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Almost Crying: The ‘Doll’ in Non-Fantasy Boys’ Love
In order to understand some of the specific affordances of the fantasy genre for BL, it is useful to compare Hybrid Child with a non-fantasy BL story with the same central ‘doll’ trope. Almost Crying by Mako Takahashi was first published in Japanese in 2002 and in English in 2006. It is a one-book manga consisting of eight separate stories all set in a seemingly contemporary Japan with improbable, but non-fantastical, plots. In Celluloid Closet , Takaido has lost his beloved doll and is overjoyed to find her in the Lily -look-a-like Sakurada.
Celluloid Closet: Sakurada and Takaido
No, not just like her. He is her! Ever since my Lily mysteriously disappeared from my closet, I’ve been searching for her! This is a fated reunion! Of course I had to hug her!
Sakurada has started working in a toy shop after school. Takaido comes in every restocking day to search the shelves. Sakurada asks if he is looking for something. To Sakurada’s horror, Takaido hugs him with joy: “Lily! I’ve finally found you!” A photo reveals that Sakurada does, indeed, look very like the lost Lily-doll and the security guard finds Takaido’s bag to be stuffed with toys: “They keep me from being lonely.” Takaido begins to work at the toy shop and is very attentive to Sakurada. Sakurada is annoyed but tolerates his ministrations, although this does not include wearing a Lily outfit that Takaido brings to work. Sakurada is overjoyed when he finds that the Lily-doll is being re-released and Takaido tries to be happy when he is told the news. However, Sakurada begins to feel despondent that he was “just a substitute for the doll” and begins to cold-shoulder Takaido. Takaido forcible carries Sakurada to his house where Sakurada discovers that Takaido has already found his Lily-doll but has not stopped loving him. Sakurada then accepts that they have a relationship. However he still refuses to wear Lily clothes.
The paranoid-schizoid position – stuck in a ‘good’ place
Whereas the Hybrid Child stories can be viewed as explorations of the depressive position, Celluloid Closet can be understood as a parody of a relationship founded on the paranoid-schizoid functioning of one partner. Young children’s object relations are often facilitated by a ‘transitional object’ – usually a blanket, doll, or soft toy - which acts as an intermediary between their internal good object and developing, more realistic but also increasingly, ambivalent relationships with external whole objects (Winnicot, 1964). Older children and adults can continue to use a transitional object invested with the qualities of the ‘loved object’ to provide reassurance, required less with increasing integration of a good object within the ego. Takaido’s Lily-doll appears to be such a transitional object.
What is unusual about this scenario is that, when Takaido misplaces Lily, he transfers the projection onto a stranger with similar physical characteristics in a particularly distorting way such that “the early primitive ideal is clung to, controlled and transfixed in its primitive, all-giving form in order to avoid reality” (Likierman, 2001, p.96). This is an extreme defence against depressive integration of good and bad part-objects and Takaido wards-off the loneliness of the ‘loss of the loved object’ through clinging to paranoid-schizoid forms of relating. Sakurada at first rejects the projection, then tolerates it, and eventually is worn down by the intensity of Takaido’s passion. Circumstances provide Takaido the opportunity to mature through developing an intense relationship with a person whose agency might catalyse modification of unconscious phantasy in the direction of more reality-based relating. However, the story ends with Takaido still largely unable to distinguish Sakurada from his internal loved object and omnipotent disavowal of his separate existence.