guts this
much. All the things I did to Inno it was because of the feelings I
have for her. Y'all should say I'm crazy but my body yearns for
hers, I'm not complete without her, that girl is my life.
I breath out, my sweat blinds me, it is now that I realise I'm about
to take my own life. I'm against the rope, it's seems so dangerous,
I mean I don't want to feel any pain so I take it out. Her face
flashes on my eyes, she seems so real I can't stop appreciating
her cute nose. She smiles and tears follows as her smile
disappear, I'm holding the gun pointing it on my own head. My
hand shakes as I try to keep it still. I have to do this. " is that all
you can do, taking your own life?", I chuckle as tears made their
way out, " you are not real, you are just in my mind, you are
always in my mind" I say, I know I mabe sounding crazy now but I
can see her, her face lights up like an angel, with all the things
I've done to her I'm better off dead, she doesn't deserve me. I'm
cruel I'm beyond the devil himself, what if I'm the devil?? " you are
not a bad person Tee, maybe you don't deserve me but you don't
deserve death too" she says forcing a smile. This here is a
woman every man would never hesitate to marry. She is kind
hearted and forgiving. She deserves diamonds and with me still
alive she will only receive stones because as long as I am alive
my heart will never stop loving her and loving her is dangerous,
it's hurts both me and her cause I end up wanting her the wrong
way. I end up making the wrong decisions in the name of love.

" I have to let go, you are wrong I deserve death" I say lastly as
the bullet makes it way to my head leaving me laying in my bed
lifeless.

Narrated

As much as we all learn from our mistakes, not all of us are able
to start over and make the right decisions. Mr Brown and the
Pretorias family looks at each other not able to get the answers
from each others stares. This is a time where crucial decisions
has to be made.

Like some says," you take care of yourself before the other " this
is what was happening here at this very same moment. Both
families were so tensed up not able to keep eye contact . " I'm
sure you all understand why I am doing this" said the witch who
later discovered that Nina cannot be used and that Denzel was
just useless so she had to take things in another level. Mr Brown
couldn't say anything, she couldn't utter any word. This was his
child, her princess and he couldn't kill her, not his only remaining
reminder of his wife.

" I know what you are thinking, but you can have other children"
said the witch. "This is the only way we can start over, eliminate
the mates and make peace with the ancestors dont forget the
millions that will clocking in your bank accounts" again she said
giving them some space to think. But what was there to think??

" I can't do it" said Brown looking down with his hands on his
head. " this witchcraft stops today " Pretorias said too looking at
his blinking much wife. She coughed trying to regain her strength.
The thought that they had to kill their children was just something
else, this was some how a sacrifice just that the witch couldn't
say the word.

" then what do we do"? She asked holding her husband's hands.
This was difficult." We lose everything we have because of this
money, we start afresh, we confess, we tell our kids and we try to
break this curse cause I'm not sacrificing my son because of
millions. We will still have money even though it will be quarter of
it but we will survive" Pretorias said looking at Brown. It's only two
companies that the Pretorias owned that were not sponsored by
the ancestors, the rest they built with the evil money. While Brown
owned 6 companies and three were pure.

" I gues you have decided" said the witch giving them evil eyes.
She never realised that they will choose family over money, this
was a start." How can you be so dumb?? All this we've been
encouraging will just Go through to the mud. Your fame all gone
just because you can't kill two use less kids??"she said shouting
at them.

" we may have been blinded by money all this year's but we can't
let it make us kill our own children. Like everyone says, family
over money!!! Said Brown.

Narrated

What if I told you that with Trevor dead the curse has been
broken!!

It's was never said by the ancestors that what happens if one
mate dies, no one knows what really happens when only one
mate is alive, I mean she no longer have a husband, she is now a
widow in the marriage of the ancestors, so what happens when it
is know that Trevor is dead, what happens to Lelo his binded
wife?? Is it all done, or the are still consequences, is Lelo really a
widow? ? Could it be possible for her to move on?

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Lelo

You know when you feel like you can just erase this other part of
your life, this part full of disappointments and anger, this part you
can't dodge no matter how you try, this part you can't ignore,
that's how I'm feeling right now. Let me just say life will show you
flames when you try to act smart, it will kick your ass and you
won't believe it. Right now I've got too much drama in my life then
boom Neo just appears out of the blue. It's late and my father
hasn't returned from his whatsoever meeting, yes I did let Neo in,
i mean she is here to see her papisa right and with the weather
outside I had no choice." You are not cooking, I mean I'm hungry I
been here for like hours " she says messaging her feet. I want to
click my tongue but I decide not to," I'm not your maid and right
now I'm going to bed, sort yourself out" I say and walk to my room
. Neo is gonna be trouble, she's just gonna add fuel to the already
burning house." As if I expected daddy's girl to cook" she says
and I just ignore her comment.

I head to my room, take a quick shower and roll on my bed after

reading the bible, Deuteronomy 10v17 " for the Lord your God is
the God of gods and the Lord of lords, the great, the mighty and
the awesome God who does not show partiality nor take a bribe"
and prayed. In the middle of my sleep I was awoken by this
sudden feeling that left me wet with my own sweat. I felt like Tee
was somehow in trouble, don't say I'm going crazy but I was really
feeling him. This was a first and I hated whatever I was feeling. As
time got by, the feeling became strong, I could hear the sound of
his fast heartbeat, he was scared, Tee was scared but then next
thing I know I can't feel him, I can't feel anything.

I took my phone and called his grandmother, I couldn't call the

female Pretorias or his father. She answered but sounded so
down" its Inno, Tee is in trouble please go and help him" i said
trying so hard to be heard, " are you sure?" Asked granny, this
woman,I know I woke her up but I wouldn't if it wasn't important
but I'm not sure, how can I be??." I just felt him, I mean I.." I
couldn't describe how I was feeling but granny seemed like she
knew what I meant. " God he better be okay " she said and ended
the call, no thank you or goodbye Inno. Mxm this white people.

By the way I continued sleeping after trying to find the courage of

asking my father everything I've come to know, I mean the guy
and his family with the Pretorias family ruined our lives for what??
I don't get why ???

Narrated

Tee's grandma knew from the start that Lelo was right the
moment she said she felt him, and she knew that whatever
happened to Trevor it's was either they were losing him or he was
hurt badly to the point where the doctors won't be able to help
him. So basically it meant death!!! She was sitted on her bed after
calling some men to Trevor's apartment. She loved her grandson
and loved Inno too, all this year's seeing them growing up
together gave her hope that one day they will be an amazing
family. They will give her grand grand children but today, all those
dreams and wishes were are about to be shuttered.

Anyway she called his son who didn't pick up his phone, maybe
they were still busy with the witch, that what she thought. She
couldn't go back to sleep, she had to wait and here from the man
about her grandson and wait for her son and her daughter in law
to come home. A few minute later a call came through, she
immediately answered it with her heart beating out of her chest."
How is he??"that all she managed to ask. " he still had a pulse
when we got there, but his head is badly hurt, seems like he shot
himself, we are at the hospital" the guy said. Grandma sighed and
ended the call, how on earth does Trevor get to pull the triger and
ends his life?? Why did he do that??Is it possible that he
knows???

Trevor

All I was hoping for was peace, I wanted to leave the world
because I thought it would be at peace without me. In the name of
peace I did all I did because i had to feel one and create one for
the people I love. Okay maybe I expected a little bit of hell since I
wasn't a good person, maybe I did expect to see satan with his
big scary forks, maybe I did expect God saying " I do not know
you" and maybe I still expected my whole life CD to be played in
heaven and everyone seeing how pathetic and cruel I was in
earth but mostly I did have hope that I will be in peace, I won't
have to love Inno more that money itself, and that my feelings for
her will disappear, but I wasn't expecting my life to be in between
life and death, I didn't expect to be saved from dying. I just
wanted to die.to be free, to be in PEACE!!!

Narrated

Morning came, Mr Brown walked in his house feeling devastated.

The thoughts of last night he couldn't stop thinking about. His life
is about to change and he is hoping for the best. His daughter
came down wearing her short nighties. He smiled thinking about
her school results, he is just so smart like her mother, through all
the difficulties she has gone through she still passed with
distinctions, okay maybe he couldn't tell her how proud he was
but he was very proud.

" Morning Mr Brown " said Inno smiling at him. He badly wanted
to smile back but he couldn't, so instead he greeted her back"
morning princess" he said, in a minute Neo came down too, she
slept at the guest room, her eyes met up with his eyes. He looked
at her not knowing what to say." What are you doing here?" He
didn't wait for her to answer cause he asked his daughter" what is
she doing here?", he said looking at her. Lelo didn't know what to
say so she smiled nervously. " Neo you tell my father why you are
here, I don't know what mixes you and him so please don't get me
involved " she said taking her chocolate cake and hundred
percent juice then headed to the living room.
" I can explain" Neo said shaking, for the very first time she was
afraid of Brown." I don't have the whole day little miss " he said. "
I'm pregnant, for you" finally she said and Brown just shook his
head. "You better be kidding me, I never impregnated you, we
were always safe" he tried convincing himself but he knew he was
not always safe with her." I am pregnant"!!! You are responsible
and you will take care of me and my baby she yelled at him. This
was just too much to take and he had a lot of staff he had to
do,like finding a way to save her daughter because he didn't trust
that witch.

" how long are you? ?" He asked slowly hoping the dates doesn't
match but too bad it was possible " two months" she said. " my
parents kicked me out cause I couldn't tell them that I was
carrying an old white man's baby, I'm homeless unless I tell them
the truth" she said sniffing hard. Brown was standing far from her
and he couldn't bring himself to go her side and give her a
shoulder. She was just a girl he fucked that's all and now she is
pregnant!!!

" I need a bath" he said leaving her all alone, going to his room he
bumped to his daughter, he looked at her tummy and imagined
that Neo will be like that in a few weeks. Okay lets forget about
Neo, his daughter was carrying a Ngema that's something he
hated to think about and wasn't able to live with." Dad we need to
talk" Lelo said after seeing the looks her father was giving her."
Not now Inno" he said trying to shut her up but Lelo just talked out
loud not realising she wasn't still thinking " Am i married to Tee in
some kind of wicked way??" She shouted and her father couldn't
believe what he has just heard, for a moment he thought he was
about to meet death. His heart raced and he tried pulling himself
together but his body was failing him. He looked so weak,
although he couldn't look at his daughter now he was forced to,"
call my doctor" that all he managed to say with his fake smile
fading. He fell down with his face dropping to the other side, the
numbness and weakness he was feeling forced him to Close his
eyes. Lelo rushed to get her phone and called his doctor. Minutes
later he was there locked up with him inside his room.

" how is he??" She asked not being able to hold her tears , he
couldn't lose yet another parent, he may be the worst but he is
her father and she loves him no matter what. Yes he is a proud
person but she knows he loves her no matter what. " he nearly
suffered a stroke, but he should be alright" he said already going
out." Try not to stress him, his high blood pressure is high and his
heart beat wasn't normal at all. Lelo nodded then went to her
father. He was laying on his bed peacefully.

" I'm sorry I didn't mean to shock you" she said wiping her tears
off. " I just need you tell me the truth father" again she said then
kissed his chicks. She went out to the living room finding Neo
eating her cake, but then she didn't have that much strength to
fight with her and what surprises her is that she was busy eating
while the father of her baby was dying, but then we are talking
about Neo here.

There his body lay weekly so, he didn't believe that he was
weakling and this powerless. What was he had to do with his
daughter??" You can just eliminate her as asked by the gods, you
already have a baby coming on the way so don't let this useless
daughter of yours take everything you've worked for all this years"
a voice said, he sighed trying to think of all this, yes he had a
baby on the way but Lelo is his princess, his only princess."that
princess of yours nearly costs you your life, do you want to die??,
don't you want to see the prince Neo is carrying, your baby??"
Again the voice said. He clenched his teeth, " she is my life, she
is my baby, she..." he finaly said but the voice didnt let him finish.
" she is dating your worst enemy, you have every right to kill her,
she doesn't obey you, you her father, what kind of a daughter is
that, smiling with the enemy?? Wake up Brown she doesn't
deserve to live" said the voice sounding angry.

Brown sighed, his mind was telling him a lot of things, he can't kill
his daughter but the voice has a point, she is hard headed and is
inlove with the enemy, but still it's his daughter." Trevor is already
losing this life battle, he is dying, the Pretorias family will not have
a choice but to let him go, it's all up to you now Brown, it's all up
to you"

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Narrated

Faith!!

"Now faith is confidence in what we hope for,and assurance in

what we do not see, faith is one of the keys we cannot leave
aside when talking about our Father, if we do not have faith in
what we believe in then rather we shall not believe. It's all takes
faith to keep our beliefs strong , now the word of God teaches us
a lot about faith, how every man in the bible kept their faith, and
because of faith they got their rewards. By faith, Abraham when
God tested him to offer Isaac as a sacrifice, he agreed because
he believed that God could raise the dead. By faith Moses refused
to be know as the son of Pharaohs daughter, he chose to struggle
along with the people of God rather than to enjoy the pleasures of
the sin, By faith the people of Israel passed through the Red Sea
as on dry land, but when the Egyptians tried to do so, they were
drowned, can somebody tell me why? ??"

Linah asked standing at the pulpit, she smiled as her eyes landed
into Lelo's pretty face. "She seem so innocent and special, why
would parents do such to their own blood"?? This she asked
herself. Nina raised her hand and spoke, yes they have attended
the same church, little did they know they will meet each other
there. " Because the Egyptians did not believe in God, or maybe
they didn't think he exist because all they knew was their King"
she said. Linah smiled then went back to the preaching. She was
in one of the Apostolic Churches in their place, the church was no
really full but manageable. Prophet Prince couldn't come
because of other obligations, plus this was not his mission but
Linah's.

" Romans 8 verse 38 and 39, God tells us that neither death, nor
height,nor depth, nor principalities, nor powers, nor present
things, not even life itself can separate us from the love of God
which is in Christ Jesus our Lord, and I'm telling you that not even
the pain you've felt through out your whole life, not even the
difficulties you've gone through, the hate you experienced, not
even the family struggles you've come across can separate you
from the love of Christ. You may have encountered the worst
situations ever, prayed and felt deserted to the point where you
feel like you are just wasting your time, thats where faith comes
in, having faith that one day he will hear your cries, one day he
will answer your prayers cause our God is a proud and jelouse
God, He is not in silence mode he is just waiting for the right
moment to bless you, he will tests your faith in many ways that
you feel like giving up but you shouldn't cause those who wait on
the Lord are very much blessed.

Lelo

I must say coming to church today was one thing I wasn't

planning but something in me influenced my soul to. I was
surprised to find Linah been the one who was preaching, yes I
came late, well I'm always late in everything. Oh yeah Nine too
was here and I noticed her when she answered the question
asked, I was really surprised again cause she looked different.
Like she was free or something.
" I'm glad you came " said Linah who was suddenly behind me. I
turned and looked at her. She really was beautiful and gifted, and
very much scary, well I say so because of her appearances in my
room."I glad I came too, that was really powerful " I say keeping
my distance.
Her: you are afraid of me??
I shook my head and she laughed me nine nine
Her: yes you are,look at you all sweaty
I didn't even realise I was sweating
Me: I'm ..I just ....you
Her: stop please I know you are confused but you shouldn't be
afraid of me, I'm your protection.
Me: I don't understand
Her: I'm here to guide you
Me: still I'm lost
Her: it's alright Lelo, I know it's hard to accept the truth now that
you know and you are probably confused and irritated by the
whole thing, but it's alright.
I sighed
Me: I....I have to go
She grabbed my hand and led me to her car, I couldn't refuse and
I don't know why.
Her: its all alright, God answered your prayers, I'm proud of you
Mbulelo
I looked at her crazy like
Me: I don't understand
Her: just know that It will be alright
Me: I'm gonna die, I shouldn't be Be pregnant, not by any other
man's child and you saying it all alright, really that's all you can
say??, yes I've been starving myself the whole week praying non
stop asking the Lord to light my way. Asking my Father to tell me
the truth but still nothing and today you are saying it all alright??
I realy was getting mad.
Her: calm down Mbulelo
Me: no please Linah I'm tired, maybe it's better I die
Her: you don't mean that you know it too
Me: well I do, I've been holding this pain and rage for the past few
months, pretended to a strong when I was a weakling inside but
this week I letted it all out on him, on God, I mean he is
responsible for my birth, he is my father and my protection, he
was suppose to shield me from the parents he gave me to but no
he allowed all this curses and wicked things to happen in my life.
Her: I'm sorry you feel that way, but I'm glad you managed to talk
to God, you poured out all your frustration and he heard you,
sometimes God needs you to take action, to be strong, to tell him
how you feel.
Me: I guess so
I said
Her: now all you need to do is keep the faith that you won't lose
your baby, we've both prayed and asked for this curse to be
broken, his word says we shall not be afraid and that he will fight
all our battle while we sit quiet, now this is the time to embrace his
love.
Me: do you think I will survive
Her: already you have survived
Me: I just don't know
Her: one day you will stand up and tell the world how powerful he
is, how he saved you when you thought there was no way out,
how he worked his miracles on you.
I smiled, like genuinely smiled
Me: thank you, thank you for being there
Her: you dont have to, when it comes to you, I'm always here
Me: you really are weird
Her: I've heard that a lot, now have a safe ride and please take
good care of that miracle in you
Me: I will, you take care.
We then went into our separate ways, I called my driver and
waited for him to come and fetch me. Just then I saw Nina coming
to where in was standing. She looked beautiful in her orange
dress, she was just free.
Her: hey
She smiled and I didn't have a choice but to smile back
Me: Nina
Her: you look.....
Me: huge I know..
Her: I was gonna say beautiful
Me: then thank you, you look good too
Her: thank you
Then we went silent, I mean we didn't really had anything to share
Her: listen Lelo I know its hard to forget what I did but I want you
to know that I'm truly sorry, for everything I've done. I have no
excuse for my deeds and I know I went beyond to trying to kill
you. I'm cruel I know and I have to learn to live with all the things
I've done just to keep a man that never appreciated me.
Me: Nina please I'm not in the mood for...
Her: please Mbulelo, I mean well and I'm working on fixing myself
again. I know forgiving me won't be easy but I just wanted to say
I'm really sorry and that one day maybe you will find the heart to
forgive me. I'm not asking for our friendship back cause I know
that's impossible I'm just asking for forgiveness.
I smiled as tears scrolled down, seeing her being this very sorry
just triggered something in me.
Me: I forgive you, I love you, you know that and I'm never gonna
survive hating you, although things may not be the same again
but know that you have a sister in me.
Her: i wish I had your heart you know that
Me: pity you don't sweety
Her: thank you, your baby is truly best to have you as a mother
Me: I hope so
Her: I know so,let me not keep you waiting then cause mr driver is
already waiting
We said our goodbyes and I left. I found dad in the study and he
just purely ignored me. That's all he has been doing all this days.
Ignoring me every time I try talking to him.
Me: father
He looked up to me then went back to typing whatever he was
typing in his laptop.
Me: dad please
Him: what do you want Inno
Me: the truth father
Him: I thought you knew everything
Me: now I want you to tell me the truth and why, why all this
witchcraft ??
He grinned an evil one
Me: today I'm not backing away father, it's alright just tell me
why??
Him: you letting your mind games play with you Inno
Me: father please don't
Him: some things are better unknown and this I cannot tell you
Me: why??cause I already know??
Him: you think you know my child
Me: well then you tell me if you think I'm just insinuating all this
Him: the damage has been done already, now can you please
leave me in peace
Me: leave you in peace? ? Like really in peace?? Not so long ago
you almost died because of this secretes you keep within
yourself, is that what you call peace cause surely you are burning
inside old man.
He got up all mad, I wasn't scared no I wasn't and I don't why
cause the old me would have long exited the room.
Him: you not gonna speak to me like that Inno do you hear me??
Me: perfectly sir, and you not gonna keep me in the dark anymore
Mr Brown do you hear me??
He chuckled slowly shaking his head
Him: you've grown some balls because of that thing you carrying,
you don't respect me Inno, maybe I should just agree to all this....
Me: agree to what ??
Him: nothing the point here is you think you know everything
when you don't
Me: then tell me what i do not know
Him: you were supposed to respect my wishes, marry Trevor and
be happy, your mother would have been alive and wouldn't be
this lonely, but instead you chose my enemy, you are the reason
your mother died Inno!!!
He yelled at me and I found myself crying, he can't say that to
me. I didn't kill my mother, I didn't even wish death apon her. She
was my mother for God's sake.
Him: yes go on, cry cause that what you are good at, you said you
wanted us to talk now we are talking.
I tried gathering my strength, sniffed a few times.
Me: why did you have to include my mother, and why are you
blaming me for her death,??
Him: because your thick skull drove us apart, me and my wife.
She found comfort in another man's hands.
Me: my mom would never do that, you are the one who abused
her, she loved you so much but you kept on abusing her in all
ways and cheating with young girls who you ended up
impregnating. So you don't don't get to judge my mother.
He laughed and ended up crying,it's was really bad
Him: you are defending that whore because you all the same, that
why I killed her and maybe I should do the same to you too.

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Lelo
I blinked more than twice trying to digest what my dear father just
said. It's can't be, it cannot be.
Me:tell me you didn't just say....no you didn't kill my mother, your
wife
I saw him bang the table so hard, I'm sure that hurted but there
was no way I was letting this go.
Him: get out of my way
He was trying to walk away but I stood still and blocked his way.
Me: you killed her
I said in the most lowest voice ever.
Him: I didn't mean to but I did, I shot her, she shouldn't have
hugged him but it was too late. She took the bullet instead of him
and there barstard has been trying to find ways to avenge himself
but then no one can touch me, not even your mighty lovely
Ngemas.
He was talking, laughing and crying at the same time. It's like he
was going crazy. This wasn't my dad. where is my father?? What
happened to him??.
Him: it's true I am a monster , your father is a monster but guess
what this monster loved your mother and what did she do, she ran
into another man's arms.
Me: you are not a monster, father you are evil, you killed your
own damn wife and you've just said you would kill me too.
Now that's what shaken me, how do I live with this monster.
Reporting him to the police is just a waste of time cause he is the
law just by standing here next to me. What do I do??
Him: you are now scared aren't you??
Me: I'm not scared of you dad , I'm scared of the devil inside you
but gues what it's alright, God has a plan.
Him: God???
Me: you seem surprised
Him: don't make me laugh princess that nigga doesn't exist, I'm
this old and I don't believe in this God shit
Me: I'm not surprised how can you when the only thing you
believe in is wickedness
Him: but it pays off at the end of the day
Me: and it costs you so much, you can't even sleep peacefully
because it's always haunts you
He looked astonished
Him: how did you know that??
Me: what,? It's very clear you are a walking dead man Mr Brown
Him: hey I'm still your father now mind your tongue
Me: I know you are my father, and I know a part of you still cares
for me, but right now i dont care about me and I care only about
my child, so please keep your devil ways so very far from my
baby, father. .
I said
Him: you don't get to tell me what to do, and trust me I will be
dead if you get to deliver that thing...
He pushed me aside and went out. He took his car keys and he
was gone. I went back to the living room finding Neo eating my
carrot cake. Really I am tempted
Me: there's something called going out shopping and buying
yourself staff
Her: mxm this is not even the best carrot cake ever so stop yelling
Me: you know what?? Just do us both a favour, you don't touch
my staff and I don't touch yours. I don't even get why you can't tell
your baby daddy to buy you some goodies.
right there I heard her sniff, so much for being a hard core.
Me: I'm not a prophet so you tell me why are you crying.
I really wasn't in a mood after all the things I've just heard from
dad all I needed was a good bath, sleep and a long praying
session.
Her: he hasn't said another word to me since I last talked to him
when I came here. I mean it been a week Lelo
Me: and?? Why don't you talk to him??
Her: I don't want to seem like I'm a nuisance or something
Me:oh then continue crying baby mama
I left her there, I don't have time for people with pride I have a lot
on my plate. I took a long bath then wore my short night dress,
took my bible, read a verse from Psalms the prayed. After that I
lay on my bed and played with my phone. I missed my heart so
much but I didn't have airtime. Just then I remembered that
tomorrow I'm turning 19, how could I forget ?? Well I guess it's
because by this day last year I was in tears crying for my heart
after my evil father banned me from seeing him, and I didn't for
more than two months and again I got engaged to Trevor on my
birthday and my mother was the happiest lady in earth. So many
good and bad memories for this day, seeing my heart so broken
after breaking our promise of staying together no matter what. I
still remember the moment he walked in With a birthday presents
even when I went against our wishes and chose family over our
love. " oh how I love your father princess" I said brushing my
tummy and this forward child just kicked the hell out of me. I
smiled then got up and locked my room. I didnt trust my dad, I
had to protect myself from him.

Narrated

" we've done all we could, it's time to say your goodbyes" the
doctor said, he was looking down avoiding eye contact with the
Pretorias family.
MrsP: can't you do anything more than trying, this is my only son
doctor.
She said with tears floods on her face
Doc: I'm afraid even if we get the best specialist for a surgery, his
mind won't work at all, he will be a living dead person, the bullet
really messed up his head tricking his mind.
MrsP: a living dead person???
Doc: yes, he won't be able to think for himself if he doesn't get
crazy.
Mrs Pretorias wailed so loud feeling the pain of losing her only
child. When the doctor said that Trevor was gonna be a living
dead person, she couldn't stop thinking about Amo, her dead
granddaughter, how she was crooked her mind and left a living
corpse. " what goes around comes backs around, and when it's
does its hit you so hard " those words played in her mind. This
was their punishment, they have lost both their son and
granddaughter, now there's nothing on earth left for them to
remind them that they once had a son, they are responsible for
the death of Amo and Trevor. " we killed them, both of them" she
said sitted down looking like a mess. For once she didn't care
how she looked," its all our fault, we killed our son and his child"
again she said in agony.
MrP: it's no use blaming ourselves now,we killed them the
moment we agreed to all this witchcraft
Her: I guess it too late to change our ways
Him: it is never too late my dear
Her: I'm so sorry my husband
He nodded
Him: now let's go do right by our son.
They went back in, Mrs P looked at her son with so much pain.
Her: I'm so sorry boy, I wish I was able to wake you up and tell
you how sorry I am
Him: you are here because of us, and the doctor said for now you
can hear us so I'm hoping you can hear us son.
Her: it's all my fault, we involved you in so many evil schemes, we
made rituals for you and Inno at an early age, firstly it wasn't
because of money we just wanted the two families to keep their
relationship forever but when we saw that it was another
opportunity for money we took it more serious, you got married to
Inno..
His husband stopped her
Him: we don't have to say the whole thing son, just know that you
had evil parents that saw you suffer in the name of love, what you
felt for Inno was created, it's wasn't real, and yes we killed your
child, we sacrificed her mind for more money and not only that but
because she couldn't have been our granddaughter, the
ancestors didn't allow her to be part of our family.
Just then the machines starts making sounds,both parents called
out the doctors but by the time they arrived they were already
quite. "We lost him, Time of death, 10pm"

Musa

In a few minutes it will be the 20th of December, my heart's birth

day. I'm watching the clock like nobody's business. A minute be
for midnight, I call her. I know she's deep in sleep but I wanna be
the first one to wish her a happy birthday. She answers at the 5th
ring and I sing to her, I can hear her giggling in her sleepy voice,
God if only I can see her. " happy birthday sthandwa Sami, my
heart, my smile keeper, my queen, Mma brown wa Ntante
Ngema" i say smiling like a retard if only she can see me right
now.
Me: someone is finally 19
Her: thank you sthandwa Sami, and yes I'm finaly 19
Me: I love you baby wami
Her: I love you more my heart
I smile
Me: now go back to sleep and please remember we have a date
Her: how could I forget, I mean you've been preaching it to me the
past few days
Me: great then better keep the time Ms
Her: I always do Ntate Ngema
Me: we both know that's not true
Her: awa baby
Me: we don't have to argue mother of my child, sleep well baby
Her: night my love
I end the call and go back to sleep, I can't wait for the morning I
just want to hold her and plus it's been one hell of a long week
without seeing her.

" and you are still sleeping, so much for being mr party" shouted
mom already taking off the blankets from me." And who is
supposed do braai the meat Musawakhe "?? I groaned as I got
out of bed. No deal Im happy it's my heart's birthday but we
should be woken up in a kind way you know what I mean right??
Not this loud shouting by my mother.
Me: I will be downstairs in an hour ma
Her: and make sure you prepared everything for your heart, this
party needs to be perfect son
Me: yes mother
Her: yes mother my foot, now hurry up we don't have the time
people will be coming anytime soon
Me: ma please I've heard you and I can't do anything with you still
standing here
Her: mxm just hurry up
She went out and I took a fast shower then wore my ordinary
clothes. I called Mma Brown.
Her: sthandwa Sami
She sounded so down and I now wished I was the one fetching
her but then I can't I have to braai this freaken meat
Me: happy birthday again love
She giggled
Her: thank you babe
Me: are you ready??
Her: for what love??
Me: I swear I'm gonna kick your ass Mbulelo
She laughed
Her: whoe ntante Ngema I'm ready
I sighed
Me: the driver will be there in a minute, just do as told my heart.
Her: I will be a good girl my love
Me: great then I can't wait to see you babe, I mean both of you
Her: in a few minutes honey
Me; okay I have to go, I love you okay
Her: I love you Musawami
I blushed God how can she make me this vulnerable.

Lelo
Whatever Musa was planning was big, but I didn't mind I mean I
needed the break and being out of my house will be a bonus. I'm
still afraid of dad but I don't think he will hurt me, I just doubt he
will.by the way i went out leaving Neo sleeping on the couch. I
dont have time for people with dead egos, i found the driver
already waiting for me. I got in and greeted, I was in my black
knee less dress and red heels, i was beautiful just not that
beautiful, I mean I have a round belly that just made fun of my not
so fit body. Just imagine a slender with a big tummy 😕.

By the way the driver took me to this beautiful hotel where I was
welcomed with so much kindness. There everyone kept on
pampering me,I was firstly given a full body massage, then
someone came and did my hair, the make up and then there was
"thee dress", I found myself crying but then the lady who was
helping me gave me an eye and I quickly stopped the tears. " I'm
sorry" I said.she smiled
" you are beautiful, and this just make you worse", I looked at
myself one more time, i was in a royal blue gown with lace and
bead embroidery that fitted me amazingly showing off my not not
so huge tummy. I really looked like my daddys princess." Please
don't cry we've done so much work already" I smiled and putted
on my nude heels,they were not that high, Musa have the mind I
guess. After a long time i was transported to the Ngema
residence. It's was quiet that I had a dissaponment face in me. I
mean all this fancy staff just for us to see, but then again I gues
the privacy didn't matter.
" you can get in man, he's already waiting for you inside" said the
driver. I nodded then went in, the moment I opened the door I
heard a loud scream " Suprise!!" Then the few crowd that was
there started singing happy birthday for me. I smiled so wide and
felt like a teenager again,I felt so alive as if I had no problems at
all. Just then my prince came walking down from the stairs in his
blue tuxedo, God he was plus handsome. He had a Mic in his
hands then suddenly he smiles , a familiar beat was played and
already I knew my Trey songs was about to sing our song.

Luther Vandross ft Beyonce, The Closer i Get To You"

"The closer I get to you
The more you make me see
By giving me all you've got
Your love has captured me
Over and over again
I try to tell myself that we
Could never be more than friends
And all the while inside
I knew it was real
The way you make me feel"

He is looking at me, our eyes locked and the whole crowd

watching us.
Him: happy birthday Mma Brown
I smile as tears scrolls down, I feel so weak so in love.
Me: I don't know what to say
Him: say you love me
I giggle and kiss the hell out of him, just then loud terrified
screams disturbed us from our moment. I'd hate to say I'm
surprised but somewhere somehow I expected this. He shouted
so loud with his gun in his hands" my princess, happy birthday",
he looks so drunk and messy, he looks so hurt but you never
know with my father. " how come I'm never invited on my own
daughters birthday huh??" , I can't go near him I'm scared and
Musa notices that.
Him: babe calm down
Me: what is he doing here, I don't understand
He points the gun at the ceiling then back at every one. The
screams are so loud and from there I notice that Linah is also
here. She nods at me and I don't know what it means. " today it's
all over, this family is the reason why I'm about to lose everything,
your son is the cause of my family's sorrows, and my own
daughter disrespecting me, princess daddy love you but this I
cannot bear" he says
Me: please dad go home
Dad: I killed your mother, your first child we sacrifed, Trevor's
child too was sacrificed, we married both of you by blood, in the
name of ancestors our forefathers, you both belonged together at
an early age"
Already I feel so dizzy, I can't scream I can't say anything I'm so
numb.
Dad: Your husband is dead, I don't know what that means but I
know you don't get to have that baby.
Just then I heard 3 gun shots and people screaming then and it
was light out for me. " it's alright" that's the last line I heard!!
Insert 73

"Its not really death that causes the sorrow but the absence of
love one"

Narrated

Like in most movies where the starring saves someone's life by

risking his or hers, right now this was the case. Someone had to
die for someone to live, and only someone with a pure heart had
the guts to save the one they love.

Like said previously, Brown shot 3 shots before Lelo passed out,
but after that many followed as Brown continued causing the
unnecessary havoc, he wasn't alone, he wouldn't come alone in
the enemy's den. Hence he came with his men that was how he
managed to get in, but the Ngema family been the most humble
and amazing family, they made sure that only there was guard's
outside just not inside, this was a party so a party with men
carrying guns wouldn't make sense at all and it would have left
bad taste in the crowd.

" Brown you need to stop all this madness now" shouted an angry
Ngema after seeing his son laying in a pool of blood next to the
love of his love. Both of them were shot, Brown aimed Inno's
tummy making sure that he leaves the baby dead, although he
hoped that his princess would be fine if she gets the necessary
help from special doctors. On the other hand, When Brown was
about to take another shot at Lelo's tummy, Musa came to the
rescue and instead of the only shot Brown gave him one more
which landed not very far from his heart.

Screams filled the room, Musa's mother saw her past being
replayed, the past she feared and the life she left, within a second
she took out her own gun which nobody knew where it came from
since she was only wearing a very beautiful white bob tube dress,
not even thinking she shot Brown more than twice making sure
she doesnt touch the sensitive parts of his body because she
wanted him to regret living. She aimed his legs and shot them
twice each crippling the old man, he winced because of the pain
and fell down on his knees, right there police walked in with the
ambulances.

Lelo was still breathing although she was really hurted but her
romeo was slowly losing his pulse. Quickly they were admitted to
a private hospital with qualified surgeon's. Every doctor attended
the two in love souls while at the Ngema residence people ran out
as if they were being chased away. This was one day Lelo would
hate for the rest of her life, two worst birthdays following each
other, maybe she wasn't meant to be happy, maybe she wasn't
allowed to live like every other free spirited teenager.

Brown was arrested along with his gang while the Ngema parents
waited at the doors of both children for any news from the
doctors. This day was meant to be the best day for Lelo but it
became the worst of all days.
" it's had been reported that our well known business man who
recently lost his wife under a shooting made a scene today at his
only daughter's birthday party, Mr Brown of Browns Jewels ltd
shot his daughter and her boyfriend who is the son of the Ngema
family that was recently suspected dead after their house was
bombed, the two families seemed to have a dispute of somehow
that is only know by then, but what shocks us today is that our Mr
Brown fearlessly shot his only daughter, his princess who was
kidnapped a few weeks ago, I'm sure you are all wondering what
the daughter did but it is said that she is pregnant or maybe was
pregnant since we haven't heard the news about any recovering.
Daddy Brown was arrested and is denied bail till his court day.
Well thank you for watching our daily news , this is Jane from Etv
News".

Nina

Seeing both of them laying down next to each other, with blood all
around them defining the meaning of true love. Their love for each
other, pure unguilty love by two pure souls. This was one scene I
will never forget, and one memory that will haunt Lelo for the rest
of her life. I still don't get why her father did all he did, yes he said
some familiar words but all this didn't make sense. Why want to
kill his princess, I mean everyone knows how much he loves her,
and to add to that, he killed his wife too, i thought I had the most
difficult unbearable life but Lelo's life was definitely not the glitters
I always thoughts it was. I've been so concentrated on the best
things she had that I wanted when she didn't really want non of
them but her only love. Oh how i hate myself now. " I'm sure she
will be alright hun" mom said as she entered the living room. I
sighed
Me: I hope so ma, just that the blood was too much I can't even
stop thinking about it all around both their bodies
Her: poor child, I wonder what really went wrong with her father
Me: trust me you don't wanna know
Her: let's just pray she recovers
Me: that's all we can do and hope for
Just then my phone rang, it's was Me Pretorias so I answered it
even though I didn't feel like it, I mean I'm distancing myself from
that family.
Me: Mr Pretorias how can I help you??
He chuckled
Him: so formal, well how are you my dear
Me: I'm good,I'm sure you didn't call me to ask how I was sir
Him: yeah, I'm just letting you know that we lost our son last night
and seeing that you too were close I thought you might want to
attend his burial.
I chuckled as tears scrolled down, Mr Brown did say something
about Trevor being dead but i just didn't take it serious. This was
a lot in a day and I couldn't take it, how do I handle all this?? I
ended the call as soon as possible and cried, he was the father of
my baby, I was once in love with him and it's no doubt that I still
cared. Maybe he was cruel but he didn't deserve to die, he didn't
deserve to die not now, not this early. " what is it Nina??" Mom
asked with her concerned voice. I was struggling to say it but I did
slowly "he is dead,Trevor is dead" I finally said.
Her: oh my God what is happening in this world?
Me: the people I'm close to are dying, that's what happening
mother.
I got up and went to my room. I locked the door and threw myself
on the bed. Did this mean Lelo was gonna die too?? No I mean
her dad did say something about them being bonded, so it's
possible that Lelo dies too??

Narrated

" it's done, we have lost" said the witch doctor after receiving a
message from the ancestors. Another one came in too, she
consulted with them throwing Jones non stop and crying imploring
for mercy but the ancestors didn't show any sympathy, " I can't
die, I can't be one of you yet" she Said but that didn't help her at
all cause her hut was already in fire with her inside. She had no
where to go or run to, every corner was covered with huge flames
of fire. " fine!! But don't say I'm the one who accepted defeat
because you forced me," she said kneeling down waiting for
reality to take course. She was burnt together with her hut, the
greatest witch of all times accepted defeat.

"Its fine I sorted my documents before doing what I did, you may
be asking yourself why I did it but that is one of the questions I
cant answer you" he said trying by all means to block the pain
from his legs. " I'm sure I won't be able to walk until I die and the
truth is I don't have a problem with that" he said again. He was
already in his unknown jet on his way to Mozambique where he
was gonna stay for a few hours cause he knew that the SA force
will be hunting him, so his plan was to give them fake leads
before finding a permanent country to start afresh. " all you have
to do is make sure my daughter is alive and well taken care of, I
may have hurt her but she is all I have remaining from my
marriage, and Neo's baby too, if she is indeed carrying my child,
take good care of her and the baby"he said all in a good tape that
he sent to his lawyer.

And the last thing he said was " don't screw me up Victor, cause I
will come back to my family"

Y'all be asking yourself how he stayed only 10 minutes in jail, well

just like his daughter said " he is the law himself".

Insert 74

" There is non mighty than Jesus, our Lord who created havean
and earth"

Narrated

There was still silence about Lelo's condition and so did Musa's.
The best thing so far was that the doctors managed to operate
her and saved the baby while the mother remained in a very risky
position. A beautiful baby girl came to earth well developed than
any other 7months baby. She surprised all doctors of the hospital
the moment they took her out from her mother. She didn't need
special treatments, but was kept at the hospital just to protect her
cause this was not normal. " she is so beautiful" said Mrs Ngema
holding her tiny pinkish hands. She was in tears as she looked at
the beautiful gift infront of her, mostly it reminded her of her very
own twins she lost in the past." She is so tiny too" his husband
said. She chuckled at his ridiculous saying.
Her: all babies are tiny Ngema
Him: but she takes the cup
Her: because she was robbed 2 months in her mother's stomach,
but she is perfectly fine it's surprising
Him: she really is a fighter, I didn't think she was gonna survive
Her: mysterical I know
Him: I hope her parents wakes up to see what they created
Her: they have to, they deserve to know their baby.
They kept on looking at her, while the lovers were both fighting for
their lives.

Lelo

" Inno baby" a calm voice called me, I turned around only to be
met by my mother. She looked like a wreck, is that what death do
to people?? Her face was so thin and her hair was a mess, she
looked so dirty and old. Or was she in hell ?? That I asked myself
before trying to talk back to her.
Me: mother why are you like this? ?
She smiled but her smile was followed by tears that didn't stop
falling on the dry ground.
Her: I'm okay baby, the question here is why are you here??
I looked around this place and it was like an abandoned forest. It
didn't look kind at all it was as if some big monster will appear and
eat the hell out of you.
Me: I don't know, I don't know how I got here..
Her: you know exactly how your soul chose this place love.
Me: I don't understand, am I dead too??
She chuckled
Her: no and I'm afraid if you stay here longer you will be dead.
Me: wait how did you get here??
Her: I chose this place
Me: this dirty place??
Her: yes this dirty place
Me: but its not good for you, look at you mother you are dying
She laughed
Her: babe I'm already dead, I can't die twice
Me: I'm just, I don't understand
Her: tell mama what happened for you to land here??
I signed
Me: my own father shot me, your husband killed me mother just
like he killed you.
Her: you know he didn't mean to kill us both right??
I shook my head
Me: he did, how can you shoot someone and still say you didn't
mean to kill them? ?
Her: baby your father is overprotective from what is his.
Me: no he is a monster that killed both his wife and daughter, he
doesn't deserve good things, wait did you know he has a child
coming???
She smiled
Her: Innoce....
Me: oh yes mother he impregnated Neo and now she is staying
with us, well since I'm dead I'm sure they are bonding right now
celebrating the death of the disrespectful daughter.
Her: stop all this nonsense talk Mbulelo you don't have time"!!
She shouted at me and I froze
Me: time for what??
Her: for you to go back
Me: mom there's no way I'm cheating death, it's time I accept that
I was meant to live a short worst life ever.
Her: sometimes I don't understand you, did you forget that you
have a baby.
That hit me, my child! !I looked at myself quickly and I could see I
still had a little bump but I couldn't feel my baby.
Me: mom I can't feel her, she is gone too!!
I panicked, I still remembered the pain of losing my first child, my
ghost baby now I couldn't be possibly losing my baby girl. My
princess.
Her: you won't feel her forever if you keep procrastinating telling
me why you are here Innocentia Mbulelo Brown!
I struggled to talk, what was I supposed to say, I mean I'm already
here so whats does it matter ??
Her: oh sweety it matters a lot
I looked at her confused
Me: are you reading my thoughts now dear mother??

Her: I just happen to know what you are thinking Browns daughter
Me: please don't call me that
Her: denying the truth won't hep you at all
That why you here.
Me: I'm not denying anything
Her: tell me why this place, why such an abandoned place with no
human, no happiness and mostly no love, something you've
always fought for??
I sighed
Me: isn't quite obvious mother? ? This place defines me, it defines
my life and I mean my whole life.
I finally said with tears streaming down my face, this was the best
place that defined me, my life. The flowers were out of colour, the
trees didn't have any fruits, it's like they were cursed to not ever
grow any fruits. The grass was yellow to brownish, there river not
far from where we were had only dirty water with dead fish. So
how do I find myself better from this place??
Her: you are nothing like this place Lelo, you've got people who
care about you my child and this place, this place have nobody, it
abandoned.
Me: just like I am, I lost my parents the moment they allowed a
curse on me, from that day my happiness was short lived, I lost
my friend, my mother and my father, I lost my baby and may have
lost my princess again. I am dirty mother, I was cursed, for the
past few months all I've endured was pain, hurt and love I must
say, but how does it compete with so much pain, how can love
win when my heart is in pieces? ?
Her: it has already won my love, your love escaped you from this
hell hole of life you've been living
Me: I doubt it has, like this place, I am broken and im sure some
of my pieces cannot be found.
Her: that why you chose this place, baby a person with your kind
of heart doesn't deserve this place, you have a good heart
Mbulelo and I know you feel broken but trust me when I say you
are not
Me: how can I trust you?? I can't trust you mother, you are one of
the reasons I am unable to fix myself.
I saw her wipe her tears off
Her: I deserve that, and I'm paying for my sins love.
Me: I'm sure you are.
Her: trust me I am, now it's time you go and meet my
granddaughter, be the best mom that I believe you can be
Mbulelo, know that your father love you my child and I loved you
too. Lastly, you are not dirty and you are the most loving and
strong person I have ever know. I'm proud and not proud to call
you my child cause I was coward enough to protect you from the
curse.
Just as I was about to answer her I felt like I was blown by the
most fastest wind I've ever experienced and my mom's now ugly
face dissapered while I woke up in a hospital bed next to some
cute doctor.
" on hi" he said in his angelic voice. This doctor looked familiar, I
tried thinking fast from where i knew her but I couldn't cause i was
still shocked by what happened. I mean I was with my mom and
boom I'm on some hospital room connected to drips, and I can't
feel my baby. That's when the panick happened.
" calm down princess, it's alright" said the handsome doctor ." My
baby, I can't where..." he inserted something In my drip then
quickly I had fallen asleep.

Insert 75

Narrated

" she is completely fine although we still need to run a few tests "
said one of the doctors. Both Musa's parent's hope increased
since one of the was awake and seemed to be fine. " and the
baby, is she fine??" Asked Mrs Ngema.
" she is fine, that one is a fighter" he said then rushed to attend
some of his other patients.
All along Lelo was sleeping peacefully, her doctor was paid by his
father to take good care of her, although Mr Brown asked him to
not let the baby live, the doctor couldn't kill such a beautiful child.
When he saw her, he basically saw an angel, she soothed his
heart, and won it by her little cries which is why she is still alive.

The following hours Lelo woke up feeling thirsty, Mrs Ngema was
laying right next to her. As soon as she noticed that she was up,
she quickly took a cup of water and gave her to drink, helping her
out because she still had wounds. " my ba...baby" she said as
tears ran down her cheeks. Her face was already pink, her body
was numb, the fear of hearing bad news about her child scared
the hell out of her. Mrs Ngema smiled wiping her tears away " she
is fine, your munchkin is fine" she said, Lelo couldn't believe her,
she cried out loud wanting to get up but her pains were too
much." I want to see her, please let me see my baby" she couldnt
stop the tears , Mrs Ngema called one of the nurses who saw it
possible for the baby to come to her instead of her going to her
child because she didn't really have much strength." Give me a
moment, I will bring her to you" she said already going out. Lelo
nodded and looked at Mrs Ngema, she saw how hurt she looked
and it clicked to her that something was missing "her heart", that
very same moment she found it hard to breath, how can she be
so selfish. " oh my baby what is it now??" Asked Mrs Ngema with
the fear of hearing what she has to say, she knew that this was
about his son. She saw the fear and pain in Lelo's eyes as she
struggled to breath. " My he.....hear..t" she finally said, " he will be
fine baby you need to be strong" Mrs Ngema said. They cried
together and got disturbed as the nurse walked in with Lelo's
baby. She firstly found it hard to hold her, she was afraid." Go on,
hold your princess". She took her and softly held her, she looked
so much like Musa, she couldn't hold her tears as they fell right to
her chicks. Was this joy or sadness???

" she is so tiny and beautiful " she said not leaving eye contact
with her baby. Her lips were Musa's, she was Musa .
" she really look like her father" she said. Mrs Ngema smiled ,"
and I thought I was the only one who noticed that" she said too. " I
would like to go and see my heart", she said with her eyes
already imploring for sympathy. " im sure that can be arranged"
Mrs Ngema said not wanting to disappoint her.

Lelo

The days went by with me still in hospital and my heart still

fighting for his life. Today was the 24th of December, tomorrow
was Christmas and still my heart's condition wasn't improving. I
got discharged with my baby, I haven't named her cause this we
have to do with my heart, I refuse to name her alone.

We arrived Musa's parent's house, I haven't asked about my

father cause I can't bring myself to think that my only father tried
to kill me. It's just hurt me so much to even think that he wanted to
kill the most important person in my life.

" don't think too much, it's not good for your body, you are still
recovering remember" said Mrs Ngema. I faked a smile and
nodded, I'm sure she noticed that but she let me be. I'm so glad I
have her cause she really is a lot of help and very supportive
when it comes to her granddaughter. I went up to Musa's room
with my baby in my arms. I just needed to feel his presence.
Firstly I took a long ass shower, wore his shirt then prayed before
getting comfortable in his bed.

The following day was Christmas, I woke up to an active Mrs

Ngema who was busy cooking and singing to Michael Bolton very
loud. I smiled as I saw how hard she was trying to be strong. She
caught sight of me And smiled " oh Merry Christmas Munchie"
she said and gave me a hug.
Me: thank you, Merry Christmas
Her: smile a little please
I tried
Her: now that's my baby, you need something??
Me: I can't bath her, she is too tiny what if I drown her??
She smiled
Her: give me a few minutes
I smiled and went back. This Christmas was just like any other
day for me, and with Musa's absence, it was the worst. Mrs
Ngema helped me out with my baby, then I took a bath too. We
were going to spend the day at the hospital with my heart. I would
rather be next to him than sitting here all day thinking about him.

We walked into his ward, today was different. His self wasn't full
of pipes supporting him so I guessed he was getting better.
Although he hasn't tried anything that said he was gonna wake up
but at least there was hope.
" since you saw it better for you to spend christmast in a hospital
bed we thought why not bring Christmas to you" his mother said
already decorating his ward. We talked for sometime laughing
and talking trying our best not to break down.
" I think we should leave the family alone" said Mr Ngema. They
looked at me for assurance and I nodded, but then I gave them
their granddaughter, I needed space alone with my man.

I was now all alone with a nearly dead Musa. " you cant leave me
alone, you can't leave us like this, not when we've fought this
much" I said trying hard not to break down. " just wake up
Musawami, wake up my heart", " please baby do it for our
princess, she's so much like you, she has to know her handsome
father, my hero, my life, baby she has to know the reason I'm still
alive"

Days went by with me visiting him everyday, it's was really hard
and the news about my dad missing was the worst. A part of me
still cared about him, and another just hated him more than
anything. Today was the 31st of December, only God knows how
much i wish I entered the new year with Musa by my side, but
then I gues all I'm meant for us to be sour and sad while others
are happy and celebrating.

I wore my Nike tracksuit and kicks then went downstairs, I found

Musa's parents watching tv and playing with the little me. I smiled
at the thought picturing me and my heart and our little beautiful
daughter all together. It's was just a cute picture.
" I'm out, but I will be back by 4 today" I said taking an apple. I
was going to the hospital, it's all I do if I'm not with my child. Musa
can't be all alone there, he needs me. He saved me, he saved our
baby now all I need to do is to be there for him, maybe I will save
him too.

Narrated

Psalms 147v5

" Great is our Lord, and abundant in strength , His understanding

is infinite "

Next to him she prayed so hard, she broke down into pieces that
she didn't think they will come back together one day. All things
seemed impossible but she trusted her creator that nothing is
impossible in his name.

It's the 31st and every youth Is enjoying life while she is stuck in a
hospital ward with the love of her life. " oh how I wish you could
just shame the devil and wake up my love" she said forcing a
smile and brushing his hair softly. She was tired of crying, crying
won't bring Musa back, crying won't make everything alright and
crying won't make her feel better at all, instead it's takes all the
power she has left with. And her father's issue just drains the rest
of her energy. While singing " Uyalalwela" by Joyous Celebration,
her phone rang. She hesitated on answering it first but went on.
It's was an unknown number.
Her: Lelo's speaking
Voice: princess you are fine
Her heart skipped a bit, the fear and anger kicked in, how could
she call her, she was so angry and the thought that he was the
cause of her sadness made her more angry.
Her: Mr Brown....
She didn't know what to say, there was just so Much but she
couldn't bring herself to hear him explain although she knew that
he wouldn't. He is king and he never explains.
Him: I'm just glad you are okay at least now I can rest
She chuckled
Her: rest, so now you can rest ?? What kind of animal are you??
What kind of creature gives birth to such a cruel man?
Him: I deserve all that but all I did was for you, I've got to go.
Her : like always run father
Him: I'm doing this for you, you've got everything you need and
you don't need me. Just be the Chartered Accountant you've
always dreamt about, and please take care. Princess I love you.
The call was ended, She froze as she tried to comprehend the
fact that her father just said goodbye. Now she had no close
family, okay she had the Ngemas but they were not her family.

" he left me, you can't leave me too, I refuse to let you go Musa.
You need to wake up now my love I'm not begging you and I'm
not gonna cry, bro I'm telling you wake up!!" She shouted and the
machines started beeping." Some body help " she screamed and
immediately regretted on shouting at her heart. Now she was
crying. She felt like she was losing him." I'm so sorry I shouted at
you baby please don't leave me" she cried out loud and one of the
nurses led her outside the ward. Standing by his door watching
the doctors doing all they can to save him, she couldn't watch no
more. Instead she went to sit down next to an old woman by the
passage. Her too looked so stressed. " don't worry he will be
okay" she said not looking at her. Lelo tried so hard to blink back
the tears but she failed. Seems like all she was good at was
crying although she told herself to never cry ever again." Shhhh,
don't lose hope, he will be fine" again the woman said. " I shouted
at him, I shouldn't have its all my fault ". The woman smiled
Her: what did you say? ?
Lelo: that he should wake up
Her : and maybe that's what he is doing, asking up
Lelo:: Do you think so??
She smiled nervously
Her: I think so, let me go and see my husband, it's time.
Lelo: he will be alright
She nodded and got up. Lelo called Musa's parents before going
back to his ward. When she arrived she got the shock of her life.
His bed was well made as if there wasn't anyone there in the past
few minutes. Then reality hit harder than ever. She lost him, how
can he leave her like this, not even a single goodbye, at least her
father thought about it. She fell down and cried till one of the
nurse's got in and tried consoling her. " he is gone, they are all
gone, how can they leave me, why can't somebody fight for me?
Am I not worth it, am I not worth any happiness?? I can't live if
living is without him, I just can't live nor love again. How am I
gonna wake up tomorrow knowing I lost the love of my life? ?"
She said crying at the nurse's arms. She held her so tight. " I
know how you feel, right now you feel lost and not worthy but you
are worthy of every happiness on earth, you are the child of God
and a child of our God is worthy" said the nurse trying by all
means to keep her calm. " I'm better off dead with him rather than
living without him, I won't survive this life without his presence"
she said getting off from her arms. She was now pacing up and
down, eating her nails and convincing herself that its was all a
dream. Her heart was still alive.

Two doctors walked in with an old man who was bleeding non
stop. One of the doctors smiled at her but as soon as he saw the
pain in her eyes he stopped. " and why is this preety face sad
when it's supposed to be cheerful " he said not looking at her
though but minding the patient. Lelo didn't reply instead the nurse
did " she just lost her boyfriend doc" she said helping them out
with the man too. The doctor smiled broadly and said " your
boyfriend, Musa Ngema woke up,he is fine and I must say
whatever you did in there scared his ass the way he woke up",
Lelo couldn't believe her ears so she looked at the nurse, " then
where Is he " she asked. The doctor told her and the speed Lelo
exited the ward to Musa's new ward left them wondering what the
guy gave to her.

The moment she walked was the moment he opened his eyes
which landed to his beautiful girlfriend. She stood right at the door
looking at him and him staring at her, for a moment their eyes
communicated in the most terrifying way..as tears blinded Lelo's
eyes still she couldn't wipe them away. Was this her happiness
after all???
" Mma brown" he said trying by all means to smile, Lelo walked
out of his room without saying any word. She met his parents
onthe way with their baby. Right now she couldnt say anything,
great because they noticed it and left her alone. They got in
finding their son looking at the ceiling. He smiled and his smile got
wider when he saw the cute little thing in his mother's hands.

" welcome back to earth son" his father said. " I was so worried
Musa why did you take so much time to come back to us? ?" His
mother said strolling his hair.
He smiled, he didn't have anything to say all he wanted now was
his heart. " She will come back son she is just overwhelmed and
been through a lot the last few days " his father said and all he did
was to nod.

Musa

Seeing her this hurt broke me even more. I know I'm supposed to
be happy with my parent's presence and my princess too, but I
can't. How can I be when she is hurting??
Me: can I see her??
I asked mom, I couldn't hold myself anymore, I had to look at my
princess
Her: be careful though you still have wounds
Me: I know mom
Her: don't be mean here I'm helping you
She gave her to me, I smiled broadly as my eyes landed on her
pretty face
Me: she is perfect
Mom chuckled
Her: she is you
Me: I wouldn't say
Her: because you are a man
Me: please go and find my heart
Her: she will come when she is ready
Me: I guess

A few minutes later the madam herself decided to embrace us

with her presence. She walked in slowly looking at me. I tried
assuring her that I was alright but seems like I was wasting my
time." We should Go, we will see you later then "mom said, they
left leaving me with my mini family.
Me: hey
She faked a smile
Her: hey
Me: come here
She came and lay by me and our daughter. This was how it's was
supposed to be like.
Me: I'm fine, we are fine
Her: yeah we are fine, its just so hard to believe it
Me: I get you, now please kiss daddy
She giggled
Her: I missed you, I thought I lost you
Me: I would never leave you you Mma Brown
Her: I love you so much Musa, I wouldn't survive without you
Me: I know you wouldn't, I saw how mad you were at me
She chuckled
Her: no I wasn't
me: you shouted at me bbe and threatened me
Her: you heard all that??
Me: you gave me a reason to come back
Her: and you are the reason we are alive, you saved me, you
saved our princess
Me: I will do it again if I have to, you are my world Mbulelo
Her: what will I be without you??
Me: no what will I be without you Mma Brown ??
We both smiled and looked at our baby
Me: the parents told me we still have to name her.
She smiled
Her: yes, I couldn't do it without you
Me: she is the best gift I've ever received from you, she is my
blessing from God.
She chuckled
Her: I'm still waiting for the name Ntate Ngema
Me: Sphiwesihle Ngema
She smiled
Her: she is my hope, she gave me hope during the worst days of
my life. This here is my Hope.
I kissed her
Me: welcome to the world Sphiwesihle Hope Ngema😍😍.

Lelo

Few weeks later

" you two better be in your best behaviour" Mrs Ngema said as we
loaded our bags in Musa's car. We were going back to Varsity.
Esihle was gonna stay with her grandparents up until we find a
good honest nanny in Joburg. No offence but I wanted my baby to
grow right next to me. I wanted to watch her take her first step
and say her first word, but for now she was gonna spend the rest
of February with her grand parents.

Y'all be asking yourself what happened after all that witchcraft

chaos. Yes we broke the curse, it's was actually broken the
moment Musa almost lost his life for mine. It's was said that he
was supposed to die the moment he saved me but our love brang
him back to us.

" we are always at our best behaviour " Musa said. We kissed our
Hope and hugged the parents. For the first time I was happy, I
just hope this is the beginning of my heppiness, and that's its
never ends 😍

And yes I own all my dad's cars and two companies, the rest I
don't know what happened to them. And I'm a shareholder to
almost 8 companies because of my mother, people I'm rich... but
that doesn't make me happy. My heart and my hope does😍😍

The end.