Objectives. This article presents a detailed idiographic analysis of patients' experience of first-episode depression. Design. This is a qualitative interview study using interpretative phenomenological analysis (IPA). Methods....
moreObjectives. This article presents a detailed idiographic analysis of patients' experience of first-episode depression. Design. This is a qualitative interview study using interpretative phenomenological analysis (IPA). Methods. Semi-structured interviews were carried out with a purposive sample of seven patients presenting to a mental health service in London, UK with symptoms of first-episode major depression. There were four males and three females; mean age was 44 years. Interviews were audio-recorded and subjected to IPA. Results. Participants described a significant loss event prior to onset of depression. The depression involved a major diminishing of the life-world with relational, corporeal, and temporal depletion. This depletion was accompanied in each case by occasional extreme emotions, frenzied thoughts, confused sense of self. Conclusions. Depression can represent a major existential threat to the sufferer. We discuss how our findings can illuminate the extant literature. The study suggests the value of exploring these existential features in early therapy. Practitioner points Offers a detailed phenomenological analysis of core experiential features of first episode depression: being alone, being empty, life is over. Also reveals an unstable dynamic of major psychological depletion interrupted by emotional and cognitive agitation involving confusion, lack of confidence, and/or trust. Provides rationale and material for intensive exploration of these features in therapy. As a first step in describing and conceptualizing depression, texts in psychology often present a standard list of common features (see, e.g., Hammen & Watkins, 2008). Depression is said to involve feelings of sadness, of being 'empty', and loss of interest. There are negative cognitions concerning the self, the world, and the future, and there may be a sense of hopelessness. Sometimes there are distortions in thinking or difficulties in concentration. Sufferers may show behaviours of withdrawal from others and former