Location via proxy:   [ UP ]  
[Report a bug]   [Manage cookies]                
Everand Logo

Welcome to Everand!

  • Discover millions of ebooks, audiobooks, and so much more with a free trial

    From $11.99/month after trial. Cancel anytime.

    Grief, Loneliness, and Redemption . . . Sorta
    Grief, Loneliness, and Redemption . . . Sorta
    Grief, Loneliness, and Redemption . . . Sorta
    Ebook159 pages57 minutes

    Grief, Loneliness, and Redemption . . . Sorta

    By Bill Jacobks

    ()

    Read preview

    About this ebook

    Grief throws one down into a pit that seems to have no exit. Emotions, violent emotions of loss, loneliness, and grief assault one. Sometimes one can only endure them and cry, no, sob. Sometimes one can laugh at them through ones tears. Thats what these poems are about: laugh, cry, endure, go on to the next day and the next attack of grief. The only hope is hope itselfraw, naked, confusing, terrifying, and ultimately supportive. Read, cry, laugh, cry, and go on living. So it is.
    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherXlibris US
    Release dateSep 20, 2017
    ISBN9781543451559
    Grief, Loneliness, and Redemption . . . Sorta
    Author

    Bill Jacobks

    Bill Jacobks was native of Chicago, then Austin, Tx where he went to graduate school at the University of Texas in history and political science. He and his wife moved to Muskegon, Mi. where he taught at Muskegon Community College and where his wife was Assistant Financial Aid Director. While at MCC he went to St. John’s Graduate Institute in Santa Fe, NM and received a degree, Master of Liberal Arts. He is retired. His wife died in 2017 and these poems and three other books of poems are the attempt to find a new life without her.

    Read more from Bill Jacobks

    Related to Grief, Loneliness, and Redemption . . . Sorta

    Related ebooks

    Poetry For You

    View More
    View More

    Related podcast episodes

    Related articles

    • UNLIMITED

      The Most Powerful Words

      May 28, 2021

      The Most Powerful Words
      6 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      Learning to Grieve

      Sep 1, 2020

      Learning to Grieve
      9 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      Love Letters

      Mar 7, 2022

      MY BELOVED ANGEL, I am nearly mad about you, as much as one can be mad: I cannot bring together two ideas that you do not interpose yourself between them. I can no longer think of nothing but you. In spite of myself, my imagination carries me to you.

      5 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      The Last hang Over

      Jan 18, 2024

      The Last hang Over
      7 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      Love. Loss. Weakness. Shame.

      Feb 9, 2023

      Love. Loss. Weakness. Shame.
      7 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      Being My Own Best Friend

      Nov 30, 2023

      Being My Own Best Friend
      5 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      Give Me Your Pain: One Man’s Quest to Bear the Pain of Others’ and Heal His Own

      Aug 23, 2020

      — Usually, people think that I’m a strong, happy person…but behind my smiles they just don’t know how much I’m in pain and almost broken…” Pain. How can a person understand life when life was crushed before living it? And what about the crude impact

      6 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      Poetic Licence

      Apr 6, 2024

      There is something about experiencing a tragedy at a young age that changes everything, down to your core beliefs. Thank goodness I blacked out. Forgetting the sound of metal scraping against rocks, the smell of burning rubber and the screams that fi

      2 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      Four Poems

      Nov 1, 2022

      Day after Thanksgiving. I give thanks for Eveto beat the rush of appreciating hernext year and let her sleep inuntil three hundred o’clock.Thank you light on the mountainfor being my star on cloudy nights.Thank you all the guns I’ve never ownedand ki

      6 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      My Shadow Self

      Aug 31, 2018

      My Shadow Self
      3 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      Glennon Doyle On New Beginnings

      Jan 5, 2022

      The moment I met my wife, Abby, my entire being said: There She Is. It was like the voice that was becoming clearer and louder ever since I got sober 15 years earlier had finally shouted. When I met Abby, it was just weeks before Love Warrior – my me

      4 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      Let The Right One In

      Aug 3, 2021

      Let The Right One In
      4 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      Cleo Sol & Inflo in conversation

      Dec 4, 2023

      Inflo: What's your first memory of feeling true joy? Cleo Sol: I remember starting year 7, putting my outfit out the night before and walking by myself to school in the morning feeling really excited about my newfound independence. I: And when did yo

      3 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      Human

      Feb 2, 2023

      Human
      2 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      Explore The Past

      Sep 1, 2020

      What’s Johnny Depp fighting for? Injustice? Drugs? His ex-wife? No, he’s searching for approval from his father, which he certainly didn’t get in his last life. Then, he was Alexei, first born son of Peter the Great, who actually tortured his own son

      2 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      Shape of You

      May 6, 2019

      Shape of You
      7 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      Hooked On A FEELING

      Feb 16, 2021

      Hooked On A FEELING
      4 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      Out Of The DARKNESS

      Oct 25, 2024

      Out Of The DARKNESS
      3 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      You Talkin’ To Me?

      Jun 25, 2021

      IN THE CROSSHAIRS THIS MONTH RICHARD ARMITAGE Are you talkin’ to me? I am talking to you. If I’m perfectly honest, I’d rather be face to face, because I’m sick of Zoom. I went back to work on the show that I’m on at the moment, for Netflix. The first

      3 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      Helping Hands

      Jan 24, 2020

      Helping Hands
      4 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      I Let My Heart Break

      Jul 23, 2024

      I Let My Heart Break
      4 min read

    • UNLIMITED

      I Let My Heart Break

      Jul 23, 2024

      I Let My Heart Break
      4 min read

    Related categories

    Reviews for Grief, Loneliness, and Redemption . . . Sorta

    0 ratings

    0 ratings0 reviews

    What did you think?

    Tap to rate

    Review must be at least 10 words

      Book preview

      Grief, Loneliness, and Redemption . . . Sorta - Bill Jacobks

      Grief, Loneliness

      Redemption…

      Sorta

      Bill Jacobks

      Copyright © 2017 by Bill Jacobks.

      Library of Congress Control Number:     2017914231

      ISBN:                    Softcover                      978-1-5434-5156-6

                                    eBook                           978-1-5434-5155-9

      All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system, without permission in writing from the copyright owner.

      Any people depicted in stock imagery provided by Thinkstock are models, and such images are being used for illustrative purposes only.

      Certain stock imagery © Thinkstock.

      Rev. date: 09/20/2017

      Xlibris

      1-888-795-4274

      www.Xlibris.com

      767843

      CONTENTS

      I. A RAW HEART

      Am I Mad or Sad?

      Not damned, but damned sad

      Arrested for Lapsed Grief

      II. MY HEART IS BLEEDING TO DEATH

      Opening Remarks:

      Before Being stabbed in the heart

      Lady Farewell

      Trying to heal the wound

      Need & Despair

      The journey, again

      My hair is a mess

      Goin’ out without a hat

      No end

      III. GRIEF, FRIENDS, AND MEDICINE

      A New Friend

      When The Holy Breaks In

      Friends In Grief

      The Medics: Friends

      The Taste Of Tears

      The Gift Of Grief

      How Odd The Holy Spirit

      Listening To C & W

      Life The Uroborous

      Dr. Grief Wins

      Poker With God

      Grief Relief

      IV. TALKIN’ TO GOD WHEN I AM DRUNK

      Do you get drunk, God?

      Another drink with God

      Oh God, please talk to me.

      I Sent a Balloon to God

      V. SUPPLICATION AT JOE’S BAR AND GRIEF IN GROUPS

      Supplication At Joe’s Bar

      Grieving In Groups

      VI. ANXIETY’S CHILD: STORY OF A NON-BIRTH

      VII. I WANT TO BE A WOMAN: STORY OF A LOST SOUL

      VIII. THE DOCTOR TOLD ME MY HEART WAS TOO BIG

      I. A Raw Heart

      Endorsements in Lieu of a Preface¹

      The world owes you no pleasure, love, or honor. We are guests here and must respectfully and humbly act in gratitude. From: The Secret Book of Angels, Chapter LXI, p XIX.

      Before television, we had words. From The Book of River Elders, p XXI.

      You don’t needs guns, you have words. Ibid.

      I saw a grieving heart, and my heart broke. From, The Lost Speeches of Tutankhamen, p IX

      Grief breaks your heart so that you can feel human: anger, desire, love. From The Book of the

      River Goddess, p CXIX.

      Some days are diamonds

      Some days are stone

      Can’t get those bad days to leave me alone

      Uh huh… Uh huh… Oh Yeah

      All alone

      No one home

      Since you went away

      I do this and I do that

      But I don’t know where I’m at

      Some days are diamonds

      Some days are stone

      Got no one to love

      Just a little grace from above

      Don’t know if I’ll love again

      All it does is rain

      Some days are diamonds

      Some days are stone

      Can’t get those bad days to leave me alone

      Uh huh …Uh huh… Oh Yeah

      Ok…Ok…Ok

      Say it over and over.

      May be you’ll believe it.

      But, I don’t.

      Yet, I have no choice.

      So I say with a broken voice.

      Ok…Ok…Ok…

      Chocolate doesn’t help.

      Food’s lost its taste.

      Wine just makes me dizzy.

      I to turn to prayer,

      And find some relief.

      Still, there is always grief.

      Hershey help me!

      Cheeseburgers rescue me!

      God forgive me!

      Tears dribble down my cheek.

      The hole gets bigger.

      Tried to fill it in

      But the dirt just slipped through

      To another universe.

      The hole stays empty

      Can’t fill it in.

      I put on my shoe

      Don’t know what else to do.

      Get dressed!

      Nothin’ else to do.

      Pretend its alright.

      But inside is night.

      Just do!

      Something will turn right.

      But inside is night.

      Where is the joy

      That used to be?

      All is sadness.

      Heart is broken.

      How to dispel this madness.

      I’m getting better.

      A little lie never hurt,

      Did it?

      Now be honest.

      Are you up to par?

      No?

      Just smile.

      May be it’ll get better.

      My grief tears me apart.

      Lord, put me back together.

      I am like a puzzle.

      Fit the pieces in the proper place.

      For you know me better than I know me.

      I count on you, Lord.

      To whom shall turn if not you?

      The learned of the Academy know only the sharp edges.

      They measure them.

      They Catalogue them.

      They write about them.

      But they do not know how to put them back together.

      Like

      Enjoying the preview?
      Page 1 of 1